A New Story (sort of!)

As you might already know, I'm an irregular member of the SOL.net discussion group over at Google Groups. Recently one of my fave authors ever, Rache, posted a topic there called "Add-a-Scene". In it she asked the group's members to add a scene to a little story she was writing.

I did add to it and it was fun (until someone ruined my contribution! Grrr). I thought it was such a good idea, though, that I created my own thread called "add-a-scene II". Since then I've been adding to this little story a lot... basically I just wait for someone to update the story (even if it's just with a sentence!) and then I go crazy writing additions to it (it's amazing how many words I can write when I don't care about little things like "spelling" and "grammar"!).

The story is called "Carefree Again" and it's about a 34-year-old woman who wakes up one morning as a 13-year-old child. So far her boyfriend (David) and her daughter, and son (16-year-old Jessie and 13-year-old George) have made appearances in this sordid little tale. But it's just getting warmed up! :P

Anyway, I'm having a lot of fun working on this little "story in progress". I was hoping that some fans of my site might show an interest, too, and add a word or two to this story. Check out the thread and if it interests you at all, definitely add something! It's sort of a round-robin/community work hybrid and it's fun and cool (I hope!).

Comments appreciated!

-shannon-

P.S. On an unrelated topic, I've been trying to get an invitation code for Demonid.com since the Pirate Bay was sold... and no luck! Grrr... if you can send me a code I'll thank you with a reasonable suggestion of your choice! (i.e. uploaded files, a personal story, etc.). Thanks in advance!!!! //UPDATE!!! Thanks to everyone who sent me an invitation! I already joined the site thanks to "Rain" so the rest of the codes have been deleted/ignored... but thanks for thinking of me!

Stupid Question

I'm going on a date on Saturday with a guy I met totally randomly at a bookstore near my house. I was killing time after a jog and I *love* how the huge store allows people to read books without buying them, so I bought a cup of iced coffee and sat down and started reading "From Hell" in the store's cafe area.

Anyway, this random stranger came up to me and said, "Oh, you like Alan Moore?"

I had no idea who Alan Moore was! But this guy was so cute and obviously flirting, so I said, "Sure do!"

We talked for nearly an hour with me neatly deflecting all questions about Moore away. Finally he asked if I wanted to "get together" on Saturday. He joked that we could talk about the "Watchmen" movie.

I've never seen it. But I lied, during our conversation, and said I had.

So now I sort of have a problem! Except for the trailers I've recently watched online, I know *nothing* about the movie. I was only reading "From Hell" in the cafe because it had been left on the table! But now this guy thinks I'm all into Alan Moore. Ugh!

Basically I either need to keep up my lies, which I'm not sure I can do, or come clean with him and admit that I know nothing about comic books/graphic novels/whatever.

After he left, btw, I went and bought the Watchmen graphic novel (it was on sale at the store!). I'm about a third of the way through, and it's pretty entertaining! That was my plan for knowing what to talk about on Saturday, though... my entire plan. The problem is, I just did some searches on the Internet, and it turns out the movie is a LOT different.

So here's my stupid question: can anyone tell me what's different from the movie versus the book? Better yet, is there anyway I can download this movie now so I can actually watch it first? It's no longer playing anywhere near me (I just checked) and the DVD doesn't come out until July.

Please don't tell me that I should just tell him the truth. I already know that I should. But it's too early in our relationship for "truth". :P

-shannon-

~really likes this guy~

2008 Golden Clitorides Awards

If you don't know what the Golden Clitorides Awards are, think of them as the Academy Awards for erotic fiction. They're been around for... well, forever, it feels like! My interest in following them has always varied because frankly some years the people running them don't do a very good job. Overall, though, I always sort of consider the winning stories and authors "must reads" in the weeks and months following the Golden Clitoride winners' announcements (usually in February). For this year, Lazeez of Storiesonline.net is running the show so I think it will be a good year for the awards and maybe the start of some stability. You can read Lazeez's thoughts about the project here. You can even offer suggestions.

Nominations for Golden Clitorides are now being accepted for stories posted in 2008. Today I received an e-mail from a fan asking me which categories he thought he should nominate my short story, "Family Honor" since he really liked it. Below is my response:

First of all, thank you for wanting to nominate my story! I suppose the best categories "Family Honor" qualifies for would be:

Short Erotic Story of the Year

Heterosexual Story of the Year

Voyeur/Exhibitionist Story of the Year

I'm posting this reply publicly because I was hoping anyone else who loved that story would follow suit and nominate it for the same three categories. Of course, if you read a story that fell into, say "Heterosexual Story of the Year" and liked it better than FH, nominate it for that category instead. Or nominate both, who cares? :P My point is that if you liked "Family Honor" for one of those three categories (or two, or all three!) then definitely nominate. 

If you read the rules about the nomination process you'll see there's nothing wrong with nominating a story multiple times, or nominating several stories for the same category. So go! Nominate your favorite stories and authors! For us anonymous authors of online erotica they basically mean nothing, but they're fun to win. You know, bragging rights and such. :P

By the way? I would sure like to win one of these awards someday. More than that, though, I'd *love* for the awards to become stable under Lazeez's rule. It truly is a huge job to coordinate such an effort so if you have the time, energy, and/or interest, definitely check out the post I mentioned earlier where s/he discusses wanting to improve the contest. Think about it, let it percolate, then made some suggestions and/or volunteer your help in the comments section. Tell them Shannon sent you. :P

-shannon-

~watches the Academy Awards every year~

Thanks! (XMas Wishlist Update)

Okay, so some awesome people gave me some awesome gifts from my wishlist so I think it's time to shut it down for now (I don't want all of you going broke buying me memberships... what if I go dry again in the future? :P). A very special Christmas Thank You to...

1.) Real_Harry_DaMour who, as he has in the past, once again set up a really neat way for me to d/l files from his collection. Harry, you rule!

2.) Buck for also coming up with a clever way for me to find oodles of porn! Don't worry, I won't use up all your credits... I simply don't have enough hard-drive space. :P Buck, you're awesome!

3.) Ballio for buying me a six month membership to SexAndSubmissions.com!!! It was the first and only gift I received that was actually on my list and for that he gets a hug in addition to a reward. Not that there's anything wrong with the other gifts, it's just... I really wanted a membership to that site. :P Ballio is coolio. 

4.) "Jon Doe" for giving me his u/n and p/w to not one, but two paid sites! I haven't actually used the sites yet, but it seems to me that he knows what I like (a cursory glance of them reveals as much!). "Jon Doe", you rock the world around me! (*note: I literally just got these memberships and haven't had time to ask what he wants me to call him here; I'll edit this post with the alias of his choice when he e-mails me back).

Anyway, in addition to all the really nice gifts above I also received a ton of well-wishers, suggestions for how to find free porn, and other nice e-mails. To all of you who wrote and e-mailed, please know that you really lifted my spirits (and tingled some... other areas...!). I really love it when the site's fans reveal how generous, intelligent, and appreciative the majority of you are of what I do here. It keeps me going so thanks so much!

Lol... one person (Harry, I'm looking in your direction) said in his first e-mail about the wishlist:

I was distressed to learn this morning that you have found yourself lacking in inspiration and needing a fix of some really filthy porn.  You have but to ask, shannon.

Others shared his sentiments, obviously, as illustrated above. But I hate coming across as a whiny, nagging bitch. This site is supposed to be 100% free. It will remain so, of course, but in the future if I get desperate for new porn again I promise I'll be a little more assertive with the whole "asking" thing. Just let me know (as nicely as possible) if I ever get annoying about it. :P

-shannon-

P.S. Yes, I'm still working on Daddy's Firm Ch. 5 and I'm making progress with it! I guarantee it'll be posted before the year is over and I'm 90% sure it will be up by Christmas. Sorry for the delay but for those of you who like the story, trust me, it will be worth it to have it done right!

Daddy's Firm 5 will be late, plus Wishlist!

First off, Daddy's Firm Part 5 will be late. Sorry! I'm working on it, I really am, but it's taking longer than excpected. I want to make sure it's perfect before I post. I should have it done soon... promise! Once it's finished I swear I'll post it here. Stay tuned!

Second, I've decided to do another Christmas Wish List. It's been 3 years since I did this because I hate asking for stuff from you, the great friends of this site. But lately I've been totally without good "inspiration" and I can't afford to buy it for myself. Times are tough, you know? Argh. But "inspiration" helps me write, you know? Shrugs...

Anyway, like I said, back in 2005 I posted a blog entry where I listed several websites I really wanted a membership to. That blog entry is gone for some reason (I probably deleted it out of embarrassment... like I said, I *hate* asking for stuff!) but you can read my "thank you" post here. 

Three years have passed... ugh. I feel so old. :( But still, now more than ever, I have the need for good porn. You have no idea how much it helps me with my stories... sigh. 

So I promise you this: if you buy me a membership to any of the following sites, I'll give you one of the following three things:

1.) A one-on-one cyber sex chat, no holds barred. Max 1 hour. I haven't cybered in forever, so that might be a lot of fun...!

2.) The uncompleted (so far) draft of Trailer Trash Teen chapter 12. 

3.) A really unsexy picture of myself. A real one. But I will block my face out in the picture, and it won't be worth it. Trust me, you should ask for 1 or 2 instead.

So, what's on my wishlist this year? Here we go!

1.) http://biohazarduncensored.com/ 

2.) http://www.sexandsubmission.com/

3.) http://www.deluxepass.com/

4.) Any site you wish to share!

Contact me if you are willing and able to fulfill any of my wishes on this year's Christmas list... if you can and do, it will be greatly appreciated. Trust me, I use all "inspiration" to help me with my stories, plus I'm sort of lonely right now and desperate for reliable means of getting off... :P

Thanks in advance! 

//update! Please make sure to *ask* me first before going out and buying me a membership somewhere... so far everyone has but I'd feel bad if I ended up getting a membership to a site someone else has already gotten me. I'll update this page if and when I do get some of the memberships, though (so far, not much luck!). Thanks again everyone!

-shannon-

Inspiration and Such

So the whole thing about Suburban Girl Chapter 7 sort of had a backlash-- after I posted about how most of the responses I was getting were from racist readers, I got a ton of positive responses from people who (rightly!!) think those people are morons! So yay, it turns out my reading audience isn't entirely made up of ignorant assholes...! :P

Moving on, I spent the last few days on yet another quasi-vacation with Beth. It went well, for the most part, except that she tried to force me to write whenever we were bored. She'd say, "Write for the next thirty minutes; get me hot; I'll be back soon." And I *know* I could have done that very, very easily except one of her rules was that I had to be adding to a story (either posted or not) I was already working on. Argh.

In the end it sort of worked. I made some progress with SG8, among other things. Still, I kept telling her that if she *really*! wanted me to make headway with these "projects" she'd let me spend my time browsing for some raunchy porn first. That *always* inspires me, you see? But she was, as always, against it, for two reasons. First, she believes that her sexiness should be all the inspiration I need when we're alone and on vacation together. Shrugs. Second, she pays the one credit card I just recently acquired (to help "build up" my credit), and one of the rules is that I can't spend anything on porn sites. And she gets the bills... grrr.

Which sucks! But then again, I see her point.

Anyway, she suggested I use my free time (i.e. time not spent with her... like right now!) to do my searching for free-porn/inspiration. So I am. But since I'm too tired to *really* try, I'm just asking all of you! Again, this was sort of her suggestion, I guess, but... argh! I hate homework assignments.

What I'm looking for is a site with videos like FacialAbuse.com. Or GirlsBoardingSchool.com. Or YoungPorn.net. Not those sites exactly, mind you... if you read my forum, you know I've been there, done that! In fact, some awesome fans of this site (you know who you are by now!) have kept me hooked up with some of those sites... but unfortunately, sites like that rarely update (how dare they?!? :P), and I've seen most of the vids on them by now.

I really need some good recommendations for other good, hard-core sites! You know... either raunchier than FacialAbuse, or less annoying than YoungPorn, or less pretentious than GirlsBoardingSchool... if you know this site and my stories, you know what I'm looking for, I think!

I so, so, so hate begging like this. For porn, I mean. Long time fans of this site will know this. But still... if you have any recommendations, or any ideas; any suggestions or any thoughts along this topic, I'd appreciate it if you let me know. Please keep in mind when you contact me that my budget, as laid out by Beth (mixed thoughts on that, here, btw), precludes me paying for a site. I mean, don't let that stop you from saying, "Wow, you would love this awesome, nasty, hard-core site, if you could afford it!"... but I would really rather you could both suggest it and provide me access to it for free.

Darn it!

I feel like such a whore making this post. This is not the first time but darn it again... I hate feeling this way. Sort of begging for free stuff. I hate that. I hate charity. It comes up constantly in my fights with Beth... I'll say no more right now. But you get the idea. Sigh....

Oh, one last thing. Beth is no longer my only regular lover. A man I will call "Simon" hooks up with me on a regular basis, now, too. This is a recent development, and I would talk more about it but I am so tired. I will let you know three things, though: Beth knows about him; she introduced me to him; and he knows *nothing* about this site. I don't give that information freely.

Sometimes I wish I'd never given that information to her. I know she'll read this, but she'll understand. The point of this site was so that I could just talk about my dark side, my nasty side, my embarrassing side. Letting her know about all this... part of me wants to cry.

Argh.

<--- me crying right now. Sort of. Kind of. I love her, though, I really do!

It's just sex with him, btw. The sex is great, I won't lie... he makes me feel young again, the way he treats me... I feel like a little girl again. Maybe I make myself feel that way with him. I've been with guys his age before (I think) but... shudder. He's just so cool about it.

Enough for now. Oh, except to say that yes, I still dance; yes, I still want to go back to school if I can ever get my act together; and yes, I'm still working on TTT and SG and a ton of other things. I've been writing a TON lately. It's the sex-scenes that keep killing me. Whenever I re-read them they just aren't hot. Orgasms in real life are so, so much different than orgasms received via porn. I guess that's why I've always loved and needed certain inspirations...! :P

At the same time... and I don't care if Beth reads this since I know she will... he satisfies me with something no woman ever could. It doesn't mean I love her less. It doesn't! I really do love her! If I wanted to cheat on her with someone, believe me, I could! Given my job, my online "Shannon" persona, etc... I could so do it. But she let me hook up with him.

I've never lied to her. About all that. I won't say I haven't lied to you, Beth... I can't say that. Argh.

I only ever lie to the people I love.

-shannon-

P.S. If you want to read a good sex-story, check out Rache's "Girl Fag" on SOL.net. I would never have recommended it before (even though I love her writing!) except that she's been re posting the whole thing just recently... and now it's a lot better!

P.P.S. I love Beth. I really do, with all my heart and in more ways than I can ever communicate via text like this. I say this not because I know you will read this tomorrow but because it really is true.

"Beth", you knew how fucked up I was when we first got together.

Wanted: A TTT Superfan to Help with Latest Chapter

Shannon Needs Help!
Believe it or not, I'm back to work on my first story, Trailer Trash Teen! I got inspired when Beth suggested that if I read through the nine (count them: nine full-length) different versions of chapter 12 I've already written, and cherry-picked some stuff from each that I actually liked, then cemented it all together and finally wrote the ending I've always envisioned (a scene that sets up the actual ending of the entire story), maybe I could finally move past this devilish chapter. So I took her advice, and guess what? I think she's on to something! The version of chapter 12 I'm working on now is exactly what I think the story always needed. It's a critical chapter which is why I've never posted any of the former versions (they just didn't "feel" right after I wasted tons of time writing them). Anyway, what would be really really really helpful would to have a sort "research assistant" for this chapter (and further chapters, probably, too). This person would read drafts of TTT12 for me, look for inconsistencies with the rest of the story, etc. Beth is too busy to do it and me? Well, if I keep stopping to go re-read chapters and/or search for minutiae I'll never get it done. Or I'd get lazy and get it wrong. So, without further ado, here's the job-posting! :P

Trailer Trash Teen Superfan / Research Assistant
A TTT Superfan / Research assistant will know the TTT story inside and out. Duties will include reading through drafts of Shannon's current incarnation of TTT Ch. 12 and spotting/noting anything in conflict with earlier chapters; pointing out inconsistencies in characters or emotions; suggesting alternate ways to write a scene/paragraph/sentence in order for it to be more in keeping with the previous chapters; dealing with Shannon's wrath when a suggestion is angrily rejected. :P

Excellent English is required.

Education Required:
HS Diploma or equivalency required. Some college preferred.

Job Title: TTT Superfan / Research Assistant

Primary Skills: Candidates MUST have experience with word-processing programs; intimate knowledge of Google Docs is preferred (though, if you know Word, you know Docs). Obsessive attention to detail required. Intimate knowledge of the first eleven chapters of TTT required. Candidates should be able to answer, as they read this, the following questions without having to look it up: Who did Tina fuck in chapter two (hint: darkroom)? What is Tina's uncle's name? Who is Tina's boss?

Hours: Ideal candidate will check their e-mail at least twice a day and respond within 24 hours after any draft is shared. Ideal candidate will have a Google Talk account as that is Shannon's primary means of chatting.

Salary: Shannon's undying love and affection. Perhaps a special title in the forum. A thank-you at the end of the chapter if and when it is finally posted. Bragging rights. :P

Experience Minimum: Candidate will have read all of TTT at least once. Unless they have a photographic memory, candidate will have read it several times or will do so before applying.

To apply: To apply for this opportunity please contact me via e-mail. Explain to me why you would be the perfect person for this job. Remember that I'm looking for someone who is basically the equivalent of a Trekker: only instead of Star Trek, your obsession has to be TTT! :P

Thanks! Btw, I'll update this post if or when I've found my person (and I'll note it at the very top).

One last thing: I am not looking for an editor. An editor would be someone who has studied English extensively; if you look at the requirements listed above you'll see I didn't ask for that. What I want is a hard-core TTT fan! To the extent that English is important, the candidate should at least know the difference between their/there/they're; your/you're; and to/too/two. That's all I ask! :)

Will You Vote?

It's Super Tuesday!!!

Will you vote? And if so, will you vote for Barack Obama in the Democratic primary? You can if you live in one of the following Super Tuesday states:

Alabama, Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, California, Colorado,
Connecticut, Delaware, Georgia, Idaho, Illinois, Kansas, Massachusetts, Minnesota, Missouri, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, North Dakota, Oklahoma, Tennessee, Utah.

And if you do, and swear to me here via a comment to this post that you did or are going to, I will make the following unprecedented promise: I will post a picture of myself. To this blog. For all to see.

But I have to receive at least 20 such comments by 8pm Tuesday night, eastern time. And for a comment to count it has to include which state you are from and a promise, on whatever Bible you believe in, that you're telling the truth.

Get up and vote!!! My life doesn't have to be the life of future generations. We can aspire to more. Vote Barack in 2008!

/rant

-shannon-

Why I Love ASSTR.org

I've been reading erotica for a long time. A very long time. Almost the majority of my life, in fact, has been spent reading the works of Réage, Nabokov, Alexander, and the less haughty yet more viceral online works of writers such as Dark Dreamer, Dr. Wu, and Emerson Laken-Palmer. This latter group, the online-only authors, are the ones this post is about.

A little website called ASSTR.org introduced me to them. I was reading erotica before discovering ASSTR, but it wasn't until finding that website some time in my 16th year of age that I really began to realize how good amateur writers could be. ASSTR collected their stories and provided personal webpages for them to dissiminate their works. I don't think more than a week has gone by since the first time I discovered ASSTR that I didn't visit it.

Fans of this site will know that I became obsessed with a certain collector on that site, a young woman a couple years older than me who ran a collection/review site. After she disappeared and took her site with her, I remained an avid ASSTR fan. After some time had passed I set out to pick up her fallen torch and create my own collection and review site. I decided to call it "Forbidden Fantasies" and I knew there was but one place to host it. ASSTR.

Just over five years have passed since then and I have never regretted my decision to be a part of the ASSTR.org community. It's true that I made a couple attempts to make my own site, with my own domain, a site that would be for-profit. Both of those attempts failed. And when I went crawling back to ASSTR they welcomed me back with open arms.

In recent posts to this blog I wondered whether or not ASSTR was going away. I feared in a very public manner that ASSTR would soon disappear and with it, this website. That was all paranoia, people!! ASSTR.org is here to stay. And we are all very, very lucky that this is true! Fans of erotica around the world should unite in celebration that the brave and humble administors of the non-profit erotica collection site that is ASSTR are more than just alive. They are strong. And they are as determined as ever that their site should continue on well into the future.

I've come to this conclusion after a series of e-mails from the site's administrators. They have assured me that ASSTR is alive and well. Theirs is not a forgotten website staring into the abyss. No, they work almost daily to keep it up, keep it moving, keep it evolving. I was stupid to think otherwise. I know that now! And I am so, so sorry that I ever questioned them about that!

They can do even more with your help.

ASSTR has supported my little site for years. And as I've said many times before, by supporting them you are supporting me. I won't receive any cash or other form of compensation, of course. ASSTR is a not-for-profit orgainization. But the money you give them, no matter the amount, helps to pay their expenses to run their site ad-free. It helps them to upgrade equipment and provide more resources for contributors such as myself.

When you donate to ASSTR.org you are, in a sense, donating directly to me. Because without ASSTR.org there would be no Forbidden Fantasies. And without Forbidden Fantasies, well... we've already determined that I need this blog. This page. This site!

Please support ASSTR.org. Donate here, today, right now. They take donations online or via postal mail. And tell them Shannon sent you when you do! Just to make me look cool... :P

And please post your testimonials below about why you also love asstr, or why you donated, at least. If I don't get ten comments by Wednesday I'm going to cry, cry, cry! :(

-shannon-

Some Important Site News

A couple things to report regarding this site and its forum. This is important, people, so please read!!! :) !

1.) ASSTR.org, the host for this site, has been unresponsive lately to questions I e-mail them. I just figured out why the updates I was making to my collection, etc. weren't showing up, but I had to do that on my own, and I got lucky (remember back in September, when I couldn't get Suburban Girl to show up? They never wrote me back about that! Grrr). Anyway, I'm worried about the future of ASSTR.org. Accordingly I've created a backup blog via Blogger.com (the site I use to publish these updates). I encourage all of you to remember this URL: http://shannonsforbiddenfantasies.blogspot.com/. If for whatever reason ASSTR.org ever disappears, that will be where I republish all of my site's content. You might want to remember this URL, too: http://21363.rapidforum.com/. That's the Forbidden Forum, and if ASSTR.org ever goes down you'll need to know that direct link in order to reach it...

2.) Speaking of the forum, cool news! Because Spencer (probably the bestest friend this site has ever had and the creator of the Forbidden Forum) is now officially MIA, I've finally taken it upon myself to figure out how to mess with the nuts and bolts of the Forbidden Forum. As a result, HTML code can now be entered in postings in the Porn Posting Fun section. What does that mean? You can now embed video from YouTube, PornoTube, etc.!!! Yay! I think this will set off a golden age for the Porn Posting Fun section of the forum... which will be neat! You can read more about that here.

3.) The Forbidden Forum. Yes, I know, those pop-ups are still showing up. Those are from RapidForum, the host of the forum, not me. I don't make a dime from them. Me and a couple fans of the site are trying to figure out how to get rid of them. Well, we know how: pay them money! But that's not the issue. There isn't much money involved. What matters is that the RapidForum people aren't returning our e-mails and their online payment web page doesn't load. Part of the problem is that the site is in German... if you know German, you might be able to help! Please contact me if you do!

That's all for know... oh, and just so you know, I'm ready to come out of my shell again. I'm working on a pretty big blog post that will give you all the updates of my personal life you've been waiting for... stay tuned! :P

-shannon-
~reminding you to save this URL and this URL in case my regular asstr.org site ever goes down!

Reccomendations: The Sequel!

After I made a post about reading "Long Fall to Forever", a story by Rache, a lot of you e-mailed me with other story recommendations. I ended up reading most, if not all, of them, and it was a lot of fun! There's nothing better than having someone who shares similar tastes suggest a new story, or author, or whatever. So that's why I'm posting this blog entry: to ask for more!

My question to you is this: what is your favorite online porn-story ever, and why?

Feel free to suggest anything. The story doesn't have to be of a forbidden genre although, of course, that's what I prefer. All I ask is that you provide a link and a short description of the story and why you like it. You don't have to write an essay: a simple "it's a hot story about this chick whose sister is a stripper" would be fine.

In my next blog entry (probably in about three weeks) I'll post the best recommendations here with my own thoughts included. You can make your recommendations by e-mailing me, posting a comment here, or by posting a reply to this thread on the forum.

Thanks in advance... oh, and happy new year!

I've been writing a lot lately. And I've come to the realization that I'm not a very good writer.

No, I'm not fishing for complements! I mean, this realization isn't exactly a shock to me. I've known for a long time that I have an ability to string words together, and that I can sometimes even get them to make sense. But I've known for years that when it comes to actual storytelling, my skills are woefully lacking, to say the least.

That never stopped me from wanting to write before. I always thought, "Keep writing and you'll get better." Sort of like exercising, I figured. So I told myself, "You're not going to see results right away, but if you just keep doing it eventually your stories will be amazing!".

The thing is, though, I exercise all the time. And my body stays fit. But I also write all the time, and my stories, well... they're not getting any better.

And that pisses me off. Because I read a lot. I love words, I love books! When I was dancing I was the only girl who read paperbacks during her breaks, because even in a dressing room at a strip club I couldn't resist the temptation to read. The other girls made fun of me sometimes for it, but that never bothered me. And to this day, I spend so much money on books it's stupid. So you would think that by now I would have learned how to craft a good story. I've read so many! But I clearly haven't.

A few weeks ago I realized that maybe I've been going about my writing the wrong way. Maybe I just assumed that since I knew the basics of English grammar, and was more less well read, I could become a good writer without ever having to actually study the craft. Yes, the craft! Don't giggle. Anyone who has ever tried to write fiction will understand me when I say writing is definitely a craft, a skill with rules that you need to master in order to be good at.

Unfortunately, though, I've only just realized this myself.

What if I had realized this back when I was going to college? If I had respected writing more, maybe I would have studied it. But it's too late for that now. Long time readers of this site will know that I can't afford college anymore. My college days are long gone and I have no degree. :( It's too late to go back and try to actually learn how to write.

I still think I could be a good writer, though. I have a ton of stories inside me-- I'm never lacking for ideas. I just lack the skill to tell my tales correctly.

So what should I do? For weeks now I've been obsessed with learning how to actually write good stories. I even checked out a book from the library (embarrassingly the book is intended for high-schoolers!) not long ago about the "essentials" of good fiction writing. Reading it has been an eye-opening experience but it's almost to much to bear! I'm so, so far behind the curve when it comes to writing good stories. Grr.

I need advice. I need help! College isn't an option but I have a lot to learn. Please, please... if anyone out there knows of a good book, or a good website, or a good... whatever! When it comes to the craft of writing, that is... if any of you reading this stupid little blog entry has a good idea of what I should do next in order to become a better writer, please tell me!!!

...and if you say, "Just keep writing" I'll kick you in the balls. :P

SG Chapter Two!

Well, this is when things get really nasty! ;)

As promised, Part Two of my newest story, "Suburban Girl" has been posted. Please head on over to storiesonline.net to see it (it should show up soon), or check it out on alt.sex.stories.moderated. I'd try posting it here to the site but since Part One still won't show up (and the admins at ASSTR.org haven't returned any of my e-mails asking why that is) I'm not going to bother right now.

Oh! And in anticipation of the high scores* you'll likely give my newest effort, here's another embedded movie! Can anyone see this, btw?! Sometimes they don't show up even for me, but sometimes they do. Shrugs! It's worth a try in any event...



-shannon-

*If you happened to notice a post I made late last night where I sounded very frustrated and angry (I also copied an entire chat I'd had with the person who had made me so upset), you didn't imagine it. Thing is, though, I didn't mean to post it. In fact, I didn't think I had until I saw it up this morning! I deleted it right away because it was written while I was very upset and, like I said, I thought I'd been smart and hit the "save now" button so I could review it after I calmed down. See, the guy I'd been chatting with had told me he was one of my biggest fans and all that, but then had gone on to say he gave my newest story bad scores. We got into a debate about that since I think fans of this site should give my stories all 10's on SOL to balance out the people who *hate* anything not "normal"... well, it's not worth going over again. Suffice it to say I regretted posting that message and it's gone now.

Triumphant Return?

Okay so maybe I jumped the gun a little when I said I needed to kill this website... I mean, where else am I going to be able to post new stories? :P

Maybe I'll go into more detail later about my failed attempt to try something new in order to make money (which had been my main reason for leaving this site). Right now I really don't want to talk about it. What I do want to talk about is my newest story, something I've been working on for a couple weeks and that I'm so excited about I actually decided to post it to the masses. It's called Suburban Girl and... well, I might as well just copy and paste my intro to the story I used for my post to ASSM. Here it is!

Author's Note: This story is heavily inspired by my personal favorite UseNet story of all time, "Farm Girl" by Dark Dreamer. It's not a retelling of that awesome tale, nor is it a sequel or anything like that. Rather it's sort of a re-imagining of Dark Dreamer's classic character, Becky, as told in my own words. I hope no one is going to consider this plagiarism. I have loved "Farm Girl" for more than a decade now, having first read it when I was a shy 13-year-old girl who knew little about erotica but became instantly hooked. I hope that this story serves as a tribute to Dark Dreamer's work.

Synopsis: In the suburbs of Cleveland, Ohio a young girl discovers that masturbation is a sin. But when she breaks a promise to God to stop her immoral actions she begins to see the Bible's list of sexual restrictions as her most basic and carnal desires. Because for this 13-year-old suburban girl, sin and her wanton sexual needs go hand in hand as she struggles to endure a body built for sex, abuse, and constant orgasm.

So where can you go to read this story? Well, I've only posted part one so far, but never fear part two is coming soon. And part three is almost done. That leaves four unwritten parts, I know, but I'm enjoying writing this so much I have every confidence I'll actually get it done! Uhm... don't look at me like that. Trailer Trash Teen is still in progress, too... argh. Anyway, to read this story simply mosey on over to my stories section. It should be posted there eventually (I've uploaded the files but ASSTR.org has very slow servers). You could also try searching for it on alt.sex.stories.moderated... again, I posted it there but the process of having new submissions show up is something like 48-hours. But do you want to know where you can get it right now?

Where you can read it at this very moment?

Where doing so would also be doing me a HUGE favor? :P

Head on over to www.storiesonline.net. If you haven't already, register for the site (it's free, and it's worth doing for more than just my stories... SOL.net hosts a TON of great works!). Then either do a "Quick Search" for "Suburban Girl" or just go to the author's link at the top of the main page, find my name (first click on the link "P" as in "Punky_Girl"), scroll down to my name (Punky_Girl!) then click on the link for "3 Stories" (because I have three stories hosted there right now). Sounds easy, right? It is, I just make it sound complicated... sorry!

"But Shannon!" I can hear you asking, "How does reading any of your stories on SOL.net help you?"

Simple. Because I can trust you, my loyal readers, to give my stories there good scores. At the end of every story SOL.net asks you to rate what you just read. But a lot of people don't like the genres I write in and so they give any stories that deal with themes such as incest or non-consensual sex pathetically low scores, generally 1's and 2's. The reason I know for a fact this is going on is because I get a lot of hate-mail through SOL.net, as have many other authors I've chatted with who post there. The hate mails are usually like, "dad fux his sleppin kid that sik i hope u die i gave it 1" (for the record, A Teen Slut's Saga still brings in the most hate mail... grr). Shrugs. Anyway, it'd be nice for a change if I had a story on there get a rating over 8.12 (that's what TTT has right now; A Teen Slut's Saga has a paltry 6.39).

So please! Even if you read my newest story somewhere else, do me a favor and go over to SOL.net and give it a 10! Better yet, do the advanced ratings option and give it a 10 in each category! Better still, after you've done that with Suburban Girl, head on over to my other two stories and try to prop their scores up a bit! I'm dying here, I'm dying!!! I just can't take the fact that my stories, while definitely not perfect, suffer these miserably low scores while pieces of shit, poorly written cookie cutter stories constantly score in the 9 to 10 range! It kills me, it kills me! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Sorry. Anyway, vote early and often. And as always, use the forum to discuss my newest story, or post a comment here, or if you're not feeling shy at all drop me an e-mail. Or just do all three. You'll make my day. Thanks!!!!!!

-shannon-