a SIMple life

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Hey everybody! No, I'm not smiling because my cable is back on (it's not). I'm not smiling because work is going well (it's not). I'm not smiling because life is getting better (it's not). Why am I smiling?

MY FRIEND BOUGHT ME THE SIMS 2 YESTERDAY!!!

I probably would have preferred it if he'd just given me $50, but you know... so what!? Without TV or Internet, Ive been bored *crazy*... but now I have The Sims 2 to play.

It is such an awesome game, let me say! I loved part 1, and 2 is like... ten times better. I'm totally addicted. It's so nice to control the lives of other people... it makes me feel powerful!

Anyone want to trade Sims 2 families? Let me know!

In other news... hm. I've been *lazy* for the last couple weeks when it comes to the website. I have done a ton of work for TTT, but everytime I sit down to write a flashback for the newsletter, I get all ADD. Sucks. But don't worry, eventually I'll do it...!

Okay, gotta run. Gotta get home and play more Sims! Later! :P

-shannon-

Time flies!

Wow, time sure does fly. I can't believe it's been eleven days since my last post... sorry!

I should explain, since you're all probably mad at me. Actually, first let me show you this-- there, that should make you less mad! :P

Anyway, about a week ago I woke up one morning, put on the coffee, lit up a cigarette, then fired up the TV to watch The Early Show before going to work. What did I get? Sigh. A big black screen. Nothing. Nada.

My fears were confirmed when I tried logging onto the internet-- my cable was shut off.

It's still not back on, either. Apparently I owe them a bunch of money, and I have literally none right now. I haven't been paid since I went on medical leave, and I won't get my first paycheck since coming back for another two weeks. I'm totally broke. It sucks! Thankfully right now my neighbor is out of town, and he said I could use his computer if I feed his cats. So that's why I'm online right now. But he gets back on Wednesday, so... I might end up trying to use the library, but I'm not sure. Shrugs. We'll see.

Justin and I have been hanging out a lot... well, not a lot, I guess, but I've been seeing him at least three times a week. Unfortunately, he has told me that he's "in love" with some woman from his work. He's a great guy and a lot of fun, but I'm starting to give up on him. I've been more... aggressive... with him than I've really ever been, and for what? Nothing! He has shown no interest at all in me! I think I've finally gotten past the "oh my god he doesn't want me so I so want him!" phase and into the "oh my god what a jerk" phase. I don't know.

This weekend was a lot of fun. Last night (Saturday) I went to a party just down the street from here, and I ended up hooking up with an old friend of mine, Carla, who just came back to town. She and I left the party with two guys, Rob and Tim, and went out to the lake. For the first time since high school, I went skinny-dipping there... it was one of those "summer-is-ending" things, you know? We made a fire on the shore of the small lake, drank some beer, swam... it was a lot of fun.

I know what you're thinking. You're thinking: "If Shannon was naked in front of two guys who were practically strangers, she must have done something sexual with one of them." Is that what you were thinking? You should be ashamed of yourself!!!

...actually, no, you shouldn't. Because I got laid!!! Outdoor sex is so weird, especially when you're a stone's throw away from two other people having outdoor sex (Carla and Rob). Tim was pretty good-- I think he was a couple years older than me, but he was really nervous at first. After we really got going, though, I was surprised by how good the sex was. Straight-up missionary-position, but the way he did it... well, it was like he was making love to me, you know? Gentle, caring... plus, he lasted long enough for me to cum. I guess it wasn't anything special (considering all the other things I've talked about on this page before!), but it felt somehow... romantic. I don't know, though. Tim isn't really my type, and I'm not sure I want it to turn into anything serious. But we are supposed to hang out tomorrow, so who knows?

I never like the guys who care about me. Have you noticed that?

Sigh. Okay, I better run. Oh! One thing I nearly forgot to mention! If you haven't signed up for this yet, you really should! My friend Dennis signed up, and I've just been blown away at how cool it is... it really is like NetFlix, except for porn! (Yes, I do get money if you sign up, but seriously, it does rock!)

Okay. I have to go. I'm working on some TTT updates and newsletter updates at home, and hopefully will have one or the other posted soon. Hopefully I get my own cable-internet back soon, so I can keep posting regular updates... who knows?

For all you lovers! :)

This one is dedicated to all you lovers out there!

...you do realize that I wouldn't post images like that if I didn't think they were of cute girls, right (i.e. I don't get money for that)? Speaking of which, I am *totally* kicking Spencer's ass in our competition... well, at least, in the last couple of entries. He kicked my behind in the first one. Oh well. Who cares if you win the battle if you lose the war? :P

I love this blog. I love posting in real time... just so you all know, I *do* read your comments! Both anonymous and registered, I love to read them! But like... I don't reply, only because... well, I should only reply here, you know? But keep the comments cumming! I love it. I do.

I've been watching a lot of porn lately. Maybe too much? Shrugs. All I know is that of all the porno gimmicky sites I've been to, this one is the absolute most legit. I will warn you, though: if you have roommates, do not sign up for this!!! Unless, duh, you don't care that they know you love porn. Because for porn-enthusiasts... well, this "service" is like a total godsend!

See... sigh. That's the thing for me. I do love porn. I love porn movies. I love porn stories, and images, and everything. I probably have an addiction problem to it. In fact, I really do. It would be best for me if I just stopped watching/reading/viewing porn altogether. But I can't! And, like... it's the one thing I can count on, when I need release, you know?

Because I cannot, I definitely cannot, depend on guys. For example. Ever since Justin rejected me the first time, I've been miserable. I mean... he rejected me?!? I'm not used to that. But still, there he was. And still, I went for him. And I stopped masturbating, or anything like that, because I felt that him and I were like... immenant, you know? And I figured it would be worth... waiting.

Sigh. I was wrong.

...or, maybe I'm not wrong. All I know is that today, I lost control. I was sad and miserable and I just needed to have my release. So I did it. And I had one of the best personal experiences of my life because of it.

I have obviously put waaaaayyyy too much stock into this guy. I obviously have put him on some sort of pedistal. But until I let him fall, stay tuned. Because I have an awesome idea on how to convince him I'm "the one"... will it work? We shall see! :P

I so hope it works, by the way...

-shannon-
~relieved~