The End

I need to kill this website.

Wow... that was a lot harder to type than I thought it would be. Seriously! I mean, I've been so wanting to type those words for months... years, maybe... but only now I was actually able to do so. You have no idea how hard it was to type them. Gosh.

Sigh. Here's the thing, everyone... this site has been such a huge part of my life, it's hard to even relate. I mean, yeah, I'm not "active" all the time, but it's always with me, you know? I may not post a lot, but I'm always thinking about it. I lurk on the forum *constantly*. I exchange emails with certain ppl from the site a lot, and when things get really bad in my life... well, especially when things get bad in my life... I come on here, share the details, and somehow feel *better* as a result. This site, and all of you who have made it what it is (Shadow, Neo, Spencer, Dolemite, Sphere, PT, etc) have become, in some ways, more a family to me than my actual family. If that makes sense.

But I still need to kill it. The website, I mean. I need to, and that's why I'm writing this.

This is my goodbye letter, to all of you. I'm actually crying as I type right now, grr! Okay. That's really lame.

I need to move on. I'm 25 years old now... not exactly young, for a stripper, at least not in these parts. What I really need to do, now, is make as much money as I can and use it to go back to school. I can't get anymore student loans so I'll need to have cash to pay this time. And there's only one way for a girl like me to make that kind of money.... no, not prostitution. But close.

In order to move into what I need to move into, though, I need to totally distance myself from this site. I know, I know, I'm totally selling out. Maybe when I'm older and it doesn't matter as much I'll be back, but right now, well... sigh. Argh. I'm running out of time. If I'm to have a chance in hell of earning big and spending wisely I need to do so right now! I'm nearly all used up...

I sort of always knew that this day would come. Spence, Jack, Neo... I told you about this. Ally and Tasha, I'm not changing my phone, and Tory, you have my MySpace! Lauren, Josh, Pat... well, lol! Basically, if you have a way to get a hold of me outside of this website (IM, e-mails, phone, etc) then don't worry, I'm not going to disappear on you!!

For the rest, though... I'm sorry. But I do have to leave. There are so many reasons for this...

I will miss you all.

shannon
~me~