Cannot believe

I can't believe this.

The guy I'm in love with? Let's call him Justin. He just left here... again. Just now. He literally just walked out the door.

Once again, he rejected me. I simply cannot take this!!!

It's even worse tonight, because he told me that he does care about me a "great deal"; that he considers me "his one"; blah blah. But, he says, he's not sure he's ready for a relationship.

I really think that he and I could work. I really think we could. I just don't know what to do.

-shannon-
~sad~

I need to title these things?

I so wish that I was in New York City right now!

God, I am so, so tired this morning. And I have to go to work. I had such a hard time getting to sleep last night... a friend of mine came over and we watched a movie I'd never seen before called "Godsend". It wasn't very good, but it was pretty creepy. It was one of those movies that I couldn't get out of my mind! One of those "Oh wow, what if it were real...?" type of movies, that sort of obsesses your thoughts when you try to sleep... sigh.

But, it could be worse. Right? Things could always be worse.

I received a text message last night from the guy who I think I'm in love with. All it said was, "Sorry about Thurday. Call me." Why was he sorry? Well, he sort of humilatingly rejected me that night, which was just sad-sad-sad! Of course, that rejection made me want him more than ever, but I'm not sure it's a good idea to allow myself to be so easily manipulated. Argh!!! Who knows what I should do?

I'll wait for him to actually call, I think. Text messages are so lame!

I better jump in the shower. I love having this blog I think... what do you all think!?

Bills, bills, bills...

Man, I hate paying bills. That's what I tried to do a bit of today (that and doing the dishes). Other than that I've been sitting around, hoping the electric company isn't serious about turning off my electricity. We'll just have to wait and see!

I had a lot of fun last night. An old friend of mine came in from out of town, and she and I hung out from like... 5pm or so until 3am, when we both passed out (yes, we were drinking... shh!). When I awoke this morning she was already gone... so rude! I thought women were the sensitive type, and men were the ones who left first thing in the morning?

...not that she and I did anything sexual together, of course. Oh, who am I kidding? Of course we made out a little. We didn't start until we were so wasted that it didn't really matter, but it was fun. She's the only girl I've ever been with multiple times. Getting drunk and getting horny seem to be our thing, you know?

Besides that nothing much is new. I'm excited about work tomorrow, and about going to see "Garden State" tonight with some friends. Soo... I'll see you all later!

-shannon-
~not hung over!~

My first blog entry!

Okay, I've been pining for a blog for a looong time now, and who should be the one to make this wish a reality? Why, the StoryMaster, of course! :) I'm so excited. This blog is going to replace my diary (you can still read the old entries there, though), which was a pain in the butt to use. Now I'll be able to make updates regularly, which should be a *lot* of fun!

Anyway... I'll write more later. I have to clean my dishes right now or I'll seriously never do it.

-shannon-