Things Reviewed
First of all, has anyone else followed this story? Isn't that screwed up? I know it's kind of old news by now, but I just saw this article and thought I'd pass it along.
Next week (starting tomorrow) my life begins to change. I'm starting an honest-to-God full-time job. I'm hoping it will only be temporary, because the pay really sucks and the schedule is infrequent (mostly days, which is good, but some weekends). It will be good, though, to have a real job again. It's been months since I've worked. I have done a few side things, like some under-the-table clerical work for a friend of mine at the university, but that doesn't really count. This will be a real job with W-2 forms and everything! Whoo-hoo. After 90-days I'll be insured again, too, although I sort of hope to have found something better by then.
The last week has been pretty good, I'd say. Maybe it's the whole "It's a new year!" mentality, but I feel like I'm making some smart decisions about what I'm going to do with my life. I'm almost 23 after all... I need to get on some sort of track soon! I hope to enroll in at least one class come Spring and get back to the whole school-thing, by the way. That will depend on finances though.
I'm officially moving out of Paul's soon. He's been so great letting me stay here, rent-free for so long, but it's time to move on. His stupidslut girlfriend has become a huge pain in the butt... I think she's jealous that I live with her man. Oh, well. No one can say I didn't see that coming! Besides, I'm tired of feeling like a leech. Once I start making some money I'll start buying Paul all those X-Box games he always talks about. Maybe eventually it'll make up for all the food and stuff I mooched from him these past few months.
I'm either going to be moving to a place really close by, or to a place a good forty minutes away. That's still up in the air. It's good to have options, though. By the end of this month, with my new job and all, I should have enough cash for at least a deposit on wherever I'm going. Both of the two places I'm considering involve friends so there won't be a credit check, thank God. It'll work out either way.
Leo and I are officially over, by the way. So ends that sordid chapter of my life. For roughly the last month or so we'd been hooking up infrequently-- usually after hanging out with Frank and Star, but sometimes just whenever he stopped by. The sex was still okay, but it just didn't feel right. It was making me feel used in a sick, sad sort of way, you know? There was no excitement anymore. I didn't mind the fact that he was obviously seeing other people, esepcially since (as you might remember) I never, ever wanted a serious relationship with him. Still, he stopped being cool and... exciting, I guess, a long time ago.
I mishandled that whole situation, I'll be the first to admit it. From the first time I had sex with Leo, right on through all the other ups and downs, I was pretty dumb. And the thing is, I was always aware of my stupidity, I just sort of didn't care. Anyway, I care now, and so Leo is gone.
He came over late Friday (actually, early Saturday morning) at around 3:30am, drunk and wanting to get laid. And you know, I just told him. I said I didn't think we worked well together, that I was feeling used, etc. He tried to argue at first, but then just made a sort-of angry comment about it being my loss, and he left. Star called me yesterday afternoon and asked about it, and I was honest with her, too. Her biggest concern, I think, is whether or not I'll still want to hang out with her and her boyfriend if Leo comes along (Leo is Frank's brother, remember). We'll have to see about that one.
I always end up rambliing! Sorry. I'll end this now. Wish me luck at the new job!
-shannon-
Next week (starting tomorrow) my life begins to change. I'm starting an honest-to-God full-time job. I'm hoping it will only be temporary, because the pay really sucks and the schedule is infrequent (mostly days, which is good, but some weekends). It will be good, though, to have a real job again. It's been months since I've worked. I have done a few side things, like some under-the-table clerical work for a friend of mine at the university, but that doesn't really count. This will be a real job with W-2 forms and everything! Whoo-hoo. After 90-days I'll be insured again, too, although I sort of hope to have found something better by then.
The last week has been pretty good, I'd say. Maybe it's the whole "It's a new year!" mentality, but I feel like I'm making some smart decisions about what I'm going to do with my life. I'm almost 23 after all... I need to get on some sort of track soon! I hope to enroll in at least one class come Spring and get back to the whole school-thing, by the way. That will depend on finances though.
I'm officially moving out of Paul's soon. He's been so great letting me stay here, rent-free for so long, but it's time to move on. His stupidslut girlfriend has become a huge pain in the butt... I think she's jealous that I live with her man. Oh, well. No one can say I didn't see that coming! Besides, I'm tired of feeling like a leech. Once I start making some money I'll start buying Paul all those X-Box games he always talks about. Maybe eventually it'll make up for all the food and stuff I mooched from him these past few months.
I'm either going to be moving to a place really close by, or to a place a good forty minutes away. That's still up in the air. It's good to have options, though. By the end of this month, with my new job and all, I should have enough cash for at least a deposit on wherever I'm going. Both of the two places I'm considering involve friends so there won't be a credit check, thank God. It'll work out either way.
Leo and I are officially over, by the way. So ends that sordid chapter of my life. For roughly the last month or so we'd been hooking up infrequently-- usually after hanging out with Frank and Star, but sometimes just whenever he stopped by. The sex was still okay, but it just didn't feel right. It was making me feel used in a sick, sad sort of way, you know? There was no excitement anymore. I didn't mind the fact that he was obviously seeing other people, esepcially since (as you might remember) I never, ever wanted a serious relationship with him. Still, he stopped being cool and... exciting, I guess, a long time ago.
I mishandled that whole situation, I'll be the first to admit it. From the first time I had sex with Leo, right on through all the other ups and downs, I was pretty dumb. And the thing is, I was always aware of my stupidity, I just sort of didn't care. Anyway, I care now, and so Leo is gone.
He came over late Friday (actually, early Saturday morning) at around 3:30am, drunk and wanting to get laid. And you know, I just told him. I said I didn't think we worked well together, that I was feeling used, etc. He tried to argue at first, but then just made a sort-of angry comment about it being my loss, and he left. Star called me yesterday afternoon and asked about it, and I was honest with her, too. Her biggest concern, I think, is whether or not I'll still want to hang out with her and her boyfriend if Leo comes along (Leo is Frank's brother, remember). We'll have to see about that one.
I always end up rambliing! Sorry. I'll end this now. Wish me luck at the new job!
-shannon-
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posted by Shannon at 2:41 PM
4 Comments:
Definately best of luck on the new job, and the moving flat. Hope that all goes smoothly for you.
I'm glad you decided to end it with Paul, when you feel that way about things it's best to end them. If it's not fun, it's not fun.
Look on it as more a chance to find someone better, with your personality I'm sure someone will come along who's exciting.
Never worry about rambling, always good to hear what's happening in your life.
Shannon, you sound tired but in control.
I'm sorry about Leo, but it was great that you told him to his face what the problem was. Guys are really dense (at least, I'm really dense) and need to be told straight out about things. Sometimes it takes more than once. Sigh. I never, never, never get hints.
It's incredible how much of our self worth is tied with having a job (or being married or having a kid, the list doesn't end). I hope this one works out for you. I'm sure that now that you have a job, you'll have a ton of offers now.
I think that being exceptionally smart and attractive (like you) makes it hard for people. I'm lucky because I never had either problem and still my early 20s were utter hell. You're doing really great, Shannon.
Woodsbunny
PS You haven't said anything about stripping. I have to admit I'm relieved.
I am glad to hear that you have found a job, even if it isnt that great. It will give you something to focus on while working towards your other goals.
It is also good that you finally told Leo off. The way you have described him he is a real arse and someone of your caliber is way to good for him.
Best Wishes,
Losdac
Good for you Shannon! Leo should have been left by the roadside a long time ago. As for the job & moving...well, the job may suck by it is a real one (with as you said insurance) and moving out is a good thing too. Besides it will make things easier on Paul since his SSGF won't have that to complain about anymore. Glad to hear things are looking up.
Vicorp
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