Am I About to do Something Dumb?
Okay, a brief entry.
I've been sitting here at my apartment (well, Paul's apartment, but he's out with StupidSlut so I'm alone) since, like... 10pm. Bored. Bored and broke and I have nothing to do. I watched the new South Park (which I thought was dumb). I tried calling some friends (roughly 12), and everyone was either busy or didn't answer. I cracked open some of my recently acquired 40's, and drank.
Then I went online, posted some on the Forum, tried to get into the right mood to work on TTT.
About five minutes ago, Frank called. For those of you keeping score, Frank is my friend Star's boyfriend. One of the four guys I fucked just over a week ago, which made me feel guilty since Star is my friend.
He wants to come over. I'm a little drunk (one 40 in me). I asked him where Star was. He said she was at work-- wouldn't be home until after 4am or so (which is odd, since the club she works at closes at 2am and it's 2am right now).
I told him sure, come on over. He's coming alone.
Is he coming over as a friend, or as a horny guy wanting to get some? And if it's the latter, will I put out for him? His brother Leo and I are sort of a thing. If we hook up tonight, will I be betraying just Star, or Leo, too?
I wasn't horny at all until he called me. I could have gone to sleep without even masturbating. Now... I don't know.
I promise to update you all tomorrow, because he's on his way at this very moment.
-shannon-
I've been sitting here at my apartment (well, Paul's apartment, but he's out with StupidSlut so I'm alone) since, like... 10pm. Bored. Bored and broke and I have nothing to do. I watched the new South Park (which I thought was dumb). I tried calling some friends (roughly 12), and everyone was either busy or didn't answer. I cracked open some of my recently acquired 40's, and drank.
Then I went online, posted some on the Forum, tried to get into the right mood to work on TTT.
About five minutes ago, Frank called. For those of you keeping score, Frank is my friend Star's boyfriend. One of the four guys I fucked just over a week ago, which made me feel guilty since Star is my friend.
He wants to come over. I'm a little drunk (one 40 in me). I asked him where Star was. He said she was at work-- wouldn't be home until after 4am or so (which is odd, since the club she works at closes at 2am and it's 2am right now).
I told him sure, come on over. He's coming alone.
Is he coming over as a friend, or as a horny guy wanting to get some? And if it's the latter, will I put out for him? His brother Leo and I are sort of a thing. If we hook up tonight, will I be betraying just Star, or Leo, too?
I wasn't horny at all until he called me. I could have gone to sleep without even masturbating. Now... I don't know.
I promise to update you all tomorrow, because he's on his way at this very moment.
-shannon-
Labels: stuff about me
posted by Shannon at 2:02 AM
4 Comments:
I'm usualy just lurking around, but it's time to come out of the shadows.
I think that what people don't know doesn't hurt them. So even if you tow had sex you shouldn't feel guilty about it. Actualy i think that no one should waste their time feeling guilty and regreting things.
Life is too short for that.
You should primarly take care of your self and your desires.
It's hard sometimes, but in the end it's worth it.
Shannon,
I know you are going to get this after the fact, but I hope nothing happened. Just my opinion, which isn't much, but I get the feeling this whole thing is somehow going to bite you in the ass at some point.
Vicorp
I hope you didn't do it Shannon... If Star really is your friend and if you're interested in Leo for more than just good sex... If not...then why else would you feel bad about it?
And what's with him being one of the four guys? I don't remember reading about that in your blog... maybe it was somewhere else. Did you do all 4 at the same time? or on different occasions? Him, being a guy, probably is interested in more sex, but not necessarily, I guess.
Anyways... if it's something that you would feel guilty over, then it's probably something you shouldn't do... But that's just my opinion... I guess since I don't really know you, I'm not the person to be giving you advice, but hell, you have a link to here from your website, so I guess that means you're open to it... if not, just ignore me... and your guilty feelings.
-Dogmeat
Shannon, this is a big fucking warning, read your blackmail and reluctance tribute, you are on a serious depressive cycle right now. This will A) bite you in the ass. B) be something you beat yourself up over. C) one more reason why you will feel more depressed.
Never mind when depressed I never wanted to listen either.
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