Yeah
Most of you who still bother to read this blog think I'm pregnant. I said I was just over a month ago, and I've been silent since, so your mistake can be forgiven.
I'm *not* pregnant.
I wish I had never told you all that I was! God, how I wish that. I feel ashamed now, stupid, dumb, all that... I think I may have crossed the line by being that honest, you know?
My pregnancy was terminated four weeks ago. And it wasn't my first abortion, by the way. Come on, you right-wingers, give it to me! I'm a murderer, a sinner, a soulless bitch, right? Come on!!! I know, I fucking just fucking know that that's what you want to say. So just say it already and let's be done with it!!!
I am now officially 23 years old. Twenty-fucking-three. And I have no fucking clue!!! I don't know what to do.
I'm making a lot of money, stripping. And the work isn't bad. Yet I often feel like I'm being stupid, that I'm betraying my true self by doing this, you know? I just got home from "work" an hour ago. Guess what I did during my four-hour shift?
1.) I didn't want to be there (I hate working Sundays) but the way the club I work at works is that I have to pay $75 to dance, but every consecutive night I work they knock off $10. Tonight, for instance, I only had to pay $15 to work. If I work again tomorrow night I'll only have to pay $5. But I'm tired so I doubt I'll work again tomorrow.
2.) I mostly gave private dances tonight. I don't usually go onstage anymore-- I hate to sound like I'm full of myself, but the truth is that the DJ realizes I'm in high demand for private dances. He rarely calls me up.
3.) I went into the club tonight with $235 in my purse (I remember the amount because I was exactly $13 shy of being able to pay off one HUGE credit card, from like three years ago). Just now I counted my cash-- can you guess what I have now?
$1,128. Yep. Great, right? I worked like, four hours, and made $893. Not too bad.
4.) $325 of that money came from me letting some dude with no hair, wearing obviously gay jeans, put his finger into my ass.
5.) I drank with a bunch of cool people. GOD how I wish all the cool people had money!!! Maybe having money makes you an ass? I don't know. All I know is that more than a few guys, cool fucking guys, bought me expensive drinks (Long Islands for $13) and all I had to do was flirt with them.
6.) Flirtining as a stripper is weird. They've already seen me naked, so what can I do to get them excited? Tonight I was everything for everyone. Hand lightly rested on his inside thigh, I would ask about Nascar or Kim-jong-Il, depending on how they were dressed. It usually worked.
7.) Why am I numbering these things?!? I can't recall.
8.) Here is a huge admission: I love my job. I do. I love it. I get paid money to get naked and flirt with guys who are usually twice my age. I get paid GOOD fucking money to crawl up onto the stage and entertain men who've seen it all... yet still want me. I mean, they really want me!
9.) Just tonight, one guy offered me $100 if I would blow him. Crazy.
10.) I'm the ugliest girl at my work. I am. My tits sag a bit, even though they're small, and even though I'm only 23. And my hair-- don't ask about my hair. My teeth are perfect, but that's what braces and a contracting retainer will buy you. My ass is firm and smooth, which is, I think, my best feature. But other girls I work with have huge, tight, firm tits with nice round butts and brilliant teeth.
Yet I'm like one of the top earners!!!
I don't understand it either. And no, I'm not the ugliest girl at my work... but like... it always seems so weird that I do so well, when so many other, hotter, sexier girls do poorly.
11.) Before you go and call me a prostitute, let me say this: no. Sorry. I don't know what to say.
I am a prostitute, basically. At my fucking job, my JOB!, I'll suck off a guy if he offers a big enough tip ($150). For more than that?
I feel so dirty. Was I ever anything but this? I can't remember.
I'm drunk right now. I've been fucked tonight by two different guys... one of whom was just an ass-man. An "Ass-Man". I feel so sick.
At the time, and even now as I type, it was hot. God, why is that hot?
My baby, my baby, is dead because I chose to kill her.
I'm a murderer. Yet I get to have orgasms?
There is no god. No god at all. No god at FUCKING all. If you think otherwise, FUCK YOU!!! Because I did murder, and I liked it, because it allowed me to feel even better now... than ever.
I aborted, I did shit. Shit. Shit.
At the end of the day all that matters is money. Or does it matter?
Shit.
BTW, I just posed for a series of Internet-Only (supposedly) porno pictures. It's very likely that I'll be doing a movie next (interner-movie, not "real" movie). Anyway. Maybe I should just post the pix here and be done with it... but maybe... nevermind. Do you want to see me, the real Shannon, or not? And would it... nevermind. God, this is the only place. The only fucking place!!
-shannon-
I'm *not* pregnant.
I wish I had never told you all that I was! God, how I wish that. I feel ashamed now, stupid, dumb, all that... I think I may have crossed the line by being that honest, you know?
My pregnancy was terminated four weeks ago. And it wasn't my first abortion, by the way. Come on, you right-wingers, give it to me! I'm a murderer, a sinner, a soulless bitch, right? Come on!!! I know, I fucking just fucking know that that's what you want to say. So just say it already and let's be done with it!!!
I am now officially 23 years old. Twenty-fucking-three. And I have no fucking clue!!! I don't know what to do.
I'm making a lot of money, stripping. And the work isn't bad. Yet I often feel like I'm being stupid, that I'm betraying my true self by doing this, you know? I just got home from "work" an hour ago. Guess what I did during my four-hour shift?
1.) I didn't want to be there (I hate working Sundays) but the way the club I work at works is that I have to pay $75 to dance, but every consecutive night I work they knock off $10. Tonight, for instance, I only had to pay $15 to work. If I work again tomorrow night I'll only have to pay $5. But I'm tired so I doubt I'll work again tomorrow.
2.) I mostly gave private dances tonight. I don't usually go onstage anymore-- I hate to sound like I'm full of myself, but the truth is that the DJ realizes I'm in high demand for private dances. He rarely calls me up.
3.) I went into the club tonight with $235 in my purse (I remember the amount because I was exactly $13 shy of being able to pay off one HUGE credit card, from like three years ago). Just now I counted my cash-- can you guess what I have now?
$1,128. Yep. Great, right? I worked like, four hours, and made $893. Not too bad.
4.) $325 of that money came from me letting some dude with no hair, wearing obviously gay jeans, put his finger into my ass.
5.) I drank with a bunch of cool people. GOD how I wish all the cool people had money!!! Maybe having money makes you an ass? I don't know. All I know is that more than a few guys, cool fucking guys, bought me expensive drinks (Long Islands for $13) and all I had to do was flirt with them.
6.) Flirtining as a stripper is weird. They've already seen me naked, so what can I do to get them excited? Tonight I was everything for everyone. Hand lightly rested on his inside thigh, I would ask about Nascar or Kim-jong-Il, depending on how they were dressed. It usually worked.
7.) Why am I numbering these things?!? I can't recall.
8.) Here is a huge admission: I love my job. I do. I love it. I get paid money to get naked and flirt with guys who are usually twice my age. I get paid GOOD fucking money to crawl up onto the stage and entertain men who've seen it all... yet still want me. I mean, they really want me!
9.) Just tonight, one guy offered me $100 if I would blow him. Crazy.
10.) I'm the ugliest girl at my work. I am. My tits sag a bit, even though they're small, and even though I'm only 23. And my hair-- don't ask about my hair. My teeth are perfect, but that's what braces and a contracting retainer will buy you. My ass is firm and smooth, which is, I think, my best feature. But other girls I work with have huge, tight, firm tits with nice round butts and brilliant teeth.
Yet I'm like one of the top earners!!!
I don't understand it either. And no, I'm not the ugliest girl at my work... but like... it always seems so weird that I do so well, when so many other, hotter, sexier girls do poorly.
11.) Before you go and call me a prostitute, let me say this: no. Sorry. I don't know what to say.
I am a prostitute, basically. At my fucking job, my JOB!, I'll suck off a guy if he offers a big enough tip ($150). For more than that?
I feel so dirty. Was I ever anything but this? I can't remember.
I'm drunk right now. I've been fucked tonight by two different guys... one of whom was just an ass-man. An "Ass-Man". I feel so sick.
At the time, and even now as I type, it was hot. God, why is that hot?
My baby, my baby, is dead because I chose to kill her.
I'm a murderer. Yet I get to have orgasms?
There is no god. No god at all. No god at FUCKING all. If you think otherwise, FUCK YOU!!! Because I did murder, and I liked it, because it allowed me to feel even better now... than ever.
I aborted, I did shit. Shit. Shit.
At the end of the day all that matters is money. Or does it matter?
Shit.
BTW, I just posed for a series of Internet-Only (supposedly) porno pictures. It's very likely that I'll be doing a movie next (interner-movie, not "real" movie). Anyway. Maybe I should just post the pix here and be done with it... but maybe... nevermind. Do you want to see me, the real Shannon, or not? And would it... nevermind. God, this is the only place. The only fucking place!!
-shannon-
Labels: stuff about me
posted by Shannon at 12:35 AM
95 Comments:
Wow! Who needs a confessional when you have a blog?
Shannon, I have been following your stories and forum for some time now. I enjoy reading your fiction, and think you have a talent for getting the reader "involved" in the tales you share.
That said, I think I have a little understanding of what you are going thru right now. You have taken some really big emotional hits recently, making a tough decision about the baby being one of them.
It sounds like you drew some lines in the sand, lines that you said you were not going to step across, behavior-wise. And now you feel pretty messed up, because you can't even see the lines anymore.
Tell me if this sounds like utter bullshit, or does it ring a bell?
I could go on and break it down in detail, but that can wait for now.
Suggestions:
1. Take one day at a time for now, and give yourself time to settle down emotionally.
2. Pay down some of those debts you were talking about.
3. Try communicating with people you trust, not necessarily here...you need some support without having to wade thru all the judgemental crap as well. (Sorry, folks- no offense intended)
4. Draw one or two small lines again, and try sticking to them, with said support helping you out. Small steps, right?
Hope this means something...I am rooting for you!!!!
I think it's a safe bet people would like to see the photos of you and eventually a link to the video ya do.
Hope you keep the site going and post more work on TTT.
(Yes I'm ignoring the child situation completely. Sue me.)
1) Even though you feel bad about aborting, everyone said you weren't in the position to raise a kid. I don't care what your reasons were, but in the end I'm glad.
2) The hottest girls can be annoying. A cute girl with a cool personality wins. Even as pigs, guys value attitude. You've got the full package, the other girls don't.
3) If you do any movies/pictures and plastered them all over your site, it would destroy the mistery and imagination that is a tease for us readers. But we'd all love to see you!
4) Get a referal fee!!! They could get a lot of purchases from us, so get a coupon code and publish it here. You could make lots more.
5) You were only a semester or two away from graduating. Stripping is a night-time activity, could you handle a class or two? It would make you feel better, as you are working towards a dream.
6) Keep posting and don't feel ashamed. A lie every once in awhile is cool, just don't go nuts with 'em.
We miss ya!!!
I for one am glad to hear that YOU are okay.
If there are right wingers out there that flame you for making a choice that you needed to make within your life, then ignore them. Their opinions are not going to include living with a life trying to make ends meet as a single parent.
Having had 4 kids to raise by my self when my wife left me, I wish I could have made money like that to pay off the more than $30,000 of bills she left me with. I was in a dead-end job, had to kiss ass, and deal with assholes, and do work I hated.....So please, if you are having fun stripping, and make money, and are able to enjoy work, then DO IT WOMAN!!!!
As far as prostitution goes, everyone is a prostitute on one level or another. We all sell ourselves to each other for something. I happen to sell peices of my brain/mind for money(for what that's worth), is that any more or less demeaning that you being honest and upfront with stripping or blowing a guy? In the corporate world they just have a shinier coating to make the prostitution look better, and make their consciences feel like they are "helping" others.
Be true to yourself, and take care.
Try not to be a stranger. ;0)
i've been following your website for, shit, a long damn time now. and i've seen you slip further and further into places you dont want to be, but still enjoy.
i would suggest paying off your debts, and then saving up as much money as you can. there will come a time when you wont be able to use your body to make money and it's best to be prepared. also, hiring a decent accountant would be a wise move - they know how to keep the government from taking all your money.
other than that, i'd just say to take precautions so that you dont get a disease and remember that it's never too late to start over.
post the pics. we've been waiting for years to see you.
actually, on second though, don't post the pictures
Shannon-
I've never posted on your blog or even your FF for that matter, however I've been following you since the first time you posted TTT. I've read about your highs and your lows. I've followed from afar as you let us into your life through your website. I've enjoyed your stories, both fictional and non-fictional. I've many times wondered what you look like and if we would ever get to see you. We are all your fans on this site and want to see you do well. I think you should give us a link to your pictures(as long as your making money) as well as your video. Make money off of us, your fans. We want to help you. We want to see you go back to school. We want to see you get your degree. We want to see you do well. Help us help you.
Be well.
You're probably one of the top earners because you look like a pretty girl-next-door. In every sex establishment I've encountered, the barbie dolls were way intimidating and hardly got and business. But the friendly hot-but-flawed chicks had to fight 'em off with a stick.
--E
You did what you felt you had to do.You only have to answer to you for your decision.It does not matter what anyone on your web site thinks or says.I do think you need to get a grip but I am sure that you will.I just hope it is sooner than later.As your dutch uncle I am not asking I am telling you NO DRUGS That is where you will get in big time trouble.I wish I knew where it was that you worked. If you posted that you would need to get a bigger place to hold all your friends because I think you have got a bunch of them.
Ha!
oh by the way, if we could, me and you should trade lives.
Talk about baggage... WOW!!
It makes for good reading.... post those pictures and show us that hot ass of yours!
well, as a right winger, here's my two cents. you've heard the standard party line, blah blah, baby killer, blah, blah, Jesus hates you, etc.
That's all fine, and it's all true, but here's what I want to say most - get your sorry ass turned around and make something of your life. Yes, abortion is murder, choking the life out of your unborn daughter is murder and requires penance, requires atonement. You can't atone without getting your shit together. You can't clean your soul if you never claw your way out of the gutter, because as soon as you clean even a little, the gutter muddies you up again.
Want motivation? Fine. Hell might be fire or brimstone, hell might be freezing cold, we don't know, only God does, but if Hell is your personal torment to face the sins you have committed in your mortal life, then hell for you might well be an eternity listening to the plaintive cries of your unborn children, pleading with you not to kill them, tearfully.
Atone. Repent. And do that by getting out of a downward spiral and make something of your life, so that when you are judged there's something in the positives column.
Babe, you gotta get with the program.
You're a slut. And that's OK. It's OK to be a slut.
But there comes a time in every young slut's life when she makes a choice. You can either continue along, or you can latch yourself to some guy you're interested in because he offers you stability and the chance to be get yourself together and keep the sluttiness contained.
Focus on that. Find a real man - not a sex boy - and latch yourself to him long enough to get stable.
Hi, Shannon.
I'm sorry you feel like you've murdered your child. I said before that I thought you'd make a good mother, and I stand by my words. However, you're just being realistic. You're not in a very good position, financially, to support a child right now. And carrying it to full term would mean a loss of income for the latter months of the pregnancy.
As for the right-wingers, yeah they probably think you a murderer and a monster, but how many of them would visit sites like this anyway? In any case, those are right-wingers, and they're in a small (but loud) minority. They have their own beliefs, good for them. But they should respect that others might not agree with them. If not, fuck 'em. They don't know anything about the realities of life, anyway, or they wouldn't be such right-wing nut-jobs.
Most reasonable individuals will not think less of you, Shannon. You should not focus your attention on the nay-sayers.
-Tsuba
Shannon,
It is good to hear from you again. I am happy to hear that you are still around.
I find the concept of the 'right-wing' coming unto a forum like this and preaching how a person must atone for living in the gutter, when they themselves are on this site and your blog. That is called hypocrasy in my view.
Anyhow.
On the subject of pictures. Shannon you have no idea how much I would like to see what you look like, but I caution that such a road may not be the best for you to travel. It is your decision though.
los
Girl, I bet you had one sweet hangover...
Speaking of which, there's nothing inherently evil about alcohol, or with drinking it, but -- past a certain point in most people's lives -- the crushing hangovers just aren't worth the frequent all-night binges and people gradually find a happy medium that allows them to have most of the pleasure without going toxic (and those that don't go to AA or self-destruct).
Okay, so that was a blatant metaphor for sex. So sue me.
So glad to see you’re still OK & posting!
Regarding point (10)
Never try to oversimplify male sexuality!
I’ve some porn DVDs. And which do I prefer? The ones with fake blondes & fake boobs trying to all look the same? Pah! Or the ones with real girls that look like they live in my street? The later of course. "Imperfections" make it more real and the sex more intense.
Good luck.
Hugs + kisses
Rab
PS I would love to see you for real on you own site :-)
hey shannon...
Glad to see you are still here, and I'm sorry to hear about the abortion you just got. but if you thought it was best then stick by it. what's worse? an abortion or bring a baby into the world where that baby MAY not get what is needed? you made a HARD choice and I respect you for doing what you thought was best.
second: again be careful =) hun we like you for who you are, be you a prostitue, or a preacher. you are what you are and you being around is what counts! =)
third: Pictures. I'd love to see your pics... but that's up to you heheh.. and yes a previous post is right, you aren't barbie doll, fake titted etc. you are the girl next door and that is a bigger turn on than anything else. be glad you have it =)
lastly: =) glad to see you're around and can not wait for your posts =) and thanks for being here for us you sexy girl you!!! =)
not all of us "right wingers" spend our time (or anytime for that matter) bible-thumping or preaching to you about our feelings for unborn children. After the fact their's not much to do about it except hurt people's feelings anyway. I'm also in that "long time listener, first time caller" category, also having turned 23 rather recently. Trust me when I say that believeing your life at this moment has no direction or purpose is not something you are alone in Shannon. There are alot of us that are there. Somebody before me said it best. Take it one day at a time. "Life goes on, the sun will rise tommorrow." is a personal favorite quote of mine. Don't worry about the negative things that people say here, follow your heart and it won't steer you wrong. No matter how much you feel your life is spinning out of control. You can stop it.
Best of luck. We're all behind you.
You are loved.
Hi Shannon,
It is always -- ALWAYS -- good to hear from you. Boy, there is a ton of things to respond to in your blog.
I think if you really liked your job and what you are doing it wouldn't matter how much money you were making. I can't tell you what to do with your life -- goodness knows I'm the last one to give advice.
Here's what I did. I paid all my debts. Then I quit my job and moved to a place where I could live a lot more cheaply. I'd had already bought the place and paid it off. Now I work making about $9,000 a year (taxable) and I'm happy. I'm incredibly happy. I don't dream about work, I don't worry about work (not at all, honest!), and I'm doing something that I like and gives me time and money to do other things I like. Money goes into the bank. I have vacations each year. Even on as little as I make.
If you love your work -- then all power to you. Dive right into it. If what you are doing bothers you, has you tied up in knots day and night, then quit as soon as you can.
I still have dreams about my last job -- the one I left 14 years ago!
I've made it sound like I did this all on my own -- I didn't. My companion, my best friend and lover, was there helping all along. There is no one like her.
Woodsbunny
PS Having a companion to help on one's life journey is incredibly hard to find. Someone who can be there through thick and thin, when you don't know if you both will be alive the next morning, and is there at the best of times, too. I hope you will be as lucky as I have been.
Hey Shannon,
My only wish is for you to be happy. What I or anybody else thinks is not important and to be honest you are probably harder on yourself then anyone else could ever be. Take care.
Scott
mach1mustang1971@yahoo.com
Shannon, only you can be your own judge, Anyone else in this lifetime can take a hike.
Go back to college, your smart and cute and could find a job doing erotic artwork or finding some other erotic and lucrative way to share your passion for what you like.
Find your muse, Find your degree and move on.
Don't be down on yourself.
BTW, men can sense when a woman has that magnetic sexuality. We can't get enough. Thats why you are a top earner. as some one else said, "complete package"
-viscount01
Shannon... I'm rather hesitant about giving advice because I don't want to sound preachy, but as a liberal left-winger at least I'm not going to be accusatory.
Fine, you had an abortion. How you feel about that is up to you, screw whatever anyone else might think. If you want to think of it as murder, do. If not, then don't. Don't worry about what the right-wing thinks because they are not you. Just because a twat is in the white house at the moment doesn't mean he's representative. This is all about you.
Post the pictures, don't post the pictures. You could always blank out the face if you wanted to. Personally, I'd like to see them, but I do remember what you said about the woman who got you into internet fiction in the first place. Don't end up like that.
Happy belated birthday, by the way.
Numbering's good. Number all you want.
If letting a guy stick his finger up your arse is the only way you've got to pay off the bills, then it's a good thing you're enjoying sex still.
And at least we know you're not a plastic Paris Hilton-alike. Good.
I'm not sure you do feel better than ever though. Reading what you've written, it wouldn't seem so. Remember, there's always a way out into a different sort of life if you want it, no matter how hard it can be.
And this is the only fucking place. Maybe that's why you shouldn't post the pictures. But keep ranting here, I think it's doing you good.
Love and Kisses,
Take care of yourself,
W.T.
Shannon:
Speaking for myself, I prefer the "cute girl next door" type over the Barbie Doll stunner....so that might explain why you do so well at your job. Prostitution? Who cares? If thats how you want to make money, and if you are good at it, more power to you.
You're young, you have so much time to do these things before you need to settle down. Anyone disagrees with your choices, tell them to go fuck themselves :-)
Sometimes in life you have to do things you didnt really want to do. You seem like an ok girl to me :)
oh, shannon, so glad you are back!...
I don't want to make comments on things I can't comment on...
I'd simply love you not to leave the forum go by itself, not to leave TTT and not to leave us...
You are always in my heart!...
A baby and a lover.... both are gone due to us.... we both made choices and the results were the same.... but we are both here... both doing the dance....
Shannon, I'm a longtime reader, but this is my first time commenting. I understand that you feel bad for having an abortion, but you are in no position to have a child. Although it hurts, you did the right thing. You should save your money for a downpayment on a house (its easier than you think). There are too many advantages to owning a home to list here, but lets just say its a GREAT investment and with the kind of money you're making you can definitely afford it. Focus on buying a house and paying it off, then go back to school. There's my two cents, hope its helpful.
wow. as much as i would love to try and give u advise, i can't. all i can do is ope that something better will come along in your life and that u can find true happiness, whatever that may be.
muchh love,
B-rad
darkdragon627@yahoo.com
Where are you living now?
How are things with Star, Frank & Leo?
Hi Shannon,
Hedonism here, just wanted to tell you that not all conservatives disagree with your decision to have the abortion. As your "favorite" right winger, I personally think you did the right thing. (as if my opinion matters.)
On prostitution? Honey you've been fucked pretty badly often enough for free, if you can get paid for it, GO FOR IT! Just be careful, (protection), and a little cautious in your judgement as to who, where, etc. Call me selfish but I want you safe and happy.
As far as the pix and vids, I'll pay money to see them, just let me know how!!
Shoot me an e-mail, you've got the addy...and any time you want a new customer just holler!
Big Hugs!
Hedonism
Shannon,
I'm glad you're safe and making money, I hope you'll get yourself financially stable and then put money away for when you'll need it later. I've been trying to talk to you for a while now, and I hope you'll talk to me sometime.
Rob @ yuu_tomo@yahoo.com
I think whoever said you should try to get a referral fee is on the right track... get a way to post a link on your site and let that be the way to have your site actually make you some money instead of just being a drain... besides it might even pull off making you some extra money (although it sounds like you're finally doing alright there)...
As far as the abortion... whatever, that was your decision noone here can tell you what to think about it... i just hope that whatever happens in your life you don't feel too ashamed to continue your site and the forum, because of how you feel random strangers may judge you...you have a lot of people there that will support you no matter what... I hope you realize that (and I hope it makes things a little better for you, because you should be the most important thing to you)...use you circle of friends here to feel better about yourself and provide an escape from what's bothering you. Everyone needs an occasional escape from reality.
-Dogmeat
Well it's nice to know that you are at least still alive and "well". I really don't know what to say about your post that hasn't already been said... You are an incredibly gifted and amazing person and I'm pretty sure you already know that deep down even if you won't admit it to yourself. I've been following your site for quite a while now and we've spoken once or twice and I'd be lying if I said I don't enjoy your posts no matter what the content. You seem to be pretty down on yourself right now for making some pretty tough decisions and hell shit happens.... We've all done things that we aren't proud of and we've all done things that we regret. The secret is learning from them and moving on so you'll be better prepared for the next hard decision. Don't be so hard on yourself. You've been through tough times before and all of your experiances have made you the person that you are today. I'm very happy to hear that you are probably the most finacially stable that you've been since I've "known" you. I want to echo a previous post and ask what your living situation is right now...are you using your money to finally get out on your own? I think that would be the best for you, to stand on your own feet and not depend on anyone else right now just to prove to yourself that you are capable of it. Shit, there I went, I wasn't going to give advise but oh well fuck it right? As for the pictures and video, I hope you make a killing doing them. I know how much whoever it is that took them will make so just make sure you get your fair share. As for posting them here, as much as I (and probably 100% of your followers) would love to finally get a glipse of you, I don't think it would be wise to post them. God did I really just say that?!?!?!? I also remember the story you told about the girl that first got you interested in this and the outcome of her website and it would kill all of us if that happened to you. The one thing you've got going here is your anonyminity. You are able to say things here that you can't tell anyone else because nobody here knows who you are and that is the best thing in the world for you. It's very thereputic and good for your soul so keep that and hold onto it. You shouldn't be so self concience about the opinions of the people who read this blong. We are all here because we care about you and share some of the same "forbidden fantasies" that you have. I actually lost a bet with myself while reading the replies to you post because I never thought anyone would critisize you for making the decision you made but I was wrong. My only thought was, if that is truly how that guy feels, what is he doing on this site? I guess in closing just keep on being you Shannon. We all love you and we all wish you the best. Keep following your instincts, they've gotten you this far. And finally one small request......POST MORE OFTEN PLEASE???????????? WE MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!
misfitt006@yahoo.com
It's good to hear from you as always. Wow, there's a lot of replies here... anyways, there isn't much I can say that hasn't already been said but...
1) I vote conservative so I guess I'm a right-winger but really, dubya's views don't represent everyone on the right. I personally think it's your body and your baby. You have to do what's right for you, no matter what anybody might think.
2) It's hard to find good paying work nowadays and if you have a wellpaying job that you enjoy even a little, that's great. You shouldn't get down on yourself for doing what you do. Cliche: None of us are virgins, life fucks us all.
3) Dammit, I hate to disagree with you, but there is a God. It doesn't seem like it a lot of the time, but I truly believe there is. Might be I'm just weak and need a crutch but... I dunno, I just know.
4) As for the pics, as much as I'd like to see them, I agree with several of the readers above. Your anonymity is a big part of your ability to be open and honest on this site. If posting pics takes that away from you, I don't think it's such a good idea. If your pics are going on a site, do what everyone else said and get a referral fee but don't tell us which girl is you. Guessing is part of the fun!
5) Damn, it's three in the morning and I forgot what I was going to say. I'm not sure why I'm using numbers either.
Aargh! Enough with the numbers, as always, take care of yourself and stay safe. I love hearing from you.
-fongiel-
p.s.
-You're really lucky to have this site to let everything out. Yes, you do take some flak from some posters but the vast majority of visitors genuinely wish the best for you. And the fire and brimstone rant? If a girl's going to hell for doing what's best for her and her unborn, then is that a god we really want to spend an eternity in 'heaven' with? I'll be the first to admit I'm not the most right leaning of right-wingers and I'm no expert on religion, but I'd like to believe God is a little more understanding than that. Just my 2 cents. Love always, and take care.
Shannon
Sorry to hear all the problems you've been going through. Sounds to me you need some help to sort through some of the issues in your life. Are you living in the San Francisco Bay area? If you are, you can contact me. I have a friend (female) who is a counsellor who might be willing to help. As for me, I don't even live in the USA so I don't get anything out of this except a chance to help ou through a rough patch in your life.
You can contact me at volkhavaar@gmail.com
wow....so u kill a baby AGAIN, then u just keep fucking? really impressive. im sure your parents are REAL proud of you. lets face it, you're worthless. u could die, and the world wouldnt be a worse place. in fact, itd be better...one less waste of skin. thats right, you're a waste of skin. when u were born, you could have become something....say, a doctor? maybe find a miracle cure...at any rate a decent job that contributed to society. you contribute to hard up loser who pay money for sex because they cant get it on their own. all i can say is suicide is always an option...CONSIDER IT
WOW!!!!! There are NO words in the english language to describe the anger and hated I feel toward the person who posted that last comment. How DARE you sit in judgement on someone you DON'T KNOW!!!!! You have no idea (none of us do really) the details of Shannon's life regarding the choices she makes in her life. Who are you to condemn her for doing what she feels is best for her?!?!?!? If you actually read her post you would know that she is already beating herself up much more than she should for doing what she did. If you truly feel the way that you do why are you even here? Why follow someone's life if you believe they are worthless? God I don't even know what to say to you!!!! How could you accuse her of KILLING and damning her for it and then tell her to commit SUICIDE in the same paragraph? What kind of person takes someone who is already down on themselves and then not only kick them, but stomp on them and then rub salt on the wound? I think the only waste of skin that I've ever seen on this site is YOU!!!!! If you have a problem with that feel free to contact me, at least I have the balls to sign my post...AGAIN!!!
misfitt006@yahoo.com
Fucking pointless waste of space. Delete that post. He's only doing it for kicks to get the thrill of telling someone else something he wouldn't have the testicles to tell someone in real life cos he's a scared little prick.
Ignore it.
Best of luck, Shannon. You're doing nothing more than trying to get by, doing what you can, without feeling a hell of a lot of pain.
If I were a woman, I don't think my decisions would be much different than yours.
Shannon
Glad to hear you are ok.
I don't know if you remember me but we did chat a few times on yahoo (s10blazer360). Anyway just wanted to say Hi and tell you to kept your head up.. dont worrry about what some of the assholes have said. You are a beautiful person both inside and out.
If you ever need someone to talk to or just someone to type to feel free to email me...gja360@aol.com
Shannon,
There is a God. One that loves us even though we don't deserve it. One that still stands with the door open waiting for us....
I know the conflict, the division, you describe when you talk about having pleasure after causing pain.... It is relentless and dark. A cloud which you feel there is no escape.
There is a way out. The door is open.
Cornelius1002003@yahoo.com
Re last reply:
Oh, stop it. What is it with Americans and religion? Bugger off. There is no God. Get over it. It's not a big deal. Be quiet and leave the rest of us in peace.
Dear god, you get a lot of comments. Heh, now that I've started typing this I don't know what to say (obviously). I will say that this is the first time I've seen this blog, and I haven't read through the comments for this entry, but I did read the entry. Damn Shannon. I'm not sure if that's a damn of admiration, a damn of awe, or just shaking my head at your situation. I can see why you wrote trailer trash teen, though.
People on this website obviously have a lot better responses and advice for you than I do. I haven't been in your situation, I haven't been anywhere close, and I don't know what it's like to be using my body for money (no, I'm not condemning you, just stating). But obviously, just from this one entry, you've been thoroughly deep in shit before. I will offer you one bit of advice though, if I may be so arrogant and bold.
If you don't like your life - change it. I know, it's "too simple"...but..isn't it? I'm not going to go into the american society "Oh, I have to struggle! I have to try my hardest! look at me! Isn't everyone proud of what I've achieved?" no. It's a given - life is a struggle. But don't get wrapped up in your own life, your own problems - it will make you weak-willed and worthless. What's the point of a self-obsessed human being? If you don't like life, change it, and fuck what everyone else thinks. Fuck the sympathy of people, fuck the "understanding". If you struggle, and you succeed, it's not for other people - it's for you. It isn't to give you the right to brag about what you can achieve, it isn't to allow you to "live" in normal society - it's for two reasons. To make you a stronger person, someone with a pure will, with the capacity to achieve whatever they strive for, and it's to fix your own life.
Well, that's my two cents worth, and I have no guarantee you'll ever see this. But I hope you do, and I hope you won't curse me for being a naive fool.
(Insert preferred blessing here).
-Juan.
ya know as hard as it is to hear somtimes suicide is an okay idea. you can talk smack all you want about what misfitt said but the truth hurts and the truth is that shannon killed at least two babys so for her to kill herself wouldnt be so bad. the world would not be better or worse it just is.
To the above poster...
You are warped! How can anyone who sees abortion as killing a baby (as you identified her actions) advocate the taking of any life at all much less suicide?
Go crawl back under the rock you came from.
los
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAdamn $325 for a finger in your ass.............gimme a call i give you $1000 for my dick in your ass...you'll love it
"Mommy, why are you killing me?"
Oh, give me a break.
If Shannon wants my dick in her, great. I'm all for it.
If Shannon wants to cyber with me, I'm (oddly) even more for it because the risks are all gone.
If Shannon wants me to help her with school or whatever, then fine.
But the idiotic equivication of abortion with infanticide is nuts. And this from a damned doctor.
Maybe you ought to read "Strip City" by Lily Burana, and then consider putting all this material together in some fashion for a true publication----there may be a chance at pecuniary remuneration! I think you have the talent.
do you ever wonder...do children who get aborted go to heaven? or hell? or even have a chance to feel anything other than pain? i find it interesting for people who ruin their lives and become a stain on humanity find it so simple to just get pregnant and get abortions. your life is garbage, why not tease creation and then destroy it? does it make u feel better? does it turn you on? maybe it DOES make you feel better that you can just do anything in life (for example fuck anonymous people) and not worry about the responsibility or outcome of your actions, because with a trip to the doctor, it never happened. so you can keep spreading your legs to anyone with some wadded up $20's, because you'll never have to deal with the responsibility of raising a child. we all know how much of a poor influence you'd be. And if anyone says "Oh, it isnt her fault, look at her past" then look at all the people who had bad childhoods but made something of themselves. How many poor people have had the guts to do more than take an easy way out for money and accept that their lives could be better. Too bad Shannon just does something easy and fucks for cash, rather than a job with value. I hope that every night you sleep, your unborn baby's face appears in your dreams, screaming, begging to know why you chose loveless, faceless sex rather than bringing a life into a great world that still has some good in it...too bad you know nothing of that.
personally i'm for this whole 'seeing you naked' thing
The second comment above mine...
I find it amazing that someone will spend the time and energy to write something so long, with the result still being totally worthless. I am currently going through a severe depression, but I can tell that some people's lives are sadder than mine. There is no reason to bring your bile here. This is where Shannon shares things that are difficult to her. You may have your own opinion, but there is no invitation for malice.
Tsuba.
I have to agree with Tsuba, that post (now 3 up from this one) was a whole pile of crap... And I have a few questions for the poster...
"do you ever wonder...do children who get aborted go to heaven? or hell? or even have a chance to feel anything other than pain?"
- What if your entire belief in God, the afterlife, and all that crap is wrong? What if you waste 2 hours every Sunday in church your whole life? (Cuz let's face it, if you're not going to church at least once a week like your religion tells you you're supposed to, then you're not a good enough Christian yourself to be talking down on someone else for their religious beliefs, or lack thereof).
What if when you die, you find out that all the athiests are right and there is nothing, you just die... You may ask, well, what if I'm right? And that's a valid question, but I have an answer...
Great, something to do after I'm dead... but do you really think some omnipotent being that can create the universe would be so superficial to tell you you have to worship him/her/it your whole life to have a pleasant afterlife? If there is a god then he/she has much more important things to worry about besides the daily lives of some pointless little self-destructive beings on some little rock floating in space.
Besides the pointless religious debate (it's not like I think there's a chance of me changing your mind, since you've probably been brainwashed since birth to believe as those around you and not to think for yourself... but try thinking about things and forming your own opinions about the world and the universe), but anyways, what makes you so much better than Shannon? Have you ever had to decide which would be the lesser of two evils? Have you ever had to make a really tough, important decision in your life? Like, which is worse, having an abortion or raising yet another child in poverty? Or, continuing to struggle to keep yourself alive and well, or sacrificing everything you have for the chance to bring one more human life into this already overpopulated planet to struggle along with you?
Open your mind before you open your mouth and vomit out some crap like you just did... Noone is better than anyone else and noone is perfect and has the right to judge another for any decision they make in their life.
-Dogmeat
~Long rant over, sorry all, people just piss me off sometimes~
Who decides who is better? Simple: those who follow the path of salvation and have personally accepted the Lord Savior Jesus Christ into their lives.
"Anonymous said...
Who decides who is better? Simple: those who follow the path of salvation and have personally accepted the Lord Savior Jesus Christ into their lives."
Interesting viewpoint. I am reminded of when the pharisee's brought the woman they accused of adultery and harlotry before Jesus and asked him what should be done with her.
Christ's reply was 'Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.' The crowd dispersed because there was not one of the pharisee's who could claim to have no sin.
However, what I find the most interesting is that Christ, who was without sin himself and thus would have qualified to throw the first stone, did not throw a stone either. Instead, he told the woman to go forth and sin no more.
The lesson here is this. Christ and the Lord are the only ones who can pass judgement, not a human on this earth, not even one who is 'saved'.
The posters here who are passing judgement on Shannon are acting like the pharisees of old by passing judgement on other men/women because they assert they have the moral authority to do so.
The true Christian way in my opinion is to be the Good Samaritan in this case and help the stranger on her difficult journey, and through example of love and caring witness to the Love of God. So do not condemn others, rather love them and through your care hope and pray that God will reveal himself to those who do not know him.
los
~a person who believes in Christ, yet is fallible because he is human~
Who cares as long as you keep posting such sexy stories! I'd love to hear more detailed descriptions of your experiences with your customers.
I'm starting to miss Shannon's stories. Time to write some new ones. ;)
You could say the first time around that yes, the true Christian way is to offer love and support, in the hopes that God will make his presence known. However, there is also the maxim we must duly obey - repent and sin no more. Condemnation of a sin may not be called for, but a mortal sin repeated... at least deserves a strong reminder.
The killing of children is especially condemned by God through the prophets. In the land God gave his people to occupy, foreign nations had the custom of sacrificing some of their children in fire. God told His people that they were not to share in this sin. They did, however, as Psalm 106 relates: "They mingled with the nations and learned their works . . . They sacrificed their sons and their daughters to demons, and they shed innocent blood, the blood of their sons and their daughters, whom they sacrificed to the idols of Canaan, desecrating the land with bloodshed" (Ps. 106: 35, 37-38).
This sin of child-sacrifice, in fact, is mentioned as one of the major reasons that the Kingdom of Israel was destroyed by the Assyrians and the people were taken into exile. "They mutilated their sons and daughters by fire . . . till the Lord, in his great anger against Israel, put them away out of his sight" (2 Kg. 17: 17-18).
Not even for "religious freedom" can the killing of children be tolerated.
What is right is not always wrong. Your termination of your pregnancy was probably the right thing to do at this point in your life. You want to continue to live the life so when you have a child you also become entangled in so many legal issues with the state, etc. that you are actually giving birth to create a reason for the state and the entire justice system to enter into your life. You don't seem ready for that..you still want to have fun..you still want to live the life. So..move on and take the pill to prevent another unwanted pregnancy until you are ready to live a life that you and the justice system and the right wing christian taliban this of this country can live in peace with. The right wing will start demanding that young girls clits be removed at birth like some other countries do....but the legal system won't allow that because they will loose that state paid tit paycheck they've been sucking on for most of their lives. I am personally thinking about leaving this crazy ass country and move to Amsterdam where nudity and fucking is still normal and schools don't teach you that your penis or cunt is "dirty".......so I think you did what you felt was the right thing Shannon..and I love your stories and your fight for the right to party.
LOVE YA!!!!!!!!!!!!
RainbowRyder
You're right Shannon ,aborting is wrong but so is bringing a child into this shitty world if u are not able to give it the best life possible just now. What's worse ,i don,t know ,u'll have to decide. I was brought up in childrens homes ,foster care and all that shit and it ain't fuckin easy ,i'm in my thirties and it's still fuckin me up. Bringing a child into the world just to keep a clear consience is a load of right wing fuckin bull. It's the quality of the childs life that counts. So don't beat your self up about it too much,fuckin easy for me to say i know. you'll know when the right time is to have kids, and when that feeling is there u'll do a great job i'm sure .
The only person that can say whether or not you made the right decision is you, if you truly didn't care about your actions you would not be posting here about it as you wouldn't care. I know medical care in the states is different but you should be talking to someone other than a bunch of looney (however nice they are ;)) people on the internet. Find someone you can trust, and talk about it.
Don't worry about money, it picks us up and lets us down, we can never have enough but we can't eat it. Someone else said, put some away, talk to an accountant, plan for your retirement, retire from whatever you wish being a stripper, whore, slut what ever. Move somewhere new!
Pictures? Remember that once released they can never be returned, that may not matter now, but when you're fifty what happens when your grand kids find out, or the place you work? Sure you may make it big, and everyone will know, its possible, but not garranteed.
Don't make promises to yourself, even small ones hurt when you break them, and you will. Set your self targets, but don't make them in concrete, make them in (appropiate here) rubber. Work it like a diet, if you do well reward yourself with something nice. If you fuck up you don't get the treat.
LN
You write well. Don't stop, whatever else you do.
Everyone suffers. You are one of the lucky ones, because you can explain it to yourself and others. That's because you can write. That's because you can tell a story.
It is the most valuable skill a human being can possibly possess.
I forgot this. Forgive me.
We all live because something else dies. All of us. I have eaten more cows than I care to count; I have killed my weight in insects.
There are people who will tell you that human life is elevated above the animals. Well, sure. (Some animals. There's not a random stranger on earth I wouldn't heartily murder to keep any random dog alive another day. Dogs, in general, are much better people than humans.) It's just hard to quantify death. Death is like infinity; there are infinites greater than other infinites, but they're all *infinite*.
Don't feel guilty about killing things. We all do it. My mother had three miscarriages before me, but I don't feel guilty for killing my non-siblings. I feel guilty for living poorly, and not making the most out of my life. I've been eating living things my entire life. If you think you are a human being, you're wrong. You're a soul. You eat other things that had souls, whatever they were. Don't sweat it. Circle of life.
Don't feel guilty for that, if you can avoid it. Do things you want to do. Do things you enjoy. When you die, you will not be asked you why you weren't a mother of four or an upright citizen.
You will be asked why you weren't Shannon.
Things must die so you may live. Live well.
Or perhaps she won't be asked at all.
Only one way to find out.
I SAY GO FOR IT!
if you werent ready to have a kid and in no way able to take care of it the you probly did the child a favor. everyone makes choices right or wrong they are yours to make.
if u arent ready for the consequences, dont do the actions! e.g. if u feel u arent ready for a child, then dont have sex!!! is it that hard? is sex the only validation or fun in your life? get a different job, get a motorcycle, buy a book, do something else! no, im not a mormon, or something, its just about responsibility! like why buy a big dog if u live in an apartment? if u cant handle the outcome, then dont make those actions! and this isnt just for shannon, this is for EVERYONE...think before u do something. how many unwanted pregnancies are out there? and not just sex, in general, use your heads.
if u arent ready for the consequences, dont do the actions! e.g. if u feel u arent ready for a child, then dont have sex!!! is it that hard? is sex the only validation or fun in your life? get a different job, get a motorcycle, buy a book, do something else! no, im not a mormon, or something, its just about responsibility! like why buy a big dog if u live in an apartment? if u cant handle the outcome, then dont make those actions! and this isnt just for shannon, this is for EVERYONE...think before u do something. how many unwanted pregnancies are out there? and not just sex, in general, use your heads.
I'd just like to make a comment to the anonymous evangelist here...
If you're such a good Christian by your own standards, enough so you can condemn others even, how did you wind up reading this blog in the first place? Trying your hardest to convert the heathens?
I miss Shannon...
Wherever you are, whatever your doing, my best wishes go out to you, I hope you keep writing both your wonderful stories and posting your thoughts to this blog so that all these wonderful people can help support you through anything in life.
Goddamn you Shannon, update your blog! I want to hear more!
I've never seen so many wack ass opinions in my life. Want another? You live life like you mean it and all these people here wish they could be more like you. I'm glad you cut down your time on the computer and started living your life. If you are meant to change someday you will if not enjoy the ride. As to the pics, what the fuck do you have to lose. That will also finally get rid of the nagging feeling that you are really an ugly 60 year old man with a really good imagination and a way with words. Don't worry I love you either way.
It's too bad your mom didn't abort you, then you wouldn't be a plague on the world you live in.
WOW, wait a sec, someone up there (another anonymous.....maybe we're related?) mentioned christians here, and what theyre doing. if THEYRE so high and mighty, howd they get into a blog that is off a porn (it is, accept it) site with graphic stories. seriously! were some catholics looking for the child section and happened upon the blog? ohhh, ok, i can hear some hisses out there...saying i cant say that..WEL I DID! HA HA! but seriously, if everyone is yelling at her saying shes evil, why are they beating off to porn stories? isnt that a sin? hmmm? and how many of you are doing it without your wives knowing? so adultery is ok? THOUGHT SO!
Shannon,
You've been gone a long time... time for an update on the blog and an appearance in the forum... Or have you finally had enough and turned your backs on all your friends there? Without you, your site is dying... and that's a shame because it has become an important part of so many people's lives (Neo, Kali, Spencer, Hedonism, Shadow, Beans, Chu, and a lot of others (myself included))...
At the very least, give us a blog update... it's been almost 2 months with no word from you... I actually wondered how you were doing last night (I was at a strip club) and figured since I haven't checked in in awhile I'd see what I've been missing, but I didn't expect to have missed nothing but a bunch of hypocritical christian nut-jobs ranting over a blog they shouldn't even know exists (because as a few people have pointed out, if they're so much better, how did they happen upon it).
-Dogmeat
And I pose a challenge to all the "hypocritical christian nut-jobs" commenting on your blog, explain yourself before you rant, becore you condemn shannon, before you tell her of god's plans (besides if god has a plan for everything, then it was god's decision for shannon to get pregnant and have the abortion in the first place)... let us know why you're better than shannon and what right you have to judge her, and tell us what you were doing when you found the blog in the first place... Maybe then someone will take your ravings seriously and consider you at least somewhat non-hypocritical.
OK, mini-rant over.
Hey Lass!
Not sure what all's going on in your life, but I did see the bit about feeling like crap because you're a stripper & feeling upset because you had an abortion.
WELL, TOUGH SHIT!!
Big headline: Life is crap! You try to feel good, someone feels it's his duty to make you feel lousy. You try to help someone, they spit on you. You try to get ahead honestly and on your own merits, the dumbass who lies, steals & sucks ass will beat you every time.
That is, when we don't stick together.
Lovely lady, you have friends here. Yes, you also have shitheads here -- no doubt, I will actually count as one by the time I'm done -- but you have a number of people here who care. I can't say whether you have anyone in your real life who does, but it's hard enough to find friends that you should welcome what you get here.
So, post those pics: let me drool over the beauty that is you. Just charge me, since you are worth it.
Keep writing. Let me enjoy the peeks into your mind.
And, most especially, keep blogging. Though grievously wounded, what I am seeing is one hell of a beautiful soul. I hope to see more of it when next I visit.
Be well, Shannon.
Khyran L
(khyranleander@hotmail.com, if you wish to yell at me or just talk sometime)
Shannon,
I am a conservative 'Right-Winger', yet I wouldn't BASH anyone. I may not agree with your choices and I may choose to say so, yet the last thing I would do, and I think MOST intelligent ,logical, conservatives, would choose to do as well, is to BASH you.
Life is not black & white, all too often, a belief and the reason for having said belief, is clouded depending on the circumstances. I actually am for abortion, but please let me qualify that statement.
Abortion has become a fact of life and part of our society for a long time now. On those grounds I support it, yet I have to say, if way back whenever abortion was invented and introduced to the world, someone asked me if we should develop a procedure used to terminate pregnancy I would of said no.
Again though, I support it (a womans right to choose what to do with her body and mind, as well as men by the way) and I would never judge someone based on an act or a thought.
The make-up of another human being is too large to sufficiently say what someones true character is or could be, based on one act or thought.
I wanted to make those points clear, because all too often, conservatives are accused of being extremely judgemental towards others, especially those labeled as 'liberal' or 'progressive'.
However, anyone with a true, honest, open mind would see that the opposite is quite true. All too often, emotion is attached to points of view undertaken by 'liberals' and 'progressives', hate being the biggest. Most 'liberals' HATE President Bush.
Isn't that awfully simplistic and childish? I dislike (severely) in many cases, points of view and policies expressed by those on the left side of the aisle, and sometimes even dislike someones character (again never judged on one or even just a couple instances) I would never profess to HATING Hillary Clinton or Ted Kennedy, although I dislike their ideas and their methods.
How could I HATE them? I don't even know them. Hell, in a personal sense, I could even end up being friends with one of them. Either way I cannot make a decision (nee judgement) without first having the facts.
I realize this is long, and I am sorry for that, I simply want to correct the mistaken idea that conservatives routinely BASH others for their beliefs and ideas. Some do, I am sure, just as someone somewhere probably believes that Superman is a real person living in Bermuda with Elvis and Jim Morrison.
I just want people to understand that it is possible to be conservative, even an avowed Republican and still care about other people and what they think and feel.
I want to thank you for the forum and for taking the time to read this, and most importantly, Shannon, I wish you luck, prosperity, and good health. I hope you find and achieve true happiness and inner peace.
Thanks again and you may address any comments/criticism to me @ Pantyh0sePhan@aol.com (the O is a zero), Steven
Hi Shannon,
I love your site and can never get tired of reading it over and over again, though I like to read about you more than anything!
Dont blame yourself , you did what you had to do, you are no murderer..
As for the pics who wouldnt like to see you finally
Your life, your decisions. You are the one who has to live with the consequences, don't ask others for their opinions. But I **would** like to see the pictures ;-)
How do I get out of here?
I am sorry that you decided to abort your baby. I will pray for you and for your baby.
I noticed in your blog that you were bashing yourself. Not much I can do to help you there. I do know that there are groups that help women who have aborted their babies.
As far as the "Right Wingers," what you did is between you and your God. If you choose NOT to believe, then either you or I will be correct in the end. I hope you make peace with your God. I think that the only person who is condemning your right now is you.
I can only hope that you will not try to repress the abortion or blame it on someone else or something like that. I can only hope that you will find peace. I can only hope that you will be happy.
Peace be with you.
Hi, I suppose I am one of those right wingers.
But then I can't very well go pointing at the speck in your eye because of the log in my own. What log? Well, I'm reading this aren't I? That is just for starters...
I will not pray for your baby; he or she is in God's hands now. But I am going to pray for you: for healing in your spirit and life in the midst of this crisis.
As for your sins, they are not my business, but if you let them be Jesus' business, they will be taked away from you and remembered no more by God. (Jeremiah 31:31-34)
I pray his blessings and peace on you.
Tony
Its so sad that women use abortion as a form of birth control.
I think the stats are around 98% of them do. When I ask any woman if they think that using abortion as a form of birth control is a good idea they always say no. Then they instantly go into a diatribe about this and that how raped women should be allowed to abort and how incest cause pregnancy.
I can again re-direct them back to abortion as a form of birth controal which agitates them even more and their "feelings" get vocalized even harsher.
Its all about you and your body. Nothing else matters. As long as you feel good about killing a baby so be it. Why should anyone else matter.
Kill away.........
Shannon
From my heart to yours....
I had a,life much like yours. I finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I woke up one morning and swore at God and yelled "God I dont want to live like this anymore".
He answered my prayer and led me to AA. I have been sober and drug free for 16 years now. My life has improved in ways that I cant describe.
Maybe it can help you to?
NO.
Keep being yourself. Let it come. You will surprise yourself, happily before it's all over.
--Vitanaut
I have a feeling at least 99.9% of the people who condemned you for aborting are male.
And birth control?!
Who the fuck came up with the idea that all women who abort see the process as a form of birth control?
When someone discovers a (non-permanent) contraceptive method other than sterilization that's 100% fool-proof, then we can talk. Some women are essentially immune to birth control pills. Condoms break. Withdrawal smitschdrawal. Until then, just shut the fuck up and accept the fact that sometimes, despite preparation, accidents can happen.
While I admit there are irresponsible young women out there who resemble rabbits in bed with no regard for the consequence, there are also countless women out there who agonize over the decision but in the end decide it's better to let the child go, than to bring it up in a world where they will have to watch the child suffer.
There are people out there who skin animals alive and leave them to die in writhing unbearable pain, who kill their children because they're female, who physically, emotionally and verbally abuse helpless, bewildered children.
Please, if you absolutely must be a right-winger, go bother those people and leave Shannon alone.
Personally, I wouldn't want to see your pics, Shannon. I'm curious like the next person, but hell, this is where you vent, and I believe the anonymity allows you to really let things out. I wouldn't want to take that away from you. If you really want to though, go ahead. Sometimes it's good to be recognized.
It's your choice, gurl...
We love you either way.
In Ghandi's time, the Hindus and Muslims set about fighting each other over India after the British were expelled. The fighting led to bloodshed which was completely opposite of Ghandi's teachings. One man in particular, a Hindu came to Ghandhi in despair over having killed a Muslim man while enraged. The Hindu was afraid he would go to Hell for his actions. Ghandi told him "I know a way out of Hell." He told the Hindu to and find a child who might not otherwise live and devote himself to raising that child in the name of the man he killed.
No criticism. You aborted two souls and you now feel like shit.
Imagine how you will feel as the years go by and you remember the two kinds you got rid of.
how can you abort? bitch
How can people be such jerks!? It is rediculous for people to be judging you based on what you did? You did what you felt you needed to do.
Stripping isn't such a bad thing. Guys enjoy such things, and you supply what guys enjoy. What did you do back in high school? Who were you in high school?
As for the pictures... It would be cool, but who took them?? What site??
YOU ARE A FUCKING CLUELESS HOE
GET A REAL FUCKING JOB YOU STUPID FUCK
Shannon, as much as a pervert as I am my heart goes out to you. I love seeing the female body. Clothed or naked I love it. But there is no way I would ever disrespect that body. I mean like you girls are TOO special. I am an older man and I truely believe in letting the woman decide the course of action. If sex is not a part of it I feel very honored that a woman would at least take the time to talk to me and try to get to know me. On the abortion thing I cannot tell you if you were right or wrong. I can only tell you that if you were comfortable with that then what else matters? Personally I am pro- life but I am also of the mindset that people have the RIGHT to make their own decisions. My dear, you are NOT going to burn in hell, the worst that can happen is that you might regret NOT having a child. BTW have I told you lately I love your posts? I do and I hope you don't mind having a conservative as an admirer! See I told you I was a pervert, LOL. Love you gal! keep up the writing and don't worry about we old farts! We just want in your pants, remember that ;) Oh , pictures, I would love them. They need not be nudies (but if they are :)))I would like very much to see Shannon!
Izbeyond
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