Every so often for the last few years, it has been my distinct privilege to log into my authoring e-mail account, and find not spam, but fan mail. On no less than 100 occasions in the last few years, I have gotten that distinct pleasure, and wonderful joy. To those of you who've taken the time to write me, thank you.
But, there were a great many more times, that is until the reports broke down late last year, I was receiving weekly traffic reports. And, even calculating up until then, I count no less than ten thousand, perhaps even twenty thousand unique visitors to my website, to read my story in particular. I had to sit there and roll it around in my head for a moment and say, vulgar as it may sound, "Holy shit, that is a lot of people to read my little tale.". To the many people who have read the story, although so few of you spoke up, thanks for taking the time to do it. I hope that at least some of you got something out of it.
Promises were made about Awakened Dreams and they weren't kept. I thought I could pick back up the story a year or two after I stopped writing it. Then another few months went by. Then a year went by. So on, and time passed until today. I've thought about it long and hard, and I must sadly announce that I do not intend to pick back up Awakened Dreams anytime in the foreseeable future. What I have written, and unreleased contains work that I don't feel is of the same calibre as the first four chapters. I'm not who I was when I tried to write that material. A man sees the world the same after five years, has wasted five years of his life to make a brutal paraphrasing of Muhammad Ali. (read: "The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life.")
As such, I can try to dabble with the story, I can tweak it and flip it around. But when I read what's been written after chapter 4 feels different somehow. The atmosphere of the story just isn't there.
With that in mind, I've begun working on something a little different. I doubt it'll involve Changeling, and in fact I'm still deciding on a paradigm. But, I'll ask you to stick around and keep half an eye on my web every so often. It just might change shape when you aren't looking.
