Cabbage
Patch
Cowboy
By
Waddie
Greywolf
Chapter
4
Morgan didn't
hang around. He paid his respects to Buck's parents, hugged and
kissed Waddie, and told him to mind his Uncle Buck.
“I love you,
Dad. Don't worry, we'll work things out somehow. I have
faith in you,” Waddie tried to reassure his dad.
“I love you,
too, Son. I feel better about bringing you here to stay for a while.
For now, it's
the right thing to do. See, cowboy, daddy's trying,” Morgan said
with contrition. Waddie hugged and kissed his dad one last
time. Morgan left and his uncle told Waddie to come upstairs with
him. Waddie joined Buck at the bottom of the stairs. His
uncle couldn't resist picking up Waddie and carrying him in his
arms. It was more than a gesture of affection. It was a
subtle symbolic statement the big cowboy was making to pledge his
support for his little buddy as his strength lifted them from one level
to the next. As young as he
was, the boy didn't miss the full meaning of Buck's action. He
threw his little arms around his uncle's huge bull-like neck and
excepted Buck's generous magnanimous empathy. Waddie never
experienced such a free out-pouring of love from any adult as he sensed
in the big cowboy's need to offer him sanctuary. He felt like a
young prince with his own man servant to cater to his needs. Buck
and his parents showed Waddie more love the first afternoon in their
home than Waddie ever received from the three in his home.
"One of these
days, I'm gonna' turn around, and you'll be too big for me to pick
up. You don't mind Uncle Buck getting in a lot of this while
you're still small, do you? Then I can remember how wonderful and
special you were to me when you were this size. I have a feeling
you're gonna' be wonderful and special to me for many years to come,
cowboy," Buck said.
"Lord, no, Uncle
Buck. I don't mind a' tall. It'll help keep ma' boots from
wearing out so fast," Waddie replied in his best cowboy
drawl. Buck roared with laughter, but Waddie was
thinking, 'Did he just call me wonderful? Special? No
one's ever called me wonderful or special before,' Waddie
throught to himself.
Buck took Waddie
to his big room at the top of the stairs. It was not unlike the big man
who lived
there. It was huge. It was on a corner of the house and
boasted eight windows, four on each side. It was originally two
large bedrooms with a bath next to the other. With Morgan's help,
Buck and his dad knocked out the wall between the two rooms. Since it
was a main bearing wall, they had to run a heavy laminated
header across the span, brace it on the ends, and equally space it with
two other post. Together, the two rooms made one huge room. When the
windows were open, there was always a nice current of air
through the room. The room smelled
like his uncle, of Lilac Vegetal aftershave, hard milled soap, old
spice, leather, boots, tack, horse sweat, and the gentle, lingering
scent of his Uncle Buck's musky male odor. It was the same smell
Waddie smelled when he laid his head in his uncle's lap while he was in
the hospital. It was as highly intoxicating then as it was
now. He loved it. He remembered his dad's lecture about his
uncle's house rules. He immediately took off his clothes and
stood naked in front of his uncle. Buck raised and eyebrow and smiled
at him. "You
been talking wiff' your dad, Son?" Buck asked quietly.
"Yes, sir. I
just wanted you to feel comfortable with me," Waddie replied.
"Well, wait a
minute, and Uncle Buck will join you," he said. Waddie watched
his uncle undress and even helped him with his big heavy buckaroo
boots. The more clothing the big man removed, Waddie noticed
something strange happening to his pee-pee. It was growing and
sticking straight out. He didn't know why, but it didn’t feel
wrong. It felt right. It felt good. By the time Buck
was fully naked Waddie's little penis was hard as a rock.
"Uncle Buck?"
"Yeah, sweet
buckaroo?"
"Why is my
pee-pee like this? It ain't never done this before," Waddie
said. Buck glanced down, threw back his head, and laughed. Buck
squatted down to Waddie's height and opened his arms for Waddie to
come to him. Waddie didn't hesitate. His body was pressed
tightly against his angel's naked body, and it felt fine. He felt
his little legs were impeding his uncle's cock so he simply spread his
legs, and it popped up between them. Then, as if it was the most
natural thing to do, he closed his little legs around it. He
looked into Buck's eyes. They both saw a glint of mischief in
each other's eyes and laughed together.
"That was very
thoughtful of you, young man, and I appreciate you helping me hold it
there. It gets s’damn heavy carrying that big thing around all
day. That kind a’ gives it a little rest," Buck said softly and
stole a kiss.
"You feel good,
Uncle Buck. Is it wrong to think you feel good to me?" Waddie
asked.
"Course
not. You should never be ashamed of yore’ body, and if you have a
buddy you're comfortable with and he's comfortable with you, when you
share things like this with him then it feels good to both of you," the
big cowboy said.
"Do I feel good
to you, Uncle Buck?" Waddie asked.
"Ain't never
held't me nobody what felt no better'n you, sweet baby. You'n me
was buddies the minute I walked through that hospital door. I saw
a hungry look in your little eyes what said, ‘Please, God, let this big
cowboy be my buddy.’ I know’d it, too. I didn't have no
choice in the matter. I knew right then and there, if I had to
change my life around, I had to be that little cowboy's buddy," Buck
assured him.
"How did you
read my mind like that, Uncle Buck, 'cause that's exactly what I was
thinking?" Waddie confirmed.
"T'weren't no
magic to it, cowboy. I ain’t real sure how it happened, but for
one brief moment, I could hear yore’ thoughts."
Waddie couldn't
remember being held by a naked man before, not even his dad, but
somehow his Uncle Buck felt awful damn good. He not only felt
good, he also felt more wanted than any time in his life. He felt his
buddy, his angel, his friend, had a right to hold him close
any damn time he wanted. He knew with the openness of a child
there wasn't anything wrong with it. It wasn't perverse or
something for which he needed to feel ashamed. It felt good to
feel his body pressed up against the big cowboy he came to adore in
such a short period of time. His Uncle Buck just felt
right. In his arms was where Waddie belonged. He was
welcome. He was wanted. He was loved.
The big cowboy
holding him would have fought with his life in the balance for the boy
and did. He wore the medals and scars to prove it. Buck
Claymore made a commitment to a frightened little boy, and he made a
promise to himself: whenever this child needed the shelter of his arms,
they would always be open to him. The big man kept that promise
to the child all his life. Waddie was never turned away from his
buddy's, his angel's arms. It's not the act of a parent holding
his child while nude that's perverse, it's the society that imposes out
dated mores due to man's snail like pace in accepting belief systems
that work for them instead of living by standards set down by sheep
herders over two thousand years ago.
Buck moved him back a little
and looked down. "Okay, cowboy,
now, look down ‘nair at yore' ole Uncle Buck's dick. What ‘da ya’
see?" Buck asked.
"It got bigger,
straight, and hard like mine," Waddie observed.
"You wanna' feel
it?" Buck asked.
"Sure, if’n you
don't mind. Is it okay?" Waddie asked.
"Course it is,
Son. Anytime we're here together, with our clothes off, you don't
never have to ask. Just let me know afore you do, so's I won't
jump like a bullfrog on a' hot rock and go through the roof,
okay? Sometimes your old Uncle Buck gets a mite goosey," Buck chuckled.
Waddie giggled.
"Sure, Uncle
Buck, I'll remember," Waddie said, knelt down in front of his uncle,
and
took his huge cock in both his little hands to feel its hardness and
marveled at it. He very gently took his uncle's low hanging balls
in his small hands and gently felt each ball inside. With his
uncle squatting down in front of him they hung within inches of the
floor. They reminded Waddie of a bull he saw on the property
across the way from the ranch. Uncle Buck's balls had to be that big or
bigger, he'd wager.
"Damn. You're
big all over, Uncle Buck," Waddie said in awe.
"I'm a' thinking
you're gonna' be, too, young'un. When I's yore' age my old saddle
horn weren't near big as yorn is now," he allowed.
"Really?"
"I'm telling you
the truth. Later, I'll show you some pictures of me and your dad
when we's just about yore' age, but you wanted to know why your cock
got hard like that. Can I feel yours?" Buck asked.
"Sure, you let
me touch yours, h’it's only fair," Waddie replied. Buck smiled and
gently took hold of
Waddie's ample cock; ample for his size and age. Buck wasn't
joking with his nephew, Waddie was quite a bit larger than he was at
five years old, and he was hard as a rock.
"Damn, Waddie,
that thing's rock hard. Is this the first time it’s ever done
this?" Buck asked.
"Yes, sir. Ain't
never happened to me before. Is it normal or do I have to
go back to the hospital?" Waddie asked with concern. Buck laughed
and pulled Waddie to him again.
"No, no, cowboy,
it's normal. Mine's hard, too. It means you like someone's
body. You see them, think you might like to feel your body touch
theirs, nature sends a lot of blood to your penis, and it gets
hard. It'll go away, naturally, in a few minutes," Buck assured him.
"When I watched
you take your clothes off, that's all I could think about was how
wonderful lying next to you might feel," Waddie said like he was
sharing a sacred trust with his uncle. Buck got choked up from
the innocence of his nephew and the unbridled candor of his unwitting
sentiment.
"That's about
the sweetest damn thing anybody's ever said to this old cowboy, Waddie,
and you know why it was so sweet? Because it came from the
honesty of a an innocent heart. If all the world could deal with
each other with such honesty, there wouldn’t be no more war. Get
up here, and we'll just see how it feels. How 'bout ‘tat?" he asked.
Buck put his big hands under Waddie's arms, raised him up and onto his
big bed. Buck crawled up beside Waddie, and pulled him as close
as he could into the spoon position. He kissed him on his neck
and gently rubbed his little back. "Well, does it feel like you
thought it would, cowboy?" Buck asked.
"No, sir, much
better. I ain’t never had nobody hold me like this Uncle
Buck," the boy replied. Waddie couldn't help himself, he was so
overcome by the
love he felt coming from his uncle he started crying. Buck knew
why he was crying and soothed him. Buck actually felt the depth
of the child's pain for an instant and almost withdrew his hand in
disbelief. He didn't feel as much pain shoot through his body
when he was wounded. This small, beautiful, helpless child was so
starved for love, it tugged at Buck's heart like the chain to a pocket
watch on a fat man. Buck was beginning to carve out a picture of
what this little boy went through, and he didn't like the images
running through his mind. Waddie was gently crying from joy and
confusion. He didn't know how or if he should risk accepting
Buck's affection, because love was always given to him with a string
attached.
As quickly as
the love starved child would grab for a small piece, it would be
quickly pulled away. Set up/rejection. Set up/rejection,
over and over again. Now, here he was lying in the arms of his
own personal well-spring of love, and it was overwhelming. Surely
he would drown in his uncle's love. Waddie never ventured down
the trail that leads to the shore of the waters of belonging. No
one ever showed him the way. He wasn't really sure belonging was
something meant for him. He knew he wasn't perfect, but he tried
to be good. He knew nothing of the gentle ebb and flow of an
accepting tide as it gently comes and goes, rises and falls, gives and
takes, to wash over and nourish a small soul. Nor, did he ever
wade, hand in hand, into the shallows of affection's calming sea. Now,
he found himself in the middle of a boundless ocean of purest
love, and he didn't even know how to dog paddle.
"Ain't never had
me nobody hold me like this, Uncle Buck. I appreciate it more
than I can tell you. It makes me feel wanted and good in my
heart," Waddie confided quietly.
"Well, ya'
better get use to it, pilgrim," Buck said in his best John Wayne
imitation to the small empty vessel in his arms, "'cause your Uncle
Buck's a huggin' fool, and once he gets a handsome little cowboy in his
arms
he don't never let go. Why, I been known to crawl in a cave in
the fall with a fine little buddy like you, hold him in my arms, tell
him I love him, steal all his kisses he's got saved up, whisper to him
how wonderful and special he is, how lucky I am to have a little cowboy
buddy like him to hold, and not come out 'til spring," Buck
growled like a bear and exchanged Waddie's tears for gales of laughter
and giggles. Waddie lay quiet for a moment. "Something
wrong, buckaroo?" Buck asked cautiously.
"Naw, Sir, I’s
just trying to figure out whether I really did die and this is heaven,"
Waddie replied.
Buck rolled on
his stomach throwing his arm over on top of his nephew. He didn't
want his nephew to see the water in his eyes. "No, sweet buckaroo, you
didn't die. This is how people can be with each other without
shame or pretense, when they love each other without conditions or
restrictions, just the honest caring of two buddies enjoying each
other's company. Love flows freely back and forth. I feel
your love, and I know you feel mine. I don't think that smile's
left yore' sweet face for more'n five minutes since you got here, but
that's good, Son, it's damn good to see you smile. So, as long as
we're up here in our world, we don't wear no clothes. 'Cause with
no clothes, everyone's reduced to a common denominator. That's a
fancy way of saying everybody's on the same level. We're most all
born with the same equipment so no man's better'n any other when he's
naked. 'Sides that, it makes you more outgoing when you're out
with people. I don't know why, it just does, and one other thing
I noticed, it ain't real easy to lie to a naked man for some
reason. I make an exception for winter time, 'cause you really
need something to help conserve your body heat. When we get one of
them 'blue northerns' and it comes a' rolling across the flatlands, it
gets
colder'n an Eskimo's noonie up here," Buck declared.
"What's an
Eskimo noonie, Uncle Buck?" Waddie asked.
"These,
silly..." Buck replied, reached over, and lightly pinched Waddie's
teat. He
looked at his uncle with a twinkle in his eye. Buck knew he was
going to get it back, for damn sure.
"My dad told me,
whatever someone touches on your body, gives you the right to touch on
their body," Waddie said and grinned. Buck couldn't believe
how fast the kid's hands were. He got both Buck’s big tits at the
same time, then rolled over on his belly, and laughed his ass
off. Buck couldn't help laugh. It was good to see his
nephew enjoying himself.
"Now, where were
we? Oh, yes, if yore’ old man comes to visit, he's gotta'
take off his clothes. Them's my rules. No exceptions. Think you're
gonna' be comfortable with it, cowboy?" Buck asked.
"I'm more
comfortable than I ever been in my life, Uncle Buck, especially with
you. You talk with me, Uncle Buck. You take time to explain
things to me, you don't talk down to me, you assume I got some
intelligence, and best of all, you listen to what I got to say. Ain't
never had nobody do that before, not even my dad. My dad
don't listen to a thing I say. He tells me he always knows better
‘cause he's bigger and older. What I got to say don't matter
none, 'cause I's just a kid what don't know nothing, so why take the
time to listen. That's why I ended up on the floor of that
closet. Nobody listened. I don't wanna’ end up in that
closet again, Uncle Buck," Waddie said, held tight to his uncle, and
the tears started again.
"I promise, it
won't happen on my watch, cowboy, but if you feel the urge, you git
frightened so bad you need to hide, then yore’ old buddy will be right
in there with ya,'" Buck promised.
"You can't sit
in no closet, Uncle Buck, it's only for kids," Waddie said through his
tears.
"Bullshit! The
hell I can't. I'll go anywhere my buddy goes if he needs me,"
Buck boldly declared.
Buck soothed him
and held him. He didn't tell him to stop crying, he figured the
boy had a right to a few tears. Buck wasn't at all what Waddie
hoped and prayed for in a champion. The big cowboy was far more
than he might have imagined. His uncle was constantly reminding
him, by God, he had a buddy now and they may as well be conjoined at
the hip because he wasn't going to let go. Buck committed for the
long haul. Buck was slowly beginning to put together a picture of
what daily life must have been like for Waddie in Morgan's house. You
certainly couldn't call it a home. To call it a home meant a
loving family dwelt there. Buck was beginning to believe there
was nothing resembling a family in that house. Buck was beginning
to wonder if the bizarre stories Waddie told him that night in the
hospital were enlarged? ‘Maybe not,’ he thought.
Buck bought a
huge leather covered couch he could stretch out on and read. He
positioned a bright light at both ends to make reading easier. He
decided to read for a while as it was early evening. There was
just enough room for Waddie to lie on it, too, with his back to his
uncle. He lay his head on Buck's left shoulder. Buck held
his book in his left hand and turned pages with his right. After
a while, he switched the book to his right hand and began to turn pages
with his left. Waddie couldn't wait for him to turn the
page. When Buck raised his left arm to turn the page it open up
his pit and the smells coming from him were the sweet imaginings of
Waddie's dreams. He couldn't get enough of his uncle's man smell
coming from under his arms.
It didn't
stink. It was a powerful, strong, healthy, masculine odor like it
was a signature of his uncle's body. It was the same musky smell
he smelled when his uncle first brought him into the room. It was
much more powerful lying in his big arms. He knew that's where
the wonderful smell of his uncle came from, and he couldn't get
enough. It was like a strong, powerful pheromone made him want to
belong to this man and smell like him someday. He noticed his
pee-pee was starting to act up again. He made a mental note to
have a talk with it later. He could see how it might become
embarrassing. He would make sure they came to an understanding,
and he would learn to control it.
"Uncle Buck?"
"Yes,
sweetheart?"
"You smell so
good. I hope I smell as good as you do someday," Waddie said.
Buck put his
book down, pulled Waddie up to his chest, and held him. He
remembered nights as a small boy, when his mother would visit
relatives in Dallas, he'd get to sleep with his dad. He
remembered thinking the same thing about his old man and wanting to
smell like him someday. He remembered the nights, so many nights,
he lay his head back on Morgan's side and would lift Morgan's arm,
placing it to lie on his head. He would drift back to peaceful
sleep with his nose shoved as far into Morgan's pit as possible. It was
like a relaxing, familiar odor of the boy he loved so much,
reassuring him of the powerful pull of Morgan's body and his unfailing
love for him orbiting within the space of his dreams. Morgan shared a
portion of his dreams as well. Buck wanted him to. He
wanted to be with Morgan everywhere, always, together, even in his
dreams, united by a thin, silver thread running from their navels to
their stilled and sleeping bodies, hand in hand they floated off toward
the moon, laughing and playing grab-ass, a stolen map of the universe
in hand they pinched from a midget time bandit pruning a foul smelling
pink bunkadoo tree. Upward and onward they searched 'til dawn,
determined, this time, to find an elusive body in the heavens never to
be found on any astronomer's map, the second star to the right.
"You trying to
say Uncle Buck's arm pits are gettin' a mite strong?" Buck asked with a
grin.
"No, sir, Uncle
Buck, they could be a little stronger for me. I ain't never
smelled nobody what smells as good as you," Waddie replied.
"Well, we'll
clean up before we go to bed. I'll get you in the shower, take a
soft cloth, and bathe you real good."
"You gonna' wash
all that good smell off of you? I could lie here and smell you
all night, Uncle Buck?" Buck seemed to muse for a minute; he was
tempted, but not tonight. He kissed Waddie on the cheek.
"Yeah, tonight
we'll shower. Some other night when we're being lazy we won't,
and you can smell me all night. But fair's fair. You can't
shower neither. Uncle Buck might like to smell his little buddy's
body next to him. I know how important those smells can be to a
kid. I used to love to sleep with my dad, wake up in the night
and take deep breaths of his masculine odor hoping it would make me
become more like him. It worked, too. Once in a while, I
still get a whiff of my old man after he's been working hard and have
to tell ya,' little buddy, it still causes Uncle Buck to pop a
boner," Buck said and laughed. Waddie laughed, too. His uncle’s
joy of life was infectious. Waddie was never around an adult who
was so comfortable with themself.
"Can I bathe
you, Uncle Buck?" Waddie asked.
"Don't see why
not. They's a lot more of me to warsh than you, though. We'll see how
good you are at scrubbing your buddy's back. You
know yore’ daddy scrubbed my back for almost twenty years, and I
scrubbed his. We always showered together ever since we's kids,"
Buck said and laughed. Both set of parents were aware Buck and
Morgan showered together. They did since the first grade. They were
getting ready for their senior prom still taking their shower
together.
"Well, h’it
saves water," Dad Claymore allowed.
Buck led the way
to his bathroom. There was the usual equipment with a big
bathtub, but in the corner was a large walk-in shower that had plenty
of room for four or five people and had two shower heads. He and
Morgan put it in years ago with their dad's help. Buck remembered
what fun they had, and the ecstasy of standing under the hot running
water of the shower instead of sitting in that awful, nasty bathtub
that would leave a ring of filth around itself as well as you. 'We got
them limey bastards to thank for that terrible
invention,' thought Buck. A stuffy British officer once
told Buck, "You Yanks are weak. You cry at the least provocation,
where as, British men, on the other hand, are taught to be strong and
not express their emotions. Why, with all your caterwauling at
the drop of a hat, you Yanks are an embarrassment to real men
everywhere," he announced haughtily. Then he wheeled on his very
polished boot heel and minced
off amid snickers from the Americans.
'Stiff upper lip
my ass,' thought Buck at the time, 'Such self-righteous
hypocritical bullshit ain't got no place on a battlefield, especially
when your comrades at arms stepped in to save your bloody ass.' Buck
saw British soldiers weeping uncontrollably while holding their
fallen comrades in their arms. They were neither stronger, nor
braver than any other men, and when the smoke cleared, a tear wasn't
the final measure of a man, it was his deeds.
Buck was
squatting down bathing Waddie between his open legs. Waddie couldn't
remember a time when anybody bathed him. He was lost in
his own world of sensuality. He didn't understand the concept,
but he knew he liked the feeling. He knew his buddy wouldn't do
anything to harm him. He relaxed, enjoyed Buck's big hand, and
the soft cloth on his body. 'Damn that thing. Now this is
getting out of hand. There it goes, filling up with blood again,
and I didn't do nothing to make it do that. Yes,' he thought, 'it
will be a serious talk. Uncle Buck's done this before. He
had all them years to practice on my dad. No wonder he feels so
good, he knows what he's doing.’
Buck carefully
bathed Waddie, turned him around so his front was facing away from him,
and pulled Waddie close to his big body. Waddie stumbled a bit,
but Buck caught him and steadied him. He could feel the prickly
but soft quality of the hair on his uncle's big chest tickling his
small back. If he leaned back a little, yes, there, it's not so
ticklish now. “That's fine, lean back against me, cowboy. There, that's
good. You can always count on a good buddy to lean
on, cowboy, but now, we gotta' warsh ‘possible.’”
“What's
‘possible’ Uncle Buck?” Waddie asked. He quickly learned the
tone of his uncle's voice when his mouth was about to void itself of
steer manure and braced himself.
"Ain't nobody
never done taught chu’ how to bathe yourself, cowboy?" he ask in triple
negatives.
"No, sir, I
guess not," Waddie replied.
"Well, first you
warsh up as far as possible, then you warsh down as far as possible,
and finally -- you warsh possible," Buck replied. The big cowboy had a
hardy laugh at his
own joke. Waddie got an awful look on his face.
"Oh, Uncle Buck,
that's really bad," Waddie said and started giggling because it was so
silly.
"You're a tough
audience, kid," Buck said and laughed.
"Okay, it's time
to warsh ‘possible.’ Lean back against me and pull the skin all
the way back. There, that's it. Now let Uncle Buck warsh
that big thing gently so's not to hurt ya’ none,” Buck said.
Waddie did as
his uncle asked and watched Buck's huge mountain of a man's hand gently
start to clean the head of his penis.
“Oh, God, Uncle
Buck that tickles,” Waddie said, started to jump, but he was up against
a man-mountain. “Hurry up, Uncle Buck, I don't think I can take
much more.” Waddie was giggling, but his face had a contorted
look. Buck pulled back and wondered if the boy almost had a dry
orgasm. Waddie turned in toward his uncle and pressed his body
hard against his uncle’s while Buck held him.
“Turn around now
and pull it back again to rinse off the soap,” Buck said. Waddie
slowly turned around and again leaned back against his uncle for
support. He slowly turned his head to look at Buck, then blushed.
“Oh, you want me
to do it for you, and you's too shy to ask?” Buck asked. Waddie
nodded his little head in embarrassment. Buck whispered in his
ear.
“My buddy won't
never be embarrassed to ask his buddy to help him with anything from
now on, will he, cowboy?" Buck asked.
“No, sir, Uncle
Buck,” Waddie replied.
“Good.”
Buck took his
rock hard little penis and gently pulled back the foreskin so the
falling water from the shower-head could rinse the soap. At that
angle, the force of the falling water on Waddie's front was pretty
strong. Buck watched Waddie grab his big wrist between his
smaller hands and lock them tightly. He didn't want Buck to move
his hand away. Waddie wanted to keep him there holding on to his
cock. Buck thought it must have become terribly sensual for his
nephew. Again Buck sensed Waddie didn't want to ask, but his
small hands spoke for him and said, ‘Please don't take your hand away,
Uncle Buck, I never felt anything so wonderful in my life.’ Waddie
squirmed and pressed back, hard, against his uncle, almost
knocking him over.
He slightly
arched his spine until he stood on tip toe, threw back his head, took
in three short gasps of air, shuddered hard three times, then expelled
the gasped air in a slow, controlled, relaxed sigh, all the while
holding his uncle's wrist in a death grip. Waddie released his
grip and turned into his uncle's body again to press his cheek against
his chest and his hands on either side of his head touching Buck in as
many places as his body would allow. Because of the uncertainty
of what just happened to him he needed to feel his uncle close to him
for emotional support. He needed his uncle's strength at that
moment. Buck understood and held him. He stood silent
enjoying the comfort of his uncle surrounding him. Waddie was
trying to collect himself as Buck stole a couple of kisses.
“You okay, sweet
baby buckaroo?” Buck asked quietly.
“Yes, sir,”
Waddie nodded still pressed tightly up against his uncle's chest, “I
think so, but I ain't never felt nothing like that before when I
warshed my pee-pee. What happened to me, Uncle Buck? I feel
kind of light headed.”
“I think you're
growing up, youngster. I think you just had yore’ first dry
orgasm. How'd it feel?” Waddie had to stop and think about
it. It was pretty damn exciting. It was a little like
somebody shocking you from rubbing their feet on the carpet, but this
tingled all over. He sure felt good, though. He
felt like his soul was put through a wringer. He said a prayer of
thanks his Uncle Buck was there when it happened to explain it to him.
“Leaning back on
you, with your arms around me, holding my pee-pee was the best feeling
I ever had, and when this other feeling come over me, I never wanted it
to
stop. It felt better, and better. When I leaned against you
harder, it even felt better until something made me feel wonderful all
over. It felt like I was releasing a part of my soul into the
air. It was like my soul hiccuped. Yeah, I'd say it felt
pert-damn good, Uncle Buck. Can we do it again sometime?”
“Don't see why
not, scamp, but let's get me warshed up and get to bed. It's
git'n late,” Buck declared.
Waddie took the soapy cloth and washed his uncle's
back. Buck was right, there was one hell of a lot of back there
to wash, but Waddie persisted until every inch was cleaned. Buck
stood, rinsed and thanked his little buddy. "For the sake of
time, cowboy, what say you let Uncle Buck warsh the rest. Then,
on the weekend, we'll have more time, and you can warsh all of me if'n
ya' like,” Buck said.
“That's fine,
Uncle Buck, warshing yore’ back kinda tuckered me out anyway,” Waddie
agreed.
Buck
laughed at Waddie's words. The kid made him feel good, alive,
purposeful, and needed. Waddie could be unexpectedly funny in his
reactions to things and sometimes painfully honest. This would be
good training for him, thought Buck, when he had six, no, eight son's
of his own. Eight boys should be enough with at least one, maybe
two, three, okay, half like Waddie.
They got out of
the shower and Buck dried Waddie first then dried himself. He
handed the towel to Waddie and squatted down so Waddie could dry his
back for him. Waddie was diligent in getting his uncle's back as
dry as
possible. They were through in the bathroom. Buck picked
him up and carried him into the bedroom, laid him gently in his bed and
pulled the covers over him. He went around to his side, turned
off his small lamp by the bed, then lay down. Waddie was all the
way over on the other side. His uncle put him there. If that's
where he wanted him to sleep, Waddie would go to sleep there. “You
gonna'
sleep way over there all night, cowboy? By yore’self? What
if I get lonely?” Buck asked like a lonesome cowboy.
That's all
Waddie needed to be back in Buck’s big wonderful arms again. Waddie was
lying with his back to his uncle's front and Buck pulled him
up tight. Waddie turned his head up to his uncle and met his
mouth. Buck kissed him with the gentlest of kisses and didn't
hurry about it. 'Damn,' Waddie thought, 'ain't never had nobody
kiss me like that. I'm pretty sure I love this man.'
“Good night,
cowboy.”
“Good night,
Uncle Buck.”
“I'm glad you're
here with me, Son. I love you, Waddie.”
“I love you,
too, Uncle Buck.”
Waddie never
spoke any words he meant more. He knew his words didn't fall on
deaf ears nor would his words be soon forgotten or ever betrayed.
* * * * * * *
The next
morning, Buck called Morgan to see about getting some of Waddie's other
clothes. The clothes Morgan brought to the hospital were the only
clothes Waddie had. Morgan was really upset on the phone. Buck knew his
brother well and knew when he was hurting and really
pissed. According to Morgan, Waddie’s ma, Judy, got it in her
head he wasn't coming back at all. She thought Morgan gave Waddie
to Buck to raise. No way was she going
to accept the blame for this. It wasn’t her fault.
She claimed Morgan
never told her anything. He never said a damn thing. How
was she to know? What did he expect? She constantly had to second guess
him. It was his own damn fault for not letting her
know.
She gave away
all of Waddie's clothes and toys. His room was cleaned out.
Nothing was left. Buck felt an emptiness in his gut, but tried
his best to console his brother. He wasn't having much
luck. Morgan said little, but that alone spoke volumes to
Buck. He knew his brother like a favorite book. When Morgan
was quiet, he was hurting his worst. How could Waddie's ma throw
his clothes and toys out only a couple of days after he was rushed to
the
hospital? He was getting better. He didn't die. Was
this her ultimate rejection? How could a mother be that
cold? Morgan didn't find out until much later Willie did it, but
Judy took the rap. She knew if Morgan found out the truth, Willie
would be out of the house immediately, for good.
Morgan was
livid. He was mostly embarrassed by their actions and didn't
speak to them for two weeks. He moved into Waddie's bedroom and
cried himself to sleep night after night. Buck felt awful for
Waddie, but the kid surprised him, he didn't shed a tear. His
attitude was, so what else is new? It was like he expected
it. He'd been there and back. They kicked him in the teeth
so many times, what was a few more teeth? Nothing they could do
would surprise him anymore. Waddie looked up at Buck with his big clear
blue eyes. “Do you believe me now, Uncle Buck?” Waddie asked barely
above a whisper as a single tear rolled down his little cheek.
“I believed you
the night you told me, Waddie, but if there was ever the slightest
lingering doubt in my mind, it's gone now, Buckaroo,” Buck said and
hugged the
boy, "And one more thing I know is true, my buckaroo buddy won't never
lie to me," he added and stole a kiss.
“Thanks, Uncle
Buck,” was all he said and let it drop. Buck could tell something
snapped in Waddie. There was no longer a need for tears. He
was getting stronger. Buck could see his little square jaw was
set. Buck could tell Waddie made up his mind about something. It was a
major
decision, but he was going to keep it to himself, at least for a while.
Buck decided if
it didn't get to Waddie, then he wasn't going to let it get to
him. Buck saw it as an opportunity. A clean slate. A
new day dawning. A new beginning. He quickly gathered his
can-do cowboy spirit. Buck was bound and determined he was going
to convey his love and that attitude to his little buddy.
“Come on,
cowboy, git chore’ handsome little ass in gear,” Buck barked good
naturedly to his nephew, “You, me, and Grandma Claymore are going
downtown. We're gonna' git chu’ some new clothes," Buck
held out his hand for the boy.
Waddie didn't
come to him. He stood looking down at his boots. He spoke
softly, “I'm sorry, Uncle Buck,” Waddie lamented on the verge of tears.
“Sorry for what,
Darlin'?” Buck asked bemused.
“For being a
bother to you, Ma and Pa Claymore,” Waddie replied.
Buck went to him
and scooped him up into his giant arms. “I don't wanna' hear me no more
talk like that, cowboy. You could never be a bother to me,
certainly not to ma and pa. They think the sun rises and sets in
yore’ eyes, boy. Forget about it, and let's go have us a good
time,” Buck demanded.
“Okay, Uncle
Buck,” Waddie said and brightened from his uncle's enthusiasm. His
Uncle Buck could be infectious.
“That’s a
start. Now, I wanna' see a big ol' smile on yore’ cowboy puss,”
he paused for a response from Waddie, “Bigger!” Buck exclaimed and made
a
face at Waddie that made him grin, “There, that’s Better. That's
about right,” Buck allowed and stole another kiss which got him a
big hug in return.
In a small town
you really have no need for a newspaper. Word gets around
overnight. The whole town heard what Judy did. No one would
speak to her in the market or wherever she went. Willie got into
some fights in school because the other kids called his mother a cold
heartless bitch. Dorothy got more and more crazy until her mother
talked about putting her in an institution. If Judy admitted
herself, quite possibly her daughter's problems might start to
diminish. Dorothy flunked out of high school her junior
year. She spent more time in bed, on her back, getting fucked
than studying. She was laying practically every boy in high
school and at least three teachers. If she had as many cocks
sticking out of her as she had put into her she'd look like a damn
porcupine.
Buck marched
Waddie, hand in hand, down to Graham’s, the local dry goods department
store on the square. Between Buck, his ma, and Morgan's mother,
Mrs. Lovejoy, they outfitted him with enough clothes for a month's tour
of Europe and parts of Northern Africa. Whatever Buck did you could
count
on it being big. He was big. He thought big. He did
big. They bought Waddie everything you could think of for play or
school; two weeks worth of jeans, socks, T-shirts, and several nice
western shirts. Ma Claymore went with them because she and Mrs.
Lovejoy shopped together for years for Buck and Morgan. It only
seemed right for Ma Claymore to call Morgan's mother, Mrs. Lovejoy, and
ask if she'd like to meet them to help pick out things for her
grandson. She was thrilled and waiting for them when they got
there. Buck hugged and kissed her. Buck always called her,
Ma Lovejoy. Waddie hugged his grandmother. He loved his
Grandma Lovejoy and was happy to see her. She always smelled like
cookies and pickling spices. The ladies got busy. From
years of experience they knew just what Waddie would need. He
would be six the next summer and would start school in the fall. He
needed everything, they allowed.
Several dozen
folks were in and out of the store and Buck introduced Waddie as his
Godson, Morgan Lovejoy’s boy. Waddie knew a couple of folks his
dad did business with. They came over to speak, say ‘hello,’ to
pay their respects, and be neighborly. Everyone heard the news about
what Waddie’s ma did, but they were respectful and never mentioned
it. They knew Buck and respected what he was trying to do for the
boy. It was a wonderful morning, but the treat of the day was his
uncle took the four of them to lunch at the local diner. After
they got back, Buck brought a chest of drawers from one of the other
upstairs bedrooms for Waddie's clothes. Waddie couldn't believe
the amount of new clothes they bought him.
They were brand
new, not hand me downs or thrift store clothes. They looked and
smelled wonderful. He was overwhelmed, but his most prize
possessions Buck bought Waddie was two cowboy hats, one straw and the
other felt. Waddie loved his new hats. He could almost
swear when he looked in the mirror a certain way and squinted his eyes,
he looked a little like Buck. They both had platinum blond hair,
the same color deep blue eyes, dimples in their chins that looked like
an indented 'Y', and their faces were square and blocked. When
his uncle took him to the barber shop where Waddie had his hair cut
into his first crew cut just like his Uncle Buck's, people started
calling him Buck Jr. and Waddie beamed with pride. They knew he
wasn't Buck's kid, but they knew Waddie was proud to be with his
uncle. They could almost feel their love pass between them.
‘E’aup,’ they
thought, ‘Buck Claymore was the right man to pick for 'at boy's
Godfather. Why, he looks enough like him to be his boy.’
The end of the
month came and Buck didn't get a bill from the store. He went by
the store, thinking they just forgot to send one, but Buck got a shock
when he discovered it was already paid in full. There was no
bill. The town folk got together, took up a collection, and paid
for Waddie's clothes. It got all over town what Judy did to her
son, and it was the town folk's way of saying, ‘We're sorry, young man,
not all people are like that.’ Buck got out his handkerchief and
blew his nose. He didn't want anyone to notice the water in his
eyes. He was so touched and proud of his town, he never
would forget as long as he lived, and paid the community back ten fold
over the years.
Buck was still
healing from wounds he suffered in the war. He hadn't taken a job
yet, but he had several lined up he was thinking about. He
could've gone to Dallas, Houston, Austin and gotten a great job on his
war record alone. Nope. He made up his mind. He was
going to stay right there. His Godson needed him, and he wasn't
about to desert the boy. Linda Sue talked with Buck, and they
decided on a June wedding. Buck would see her two or three
evenings per week at her parent's house, or he would take Linda Sue to
the local movie theater. Buck would leave Waddie with his parents
who came to love Waddie like their own grandson. He was good,
thoughtful, mannerly, minded them, and didn't ask for much. Mrs.
Claymore would have to talk him into milk and cookies. He didn't
want to be a bother. Pa Claymore was as bad or worse than Buck
for picking up Waddie and holding him. They were in the kitchen
having hot coco and cookies. It was winter, almost Christmas, and
there was a chill in the air.
“Bess, where's
that album of photos we got of Buck when he was a baby and young boy?”
Dad Claymore asked.
“It's in the
downstairs hall closet next to the bath. I'll get it for you,” Ma
Claymore replied.
In a minute Ma
Claymore returned with a large photo album of pictures of Buck when he
was a baby. They started showing Waddie the pictures, and there
was one picture of Buck on a pony that took Waddie's breath away.
Waddie gasped audibly, put his hand to his mouth to try to mask his
surprise, but it was too late. Ma and Pa Claymore looked at him
and wondered. Waddie instantly changed his demeanor, and
carefully handed the photo back.
“What's a'
matter, Son? Something upset you?” Dad Claymore asked gently.
Waddie could
only shake his head 'no.' Tears were welling up in his
eyes. “I'm sorry,” he replied, dropping his head, “I thought it
was a photo of me, but I didn't understand how you folks could have a
pitcher of me. I c'ain't remember nobody ever take'n no pitchers
of me,” he said as a tear escaped and ran down his little cheek.
Pa Claymore
picked up the picture. He and Ma Claymore looked at it, then at
Waddie, and their mouths dropped open. The boy was right. It looked
like it could be a picture of him sitting on the pony. “Damned if it
don't look just like you, Son. I understand why you
might be upset or frightened,” Pa Claymore said. He came around the
table and picked up
Waddie.
About that time
Buck and Linda Sue came through the kitchen door. Pa Claymore set
Waddie down. Buck opened his arms wide for his buddy. Waddie zoomed
right past him to Linda Sue. They were hugging,
kissing, and carrying on. “Oh, Aunt Linda, I'm so glad to see you!” he
exclaimed, “I ain't seen you in a couple of weeks.”
“Don't I even
get a hug, cowboy?” Buck asked feigning hurt feelings.
“I'm sorry Uncle
Buck, but Aunt Linda's, she's... she's just so much prettier than
you,” Waddie said, winked at Linda Sue, and looked at Buck with a
twinkle
in his eye that made Buck fall on the floor with laughter. The
kid was getting good. Buck set him up and Waddie knocked it out
of the park. It got Waddie a big hug and a kiss from Linda
Sue. Everyone in the kitchen broke up, Waddie ran to Buck, and
hugged him. Waddie sat and talked with his Aunt Linda for an hour
or more, but Buck needed to get her home. Engagement or no
engagement, until she was Buck's wife he was determined to respect her
parent's wishes. Buck was amazed Waddie and Linda Sue had so much
to talk about, and it was non-stop. No one could get a word in
edgewise, and they were obviously thrilled with each other. Linda
Sue couldn't keep her hands off Waddie, and he ate it up.
“You wanna' ride
along to take your Aunt Linda home, cowboy?” Buck asked.
“I sure do,
Uncle Buck,” Waddie replied with enthusiasm. Hand in hand, he and
Linda Sue walked to the car. He opened the door for her like a
gentleman, waited until she was seated, then closed it. He opened
the back seat and jumped in.
“Thank you,
Waddie, that was very thoughtful of you,” Linda Sue complimented his
manners.
They drove to
Linda Sue's house and Waddie got to look at all the Christmas
decorations the town people put up and strung across the main
street. It looked like a land of enchantment. They arrived,
and Uncle Buck opened the door for Linda Sue to escort her into the
house. His uncle told him to get in the front seat to ride back
with him. He waited while Buck took Linda Sue inside, but it was
only a minute before he came bounding down the front stairs and into
the car. The big man shuddered from the cold night air and made a
‘burrrr’ sound. Buck started the car’s engine and headed back to
his parent's house. He noticed Waddie was quiet, but seemed in
great spirits. The kid seemed positively radiant. Buck
could swear he could almost see a glow, an aura surrounding him. He
hadn't seen the boy so happy since he was living with him and his
parents.
“Can I ask you
something, cowboy?” Buck asked.
“Sure, Uncle
Buck,” Waddie replied.
"What'd you do
to that lady to make her love you so much? She can't talk about
nothing else but you. She was pissed I didn't bring you along on
our date," Buck said.
"Aww, I
understand you and her need time to be alone together. Besides, I
love Ma and Pa Claymore. They make me feel loved and wanted, and
I enjoy staying with them," Waddie replied and paused for a minute,
"Would you be upset if I's to tell you I heard there's another man in
town who's in love with Aunt Linda?" he asked.
"Tell me. Tell
me. Who is he? If I catch him, why -- why -- I'll
muderate him. I'll break both his arms, then I'll break both his
legs, then I'll grind him up, then I'll put him back together and do it
all over again. Who is he, young'un?" Buck did a mock jalousie
routine with a little Lou Costello thrown in for flavor.
"Me,
silly," Waddie said and giggled at his uncle’s nonsense.
"Oh, well, I'll
have to handle you differently. I'll murderate you with hugs and
kisses,” Buck allowed. He threw his big arm around Waddie and hugged
him closer,
“Listen, to me, buckaroo!” he exclaimed, and made a grand pause to
accentuate the importance of his next statement, “If anything was to
happen to you on my watch, cowboy, yore’ old Uncle Buck better pack his
bags, 'cause your Aunt Linda would kick my buckaroo butt," he declared.
"Really, Uncle
Buck?" Waddie asked with awe.
"Ain't kiddin'
around with ya', cowboy. Ain't bullshit'n ya' none,
neither. She thinks you're some kind of wonderful," Buck said and shook
his head.
"Well, I think
she's pretty special, too," Waddie said as he sighed naturally. That
was the second time someone referred to him as 'wonderful.' Waddie
didn't think he was wonderful. He just thought he was a
normal kid.
* * * * * * *
Waddie didn't
want to think about going back home. He hated the thought, but
his dad needed him, and he couldn't let him down. Morgan came by
for a long visit with him, and took off all his clothes. Waddie
couldn't remember ever
seeing his dad naked before. Waddie was impressed by what a well
developed body his dad possessed. Waddie noticed his dad’s tackle
was almost as long as Uncle Buck's but not as big around. Buck
went to his small kitchen in the back. He converted a large sun
porch area into a small kitchen for himself, so he wouldn't have to put
on clothes and run downstairs if he needed something. He was
getting Morgan a beer and Waddie a soda. Morgan and Waddie were
lying across Buck's huge bed talking.
"Daddy, this is
the first time I ever seen you naked. Are you uncomfortable
around me without your clothes?" Waddie asked.
"A little but
not much. Come over here and let me hold you," Morgan
opened his arms to his son.
"Can I touch you
down there, Dad?" Waddie asked quietly.
"I was afraid
you weren't gonna' ask," Morgan said and looked sad as he took Waddie
into his arms. Waddie reached his hand down and felt his dad's
cock, then gently felt his balls in their sack. His dad's penis
started growing until it was fully erect.
Waddie smiled at
his dad and winked. "Don't worry none, Dad, it'll go away. I was
wondering what it would feel like to lie next to your body,
too. See?" Waddie showed him his cock and it was erect.
Morgan giggled as he reached down and grabbed hold of his son.
"Damn, Son, how
long you been poppin' boners?" Morgan asked.
Buck walked in
and handed Morgan his beer and set Waddie's soda on the night table on
a coaster. "Since his first night here," Buck answered for Waddie.
"Yeah, I been
gettin' 'em pretty often. It happens most times when I watch or
help Uncle Buck take off his clothes. I got one when I watched
you take yours off today, Dad, but they go away," Waddie said like and
expert.
"I guess my
boy's growing up. Given any thought about when you might wanna’
come home, Son?" Morgan tried to sound casual.
"No, sir, I
ain’t thought about it much. I love it here with Uncle Buck and
his parents, but I miss you, Dad. I wanna’ stay here through the
holidays, because they were never very much fun for me at home," Waddie
said without nuance.
"I'm sorry,
cowboy, I know they weren't, and I think you should stay through the
holidays. Buck, his mom and dad love Christmas, and go all out
for it. I can come and spend some time with you at Christmas,"
Morgan said.
"I'd like that,
Dad. I'd like to stay another two weeks after that and then come
home maybe the middle of January if that’s all right with you," Waddie
said like he was talking about his own execution.
"That
soon? I thought you might wanna’ stay until after Buck and Linda
Sue get married?" Morgan asked.
"You don't need
me, Dad?" Waddie asked like he was confused.
"Of course I
do. I'll always need you, but I can come in to see you like
today. Weekends I might stay a night with you and your Godfather
if I'm invited," Morgan replied and raised the volume of his voice to
kid Buck.
"Since when, in
all these years, do you need an invitation to your own home, Bro? You
been family too damn long to need an invitation to your second
home. You're welcome here anytime, day or night, and you know
it. You've still got a closet full of clothes here, for Christ
sake. So, don't gimme' no shit," Buck demanded and smiled real big,
winked at
Morgan, and Morgan giggled.
"Have you said
anything to Waddie about tonight?" Buck asked Morgan.
"No, I's gonna'
let chu’ do it. It's your place after all, and since he's in your
charge, you should tell him. I'm grateful to you, Buck, for
taking care of Waddie for me. It's really been a God send to have
you look after him. He's more comfortable here than I ever seen
him, and I'm comfortable with him being here. I'd appreciate it
if you'd consider keeping him 'til you and Linda Sue get hitched, then
if he wants to, he can come home. I decided I ain't gonna'
make him come home. He's got a choice. There ain't no use
him coming home if he's gonna' be miserable," Morgan said. Waddie
excused himself and went off to the bathroom.
"Well, Lord,
Morgan, he ain’t no bother a’ tall. He’s my buddy. He's
like having a little brother around. He keeps me busy and out of
trouble. He goes everywhere with me. I feel empty, like
I forgot something if I leave the house without him. You're probably
doing me a greater favor than I'm doing you. I'll
be honest with you, Morgan, that kid is the greatest thing you ever
done. I don't love him just because he's yorn, I love him for
who he is. I ain’t try’n to be mean, brother, and I don’t mean
you no disrespect, but I wonder sometimes, if you ever took the time to
get to know him really well. People ain't lying to you, brother, when
they say you got a treasure in that boy," Buck said firmly.
Waddie returned
to sit on the bed close to his dad. He liked to sit with a hand
on Morgan. It brought him comfort to touch his dad.
"Waddie, this is
Friday night," Buck said, “The first Friday of the month, two of my
buddies, and most times yore' dad, come over, and we play poker. Now,
you can stay up here with us, listen to the radio or read,
whatever you wanna’ do, but chore’ daddy and me is gonna’ be tied up
for several hours. If’n you want to put yore’ clothes on and go
downstairs, mom and dad would love to have you visit.
"Okay, Uncle
Buck. If it's all right with you, I got some stuff to play
with. If I get sleepy, I'll crawl up on the bed and throw the
comforter over me. I'll be fine. I won't make no noise,"
Waddie said.
"That's my sweet
buckaroo," Buck opened his big arms and Waddie went to him to be hugged
and kissed. Buck would do that with the boy no less than fifteen
to twenty times a day. Waddie ate it up. He was never shown
so much attention in his life, and he was determined to be a good boy
to make his Uncle Buck proud of him. He didn't want to be a
problem and have to go home quite yet. He knew he had to
eventually, but he wasn't going to think about bad things right
now. Waddie wondered to himself whether Uncle Buck's no clothes
rule would apply to his card playing buddies. ‘Surely not,’ he thought
to himself.
Time passed and
the other two men arrived. Both were curious to meet Buck's
nephew living with him. Uncle Buck introduced him to the first man
to arrive. His name was Gary Stiles, and he was the owner of the
local market. Stiles was a short stocky man built like a fire
plug. He had huge arms and a decent body. He was a running
buddy of Buck and Morgan's for years. Buck was best man at his
wedding. He had six kids and was expecting a seventh that
summer. Everyone in the community liked Gary Stiles. He was
easy going with a bright cheerful disposition. He smiled a lot
and always had a good word for everyone. He was a good provider
for his family, and a successful and honest business man. He was
admired by the whole town; so much so, he just completed his first term
as Mayor and in a landslide election was beginning his second
term. He always had a good word for everyone. To Waddie’s
surprise he immediately removed his clothes.
When the other
man walked through the door Waddie almost freaked. He wanted to
run and hide his nakedness, but he didn't. He was stunned, like a
deer caught in the headlights of a car. It wasn't because the man
was ugly or a horror; on the contrary, he was the most perfectly
handsome, masculine, stunningly good looking man Waddie ever
encountered, but he made Waddie feel nervous for some reason. He
tried to hide it from his dad and uncle. The man was about
six-four and around two hundred and thirty well packed pounds. He
was wearing a deputy sheriff’s uniform with a gun belt. The man's
eyes immediately found Waddie's and a look came over him which made
Waddie's stomach churn. He thought he was going to lose control
of his bladder and piss on the floor until the man smiled the
sweetest smile at him. He winked at Waddie with a look that told
him not to be nervous, I know what you're thinking. It's okay,
we'll be friends.
"Quinton,” Buck
hailed the man, “come over here and meet my Godson, Morgan's boy.
Waddie I want you to meet Deputy Quinton Tate. Quinton this
here’s Waddie Lovejoy, my nephew," Buck introduced them.
The handsome man held out his
hand, and Waddie shook hands with him. Their eyes never left each
other's from the time he walked into the room. They were shaking
hands and still their gaze was locked together.
"Good to meet
cha', Waddie. Heard a lot of good things about you," Quinton said
softly.
"Thank you, Mr.
Tate," Waddie said, but his little hand was shaking. Quinton Tate
felt it.
"Some’um wrong,
Son?" Quinton ask Waddie, looking into his eyes.
Waddie
thought, 'Hell, I can't lie to the man. A real cowboy don’t
never lie. I have ta’ tell him the truth.' "Yes, sir.
It's, just..." he looked at his uncle for help. Buck
turned away with a smile and winked at his brother. He acted like
he didn’t have a clue. Waddie stammered, “it's just -- well, I
ain’t never seen me no man what’s handsome as you, and it makes me
nervous being naked,” Waddie said, as he watched his penis grow faster
than Pinnochio’s
nose, “Just look at me,” he said with obvious frustration looking down
at his dick, and then returned his gaze to Quinton’s eyes, “I had a
long talk with my pee-pee last night about not getting hard when I saw
somebody I like or admire. It didn't listen to a damn thing I
said. Just look at it," Waddie said with disgust and blushed with
embarrassment, his dick was at full salute. The men tried to
stifle a laugh.
"Com'mer, Son,"
Quinton said and held his arms open for Waddie to come to him. Waddie
could feel his pull like a magnet. As guarded as his brain
might've been his little legs had a mind of their own and immediately
reacted to the big man's offer. Quinton hugged him, but after a
few minutes gently pushed Waddie back a little way from him. Quinton
glanced at Buck. Buck winked and nodded to
Quinton. He took Waddie's small hand and guided it to his right
leg in front of his crotch.
"Go ahead,
Waddie. Don’t be shy. Feel me," the fine looking deputy
encouraged him.
Waddie felt and
felt again, then smiled real big. "Is that for me, Mr. Tate?"
Waddie asked with a grin.
“‘Feard so,
young’un," Deputy Tate replied.
"Wow!" exclaimed
Waddie.
"Son," Uncle
Buck addressed Waddie with a big knowing smile, "ever’ man, women, and
child in this town are a mess when they first meet Quinton Tate. When
we was just kids, in the first grade together, I damn near pissed
my pants the first time I met him. My reaction was a damn sight
worse than yours. I was as fidgety as a cat on coffee when I's
around him," Buck confessed, "He made me so damn nervous I could
hardly talk to him. Ain't 'tat right, Quinton?" Buck asked.
"Sure is,
Waddie, but he got over it soon's we became friends," Quinton said.
“‘At’s a’
damnable lie. H'it ain’t true! Not a word of it," Buck corrected him,
"You still
make me nervous as a whore in church, I just hide it better," Buck
declared. Everyone laughed.
"You think he
makes you nervous now, Waddie, wait’ll he gits his clothes off," Mayor
Stiles said.
"That's the only
damn reason we have our poker parties at Buck's, 'cause of his no
clothes rule. Hell, it's just so's we get a gander at ol' Quinton in
the buff," Morgan added. The men laughed.
Waddie didn't
know whether he was gonna' like that or not, but Quinton sure felt
good. He smelled good, too, and he said all the right
words. Waddie thought he might be falling in love. He
couldn't take his eyes off Quinton, and his cock was still rock
hard. Waddie was kinda proud of himself, though, it was the first
erection he had in thirty minutes. To make matters worse, Quinton
couldn't take his eyes off of Waddie all the while he was
undressing. Quinton finally got his clothes off and stood buck
naked in front of Waddie so he could get a full look at him. It didn't
help Waddie's condition a bit. Quinton had a
beautiful body of well defined muscles. He looked like his body
was chiseled out of a slab of granite. It was obvious he was proud of
his
body and took good care of it with exercise and proper diet. He
looked like a God to Waddie. As he stood before him, Waddie could
see his nine and half inch cock start to rise until it was sticking
straight up his belly. He smiled at Waddie, squatted on his
haunches, and again opened his arms. Waddie didn't need a second
invitation. Quinton picked him up, held him close, and kissed him
behind the ear.
"Is that for me,
too, Mr. Tate?'" Waddie asked with a grin.
"You know it,
cowboy. You're still hard as a rock. If you don't stop that
it's gonna' pull the skin back on your face 'til you look like a
Chinaman," Quinton said. Waddie knew Quinton was bullshit'n him, and he
giggled.
"I know, I'm
sorry, Mr. Tate. Just watching you take your clothes off is what
done it. Uncle Buck says it happens when you look at someone and
imagine how your body might feel close to theirs," Waddie said.
Quinton smiled
real big at Waddie. “You listen to that man, Waddie. He won’t
never tell you wrong,” Quinton said looking at Waddie seriously, “He’s
a good man; one of the best.”
"Don't worry
none, Waddie," Gary Stiles said, "Look at me,” Mr. Stiles looked down
at his own cock which grew in proportion since Quinton’s arrival, “He
does the same damn thing to me," Mayor Stiles smiled at Waddie.
"You know how
you feel about me, Waddie?" Quinton asked him.
"Yes, sir,"
Waddie replied.
"I walked in
‘nat door and couldn't take my eyes off'n you, remember?"
"Yes, sir."
"And you watched
my ole dick get hard a minute ago, right?"
"Yes, sir."
"Well, it's
‘cause of you."
"Really, Mr.
Tate?"
"Sure was, and,
call me Quinton, Son. Mr. Tate’s ma’ daddy,” Quinton allowed.
"Yes, sir. Why
did you get hard for me, Quinton?" Waddie asked.
"For the same
reason you did. I saw you sitting there and I thought to myself,
'Damn, that has to be one of the best looking kids I done seen in a
long time. I can't take my eyes off of him. He's gonna' get
nervous and upset with me staring at him.' Then I thought, 'I
just can't help it, he's so damn good looking. He's looking at
me, and he's feeling something, too. I wonder if he'll like
me? I know I'll like him.' The next thing I knew my old
pony was getting hard. H'it's normal, Waddie, but you know what?"
Deputy Tate asked.
"What, Quinton?"
"It's a great
compliment to pay another man when you look at them and think they's so
nice to look at it makes your dick hard. Now look at yours, it's
gone down now and so's mine. We's buddies now and we don't need
to worry about it no more, okay?"
"Okay, Quinton,
but if you see me staring at you, it's 'cause I can't help it," Waddie
said.
"Won't bother me
none, but if you catch me looking back don't get embarrassed, just
wave."
"Okay, thanks,
Quinton. Damn you smell good."
"You do, too,
little man."
"Will you two
knock it off. Lord, help us, you two sound like a bad Italian
opera. Get chore’ naked butt over here, pretty boy, and git
chore’self ready to lose some money," Buck bellowed.
Quinton laughed
as he put Waddie down, but Waddie didn't want him to. He crawled
upon his uncle's bed with his coloring book and box of crayons. He was
getting really good at coloring. He used to not stay in
the lines. Now he was good at it. He looked up, and thought
it was probably unusual to see four grown men playing poker
naked. The more he thought about it the less unusual he thought
it was. 'One thing's for damn sure,' Waddie thought, 'no one's
hiding an ace up their sleeve.' The game went on and on and
Waddie got sleepy. He lay his head down to rest for just a
minute, and he was out like a light. Quinton asked Buck if he
could put Waddie to bed. He really liked Waddie. Next thing
Waddie knew there was a handsome naked angel picking him up and gently
putting him into bed. The angel was telling him what a handsome
young cowpoke he was, and he hoped his son would be just as good
looking.
'Do angels have
kids?’ he wondered? ‘Damn, this one shore’ is a pretty one. Aww,
too damn sleepy to think about it,’ Waddie thought to himself; however,
his
buddy between his legs sure was thinking about it. Waddie passed
into peaceful sleep as, Quinton, his guardian angel for the evening
tucked the covers around him and kissed him on his forehead.
"Good night,
buckaroo, sweet dreams," Quinton said quietly.
Waddie dreamed
of his handsome new friend, Quinton, lying next to him and caused him
to have an erection. After the poker game, Quinton put his
clothes on, said his goodbyes, drove home, showered, went to bed and
began to dream of Waddie lying next to him; his little body pulled up
close to him. He dreamed of protecting him, loving Waddie like a
big brother, being his friend, teaching him things, but mostly holding
him close against the darkness of the night. Quinton got an
erection. He didn’t understand why. His interest in Waddie
certainly wasn’t sexual. What was it then? His last thought
before he drifted off was, 'Damn, there's just something about
that kid what turns me on.’ Suddenly, it became clear. Like an
epiphany the reason came to him. The answer was simple. ‘Hell, it
shouldn't be no surprise,’ he chuckled to himself, ‘H’it
don’t take no rocket scientist to figure this one out. You had a
crush on his uncle for years, and the kid looks just like him.’
* * * * *
* *
The holidays
came, Thanksgiving then Christmas. It was the first time Waddie
ever felt wanted or included at Christmas and a part of a family. He
became an integral part of the Claymore family, and also, the
Davenports. He spent quite a bit of time with his Aunt Linda and
they continued to grow closer. He could see she truly loved and
adored Buck, but there was a deep sadness within her he could
sense. Sometimes he would ask her about it. She wouldn’t
tell him anything specific. "Aunt Linda, sometimes you get a far
away look in your eyes like you're looking for someone who ain't here,"
Waddie said.
She looked down
at Waddie and smiled. "You're not a mind reader, are you,
Waddie?" she asked, looked at him and smiled. Waddie looked down
at his boots and shook his head 'no.' "I guess you're right," she
said, "occasionally, when I'm with you, I think of another little boy I
used to know, about your age, and I wonder where he is today, how he
is, what he's doing -- that's all,” she said and tried to change the
subject, “Now, what were we talking about? Oh, yes, I
remember. Your Uncle Buck is going to start teaching you to rope
because you want to be a rodeo cowboy. Are you sure you want to
become a cowboy?" she asked.
"Yes,
ma'am. Cowboys are good, hardworking, strong, brave men, and a
cowboy don't never tell a lie," Waddie replied in all seriousness.
Linda Sue smiled
at Waddie’s strength of commitment, "Well, if that's what you really
want, I'm sure you'll be one of the best," she said and smiled at him.
"Aunt Linda?"
Waddie spoke softly.
"Yes, dear?"
"I would never
lie to you. Do you believe me?" Waddie looked his aunt in the
eyes, and she felt his deep need to tell her something.
"Of course, I
believe you, sweetheart. I would trust anything you tell me," Linda Sue
replied.
"Good. You'll
see that little boy again someday. I can't tell you when,
but you will,” Waddie’s eyes never wavered from his aunt’s, and his
words shook Linda Sue to the core of her foundation. He looked
directly into her eyes and continued, “Aunt Linda, this has to be
between you and me. You can’t never tell nobody what I just told
you -- not even Uncle Buck. You gotta' promise me," Linda Sue
looked at Waddie and didn't know what to think, but she knew, without a
doubt, this was of utmost importance to the boy. There was no
joking in his demeanor. His eyes never wavered from hers. He was dead
serious.
"I appreciate
you telling me, Waddie, and it'll be our secret. I'll never tell
another soul, not even Buck, I promise, but can I ask how you know?"
she asked.
"Don't be mad at
me, Aunt Linda, but I can't tell you. I shouldn't have told you
that much, but you look so sad sometimes when you're with me I feel it
all the way down here," Waddie said pointing to his stomach, “I don’t
want you to be sad, Aunt Linda,” Waddie replied. Linda Sue could see
tears
forming in Waddie’s eyes. She hugged him to her, and held him for a
long while as he sobbed softly in her arms like his little heart was
breaking to see her so sad.
She was devastated. "Shuu, it’s all
right, baby, don’t cry,” she tried to comfort him, “I could never be
mad at you, Waddie. You mean far to much to me to ever be angry
with you. I apologize for allowing my emotions to overcome
me. I love you, Waddie, and I’m so grateful for the time we spend
together," Linda Sue said. She suddenly realized she had, indeed,
fallen in love with the little man she held in her arms. ‘How
could this child be so perceptive?’ she thought to herself. She
knew, from talk around the town, when she was home from her work in
Dallas, Morgan had a son, but she never saw the child. They never
seemed to have him with them.
Then, too, she
would only come home for short periods of time. She wasn't into
small town gossip, but ever since that first afternoon at the hospital
she found herself becoming more and more comfortable with Waddie.
Somehow their love for each other just seemed right. It fit the
two of them like her hand might fit a comfortable pair of fine
gloves. Later she confided to her fiancé she had come to
love Waddie, but most importantly, her love for the boy was separate
from Buck's love for him. She even told Buck if he entertained
ideas of inviting Waddie to live with them after they were married, she
thought it would be a wonderful idea. In fact, Linda Sue
encouraged him and told the big cowboy she hoped he might consider it.
* * * * * * *
Christmas was
centered around Waddie with the Claymore family. Ma and Pa
Claymore opened their hearts to the boy because they fell in loved with
him like everyone else. They couldn't believe how mature Waddie's
reasoning and intuitive abilities were. He would come up with
something which sounded way out at first, but if you stopped to think
about it, his ideas were simple and elegant. Best of all, they
were workable. Then sometimes he could be as naive, honest, and
charming as the child he was.
The family went
to midnight services. Waddie went with his uncle and aunt and sat
with them in church. Morgan sat with Judy, Willie, and
Dorothy. Waddie winked at his dad but ignored Judy and her
kids. His uncle was holding him in his lap. Waddie made the
mistake of laying his head up against his uncle's chest. The
drone of the pastor's voice in the warm church turned his lights
out. He fell fast asleep. They brought him home, but he
never woke up. Buck gently carried him upstairs and put him to
bed. Buck kissed Waddie on the forehead. He stood looking
down at the boy as a thousand thoughts and unanswered questions flooded
his mind. No answers came to him, but he realized he was falling
more and more in love with the little cowboy.
The big cowboy
whispered a Merry Christmas to the boy and returned to the living room
to set up his nephew's Christmas. Buck bought him an electric
train he set up to run around under the tree. It had a whistle
and puffed real smoke. He also got him a big red fire truck with
a siren. Willie gave or threw away all of his toys so these would
be his first new toys. Everyday another town member stopped by
with a cheerfully wrapped gift for 'the boy,' they would say. Waddie
had a stack of presents from the town folk almost as tall as he
was. He neither ask about nor understood the small mountain of
presents were for him.
Waddie asked for
nothing. They couldn't get him to say he wanted anything for
Christmas. He didn't know whether he believed in Santa Clause or
not because Willie and Dorothy tried to pop that bubble a couple of
years ago. By that time, his faith in them diminished so greatly
he figured they were probably lying to him just to be mean. They
were not subtle about hurting him. They seemed to take great
delight at any discomfort or pain they could inflict on the boy. He
reasoned he knew angels existed, therefore there just might be a
chance Santa Clause did, too. He never experienced a real Christmas, so
he didn't know what to expect. He had no idea what Christmas was
all about. Secretly, he was afraid to ask for anything because
Judy told him if he asked for anything for Christmas, he could count on
getting nothing. He was so comfortable and happy living with his
uncle and Ma and Pa Claymore, he was afraid to ask for anything as it
might make him seem ungrateful.
He was told so
often by Judy and her kids that everything bad that happened to him was
his own fault. It was because he was a bad boy and didn't deserve
anything for Christmas; therefore, he probably wouldn't get
anything. He wondered about it, but thought they must know. Christmas
morning came and Buck awoke before Waddie. He rolled
over to see if he could see an eyeball peeking out, but Waddie was
still fast asleep. Buck got up and went to the bathroom to piss
and brush his teeth. When he came back, he saw Waddie lying there
awake. It was Christmas morning. Most kids would be up
screaming and running downstairs to see what Santa Claus brought
them. Waddie just lay there smiling up at his uncle.
"Good morning,
cowboy. How's my favorite buckaroo this morning?" Buck asked, leaned
over, and kissed
Waddie on his forehead.
"I feel good
this morning, Uncle Buck. Merry Christmas," Waddie said and
smiled.
Buck stopped
dead in his tracks. "Well, thank you, cowboy, you're the first
one this morning to wish me a Merry Christmas, and a Merry Christmas to
you, too. You wanna' get up, get dressed, go down stairs, and see
if Santa left anything for you?" he asked.
"I'm sure he
didn't, Uncle Buck. He don't know I'm here. I didn’t write
him no letter or nothing. Besides, he never brought me nothing
over at my dad's. I was always too bad a boy during the year to
get anything from Santa, and I shore’ as hell ain't been no saint this
year," Waddie said. Buck was sad but chuckled at Waddie's opinion
of himself. 'I should be so bad as you, little man,' Buck thought
to himself.
"Well, you just
never know. It might be worth a look-see, don’cha’ think?" Buck
encouraged him, "You seen all them packages what's been
placed around and under the Christmas tree. A couple of 'em just
might have yore' name on 'em," Buck said like there was a good chance.
"It might be
nice
to go down and join the family while they enjoy Christmas," Waddie
said, "besides, I do like to look at the tree. It's very pretty,"
Waddie allowed.
Buck quickly
dressed him, washed his face and hands, and led him down the stairs to
the living room. Ma and Pa Claymore, his Aunt Linda, and his dad
were there. He was so happy to see them, he didn't even see the
toys under the tree. He sat down next to his dad and looked at
the toy train going around on its track and marveled at it. He
saw the bright red fire truck and thought it was wonderful. He
had no idea they were for him. His uncle came to the couch where
he and his dad were sitting and sat on the floor next to him.
"Hey, cowboy, Ma
Claymore got up last night, came in here, and found Santa Claus
putting down those toys for you. Those are all yours," Buck
said. Waddie's eyes got really big but not from joy. Buck
saw a look of fear, almost terror, mixed with pain come across his
little face. Rather than run to them, Waddie looked at his dad,
his Aunt Linda, then his Uncle Buck, quickly turned and bolted from the
room to climb the stairs back up to Buck's room. Buck looked at
Morgan to see if he was going after Waddie. "I'm sad and
embarrassed to say he ain’t never had no Christmas before, Buck. I was
usually away at Christmas, and I come to find out Judy never done
nothing for him. He had to sit and watch his older brother and
sister open presents, but she never got him nothing. He
don’t know what it’s all about. How can I explain the joy of
Christmas to him when I never made sure he understood from the
beginning. I ain't sure I can now, Brother. He needs you, Buck. He
needs his buddy, now,
more’n ever," Morgan said with tears in his eyes.
"I'll go to
him. I’ll be with him. Go on without us. I may be a while,"
Buck told his loved ones. Buck followed him up, broken hearted by
Waddie's reaction, but he knew it wasn't the kid's fault. He was
unprepared and overwhelmed. They wanted to show him their love
but to a fragile, still healing mind, it was too much, too soon. Waddie
was literally frightened to death of the situation. No one
told him how he should react. Now he was mortally embarrassed on
top of it. Buck finally traced the faint sounds of a child
sobbing to his large closet and opened the door. He found the boy
in the very back of the closet pressed as tightly into the corner as he
could get crying his heart out like it was broken forever. Buck
lost it. He couldn't remember the last time he cried. He
wasn't so macho he cared if anyone saw him, he just didn't do it. The
big cowboy did that morning. He didn't try to talk Waddie out
of the closet. He went into the closet, closed the door, set down
next to Waddie, and pulled him into his lap. They set there, in
the dark of the closet, in the corner and cried together; one very
small child and one very large child clinging desperately to each other
for understanding.
"I'm so sorry,
Waddie. I didn't mean to frighten you or overwhelm you. The
folks who love you wanted to show you their love by making this a
wonderful Christmas for you. Santa really did come by and leave
those things for you. Why, our house was his first stop, he told
mom. He told her it was because you'd been such a good boy this
year," Buck insisted.
"Really, Uncle
Buck?" Waddie sniffled.
"You know yore’
cowboy buddy wouldn't lie to you. I wouldn't hurt you for the
world, my handsome buckaroo. I'm gonna' sit here with you until
we work this out, you’n me, together. I want to know how you feel
and why. I want you to trust Uncle Buck and tell him how you
feel," Buck said.
"I saw all those
pretty things, Uncle Buck, and wondered who they were for. They
were so bright and new with ribbons and beautiful bows. I didn't
expect you to tell me they were for me. I ain't never got nothing
like 'at, and I jes' had to get away. I'm sorry, Uncle Buck, but
it scared me. Why would Santa leave me anything, anyway?" he
asked with wonder.
"Because you're
a good boy, Son. How many times a day do I tell you you're a good
boy?" Buck asked.
"A goodly
number, I suppose," Waddie replied.
"Yeah, I
do. Now, I don't want chu’ to do nothing you don't wanna'
do. Do you wanna' go back down and play with some of them things
under the tree? I ain't no railroad man like yore' daddy, but I
can teach you to run the train," Buck offered.
"Naw, sir, I
just wanna' stay here a while. I feel better in here, Uncle
Buck. I feel safe. Nothing can hurt me in here,” Waddie said.
"Okay, but I
ain’t leaving you. I'm gonna' sit right here with you until you
decide it's time to come out, if it takes an hour, a day, a week, a
month, or a
year. We don't have to go downstairs. We can stay here in
the dark, together, or we can lie on the bed 'til you feel better,"
Buck said.
"It's silly for
you to stay in here with me, Uncle Buck. You should be downstairs
enjoying your family and friends. I’ll be all right by
myself. I’m used to dark closets. Closet corners are for
kids what ain't got no hope," Waddie allowed.
"Bullshit! Who
says they's just for kids? Inside me there's a kid what will
sit with your kid as long as it takes, cowboy, or until I can convince
you once you got chore'self a good buddy, you always got hope," Buck
said with conviction.
Waddie thought
about it for a while. He never counted on his space being invaded by a
giant cowboy. He couldn't stand the thought of his big
uncle sitting on the floor of the closet. It was almost more
embarrassing to him than how he felt before. It was his
fault. He should've remembered his uncle telling him the next
time he felt the need for a closet he would be in there with him. He
remembered. He just didn't believe Buck would do it.
"I suppose it
'ud be all right, Uncle Buck, if'n we move to the bed. It's
awfully cramped and dark in here for you," Waddie allowed.
"No. Now,
don't be do'n this for me, cowboy. I'll stay here with you as
long as it takes. If’n I'm gonna' be yore’ buddy I gotta’ be
yore’ buddy in all things, right?" Buck asked.
Waddie found his uncle's cheek and
kissed him gently. "I guess so, but
I think I'd like to move to the bed. Closets ain't as safe as I
once thought they was. They's jes' too damn busy these days. You just
can't never know who you're gonna' run into anymore," Waddie said
with resolve.
Buck had to
think about that one for a minute, then realized his sweet, lovable,
innocent, nephew made a joke at his expense. He tried not to
laugh but kept gulping down air. "Is it okay if I laugh at that,
cowboy?" Buck asked before he exploded.
"Yes, silly, it
was a joke," Waddie laughed.
Buck let it all
out and roared with laughter. Everyone in the living room
wondered what the hell was going on up there.
"C'moan! What
say we
move to the bed, Uncle Buck?" Waddie asked.
"Okay, cowboy,
here we go," Buck agreed. The large cowboy picked up Waddie and came
out of the closet.
Ma Claymore never came in Buck's room, but she was in the hall knocking
lightly on the door. Buck sat Waddie on the bed, went to the
door, and opened it a bit.
"We were
worried. I was voted the one to come and check on the two of
you. Ever’thing all right, Son? Anything we can do to
help? Waddie has a visitor downstairs," Ma Claymore said.
"Thanks, ma,
I'll tell him. It may be a little while. These things can't
be rushed. We'll be down in a little bit. He needs some one-on-one big
hugs and lots of stolen kisses and cowboy love'n from his buddy right
now. He'll be fine," Buck said sure of himself.
His mom told him
to holler if they needed anything. Buck went back to the bed, and
lay on his back on his side of the bed. "Com'mer, cowboy, let
yore’ ole buddy hold ju’ for a spell," Buck said. Waddie didn't
hesitate and was
enveloped in Buck's huge arms. Waddie always felt safe in his
uncle's huge arms. 'That's it!' Waddie thought, 'The closet ain't safe
anymore because Uncle Buck's arms feel safer.' He melted on top
of his uncle. He could hear Buck’s big heart beating in his chest.
"Uncle Buck, I'm
spoiling everybody’s Christmas. I can't do that. I'm
growing up; you told me so yore’self. If’n I'm growing up, I have
to think of other folk's feelings. I'm ashamed of myself, Uncle
Buck," Waddie lamented.
Buck stole a
kiss from Waddie and smiled. "When you start think’n ‘bout other
folk's feelings 'sides your own... yeah, Son, ‘at's a sure sign you's
growing up," Buck allowed.
"Good, I like
the feeling. C'moan, Uncle Buck, show me how to run that train," Waddie
said.
"Be happy to,
Buddy."
Buck once again
gathered Waddie into his arms, looked him in the eye and stole another
kiss.
“Uncle Buck?”
“What, cowboy?”
“I didn’t git
chu’ a present. I didn’t have no money.”
“‘At’s all
right. You can gimme’ my present right now.”
“How, Uncle
Buck?”
“Gimme’ another
one a' them big ol' wet and sloppy buckaroo kisses. I
won’t need me no more gifts. ‘At’ll be enough Christmas for me,” Buck
declared.
Waddie giggled
at his uncle’s sweet bullshit, but hugged Buck and gave him a good kiss
right on the smacker.
“Thanks for my
gift, cowboy. Ain’t never had me none better. How’d ju’
know ‘at’s just what I wanted for Christmas, and jes’ my size, too?”
Buck
asked.
Buck got Waddie
laughing with joy. He carried him down the stairs where the
family waited patiently, and there, waiting in the living room, sitting
next to his dad was the most handsome man, his buddy, Quinton
Tate. Waddie ran to Quinton who held out his arms to catch
him. He picked up Waddie, hugged, and kissed him. There was
never anymore shyness between them, but neither could take his eyes off
the other. His buddy stopped by to bring him a present and to say
Merry Christmas.
Quinton was
invited to stay for Christmas dinner, and he was thrilled to
accept. Waddie was happy, too. He just never seemed to get
enough of Quinton. He was sitting in Quinton's lap watching the
adults open presents, and felt Quinton's snake wiggling in his
Wranglers. Waddie made sure he wasn't noticed, reached behind his
back and under his butt to pet Quinton's snake. It responded
nicely. They locked eyes as Waddie was petting his snake. Quinton
winked at Waddie and they doubled over with laughter. The
family couldn't figure out what the hell they were laughing at. Buck
and Morgan knew. Waddie and Quinton were playing pet the
little green snake.
"C'moan,
Waddie, let's us see if we can make this, here, train run," Quinton
said as he put Waddie on the floor. Waddie started to follow but
turned and stopped for a minute.
"Ma, Pa
Claymore, Aunt Linda, Dad, and you, too, Uncle Buck, I'm sorry I acted
so childish earlier. I didn’t know what was going on, and I felt
embarrassed. I was afraid. I don't know why," he said.
Aunt Linda put
her arms around him and hugged him. They forgave him. From
then on, Waddie took to Christmas like a deer to a corn patch. Waddie's
favorite gift he received for Christmas, was from his Uncle
Buck. It was a genuine junior-champion rodeo roping rope. Uncle Buck
told him he was going start teaching him to rope after
Christmas. Waddie showed Quinton his rope and Quinton's eyes lit
up. "I can teach you some roping tricks, Waddie. I been
roping since I's in grade school," he said.
"Yeah, Waddie,"
Morgan said, "Quinton's won a lot of rodeos. He's pert-damn good
with a rope."
Waddie loved the
gathering of families, everyone sitting around talking and enjoying
each other's company. Being with folks who freely gave love and
were actually kind to each other was a relevation for him. He
never knew it could be like this. He was convinced this was the
way people should get along with one another. He got to spend
sometime with his dad. His dad came over to spent the day with
him and his uncle. Quinton's parents were out of town visiting
relatives for the holiday, and Quinton stayed behind to take care of
the ranch. Since Quinton was alone for Christmas, Waddie felt a
companionship with him and was with him until he went home that
evening. Quinton told him it was one of the best Christmas' he
ever had and how much Waddie contributed to it. They shed a tear
in each other's arms when they said goodbye.
During the
holidays his dad would drive by, pick him up to drive to the Dairy
Queen for a shake. His dad seemed different. Waddie was
convinced he was making an effort to change. He began to listen
and be interested in what Waddie had to say. Morgan began to see
his son in a new light. He was beginning to rediscover the
treasure he had in his boy. Waddie thought he surprised his dad
that he could talk with him. Morgan was making a concerted effort
to regain his son's affections and confidence. He never put down
or seemed jealous of Waddie's love for Buck, Linda Sue, Ma and Pa
Claymore, or Ma and Pa Davenport. Waddie was even
getting to see Morgan's parents on a regular basis. Judy hated
them, so she made sure they got to see Waddie as little as
possible. In his five years, he could only remember visiting with
them three times. They were overjoyed Buck was so willing to
share. The Lovejoy's loved their grandson, and he loved
them. When all the presents were unwrapped, Waddie had a stack of
toys, games, children's records for his new phonograph, children's
books and clothes of all kinds. He was so boggled by the end of
Christmas day he was exhausted. He had a physical and emotional
tired-on, but it was a good feeling as his beloved uncle carried him up
the stairs, gently removed his clothes, tucked him into bed, and kissed
him goodnight.
"Merry
Christmas, cowboy, I love you," Buck whispered to his nephew whose boat
already set sail for the land of nod.
* * * * *
* *
And what does a
five year old, junior rodeo, roping cowboy dream about? Visions
of sugar plum fairies did not dance in our cowboy's head. Ugg! He hated
fairies. 'Vicious, nasty little critters,' he
thought. Waddie's dreams had bigger fish to fry that night. His
uncontrollable buddy between his legs couldn't produce semen but
his fertile little mind was still moist and dripping from spending the
afternoon with his very own pulchritudinous cowboy deity. Not
only did his God in buckaroo form consume his simple offerings of love
he laid at his
boots, he returned it to Waddie's feet and worshiped him in kind. It might have
presented a problem for someone of lesser invention than our hero's
childlike brain. He took it all in and mentally wallowed in it
like Scrooge McDuck swimming through his money. In a light hazy
sleep, Quinton's masculine odors which rubbed off onto his young body
started
his mind searching for him. He must be near. Waddie could
almost feel him. He knew he could smell him. He wanted to
see him again. If only he could be alone with his friend, as he
might imagine, with Waddie in control of the whole scene. Writer,
director, and actor all rolled into one staggering talent.
'Ah ha!' he
mentally ejaculated, 'I would tell him in these, here, parts what I
say, goes. You gotta' do any damn thing I tell you.' He
smiled to himself and sent a sharp reprimand to his dick, 'Oh, get
hard, damn you, I'm going to sleep,' he admonished it. These
thoughts and memories were running through his mind just before he
drifted off. He was in the time slot or mental zone between the
click-in of alpha and beta, a gentle time of 'coasting' he called it;
not yet fully asleep, but not really awake either. A nether
region in which you could create wonderful worlds of your own invention
where anything was possible. ou only had to...
* * * * * * *
Sheriff Waddie
found himself on a beautiful ranch with rolling hills as far as the eye
could see. They gently ran down to a crystal blue sea where the
surf crashed against huge rocks and formed a frothy white foam. White
sea birds sailed gracefully in the updrafts of air from a small
cliff. It was warm, and he felt comfortable dressed only in his
cowboy boots, his big felt hat, and handsome leather Western vest;
necessary dress for any real buckaroo, he was convinced. Over his
shoulder he carried his genuine, junior rodeo-roping rope in case he
spotted a stray dogie. He'd rope and nail that sucker right there
and leave it for his band of rough and rowdy ranch hands who were also
experts at rustling hugs and kisses. Why, them varmints would
steal a kiss from you faster'n a flea jumps on a dog. He had to
watch them every minute. He only had so many to go around, and he
was saving them up for his buddy.
Yonder, in the
distance, rode an incredibly handsome cowboy on a spirited black
stallion. The nervous beast was no problem for the cowboy because
he was an expert horseman. He reined the fearsome beast in tight
not giving the critter its head. It would go where the cowboy
directed it to go. It argued but finally accepted the powerful,
muscular buckaroo's will. It would go his way. There was no
doubt, the cowboy was in control and not the beast. As he
approached, Sheriff Waddie could see he was a drifter, a saddle tramp,
who lived in dreams to seduce young, good looking, rope'n, rodeo
cowboys. Waddie marveled at the size and strength of the muscles
in the animal as it played back and forth to the solid muscles in the
cowboy's arms and shoulders.
They were a
handsome sight. A powerful man on a beautiful black stud with the
biggest damn dick Waddie ever saw. (The horse, Son, not the saddle
tramp; pay attention.) The cowboy on the horse wore a big wide
brimmed felt hat pushed back on his head, a brown, sweat stained,
leather vest, and a beautiful pair of dark brown western boots with a
pair of magnificent hand wrought, fine tooled, silver spurs on the
heels that would jingle musically from time to time. (That's all he
wanted the cowboy drifter to wear so that's all he could wear. It
was his dream, and damn it, Waddie was, don't forget, the law in these,
here, parts.) Waddie's cock got hard immediately. The
handsome cowboy's face was his buddy, Quinton's. Sheriff Waddie
smiled up at the handsome drifter. "Howdy, Stranger. New in
these, here, parts?" Sheriff Waddie asked.
"Yep, Sheriff,
I's jes' passing through," the good looking saddle tramp replied.
"Well, jes’ make
sure you do, or I'll have to throw yore’ purdy ass in jail.
'Cause this, here, badge says I'm the law around these, here,
parts. You gotta' do what I tell you to, understand, stranger?"
Sheriff Waddie asked.
"I understand,
Sheriff, I promise to be good. I have to do anything you tell
me?" the stranger asked.
"E’aup!
'At's the law in these, here, parts, stranger. Now get that
handsome butt of yorn down off that big stud, and let Sheriff Waddie
take a closer look at you. You know us lawmen have to inspect
every drifter's cock and balls what comes through these, here,
parts. Gotta' sniff 'em, too, to make sure they’s healthy. We's trying
to limit the spread of that horrible Russian genital
disease, 'Rotchakockoff.'"
'Damn, it sure
be Quinton all right,' Waddie thought within his dream. 'Son of a
bitch, would you look at the ass on that cowboy git’n down off that big
stud. Woah, dogies.' The drifter had the sweetest ass on
him which would make the straightest of men bite their knuckles and
weep uncontrollably. The sheriff didn't quite know what he'd do
with it, but he certainly could admire its beauty. Fortune smiled
on our young sheriff that day.
"Stand up
straight, Son. Spread your boots apart a little... 'at's it,"
Sheriff Waddie ordered and slowly swaggered over to the handsome
drifter, a
lascivious sneer on his face, twirling his longhorn, handlebar,
mustache. Without asking, he took hold of the cowboy's nine and a
half inch pride to inspect it. He felt it start to grow from the
touch of his calloused hands. He took his other hand and pealed
it like a banana. The Sheriff moved his face toward the engorged
shaft and took a deep breath. 'Mighty fine,' he thought to
himself.
The sheriff took
the drifter's ball sack and held it in his hand. He felt each
one of the fragile orbs and marveled at their size. He bent over,
close, and took a good long whiff of them. 'Mighty fine,' the sheriff
thought to himself, 'E’aup! Just ripe for pick'n.' He
grabbed the handsome cowboy's cock again hard-like, causing him to
wince. Fear spreads across the drifter's face. "Please,
Sheriff Waddie, I's saving it, sir," he pleaded with the sheriff.
"Who you saving
it for, Son?" Sheriff Waddie asked.
"The handsome,
young buckaroo what lives in the dell," the handsome stranger said.
"You mean that
good looking, young, rope'n, rodeo cowboy what lives in the dell?" the
sheriff asked.
"Yes, sir, the
very same," the drifter replied.
"Okay, I'm
gonna' let you off easy this time drifter, but the next time I see
yore’ handsome ass, you better be rope'n partners with that, there,
young, good looking, rope'n, rodeo cowboy, understand?" Sheriff Waddie
growled a stern warning.
"Oh, yes, sir,
Sheriff Waddie. I intend to make that young, good looking,
rope'n, rodeo cowboy my own, sir. I done took him to my heart, and I'm
a' gonna' make him mine, sir. I ain't nothing but a handsome
drifter, a loner, but together, I know we'd make a winning rodeo
team," the big drifter seemed sincere.
"Well, that's
good to hear, Son. Now, you ride right straight to that young,
rope'n, rodeo cowboy's arms. Don't chu’ take no short cuts
neither, ya' hear? Don't chu’ slow down none, neither. Don't pass
‘go.’ Don't collect two hundred dollars. Don't stop on
Boardwalk or Baltic. That good look'n buckaroo, he's a' waitin'
there for a handsome cowboy drifter like you to come along, steal his
heart, and carry him away. Looks to me like you just might be the
hombre what could do it. I reckon you're 'bout handsome enough to
make him happy, and you got a nice healthy set of cock and balls. I'm
sure that'ud make him real happy to hold onto on a long winter's
night."
Across town and
beyond another eight miles, Quinton Tate stirred in his bunk on his
family's ranch. He was having a vivid dream he could almost swear
was real. He looked down from the back of a big, spirited, black
stallion at a diminutive sheriff who looked like a young boy, and...
oh, my God....it's Waddie. Sheriff Waddie to be exact. Not looking too
damn shabby neither in his little hat, leather vest,
and boots with his genuine, junior rodeo-roping rope slung over his
shoulder. That little fucker’s tuned into my channel. I'm in his fuck'n
dream.' Quinton smiled to himself wickedly, 'I had me
some worse assignments,' he thinks to himself and smiles as he rides
off to find
the young, good looking, junior rodeo-roping cowboy who lives in the
dell. For Waddie it meant a quick trip to the dell and a costume
change. Happiness was only a short ride and a dream away.
End Chapter 4 ~
Cabbage Patch Cowboy
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