THE TIES THAT BIND
By Waddie
Greywolf
Chapter 7 ~
Revelations And Prophecies
Part I ~ Sunday Morning Coming Down
"A child of horror, tortured terrors, roams the wasteland
where,
Men found him ugly, unworthy, for any loving heart
to share,
A monster who seduced the coldest womb he was to
find,
Destroyed his manhood before he ever knew its
prime.
Years matured, two angels wrestled with him found
him fair,
One saved his life, taught him love, rhymed-words,
his life to bear,
Another seraph’d leathered master’s strength
became his creed,
Transformed his broken pride into a working vessel
for his seed."
Canto 18 ~ Slave Songs ~ W. D. Dux
I awoke with the most wonderful full feeling, and realized my
master was still implanted deep within me like the root of a large
oak tree. I thought I might awaken him slowly if I started gently
fucking his cock with my ass. I took a couple of strokes, eased
back down, and felt his root begin to grow. I took another pretty
good stroke with my ass, and the monster awoke. My Master smoothly
pulled out to the head of his handsome cock, and steadily but
firmly, plunged back into my depths. I heard a deep masculine
voice whisper over my shoulder, “If you don’t stop that, you’re
gonna’ get fucked,” he whispered.
“Meaning no disrespect, Master, isn’t that what your slave is for,
sir?” I asked.
Master Earl stretched and locked his cock way up my ass. “You
really think we can get away with it before the peanut gallery
marches in with popcorn and kazoos?” he asked laughing.
“Well, I don’t know Buffalo Bob but Howdy Doody’s little butt is
ready to be nailed, peanut gallery or no,” I replied.
Master Earl started laughing. “Now, cut that out, Slave, we’re
gonna’ wake up you know who,” he admonished me.
“Yes, Master, I’m sorry,” I said and laughed.
“The, Hell, you say? No you’re not. Just for that insolence I’m
gonna’ fuck the snot out a’ you,” Master Earl replied pulling my
head back for a morning kiss. We shared a laugh.
When he finally reached the point where I knew I was going to get
my morning allotment of master come my nose was running. He
succeeded in fucking the snot out of me. What a good master. Damn,
I’m sure he opened up his own hole back there. He gave me
permission to shoot my load with him. I missed by seconds but hit
slightly before him; however, he said my asshole spasms were so
hot he shot when he felt it. He said my timing was perfect
for his pleasure. That’s what I want to become, a slave for his
pleasure, more than ever now. I was sad to think I only had this
day left with him.
Master Shaw was demanding, strong willed, yet warm, and giving of
himself. I thought masters were suppose to be aloof and distant.
Master Jeb straightened me out about that. It’s just like any
other relationship. However in these relationships, your master is
lord and master of your person. He may ask your opinion, he may
ask your preference, he may ask your choice of punishment, but you
learn, the final decision will always be his. It must be that way,
at least for him and me. He demands it, and I need it. I was
worried maybe Master Earl wouldn’t be as strong as I needed
because of his growing love for me.
Master Jeb just chuckled when I voiced my concern. “Son, you
better fasten your seat-belt if you become that man’s slave. He
may love you more that any slave he’s ever owned, tell you hourly
of his love, but hold on to your ass. Earl Shaw is one, strict
disciplinarian, mean punishment, demanding son of a bitch. What he
will demand of you, how he will discipline you, or how he will
administer punishment will be in direct proportion to his love for
you. If he didn’t care about you, he wouldn’t bother. Beau, you’ve
grabbed a sleeping saber-tooth tiger by the tail. I wouldn’t worry
about it though, he’s exactly what you need. Few slaves could
handle him. He knows it, too. That’s why he hasn’t considered
another slave until you came along. I guess my prophetic words
shook him to the core the day he stopped you. A wee small voice
must have whispered, ‘Screw the ticket, fuck the kid,’” Master Jeb
said and we shared a laugh.
He continued, “On the other hand, most masters wouldn’t have a
clue how to handle you. Wes was able to deal with Earl out of
shear determination and an unquenchable love. Wes had the heart of
a lion. You will find Earl easier to deal with from your raw
natural talent and your deep need to serve. You won’t be punished
unless you do something really stupid, and I can’t see you doing
that. Poor Wes got punished because Earl was going to correct some
of his negative thoughts about himself or find the reason why.
He’d get right in Wes’ face and yell at him an order to trust him.
Sounds stupid, but it worked. Wes learned to trust. Earl succeeded
far beyond my expectations. Wes was reborn under Earl. For the
first time in his life, Wes found a purpose for living. That
purpose was Officer Earl D. Shaw. Wes found his bliss and his
bliss was Officer Earl D. Shaw. He worshiped him, as well he
should. His master took good care of his slave and loved him more
than he knew. Earl and Wes were the second best match I ever
made,” he said. I didn’t ask about the first.
“Most of the time he’s gonna’ give you the benefit of the doubt
and as generous a spirit as you have, Beau, you'll be his prize,
his pride and joy. You may have to swallow your pride sometimes,
but that’s all covered in training. You’ll learn a slave’s worst
enemy is pride, or I should say the wrong kind of pride. Certainly
you should have pride in being his slave; pride, because he thinks
well of you and your service to him. Never let some wag bother you
who refers to you as a boot-wipe slave. Truth be known, he’d
probably give everything he has to be where you are at Earl Shaw's
boots, but he can’t be. Earl will only have one slave.
If you’re lucky enough to be chosen, you may walk with pride to
wear his collar, and believe me, you will probably have one
permanently welded around your neck. If you go out with him in
public you may get looked at funny, but walk tall, remember who
owns you, and the significance of his collar. Just think of all
those breeders out there who only have an insignificant small band
of gold around their finger to tell the world they belong to
someone else. Now, an iron collar? It makes a bold statement,” he
said and laughed hardy, “Never be afraid to tell the truth if
someone asks you why you wear his collar. Unless he instructs you
otherwise just say you wear it to please your master. Most will
have no idea what you're talking about and those who do will
understand your pride,” Master Jeb said.
* * * * * * *
We got up, and I had to rush to the head as Master Earl unloaded
his night piss into me after he fucked me. I was ordered to
shower, shave, hose out, and report back to him when finished, he
would dress me for the day. The shower felt good, and I took a
little time to do the necessaries. I didn’t take long. I didn’t
want to keep him waiting or throw his schedule off. He might need
me in the kitchen. I toweled off and headed for the bedroom. He
wasn’t there, so I headed for the kitchen. I walked in naked.
Billy and Oscar were there with no clothes so I didn’t feel self
conscious. Oscar greeted me. Billy simply held his hand out to me
at crotch level, and I knew what he wanted. I walked over and laid
my cock and balls in his open hand. He gently closed his big hand
around them, moved his arm slightly around to his back. I could
stand just behind him, and he could hold them. He went on talking
to Master Earl like nothing was going on. Master Earl looked at me
a couple of times, and I watched a knowing grin cross his handsome
face. Billy wasn’t fooling him for a minute.
“No boots or chaps today, slave, I want to see all of you, that
is, if Billy ever lets go of your cock and balls,” he said.
Everyone laughed.
“I’m so sorry, Master Earl,” Billy lied, “Lawsey, I don’t know
what come over this old eunuch-slave. Thanks, Beau,” he whispered.
“Any time, Clancey,” I said, “No, I’m sorry, Mr. McGee. I
certainly owe you that respect,” I said sincerely.
Billy whooped, grabbed me, and hugged me. “This one’s a keeper,
Master Earl,” Billy said.
“I’ll second that,” Oscar agreed.
“Well, what can I say, Slave, the ‘ayes’ have it, ‘cause you get a
big one from me, too, and I be ‘da one what counts,” he said and
grinned. I walked around and was going to kiss his boots. Master
Earl grabbed me in mid lunge and hugged me to his chest. He had
his leather pants on again with his tall boots. He looked at me
with his beautiful violet eyes. “Good morning, my handsome
slave,” he said and kissed me tenderly. There was much hooting and
hollering from the peanut gallery.
“Billy, Oscar, in the kitchen! You know what to do, and I’ll be
back in a minute. I gotta’ get my boy ready,” he said.
“Take your time, we can finish this,” Oscar said as they went to
work.
We went into the bedroom, he turned, and held me in his arms
again. “Now, let’s try that one more time without the peanut
gallery,” he said quietly. Master Earl kissed me so gently but
passionately, I thought I was going to drop my load.
My old cock saluted and got his attention. “My God,” he said,
“doesn’t that thing ever behave?” he asked.
“I’m afraid it has a mind of it’s own, Master,” I replied.
“Well, it can be disciplined as well,” he said. He walked over to
his dresser and opened a drawer. He retrieved a small riding quirt
with small strips of leather on the end. My stupid dick was really
asking for it because it only got harder. He walked back and with
a light flip of his wrist snapped it right on the head of my dick.
It didn’t hurt but my old cock went limp instantly. “See?” he
said, “We’ll have that thing shaped up in no time. I’ll just keep
this in my back pocket in case it decides to get unruly today. If
I order you to present arms you hit parade rest instantly and
stick it out for all to see. I’ll take care of it,” he said. My
stupid cock went erect again. “Present arms,” he ordered. I hit
parade rest and threw my hips forward. He really smacked it a good
one that time, and it went right down.
“Thank you, Master,” I said. Master Earl snapped his fingers
and pointed to his boots. I was there in an instant, took each one
in my hands and kissed them passionately.
“I’m pleased with your action, Slave. Now let’s get you ready.
I’ve changed my mind, I do want you with your boots and chaps on.
Also wear your vest today. Let’s get you plugged. I’ll attach your
leash and you can come out when you’ve finished putting on your
chaps, boots, and vest," he said. He snapped his fingers and
pointed to the bed. I was in the position in a flash with my ass
raised much higher than yesterday. He turned with the lightly
greased plug in his hand. “Good position, Slave. Your master
can get to your little hole much eaiser,” he complimented me.
He gave several twists of the plug to loosen my muscle then
snapped it in. This time he grabbed me above my legs and around my
back cradling my lower body in his arm. e held me tight,
placed the heal of his hand at the base of the plug, and gave one
quick push with a screwing motion. I felt it click into place past
the muscle. The muscle was locked riding around the small of the
base of the plug with almost no discomfort. He cleaned the excess
lubricant and ordered me to stand.
“Thank you, Master, for plugging my slave hole. It feels right
when you do it, sir,” I said.
“You’re welcome, Slave. It looks better and feels better when it’s
seated properly. Now let me attach your leash. Okay, that’s good,"
he said.
Master Earl grabbed me and kissed me again. “Now, get the rest of
your stuff on, and I’ll be back with a rag. You can wipe down my
boots for me.”
“Yes, sir, it will be a pleasure, sir,” I said.
Master Earl returned after I finished dressing. He had a large
clean rag in his hand. He got a small step stool out of the closet
and placed it in front of his dressing mirrors. He wanted to get a
good look at me from all sides cleaning his boots. He didn’t have
to give me an order, I was ready. I took the rag from him and
began to clean them. If I found a spot, I would lick it to moisten
it and remove it with the rag. I wasn’t satisfied with the
experience, any competent slave could clean his master’s boots. I
raised the one, slipped underneath it to sit on the stool and
lowered his heavy boot onto my crotch.
“Very nice, boy. I like an inventive slave, and I like having you
in a vulnerable position even if you placed yourself there. I
would expect you might wish for me to take advantage of the
situation,” he said in jest, but I knew my answer might be
critical.
“I placed myself in this position to show my sincerity in becoming
your slave, Master. You have the option to ruin them right now if
you so choose. I would still become your slave,” I replied.
“That’s good thinking slave, but I think I should take some
advantage to remind you it isn’t a game, and not to tempt your
master,” he warned. Master Earl began to press the heel of his big
boot into my balls and I could feel them spreading underneath.
I thought to myself, ‘This is it. I’ve pushed him too far with my
immature eagerness. He’s going to take them.’ Then I felt a
strange sensation of peace come over me which said to me, 'Call
his bluff. Give them to him. Let him have them. The pain will be
short lived and you will be free.' He immediately raised his boot
and replaced it with the other for me to clean. It got even more
attention than the first.
“Stand up, Slave, at parade rest,” he ordered.
I obeyed and he gently examined my balls. He made love to them
with his hands, then he did something very strange and out of
character. He knelt on one knee, holding my balls in one hand,
licked and kissed each one with a gentle passion as if apologizing
to them for any pain his boot may have caused. They were to
understand a little pain was necessary to teach the kid a lesson.
It was as if he recognized them separate from me, the individual.
I was shocked and touched my master exhibited more feelings I
found difficult to sort out.
He saw my look of confusion. “Figure that one out, Slave,” he said
quietly as he smiled and pulled me to him. “Many master’s feel
they should never tell their slaves how they feel. They might use
it against them and lose control. I’ve never been afraid of that.
My control over you will be so complete you’ll never feel the need
to use my love for an advantage. A slave can’t have it both ways,”
he said. Master Earl looked me in the eyes for a long minute then
spoke to me as a man, not as my master. He let down all defenses
and bared his soul to me man to man. He knew I understood his
purpose in shifting gears. “I’ve finished falling in love with
you, Beau. I am in love with you. I’m sot with love for you,” he
said. He took control in an instant and was once again my master.
“I also love my slave who stands before me,” he added. He made a
separate distinction.
I thought I understood, and knew I did when my heart spoke in
reply. “Master, I have but one love for you. I want to love you no
other way than as your slave. The concept of slavery is more
passionate and gratifying than anything I’ve ever experienced. I
know this is our first weekend together, but if it doesn’t happen
and for some reason I don't become your slave, I can’t even
conceive of a future. It goes beyond need, Master. My heart has no
choice. Sartre may have been right. There are situations from
which there is no exit. I have no fear, no anxiety. A contract
with you is only a small step to confirm in words where my heart
must be. So, it is in truth, when I call myself your slave,
know it in your heart, Beau has joined that slave to become of one
mind, the only me, your slave, who loves you, Master Earl,” I
said.
He looked at me like he was stunned for a moment. “I will gladly
accept your love as my slave. I’ve never experienced a complete
love from one perspective. Wes most likely succeeded but held out
his completeness with one small clause; a clause which he lived to
regret. Most people want to separate love and proceed from both.
With you I can join my love into one as your total and complete
master. I’ve dreamed of finding a slave who understands the
simplicity of the concept but never thought I might find one. It
makes things simpler to cut out the middle-ground. You’re correct,
the thought of loving you from that perspective takes on a
different passion. One I’ve always wanted to experience,” Master
Earl said in awe.
“If it is your will, we will strive to make it so, Master,” I
said. I looked down as I spoke to him.
Master Earl placed his mouth on his slave’s and the bond was
sealed not with a kiss of passion but one of welcome to the only
two people in the room, who joined hearts and minds for one clear
purpose of what their love was to be, a master and his slave. Then
it became clear to me his actions of kissing my balls. Would you
lick and kiss your own balls if you could? He just did.
* * * * * * *
Part II ~ A Master of Wisdom and Reason
“Private visions, a kenning of such things my heart alone
should know, I run from one to one, and ask this question of
them all:
What few have seen the night enclose the day at
noon, and told a slave the truth about the ways of love.” ~
From: Canto 23 ~ Slave Songs ~ W. D. Dux
(Posthumous)
Preparations were almost ready for brunch when Master Earl and I
returned to the kitchen. Billy and Oscar had things under control.
It was obvious they knew their way around a kitchen and probably
cooked in Master Earl’s kitchen many times. Master Earl started
making drinks, but I again declined. I had enough the previous
evening. The door bell rang, Oscar and Billy clucked and chortled
as Master Earl walked by me.
“Follow Billy and Oscar’s lead, and do as they do,” Master Earl
instructed me.
“Yes, Master Earl,” I replied.
Master Earl open the door and there stood a most handsome mature
gentleman wearing a beautiful turquoise blue shirt. His snow white
‘stash and beard with his pale blue eyes was enough to make my
heart leap to my throat and my cock started to rise. Master Jeb
entered.
"Welcome, good Master, to our home. Our hearts are gladdened by
you presence,” Master Earl said with humility and bowed slightly.
“This master comes with love and peace for everyone gathered with
a glad heart. Thank you, Master Earl,” Master Jeb replied and he,
too, bowed slightly to Master Earl. The two men clasped arms then
hugged each other.
Billy and Oscar went to Master Jeb and knelt before him to kiss
his boots. He offered them the back of his hand, they kissed it,
and put it to their forehead for a moment. “Arise, good slaves,
and show this master your love,” he ordered gently. With that
Billy and Oscar were all over him. I waited for them to finish and
Master Jeb broke the ice. “Ah, but I see there’s one more slave in
your household, Master Earl. Has he been instructed how to greet a
master?” Master Jeb asked with a grin. Billy and Oscar moved
to his sides each clinging to a shoulder.
"I believe he has, Good Master. He's a quick study, sir," Master
Earl replied, looked at me, smiled, snapped his finger, and
pointed to the floor in front of Master Jeb.
I was there in three steps and on my knees. I placed my hands
around one boot and kissed it, then the other and kissed it. I
slowly rose to find the back of his hand waiting. I took it, held
it for just a moment, then kissed it gently and pressed it to my
forehead. I held it there until he spoke in a generously demanding
voice, “Arise, handsome young slave, and show your master your
love,” he said. I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him on
the cheek. “To Hell with that, Slave, your master wants a kiss,”
he said as he kissed me strong but gently on the mouth. It was
wonderful to see him again. He was in great spirits. He
complimented me on my welcome.
He motioned to Billy and Oscar. “These two have been
doing the ritual greeting since before you were born. It was a
treat to see our new slave greet his master. Well done,
Master Earl. I see he’s in good hands,” Master Jeb complimented
his host.
We talked small talk and Master Earl made Master Jeb a light
drink. Oscar, Billy, and I were busy carrying food to the deck.
With three it took no time and we were ready to sit down and eat.
The food was wonderful. We talked about everything. When we
finished the three slaves cleared the table while the two masters
talked privately. I didn’t hear a lot of their conversation, but
the way they were talking was in low tones and very serious with
occasional laughter. Master Jeb was listening intently to Master
Earl with a decided twinkle in his eye. It was obvious he was
enjoying himself and having a good time. I was impressed with
Master Earl’s ability to socially place Master Jeb in a position
of revered, honored guest whom everyone had access to equally. We
returned with ice cream and fruit.
Master Earl took the lead to discuss things which happened to us
and shared them with Master Jeb while we listened. “We purposely
waited to discuss anything about the last couple of days because
we each have an emotional investment, not only in what happened,
but with each other. Beau was correct last night, Billy, when he
said he believed your and Oscar’s presence was not by chance. Wes
loved the two of you, and slaves don’t fool their masters for a
moment. We know you share secrets you’ll take to your graves,”
Master Earl said. Billy and Oscar smiled sweetly neither agreeing
nor denying.
“That’s as it should be,” Master Jeb said, “Those are things which
bond you to each other as brothers in our family are important.
Good memories and meaningful shared experiences are the glue that
bonds us together,”he said.
“Absolutely,” Master Earl agreed, “I welcomed the two of you being
so generous with Wes, and from the way things are going, neither
of us will be able to pry either of you away from our new slave,”
he added. Everyone laughed as Master Earl motioned toward me. He
went on to describe in detail the strange evening we spent the
night before. When he finished there was a silence around the
table which was filled with awe and wonder.
Master Jeb spoke first to break our shared silence. “Over my years
of dealing with Master/slave relationships things of this nature
are not uncommon. I’ve observed and witnessed some pretty bizarre
things. Some almost frightening, but not in the sense of terror;
more like shaking the foundations of tired belief systems. A minor
poet said over three hundred years ago, ‘There is more under
heaven and earth than is dreamed of in your philosophy, Horatio.’
It remains true today. For all of mankind’s technological advances
our systems for understanding are sadly lagging behind. Our
religions are still holding on to concepts conceived by ignorant
homophobic sheepherders thousands of years ago. Granted some
teachings like the golden rule may have limited value, but many
dealt with the society in which they were created using belief
systems current for their day. By today’s standards they’re
archiac, outdated, and have little or no real practical
applications in today’s world.
“Who knows how many writers added or subtracted from ‘The Word’
because they had individual axes to grind. It's nothing new. The
ultra-right wing and fundamentalist are doing it today. They try
to re-write history by declaring our country was founded as a
Christian nation but it wasn't. It was founded on the separation
of church and state. The more radical fundamentalist claim the
bible is the infallible word of God. God’s Holy Word? Not very
likely. If God tells you, believe it. If another man tells you God
told him, be very suspicious. Worse yet, if another man wants to
tell you what it means, and you must believe his interpretation,
run the other way. He has no more idea what it means than you do,
and his interpretation certainly is no more valid than your own.
Neither is it important how many religious degrees he has behind
his name. They're all as bogus as a wooden nickel and just as
worthless. Organized religion with its insistence on blind faith
was never meant for the betterment of mankind but for control. It
could be for betterment, but it isn't. That’s the false pretense
modern day bible-thumpers will try to sell you, but they’re
peddling an old, tired, out dated product that has no meaning in
today's world.
"Once you invest your emotions they have control over you, but
never fool yourself, they ain’t interested in your soul, they’re
only interested in how much you have in your wallet. That's why
corporations and religion are found in bed together so often.
Because of freedoms we have today, many have formed their own
subcultures just as valid or more so than those based on myth and
superstition, and things have occurred because of the passions of
those relationships can’t be easily fathomed by our current level
of understanding. Maybe, sometime it’s best not to approach these
things without the right questions or perhaps without any
questions at all. Accept it as it is. Just accept the fact it
happened. If we were meant to find a reason for it all, it would
be revealed no matter what question we ask.
“The only thing you should accept on faith is everything in the
universe is unfolding as it should. Look at the four of you. I’ve
never seen four people grow more than you have over the last two
days. I know each of you well. I even know Beau well enough to
understand the four of you have reached a new plateau in your
understanding of life and your place in the scheme of things. It’s
truly remarkable. Sometimes, that’s the way growth systems work.
We go for long periods of time caught in the same ruts and wonder
if it’s ever going to change or get better, and then, shit
happens. Bamm! Overnight you have a marvelous touch from a greater
power, an other worldliness experience, or moment of high
strangeness, that blows your socks off. That’s when we grow. For
example, this young man came to me two weeks ago contemplating
suicide and needed to find some answers pretty damn quick. Look at
him today, he’s more confused than ever,” Master Jeb said and
grinned at me. Everyone laughed.
“Master Jeb, I don’t remember saying anything about that,” I said
embarrassed he read through my facade.
“You didn’t have to, Son, I could see it in you face. You were
coming to a personal crossroads in your life which needed to be
addressed and soon. Your guardian spirit knew it, and decided now
was the time for action; but, to get back to my point about
confusion, there’s some truth to it, but fortunately answers have
been coming regularly for our new slave. From your description,
Earl, I’d say almost hourly,” Master Jeb said.
“Yeah,” Master Earl agreed, “I figured two every four hours last
night,” he said.
“Not to belabor a point,” Master Jeb said, “but sometimes, out of
chaos and confusion comes our clearest answers to what we truly
want and need from life. I don’t have to ask you,” he said looking
directly at me, “‘cause from the silly grin on your face there
have been major truths and a few doors to understanding have been
opened to you this weekend,” he said.
“Yes, sir, they have,” I said and blushed looking at Master Earl.
“And, do you feel like considering suicide now, Son?” Master Jeb
asked.
“Not in the least, sir,” I replied.
“My point is made, Gentleman,” Master Jeb said triumphantly
winking at me, “More revelations are sure to come for everyone at
this table, me included,” he added.
“I don’t think my old heart can stand much more,” Oscar said and
laughed.
“Sometimes, we don’t have a choice. When it rains, it pours,”
Master Jeb replied, “Then there’s more that happened last night?”
he asked.
Master Earl picked up from there and continued recounting to
Master Jeb the previous evenings paranormal three ring circus.
“You mean Wes actually told you where the secret drawer was,
Beau?” Master Jeb asked.
“Yes, sir, it’s the only way I could have known about it,” I
replied.
“Your bond with him must have been stronger than we imagined, but
now I think about it, men in a war situation sometimes create
powerful bonds with each other. Bonds so strong and powerful
modern psychology can't understand or classify. We currently have
no means or tests to measure such phenomenon. No one has ventured
research in the area. We know little or nothing about the
ramifications,” he said.
“David and I, we were pretty close, sir. I hate to say it in front
of Master Earl, but we were more than friends. We were brothers
and lovers in Nam,” I said.
“You see, I was right. Wes never wrote me anything about your
relationship other than he loved you very much. Perhaps, I should
have read between the lines,” Master Jeb said and continued, “He
wrote you saved his life, six other men’s lives and was awarded
the Bronze Star for heroism,” he said.
I turned pale.
“What?" Master Earl, Billy, and Oscar exclaimed in unison.
“God, Beau, I’m sorry, Son. From his response, I don’t think he
wanted it known,” Master Jed apologized.
“It’s all right, Master Jeb, it’s no big deal. There was a task
set before me. I rescued the six men, and they became my
responsibility to see they got back. I set my mind, there was a
job to do, and if it was going to get done, I was the one who must
do it. Our only officer, a shave-tail Louie, was wounded. I took
charge and through fear and intimidation made everyone fall in
line behind me. There was a lot of grumbling at first, but after I
put a couple of men in their place, they settled down and we began
to work together as a cohesive unit. I knew if we didn't work
together we wouldn't get back. Besides, I was the only one who
could half-ass speak the language. I took it one step at a time, I
saw what must be done, and I did it. No big whoop,” I said and
shrugged my shoulders. They were silent for a moment. I could feel
them staring at me, but I wouldn’t look up. I knew Master Earl was
looking at me, but I wouldn’t look back. What must he think of me?
“No big whoop? And, how many purple hearts did you receive before
you threw the last three away, Beau?” Master Earl spoke to me
incredulously.
“Only four, sir,” I replied quietly.
“Only four? I’m stunned, Beau,” Master Earl said. Billy and Oscar
agreed.
“I have to agree with them, Son. It may seem like no big whoop to
you, but to us, it’s pretty damn remarkable,” Master Jeb agreed.
Master Jeb paused for a long moment and there was a heavy silence
at the table. “A total of seven, huh?” Master Jeb asked
rhetorically, looked down at the table, and shook his head. “What
are we going to find out next about you, Beau? Let’s take him to
the pool, Earl, and see if he can walk on water,” he said.
Laughter broke the serious mood, and I was relieved.
“You Gentlemen may not realize the most remarkable thing about
Beau’s accomplishment was, he was a Navy medic, a field corpsman,
attached to the hundred and eighty-sixth division. Son, I don’t
know why you did it or how, but if the military saw fit to give
you a Bronze Star, my hat’s off to you,” Master Jeb said
sincerely.
“I try not to think too much about what I went through in Nam to
get those medals, and they’ve become a constant reminder of the
pain, sorrow, and loss I went through over there. Who among us can
know who we are and what we must become? Who can turn skies back
and begin again? How do you forget the hurt and pain? We bumble
through life like bumper cars on a midway hoping one day to find a
clear path. Maybe those medals or what they represent are like
‘good boy’ tokens and some greater power somewhere has allowed me
to cash them in to find you men. Maybe, just maybe, I’ve found
something in my miserable life which is good and sustaining. With
your help, perhaps I can gain a modicum of peace for myself. It’s
far more important to me than a few cold metals lying in a box.
I'd like to think we may be each other’s reward for having done
something right in our lives.”
“Damn, Beau, you have a way of expressing yourself that cuts to
the heart of the matter. Bravo!” Billy exclaimed.
“Thanks, Mr. McGee, coming from my hero, that means a lot,” I said
and smiled at him.
“You don’t know about that, Master Jeb,” Billy said, “Beau carried
my picture in his wallet seven years in Vietnam. He still has it.
It seems I was an early sexual fantasy-man of his. He pulled it
out and showed it to us; the picture, Master Jeb,” Billy said and
giggled, “I was blown away,” he added.
“I’ll have to say that’s pretty damn remarkable as well. You see,
there already have been revelations for all of us and more to
come, I’m sure,” Master Jeb said, and continued, “Am I to
understand there is another letter from Wes to me, is that right?”
he asked.
“Yes, I left it on my desk. Oscar, would you mind?” Master Earl
asked his friend. Oscar was already on his way.
“Remarkable,” Master Jeb said, “I didn’t bring his letter to me
today, because of other personal matters between him and me which
are not secret but will be revealed in time.”
Oscar brought the two remaining envelopes including the two
letters we read aloud the previous evening. Master Jeb read the
letters to us first and broke down several times as he read them.
“No one can ever say Wes wasn’t determined,” Master Jeb said with
respect, “I knew about the secret drawer. I didn’t know the
contents. The volume of poetry and these letter are remarkable.
Will you read some of the verse for us later, Beau?" he asked.
“I'd be happy to, Master Jeb, but I warn you, it’s pretty heavy
stuff. It cuts to the bone. You might get your hearts ripped out,”
I said.
“Couldn’t be any worse than the roller coaster ride we’ve been on
for the last twenty-four hours,” Billy said.
Master Jeb opened his envelope. “Gentlemen, please excuse me for a
minute while I read this, and if it’s meant to be read to all, I
will,” he said. He began reading and tears began to run down his
cheeks. “Oh, dear God,” he said, sighed a couple of times
and breathed deeply. “There’s nothing in the letter that’s
private, but I need help. I won’t be able to read it aloud,” he
handed it to Master Earl, who handed it to me. I began to read:
My Dearest Master and savior,
As you know my life has not been a cakewalk until I was
rescued by you and my uncle Jim. I’ve tried not to complain too
much, but I need that understood before I write what I need to
communicate. There has been five holy men in my life who have
reached down and saved me from certain death. My beloved dad,
Walker Johnson, Beau James, my uncle Jim, and you, are the first
four. I was never able to express to you how much I truly love
and appreciated you and uncle Jim for taking me in like your own
son. You supported me, encouraged me, and ultimately trained me
properly. All this done with a fist of iron while wearing a
velvet glove and encouraging love from two hearts, each the size
of an elephant. What words could I find to tell you of my
love, appreciation, or thanks? There simply are none. Perhaps,
simplicity should be considered but what the Hell: Goddamn it,
Masters Jeb and Jim, I love you. If I could, I would’ve put a
brass band on this page.
I must thank you for the final holy man in my life, who for
me, was my shining angel with leather wings. I know in my heart
you were responsible for us coming together. You never could
have found anyone I loved more. That angel saved me from the
surest destruction of all, myself. He made me stand and face my
worst fears and ordered me to spit in their eye. He’s a
demanding, won’t give an inch,
‘yes-you-can-you-little-son-of-a-bitch,’ hard-driving, angel,
but I love him more than he will ever know. He has an envelope I
asked him to surrender to you to be opened at a time we agreed
upon. You know what it contains. I know he’ll be patient because
the method of my madness is for him. The spider hasn’t quite
finished his web. I realize you may be reading this after I’ve
passed on so when these things are done, my spirit will depart.
My soul will be at peace.
Once again, I thank you for not taking ‘no’ for an answer.
It would have been so much easier for you to give up on me. You
didn’t and to this day you never have. Thank you for your
beautiful and handsome size 13 D boot. I not only learned to
make love to it, show you the honor, homage and the respect you
deserve, but learned to wear it comfortably up my butt. No
master’s boot was ever put to better purpose when I was feeling
sorry for myself. Other than the angel who owns me you are the
only other man I will ever think of in this life as my master.
From the bottom of my heart, you are the one man who deserves
the title. God bless and keep you. This unworthy slave
will always bend his knees, anywhere, anytime, and kiss your
boots with pride to give you the respect, homage, and honor you
so richly deserve.
Your loving slave boy,
Wes
“Come here, Slave-boy, your master needs you,” Master Jeb said and
held out his big arms to me. I hurried to fill them. He cried and
I cried while I held him. We were better after that. Our hearts
were lighter. We made more drinks and went to the pool. It was a
wonderful afternoon. Master Jeb and I played in the pool and he
held me in the cool water, our naked bodies against each other.
“Next weekend is yours, Master. I know you need to spend some
quality time with me. I could hear it in your voice when we spoke
on the phone. I need to be with you as well. I need your love
inside of me. I want to make love to you the way a good slave
should take care of his master. I only hope Master Jim will
remember I'm there to serve your needs as well as his. Will you
speak to, Master Earl?” I asked.
“I already have, Son. He’s agreed to the last two weekends before
you come to stay with us. Then he understands there will be one,
perhaps two weekends before you're sold. He understands and
supports you entering training. He wouldn’t have it any other way.
As for Jim, I know more than you think I do. I see the way you
look at each other. The two of you are like opposite poles of bar
magnets pulling on each other. If anyone gets near the two of you
they can feel the pull. It’s hard for you to stay away from him,
and he’s like a bull what ain’t had no heifer in two years when
he’s around you. He’s got one thought on his brain, and that’s how
quick and how far he can get his big cock up your butt. Wasn’t
that more of a plea for help because you're afraid of the power he
holds over you? He hasn’t pushed, even though he’s wanted to.
"He hasn’t said anything to me about it, and he won’t; however, I
know he’d love to throw a claim on your ass. I know him so well.
Don’t you think I know you two have fallen in love with each
other? I know you love each other, but the master I have chosen
for you is Earl. He needs you more than Jim, right now. Big Jim
will get along. I can tell you one damn thing, he’ll never
stop loving you, but he can’t have you right now because I want
allow it. I want you to be with Earl. You’ll just have to trust me
on this. I’m right, you’ll see. You won’t lose your giant blue ox.
Jim hasn’t made a claim for you because I asked him not to. It’s
eating him up, but he has a part to play in all this, you’ll see.
Beau, put your trust in others for a change. Let me be one of your
heroes for awhile. I promise you’ll get there safely with
everything your heart desires and more,” he said.
I got tears in my eye and hugged him close. “You know I’ll trust
you, Master. I’ve seen what you do and at this point I’d be really
stupid not to trust you when you are about to take possession of
me as your property. I can’t help worry about Master Jim because
you’re right in what you say. I don’t intend to tell Master Earl
about Master Jim. I feel so damned awkward and uneasy knowing I
love Master Jim, and here I am, falling in love with Master Earl.
I don’t think of myself as a trollop. Consider, I’ve gone
from nothing in my life, from the brink of suicide to having two
wonderful men interested in me in a brief period of time. I want
to be faithful to one love and Master Earl has declared his love
for me,” I said.
“I understand how you feel, but it will work out. You must have
faith in me as your Master, Son. As far as telling Master Earl
about your feelings for Jim, you don’t have to, but don’t ever
under estimate the man. He has a brain up in lights, and you won’t
get anything past him. Surprisingly, Wes could for some reason I
haven’t figured out yet. Wes would never lie to his master. He had
other subtle ways. In his last days you would have been proud of
him, he was a formidable presence. Even though he had no problem
being a slave to the man he loved he commanded a respect from
everyone he met. Together, he and Earl became cornerstone’s of our
family. Let me ask you this, do you think you could love Earl D.
Shaw?” he asked.
“It’s a little late for that question, Master Jeb. We have fallen
in love. He’s very open about his feelings. I never met anyone in
my life who’s so sure of what he wants and has no doubt he’ll get
it. I want to be his slave. I want to serve him.”
“But...?” Master Jeb spoke questioningly looking me in the eye.
“Do you read people’s souls, Master?” I asked. Master Jeb laughed.
“Remember, Son, I been at this almost forty years. You won’t say
it, but there’s a part of you he can’t have,” he challenged me.
“If I love the man with all my heart, acknowledge his claim, sign
his contract with no clauses, and passionately wish to be nothing
more than his slave, what more can I give, Master?” I asked.
“All of you, Beau. I’ll always be honest with you and I expect you
to be with me so let's cut the crap. Be honest with your Master.
I'm the man who will own you in two weeks. You absolutely must put
your trust in me or back out now,” he insisted.
“I didn’t want to tell you because you already know,” I replied.
“Yes, but this one I won’t say for you. I want to hear you say it.
Hell, I want you to hear yourself say it,” Master Jeb said.
“All right, Master, my heart is with Big Jim. So I have this thing
for big wounded animals, I can't help it,” I confessed and
shrugged.
“And now, you’ve heard yourself say it, and you know I won’t allow
you and Jim to be together, how do you feel?” he asked.
“Like I’ve misplaced my heart?” I asked.
“See, I knew you could do it. That’s the first step in correcting
an error, admitting there is one. I won’t let you acknowledge
Earl’s claim and hold anything back from him. I love him like a
son. He’s been through too much for me to allow it to happen. He’s
lost, Beau. His soul is on the line. He means serious business.
He’s not playing you. You can take his words to the bank. That’s
powerful stuff, Beau, having that much control over any man. You
could unwittingly destroy him. I won’t let that happen,” Master
Jeb said.
“Then he will have my heart as well,” I said softly.
“Then you agree to give him everything and not hold anything
back?” he asked.
“Yes, Master, I’ll give him my all. I’ll hold nothing back,” I
agreed.
“I believe you, Son, and that’s all I need to hear. I know you’ll
give him everything. You’d never go back on your word. I know you
that well already.”
“Right again, Master,” I agreed.
“You’ve agreed to sign his contract with no clauses?” he asked.
“Yes, Master, I have. Should I have waited to discuss it with
you?” I asked.
“Not if that’s truly what your heart wants. Talking with me
wouldn’t change your mind. However, you realize you could lose
that which two weeks ago was unthinkable to you.”
“I understand, Master Jeb, but I’ve never experienced the passion
of a relationship like this. I feel, to know that passion, I have
to lay them on the line. If he needs them to prove my sincerity,
my love, or my need to be his slave, then he may have them. He has
eloquently explained his position to me, and I agree with him. I
know I couldn’t have it any other way. I don’t want it any other
way. If he needs it that way, then by God, as his slave, my first
act of submission to him, in the context of a relationship, will
be to sign his contract as is," I said firmly.
“Would you believe me if I told you after Wes found out Earl made
a claim for him he said almost the same words to me. However, he
got it in his head he wanted some strange clause about speaking as
equals about love, but he was willing to put his on the line,
too,” Master Jeb said.
“And...?” I asked.
“He lost them,” Master Jeb replied.
End Chapter 7 ~ The Ties That Bind
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