Come In Out Of The Pain
Written by TVM
Copyright © 2007
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Summary: Getting your heart broke happens to everyone at some point. It's a fact of life. But, for one Sarah Brady, it's an all familiar occurrence. One that her best friend, Emily Valentine, is sick of seeing. Why is she sick of this? Because when Sarah's heart breaks it's always Emily's job to pick up the pieces and help her best friend move on. Which, Sarah always does, only to have her heart broken again by another in an endless line of losers, because she won't "give it up." So, fearing her best friend is on the verge of suicide, Emily makes a play for broke and attempts to get Sarah to finally..."Come In Out Of The Pain".
My favorite song in this world played endlessly on the boombox, it's Doug Stone's, "Come In Out Of The Pain", and as you'll see as you read the following story, there's a reason why this is my favorite. And why after tonight I'd love it more than ever. Cause it was my last time to do what the song says and to my shock, the person who would give me the shelter from my own 'pain', had been in my life all along. But first, just in case you have no idea, who Doug Stone is, MMMM boy is fine, or never heard this song, so romantic. Here's the most important part of it.
I'd be lyin' if I said,
I never prayed for this,
I can show you here and now,
How much love you've missed
Im happy that you're sad, I know
That sounds so wrong,
But darlin you must know
The pains gone on too loong
Come in out of the pain
Let me dry your tears...
We sat on her bed that night for the longest time in silence, both of us, listening to Doug Stone's vocals over and over again, and reviewing the horrible events just hours past, until our minds hurt. Well, I know I was, not sure about Emily. We both sat facing each other, indian style, knees barely touching and not speaking, me wanting silence and her watching me cry with a helpless look on her face. You know in a moment like that, my thoughts tend to drift to topics like, is all this pain and suffering worth it? Should I just give up? I always have these thoughts and they always lead to a ever deepening depression. But this time, Emily, the best friend who I adore and even at times think I've got a crush on, had a startling treatment for my case of depression. Shock.
"Hey, Sarah" She said softly as she boldly touched my chin and was lucky she didn't get her hand slapped away. "Look at me."
"What?" I asked in anger and she knew full well that it wasn't directed at her as she grinned and did the most shocking thing of my life, she leaned forward and guided me forward with her fingers gently under my chin, and she kissed me. My best friend kissed me, it was unlike any other thing I had ever experienced in my life. She had her lips pressed against mine, in what I had always believed was rather disgusting, two girls kissing that is. But after a moment, she touched my cheek so gently and moved her lips against mine and I did the same and felt the pain of the events of just a few hours ago begin to fade as the soothing sensations began to overtake my frazzled brain. I found my body doing what it wanted in that moment, before I could think of resisting her advances. I touched her cheek for a moment and then my brain kicked back online and I realized who I was getting lost in.
"What was that?" I asked as she grinned a confident sexy smile that soon turned to determination as she took a hold of the collar of the baseball jersey I was wearing, gently I might add, and held me in place.
"Just shut up, and for once in your life Sarah Brady and do what feels good" She said as she tried to kiss me again and I turned my head slightly to avoid her and tried to comprehend what exactly was happening. "Stop fighting it, and kiss me back."
"Noooo" I said in my most forceful hushed growl as she grinned and held me in place and said in a sweet voice, "Yes."
"Stop..." I started to say before her lips met mine in a gentle kiss as she almost willed me to kiss her back this time. I gave in, thinking maybe after a few seconds she would stop and let me get back to my depression, but suddenly those depressing thoughts no longer seemed so important. I felt her tongue lick my upper lip and my heart raced as I met hers with mine and felt those oh so wonderful sensations of a french kiss. Only this time, it was far different than kissing any of the loser guys I had done this with. She was trying to make me enjoy it, and doing an unbelievable job at it, while they only cared about exploring my tonsils. The kiss was so slow and soft and tantalizing hot that I no longer cared who I was kissing, her lips felt so good on mine after such a horrible night and I was giving in and doing what she said, I was doing what felt good. I felt my hands slide to her pajama covered thighs and squeezed my fingers into the warm skin beneath them. My body started to come online in that most sensual of ways as she slipped her hand down to my neck and I felt her begin to pull away but she was holding me to her lips with a gentle touch at the back of my neck. I realized what was happening as I leaned forward and began to crawl over her body as she laid back slowly on to the mattress. Sighing contently into her mouth she kept the same wonderful pace and our tongues worked against the other's in an almost feverish attempt to increase the pleasure. I came to rest on my knees and elbows, my body now literally laying on hers and her legs draped across the outside of my thighs, head tilted up by the pillows at the top of the bed. She wrapped one arm around my neck and clutched her hand into my hair and the other went searching for bare skin and found it on my back as she slipped the jersey I was wearing up a little and slipped her hand underneath. My mind was filled with such wonderful sensations I didn't wanna stop ever, and as I felt her try and pull away I refused to let her and kissed her in a faster pace as my hands moved to her red hair and almost forced her to stay put. I knew this was what she no doubt wanted and to tell you the truth, know I did too.
The Reality of it was, Emily was my best friend in the world and lord knows how many nights I've felt my heart break while she held me and let me cry till I couldn't anymore. Never once leaving me, till she was sure I could survive on my own. She was my rock and I soon began to realize that I needed her more than she needed me. Which scared me and made me even consider a relationship with her at one point. But as is always the result in my life, I met another charming loser with a nice smile and fell under his spell until he tired of my needy cry-baby style and dumped me for a whore who "would give it up." See, you should know, I'm a virgin and I cherish my virginity with my life. It's the one thing I can control and I'll be damned if someone who just wants me for that is gonna take it from me. Hell, I've never even been touched down there, well except by my horny ass best friend here, who groped me one day in the shower as we wrestled. It was innocent and I knew she was only trying to get a rise out of me, so I didn't get mad.
"MMMMMMMMM" She said as we finally parted and both smiled. Not that I wanted to let her know I liked it but, not like I could hide it now. "Feel better?"
"Some" I said as I blushed and turned away on instinct as she tried to kiss me again. But again, she got what she wanted as she gently persuaded me to kiss her again. Another few moments of slow, soft, tantalizingly hot kissing was all I needed to get lost her again. But too soon she pulled away and laid back on the bed. I knew, for some reason, that this time I was gonna have to kiss her if I wanted to feel that again and let's be honest I was dying too at that point.
"Now you wanna tell me what that was?" I asked as she laughed. "It was a kiss, and one you really liked."
"And you didn't?" I asked as her arms clutched onto my jersey and held me in place playfully. I relaxed again and started to realize how beautiful my best friend really was. She is hot, red hair, ocean green eyes you can get lost in, the perfect body that I secretly longed to have, and a heart so inviting that it's hard to believe she hadn't found someone by now.
"I fuckin loved it, I just knew you were a great kisser" She said as she tilted her head and I was willingly gonna let her kiss me this time, but she was gonna make me make the move this time and as I froze the moment sorta lingered and passed. "God you're lips feel so good."
"What are you trying to do? Make me a lesbian and since when do you like girls?" I asked as she blushed, it didn't happen often, but I loved making her blush because she had such an easy way of doing it to me. "Dyke."
"You sure kissed me back like you liked it, dyke number two" She said as I tried to push her away and tried to roll off but felt her hold me tighter as she giggled. "I've always wanted to kiss you."
"Yeh?" I asked as she smiled and touched my face gently.
"Yeh, I'm so sick of seeing those losers treat you like crap, tonight was my move" She said, "I was gonna go for broke and so far it's went pretty good."
"Yeh, I'm not depressed anymore" I said as she smiled and nodded her head. "But, Em, I'm not gay."
"And I am" She said and shook my whole world in that moment. "I have been for a long time."
"And you never told me?" I asked.
"Seemed like you would leave me if you knew" She said.
"Maybe, but I won't now" I said as she hugged me and I laughed and felt good knowing I made her night.
"But, this, me and you?" I said, "This can't happen."
"Why not?" She asked in her 'I'm sick of your shit' voice. One that, trust me, I have come to know all to well over the years. Many a night she has forced me to stop whining when she knew she was right and I was simply over reacting. "You don't have to be gay to love me, and god I'm sick and fuckin tired of seeing you groped by these happy handed ass clowns you seemed to fall for. Then it's my damn job to pick up the pieces."
"Well, I'm sorry..."
"Shut up, I'm not done and for once you're gonna hear me out" She said as she held me gently by the cheeks and I almost had to smile. "Then you spend the night crying in my arms, not their arms, mine. Are you listening yet? Try this one on for size, then they all go to school the next day and talk about you like you're the school whore, who gives it up to everyone who asks. That's why only losers ask you out, they've ruined your reputation."
"Shit..." I said in shock.
"Yeh, that's the look I was going for, shock value" She said, "And no you are not running away from this like always, you are gonna face me and tell me why you won't give us a chance. Have you forget about three hours ago, and that fuckin sleazy dick less loser, Tommy Wyles, what did he try to do to you before I saved you like always?"
"Rape me" I said as I started to clue into what she was driving at.
"I SAVED YOU" She screamed in my face and I knew she was desperately trying to get my attention. "Cause I care about you, not just your body, but all of you. I hurt you when you do and my heart breaks when yours does. It makes me mad as hell when I see them groping you five minutes after meeting you. Cause I know what they want, and you always come down on me for trying to wake up to that. And tonight, you're gonna make some changes in your life or I'm leaving you."
"Emily no" I said with pleading eyes. "You're the most important thing in my life. Please don't leave me, I can't make it without you."
"Good, now you're talking sense" She said as she leaned up and kissed me softly, "Please, Sarah, I'm begging for a chance to make you happy. Please?"
"But I'm not..." I started before she cut me off.
"I wanna be the one to fuckin love you" She growled, "Me, your best friend in this world, give me a fuckin chance to show you how good it feels to be loved. Not groped, loved, by a person who adores you."
"You're begging me..." I said.
"Yessssssss" She said, "God, I'm sick of seeing you cry, it's killing me seeing you get closer and closer to killing your fucking self. Cause you won't let me be more than a friend. You just fuckin kissed me like you've never kissed anyone. I know it made you hot, I could feel your hands in my hair and you refused to let me pull away. Cause you liked it. I kissed you the way you wished those fuckin dickhead losers would have or could have. But I can make you feel things they can't I swear on my heart I can. So stop fighting, so god damn hard against it. Yesssss, ok, I am begging, and I'll do it all night if it takes that long. To convince you, it's ok to feel good in my arms and let me make you feel good for a change. Please?"
"God I'm so stupid" I said as she smiled finally, "How can I miss this?"
"Cause you're thick headed Sarah Brady" She said as I gave her a dirty look. "Give me one chance..."
"Ok" I said as she covered her mouth in shock as I smiled.
"Wait, no" She said as I looked at her in confusion, "I don't wanna get into this if you're just gonna dump me the first time some loser smiles at you. Or we wake up in the morning and you realize I'm gross and you refused to let yourself get turned on by me. You know, the whole straight thing you cling to like shit on toilet paper."
"Then give me a chance" I said, "I'm scared to death, cause this is all still just sinking in. I need you to hold me, and convince me you can love me."
"I can do that" She said with a huge smile. "I would do anything for you, just I want you to love me so bad. So I can protect you..."
"Shut up" I said as I kissed her softly for a long moment. "You made me feel so good already."
"You gonna gimme some?" She asked with a flirty giggle as she pushed my hair into my face as I laughed. Funny thing is, in that flirty giggling moment, I realized who I wanted to have my virginity. I finally let myself feel those feelings that I had fought so hard to resist and I felt every painful memory from the past fade to black in my memory and I swear I think I was literally falling in love with her all at once. All of this was no longer so shocking as I let my heart take control of my emotions and looking down at my adorable best friend, I started to get turned on. I know, I'm supposed to be straight but she was fuckin hot and I know, cause I've seen this girl naked about a million times. Always casually though and I never would let myself enjoy it.
"You want it?" I asked with a smile and I just knew she thought I was kidding. But I honestly wasn't in that moment.
"Your virginity?" She asked.
"Yeh, I want someone to have it that loves me" I said as she smiled and tears started coming down her cheeks as she covered her mouth and realized her dream was coming true. I moved her hands away and kissed her cheeks one at a time and grinned as I said, "MMMMMM salty."
"Shut up" She said as she blushed again and tried to stop crying. "You're cruel if you..."
"I'm not" I said softly as I kissed her again. This time I willed her to kiss me back and she did and I let all those emotions that were flooding my body just take over and gave into the desire completely. Licking her lip this time I searched for a moment until she met my tongue with her own and we started to french like I had never kissed anyone before. It was deeper and more sensual, but so slow and soft, her lips felt like heaven on my lips and I never wanted to let this moment pass as she kissed me now like a lover kisses you. Our lips in such a perfect rhythm, my brain was begging me to never stop to let those sensations become permanent. Emily again searched for bare skin as I moved my jersey up my stomach and let her have free access, and as she touched my stomach I moaned into her mouth at the gentle way her hands caressed my flat stomach. Moving up and down in such a perfect way it made my body beg for more. My hands again went into her hair and clutched into fists and almost held her in place as I kissed her deeply. Our tongues now working against the other in a constant and endless search for pleasure, just like before. I felt her hands finally move up a little and begin to undo the buttons on my jersey, but I could have cared less, I just wanted to kiss her. I shifted forward to get over her a bit more, and felt something that forever changed my life, pleasure in the arms of Emily Valentine. I felt something shoot pleasure through my body and it felt so good I almost screamed. I shifted forward again and felt that magical bolt of pleasure for a second time as I pulled away from Emily and saw her pleading with me with her hers.
"No, please Sarah, don't stop" She begged me as I did it again. Still unsure what was giving me such pleasure. I looked down and saw we were grinding against each other and as I did it again and again, I realized Emily was feeling it too. It made me melt into her as the last of my resolve for fighting this, gave way as I saw her looking at me, her face masked in pleasure, her eyes glued on mine with love for me in them. She moaned as she bit her lip and pleaded with me to continue with only her eyes. I kissed her again, and grinded harder and faster as our bodies rocked together in a wonderful pleasure filled rhythm. She wrapped both arms around my neck and kissed me with with every bit of passion she could as she relentlessly massaged my tongue with her own and grinded back to me, both of us trying to make the other feel as good as possible. She pulled away as I opened my eyes, her face only an inch from mine as she encouraged me with two hands now in my hair. "Come on Sarah, give in, give into me."
"MMMMMMMMMMMM, I am baby" I said as she kissed me again for a long, long moment. My body being racked with an endless series of pleasure strikes, that seemed to be hitting every nerve ending in my body. "Am I making you feel good to?"
"MMMMMMMMMMM, god yesss, I love you" She said in a grunt as her eyes rolled back in her head and she tilted her head back and took in the pleasure we both felt as I grinded harder against her and she did the same against me. I kissed her chin and down her neck almost absentmindedly as I tried to make her love me more, my lips pressing against her skin and stifling each of my increasingly louder moans. "MMMMMMMMMMMM, please, I'm begging, don't stop, god this is what I've always wanted."
"MMMMMMMMMMM me too Em" I moaned as I touched her chin and got her attention as I smiled and she returned it. I watched her face again show the pleasure as I lifted my hips and crashed down into her as she grunted almost silently and met my next thrust as both of our bodies drove towards a reward for all this hard work. My mind reeled as it was now consumed with pleasure, the smile on Sarah's pleasure soaked face was all I ever wanted to see from that moment on. Sweat dripping off both of our foreheads as Sarah encouraged me to give her my best and I did as we grinded harder and neither realizing what was coming in the following moments.
"MMMMMMMM, I'm getting close" She whimpered as I again rose my hips only an inch or so and drove back down into her as she squealed once and tried to take in all the pleasure, "I love seeing you in pleasure."
"Me too, Em, so close, I love you too" I said as she kissed me one more time and just as our tongues began a new rhythm and worked to increase our pleasure, both of our bodies finally gave into the pleasure and we exploded in rapture as one. A soft and slow, almost coma inducing french kiss encapsulated the entire moment as both of our bodies shook with the body shaking, mind numbing, all consuming pleasure that seemed to last forever. I moaned into her mouth and knew she was experiencing the same wonderful feeling I was and that made the moment so much more complete for me. I felt the twinges of pleasure subside little by little as my body began forcing me to slow, my muscles now begging for relief from the constant stress of the just concluded activity. I slumped forward as our kiss slowed and we mutually parted as we panted. Her touching my face and saying, "Don't leave me please?"
"I'm not going too" I said as she smiled and kissed me. "I've never felt anything like that, you were so good to me. Gentle and encouraging. God that was so wonderful."
"I know, I just wanted it so bad once you got going" She said with a blush. "I know I was begging..."
"I liked that" I said softly, "Not that you ever have to do that again."
"Again?" She asked. "Meaning there will be a next time?"
"And a time after that and after that and..." I said with a soft kiss. "And so many more. No one has ever made me feel like this before."
"I didn't plan all of this you know" She said. "I mean this was, a wonderful surprise."
"I know and I started it, unintentionally, but I did" I said.
"So am I gonna get that chance?" She asked with a flirty giggle.
"It's already begun and you sure are off to a good start" I said as she squealed in excitement and kissed me as I laughed. "I make you happy?"
"YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!" She screamed as I smiled and knew then I was in love with her as she bounced around under me in celebration. "I love you, I meant that. I love you."
"I love you too, Em" I said as she looked at me for a second and said, "Say that again, slowly, so I can see you say that. No mistaken."
"I...." I said deliberately as I pointed at myself and then to her, "...love you."
"One more time?" She asked as I blushed and screamed, "I LOVE YOU."
"I am so loving the sound of that" She said as I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Will you by my girlfriend?"
"Yeh I will" I said without a seconds pause as she seemed to be floating on cloud nine about now. So was I. "And yes I mean, your real girlfriend and not just behind closed doors."
"I can like hold your hand, and kiss you and tell you I love you, like, anytime I want to?" She asked as I nodded my head. "You just stopped hurting my girl. No more crying, no more heart breaking, no more wondering if this person you're with is into you. I am, totally and completely devoted to you."
"I get that now" I said, "I owe you a lot."
"Huh?"
"I owe you, I do, you've been there for me so many times that I can't count" I said, "It's about time I start paying you back by loving you honest."
"You are my dream girl, you know that?" She asked as she kissed me. "Everything I ever wanted in a girl...is in you."
"You are too" I said softly, "Only I was looking for you...wrapped in the wrong package. Now I see."
"Now you see" She said as I smiled. "Let me hold you tonight?"
"But, Em, I'm not crying" I said as she rolled her eyes.
"I know, it'll be something new" She said as I rolled off her and let her sit up and slip off the bed. She pulled the comforter and sheet down as I slipped off the other side and still feeling a little confused at what she wanted now. I watched in shock as she skinned her shirt over her head and tossed it aside and then took of her bra and dropped it on the floor and then went her pj bottoms and her soaked panties followed. I gawked at her body for a long moment and knew then that I could feel desire for her. I snapped my head away as she caught me looking and crawled over the bed and touched my hand. "It's ok, I want you to look."
"You take my breath away" I said as I touched her cheek and kissed her as she gripped my jersey and slipped it off my shoulders. I let it fall to the ground and let her then pull my own pajama bottoms down as I held onto her as she let me step out of them. Then giving me the encouragement I needed with her eyes I unsnapped my bra and took it off as she pulled gently at my panties and skinned them down my thighs and held me again as I stepped out of them.
"Lock the door?" She asked as I walked the few feet to the door and flipped the lock and saw the light go out. She giggled as my eyes adjusted to the dark and I spotted her now in bed and under the covers partially as she motioned for me to join her. Still feeling confused, I moved back to the bed and sat down as she took my arm and had me turn my back to her and lay down. Then it all became clear, as she slipped an arm around me and pulled me back against her body and covered us both up. I could feel her breath on my neck as she nuzzled me and I looked back for a moment.
"I love you so much, Em" I said simply as she smiled and pulled me tighter.
"I love you too" She said as she kissed my neck and I relaxed into her loving arms one last time, knowing this was where I wanted to be. Moments later, my eyes growing heavy, I heard her say softly, "Sleep...you're in my arms now. You don't have to hurt anymore."
Well I know how, a heartache feels
Shattered when it breaks,
And if you believe in me,
He'll be your last mistake
I can't stop the wind and I can't stop the rain
But I can promise you that I can
Stop your pain
Come in out of the pain
And let me dry your tears
He's been gone for days
And I've loved you for years
Oh, lay down in my arms
There ain't no shame
Don't just stand there girl
Come in out of the pain...
I did.
WOW. Just...WOW. only word that comes to mind...it literally brought tears to my eyes, it was so beautiful. That was...incredible, and incredible story of two girls that love each other. So very beautiful. Oh it made so much sense in the way it happened. Thank you for that beautiful gift of peace.
Amy wrote this:
A little over dramatic in some parts, but that was the point I guess. You did that pretty neatly, it helped that your characters were well-shaped. It's got a very modern theatrical feel, especially in the dialogue. And the intimate moments were described perfectly. Which is a story I've read a hundred times, only you've done it with a real tenderness underneath.
Katie wrote this:
I liked that it was a seduction, but not really. And that it kept going back and forth then when one said yes the other refused, I liked that. It was like I was watching it play out. It was erotic but not porn, it was sexual but not sex. it was very good. Very very erotic.
Bobo wrote this:
Yo, it is like every other story of yours. really ´nicely´ written and it makes
fun to read them...^^ I don´t know why, but it feels kinda refreshing in some way...even if you used the best friend cliché...