7/17
Things have been awkward with my friend, Simon, since I got back from camp. I told him I wished he could've gone too, and tried explaining how I started to miss him real bad, but he didn't say anything until I finished blowing him. Camp was great though! I did archery and woodcarving and lots of other stuff. It just would've been better with Simon there. He's always so funny, and we could've gone swimming a bunch, and maybe shared a tent. It would've been like sleeping over every night. He looks so content when he's sleeping. Sometimes his lips move and I guess he's dreaming, and one time I leaned in real close to hear, but I had a hard time sleeping after that.
7/23
Thought Simon was just sore about staying here while I was gone, but he's still acting weird! It's been a whole week. And we hung out every day. Like on Tuesday my mom left to go shopping and we got into the ice cream. She found out though, because we accidentally left it on the counter while I was jerking him off. It didn't feel like that long but it still melted. We could've cleaned up and refroze it, but Simon pushed me all the way to my room when he heard the garage door. I heard him making excuses downstairs while I put my clothes back on. Mom didn't buy it. Nice going, doofus! And yesterday we were at his house, and he locked the door to his room. It's not like his sister was home. He even re-locked it after I came back from the bathroom, and told me to take off the shorts he'd just insisted I put back on before I went! So silly. He was paranoid the whole time we were playing Ninja Combat... so naturally I whupped him. He was red-faced after the victory dance I did on his bed. It made his hair look even nicer. I hope I figure out what's up with him soon. He's so tense when we touch, except when we're alone, and then he's relaxed but annoying. "Simon says do this. Simon says lick that. Simon says swallow." Always for that kind of boring stuff. It was cute at first, dude, but you can just ask normally.
7/25
Read some of that book Simon's always carrying around. "Secret Guidance Made Easy." Guess he started it while I was at camp. Seems like a load of old crap. If you can trick someone into not noticing stuff, won't they just ignore you? I thought it was for hypnosis. I want a way to ask if he likes anybody without making things weird between us. Weird-er, anyway. We were playing games today and he hardly said a word. I brought F1 Rivalry over, put it in, took my clothes off, and sat right down, but he was already tight-lipped. I wonder if he caught me checking him out. He's so cute. I could hardly keep my eyes off him, especially when his shorts started tenting. I wish I knew what he was thinking of. It must've been good, because he came so much it spilled down my chin. When he helped wipe it off my legs... I got such a boner. He couldn't not notice. I felt so embarrassed, but I was so happy it just turned into giggles, and he's like "Simon says jerk off." All quiet and cool. I gave him such an eyeroll. It's like, yeah dude? Of course. I tried looking more at his sports posters than at him, but he was so close, and he smelled nice, and my eyes kept drifting to his chest. I wanted to put my face up to it. And hear his heartbeat. And feel his skin. I closed my eyes when I finished, but couldn't help staring while he cleaned it up. Dang it, I'm hard again just writing this. Fixed it. Thought of him. Thought of him doing it for me. I barely lasted a minute thanks to that. If he doesn't show that he likes me back soon, I'm gonna explode.
7/26
It finally happened!!! We were standing around in his room waiting on the Martian Warfare matchmaker and he was so close and I just went for it. I already had my hands on his shoulders because we were fencing, and I couldn't stop myself from feeling down to his chest, and it was so nice I was trembling, and I must've been brushing over his nipples because he made the hottest sort of breathy noise, and I kissed him. The first one was so quick. I almost didn't believe I'd done it, so I did it again to be sure! Haha! He looked surprised and I was super worried for a second but then HE KISSED ME. It's a blur after that but nothing else matters. We totally ignored the game yelling at us to ready up. I finally got to run my fingers through his hair, and not in a fakey teasing way. His hands kept going all up under my shirt, so I took a deep breath and pulled it off, and then we both laughed while fiddling with the buttons on his. I've seen him naked, but I don't get to touch him naked. I mean not unless he asks. This is the first (no wait, third) time I've gotten to lay him out in his bed and feel all over him. His abs are so hot, even with our dicks in the way. I don't remember who came first, but I was actually ON TOP OF him when it happened, so we were both super messy. Once we'd cooled down and stopped locking lips every couple seconds, he had to be a goof and go "Simon says let's shower." For once I smirked and told him he could just ask. So he did, and I got all kinds of excited again, because we'd never showered together before. I mean, except for all the times we have, but whatever. I hope we can go on like an actual DATE soon! Hold hands and kiss and do all that lovey-dovey stuff right out in public. Maybe next time he sleeps over, if we're super careful, we could, like... jerk off together? Mmmm! I'm such a pervert! But now I'm a pervert with a BOYFRIEND. Simon says the rest of summer's gonna be awesome.