Note: This story has two versions. This version assumes you are a female reader. If you are a male reader, please click here. Take a moment, relax, and imagine something with me.
Imagine finding the special one. The one that you don't have to hide your secret from. The one that's just as naughty, dirty, and depraved as you. The one that will embrace it, and surprise with you with just how far it can go.
Imagine letting the secret out for the first time - the nervousness as you get closer and closer to sharing it. What will he think? Will he tell the police? What about your friends and family? Would you be making a mistake, are you destined to keep this inside forever? Can't anyone understand?
Maybe you don't go in and tell him right away. Maybe you test the waters, easing closer and closer to crossing that line, seeing how he reacts.
And maybe it takes a long time to find someone that perhaps doesn't seem so bothered by it. Because let's face it, most people will. They will start to get uncomfortable, angry, or confused. And you know right then that they're not right for you. They're not the one.
But imagine that one day, this man does come into your life. Maybe you met him online, and you already know he'll be accepting of your interests. Or maybe as you test the waters further and further, you discover that he doesn't seem to mind. In fact, it actually excites him, it turns him on, and he wants more of it.
And then you decide to cross the line. To tell him that you're a pedophile. That the thoughts of little boys (or girls!) excite you, and that it's never going to go away.
Imagine the relief you feel when he tells you that it's okay, that he understands. And the surprise and excitement you feel when that later that night, he treats you just like a little child as he fucks you harder than ever before.
Or maybe he goes the other direction, and acts like a sweet little boy, just for you. Ready and accepting of your womanly love.
Imagine the feeling of overwhelming bliss, the feeling of pure connection as you explode with the most powerful orgasm of your life. Knowing that for the first time, you can truly be yourself, you don't have to hide.
Imagine what daily life looks like between you two, how things change so quickly. Notice how he'll subtly tease you when you're not expecting it. How you'll come home to find that he just so happens to be babysitting a friend's son, and then fucks you in the same room as he sleeps. Pushing as you as far as he thinks he can.
Or how about the way he starts putting you in front of children more often. The way he'll take you to the public swimming pools or parks, trying to disguise it in the form of a date. Deep down inside, he wants to catch you looking, to see that face, the look you give when you feel yourself starting to get wet. And you start to realize that just maybe, he's a little bit more than "just accepting" of your secret than you initially thought.
Imagine the shock you feel when you come home later that day, and he starts asking you about your favorite boys, redescribing them to you, the way their little shorts curved around their butts and the outline of a tiny cock poking through. Imagine how excited you both feel when he starts to talk about the boy you were most fixated on, noticing how much harder he is for you now.
And then afterwards, your entire world changes. He confesses to you that he's a pedophile too. He has all of the same feelings, and just like you, never had anybody to share this with. Just like you, he felt his dreams and wishes would never come true, and this side of him - his true self - would have to be locked away forever.
And in this moment, you realize that you truly love him. He is the one, and you decide to marry him.
But there's something that he still doesn't know. He doesn't know that you don't want to only keep this a fantasy. You want to live them out, to make these thoughts real, and you want to do so with him. And that's a line even he may not let you cross.
You're determined he's the one, but is it worth risking? Knowing everything he knows now, knowing that you may go out and do the acts society deems the absolute most taboo, would he actually accept that? Is it worth taking the risk of losing him, and that beautiful connection you two now have?
Deep down inside, you know this has to be talked about. If you're going to spend the rest of your life with this person, he has to know, and you have to know what he thinks about it.
But wait, he's a pedophile too. Maybe he'll bring it up, right? I mean, who knows?
Perhaps life goes on for a while, until one night while he's fucking you, he starts talking about how he can't wait to add a little one to the mix. Imagine how you would feel hearing those words escape his lips.
Imagine the feelings of love, of relief, of promise and of hope on the day of your wedding. Because against all odds, you've managed to find the only person that's perfect for you - the one you can share all of your life with.
Imagine how much hotter the sex gets, how much more into it you both are when you both imagine the future together, knowing deep down inside this is eventually all going to become real. And the hope and excitement for what lies ahead, until one day, everything changes.
You're pregnant. You are going to be a mother, and this wonderful, naughty, perfect man is going to be the daddy of your baby. Imagine the feeling. No, really. Take a moment and imagine what this moment would be like for you.
You'd love it, wouldn't you? Feeling your baby grow inside, knowing everything that lies ahead for the family?
And before you know it, your son is born. You have a beautiful, amazing little boy, and yet again, everything's different.
Maybe you two start playing with him right away. Maybe the day he's brought home from the hospital, Mommy and Daddy are already getting little sucks in and pleasuring their baby boy. And shortly after, he joins your love making activities - a happy and loving family if there ever was one!
As he grows up, the options and activities only get better and better. Imagine how much fun you'll have doing the things other parents love to complain about - giving lots of baths, dealing with potty training and late night accidents.
Imagine falling asleep each night naked and cuddling your son, sleeping together in beautiful bliss. So close, you can feel his little heartbeat as he nuzzles against you. In the morning, you three wake up together and play.
Imagine how free you'll feel in such an open and loving home. Knowing when your son is horny, all he has to do is approach you. "Suck me, Mommy!" he'll say, climbing on your lap and offering his little cock to you. Knowing that your husband walking in the door and finding your mouth on your son's penis wouldn't be a problem - in fact, it'd be enjoyed. Wouldn't it be nice?
Then sometime later, you end up pregnant again, this time with a girl. The cycle repeats itself all over again, this time even better.
Imagine leaning over your bed, your mouth covering your little boy's cock, sucking him hard as his little body squirms and his cock twitches against the roof of your mouth. You look over and see your husband, with his mouth covering your baby girl's mound, pleasuring her the same way she does you. Before you know it, both of your children cum, and the family grows even closer.
Imagine the immense, overwhelming love you'll feel as you reach up to kiss your darling son after his orgasm subsides, while your husband does the same with his little girl. You then turn your head and kiss him, and an indescribable feeling of contentment floods through your body.
And as the years go by, it only gets better and better. But there's a problem.
They say you can never have too much of a good thing, but that doesn't mean it's always perfect. Because the older your little boy gets, the more he realizes that no woman can outweigh the love he has for his mommy. Not only that, but they wouldn't understand the lifestyle that for the entirety of his life, he's loved so much.
Imagine the look on your face, the feelings that flush through your body when she reveals those words to you: "Daddy, you're the only one for me. And I want you to have my baby."
They say that there is no greater love than that between daughters and their daddies. And it's only in the closest of families that this love can blossom into something greater than you'd ever imagine possible.
As you have more children with both your husband and your sons, you can't help but think about everything that led up to this point. The truth is, this secret you have - it's not a curse. You're not destined for a life of loneliness and disappointment, a life of frustration of denial. It truly is a gift.
Think over everything you've felt as you've imagined these things. It's nice, isn't it? You want it, don't you?
Don't you?
It's out there. It happens. And when it does, it's even better than you imagine it.
Will I continue this story? Time will tell.
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