Tuesday, October 18 2005

I don't know if I feel jealous or depressed. Nikki told me she loves Else. I guess it hasn't come as a surprise. After all they've been going out together for some time. I tried to be happy for her as we talked about it but inside I felt like crying. She told me how Else braided her hair one day and they kissed for the first time. That happened at Nikki's home in her room while her parents were at work. I told her she's lucky to know a girl like Else who loves her back but I wanted to know what will happen to us now. I didn't ask her then about us because I didn't want to make her feel guilty or pressure her with our relationships. She was so happy then about everything and I wanted her to remain confident about herself. She said I was the first person she told about her and Else and that she will tell her parents next. Her parents know they are good friends but not how close they are. I'm quite sure they won't have anything against it, they've always been very supportive of her and allowed her to be free and to experiment.

Few days ago Nikki twisted her ankle at the kung-fu training and now she can't play soccer. The weekend was lazy and slow and it gave me an opportunity to keep her in bed and nurse her poor little ankle. We've come to conclusions that kisses are the best medicine. She missed the soccer game on Saturday but it's not a big deal. Else came over on Sunday to see her and we all watched a movie and went out in the afternoon to eat something. Else said she wants to be an artist. I think she's talented and she could become famous one day. Nikki said she'd rather be a scientist but she also likes painting and making her little clay figurines. When Nikki and Else are together it's easy to see how different they are. Else is a lot quieter than Nikki. Nikki could talk all day but Else is sometimes shy. I think she's also more mature than Nikki who is still a little kid inside. I like them both but I wouldn't trade Nikki for anyone else in the world.

After our dinner, we drove Else to her home and we returned back to my home. On the way back we talked about what to do for the rest of the night. Then out of nowhere she said she wanted to do a striptease. It made me laugh because it was the last thing I expected her to say. I told her I would love to see it and we both laughed. I thought she was joking but when we came home she told me to sit down on bed and then she turned on the music. It was exciting and little funny but she did it very well. I like how she twirled around and took her things off piece by piece. At the end she asked me how it was and I said I want my money back. She asked why and I said because she hasn't finished yet - she was there standing still in her panties. What kind of striptease is that supposed to be where she gets to keep her panties on? She said 'all right but this will cost you a lot more' and took her panties off. We laughed and she jumped on the bed and hid beneath the covers where I joined her. There's more to this story but I'll only say I had to pay her off in kisses for watching the striptease.