Friday, February 25 2005
I saw the Simpsons episode in which Lisa becomes a Buddhist. I thought it was funny and Lisa was sweet. I wanted to write sooner but my work kept me busy because we're working on a new play which starts in March and there's so much to do. There won't be any little girls in this play but there is another one in production which will start in spring and that one has a couple of girls who act in it. I haven't seen the girls yet but I'm looking forward to it. I still remember little Line who was in one play about two years ago. I don't know what happened with her because I never saw her again and I liked her very much and she was very talented too.
I was reading BK-girls the other day and I like the new articles. Maybe I'll write some poems and I'll ask Nikki if I could send hers too. She writes them in her diary but she doesn't show them to anyone, even me, except sometimes when she thinks they are really good. But the ones she showed me were about her turtle and friends so they are probably not right for our web site. Once she wrote me a poem for my birthday and I like that one very much but it will probably sound different in English because of the rhyme.
Nikki had her birthday last week. I saw her on weekend but not on her actual birthday because it was during the week. I wanted to make it special for her because we haven't seen each other as much as we usually do and I wanted to make up with her for all the things in the past. I tried to plan it all ahead. I picked her from home on Friday afternoon and gave her the present. I bought her a necklace with an antique silver pendant and little crystals in it that look like flowers. She was really happy with it, she said she loved it. Then we went to a French restaurant, a really expensive one because I wanted it to be something romantic and special that we can remember. I asked her if we'll forgive each other and she said yes and I felt like kissing her right there but I thought it should better wait until we come back home. Then we talked about school and she said she joined the LGBT club at her school, the one I asked her to join earlier but she felt shy to go there. I asked her if she likes it and she said it's cool. She made some friends but she says she's about the youngest there, but not too young because other girls and boys are only year or two older than her. She said there are only six girls and five boys in the club and they often go out together to the movies or parties and clubs. I think it will be good for her to make new friends who are open minded and who will support her and I'm really happy for her because when I was growing up there were no support clubs for lesbian and gays.
After the dinner we went back home. It was late and it was snowing outside but we stayed up and talked. She asked me about Monika and if we saw each other. I told her earlier that I like Monika but that there is nothing between us. She knows how I feel about what happened with Ella and I don't want something like that to repeat. But even if Monika was rational about my attraction to young girls I still wouldn't love her as much as I love Nikki. I think I assured Nikki at last that there is no one else in my life, not even Mark, which made her laugh.
We stayed up that night, in my bed playing and kissing and having fun. We played tickle fight until we were lost for breath and then we played with each other...
On Saturday we made breakfast and went out shopping for groceries. We wanted to check out a soccer training club for Nikki but it was so cold we went back home and turned up the heat. It was raining and snowing all day and we didn't feel like doing anything but cuddle up and watch TV all day and in the evening we decided to go out and see a movie as I promised her earlier. First we couldn't decide what to watch and then we chose Finding Neverland but we came too late for the movie so we had to wait until the next screening. That was fine because we were hungry and we went to the local Chinese takeout. While eating we watched girls around us. Nikki spotted a sexy girl in her twenties but she was with her boyfriend. I saw a teen girl I liked but Nikki said she looked "boring". I though it's a funny way to describe someone.
Finally we saw Finding Neverland. It is about J.M. Barrie, a guy who wrote Peter Pan. He was attracted to little boys and this is a story about his life. It is a very good movie. We both liked it and I think it's an excellent movie for all child lovers to see with their girlfriends or boyfriends. We both felt better after watching it, as if there was a secret bond between us holding us together.
Last weekend Nikki went on a school field trip to learn about the environment and plants and animals. I haven't seen her since but we'll see each other again this weekend. On Saturday Monika invited us to come and help her with buying new cabinet for her apartment and on Sunday Nikki's mom said I should come to their place for lunch. I like going there because I don't often get to spend time in Nikki's room and I love to lie in her bed and cover my face with her pillows because they smell so yummy and remind me of her.