Thursday, December 02 2004

I was busy for the past few days but now the weekend is coming and I'll have more time for myself.

I don't think winters are great for going hiking or for any outdoor sports. When I come home from work it's already night and when I wake up in the morning it's dark too. On weekends Nikki and me like to sleep all morning and when we finally get up there's only a few hours of daylight left outside. It won't be before spring that we'll feel like going out on trips which I don't mind because now it's too cold anyway.

Someone sent me some sexy stories long ago for Nikki to read. It could have been a link to a web site or something similar. But mostly I find stories for her by myself on the Internet. Sometimes I'll find stories in [...] but it's very hard to find good lesbian stories for her. It's easier to find them in English. I showed her some stories from Butterfly Kisses and she liked those. There are many web sites with bad lesbian stories so I try to look for good ones and pick mild ones that she will enjoy reading. She likes when a story has a plot like a common children's story or adventure story and then something sexy happens between the characters. For example, she once read a lesbian version of Snow White and she loved that one very much.

We went to the science museum. It was fun and cute. There were lots of hand-on experiments but we haven't seen anything about homosexually. The exhibition was about the differences between male and female and gender stereotypes. Maybe one day they'll have something about gays and lesbians at the museum.

We don't do yoga as often as before. Sometimes I do it on my own and sometimes with her. We do it together when she's over here and she's feeling tired from school. It helps her to relax. Sometimes we practice before going to bed and it can feel nice and sexy when we are naked and holding each other. I think it would be really nice practicing yoga with Nikki in a lonely log cabin somewhere in the mountains before the fireplace while it's snowing outside. Maybe it comes true when we go away on the New Year. I've been dreaming about it for a long time.

We are going rock climbing this Saturday. I think we've missed one weekend or two. It's hard to go there every weekend because we always have something else planned. It's exciting sport but I don't think it's as recreational as soccer or swimming. It's more like fun sport and not something that will keep her fit if she's practicing it only once a week so I would like to see her go back to swimming or soccer. But it's up to her to choose what she wants to do. I really liked when she was playing soccer because she was in a team with other girls her age and she had friends there and they played together. Rock climbing is an individual sport and most people in the gym are adults.

Nikki still comes here almost every weekend but sometimes she will go out with her friends. If she goes out, it's mostly during weekdays when they go out to the movies. It's only on weekends when she goes to sleepovers or partyovers as I call them but it doesn't happen every weekend. Sometimes I have to tell her to go out with her girlfreinds if she's been hanging out with me too much. I know it sounds strange but I think it's good for her. What really counts is that she has a sleepover at my place every weekend and the time we hold and kiss under the blankets is worth more than anything else.

Turning 14 won't change things around much but we won't have to hide from kissing or holding hands in public because it will be hard for people to tell how old she is. She could easily pass for a 15 or 16 year old girl and it's not like before when she was 9 or 10 because it was obvious then that she was a little child. I know we could still get in trouble if someone specifically asks her age but I don't think it will happen. Not unless we have a really bad luck. The only danger is in our past because if it comes out then I would get in trouble but the only time it could come out is if she tells about it to her friends like she wanted to tell Sandra.

We'll probably go somewhere around New Year but we don't know where yet. Now it turns out Sandra can't go with us because she's going somewhere else with her parents. But now it looks like we might hook up with Monika and some other girls.