Tuesday, April 27 2004

Nothing more came out of the call from social services. I know it sounds like they overeacted but I believe that woman told them more than what actually happened. I don't think they would bother calling Nikki's parents just because of one single kiss. But if she told them we were french kissing or even more, then they must act on it. Anyway, I'm happy that it's all over. We will just have to be more careful when we are out in the open from now on.

Last weekend we were going around looking for a sport that Nikki would like to play. She said she wants to try swimming or horseback riding so we asked about those two. First we went to the swimming pool which is close to her school. We saw lots of other children there and little girls in their swimming costumes and bikinis. It was cute. We talked to a swimming instructor and he told us about the training and things like that. After that we went to the horseback riding school and we looked at the horses and we asked about riding classes. Nikki loved the riding school but I think it's too expensive for her parents to pay. I told her I like swimming more, but she said I like it because I would be looking at other girls at the pool all the time. I laughed and said I would be looking only at her.

This was on Saturday. On Sunday we took Nikki's bike to a bike shop for fixing, and while waiting for it, I met a friend of mine who I haven't seen for a few moths so we talked about things, and then she asked me who Nikki was. She thought I adopted a daughter! I said she's a little girl I was looking after and then she gave a wink like she "knew" I was making it up. It made me blush. Later we took the bike home, but it was too late to go out to a park. It's still cold in the afternoon and so we went out for a walk instead. We went to the park, and I asked Nikki if her mother is still mad at me. She said she wasn't. She said she told her mom it wasn't my fault and that the woman who got angry at us was stupid. I told her we shouldn't do that again outside. It was my fault because I wasn't thinking of the consequences which could have caused us lots of trouble. We still hold hands now when we go outside, but we are more careful with kissing. It's not that I'm afraid to kiss her outside, but I don't want to upset her mother. Maybe in a year or two when she's a little older it won't be a problem anymore. But when we are alone at home it's different. We kiss whenever we want and as long as we want, mostly while watching TV or before we go to sleep.

If you are wondering, I'm not religious and neither is Nikki. I don't think she's been to church in her life except maybe to see what it looks like inside. I tried to learn about Buddhism a few years ago but never followed up on it. I would love to get back to it, but I need more time to read and maybe go out and learn about it which is not practical now when I spend every weekend with Nikki. It would be more fun if she showed interest in Buddhism too so we did it together, but I haven't talked to her about it yet. It might be a good idea to bring up the topic and see if she is interested. Christianity has never interested me much because there are so many faults with it. I think eastern religions are much more peaceful and stimulating because they are based on meditation and inner peace and Christianty has nothing similar to that.