Wednesday, February 18 2004

Last Sunday Nikki had her 13th birthday and she had a big party at her home. She invited all her friends and me and her parents were there too. It was loud and it reminded me of her birthday when I first met her. Girls mostly talked and played games and then Nikki's mom brought the birthday cake and she blew out the candles. I mostly talked with her parents because I didn't want to interfere with the girls while they played but Nikki was always by my side and we even kissed on lips after she blew out her candles on the cake. It wasn't as fun as it is when we are alone but it was still interesting and Nikki was enjoying it. She received lots of presents. I bought her a CD with dance music because she likes to listen to it and a couple of music sheets for playing guitar.

On Saturday we were together at my place. We went out because it was a sunny day. We went to the city to do some shopping and to the library where I borrowed another lesbian book for Nikki, a gift from me to her for Valentine's Day. It was a bad idea because she spent all afternoon reading her book but later she was feeling really sexy so we indulged in some kissing and touching in my bed. We didn't go to sleep until after midnight because we talked in bed about everything and then we ended up talking about hair and I asked her if she wanted to shave the hair on her vagina which she had for the last few months. First she thought about it and then she agreed so we went to the bathroom and I shaved it for her. I think I did a good job because it's hard to tell that she had any hair there at all. It was funny too because it's an awkward place to shave and she kept moving because it tickled her. But in the end we both agreed that it feels better so I hope she will let me do it again in the future. I also told her to put some skin lotion on to keep her skin soft so it doesn't get itchy.

I saw Ella on Monday. We went out for lunch and talked about things. She's doing well in school and lives with her dad. She asked me how I'm doing and about some people I know. She said she plans to go traveling next summer with some friends and asked me if I wanted to come along. I told her I can't plan that far ahead but that I would like to go with them. I told her about last summer and our trip with Indy and Sara and how they thought it was cool to have Nikki with us. I said I would go only if Nikki can come too but she said it depends on what her friends think about it. I was surprised she wasn't upset or lectured me about Nikki. I kissed her on cheek when we parted and I told her to call me. I think I miss her a little and I think she feels the same but she didn't say anything.

I had a dream last night. I don't know what it was about but I remember it was snowing and I was going home with Nikki who held my hand and we were looking up at the snowflakes which were falling on our faces. It looked funny looking at the snowflakes as they fell down towards us.

I don't know what we'll be doing this weekend but if the weather is bad we'll stay at home because Nikki has lots of homework to do.