Thursday, December 11 2003

Yoga is fun to do and we are both enjoying doing it together. We go to Yoga class once a week and we met some cool people there. They ask about us and they think it's great that we are together in the class. I think Yoga is great for relaxing and it's also good exercise. I still go to the gym sometimes but it doesn't feel the same like it was when Ella was with me.

Nikki loves her new guitar. She plays it when she can and she goes to lessons too. She likes to play Nirvana and some other punk and grunge bands but she still has to practice a lot. We actually went shopping for music sheets the other day. It would be great if we could find something like that online so she doesn't have to buy them.

Otherwise, we are doing fine. We had a couple of silly fights but it happens now and then to everyone. I think it's mostly because she is growing up and wants to be independent which I respect and I never stop her being herself. But like in every relationship, we sometimes misunderstand each other. Once she left when I told her it would be stupid to spend all her money on a silver ring she liked. It can be hard arguing with her sometimes because she thinks she's always right but still doesn't understand many things. When she left me that day, she called me from home to say she was sorry and we talked for a long time. We often make up pretty quickly after a fight.

Lately she's been insisting on holding my hand when we go out. I think our relationship could look obvious to some people when they see us holding hands because she is not a very little girl anymore, but I don't complain. It makes me proud that she would hold my hand. Some people notice it but no one said anything to us yet. I don't think it's a big deal but it makes me feel good. As for the boys, they are on her mind too. Maybe she doesn't want to show it in my presence but I know she likes looking at them and I saw her looking at pictures on the Internet too. She has a friend at school who she talks about but they are not boyfriend/girlfriend. They only help each other with homework or so she tells me anyway. If anything, she has lots of girlfriends and she goes out with them and has sleepovers at their homes all the time. We talked about boys once but she seems confused about where they fit in her life. It's not like she dislikes them but more like she doesn't know what to do with them. I think she feels more comfortable with girls, probably because she doesn't have a brother and because she grew up free and knowing it's okay to love other girls.

One day she told me she wanted to be a teacher. I found it curious because she never mentioned this before. She always wanted to be a doctor or something else. I guess she will still change it many times before she really decides what she wants to be.

I'm happy to be back online. By the way, I haven't heard a lot from Ella but some one told me she is doing well at school. Maybe I'll call her one day.