Saturday, June 06 2003

I've seen "Kids" movie and I liked it. I think it showed well how it is for kids growing up in a big city and some sex scenes were quite nice too. The opening scene where the girl and boy kiss on a bed is great. But some of the things they do are sad but even so I think they are experiences from which they will learn later in their lives. I think it's better if they experiment with sex than to be forbidden from having it.

I saw a documentary about Michael Jackson on TV. It's really terrible how they are trying to destroy him just because he decided to be different from everyone else. No one ever proved that he has sex with any of the children but they still try to make him look guilty just because he sleeps with them. I was watching some reporter trying hard to convince everyone how children should never sleep with adults, not even with their parents and it made me feel sick. How can something like that be wrong. Why are they trying so hard to make love and caring look negative while at the same time they are feeding the children endless violence on TV and in the movies and games. They even make it look as if the violent behavior is an advantage and compassion and love are deviant behaviors. I'm so tired of it I don't even care anymore.

Anyway, I don't want to make you depressed and sad. If we keep happy and positive about our goals then we will succeed at the end because they won't be able to change us.

This last weekend was great. The weather was sunny and warm, almost hot. I picked up my little girlfriend on Friday after work and she was already packed up and waiting for me with her little backpack where she keeps her clothes and pajamas. We went home and watched a movie and listened to some music. She likes Tatu because Ella introduced her to them. Even I didn't know about them until Ella told me but I think I've seen some articles about Tatu on the Internet before that.

We went early to bed because we planned to wake up early too and then drive to the fair but with Nikki in bed it's very hard to get some sleep. First we talked about space and stars and living in a space ship. She would like to live on a space ship but I told her it would be aweful becuase there are no trees or grass or animals. It's all made of steel and plastic and there is no sunlight. Then she asked me if I would go with her if she was to live on a spaceship and I said I would but only because I wanted to be with her, not because I like living on a space ship. She is very curious about everything to do with space now so I call her my little alien girl. I was holding her close with one hand and playing with her hair with my other hand. Then we kissed and I said it was time now to sleep or we'll be very tired tomorrow when we wake up but she said she wasn't tired so we told jokes for a while.

The following day we traveled to the a little coastal town to see the fair. It was mostly about people selling their home made products and old or used things but they also had rides for children and even a petting ZOO where children could ride on ponies. In one place Nikki saw a stall where a girl was braiding beads into people's hair and she wanted to have it done too so we went there and she asked the girl to braid the beads into her hair. She looked cute when the girl finished with her and it made her look like a little hippie girl. I think it fit her well because she's been dressing lately in grunge and hippie clothes and wearing stick-on tattoos and all kinds of bracelets and necklaces.

We moved around the fair and bought a few other things, like a pair of fairy wings for Nikki and and a woolen jumper for me. Then Nikki saw the ponies and we had to go there so she could ride one but because there were lots of other children, we had to stand in line for our turn which took us almost half an hour. Later we had lunch on the grass while watching some street artists.

Sometime in the afternoon we decided to go back home but taking a different way and staying away from the main roads and instead driving through backroads which had less traffic and more sights to see until we reached the suburbs.