Wednesday, January 22 2003

Ella and are are making progress in working things out between us. The articles I gave her to read were mostly from Paidika journal because I think they are the most well written. She was surprised when she read the interviews. It's all new to her, and she's not sure yet what to think about it all. Her first reaction when I told her about Nikki was what she was taught by society to think about it, so I don't blame her for getting mad at me. Yesterday we kissed for the first time since I came out to her, and it felt wonderful to be close to her again.

I miss Nikki though because I saw her for a short time only. She is going to soccer training now, and I hope to see her play soon one day. She said she likes playing soccer more than karate because she likes the girls on her team and they are already good friends. Now in the winter they practice indoors, but in the summer they'll play outside and it will be more fun. Line hasn't called yet, and I think about her every day. I imagine us together on a stage playing two lovers like Romeo and Juliet, and then we kiss before the entire audience who applauds at the end. I'm probably too romantic when I have fantasies like this. I hope one day she will become a famous actress and we'll still be friends.