Saturday, January 11 2003

Since we returned from the trip, I've been crying every night. Ella just doesn't act like herself anymore, and she spent two nights at her father's home. She's back with me now, but it's not the same. She asked me not to see Nikki anymore, and then we argued, and I told her she can't tell me who I can see. It's so frustrating because I love her as much as I love Nikki, and she says she loves me too, but I can't change who I am to make her happy. I never thought she would be like this, and it hurts me so much. At least I'm back at work again, so it keeps me occupied and I don't have time to think about our arguments. I even found Line's telephone number from her stage coach, and I might give her a call just to see how she's doing.