Sunday, September 08 2002

I couldn't write yesterday because I came home late from Nikki and because I was very upset. They found out Nikki is allergic to some antibiotics they've been giving her, which made it all worse for her. They keep her on oxygen now and who knows what else. Her mom and dad are really worried now too and they stay with her all day. I finally found some private time for us when they went out to get lunch. I tried to cheer her up a little and I told her about a computer game waiting for her at home when she gets well and returns from the hospital but she just kept saying she wanted to go home right now. When I said she can't because doctors are trying to help her, she began crying. I haven't seen her cry in a long time so it made me really upset, but I tried to keep a brave face for her so not to make it even worse for her. She finally stopped sobbing when I snuggled next to her and held her hand and covered her cheek with kisses. I told her that she's a brave girl, and she promised me she'll act like a brave girl. I stayed there with her and her parents until evening. We tried to make up some games for her to play, and later she watched a children's program on TV. When I left, I couldn't forget how she cried and it made me cry all the way home. When Ella saw me, she thought something had happened to me. I don't know what I would do without her right now because she helps me a lot. Right now I just feel sorry for Nikki because I know she's in pain and there's nothing we can do.