Tuesday, June 25 2002

I'm still not sure about Nikki kissing a boy and I don't want to speculate about it. It should be her own choice and if she wants to keep it to herself then it's fine with me. Maybe she just wanted to see if I care about her because she knows I'm not attracted to boys and men. It could be peer pressure too and she's simply talking about what other girls in school are talking about. I think it will be interesting to see how she'll turn out to be when she gets older. I certainly won't stop her from exploring her interest in whomever she finds attractive.

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It's pretty common for girls to be secretive about the things they do. Nikki has some secrets about her friends she doesn't want to tell me and I remember keeping secrets from my parents when I was little. Secrets are simply part of little girls lives. But even if she has a boyfriend, we're much closer than ever before so I'm not afraid that she will turn away from me.

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I saw my mom before I left for Berlin but we didn't talk about Nikki or anything about my life.

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I would love to take Nikki to a nudist camp but I don't know if her parents would let her or if she would want to go there. I'm happy to go anywhere with her. It doesn't have to be a nudist camp. We have a great time anywhere we go but if we went to a nudist camp then she could get an all-over tan which I like.