Monday, April 01 2002

I was at Nikki's place today. Her parents were out so we had it all to ourselves. I planned to go out with her but it was a little chilly outside and we thought it would be best if we took the opportunity to be together and alone for a while until her mom and dad return home. She showed me some new karate moves and we played in her room. We have a new favorite game too! It's our little sexy game that no one knows about and it goes like this: she has to take her shirt off and lay down on her bed. Then I put a drop of honey in her belly button and lick it off. It makes her laugh every time because she's ticklish but she has to remain in place until I clean the honey from her belly button. She said this is even better than the kissing game which is similar because sometimes she puts honey on her lips when we kiss. After that I made her hair in braids and we watched some TV. We always cuddle while we watch TV. She likes it when I hold her and kiss her cheek or her neck. Then we talked some more about her school trip. She went to a small island with her class for a couple of days so she told me everything they did there. It was some kind of ecology trip where they learned about nature and they camped in a little village.

I haven't told Ella anything yet. I'm still unsure how to do it and if I should tell her anything. She hasn't seen me kiss with Nikki so I don't think she suspects anything. She has seen us hug on a few occasions but it's nothing unusual. I'm not intimate with Nikki when Ella is around and I think Nikki understands that because she usually jumps at me for a kiss, but she doesn't do that when Ella is at home. Maybe I'll do it when I gather some courage. Maybe soon because I hate being away from Nikki for too long and since Ella moved in we're almost never alone anymore. I don't blame Ella for that because it's not her fault and besides I love them both so I can turn to Ella when Nikki is away.

Since the last sleepover with Nikki I always want to do it again with her but there's simply no opportunity for it. I don't think I should just ask her parents and we can't do it at my place. It's really depressing sometimes. Maybe if we didn't sleep together that night I wouldn't know what I was missing. Perhaps I could take her somewhere for a weekend but she usually has homework to do and her school hasn't been going smoothly lately so her mom probably wouldn't let her go.