ENTRY FROM MY JOURNAL No. 1

        While my boyfriend (herein referred to as M.)

and I have been into some nasty stuff, I have not been into much 

scat, not in the sense of "eating shit."  M. and I are heavily

into anal sex and watersports -- drinking from each other --

but shit is out for me -- eating his, I mean.  He wanted me

to try it, had for several months brought it up but I told

him no, the idea didn't excite me, not like when I drank his

piss, which excited me to greatest ends.  I could drink his

piss all night (and have done so) but I wouldn't do the

other thing.   

        "It's no different from when you clean off  my cock,"

he said.

        He had a point, but he still was wrong.  Yes, sometimes

his cock has gotten dirty when he anals me, and I have cleaned it

off with my mouth, and while the taste wasn't all that great,

it didn't bother me.  Besides, this was myself, this was just

myself, and I have to admit that I didn't smell so "smelly"

as he did -- for I had, on a few occasions, licked out his

asshole, but there was that smell.

        I did feel bad, though, about one thing, and that

was he always licked my asshole no matter how messy it was.

We've gone on some bouts with anal sex that have lasted up to

two hours and it's gotten messy, both shit and blood, and

I'm left feeling very sore and burning down there (but I like

the sensation so don't get me wrong), so he has gently licked

and kissed my asshole for a long time after until it feels

better, and he has gotten his fair share of eating some shit,

which I didn't mind, but was hesitant to kiss him after.

Still, having your lover east out your ass after he's

fucked it to shreds is a pretty nice thing, and I thought I 

should do the same.  But I couldn't do it, until that one night

we came home after dancing and we'd taken some XTC and

a half a tab of LSD and we were really frying and we were

drinking and we filled my mouth with his piss and then

we fucked, we fucked me both ways, and we had such fun 

and I was feeling in love, very much in love, I loved him

so much and knew I'd never be this way with any other man,

I never could, I had done so much weird stuff with him that

I had never done with any other man before.  

        He got up to go to the bathroom and I knew he was

taking a shit and I went to him and before he was about to

wipe himself I told him don't, I would do this for him,

I really would, I would clean him, I wanted to do this.  He

smiled and said he thought I was kidding.  I turned the light

off, I didn't want the light on, and got to my knees.  I spread

his ass open and was really hesitant, but I was still, pretty

high and had that loving feeling and I wanted to prove to

him that I would do anything, that even eating his shit

was noting because I loved him and wanted to do everything,

eat him alive if need be.  So I cleaned out his ass, and the

taste didn't bother me as much as I feared.   I stuck my tongue

deep into his ass and he moaned in the dark and it was nice.

It took a good twenty minutes or so and I knew he was clean

and he was telling me good it felt and how he had to piss.

So he turned around and I opened my mouth and fully became

his toilet, he began to pee, hot and salty, pee so much I couldn't

drink it all and it rolled down my chest and over  my small breasts.

I took him in my mouth and sucked him off and I thought he

was going to come but he didn't.  He turned on the light, pulled

me up to him and kissed me.  We stood in front of the

mirror over the basin and I liked how we looked:  me tall

and thin and pale and he with his tanned skin, as tall as me,

wider than me, his hands reaching to my breasts and pinching

my nipples till they hurt, entering my cunt from behind,

fucking my cunt, and then fucking my ass, then my cunt, then

my ass, making me come again and again, slapping my

ass with his hands, grabbing me by the hair and pushing me

to the floor and making me suck on his and coming in my

mouth and telling me to keep it there in his mouth as

his cock softened a little and a few more spurts of urine

went into my mouth and down my throat.  I turned him

around and reamed his ass some more, then we went to bed

and went to sleep.