From: rdragon@ix.netcom.com(***) Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories Subject: Nightmare Date (no sex) Date: 19 Jul 1996 21:50:52 GMT Nightmare Date "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times." It was a time for gay celebration, and a time for solemn reckoning... A time to live, and a time to die. It was Christmas, 1988. A month before, as the holiday tension and anticipation started to build, the campus was plastered with flyers for the Christmas semi-formal. After mid-terms and a paper, I was ripe for a relaxing change of pace and decided to find a date for the semi- formal, which promised to be quite exciting. I was looking forward to a romantic evening with that special someone, and the thought of the dance combined with the holiday spirit made my head spin. Eagerly, yet not without trepidation, I asked Kathy if she would like an escort to the dance, and was kindly but firmly rebuffed. She had "plans". I died a little then, inside. After being rejected by Kathy, I lost interest in the dance, and the Christmas spirit seemed to have evaporated. However, after much reflection, I decided I really did want to go to the dance and enjoy the Christmas festivities; I had earned a bit of relaxation. It took me awhile to pick another girl to ask to the dance, as I had really set my heart on Kathy and was naively unprepared for her rejection. I finally settled on Tracey, and it took all of the nerve I had to ask her. Strangely enough, I somehow felt guilty as if I were being unfaithful to Kathy. Perhaps sensing this on some subliminal level, Tracey also declined to accompany me to the dance. For the second time I had serious doubts about going to the dance, but yet again my fun-loving nature prevailed over my skepticism and reluctance. I asked Caroline, and Allison, and, with each succeeding rejection, my resolve to go to the dance only strengthened; getting a date for the dance became a battle of sorts. I asked Debbie, and Monica, and Mary, and Jane. I euphemistically began to refer to the rejections as the "Death Toll", and my friends would inquire about it as the rising tide of casualties mounted. Lisa, Robin, Dale, Michelle, Michele and Myshelle joined the Death Toll's ranks, as did Linda, Laura, Lana, Liz and Lori. Katie, Julie, Beth, Georgia, Gina, Ginger, Phoebe, Florence, and Faith destroyed my vision of the perfect romantic evening. The Death Toll was now at twenty-eight, but Kerry and Milne very graciously rounded the total up to an even thirty. It was now Friday night, THE Friday night before the dance on Saturday evening. My resolve to go to the dance was as undiminished as my frustration, and all thoughts of a romantic evening were so far removed from my consciousness that it had degenerated into a kind of game. The game was a bit masochistic; at this point I either wanted to go to the dance, or by golly set an unsurpassable record for the most rejections! After asking three more random, faceless girls whose names I do not even remember, I ran into an old friend from High School who now goes to Towson State University. He was with his girlfriend, who is also a Towsonite and a member of the Omega Phi sorority. After hearing of my predicament, she suggested that I "hop" a bus up to Towson on Saturday morning and meet some of her sorority sisters, who she felt sure would be eager to go to the dance, even on such short notice. I agreed that it was worth a shot, and Saturday morning found me on the M1 to Towson. Judy introduced me to several of her sisters, and eventually a certain Fiona deigned to accompany me to the dance. Victorious, or so I thought, I spent the rest of the day running around making arrangements for a ride to the dance, getting Fiona a corsage, and generally ebulliently bouncing off the walls, while Judy and Fiona went shopping for a dress. My persistence had finally paid off! That evening, my friend Hal drove me up to Towson to pick up Fiona. Expecting me to be only a few minutes in picking her up, Hal stayed in the car and put on his hazard lights as he was illegally parked in front of the dorm. I rushed in, and was completely surprised by the crowd of sorority sisters that had assembled in the lobby, waiting for me. Everyone started talking to me at once, and their voices became a confusing jumble of sound. "There's been a problem." "She's not quite ready yet." "Now there are two of them." "You get to choose." I found Judy and asked her what was going on. Judy explained, rather apologetically, that Fiona had been unable to find a dress that fit, so Judy had asked Diane if she would like to go instead. Diane had agreed, and now they were busy helping her get ready. Bewildered, and wondering just what exactly I was getting myself into, I excused myself and went to tell Hal what was going on. I had never met Diane, and vividly remember thinking that they had set me up with some really undesirable girl who couldn't normally get a date. Hal just started laughing, and tears started to well up in his eyes, so hard and so long was he laughing. I could see the humor in the situation, and had a brief flash of dread, half-expecting Alan Funt to pop up and shout that I was on Candid Camera... After Hal's laughter had subsided to an occasional smirk and chuckle, he locked the car and we both went in the lobby to wait. After what seemed an interminably long interval, but was actually only a few minutes, Diane made her entrance. I was speechless. I have never been so shocked in my life, indeed would not have been more shocked had she been stark naked. I was transfixed, for before me stood the most perfect, the most exquisite girl I had ever seen. I quickly recovered my composure, pinned the corsage on Diane's breast, and posed for a quick portrait with her before leaving. Meanwhile, I could distinctly hear Hal softly mumbling "Oh my God... Oh my God... " I think he was as stunned as I was. On the drive back to JHU to pick up Hal's date Noel, I tried to strike up a conversation with Diane, but she surprised me by asking where we were going. Apparently, she had been sleeping when Judy had asked her to fill in for Fiona, and she had reflexively agreed without thinking to ask what she was filling in for. This had apparently occurred only a few minutes before I had arrived, which explained the frantic preparations and the delay in getting Diane ready. She was ready in remarkably short time, her makeup, hair, and dress being attended to by several sisters at once. She seemed a bit disappointed when I told her it was a dance, but I didn't attach much importance to this at the time. My mind was still reeling over the recent events, trying to assimilate and correlate them into some semblance of order. While Diane was truly a feast for the eyes, I soon found out she was not as well endowed in other areas. She had no interests other than watching her daily quota of soap operas, and wanted to drop out of college to become a private detective. As I was scrambling to find a foothold in some common ground, I couldn't help thinking that at least she'll be fun to dance with. Meanwhile, Hal was suppressing what must have been a monumental urge to laugh at my situation. I was squirming and floundering helplessly in my attempts to make small talk. Exacerbating the situation was the fact that I became increasingly tongue-tied as her eyes captivated me. I was rapidly becoming a blithering idiot, blabbering uncharacteristically altogether too much in the vain hope of finding a topic she could discuss. Finally, we arrived at the dance, and I felt as if an enormous weight had been lifted from my shoulders in anticipation of a relaxing evening of dancing. However, it was not meant to be. As the band started up, and I asked her to dance, Diane suddenly became very uncomfortable. She started to explain that she was very shy about these things, and that she felt foolish dancing. On top of that, she asked if I had a cigarette... Diane was a smoker! At this point, I could have been knocked over by a feather; the accumulated surprises of the evening were taking their toll. I just sat down, dumbfounded, wondering what the heck I was going to do for the next four hours. I couldn't dance with her, I couldn't talk to her, and I couldn't very well just sit and do nothing either. If she had only told me before we had entered the hotel, we could have spent an evening walking around the harbor, or catching a movie, or something, but now... for the second time in hardly as many hours, I was speechless. We wandered around the hotel for a little while, admiring the different ballrooms, and the splendor of the main lobby. Eventually, I led her back to the dance and asked her once more onto the floor. Again, she politely but firmly declined, and we just sat down at our table. I watched everyone else dancing, and was sorely tempted a number of times to just get up and dance alone. But, my sense of loyalty dictated that I stay with Diane and try to make the best of a hopeless situation. My friends, especially Hal, were quick to notice that Diane and I weren't dancing, but were discreet enough not to ask. Indeed we were the only couple not out on the floor. I don't exactly remember how I made it through the rest of those four eternal hours; they had a certain dream-like quality. I felt like a detached observer of this dance, this primitive social ritual, yet at the same time I very much wanted to be involved. I talked with Diane at length about anything and everything that popped into my head, and asked her to dance several more times without result. A few times, when I had simply run out of things to say, I would simply gaze at Diane, drinking in her liquid beauty. This refreshment left a bitter taste however, and I soon tired of it. I contented myself then with observing the dance, the dancers, the ballroom, counting the number of tiles in the parquet floor, and basically stewing in my own juices. My reverie was finally, mercifully interrupted by Hal. It was time to leave. We drove back to Towson in silence. Hal and Noel were afraid to ask the unspoken question, and I was simply numb. Hal parked outside the dorm as before, and I walked Diane to the front steps and kissed her hand goodnight. The door closed, she was gone, and I was alone in the night. As I walked back through the grounds to the car, I felt like a zombie... the cold harsh wind whipping through the trees was as insubstantial as a zephyr. I was emotionally and physically completely drained. During the drive back to JHU, Hal and Noel said nothing, although I sensed they very much wanted to. However, they seemed content with my silence, and I really didn't want to regurgitate my pent-up feelings. I thanked Hal for the ride, and exchanged pleasantries with Noel before saying goodbye and going up to my apartment. I entered the apartment quietly, not wanting to disturb my sleeping roommate, and undressed for bed. I promptly fell asleep, and dreamed I was falling into an abyss. The long nightmare had finally ended.