Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories From: redragon@interserv.com Subject: Best Of Both Worlds (MM+, gay) Date: 5 Oct 1995 22:22:01 GMT Best Of Both Worlds Hi! I am a 39 year old male bisexual. My name is Martin I guess you could say this text file is a confession of sorts. I promised a certain Lucky Lady that I would write it. It has taken me a while to find the time but here goes! This is a brief chronicle of how I discovered I was attracted to men as well as women. I suspect that my story is similar to a lot of other mens stories but they are reluctant to admit that they love the thought of caressing another man's beautiful hard cock! My wife does not know about my desires. I'm not sure she would understand. It all started in the mens room in a department store in a local mall. I don't remember exactly when it happened but it was after I married my first wife in 1975. I was in my early 20's and very naive. I was in the bathroom stall when I noticed something. There was a small 1/4 inch hole in the wall about halfway between the bottom of the panel and the top. The reason I noticed is because the man in the stall next to me obviously turned towards the hole and had his eye against it. I didn't know what the heck to do! He turned away and in a few moments the hole darkened and I knew he was looking through it again. What the hell was he looking at? Again he turned away and this time I noticed his hand appear below the stall panel separating us. His hand made a waving gesture as if he was inviting me somewhere. But where? Once again the hole turned black as he peered at me. What was I going to do? I thought of covering up the hole but instead elected to hurry up and finish my business and RUN! That's exactly what I did and I was SCARED to death! For the next few days I thought about what had happened. What did the hand gesture mean and what did he want? And why did the whole episode excite me? I had to go back. The next time I had to wait for the stall to be empty. What was taking this guy so long? Finally he left and I settled down into my secret private spot. I waited for the man to look at me and he DID! Again the hand gestured for me to go somewhere. What was this secret sign? For the first time I leaned over to place my eye against the hole. At first all I could see was two legs and a hand going down between them. But as I continued to watch the thighs parted and the hand rose from the depths with the most beautiful hard cock I had ever seen! (actually I had never ever seen another man's hardon!) He rubbed it and caressed it slowly as I watched it get even harder. I sat back and my heart pounded. The hole got dark and I knew he was watching me! My cock rose and got so big I thought it would burst. All I could do was masturbate for him as he watched. My climax was earth shattering and I could not clean myself up fast enough. I ran out of the store... again scared to death but very, very excited about what had happened. I returned again and again to my newfound secret place. A lot of times the person on the other side would make a hand gesture enticing me to who knows what under the stall panel. Finally one day my curiosity got the better of me. I tore off a piece of toilet paper and wrote on it "I am new and I don't know what to do". I passed the note to him under the stall panel. It seemed like hours before the hand came back under the panel with another note. It said, "Wait until the man by the urinals leaves. Kneel down beside the bottom of the stall panel and I will give you the hand job of your life!" I was shaking with fright. Would I be able to go through with it? The man by the urinal left. It was now or never! I slowly knelt down facing the unknown stranger. My penis fell about six inches below the bottom of the stall panel giving him quite a show of me in all my glory. However there was a problem! I was so scared my cock was as soft as it could get! I was shaking from head to toe! I felt and saw his hand reach out for me. He was as gentle as he could be as he milked my still soft cock. Would it get hard, I wondered? What if I couldn't get it up? Just then he did something I still dream about to this day. He released my cock and placed his hand on the soft inner flesh of my thigh and lightly rubbed up and down! Then he cupped my balls and rubbed me there! I was in heaven! I couldn't believe how good it felt! My cock shot up like a rocket! Then he started milking my cock. It felt like he was pulling the life right out of me. Not too hard not to light... just right! Up and down, going to the tip and getting my pre- come and spreading it all over the underside of my cock back and forth! My heart was about to pound right out of my chest and my cock felt like it had a life of it's own as it jerked and spasmed! Well it only took about a minute of watching this hand make love to me before I was coming all over the floor. I felt like it would never end! He just kept on milking me throughout the orgasm! He placed his hand by the tip of my cock to catch some of my sperm. He then rubbed it back and forth, up and down my slippery, slimy cock! On and on it went until my knees buckled out from underneath me. It was the most powerful orgasm I had ever had! I got back up and buckled myself up and hurried from the stall all red faced and out of breath! * * * After this first episode there were others. At another store I knelt down and this time instead of a hand job I felt a hot mouth surround my cock and felt his lips gently sucking the sperm right out of me! Another time I was the one who made the hand gestures and a young cock that was hard as a rock appeared to me under the stall panel! I lightly caressed it... my first time feeling another man's cock! It was just great! He must have been as scared as I was because he got up suddenly and left. He probably wanted me to follow him somewhere but I was too frightened to follow him out! Only once have I had the chance to take another man's cock into my mouth. I took his silky head into my mouth and started to give him the ride of his life! I loved it! Unfortunately we were interrupted after only about 15 seconds. I am still waiting for the right opportunity to come along so I can give another man some of the wonderful feelings I was given! The public scene is not a very good place for meeting and it can be dangerous and quite scary so I try to stay away from it. Someday perhaps the time will be right. I will have a real friend I can get intimate with, someone I have spent some time with. Someone I am friends with and comfortable with so it won't be so scary. In the mean time I know there are lots of other bisexual men out there. If you ever have fantasies about being with a man you ARE a bisexual though perhaps not a practicing one! Perhaps if people would just admit or submit to their urges there would be a lot more understanding and a lot less homophobia! We can all live together.