Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
From: an121917@anon.penet.fi
Date: Thu, 27 Jul 1995 04:36:14 UTC
Subject: Rodeo 1 of 5 TG Cowboy


If you are not an adult, do not read any further. If you 
want to see what this story and the rest of the stories in 
this series are about, then read the Rodeo 0 of 5, which 
explains the concept and different types of sex in the stories.

Waldo

Different Ways to Ride - The Rodeo

Chapter 1 - The Accident

As the rodeo announcer called the final results of the last
event, I climbed onto the wooden fence and stared down at
the massive bull that I was supposed to ride in this next
event. Bull-riding, because of the ferocity of the bull, is the
most dangerous event in the rodeo. I have to hold on to a
short piece of bull-rope that circles the trunk of the bull and,
using just one hand, must stay on for a 8-second period while
the bull tries to buck me off of it's back. If I fall, or if my free
hand touches any part of my own body or that of the bull, I
am disqualified. After my 8 seconds of hell is up, I have to
find some way to quickly dismount and to get away from the
bull safely.

"Everyone look at the little boy trying to fill his daddy's
britches." screams someone next to the fence.

I turn quickly to see who is yelling, but I already know that it
is Harve Bowen. Harve and I went to high school together and
he was the class bully who decided that I would be the butt of
all of his jokes. He made my childhood years miserable with
his constant pranks. When I followed in my late father's
footsteps into the rodeo circuit, I was only weeks ahead of
Harve also joining the circuit. For the three years that I had
been a professional rodeo cowboy, he had been my almost
daily nemesis. I tried to miss events that I knew he was
attending, but there are only so many events on the circuits
and we were constantly thrown together.

"Get the fuck out of here Harve. I need to concentrate on
what I am doing." I said quietly.

"You misjudge me, little guy. I just came over here to wish
you good luck. I wouldn't want to be the one riding a bull
called Devil's Staircase. No sireee, bob, I just wanted to be
close to watch you show your skill. You ain't going to jump off
of that fence and throw me out of here again, are you, little
man?" he asked smirking.

I bit my lip to keep from letting him know that he was able to
get me upset so easily. I wanted to jump off of the fence and
beat the shit out of him, but all of my previous attempts had
failed. Harve was eight inches taller than me and weighed
almost eighty pounds more than my puny 130 pounds. I had
fought him before and always lost. A couple of times, he had
goaded me into throwing the first punch which caused me to
be eliminated from one event. I can't afford to be thrown out
of this one, because for the first time in my career, I have a
decent chance of placing in the top overall category for the
year. I need to have a successful ride on this bull to win
today's rodeo championship. 

I ignore his taunts and ease off of the fence onto the bull's
back. The bull jerks with my touch and wants to buck, but
within the tight enclosure of the bullpen, he can't move. As I
put my legs around his mighty back, I can feel the ton of
dynamite under me, just waiting for the moment to explode.
The heavy smell from his body fills the tiny pen and I can feel
the power of the angry creature that my legs were wrapped
around. He snorts and bumps against the fence, ready to rid
me from his back. I force my hat down on my head so I don't
have to worry about it later. I take the bullrope and wrap the
loose end tightly around my gloved hand, being careful to
wrap it so I can hold onto it, but can also easily let go of it
when my 8 seconds are up. You don't want to spend more
than your required time on anything this mean and wild.

The bull stomps and I can feel the heat radiating from his
angry body as he, like me, waits for the moment that the gate
opens. I watch as the rider in the next chute bounces into the
area and watch as he almost holds onto his bull for his very
short ride, which seems like eternity when you are the one on
his back. I see the rider loose his rope and his legs go flying
as he is thrown. Before he hits the ground, the bull is turning
for him as it is still bucking. A rodeo clown runs in front of
the bull and the bull's attention is diverted from the falling
rider to the running clown. While the bull chases the clown,
the other clowns help the hapless rider to his feet. By the
time that the bull discovers that the clown has escaped him,
everyone else is out of the arena. The rider was all right and
just needed a moment to catch his breath after he hit the
ground.

I sit still and wait my turn as the mounted riders direct the
bull out of the area. Then the announcer's voice booms over
the loudspeaker as he says "In chute number three, from
Bronson Montana, Roger Corbin, riding Devil's Staircase.
Devil's Staircase didn't get that name by being a tame bull. If
Roger can go the distance, he stands a good chance of
winning the Top Cowboy for today's rodeo with a good ride.
Let's give Roger a big cheer."

"Make this a good ride. I brought my camcorder today just to
film this ride." Harve says as he climbs up on the fence and
aims the camcorder lens at my face.

I try to ignore him and check my hold. I look out into the
arena and see that the clowns are ready and waiting on my
action. I check my hold one more time, knowing that it was
the only thing holding me to this barrel of dynamite. Then I
look at the man holding the gate and look deep into his
waiting eyes. I nod that I am ready and he nods back to me. It
is time to go. The gate opens and my ride through hell begins.

The bull jumps as the gate opens and I brace myself for the
shock as we hit the ground, knowing that he will buck again
immediately and twist as he jumps. I am concentrating on
holding my right hand high and controlling my position on
the bull's back with my left hand holding onto the rope and
my legs wrapped around the bull's ribs. As the bull bucks
again, I sense that something is wrong, but everything is
happening so fast that I can't tell what is wrong. I know that I
still have the rope but I feel myself flying away from the bull
and then coming down toward the ground in front of the bull.
As I hit the ground, the air is knocked out of me and I can see
the clown running for the bull but the bull is ignoring him
and is still jumping up over me.

I know that the bull came down on me, but I can't feel
anything but pain in my lower extremities. I try to crawl away
when the bull moves but the bull gores me between the legs
with his horns, lifting me in the air as he throws me another
time. The bull refused to chase the clown and stomped me at
least three times before the clowns can get him away from
me. As I pass out, I see the rescue squad running onto the
field with their little stretcher. I know it is for me, but the only
thing that I can think of, is why did my rope not hold?

Chapter 2 - The Hospital

"Can you hear me, cowboy?" says a voice through my
confused mist of thoughts.

I tried to speak but couldn't for the tube down my throat. I
opened my eyes and saw that I was in a hospital. Now I
remember what happened. The doctor said "You are very
lucky that you have a naturally small frame. If you have been
a normal size man, you would be dead now. As it is, you have
some severe internal injuries and will require reconstructive
surgery. We will hold you here for another day to make sure
that you are stabilized and then transfer you to Denver. We
don't have the specialist here that you will need. You are
alive. Be grateful for that."

As he walked off, I tried to remember what happened. Some
parts of my memory were fuzzy. I could clearly remember
Harve egging me on and some of the ride, but I don't
remember why I fell. I remember the bull coming down on me.

As I tried to remember, another voice pulled me back. "Hello,
Roger. I been waiting in the hallway for over three hours and
the doctor said that I could see you for just a minute. I know
that you can't talk now but I thought that I would come by
and see you."

It took effort to turn my head but I saw Wayne Jenkins, one
of the clowns that follows the same circuit. He and I had
visited a few bars together and he was someone that I
trusted.

I tried to smile but couldn't. Wayne said "I got your saddle
and collected your earnings. I stored your saddle and truck
over at the truckstop. I paid the storage bill for two months
and when you get out, you can pay me back. I just wanted
you to know that a lot of us are thinking of you and praying
for you. I also picked up the rest of the rope that you were
using. Roger, I ain't no expert, but it looks to me like someone
cut part way through your rope, so it would break."

Harve. The son-of-a-bitch tried to kill me. I started crying and
trying to grunt with the tube down my throat. My noises
brought the nurse, who ran Wayne out and sedated me.

*****

I am in a different hospital. The accident was yesterday and
they shipped me here today. All morning, they have been
examining me and now the doctor is ready to tell me what
they can do. He lays a clipboard on my lap so I can write my
questions or comments down because I still can't speak with
the tube down my throat.

"Mr. Corbin, you were damaged in three critical parts of your
body. The most critical damage is to your male reproductive
system. Your testes were completely destroyed, which
produce the male hormones, or androgens. These hormones
are manufactured in the testes and circulate throughout the
body, affecting various organs. You will need to take frequent
doses of hormones for the rest of your life, to maintain the
balance needed by your body. Another thing to consider, is
that you will never be able to father children now. The
common term for this is eunuch. The testes and penis were
damaged by the bull's horn, goring you between the legs. The
horn penetrated you about the location of your scrotum and
proceeded to rip a hole about three inches in diameter and
eight inches inside you. The emergency surgery that you had
yesterday, did not attempt to fix this problem, but only to
clean it up and stop the blood flow. During clean-up, they
removed your testicles. Before I explain what we can do for
you, I would like to discuss all of the damage." he said. I
nodded yes.

"The damage to the penis crushed two of the three hollow
spongelike cylinders of tissue, which fill with blood and
become firm or erected, which permits sexual penetration.
The penis was damaged beyond repair although it is still
attached to your body. Your bladder was slightly damaged
but it was repaired as was the duct that the bladder uses to
empty it's waste through your penis. The emergency surgery
re-routed this duct so your penis is not providing any
function now." he said pausing to see if I understood what he
was saying. I nodded for him to continue.

"Your left hip was crushed and will require replacement. Your
right hip was damaged but it is minor damage compared to
your left hip. Your left hip will have to be replaced. The rest of
the damage was to your head. Your nose cartilage was
completely destroyed. Both cheekbones were broken, as was
your jawbone. Also your larynx was crushed. In summary, we
will have to re-build your complete face and larynx." he
looked at his notes to see if he had forgotten anything.

Then he continued. "Your face will be the easiest to fix but it
will be painful for you. We will do an incision within your
mouth and build a new nose, cheekbones, and jawline for
you. When you heal, there will be no visible scars. We will
need several close-up photographs of your face and we will
try to make you look like your old face as much as possible.
Or if you desire, we can change the way that you look by
changing your facial structure. It's up to you as any changes
that you may want. Your larynx was damaged, but it has
already been fixed. It had to be shortened, which will result in
a higher sounding voice. When it heals, you will find it easier
to sing soprano than to sing bass."

"The most difficult surgery will be to repair your left hip.
Normally we make an incision in the buttock, but your
accident left a temporary very large opening between your
anus and penis that we can work with. You currently have
one big slit between your legs that we can use and then sew
up, thus reducing the scar area. This will also hide the scar
area so it will not be noticeable. When we fix your left hip, it
will make your left hip a little wider. Rather than have you go
through the rest of your life with one hip bigger than the
other, I would recommend that we replace your right hip at
the same time. Your hips then will be symmetrical in
appearance, although slightly large for a normal man's body.
They will not be any bigger than a woman's hips. After we do
the hip implant, we will sew this new body cavity up,
reconnect your bladder duct to your penis, and insert a penis
implant into your penis. You will have a penis that is
constantly semi-hard and capable of penetration. You will
have some feeling down there, although it won't be the same.
Do you have any questions?" he asked.

I nodded no.

He removed some papers from his clipboard and put them on
my clipboard. Then he said "These papers are authorization
for your surgery. I have scheduled you for tomorrow morning.
I will go ahead with my medical rounds and return when I
finish. That will give you some time to think about what we
must do, before you sign these permission slips."

He walked out of the room and left me to my thoughts. A
million thoughts were floating through my head. Harve did
this to me. The son-of-a-bitch. I will kill him when I get out of
here.

I looked at the papers that the doctor wanted me to sign. I
didn't have much of a choice. If I signed, I would be a wide-
hipped man with a woman's voice for the rest of my life. I
knew that my rodeo circuit days were over, but so was my
sexual life. I would never be able to have sex again.

Or would I?

My face went flush as thousands of thoughts flew through my
head as I considered what I had just thought. Within thirty
seconds, I had worked out a plan. A multi-step plan.

I wrote my instructions down and waited for the doctor to
return. As I waited, I thought what I intended to do and
confirmed that this was what I wanted.

Chapter 3 - The Surgery

"Have you signed those papers yet?" asked the doctor as he
entered my room.

I shook my head no and handed him my instructions. He
read them and looked at me as he said "Your request is
possible and is something that should reasonably be
considered. It is just as easy to make you into a woman as it
is to try to restore your manhood. As I said earlier, we can
make your face look however you want it. It would be very
easy to make it look feminine, by adding higher cheekbones,
a more delicate nose, and a slightly different jawline. While
we are working on your face, we would go ahead and shave
the Adam's apple, to reduce that area to a more feminine
throat. As for the rest of the sex change that you are
requesting, that is also possible. You have enough skin left
where we can create a realistic looking and feeling vagina,
with a small clitoris. Breast implants can be inserted into
your chest to give you female breasts. Because your testicles
were destroyed, you were going to have to take male
hormones for the rest of the life, and it will be just as easy to
take female hormones, which will soften your skin, reduce
your facial growth and provide the same effect to your organs.
With your small narrow male chest, you will have good
potential of passing as a natural woman. By the time that
your hair grows a little longer, no one will be able to tell the
new you from a natural woman. It can be done."

I grabbed the clipboard and wrote one last instruction which
read "I don't want anyone to know about this."

He said "What you are requesting is possible. However, there
are guidelines that this hospital must follow concerning
sexual reassignment surgery. I have to discuss your request
with the hospital Chief of Staff and will need his signed
permission before I can do what you are requesting. I can do
the surgery, but someone else must sign all of the legal
documents that are required in sexual re-assignment surgery.
Well, the sooner that a decision is made about this, the
sooner that you can start healing. I'll be back after awhile."

*********

"Mr. Corbin, I am the hospital Chief of Staff, Doctor Watkins.
I would like to introduce Mrs. Crilla, who is our resident
clinical specialist. She has a Masters Degree in clinical
behavioral science, specializing in Gender Dysphoria. Beside
her is Doctor Singh, who is an accredited Urologist. The three
of us are here to evaluate you and determine if you are a
candidate for the type of surgery that you are requesting.
Before anyone will be permitted to undergo sex re-assignment
surgery or SRS as we prefer to call it, they have to follow a
prescribed evaluation and testing procedure. Naturally, with
your accident, you may be an exception to our Standards of
Care. Because a decision has to be made quickly, we would
like to tape our interview with you. Is that OK?"

I nodded my head yes and heard the click of the camera as it
started recording our interview.

He continued "We have minimal requirements that must be
satisfied. Our hospital subscribes to the doctrine described by
the Harry Benjamin International Gender Dysphoria
Association. All three of us must agree that the surgery that
you are requesting, will not have an negative affect upon your
future life; and we must document our arguments as to
whatever course of action is selected for you. Although you
were injured in an accident and require reconstructive
surgery, the actual procedures that you are requesting, is
considered Surgical Sex Reassignment. SRS is composed of
two different concepts. The Genital surgical sex reassignment
is to alter the remains of the genitalia and to modify your
breasts for the purpose of altering the morphology of your
genetic male body to have the general appearance of a genetic
female body. The other concept concerns any surgical
procedures that change a masculine appearance to a
feminine appearance on non-genital and non-breast sites.
Nose, throat, chin, hips, and cheek surgery are examples of
this concept. Our normal standards allow us to follow the
patients wishes when there have been facial injuries, such as
yours. If you want your face changed to present a feminine
appearance, that is your right. Look at Michael Jackson and
how much he changed his face to look like his sister's face.
The issue that we have to address and apply our standard to,
is the issue of your genitalia surgery. Mrs. Crilla, is
acknowledged as having the appropriate training, education,
and experience to evaluate your mental status and to
recommend or disapprove the SRS for you. She has special
training in general psychotherapy, sex therapy, and gender
counseling/therapy."

As he sat down, she stepped forward and took my hand in
her hand. She said softly "Please understand that this is not
a simple yes or no decision. We have been involved in similar
circumstances before and have had to disapprove more
requests than we have approved. Our typical SRS patient is
suffering from Gender Dysphoria and have had extensive
psychiatric evaluations with a diagnosis of transsexualism
prior to the SRS. They are not happy with their birth sex and
the sex role defined for their birth sex. They typically go
through two years of treatment to include living the life of the
desired sex for a year before we proceed further. During that
period, a lot of them find out that the life was not as
glamorous as they thought it would be and accept their
natural place in society. But a large percent of the applicants
adapt to the new role and after through counseling, are
approved for hormonal sex reassignment. The hormones,
have effects and consequences which are not readily
reversible. We do not permit hormonal procedures to be
performed on an elective basis. It is professionally improper
to perform hormonal sex reassignment and/or SRS without
careful evaluation of the patient's reasons for requesting the
services. We have to evaluate the beliefs and attitudes upon
which the reasons are based. We have to believe that the SRS
will improve the quality of life. In your case, that may be
difficult to determine quickly."



Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
From: an121917@anon.penet.fi
Date: Thu, 27 Jul 1995 04:36:55 UTC
Subject: Rodeo 2 of 5 TG Cowboy


If you are not an adult, do not read any further. If you want
 to see what this story and the rest of the stories in this 
series are about, then read the Rodeo 0 of 5, which explains 
the concept and different types of sex in the stories.

Waldo



I guess that I flinched when she said that because she quickly
continued "The diagnostic criteria for transsexualism has
already been established. It includes a persistent discomfort
and sense of inappropriateness about one's birth sex. There is
nothing that has been demonstrated or documented for me
that you have any discomfort with your birth sex. It also
requires a persistent preoccupation for at least two years with
getting rid of one's primary and secondary sex characteristics
and acquiring the sex characteristics of the other sex. Again,
you have not fulfilled this criteria. We are required to first
treat you with procedures commonly accepted as appropriate
for such medical conditions."

From the back of the room, Doctor Singh quietly said "Bull
shit. Those standards only apply to persons with functioning
sexual organs, to give them a chance to back out before they
cut something off that can be restored surgically. It does not
apply to a person that is neuter because of accidents. The
way that he has been damaged, we cannot restore him to his
masculine body. An Orchidectomy procedure to castrate him
has already occurred as a result of the accident. The male
organs have already been removed and the issue is whether
to construct a labia, a clitoris and a vagina or a penile
implant. If he cannot adapt to the requested female
appearance and it's associated lifestyle, we can restore him to
the same appearance and general masculine body that we
could do now. I think that we should honor his request to
reshape his body so that it is a gynecoid body. The sooner the
better. I will be your peer reviewer for this case and
recommend approval."

A frown creased her forehead and then she smiled at me as
she said "My co-worker gets to the point. I have to make sure
that you are aware of what you are requesting and to inform
you what you will have to do, to obtain further medical
treatment to enhance your SRS. With our good doctor's
permission, I would like to discuss those issues with you for
the next hour. At the end of the hour, I will make my decision
as to what I will recommend for you. Is that fair enough?"

I nodded yes.

She quickly discussed how the hormonal sex reassignment
would probably have some irreversible effects, such as hair
growth, breast growth, skin softening, and mood fluctuations.
She warned me that the administration of estrogens and
progesterones to me may lead to mild or serious health
threatening complications. I would have my hormonal
treatment after the surgery, which is different from the
standard methods. That she would have to do intensive
psychotherapeutic sessions with me before she could
recommend the hormone treatment. I would have to work
with a endocrinologist who is qualified to interpret my blood
tests and development. I could expect the hormone changes
to start in 1 to 4 months, become irreversible within 6 to 9
months, leveling off in 18 months, and be done within 3
years. I would not have to worry about any male sex drive
because there was no penis or balls. My breast size without
implants, would be a cup size smaller than my mother, but
this would be supplemented with breast implants. My fat will
become redistributed so that I would always be diagnosed
with gynecomastia if I try to resume a masculine identity, my
body hair will lighten, and I will lose some muscle tone.

After an hour of discussion, she asked the question "Dr.
Singh was right when he said that some of our standards do
not apply to your current medical case. If you had not been
damaged and needed this type of surgery, I would
immediately disapprove your application. However because
you at this moment neuter in your gender, it provides an
opportunity to do some research. We would accept you as a
patient, knowing that there is a high potential of you
changing your mind later. Knowing that this is an emergency
procedure, do you desire reconstructive surgery to be
performed on you that is typical of the surgery that is
performed in a male to female sexual reassignment surgery;
and do you accept the treatment program as described to
you?"

The other two doctors woke up and leaned forward to see my
answer. On my clipboard, I wrote "I ACCEPT. PROCEED.
PLEASE CALL ME JACKIE OR JACQUELINE FROM NOW
ON."

Chapter 4 - The first 30 days

My surgeon re-wrote the procedures that he was going to
perform on me and handed me the papers. I signed them and
he left to schedule the surgery. I was approved under the
condition that I would accept intensive after surgery
counseling and complete at least 3 months of psychotherapy
as condition for acceptance to hormone therapy.

After the psychotherapy sessions, the doctors will give me the
necessary papers where I can change my name and other
legal documents to reflect my new identity and gender. They
will issue me a new birth certificate showing me to be female,
which will permit obtaining new driver's license and other
necessary documents.

I will also need some Electrolysis to remove my now
unwanted facial hair. When I was a kid, I always hated my
very light facial growth and wished that I could grow a beard.
Or even a mustache. But now, I am glad that it was light. I
will only have to have some electrolysis around my ears and
jawline to remove some of the darker hair and some strands
from over my upper lip.

It had been two days since the accident. Accident hell! Since
Harve tried to murder me. Playing a joke is one thing but
what he did, was intentionally rob me of my potential title
and the money that it would have brought me. As a result of
what he did to me, I was damaged so that I could never be
restored to my former self or live the life that I had chosen for
myself.

Harve did this to me. He would not leave me alone. When I
get out of here, I am going to teach a lesson. That is, if I don't
kill him first.

As I think about the different ways to get my revenge upon
Harve, I decide that I don't want to kill him. I want to find a
way to inflict pain upon him and to let him live to experience
the pain that he deserves. As I think about the many different
ways to hurt him, I think of one solution that might work.

I write out some authorizations to a real estate broker friend
back home to sell my father's little ranch for me and request
the hospital Notary Public to notarize my signature. I will
need some money to pay for what the insurance will not cover
and to help me change my lifestyle.

******

I am in intense pain. It has been a week since the accident
and four days since the reconstructive surgery. My body has
surgical bandages all over it from mid-thigh to the top of my
head.

My chest is swollen and extremely tight from the breast
implants. As part of the pre-surgical process, he showed me
several different silicone sacs and pictures of what the
finished breast would look like. I accepted his
recommendation on the type and style of implant but
requested one size bigger than he recommended. I don't want
to go through this surgery twice and feel that I will need more
than a A cup size. So an incision was made under each of my
nipples into the chest wall and a silicone sac was positioned
in my chest to give me larger B cup breasts, that should
increase to a C cup after a couple of months of hormone
treatments.

The bull's horn had created an opening in my groin area that
was a large cavity that stretched from my normal anus
opening to two inches above where my penis used to be. It
was through this opening, that they worked on my hips, did
the vaginal creation, and then sewed me back up so that
there was some separation between the vagina and anus.
This is where I hurt the most. I can't move without
positioning my inflatable rubber invalid ring under my butt.

I can't move without feeling pain. Twice a day, the doctor
removes the bandages and changes the gauze in the vagina
form. The form is a device designed to keep the newly created
vaginal passage open during the period following surgery. My
new vagina is currently packed with gauze which the doctor
has to keep changing. After a week of healing, the gauze will
not be needed, and I can get by with only the vaginal form in
place for most of each day. Then I will graduate to inserting
the form several times a day for one or two hours at a time for
the next several months or so. During that time, I also have
to lubricate and stretch the vaginal passage several times
daily to ensure that it maintains the correct shape until I
have healed completely.

The doctor advised me that I am going to become quite
familiar with thin Maxi Pads and panty liners after surgery. I
will have to wear the thin Maxis for about 4 weeks after
surgery, before I switch to panty liners. I have to change the
pad after each dilation and Betadine cleansing. Because of
the type of surgery, I have to disinfect the surgical and anal
area after every bowel movement.

Although I am in pain, the doctor has been forcing me to
learn how to dilate myself and how to properly apply the
vaginal moisturizing jelly. I have listened to the doctor's
speech about how to apply the lubricant to the dilator and
then inserting it until I have memorized every step of the time
consuming, uncomfortable, and sometimes painful process. If
I don't dilate properly and reach full vaginal depth, my vagina
will heal so that it is not the adequate depth and width that
will be needed for sexual intercourse.

I lie down on the bed, place a small pillow under my hips,
waterproof pads on the bed and get as comfortable as
possible. I relax my groin muscles and insert a little lubricant
using an applicator into the vagina before inserting the
dilator into my vaginal opening. I have to insert it and move
at the correct angles to avoid damaging the still sensitive and
weak vaginal wall. After I get it under the pubic bone, I rotate
it while applying gentle pressure to ease the dilator further
into my new opening. When it becomes difficult to rotate
because of the pressure, I continue the rotation and withdraw
the dilator slightly to re-lube the dilator nose. I continue
rotating and slowly inserting the dilator, until I reach the full
vaginal depth where I rotate more to stretch the tissues.

I have to place several waterproof pads under me while
dilating. After dilating, I gently rub Vitamin E on my surgical
areas to help heal and reduce the scar tissue formation.

If I was not hurting so much in my pelvic area, my face would
be bothering me. It is also bandaged and very swollen. To
minimize visible scar tissue, they operated from inside my
mouth. Incisions were cut between my lips and gumline,
allowing room to insert silicone cheekbone implants; and to
rebuild and re-shape my nose and jawbone. My Adam's Apple
was also shaved. I still can't talk and my mouth is full of
surgical gauze also.

I feel that I am tied to the bed with all of these different tubes
flowing into my body to remove urine, or to provide
nourishment.

*******

It's been two weeks since the surgery and the doctor
discharged me from the hospital. I was kept in the hospital
for a longer period because of the nature of my injuries and
the necessity to allow my hip to heal as much as possible
before any weight was placed on I. I have not healed
completely yet and still have to see the doctor on a daily
basis, but can go home to heal. I do not want to go to my real
home so I check into a local motel, where I spend my days
walking around the motel room, trying to regain some of my
energy and movement.

Most bandages have been removed from my face but my face
is still swollen and discolored. The inside of my mouth where
the incisions were made, are healed where I can eat soft food
now. I can talk now, but only limited speech is permitted.

My chest is very tight. I am wearing a support bra and have
to apply lotion frequently to my new breasts and to the rest of
my exposed body, to help reduce the swelling as the skin
stretches to this new shape.

I can walk around slowly but it is very uncomfortable. My
thighs and hips are covered with dressings still. I can't sit
down without my rubber ring between me and whatever I am
sitting on. I have a lot of bruising and discoloration around
the surgical area. There are some small bruises on my thighs
and buttocks, but the most extensive bruising is from the
navel down to my new vagina. The doctor expects my thigh
bruises to fade within ten days but the rest will remain for
several weeks. I also have some swelling of the entire surgical
site, which is not too comfortable.

Because of the swelling, I am not able to urinate in a normal
stream. When I sit down on the commode to pee, which was a
very big cultural change for me, I spray pee everywhere,
including all over myself. It is very messy and requires a very
through cleaning. The doctor told me that his problem will
cease once the swelling subsides.

I also see small amounts of blood and plasma on my pads,
which the doctor told me to expect. I have to examine my
pads for signs of infection and frequently find some dead
tissue that my body has sloughed off. Seems that my body
determines that some skin tissues are not needed in it's new
position and sloughs it off.

I sleep a lot, which the doctor says is natural as my body
diverts my energy to it's healing process. The doctor says it
will take about another four weeks of this before I will be
completely back to normal and able to start my new life. The
pain is less severe when I am lying down; and changing
position from lying down to standing up causes a sharp
increase in pain in the surgical area.

I feel frequent "electrical shocks" in the surgical area, which
are caused by the regrowth of the nerves in the area. The
doctor warned me about this. I know that they are harmless
and should decrease over several weeks. But the weirdest
feeling is the phantom pain and itches. The surgical
movement of tissue with its associated nerve endings makes
me feel an itch on my now non-existent penis, instead of
where the tissue is now deep inside me. I find myself reaching
for the spot but can't scratch it because it doesn't exist
anymore.

Mrs. Crilla lent me several books on female anatomy and
feminine viewpoints. When I see her everyday for my
counseling session, she gives me a pop quiz about my new
body and how to care for it. Prior to my surgery, I only knew
the real names for the vagina and clitoris. Now, I can describe
the vagina and know how to spell urethra. I always thought
that it was just a straight tube into a woman's body and was
surprised to discover that it was an elongated S shape. As I
heal, I have to learn how to start controlling the muscles of
the vagina, so that I am able to expand them during sex.

I have very standard looking female external sexual anatomy
consisting of the labia majora which enclose the external
genitals, labia minora which are the two smaller skin inner
lips and a clitoris. My clitoris was made from the remains of
my penis, so it has some erectile tissue, where it can fill with
blood and become firm when sexually stimulated. Or so the
doctor states. He won't give me the chance to experiment with
it yet. It is hid under another fold of skin called the clitoral
hood.

I don't have either a male or female reproductive system so I
will never be able to parent a child. Because my body does
not naturally produce the quantity of female hormones that I
will need to maintain a feminine appearance, I will have to
take carefully determined hormone treatments for the rest of
my life.

Most of her books are on the feminine psychology. During one
of our early sessions, she told me "My theory of learning how
to become a woman is based upon the general concepts of
Alcott."

"Louisa May Alcott wrote Little Women. How does that apply
to me?"

"No, silly. Amos Bronson Alcott in the middle 1800's was an
American educator and transcendentalist philosopher who
maintained that learning should be based on pleasure and
imagination instead of discipline. If you enjoy what you are
doing, you will learn faster and it becomes easier to make it a
part of your new personality. So we will try to make this as
pleasurable as possible for you, but you have to use your
imagination to help me."

I thought a lot about what she said to me next. She said "You
will discover that you will enjoy your new sexual identity
more once you learn that there is a difference between
ambisexual and bisexual. Most transsexuals either want to
become a Lesbian or have the normal female/male
relationship. The third difference is Ambisexual. It means that
you are sexually attracted to either sex indiscriminately; or
suited to either sex. Compare that to the more commonly
used word, bisexual which means relating to both sexes;
having both male and female reproductive organs as in
hermaphroditic; or having a sexual orientation to persons of
either sex. In other words, learn to enjoy having sex with
either men or women. It will double your chances of getting
laid when you walk into a bar."

Everyday, I get up, do my prescribed limited exercises, dilate
myself, clean myself up, and then go to the hospital to visit
Mrs. Crilla. I wear a large comfortable baggy dress because of
the bandages and pads that I still have on my body.
Everything that I have done since the surgery, has to be done
as a female would do it. She calls me Jackie, and discusses
me using female pronouns. The first time that we were having
a session in her office, she told me to go to the bathroom and
made me go into the Women's bathroom.

During our session, she talks to me about self-image and
asks how do I see myself now. She tells me that I am an
individual with a need to experience the full human
experience. She tells me that everyone has a masculine and
feminine side of their personality; and she wants to help me
bring out my feminine personality. When I heal a little more
and can fully assume an externally female role, I must be
prepared to present that personality and to accept the
conditions that society places on a woman. 

She tells me to learn to be at peace with my new self. To
listen to my body. She tells me that because of my small body
frame, youth, and the surgeon's skill, that I will present the
exterior image of a woman. But I must learn to project the
interior image of a woman and blend with the exterior image.
I must look, act and think as if I have always been female.

She tells me that I must learn how to select the correct
makeup for my skin tones, how to apply the makeup and how
to apply the makeup correctly for the clothes and event.
When my faces heals a little more, she will schedule me for
classes with experts to teach me about proper makeup
procedures.

She talks to me about my hair. We sit and look through
different magazines as she explains what she is seeing and
what I have to learn to see. My hair is short, but we
experiment with it. She gives me a barrette and has me brush
my hair different ways.

She shows me pictures of men and women wearing women
clothes. Some of the pictures are difficult to determine
whether it is a man or a woman wearing the female clothes
because of the makeup, clothes and their posture. Others are
easy to determine because of their very obvious unflattering
appearance.

I have to learn the names of the different clothes. Capuchin
chador, chuddar, chemisette, faille, and farthingale were just
some of the cultural clothes that I had to learn about.

She showed me movies of different men and women's
gestures and body language. She stops the movie and has me
comment on the way that people are moving, standing and
gesturing. She goes through motions and I must determine if
it is a natural feminine motion or an exaggerated motion. I
have to learn to move my new body like a woman. I have to
watch the way women walk, sit, rise from a seated position,
eat, stand, and gesture. Learning to walk was difficult
because I discovered that as a man, I would walk by starting
to fall over and moving my feet underneath to give support
before I finish falling. Women use a balanced movement from
the hips and let the rest of the body come along.

She showed me pictures of me during our first session, where
I was sitting in a chair, with my legs spread and taking up the
whole chair. She had me sit in the same chair, with good
posture, my knees together, and arms close in to my body;
while she took another picture. Then she showed me the
difference in the two pictures.

We went through my old photo albums and she immediately
noticed that I have a deep tan in every picture. She fussed at
me for all of the skin damage that I allowed myself to suffer.
She tells me that with my light eyes, new face, that I would
look beautiful as a blonde. But I must have light skin and
stay away from suntans.

When we first started our treatments, I was forbidden to say
anything because my larynx had not healed enough yet. And I
was not making any facial movements because of my facial
surgery. As part of my counseling, she had me listen to
several tapes to determine how to project femininity with just
a voice. My voice, when I could speak again, would be
different from what it used to be, because of the damage. I
would have a pitch within the accepted range, but I must
learn different speaking patterns to complete the vocal
transformation. I must learn how to annunicate some words
differently, must change my vocabulary to a female
vocabulary and must expand the dynamic range of my voice.
Additionally, I must learn how to express the correct facial
expressions and body language to support my speech
patterns. When you watch video comparisons of men and
women speaking, it is quite easy to see that women are more
expressive in their delivery, while men are flat and very
monotone.

She tells me that I must expand my living skills to learn
about fashion, cooking, and taking care of kids. I must be
able to talk with normal women about jewelry or cooking
chicken.



Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
From: an121917@anon.penet.fi
Date: Thu, 27 Jul 1995 04:37:04 UTC
Subject: Rodeo 3 of 5 TG Cowboy


If you are not an adult, do not read any further. If you
want to see what this story and the rest of the stories in
this series are about, then read the Rodeo 0 of 5, which
explains the concept and different types of sex in the
stories.

Waldo

Chapter 5 - High Heels

The cab pulls out of the traffic lane and over to the curb. The
driver gets out, adjusts his cap, walks around to the
passenger door and opens the door. He stands where he
knows will be the best position for watching his passenger
exit his cab. Slowly, a pair of long, shapely legs rotate out of
the back seat floorboard and a pair of three inch high heels
gently touch the ground. Then the legs tense, the knee-high
skirt parts slightly, revealing just a shimmer of white at the
apex of the pantyhose legs, and the rest of the body lifts itself
to a standing-up position outside the cab. As she stands, she
adjusts the skirt from where it had ridden up her legs during
the cab ride, to a more appropriate fit around her thin waist
and hips. The blonde-haired young woman is wearing a loose
fitting white silk blouse, with an open vee to reveal just a hint
of the cleavage; and a dark skirt. Her short blonde hair has
just the right amount of tousled curl to show off the
highlights. Around her neck is a slender gold necklace that
matches the gold earrings on her ears.

She reaches into her purse and removes a folded bill, which
she holds out to the driver. Her hand has a gold bracelet
dangling from the wrist and two rings on her fingers. The bill
is held by long, slim fingers with long fingernails that are
neatly manicured and freshly polished with bright red polish.
She flashes a gleaming smile at the driver and says in a very
soft, sultry voice "Thank you for the ride. I enjoyed talking
with you. Your mother's recipe for potato salad sounds
delicious and I must try it sometime. The next time that I
need a cab, I will ask for you."

She turns and walks toward the mall entrance, putting her
purse strap on her shoulder. The driver watches the fluid
movements of her hips from the back and her sexy walk into
the mall. Although he has another call waiting, he is no hurry
yet. He is waiting for her to get to the heavy mall entrance
door. He watches as she presses on the door and it doesn't
budge. She presses harder and he watches as her tight-
skirted ass tenses up from the push. He has a big grin on his
face, thinking about what he would like to do to her, if he was
only twenty years younger. Under his breath, he mutters
"Damn right I would."

She walks slowly through the mall, listening to the sound of
her high heels clicking on the hard tile floor, pausing
occasionally to look into a store window. A blouse on a
mannequin catches her attention and she enters the shop to
touch the blouse and feel the material. A sales clerk
approaches her and the woman politely turns the clerk back.
She is only looking. She picks up a scarf and places it on the
mannequin, looking at how the scarf complements the
blouse.

She exits the shop and continues down the mall. She stops at
a small mall vendor wagon to sample a perfume on her wrist
and to smell it. The clerk is a young attractive Asian woman
wearing a long tunic that is slit on the sides and over loose
trousers. The blonde smiles at her as she says "I wish that I
had a body that could wear the type of clothing that you have
on. Don't you call it an Ao Dai?"

The clerk gives a shy smile as she replies "Yes. My husband insists that
I wear the traditional dress of Vietnamese women. But I would trade
bodies and clothes with you anytime."

The blonde smiles as she looks at the watch on her wrist and
tells the clerk that she will be back later.

She walks down the mall center strip, knowing that she is
being observed by several men, sitting on the common seats,
while their wives shop. She can feel them as they stare at her;
their eyes following her every moment, knowing that they are
mentally undressing her as she walks. She ignores them as if
she is not aware of them or their very noticeable actions
because she is used to men staring at her beautiful face and
shapely young body. She proceeds through the shopping area
as if she is the only person in the whole mall, obvious to their
various apparent observations.

She enters a restaurant and hands the maitre d a business
card. He looks at it, and bows as he accepts the card. He
smiles and leads the way to a reserved table for two with a
view of the small lake outside the restaurant. She waits while
he adjusts the table and pulls out a chair for her. She sits
down, smoothing her skirt as he adjusts the chair closer to
the table for her.

A waiter appears with a winelist. The waiter stands close to
the table and slightly on his tiptoes so that he can look down
her cleavage as she looks at the winelist. She looks up at him,
smiles a movie star type smile and says softly "Chardonnay,
please."

He turns and goes back to the kitchen. She opens her purse
and removes a pack of cigarettes and a small mirror. She
opens the mirror, looks at her face and removes a tube of
lipstick from the purse. She opens the tube, purses her lips
and touches her lipstick up. She puts the tube and lipstick
back into her purse.

She slowly removes the cellophane with her long fingernails
and opens the pack. When the pack is open, a man from a
nearby table is standing there with his cigarette lighter ready.
She looks up at him, smiles at him, and puts the cigarette in
her mouth and lets him light it for her. After he lights it, she
places the cigarette in the ashtray and repays the man's
service with a smile as she quietly says "Thank you very
much. I keep forgetting to put matches in my purse."

He smiles back and replies "I would be lost without my
lighter. Are you dining alone?"

"No, I am meeting my best friend for lunch today."

"Oh. May I recommend the Chef Salad. This restaurant is my
favorite because of their Salad. I come here twice a week.
Have you been here before?"

"No, this is my first time here. I have been in town for two
months and just started getting out the last couple of weeks."

"The Chateau Rosealon is famous for their food. If you don't
have any plans for tonight, I would be delighted to treat you
to dinner there and to show you some of the nicer places of
my wonderful city."

"Thank you, but I already have plans for tonight and will be
going back home soon."

"If you change your mind, here is my business card and it
has my private number on it. Feel free to call me if you
change your mind. I would be honored to escort you to dinner
some evening."

"Thank you." she said as another woman is escorted to the
table by the maitre d. The man looks at the new woman, gives
her a polite smile, and walks back to his table.

The new woman sits down and hides a grin on her face as she
says "You reject them too fast. I would reel that one back in
and see if that bulge in his suit trousers was for real. I keep
telling you that I would like to have second chance at some of
your rejects, Jackie."

I picked my cigarette back up and took another draw before
putting it back into the ashtray.

Mrs. Crilla lit her own cigarette and I noticed that no one
came over to offer her a light. The waiter brought my wine
and she ordered her drink. Then she asked " I was in one of
the shops and saw you sample the perfume. As you walked
down the aisle, you walked as if you had been walking in high
heels all of your life. How did everything else go today?"

"Good. I went shopping and tried on several outfits. I
purchased a couple of the outfits. I also bought me some new
bras and matching panties. The older ones are getting tight as
my breasts fill out more. Then I went to a photographic studio
and had some pictures made. The photographer tried to hit
on me by suggesting that he could help me get some
modeling work. I think that I am doing good to have been a
man only two months ago."

"Yes, you are. You have the beautiful face of an angel, the
sexy body of a vixen, the wonderful smile of a Hollywood
movie star, and the pleasant personality of a very natural and
happy woman. Based upon your laboratory tests and full
examination yesterday by our team, I am happy to inform you
that we will certify that you have completed the major part of
your treatment early and can start living the female life that
you desire. This means that you can start having sex, only
you should not have any rough sex for three or four more
months. Just keep it to the normal slam-blam-thank you type
of sex and you will be all right. It also means that you can get
a new legal name change and birth certificate to prove that
you are this new person. You will have to check back in with
us every month for six months and then once every six
months for two years so we can evaluate your progress. What
are you going to do with your new life, now that you don't
have to hang around our clinic anymore?"

I picked up my wine glass, held it out so that we could clink
glasses in celebration of my advancement, and then took a
little sip of the wine. I would have preferred a beer but knew
that beer was not appropriate for me now. Ladies always
practice moderation, when they are drinking. As I sat my
glass down, I stared at the lipstick that I left on the rim and
quietly said "Think I will look up some old school chums and
see how much they have changed since I last saw them."


Chapter 6 - Completing my education

The next four months were just as busy as the first two
months. My father's ranch was discovered to have some
unknown hidden resources by my friend. They discovered oil
during the survey. I sold it for fifty times what my father
thought it was worth. I also get a bonus of seventy-five
thousand dollars a year for the rest of my life. With the sale of
the ranch, I can now live any type of life that I desire.

I bought a lot of new clothes and jewelry. After all, if my plan
is going to work, I have to look the part.

I also started experimenting with sex. Two weeks after Mrs.
Crilla gave her permission for me to start having sex, I let a
young doctor pick me up. He did not know my medical
history and thought that I was a medical student doing some
intern work. We didn't talk much about medical work the first
night because we were too busy screwing each other.

******

I let him pick me up at my apartment. I had to get a place to
stay because the motel was costing too much. After dinner,
he asked me if I wanted to go to a nice quite little bar that he
knew. All through dinner, I knew what I wanted to do and
had to do sooner or later. Not so much with him, but just to
have a first time for myself. He was as good as anyone to start
with. I went to the bathroom and used an applicator to place
some vagina jelly inside me so that I would be ready later. I
knew that some transsexuals are able to produce their own
lubrication but some can not. I had to find out about myself.

I told him to take me to his place.

When we got to his place, I asked him to fix me a drink. He
started opening the wine bottle and I said "No, make it a
double bourbon and coke."

While he fixed the drinks, I lit a cigarette and stood looking
out the window at the cars parked on the street. I felt him
walk up behind me and hand the drink to me. As I took a
swig of the liquor, letting it's warmth flow through my body,
he put his arms around my hips and blended his body to my
shape. I continued to stare out the window, a drink in one
hand and a cigarette in the other. I felt his hand trace my
body's outline as he moved his hand slowly up my body,
down my arm and to my fingers. He took the cigarette from
my limp fingers and put it out in an ashtray. Then his fingers
slowly flowed back up my arm and around to my open vee of
my blouse.

I did not move as his fingers unbuttoned the top two buttons
of my blouse. His fingers found their way into my bra and
started squeezing my left breast. I finished the rest of my
bourbon and put the glass down on the table.

I felt a wonderful warmth flow through my body and I turned
around so that I was facing him. His hands dropped to my
ass.

We kissed and I almost jumped when I felt the roughness of
his face from where he shaved everyday. Was my face ever
that rough on a woman's more tender skin? I let his tongue
enter my mouth and I responded with my own tongue.

As we kissed, he pulled my blouse loose from where it had
been tucked into my skirt and down my back. I dropped my
arms so it could fall off. Without pausing, his hands moved to
my bra and unsnapped the hooks. As my bra loosened, his
hands moved to my breasts and started cupping and
squeezing them.

With my hands, I unbuttoned his shirt and ran my hands
over his smooth soft flesh. He was taller than me, and was
bending over to maintain the kiss. But at the same time, he
was contorting his body so that he was rubbing his erection
against me.

I realized that I was enjoying this. That I was also getting
turned on. That I wanted to have sex with him. I was still
confused but no longer holding back on participating.

I remembered my discussions with Mrs. Crilla on what to
expect and what I should do. I slowly, provocatively opened
my legs into a wide V so that he could press his leg between
mine.

I felt his fingers fumbling with my skirt. I found his belt and
had his trousers undone before he got my skirt loose. We
separated our lips only long enough to get rid of all of our
clothes.

I was standing there naked, in the window of his apartment,
with him running his hands all over my body. He reached for
my hand and gently led me to the carpet in front of the
couch. He laid down on the couch and let me stand in front of
him. I knew that he wanted me to blow him and I whispered
"Not on the first date. We have to save something for the next
time.".

I watched his eyes as he hungrily eyed me, knowing that he
was very pleased with the way I looked. A young, very pretty
blonde woman, with a very sexy perfectly proportioned body,
with a nice set of boobs that was his for the taking. I postured
myself so he could see what I had to offer. I moved slowly so
that my tits traced invisible circles in the air just inches from
his face. I pointed the slightly perky tips at this mouth and
pulled back as his mouth started opening. Anticipation must
be taught to him.

I turned my back to him as I ran my hands slowly down the
smooth expanse of naked flesh to where it flared to broad,
womanly hips and a very provocative ass. I knew it was the
best ass that he had ever seen unless he was a proctologist. I
continued running my hands down my legs and thighs,
showing him how shapely, trim, and long they were.

When I slowly turned back around, I looked down at his
seven inch long erection and knew he was pleased with what I
had to offer him tonight.

I laid on the couch beside him and felt his tongue dart into
my mouth. I used my tongue to stroke and lightly glide over
his as we laid naked on the couch. Remembering Mrs. Crilla's
advice, I reached down and gripped his firm cock. I began
massaging his balls, tweaking and delicately pinching his
scrotum, gently running my fingers through his pubic hair.
As I breathed heavily in his ear, knowing that my hot breath
was exciting him, I whispered, "Just lay back and enjoy
letting me explore you and make love to you."

Before he could say anything, my tongues flicked in and out
of his ear as my wet, warm tongue caused him to groan. I
gently nibbled his earlobe as I continued my manual stroking
of his penis, remembering what this used to do to me when I
had a cock.

He reached out and squeezed both of my breasts. As he
slowly rhythmically squeezed them, I jumped as I felt a warm
wonderful flush of pleasure hit my body. My nipples seemed
to expand and grow as he played with them. His gentle
squeezing quickly turned the tiny reddish-brown nubbins
into hard, blood-filled little nipples. He pulled me to him and
began suckling at my boobs. This excited me immensely. I
could have let him do that all night long, but knew that there
were other things that I also wanted to experience.

He tongued my nipples and pushed them around in small
circles with his lips and tongue. I heard myself moan once
and knew that I had to regain a little control. I pulled myself
loose from his mouth and with a little pressure, had him lying
on his back.

I straddled his waist as I put a leg on each side of his body. I
rose up slightly, spread my trimmed cunt lips and rubbed his
hard erection against my brand new clitoris. The wonderful
feeling as his glans touched my outer labia caused me to
shudder.

I looked into his eyes as I guided his red, swollen cock slowly
into my wet and hungry pussy. I slowly lowered my body over
his, feeling the wonderful feeling as a real cock squeezed
inside me. If a dilator felt this good, I would dilate ten times a
day.

I used my cuntal muscles and could feel them squeeze down
on his entrapped, quivering cock. Then I slowly rose up,
letting his cock fuck me.

He couldn't keep from twitching and wiggling his hips under
me once I started this. I wanted him to lie there and let me
fuck myself on his impaling cock. But after only three very
slow and wonderful slow strokes of his cock using only my
vagina walls to touch him, he couldn't take anymore.

His hips started rising to meet mine. As I used my thigh
muscles to slowly go up and down, he was using his body to
pump me faster. His motion was very addicting and I began
humping his cock faster and faster as my passions mounted.

I looked in the mirror and saw him clutching my tits and
squeezing the nipples while I was screwing myself on his
thrusting cock.

Then it hit me. A wonderful warm flame roared through my
mind pushing all thoughts from my mind, except to pull that
wonderful cock further inside me. As I experienced my first
climax, I could feel my cunt convulsing and grabbing wildly at
his cock in a tight grip.

Every nerve in my body was on fire. Pleasure flew through my
tissues as I exploded. I fell over on him and wanted to die in
peace, but he was not ready yet. I was so weak that I couldn't
move but he was moving me. His cock was still pounding
away inside me and I felt my body responding to that
pounding. Within seconds, I was back up and riding him
faster and harder, letting his cock pound deep inside me.

I screamed. Not with pain, but with pleasure. Pleasure that I
had never experienced before. I pumped his cock fast, hoping
that this night would never end. Then I felt his stop and every
muscle tense in his body. For what seemed like thirty
seconds, we paused.

Then he shuddered and I felt his cock pumping it's warm
fluid deep into my hungering cunt. I felt my brain explode
again as new pleasure flowed through my body and I
collapsed on him as my body also experienced another
wonderful climax.

We laid there on his couch. I could feel his semi-hard cock
inside me and could feel his warm juices draining from my
body onto his body. I could feel his warm and sweaty body
under my equally sweaty body..

I felt his limp penis wetly slide from within me. As it shrunk, I
wondered if it would make a little pop sound as it came out. I
changed position slightly so that I was lying curled up in his
arms and looking at his once mighty cock, now covered with
my cunt juice and his own cum.

I smiled. I was no longer a virgin.

He lit a cigarette and we laid there on his couch, while we
smoked it. Then we went to his bedroom.

******

Per my previous promise to Mrs. Crilla, I went straight to her
the next day and discussed what I did, what it felt like, and
what I thought. She listened to me discuss what sex was like
as a woman and only had one comment "Come back and see
me after you have given some man a blow job."

Two days later, I was back in her office.

Different guy but I was more sexually liberated with this man.
At first I laid on my back and let him pound me. But after he
had filled me with cum and we were both lying there feeling
that warm glow, I watched his cock resting on his body and
wanted to taste it. I surprised myself when I bent over and
wrapped my lips around it.

Mrs. Crilla asked the same questions and I had to remember
the different positions, describe how I felt and what I did. She
finished up the session by commenting "Come back and see
me after you fall in love."

I lasted almost three weeks before I knocked on her door
again. Kevin was the sixth man that I had made love to. I
spent three nights in his bed and it was no longer screwing or
fucking. It was making love. I could only think about how
nice it was to lay beside him in bed and to feel his warm,
thick cock inside my vagina.

Mrs. Crilla asked the same questions and I had to remember
the different positions, describe how I felt and what I did. She
finished up the session by commenting "Come back and see
me when you need to."

A week later, I knocked on her door. Kevin's old girlfriend
called him and I threw a shit-fit in his apartment as I walked
out. I was all tore up inside and crying.

She held me as I cried and talked about how I felt and what I
had done. Then she said "Your hormones are working on you
and causing some very strong mood fluctuations. What you
are feeling and experiencing is nothing new. Every woman
goes through this mood changes. The way that you were
proceeding full steam into several romantic adventures, I
knew that it was only a matter of time, before something
would go wrong at the wrong time."



Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
From: an121917@anon.penet.fi
Date: Thu, 27 Jul 1995 04:41:01 UTC
Subject: Rodeo 4 of 5 TG Cowboy


If you are not an adult, do not read any further.  If you 
want to see what this story and the rest of the stories 
in this series are about, then read the Rodeo 0 of 5, 
which explains the concept and different types of sex 
in the stories.

Waldo

Chapter 7 - Watching the Rodeo

I have changed.

I have observed women for several months and analyzed their
actions/dress. Instead of looking at a woman as a piece of
meat to be fucked, as I used to; I now look at them for what
really makes them an individual. Is it their personality?
Their hair style? Some little motion, such as the way they
smile when they talk? Then I determine if that action/dress
would help me. If it does, then I adopt it and try it.

When I take a shower, I feel very normal. As if nothing has
changed for me. I am still me, even though my body fat has
changed the shape of my body and I have longer hair.

When I dress, is when I notice the most difference. Primary
reason for that is time. I used to brush my teeth, shave every
once in a while and run a comb once through my hair before
putting on my cowboy hat. I only wore jeans and cowboy
shirts, so it didn't take me long to make a selection. Now I
have to shave my legs, brush and style my hair, apply my
make-up, and color coordinate my clothes with my day's
planned activities.

When I am with someone else, I notice that they react
differently to me than they would have reacted to the old
Roger Corbin. I also react differently to them. My personality
is more out-going, more vivacious, more full of enjoyment of
the smaller things in life. Roger was a typical taciturn
cowboy, whose main daily speech was limited to requesting
mayo instead of mustard on his hamburger or requesting
another beer. With my new personality, people want to be
with me, to talk to me.

*********

I looked at the outfits lying on my hotel bed. One was a flashy
white cowgirl blouse and skirt that you would expect Reba
McEntire to be wearing on the Grand Ole Opry. All sorts of
fringe hanging down from the chest and arms. Another was a
tight black leather short skirt and black silk blouse. Another
was a simple cowgirl skirt and tight jeans. I selected the white
fringed outfit because I wanted to be seen and would need
other clothes for the rest of the days.

I put on a wonderbra to push my boobs up and to form more
cleavage. In the four months since I had finished my
treatment, the hormone treatments had helped fill my body
out, making it rounder in the right places and also softening
my skin. After I dressed in the blouse, skirt and matching
knee high white boots, I carefully brushed my almost
shoulder length hair before putting on my new cowboy hat. I
have to keep the sun off of my face so I don't get sunburnt.

I have a very small purse to go with this outfit and put my
small makeup bag, money, keys, and new drivers license in
the purse. I pause in front of the mirror long enough to look
at myself in the mirror. I have to admit that I am one
beautiful woman. And that no one would ever recognize me as
Roger Corbin now. Even if I told them that I used to be Roger,
they would not believe it. I knew because I found it difficult to
believe myself.

I have learned to use my body and think that I can keep from
losing control of my body when I have sex. When I first
started having sex, I lost control completely. But with
repeated experience, I am able to control my body and to
maintain some degree of control over my emotions. I am as
ready as I can be to meet Harve.

As I walk through the hotel lobby, men step aside so that I
can walk wherever I choose. I flash a smile to some and
ignore others. I listen to them talk as I walk by, knowing that
they are talking about me and what they would do with me if
they ever got the chance. I can pick and choose whomever I
wish to award my smile to.

At the rodeo ticket office, some man paid for my ticket while I
fumbled for my money. I smiled at him and proceeded into
the stands. I had ridden in the Frontier Days Celebration in
Cheyenne, Wyoming before and was very familiar with the
layout. I had checked and Harve was scheduled to
participate.

I sit on the stands where I am the closest to the bull-pens and
where I can attract the attention of anyone in the bull-pens.
Several other people sit down close to me and a young man
trying to act like a cowboy tries to pick me up. It is easy to tell
someone that has never ridden a horse before.

The announcer starts the rodeo and the usual horseback
parade flows through the arena. The young man has changed
seats so that he is sitting next to me and he is trying to
impress me with his knowledge of the rodeo. I remember my
lessons and act dumb and suitably impressed with his
knowledge, while letting him know that I am not really too
interested in him.

I see Wayne Jenkins down on the field, wearing his typical
clown costume and remember that I still owe him money for
taking care of my rig when I was hurt. I will send him a check
today. With a nice little bonus. I can afford it now.

As the parade comes through the arena, one man on a
Chestnut Roan horse stands out for me. It is my old friend
Harve. I wait until he is almost in front of me and than stand
up and clap my hands. Harve and the rider next to him both
see me at the same time. I smile and sit back down, knowing
that he has seen me.

After the parade, the announcer starts the rodeo with the
bareback bronc-riding. As the cowboys walk through the
bullpen area, I watch out of the corner of my eye for Harve.
He comes strutting through the dusty walkway, acting as if
he is not looking for me.

As he gets ready to walk under the stands where I am sitting,
I drop my program so that it falls the ten feet to the ground. I
look at the program and then at him, smiling as I stare into
his eyes.

The young man sitting beside me is getting ready to climb
over the rails and to drop down to get my program, but Harve
picks it up. Then he grabs the fence and climbs up to where I
am sitting. He tips his hat to me and asks "Think you
dropped this, miss. I am Harve Bowen, future World Rodeo
Champion. Have we met before?"

"I don't think that you have ever met me or you would have
remembered me. As for remembering you, a long time ago, I
used to attend rodeos. It is possible that we might have met
before. I am Jacqueline Wayne. My friends call me Jackie." I
say with as real a smile as I can muster under the
circumstances.

"Pleased to meet you. I have to get back to rodeo but I would
like to show you around later." He said as he climbed back
down the fence and went back to the horse area.

I felt sweaty and my palms were clammy. But I had
accomplished the second step of my plan that I developed six
months ago. Step one was to change myself into a beautiful
woman. Step two was to introduce my new identity to Harve.
Step three was to set Harve up for step four by having him
fall in love with me. And step four is to castrate him.

*******

A rodeo consists of the same standard five events that have
been in every rodeo since the 1800s. Those events are
bareback bronc-riding, saddle bronc-riding, bull-riding, calf-
roping, and steer-wrestling.

As I watched, I knew that Harve would do well in the steer
wrestling because of his weight. When I used to participate, I
was too light and had to really struggle to get that half-ton of
angry animal down to the ground. But I made up any points
lost, in my specialty which was bronc-riding. The untamed
horse, called a bronco, tries to buck off its back; while I try to
stay on for 8 seconds, using only one hand. As in bull-riding,
if I fell, or if my free hand touched any part of my body or the
horse, I would be disqualified.

They started the calf-roping event. Harve was on his Chestnut
Roan horse and when it was his turn, he looked in the stands
where I was sitting to make sure that I was watching. I stood
so that he could see me clearly.

Harve nodded and the calf was released. He kneed his horse
and the big Roan quickly caught up with the calf. Harve
threw his lariat over the calf's neck, dismounted, threw the
calf to the ground, and tied its feet while the horse kept the
rope taut. I looked up at the time and my first thought was
that I could easily beat that time. But that was not the role
that I had decided to play.

I stood and clapped my hands. As Harve walked back to his
horse, he turned and looked into the stands where I was
standing. I could clearly see the shit-eating smile on his face.

The cowboy next to me, bugged the shit out of me during the
rest of the events. He was trying his best to pick me up but I
was not interested in him at all. I was interested in doing my
calf-roping and Harve was the calf.

*****

Harve placed fourth overall in today's competition. I would
have placed second or third if I had been entered. After the
award ceremony, I started walking out of the stands. He was
waiting for me.

"Can I buy you a drink?" he asks, pulling his hat off and
trying to look bashful.

I smile at him and say "No. But You can buy me breakfast
tomorrow morning. Get cleaned up. I am room 427 at the
hotel."

I walk by him, knowing that his mouth is wide open with
amazement. I don't turn or look around as I exit the stands
and turn down the street toward the hotel.


Chapter 8 - Harve and Revenge
 
I check myself in the mirror. Every hair is in place, my make- 
up is perfect and I smell wonderful. Even my own mother  
would not recognize me; so I have nothing to fear from Harve  
discovering that I am not who I am pretending to be. I open  
my suitcase and remove the very sharp ginsu knife that I  
have been carrying for months. I place the knife under the  
bed, next to the bedstand. At the right moment, I will do to  
Harve what he did to me. I will emasculate him at the  
appropriate moment, when he is expecting something else.  
And just as it happened to me, he won't know what or why  
until he wakes up in the hospital. 
 
I also remove my handcuffs and position them on the bed.  
When I checked into the hotel, the first three rooms that I  
looked at, did not have anyplace on the headboard or  
footboard where I could tie anyone. 
 
I sit down in a chair, pour myself a glass of wine, and lit a  
cigarette as I wait. For my moment of revenge. 
 
****** 
 
I ignored the knock on the door the first time. When he  
knocked again, I said "Just a minute." 
 
Then I took another sip of my wine. I stood up, walked over  
and opened the door. Harve was standing there. He had  
taken a quick shower, shaved, and changed clothes. The  
smell of his cheap cologne was overpowering. 
 
"Hi. I was beginning to think that you weren't coming. I was  
about to call a man that I met at lunch." I said as I turned  
and left the door open for him. 
 
I walked back to my seat, sat down and crossed my legs as I  
lit another cigarette. 
 
Harve stood leaning against the door post. Then he smiled a  
silly smile and walked in, shutting the door as he came in. 
 
"Had to clean up and make sure that I was registered for the  
rodeo tomorrow. My name's Harve." 
 
"You can call me Jackie. Would you like to fix us a drink?" I  
said pointing to the little hotel room bar. 
 
He put his hat down on the dresser and walked over to the  
small bar as he said "What do you want?" 
 
I took a deep breath as I realized that my heart was beating  
much faster than normal. Here in the same room with me, is  
the man that I hate the most in the world and I am having to  
be nice to him. I wanted to leap up and attack him with the  
knife. After letting the deep breath fill my lungs, I forced a  
smile and replied "I don't care. Make it good. I want to feel it  
burn all the way down." 
 
He turned his head as he picked up a bottle and gave that  
shit-eating smile again as he said "You don't mince words, do  
you, young lady?" 
 
I didn't reply. I just sat there, slowly letting the warm smoke  
fill my lungs as I watched him. He poured us two very stiff  
glasses of bourbon, with just a little coke to keep the ice  
company. He handed me my glass and sat down across from  
me in the other chair. 
 
I held my glass up and said "To us and tonight. May both of  
us get the satisfaction that we both desire." 
 
Then I took a strong swallow, filling the liquid burn as it  
flowed into my body. Harve took a swallow and then said "I  
don't think that I should be here. Thank you for the drink. " 
 
I almost choked as he stood up. 
 
"Wait. Where are you going?" I said as I stood and moved  
quickly to position myself between him and the door. 
 
He picked up his hat, twirled it around his hand and quietly  
said "I don't want to make another fool of myself. You are a  
very attractive woman and won't have any trouble finding  
anyone in this town, that can satisfy you." 
 
I backed up so that he could not get out the door and looked  
at him. He was not putting on a act. I have known him too  
long, to know when he is faking it and when he is telling the  
truth. He really was turning me down and trying to leave. 
 
"Why? Is it something that I have done? Was I too forward? If  
so, I apologize." I ask. 
 
"No, ma'am. It's nothing like that. I want to do what you  
want, but things have not been right with me since my  
girlfriend left me for another man last month. I went into a  
couple of whorehouses, I mean...." he paused then continued  
"I tried to sleep with a couple of women and things didn't  
work out. I got plumb embarrassed and guess that I need to  
see a doctor, once I have some spare time from this rodeo  
circuit." 
 
I laughed and when he frowned, I knew that I had made a big  
mistake. The asshole is impotent and can't get it up. 
 
Then I change my tone of voice and say "I am sorry. I only  
laughed because I thought that it was something that I had  
done. Please don't go. Stay and talk with me. I need someone  
to talk to and I like you." 
 
I took him by the arm and led him back to his chair. He just  
stood there, still twirling his hat. I was holding his arm and  
knew if I let go of him, he would turn to leave. 
 
"Please sit down. Your problem is nothing permanent and  
only requires a little time and someone that is understanding.  
I hope that after we get to know each other, that you will see  
that I might just be what you need. And as for myself, it has  
been months since I was able to get it up with a woman also."  
I said as I put gentle pressure on him, forcing him back down  
into the chair. 
 
He sat there, with his hat slowly twirling on his hand as he  
asked "You won't tell anyone about this, will you? I have a  
sort of reputation that I have to maintain and I know that this  
won't be permanent." 
 
I sat down in my chair opposite him, making sure that I  
flashed a long glimpse of my panties toward him. I took  
another sip of my drink, feeling the warmth flow through me.  
I have to be careful that I don't drink too much. 
 
I look him in the eyes and say "Things will work out between  
us. I know it. I can feel a certain chemistry between us. When  
I saw you riding that big brown horse, I could almost feel the  
power from that magnificent animal flowing into you. For a  
moment there in the stands, I day-dreamed about myself  
being on that horse. I could almost smell the wonderful  
aroma of his natural scent; almost feel the heat from his body  
between my legs, and could imagine what it would be like to  
feel his thundering power as he ran across the field. I am very  
sensual and enjoy simple things that bring me sensual  
pleasures. I like the feel of silk on my bare flesh, the warmth  
from a hot shower, the smell of my mother's fresh apple pie.  
There are so many things that bring me pleasure. And today,  
I felt the pleasure that you were experiencing. I could feel the  
power that you had, to control such a massive animal. And I  
wanted to feel that power. I wanted to be with you. To touch  
you. To curl up beside you. To taste the sweat from your  
neck. To feel your nipple tingle beneath my tongue. That is  
why I made a point to meet you." 
 
Harve took a deep breath as he stared at me. He had quit  
twirling the hat, which was just sitting there on his raised  
hand. Then he replied "He is a stallion. If you would like to  
ride him, he is down at the stable. Won't take but a minute to  
saddle him back up." 
 
I slowly stood, picked my drink up and walked over beside  
Harve's chair. I sat down on the floor, so that I was resting  
beside his leg. I took a small sip of the drink and in my most  
sultry voice said "Maybe later. Tell me about yourself." 
 
He took a big sip of his drink and stared at me for about  
thirty seconds before he said "You are some nice looking  
woman. How long are you going to be around here?" 
 
I leaned forward and laid my chin on his leg as I said "Haven't  
decided yet. I may follow the circuit for awhile. I would like to  
do a book someday and need some research material." 
 
My hand slowly traced the seam of his tight jeans. Harve  
tensed for a moment and I thought his jeans got tighter. I  
leaned my head against his leg and said "My neck is stiff. Will  
you give me a neck rub?" 
 
I felt his hand touch my neck. His strong fingers started  
massaging my neck. I rubbed my face against his jeans as I  
whispered "That feels good. I told you that I am very sensual.  
Your strong hands make me feel all warm and silly inside.  
How does my smooth skin feel to you?" 
 
The timbre of his voice raised as he replied "Lady, you are  
making me feel horny." 
 
I looked at his empty glass, and downed the rest of my drink  
before whispering "I think one more drink each is all that we  
need." 
 
He took the hint and stood quickly. While he was re-filling the  
glasses, I stood up and took my skirt and blouse off. As he  
turned to bring me my drink, I was standing beside him,  
wearing nothing but my bra and panties. I took my drink  
from him and took a sip of it. Then I said "Almost perfect. It  
just needs one more thing and it will be perfect." I reached  
into my panties and inserted my finger into my wet vagina. I  
put my finger into my drink and stirred it a little before taking  
another sip. 
 
Then I smiled at him. He was standing ram-rod straight  
holding his drink. I took his right hand and rubbed it against  
my panty. After a moment of rubbing, I let go of his hand,  
which did not stop. As he continued rubbing me, I took his  
drink and placed it on the bar. 
 
His fingers were brushing my slit through the flimsy panty  
material. I spread my legs slightly as he worked one finger  
under the edge of my panties and began rubbing my cunt  
lips. It felt great, even knowing it was Harve's finger. I raised  
my butt a little so that he started rubbing my swollen little  
clittie. Within seconds I was groaning and my hips were  
moving against his hand. He knew what he was doing and  
how to do it to me. I stared into his face as he fingered me  
and I kept riding his finger. Within seconds, I felt that now  
familiar warmth felt every nerve getting ready to explode. I  
groaned and clenched as the orgasm shook me. Lightening  
flashed across my vision and felt my body grow weak as I  
went through my wonderful moment. I felt his hand pull out  
of my panties but I could not resist at that moment. 
 
I was breathing heavy and feeling slightly sweaty. I looked at  
Harve and he was stirring his drink with his finger. I laughed  
at him as he said "If we could find some way to bottle this  
little additive, we would make a fortune." 
 



Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
From: an121917@anon.penet.fi
Date: Thu, 27 Jul 1995 04:36:44 UTC
Subject: Rodeo 5 of 5 TG Cowboy


If you are not an adult, do not read any further.  If you
want to see what this story and the rest of the stories
in this series are about, then read the Rodeo 0 of 5,
which explains the concept and different types of sex
in the stories.

Waldo

I was losing control of myself. Whether it was the liquor or my
moment of revenge, I don't know. I just know what I wanted.

With one flick of my fingers, I unfastened his belt buckle. I
dropped down to my knees and rubbed the side of my face
against the bulge in his jeans. I could feel his large cock
through the denim. He sucked in a breath, then turned his
drink up and drunk it all.

I was rubbing my cheek back and forth over the bulge under
the jeans. I gently pulled the zipper down with my teeth and
then pulled his shorts down with my lips. His ten inch cock
rose straight up.

I flicked my tongue at his balls and smiled as I thought that
would no longer be attached tomorrow morning. Then I kissed
the glans.

I stood up and picked up my drink. He was standing there,
with his cowboy shirt hanging down, his jeans around his
ankles and a big erection. The liquor burned as I swallowed
most of the glass.

Then with a very wicked smile, I asked "Would you like for me
to blow you before we make love?", knowing the answer.

I gripped his dick lightly and began pulling him toward the
bed as I slowly jacked him. We walked slowly because he
couldn't take normal steps with the jeans around his ankles.
I let go of him and walked over to the bed. While I unhooked
my bra and pulled my panties off, he jumped around, kicking
his boots, jeans and shirt off.

When he came to the bed, he was naked. I remember my plan
and said "We will do each other. You have to start on me
first." as I spread my legs.

He laid down on top of me, letting his very large erection
dangle inches from my mouth and put his face between my
legs as his hands found my breasts and began gently
squeezing them.

I looked at the nightstand and frowned a little as I realize that
I was too far from the nightstand and could not reach the
knife from here. But I knew that the night was young. I will
make him pay in more ways than one.

His dick bobbed furiously in my face and I started rolling,
knowing that he would take any position that I wanted. I felt
his hot tongue on my cunt and rolled him over on his back.
When I got him where I wanted him, I closed my lips around
his dick.

He began to kiss and lick my cunt as only a man can, that
has spent a lot of time doing that. I know. Some men don't
know the first thing about giving a woman real pleasure and
other's have a very instinctive capability to understand how
to give pleasure. From the moment that his lips touched my
cunt, I knew that he was an expert. Within moments, I was
lost. My body was out of control and was only responding to
his tongue. I gasped and stuffed most of his hard cock in my
mouth. Two can play this game.

I closed my eyes and sucked as hard as I could. One of his
hands was probing my butt as the other found one of my
hanging down breasts and was squeezing the nipple. His
tongue was deep inside me and was alternating probing me
and then teasing my clit.

I felt myself getting ready to explode from his tongue lashing
and he recognized it. He got a liplock on my clit and began
sucking it as his tongue tip teased it within his mouth as he
worked a finger somehow around his face and into my cunt.

His cock was deep within my throat and that was the only
thing that kept me from screaming. I wanted to scream. I was
exploding inside. I thought that I would pass out as it hit me.
Then I melted and collapsed on top of him, but he refused to
let me enjoy it. Even as I enjoyed that moment of euphoria, he
continued sucking as he pumped me with two fingers. My
vagina muscles grabbed his fingers to show him that I was in
charge.

He pulled his fingers and replaced his fingers with his tongue.
He was trying to suck me dry. I realized that I was humping
his face with my legs tightly locked around his head.

We rolled around on the bed a couple of times, but we never
let go of each other. I had his monster of a cock deep within
my throat and was enjoying the feel of my lips wrapped
around that large cock.

Then he tensed and I could feel his jism welling up deep
inside him. He stopped his licking of my cunt as he prepared
for his orgasm. I pulled his cock out, so only the head was
inside my mouth and I was sucking as hard as I could when
his hips jerked. That simple motion pushed most of his cock
back into my throat and I barely pulled back as he started
cuming in my mouth. The warm thick semen gushed into my
mouth faster than I could swallow it. As I sucked him dry, I
felt myself tense again and also exploded. He felt me cuming
and used his tongue to make it very enjoyable for me also.

I released his still semi-hard cock from my wet lips and just
laid on his body. I could feel the warmth of his body blend
with mine. I could feel the power of his muscles as we enjoyed
the several moments of quiet together. His cock was lying
only inches from the side of my face.

As I looked at it, I found it difficult to remember that this was
my enemy. This is the man that I had sworn, that I would
castrate. This wonderful peace of meat that had just filled my
throat with such wonderful cum, was what I was going to
destroy.

I climbed off him and walked over to the bar and poured me
another shot of bourbon. I could still taste the salt from his
cum.

He said "Pour me one also and come back here."

I turned and looked where he was lying. He was on the bed in
the correct position. I smiled and bit my lip as I knew that the
moment was almost here.

I re-filled both of our glasses and handed him his. His face
was slick with my juices. I guess that my face also had some
of his natural moisturizer gleaming on it.

I stood beside the bed so that he would have to move to where
I wanted him to lay. He scooted over and I sat down on the
bed. All I had to do, was to get him to raise his arms, snap
the cuffs on him, and then pick up the knife lying at my feet.

He took a big sip of his drink and said "I don't deserve a
woman like you."

I toasted his, what I thought was very correct remark, with a
sip of my drink. I was beginning to feel very woozy and knew
that I had drunk too much.

Then I smiled as I gently stroked his semi-hard cock a couple
of times. I bent forward and let a little of the ice from my
drink fall on his chest. Then I took my tongue and pushed the
ice around his nipples as I slowly stroked his cock.

With my gentle touch, it quickly became hard again.

One of his hands was playing with one of my nipples, while
the other was forcing my legs slightly open and searching for
my pussy lips. As he found it, I shuddered and shook.

I knew that I was feeling very confused and that I had too
much to drink. I came here to get revenge upon the man who
changed me forever. Not to give him the best fucking that he
had ever had. But I wanted to fuck him as badly as I wanted
to kill him.

I was very horny and realized that my sexual desires had
control of my body again. I almost laughed as I remember the
times as a man when my little head had got me into trouble
before.

I spread my legs and jumped slightly as he slipped one finger
inside my pussy. It felt good.

I jumped on the bed and straddled his hips with my hands
holding down his arms. I looked up at the handcuffs and
slipped one on his right wrist. As it clicked, he used his free
hand to pull my lips down to his lips. He held my head
against his head where I couldn't move and his tongue forced
it's way into my mouth. Sure, I almost sucked his tongue out,
I was wanting it so much.

I could feel his hard cock trapped between our bellies. As we
kissed, I rubbed it with my belly, feeling the hard softness of
this nightstick. He was slowly dry humping me. I pulled my
lips from him and as I sat up, I looked at the one wrist pulled
back to the bed where it was fastened with the handcuff and
smiled at him.

Then I sat up and reached behind me to find his cock. I
raised myself up and positioned myself over his very stiff
cock. I felt his cock head pressing into the furrow of my cunt
lips and knew that I had to have it. I slowly sat down, pulling
it deep inside me. When I leaned back to feel it touch so deep
inside me, he hunched his hips up and began pushing it even
deeper into me.

My tight cunt wrapped around his monstrous barberpole. I
felt it expand within me, spreading and filling me. I had been
fucked before and had some big cocks inside me, but this was
the best that I had ever experienced. No wonder that girl in
Denver jilted me for Harve years ago.

I bit my lips and looked at him as his hips rammed that stiff
cock up, deep into me. Within minutes, I was a big blob of
Jell-O. I started cumming and couldn't stop. My body went
through a whole series of spasms as I rode that cock until I
thought I would collapse on him. While I jerked, he would
continue humping me until I was riding him again. Then I
would explode again, turning back into Jell-O.

I was screaming, groaning, grunting and making all sorts of
noises. A couple of times, he pulled my lips against his body
to quiet me down.

Then I felt him tense as he relived himself inside me. I felt it
stop humping, felt it tense, then it began throbbing and
jerking as it pumped it's hot jism deep inside me.

I collapsed on his body and just laid on top of him. I looked at
the clock and saw that it had been almost four hours since he
walked through that door. He was lying under me, one arm
was handcuffed back and the other could be handcuffed with
one simple motion. Then the knife was lying under the bed,
waiting for the moment that I was ready. For my revenge.

*******

I woke up. I was in bed by myself. I felt as if a totem pole had
been stored in my cunt. My breasts were tender from the
pinching and sucking. And I was alone.

I had a bad taste in my mouth and my head also hurt. I
looked over at the bar and saw the empty bourbon bottle.
Then I remembered that we finished the bottle and fucked
two more times, before going to sleep.

I get up and hobble to the bathroom. I am sore. I sit down on
the commode and it hurts to pee. I wipe myself dry and look
at myself in the mirror. I am a mess. Dried cum all over me.
And my bed smells like it was used by a Marine battalion on
their first night of shore leave.

It is almost noon. Harve is gone to the rodeo for today's
events. I decide that I will go back today, and will not drink
anything. When I get him back to the room, I will handcuff
him, cut it off and get the hell out of town.

I start a shower and decide that I want a bath. I have to relax.
I run a warm bath, get what is left of my cigarettes and ease
my battered body into the warm bathwater.

I start crying and don't know why. Yes, I do know why. I had
him here. I had him under my control and couldn't do it to
him. I enjoyed fucking him.

After several minutes of quite contemplation, I came to a
conclusion. Because of Harve, I became a woman. And I enjoy
being a woman. I enjoy living the life of a young beautiful
woman and also enjoy sex. As Mrs. Crilla said, I learned to be
ambisexual. I enjoy sex with either sex and greatly enjoy sex
as a woman. Although I have hated Harve for all of these
months, I have also changed over the last several months.
Where I would have killed him in those first few weeks, I am
now more forgiving.

I decide that I cannot hurt him and will leave town. I finish
my bath, put on my bluejeans and blouse and pack my
clothes.

I look at the clock and the rodeo has been going on for about
ninety minutes now. In another hour and half, I suspect he
will come looking for me.

I check out of the room and have the bellboy put my bags in
the car. Then I remembered that Wayne Jenkins was the
clown in the rodeo that I owed the money to.

I write out a check and go to the rodeo. As I enter the
grounds, people are standing around but nothing is
occurring. I look at my watch and see that the rodeo is not
over yet and know that someone has been hurt.

I grab someone and ask "What happened?"

He looks at me and says "A cowboy got gored by a bull and
died before they could get him out of the arena.  Damn bull
that gored him and killed him is a killer. This is the second
man that the bull has gored. He got someone else almost a
year ago.  Bull's name was Devil's Staircase.  Old Harve
Bowen had turned down riding the Devil ever since his pal
got it last year.  But today, for some reason, he selected that
bull, knowing how dangerous he is."

The End.