Partnering Chapter 4 Curriculum Changes William and Catherine William walked up to his private apartments and gestured for the two monitors to leave. On entering, he was immediately accosted by a nearly hysterical Catherine. Her hair was a shambles, the formerly tight braids frayed and loose. Her lipstick had been nearly chewed off, her rouge was smeared and her eye makeup was running down her cheeks in technicolored rivulets, following the tracks of her tears. "How is he?" her voice hoarse with emotion and stress. "Not good. You cut him up pretty badly. The blisters you caused with the whip burst when you cut him again in the same place. Doc Samualson gave him a mild tranquilizer to get him home and some stronger stuff for the next couple of days. He won't rest without them." Fear clutched at her anew. "How is he getting home. Surely he isn't driving with the drugs in him." William gave a harsh bark of laughter. "He couldn't drive anyway - couldn't tolerate sitting on his butt. Dina is taking him home. He's so loopy he didn't argue. She'll stay with him until he can take care of himself. Doc thinks he'll be semi-mobile in four or five days." William raked a hand through his hair and then turned on his lover. "My God, Cathy, just what in the hell were you doing in there? How did it go so far?" She wilted into a chair and pulled her knees up to her chin. "I don't know. I have been replaying the scene over and over, and I just don't know. Oh, I know when it went sour. Everything was going really, really well. The cock strap was working, he was hard and getting harder. For the first time, I thought we were starting to play with the scene. The instant the anal probe touched his ass, it was over. He told me the only reason he was still hard was the cock restraint. I believe him. Next thing I know, he's climbing the chains like a damned monkey. We exchange words, I get angry - more words, more angry. Then I realized that there was absolutely no way to salvage the scene. I could not get him down without help. I had failed. First time I've ever failed to reach a bottom on some level; first time I've ever failed to make the bottom get off on something we did. Then, something's in my hand and I'm beating the living hell out of him for making me fail. He fell, I kept it up and then, the whip is out of my hands. I still don't know what happened there. I fall backwards, signal for help and you know the rest." A thought occurred to her. "The monitors, how are they?" "Evidently, he was pretty careful with them. They only have headaches and a few sore jaws. Based on what I saw, he could have hurt them badly, killed them with little or no trouble. Justifiable homicide based on the condition he was in. Self defense, I should think." Catherine wondered how he would discipline her. Pat's father, although her client, was a powerful man who could make trouble for them. "Have you talked to Michelene?" William nodded. "He was grateful for our taking care of him. He said that he thought it might be rough for Pat, but he never even thought about the fact that his son earned his first black belt at age ten. He apologized for that. We probably need to add a question about martial arts training to our interview form." They had been carefully dancing around the issue, so Catherine decided to take the issue head on. "What about me? What do you plan to do about me?" He gave her a quizzical look. She exhaled and said "Are you going to punish me for this? Demote me, take away my privileges of rank?" Her voice got small. "Make me leave?" He had her in his arms before she could blink. "Hell, no. You know I don't punish you for the real things. You're too good at punishing yourself. Besides, if what happened in the dungeon was real, it would stop being fun. What you and I do with our whips, leathers and restraints is just another way of making love. If I punished you in our dungeon for real, it really would be a perversion. It would be rape. I can't do that to you or to us." Catherine broke down and cried. He held her for a long time, and then, when she had calmed, he took her to bed. Father and Son Reunion II In the two days since he had told Dina to lose the pills, he had learned a lot about pain and a lot about Dina. He swore he could take his pulse by counting the throbbing reverberations in his ass. In the four days since the incident, the cuts had closed and were healing nicely. With the exception of one badly placed cut, the chance of an infection had dwindled to near zero. Although Dina let him get away with not taking the pain killers, she remained adamant about the antibiotics that had been prescribed. Dina surprised him. Away from the Academy, she looked like the All American pixie. She wore jeans, loud T-shirts and grubby sneakers. She was also a college student working towards a degree in mechanical engineering at one of the local schools. She worked at the Academy to pay for the schooling and to safely satisfy her submissive sexual nature. He kept his mind off his bottom by helping her with her math courses. He still refused to believe, however, that she had not been faking her response to him during the oral sex episode at the Academy. Michelene let himself into the bed room and had the grace to look abashed when his son gave him a hard glare. "Guess you aren't too happy to see me. Blame me for the black and blue ass?" Pat scowled at him. "Only for part of it. I should have quit the second time. I knew it wasn't working. I only went the third time because you always said that the first two might be lucky and the third is probably the truth of the matter. I can't go back there, Dad. What they want me to do, what they want to do to me, well, it is not right for me." "Well, if it makes any difference, the basic plan was mine. I figured if you overcame the demands of a very strong, very domineering woman, and then pleasured her in spite of all that, you'd feel successful, victorious. The effects of that bitch would have been erased. I mean, what better way can there be to learn what best pleases a woman than to be trained by one who is in absolute control of you and your body. Simply put, Catherine is the sexiest, strongest woman I know. I thought that if anyone could challenge you, bring out your essential self confidence, she could. Knowing the Academy's initial training regimen, I thought that, although you would not necessarily think it was much fun, you'd eventually get into it. Once you saw that you could pleasure a woman you'd recover. I never thought you'd be so resistant to their games." "Now just a minute, Dad. Do you know what they asked of me, what they made me do? By the end of the second session, it was all I could do not to smash something so they'd know they had gone too far. I can't believe you thought I'd enjoy that. His father gave him a lopsided grin. "Why not? I did, and I still do." Pat gaped at his father. "Yes, I have been though everything you have, although I went into it with my eyes open, looking for a new thrill. After your mother died, things quickly got stale. I have been a slave client to the Lady Catherine for the past three years. Typically, I see her at least once or twice every couple of months. She is the best. It is why I chose to submit to her. It's why I asked her to help you." Silence filled the room, each man trying to think of what to say next. "What now, then, Pat?" "I don't know, Dad. I don't know if I can go back there again without doing something violent. I'm trying to control the beast, but she hurt me. She hurt me physically and personally. I can't pretend that it did not happen and just go back. I sure as hell don't trust her enough to put myself in her hands again." "What about, well, ... you know?" "I don't know about that, either. I did get an erection for a while during that last session. That was one good thing. I don't want to think about it anymore. It is starting to eat me up and I'm not ready for such confrontations. How's things at home?" Catherine >>ring ring<< >>ring ring<< >>click<< "Hello?" A tinny voice answering her call sounded in the earpiece of her car phone. "Patrick McDonald?" She knew it was, but she needed a few extra seconds to prepare herself for the rejection to come. "Speaking. Who is this, please?" She heard suspicion is his voice. "Pat, this is Cathy Davis. Or at least, that is what my driver's license says. My professional name is Catherine D'Alambert." "Lady Catherine." the voice said with awful finality. "Yes, Patrick. Lady Catherine. I know I am probably the last person you want to see right now, but I would like to talk to you. I need to talk to you. Could I please have a few minutes of your time? I'll beg if that will make easier for you to say yes." "Why should your begging have any more effect on me than mine had on you five days ago?" Keep control, Catherine, don't let him hear how close that one struck to home; how badly that hurts. "Because you are in full possession of your faculties now and I was not. Because maybe you'd like to see me crawl a bit, because maybe you'd enjoy taking a few verbal potshots at me, and maybe, just maybe, because I want to help you more than anyone else in the world." She was pleased at how steady her voice was. A long silence ensued. Catherine feared she'd lost her man or her connection. Interference crackled in his ear. "Okay, can you come over right now? It's almost time for my pain pill and I'm not good for anything after that." O god, he was still on pills? She was sure he was one of those stupid stoics who wouldn't take pain killers once they were strong enough to push the drugs away. He was still hurting that badly? "I'll be right over." She hung up and got out of her car. She had called from the parking lot at his condominium complex so he wouldn't have time to change his mind. She did a quick check of her appearance in her car's window. Jeans, green cowl-neck, oversized sweater and platform sandals were combined with only the most subtle of cosmetics and a loose pony tail. It was as close as she could get to girl-next-door non-threatening. Dina buzzed her in at the lobby, and then let her into his condo. Whispering, Catherine asked when his next pain pill was due. "Pain pill? He hasn't taken one of those in three days. Damn fool male." He'd lied to her, the sneak. She should have expected it. Dina continued. "He hasn't slept the entire night since, either." Then she grinned. "My math grades have definitely taken a turn for the better, though. When he can't sleep, he calls me in and drills me on my calculus. That man has a lot of top in him, a real natural slave driver. Go on, now, get in there. I'll bring in some tea in a while to break the tension, just in case it gets bad." Shoo-ed into the lion's den and then offered protective cover by her own private bottom. How the mighty have fallen. She paused in the doorway to look at Pat. He was on his stomach, with his head at the foot of the bed. He was covered from shoulder to hip with a comforter, and from thigh to foot with a blanket. A tent, made of pillows and another blanket kept drafts off his ass but did not tough the still tender skin. "Hello, Patrick." she said in a small voice from the door. His head snapped up in surprise. "I know, I got here quick. How are you?" His eyebrows rose in mock surprise. "Oh, I'm just wonderful. I can barely walk, can't sit and can't sleep. I have had no privacy for five days. I can't even take a shit in privacy because I can't stand to sit on the seat and because one particularly nasty cut is right on my anus. It has to be cleaned with antiseptic after each time. For god's sake, how do you think I am? I hurt, every minute of the day. Any other bright questions? You should know how I feel, you did it to me." She entered and drew herself up to her full height, facing him directly. "You have little reason to believe me and even less to trust me, but on my honor, I have never done anything like that before. I will never do anything like that again. Believe it or not, my clients leave my care fully mobile and undamaged. Oh, they may have a tender bottom and some sore muscles, but they leave me completely satisfied and happy with the experience. I am very good at what I do, Patrick. I take great pride in taking care of my clients darkest and most hidden needs in a caring and safe manner." "How did I get so lucky as to be your one fall from grace?" She frowned and then looked pointedly at the chair near the bed where Dina sat when he drilled her on her math. He tried to give an indifferent shrug in response to unspoken request. The torso movement pulled at unhealed tissue, making him grimace for control. She sat down. "I was failing with you and I knew it. Your father felt you needed to be challenged, to overcome adversity. We agreed, as did our consulting psychologist. We put you into our standard introductory sequence of scenes, we call them lessons, and from the first minute, it was disastrous." "You never figured out that it was supposed to be play. We, no, I didn't recognize a very important fact. You weren't there for the pure pleasure of the scene. You weren't the typical client looking for a gentle introduction into submission. "You never relaxed or even tried to get into the game. You never tried to enjoy the play. Eventually, once you were open to us, the plan was to take you down to a basic level of submission, reinforce your lovemaking techniques in the venue of the sessions and wait for your natural self confidence to reassert itself. The goal was for you to "fight" your way out of the submissive role and get back to how you were. But I just couldn't reach you." Patrick considered this for a moment. "You mean that paddling I got two weeks ago was introductory level stuff? I can't imagine going to the next levels. Although," he glanced over his shoulder at the tent, "Maybe I already have." Catherine's temper flared momentarily and she tamped it down. "I've already told you that was unique and a tragic mistake. As for the paddling, that wasn't per script, either. Normally, what we do is a very gentle, very sensual over the knee spanking. Somewhat embarrassing, but that is part of the excitement. All of our women clients and most of the men achieve orgasm during the spanking. Those that don't cum during the actual spanking are brought to orgasm before they leave the session. "In your case, you were fighting so hard, that I thought you might be one of a rare group who demand that they be overpowered, physically, before they can give up control. I elected to paddle you for that reason. Being perfectly honest, that is as extreme a corporal session as you will see in the day to day operation of the Academy." She shook her head. "You frightened me, because you did not react to the paddling at all. It meant you were either an extreme sort of masochist, which we do not serve at the Academy, or that I had read the situation completely wrong. One look at the rage on your face and I knew that I had messed up, big time. "Then I modified that last scene, too. I had to get you to relax. I put you into a pretty strict suspension, but kept the game really light. My idea was if it was inevitable, you might just lay back and enjoy it. And it was working. You were getting into it, getting really turned on, and then, you freaked. Maybe I should not have gone on with the anal penetration, but it was in the basic script. Even the most sexually repressed male gets hard as a rock once that tickler hits his prostate, so I figured that would be the case with you and I elected to proceed. Then, you turned into Tarzan on me. I couldn't get you down and I knew that I had lost you completely. I freaked. I don't remember much after that until I lost my grip on the whip and I tripped in surprise." Patrick snorted. "I kicked your whip out of your hand and I tripped you." She nodded. "That's what William thought. I wasn't sure. The rest you know. I've taken a leave of absence from work for two reasons. The first is that I have to deal with what I did to you. Work's not much fun right now. I keep flashing back to that scene with you. And Dina needs to go back to school full time, so someone has to take care of you." "Oh, no, not you. I'll get my father to hire someone. I am not going to tolerate you in my life anymore. Uh Uh, no way." "There's two problems with that idea. First, do you really want an outsider seeing you in that condition? They will assume you were a willing participant and a pervert. Secondly, your father won't accept calls from you until I tell him to. You're stuck. Dina leaves today, regardless of what you say about me. You need help and I'm your only option. Think about it." She stood up and left the room. Dina was concerned when she heard how the interview had gone. "I don't think this is a good idea, milady. Suppose he won't accept your help? He is strong enough now to fight you off. He is still prone to infection in that one cut. We could restrain him, but that will only solve the infection problem and he'll never come back once you free him." Catherine kissed her submissive on the tip of her nose. "I know, love. If I can't reach him by tonight, I'll surrender the field and call in May for the remainder of his convalescence. Now git, before I chase you out of here with a wooden spoon." Dina giggled at the thought, and flushed sexily. She looked up at her Mistress with such longing that Catherine laughed for the first time in days. "Oh, you little slut," the affectionate tone out of keeping with the words, "Get out of here or you won't get spanked for two weeks." That threat got Dina moving. Soon, she was alone with her thoughts and with the man suffering from her mistakes. A crash in the bedroom, followed by a pained groan audible through the closed door brought Catherine hurrying to Pat's side a couple of hours later. He was sprawled on the floor beside the chair he had evidently used to hold himself upright. Helping him get his feet under him again was complicated because he still had trouble bending at the hip. Once up, he hobbled back to his bed, and resettled himself in his tent. She watched him carefully and then sat back down beside him. "What were you doing?" He remained silent. "If you ignore me, I will have to assume you went to the toilet and that your butt needs to be treated. Since I know you can physically stop me, I will be forced to call in someone who can knock you out so that I can check. Hard way or easy, Pat. Your choice." "I had to pee. I don't need to be cleaned." She lifted an eyebrow at him, and he flushed to his red hair. "I promise, okay? As you said, the last thing I want is for someone to see me like this, which will happen if my ass becomes badly infected." He shot her a black look. "I guess I have no choice. I am stuck with you." "Certainly no choice you will find more pleasant. It's me or the hospital, I'm sad to say." She did not sound all that sad to Pat. "I'll be back in a minute." She returned with a light snack which she set between them on the bed, obviously intending to share it with him. "Ready to talk now?" "About what?" "About what originally brought you to your father and to the Academy. Your recovery, remember?" "So, what about it?" He was not giving an inch. Catherine supposed that, given the condition he was in and who had done it to him, she could understand that. It just made things so much harder when he wouldn't give her an opening. "So, it is still undone. We didn't accomplish anything but get you and several of my monitors hurt." Patrick frowned. "I am sorry about that. I did try and pull my kicks, nothing disabling, just what was necessary to keep them off me. I hope I didn't hurt anyone badly. I was not really in full control." "Nothing serious. A few bruises and sore jaws. Scenes can go sour sometimes. Submissives panic or the dominant misses a cue and help is needed to stabilize the situation. The guys will be more careful the next time they enter a sour scene, so that is some good. I am surprised, though, that you only tripped me when I was the cause." "I guess you can thank my martial arts training not to use more force than necessary. Also, my father's training not to intentionally harm a woman. I protected myself without harming you." He broke off his speech and gave her a penetrating look. "You still haven't told me what you are really after today." "I told you the truth. I'm going to get you back on your feet. Think of it as penance. I also want to talk to you about what we do next." "WE aren't going to do anything. I am going to get on with my life. Which will not include you or your damned Academy." "That's not very clear thinking, Pat. You still need help and we will see that you get it. Okay, we did not go about it correctly before. You are significantly different from your father regardless of what he thinks. You are far more the natural dominant than he is. He works at it in his professional and public life, but in his darkest fantasies, in the place where his soul is free, he comes to me for loving domination. He needs the freedom from choices and decisions he finds in my dungeon. You can't relate to that because that's not your nature. You find no stress relief from the removal of decisions and responsibility. Simply put, you never stopped fighting me for control of the scene. Even when you tried to go along, you still couldn't let go." "Okay, so what if you're right, where does that mean to me?" "You should come back and try with us again. New rules. You'll still be training as a submissive, but we'll cut back on the surprises, explain carefully what is planned so that your self protection instincts don't flare up. It's not as exciting a session for a true bottom, but you aren't one. You'll still be restrained, tested, trained and disciplined, but with your full understanding and concurrence each step of the way. One word from you and the scene ends. Our introductory sequence of lessons is so mild, so simple, that the dominant instructing the new client can easily adjust the scene depending on where the client's head is. We don't need safety code words until a client is involved in more advanced scenes. However, in your case, we will give you that bolt hole from now on. You'll still try all the scenes we've planned for you, but we will always honor the stop code and we won't force the scene any further." "And what if it still doesn't work? What if I can't handle being with you, in particular, or if I can't let go enough to benefit from your training? What if I can't accept the role of bottom for your little games?" "Then, I will step aside and we will try another Instructress. If necessary, we will have an non-dominant work with you under the supervision of a trained therapist. We do think that our way has the fastest payback. And we want to succeed. We haven't failed before and we don't want to now." "What's in it for me? Why should I bother with you? In a few days, I walk out of here and I go to my dad. If he won't help me, I go somewhere else. Why should I trust you again?" "You never trusted me." She fought to keep the bitterness out of her voice. "That's part of our problem. I expected you to trust me like my regular clients do, but I forgot that you really had no reason to. When I went into my Mistress Persona right from the start, you closed up to protect yourself. You were there because your father sent you, not because you wanted to be there or because you trusted me. But to answer your first question, two things. First, successful recovery of your self confidence, your self image and your ability to function a lover again." She watched his eyes. Nothing, no hint of reaction. Not a glimmer of what he was thinking or what he might do. Okay, time for the big gun. "As part of your instruction, we agree to train you as a dominant in our type of scene. You already have the inclination and the will, but you lack the knowledge and experience necessary to carry off a safe, exciting scene. All of our Academy staff dominants are initially trained as submissives so they understand the entire scene. Bottom line? You complete your training. You get all the way back. Then, as a graduation present, I will give you my ass." His inhalation was audible, but she shushed him with a finger on his lips. "On the day William says you're ready, we go to that room again, and we lock the door. No monitors, no observation, just you and me." Her voice took on a whispery, dreamy tone. "Think about it, Pat. Think about me dressed or undressed as you order; bound as you direct. What you say goes; whatever you want to do to and with me, however you want to do it." Her voice changed back to her conversational tone. "It'll be your scene and I'll be on the bottom. You want to give me a safe word, fine. You want to take me to the limits with no safety net? That's fine too. You see, unlike your concern about trusting me, I trust you. You could have hurt me badly that night. You were not even in control of yourself or your emotions, and you still did not hurt me. I am absolutely positive that I will walk out of any scene with you as my top under my own power, having taken no significant hurt. I trust you." Her face was completely clear of any anxiety at all; her voice strong and confident. "So, that's what's in it for you. Retribution, retaliation or just plain fun. Your decision. IF you come back, and IF you finish the training to the best of your ability. Well, what do you say?" She realized she was holding her breath, and forced in a lungful of air. He said nothing. He said nothing for a very long time and it was all she could do not to fidget. "I have to think about it. I don't know if I can go back there." He sighed in confusion. "I just have to think about it." He thought for another moment. "I guess you can stay, if that's what you want. I'd like to be alone now, please. Catherine stood and walked to the bedroom door. She turned to say something more, but thought better of it. She left without further comment.