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Felicia: A Love Story
by Krystoff Vagabond (kvagabond@lycos.com) 

***

I'm twenty-seven years old, a young man with the most 
beautiful girl I have ever seen by my side and I'm in 
love. (MF, rom)

***

Author Note: The following story contains some explicit 
sexual material. Though not blatantly pornographic, 
reader discretion is advised. Were this a movie, it 
would probably gain an R rating. This story was written 
as an exploration of character and while it might be 
considered erotic, the intent was to delve into the 
minds of the characters rather than to sexually arouse 
the reader. If you are looking for that you should look 
elsewhere. However, if you are offended by sexuality, 
you should look somewhere else as well.

*** 
 
After all these years, I still come back here. After 
all this time, I still return once a year, and I will 
until the day I die. Every year, the same day. 
September 17th, the most important day of my life.

I still remember the first time I walked into this bar. 
I was a young man then, but in all these years its 
still the same. It's funny looking back and thinking 
about yourself when you were young. It's funny to think 
of yourself in your twenties. So alive. So vital. So 
full of hope. I was a young man then and I was on top 
of the world. I look back now and I realize that I had 
not yet begun to live. The things that mattered so much 
then seem to mean so little now.

It was the first time I had been in St. Louis. I was 
there on business. It was my first meeting with the 
Williams and Company people. The most important thing 
in my life then was to get that contract signed. And I 
knew I was going to get it signed. I could feel it in 
my toes. I was only twenty seven then. I had only been 
in business for myself for just over a year and the 
Williams and Company contract was the biggest that I 
had seen in that time. 

I was so prepared. I had researched the company for 
nearly two months before I ever even contacted them. I 
had spent three weeks preparing that contract. I had 
rehearsed my introduction thousands of times on the 
train to St. Louis. 

"Hello Mr. Williams. So nice to meet you, sir." 

"Hello Mr. Williams. I am very much looking forward to 
doing business with you."

"Hello, Mr. Williams. I can't wait to show you how my 
services can increase your profits." I was so prepared. 
I was so ready to take on the world. Back then, 
Williams and Company was the most important thing there 
was in the world to me. Today, "Williams" is just a 
name. I couldn't even tell you what they did.

Felicia isn't a name. It's so much more. It's music. 
It's poetry. It's the very definition of beauty. 
Nothing on earth could have prepared me for the first 
moment I saw her. There were no words I could have 
rehearsed. There was no paperwork I could have filed. 
There were no reports that could have debriefed me. 
Nothing in my twenty-seven years had prepared me for 
that moment. 

The moment she stole my breath away. I haven't regained 
it since.

I'd been traveling cheaply to keep my expenses down. 
The small motel I was staying in didn't have its own 
bar so I had gone across the street to get a drink. I 
so thought I needed one. Some naive part of me had 
honestly believed that I'd sell Mr. Williams on the 
retainer in just a few hours at that first meeting, and 
it was no small disappointment when I didn't. 

I was crushed. Part of me thought I was doomed that my 
entire operation was going to fold, but I knew all I 
needed was a scotch to put me back on my feet. That's 
all I thought I needed. But I was so wrong.

That moment. The first moment that I learned what 
beauty meant. That image will be burned in my mind 
forever. Five tiny little fingers. The most perfect 
fingers that god had ever created wrapped around a 
small cocktail glass. That's all I saw at first. Not 
breasts. Not legs. Not eyes. Not even a smile. Just 
five little fingers wrapped around a glass. That was 
all I needed. 

Ten seconds earlier I would sworn to God Almighty 
himself that there was no such thing as love at first 
sight. Forty-seven years later and I can tell you that 
there is really no other kind.

I didn't talk to her at first. I know it sounds silly, 
but for the longest time, I just sat there in my booth, 
watching her sip that strawberry daiquiri. It really 
never occurred to me to approach her. The moment was 
just too perfect. I wanted it to last forever. She was 
like a beautiful painting. A graceful ballet. I would 
sooner have died than interrupt the performance. I 
would have laid down my life before I marred that 
image.

I didn't die, and the moment didn't last forever. I 
honestly don't know how long it lasted. It was probably 
several minutes. In my mind, I remember it being days. 
Everything else had faded away.

Who made the first move? I don't remember approaching 
her; I don't remember her walking over to me. I don't 
remember what we spoke about. What I do remember is her 
voice. Soft as goose down. Sweet as nectar. I remember 
being there for hours as I listened to her talk. 
Listening to her voice. Just loving to hear her speak. 
That night, I thought that I knew everything there was 
to know about Felicia Martinez, but for the forty-three 
years that followed, I don't think there was a single 
day that I didn't learn something new.

Forty-three years. They seem like ten seconds compared 
to the four that I have been through since. But then 
there are nights like tonight where I think back and 
remember, and each second seems to last an eternity.

I'm back at the motel and I open the door to my room. 
Room 317. Our room. A bed the size of the one that I 
slept in when I was a child. Wallpaper that faded and 
turned yellow decades ago. Two chairs and a table that 
do not match. I see the crack in one of the tiny 
windows that hasn't been repaired in the two years 
since I first noticed it. Tonight, as it has been every 
September 17th for the past forty-seven years, this 
room is the penthouse suite.

I close my eyes and I'm twenty-seven years old, a young 
man with the most beautiful girl I have ever seen by my 
side. I lead her into the small room and take her coat. 
She looks around nervously as I watch her. "Don't 
worry," I say, a little unsure of myself. She smiles 
that crooked little smile that I have always loved and 
tells me she's not worried at all. I know she is 
because I am too.

I kiss her bare white shoulder very gently as I slide 
the strap of her summer dress down. I feel her quiver 
at the touch of my breath as she releases a small sigh. 
Again I reassure her that everything will be all right 
as I take those small perfect fingers in my hand. She 
squeezes and I squeeze back. I find her lips with mine 
and we engage in our first kiss. My eyes close and I 
imagine that we are falling together through the 
clouds. Hand in hand a smile on both our faces, falling 
or soaring, like eagles; I'm not sure which. But in the 
sky, the only people alive. This moment forever.

We touch down and I open my eyes to find us lying side 
by side. She opens her eyes when I pull away my lips. 
Our bodies entwined in scandalous fashion, improper for 
a couple not yet married. Ten times so for one who only 
met hours ago. I notice my hand upon her breast and 
issue my apology as I draw it away. "It's okay," she 
whispers to me as she tightens her grip behind my neck.

"But," I try to protest once more.

"Shhh, it's okay," Felicia whispers again as she 
silences me with another kiss.

I've seen a naked woman before. I was seventeen and 
Jimmy. Jimmy. I can't remember his last name. Jimmy and 
I went to the peep show after school. I remember being 
nervous. I remember being almost frightened. I remember 
Jimmy laughing at me when my excitement got the better 
of me and I ejaculated in my trousers. I remember my 
confession to Father Delgado barely an hour later. I 
remember my apologies and my prayers to God for 
forgiveness.

But here and now. Fornication. Premarital sin. And I 
know the Lord cannot disapprove. Never had anything in 
my life felt so right as holding Felicia's head against 
my chest. She sits up and those tiny perfect fingers 
slowly fumble with each button on the front of her 
dress. I have no words. I dare not even breathe. She 
takes one last look into my eyes as I try to tell her 
she doesn't have to do this. She closes her eyes and 
our gaze is broken as she pulls her dress down and 
exposes her breasts.

"It's okay. It's okay," she keeps telling me. 
Reassuring me that the pain is not too bad. Comforting 
me the way that I should be comforting her. "It's 
okay," she says as I press our bodies together. Her 
face betrays her pain. I brush her cheek and lift away 
a tear. "I love you, Felicia," I say for the very first 
time, and I feel her fingers run through the back of my 
hair as we make love till morning.

I still feel her fingers running through my hair. Hair 
that I haven't had for over twelve years. I close my 
eyes and I still see those slender fingers and those 
milky white shoulders, I lie alone, naked in a bed too 
small for me now and too small for the two of us then. 
Alone, but still I feel her lying here with me.

END

You may find other stories of mine at: 
http://www.asstr.org/~kvagabond - Take a look and tell 
me what you think. -Krystoff

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Please keep this story, and all erotic stories out of
the hands of children. They should be outside playing
in the sunshine, not thinking about adult situations.

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