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Do You Want Me?
by Having My Cake (havingmycake@gmail.com)

***

A virtual affair ends with a physical consummation. 
(MF, ped, reluc, mast, oral, rom)

***


I pick you up, as we arranged, at 13. As you slide into 
the car, I can see that you are as nervous and worried 
about this as I am, but we agreed that we need to be 
face to face to truly sort this out. We can't go on 
like this, pretending that we don't care - it's just 
such a hard habit to break. But there are two marriages 
and the futures of several children hanging in the 
balance.

Touching the back of your hand with my fingers, you 
smile and squeeze my hand. On the drive to the hotel, 
about 20 minutes away, neither of us can really speak, 
there's so much to say and so much that we can't say. 
After registering and getting the key, we go upstairs 
and into the room.

Closing the door, throwing my bag down on the floor and 
turning around to face you. We're standing about six 
feet apart, just staring into each other's eyes. My 
mouth is so dry and I'm so scared because a few weeks 
ago, this moment would have been the culmination of our 
dreams and now everything is so uncertain and so 
unsure. But I know that I have to be strong for both of 
us because this is the only thing that will give us 
both closure and ease this pain.

'Do you want me?' You swallow hard and say 'No'. I take 
a step towards you and undo a button on my blouse. You 
can see the pale pink of my bra strap and you know what 
I'm wearing under there. The images of that outfit are 
etched in your brain.

'Do you want me?' I undo another button. You can see my 
nipples straining against the material, calling you. 
Your teeth are clenched together and your hands are 
gripped in fists by your sides. You close your eyes and 
whisper 'No' but I can see the lie growing in your 
jeans and I take another step towards you and run my 
finger tip down your arm. The shiver that runs through 
you tells me everything I need to know.

'Tell me you don't want me...'

Your breath is like a sob catching at the back of your 
throat and in one step, you've swept me against you and 
shoved me back against the wall so hard it hurts. I 
catch my breath and then your mouth is on mine and your 
tongue is inside. Your hands are just ripping the 
blouse off, running all over the fabric underneath and 
then undoing my belt and my jeans and dragging them 
down and off so I'm standing there in my basque and 
thong and black stiletto boots.

You're on your knees with your face pressed against my 
thighs, loosening the boots and sliding them off one 
after another. Your hands run up the inside of my legs, 
grab the edge of the lace to drag the thong down and, 
as I kick it off, you do what we've both dreamed of and 
lick me in one long glorious stroke from hole to clit. 
I can't help but moan. I want to touch you and hold 
your head against me but you won't let me. You knock my 
hands away and stand up, pressing yourself against me, 
forcing me back against the wall.

I hate the way you're looking at me. You're trying to 
make yourself hate me because of how I make you feel, 
so guilty, confused, but so horny and I can't bear to 
have you take me like that so I try to push you away, 
struggling under your weight, hitting your chest with 
my fists, twisting my face away as you try to kiss me 
again. You take my wrists and hold them above my head 
with one hand whilst you unbutton your fly and my totem 
is there, so close but I can't hold him. Your hand is 
between my legs and my body betrays me, so wet with 
longing, that your fingers just slide inside me. I hear 
you gasp and I know how much you want me and how much 
this is killing you.

I wrap my legs around your waist as you thrust yourself 
into me so hard I wince. But I know it has to be this 
way, you can't love me, you won't let yourself. This is 
something that has to be done. It's all about rough, 
violent sex, our lust, a slaking of a thirst, a 
quenching of a need, satisfaction of a desire, the 
consummation of so many months of yearning and I want 
it as badly as you do. I press myself against you, 
feeling you inside me filling me so completely, 
touching the deepest part of me and I whisper 'Just 
fuck me, let it out and fuck me...' Your mouth is on 
mine again and you're slamming into me harder and 
harder. It's excruciating and ecstasy at the same time.

I'm gasping with it. Panting and moaning and you're 
shouting my name. I can feel all the sensations rising 
in me, the way only you can make them and I know that 
it doesn't matter how rough this is, my body belongs to 
yours, it responds to you, it knows what you need and 
what you want and it meets yours and overlaps yours. It 
isn't love, it's just primal but it has to be 
satisfied. It's as if we've known each other for 
eternity and loved each other in so many past lives but 
in this one, there is only this.

You let go of my wrists and pull my bottom towards you 
you. My arms go around your neck and I'm mouthing your 
name breathlessly because the emotion and the feeling 
is so strong I can't speak. And then I'm rigid against 
you as it hits me, arching into you, tightening round 
you, riding the wave of everything we feel for each 
other as you release into me, shuddering and shaking. 
We're both crying and I'm trying to support us with my 
back against the wall because your legs are trembling 
so much.

We just stand there like that for what seems like 
forever until you realise that I can't stop shivering. 
So summoning up your last reserve of strength, you 
carry me over to the bed, kick off your shoes, step out 
of your jeans and cuddle up to me under the covers, 
holding each other, trying to warm ourselves up. 
Everything is drained out of us.

And then I remember how short the time we have together 
is and I pull off your t-shirt. Your skin is so soft 
under my fingers and my lips. My tongue caresses your 
nipple, whilst my hands stroke the ripples of the 
muscles you worked so hard on for me.

Kissing my way down your stomach, licking your navel, 
torturing myself that this is the only time this will 
ever happen and knowing I must enjoy every second of 
it. Touching your scar hidden amongst the hair on your 
lower belly - I feel as if I know your body like my own 
and there he is, the thing that torments my dreams, 
pushing towards my mouth, knowing what I want and what 
you want. 

Licking the frenulum and feeling him pulsate against my 
tongue, encircling the shaft with my hands and 
caressing and stroking and enveloping him with my 
mouth. The tip of my tongue still against the sort of 
W, which is all that remains of your foreskin, and the 
head pressed against the roof of my mouth, sucking and 
licking and tickling your balls with my fingers. I 
never knew I could feel so turned on and want someone 
so much. Your hands are pulling my hair and pressing my 
head closer against you and I've taken as much inside 
my mouth as I can, pulling it back and forth, sucking 
and licking and tickling. Your balls are harder and 
harder and I know I have to be careful but I love this 
so much and I don't want to stop until the last 
possible second. 

I can feel you thrusting against me and I'm having to 
fight to control your passage with my hands. I can hear 
you groaning and whispering my name, the way I've heard 
you over the phone and at the last second, I move my 
mouth away and it spurts all over my chest.

Finally, pulling off the basque, pushing me onto my 
back and kissing me as you use the sheet to clean me 
up. Before long, you're kissing me all over, my face, 
my nipples, my shoulders, my belly and my whole body is 
on fire with wanting you... and I can't believe you're 
hard again. Kneeling over me whilst sucking and blowing 
on my nipples, I can feel you against my hip and then 
all I can think of is your tongue as it licks between 
my legs, the way you promised it would. 

Your fingers pushing from the inside, sandwiching all 
my nerve endings and taking me up there again, arching 
against your face and your hand, loving you and hating 
you at the same time for the power you have over me... 
so hot and so wet, aching for you, tightening round 
your fingers and melting over you as my body ripples 
with pleasure from the shockwaves running through it.

You sit up and I lift my legs up and press my painted 
toe into your mouth in time to the rhythm of your 
fingers and then run my foot down your chest to where 
he's waiting to be captured between my two feet and 
caressed. I hear you whisper, 'where is it?' And I 
smile and reach out my hand to drag my bag over, unzip 
it and take out the toothbrush. I press it against my 
clit, giggling as I press the switch and all the 
glorious sensations start.

Knowing you're finally watching me just heightens 
everything and I want to remember the look on your face 
forever as you take it in, both of us feeling so wanted 
and desired and unselfconscious.

My other hand tweaking and tickling my nipple and our 
eyes locked together, just enjoying the effect we have 
on each other. Then, I have to close my eyes because 
I'm trying to concentrate on keeping my feet moving and 
I feel you trying to push something into me. Something 
hard and familiar, you saw it on the open top of my bag 
and you can't help yourself. 

Holding the pink ears back as you insert it into me, 
pushing it higher and higher and then switching to the 
first level on both sides, smiling as you see the 
goosebumps starting and switch to the second level, 
laughing as my nipples become rigid with pleasure. 

The third level starts you quivering as you watch the 
shivers running the length of my body, the fourth speed 
as I start to moan with pleasure and finally to 
maximum, watching the vibrations take hold of me. My 
clit being stimulated with the toothbrush and the ears 
and by the rabbit from the inside.

You start to push the rabbit in and out of me and then 
you put my feet, one by one, onto your shoulders. You 
so want to see me the way you always imagined this. You 
want to see me coming the way I described it to you. To 
see, to hear and to feel. My mouth is open and I'm 
pushing against you as you push it into me, grinding 
and twisting, my hand pressing the toothbrush harder 
against me - exquisite sensations and I'm gasping and 
panting and calling to you because I can't take much 
more. I start to move the toothbrush away but you 
snatch it from me and press it back on, remembering 
what I always said about not being able to experience 
and manipulate to that final bit.

I scream and throw my arms out, pressing my hips 
upwards against the vibrations, opening my legs wide 
and arching my back, pushing my nipples up and up. My 
skin is glistening, my hands are gripping the sheets 
and I'm laughing and crying as you thrust it in and out 
of me harder and harder. Watching me, so vulnerable and 
so trusting until, finally, you see what you've only 
ever heard; panting and screaming as the most complete 
orgasm hits, tremors rip through me and my insides 
explode soaking the rabbit and your hand.

Suddenly I'm really crying and you put the toothbrush 
down, switch the rabbit off, lie down beside me and 
just hold me, shaking and trembling until it passes, 
leaving me limp and breathless in your arms.

Then, when I'm calm and warm and safe, you make love to 
me. Carefully, quietly, with no fireworks, no tricks. 
Just acknowledging the way we have come to feel about 
each other. Accepting that it happened and that by 
doing this and not fighting it, we can come to terms 
with it and learn to live with only our friendship. 

This time we both climb the mountain together and go 
off the edge and it's not earth shattering and there's 
no screaming, just a feeling of completeness as if the 
part of us that we exchanged has been returned and the 
ache of all those dreams is satisfied. We stay locked 
together our arms wrapped around each other for as long 
as we can, just wanting to hold onto that feeling until 
time catches up with us.

We help each other to get dressed, still touching and 
caressing and smiling, but no longer nervous or afraid. 
You carry my bag and hold my hand as we walk back to 
the car and that hand is on my knee the whole drive 
back. That's when that damned record by Keane comes on 
'This is the last time' and we start to laugh.

I stop the car to let you out and you reach over to 
kiss me properly one last time; looking into my eyes 
and smiling. We both want to speak, but there is no 
more to say. What we have can't survive out here in the 
real world. It exists inside us. There will be no more 
tears. It is done.

So you squeeze my hand and close the door and watch me 
drive away.

END

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The author does not condone child abuse, this story is
meant as an erotic fantasy not real life. Anyone acting
out such scenarios in "real life" can look forward to
many unproductive years getting it up the butt by a 
fellow convict in their local prison.
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