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The Job
by Urs (fenrissilvern@yahoo.com)

***

This is a gang rape story. The gang in this case being 
a real gang, as in - the gangsters. The woman in 
question being restrained, humiliated and raped in 
several ways. The story is less an attempt to do a 'me 
too' porn and more to inject it with a dose of pulp 
writing. (M+/F, nc, rp, v, bd, tor, huml)

***

1.

The woman was loud. Once on top of him, she reached 
with her hand between her legs and adjusted his cock so 
she could stick it up her cunt. Sliding up and down, 
she started moaning really loud. Her arse was slamming 
against his thighs, rhythmically, as his balls jumped 
up and down. 

The guy put his hands on her buttocks, probably trying 
to gain some control over her movements. She seemed to 
like it and the pace of her riding now came to synch 
with his moaning. In truth he seemed somewhat 
overwhelmed with her passion and content to just come 
along for the ride. Not really a stud, more like an 
oversized schoolboy having more luck than wits this 
evening. His entire vocabulary seemed to has shrunk to 
just 'ah' and 'God' for this occasion. 

In turn, hers was considerably richer. She was a lot 
louder than him, also, moaning and yelling in complete 
contrast with his somewhat passive approach to sex. 'Oh 
GOD! Yeah, that feels so good!! Oh, God, I love it, I 
love your cock inside me...  Oh, YEAH, deeper, deeper, 
oh GOD, that feels so GOOD!!' 

Her hips rocked really hard all the while, up and down, 
up and down, grinding against his crotch like a machine 
spinning out of control. Her rich hair flew all over 
the place as she banged her head in what seemed to be 
perfect sexual ecstasy. 

"She's overdoing it a little," mumbled Frank.

"Ah... There is no way to satisfy all people all the 
time," said Alan taking a look at his wristwatch. We 
were slightly behind schedule but it went without 
saying that we were within acceptable limits and with 
acceptable reason. "Would you prefer her play dead the 
way your wife does?"

You usually don't go around making jokes about Frank's 
wife. Most people know better than to do it. Alan is 
one of the few people I know who will piss in Frank's 
porridge when they feel adventurous. Him and Frank go 
way back and there are obviously perks that come with 
the mileage. 

"I'm just saying," maintained Frank. "I mean, he's 
obviously being mister I-just-need-some-good-night's-
sleep there and the bitch is going in seizures."

"The girl's a pro," said Brian, not without certain 
admiration in his voice. "She's just being 
professional. She's just giving the dude what he paid 
for."

"Yeah, well, does this sound professional to you?" 
Frank asked.

The woman alternated between deep, guttural moans and 
some real sexy hard breathing, all the while spinning 
her pelvis in nervous, tight circles. 

"Why not? Eh? Eh?" Brian wanted to know.

"Aw come on," Frank was trying to make his point. "Does 
that sound NATURAL, eh? Surely, there has to be a thin 
line between being a good actress and just being plain 
embarrassing, no? If I was that guy, I'd punch the 
bitch in the face and make her apologise for the sorry 
act she is putting up."

"My dear friend," Alan smiled. "If you were that 
gentlemen down there, the lady would have been punched 
and spitting blood minutes ago with no good reason I 
might add,  called names and instructed to stay on her 
hands and knees during the entirety of the 
intercourse."

Frank nodded absentmindedly, his thumb stroking the 
chrome of his piece. I could imagine the thoughts in 
his head right that moment but I decided not to. We had 
work to do.

"I can't believe you guys!" Brian despaired. "The lady 
just does what she was paid for. That's what being 
professional is all about. The guy pays for loud moans. 
Hell, that's what gets him off – loud women in bed. 
Makes him feel manly and good. And the girl indulges 
him. To you it sounds fake and overblown, to him it's 
perfect. I mean, do you hear him complain? No! That's 
what I'm talking about!!"

"That guy," said Frank, checking his piece out, "That 
guy probably wouldn't complain if she turned out to 
have a cock and pissed all over him to boot. I mean, 
for Christ's sake, look at him, he's lucky to be able 
to afford this kind of pussy as it is."

That was a little harsh. Our man was surely not the 
studliest person in town, what with his belly-out-of-
control and receding hairline and thick rimmed glasses 
and all, but as far as middle-aged businessmen go, he 
could surely do a lot worse. Plus, of course, with the 
kind of money that he was able to throw around (more on 
that in a minute) he could certainly afford someone at 
least half her age with a boob job and some nice 
tattoos as well. 

"So, Grant, what do you say? Bad acting or just acting 
tailored to customer's wishes, what's the verdict?" 
Brian was determined to defend his point until the end. 

I looked at my wristwatch. 

"I say we better remember the real reason why we are 
here. Voyeurism is a lovely pastime but does it pay 
bills?"

"Oooh, you're such a spoilsport, Grant" purred Alan. 
"Since when have you become such a coldhearted pro, eh? 
Once in a while this job of ours gives us some 
unexpected bonuses and mister glasseye here suddenly 
comes all professional on our arses."

The 'glasseye' comment was related to my camera rather 
than to my contact lenses, in case anybody cares. I am 
not even sure Alan is aware I wear contacts. 

"No, the kid is right" said Frank, snapping out of his 
philosophical silence. "We are here to do the work. And 
all this talk about professionalism is no good if we 
don't remember that we are supposed to be professionals 
too. What say we make our presence known?"

He got his gun up and pressed the door handle down. 
Alan and Brian also pulled their pieces out and lined 
up behind him. I got my camera ready. It occurred to me 
that I could have filmed some of the scene before we 
interrupt the couple in the room behind the glass door 
but then again, nobody would care about footage 
featuring our man Mark banging some old broad. What I 
was about to film would be what I was asked to film. 
Professionally.

"Alright, ladies," whispered Alan, "Lets crash this 
little party!"


2.


This job involves a lot of yelling. I assume it has to 
do with basic psychology. I mean, the fact that four 
armed men just crashed into your apartment, stepped 
into your bedroom, interrupted your love scene and 
apparently mean to ice you on the spot should be 
intimidating enough. Still, somehow it just wouldn't 
feel complete without yelling. It's not about him, it's 
about us. I guess we feel stronger that way. Harder, 
more dangerous. 

Frank was the largest of us but Brian was the loudest. 
Brian can look very threatening when he wants to. His 
shaven head somehow marks him as a thug much more than 
what Frank's bald spot does for Frank. I guess Brian is 
just a bit more self-conscious about losing hair than 
Frank. 

Frank probably belongs to the bald-men-have-more-
testosterone school of thought. Which is fine. I mean, 
I don't think I know anyone who'd be stupid enough to 
doubt Frank's testosterone levels. Not even Alan on a 
bad day. You don't do that. Frank's broken more other 
people's fingers than you've seen in all Mafia flicks 
in your life. He's also shot dozens of kneecaps off. 
Frank is not without a sense of humour but you're 
better off counting that he's left it in his other 
pants most of the time. 

So Brian yelled these really ugly things at our man-of-
business Mark. Really scary, threatening shit. OK, I 
imagine that being hit on the head with a barrel of a 
gun, repeatedly, helped the matters to some extent. The 
guy was pulled off the bed, pistol-whipped and yelled 
at in the first ten seconds after we crashed into the 
room. 

The woman was brutally pulled off him and cast aside 
like a sack of potatoes. Brian saw to that, so he could 
get a good swing at Mark. After they pulled him down to 
the floor it was time to use their feet. The guy was 
trying to protect his face because that's where he was 
hit with their guns first but that meant his lower 
regions remained unprotected. Alan and Frank were doing 
this stuff for years, you could tell by the way they 
effortlessly slipped into a complementary tempo of 
kicking the guy on the floor, each from their own side, 
making sure he couldn't curl into a ball that would 
grant at least some protection to his ribs, testicles 
or belly. 

The best way to intimidate someone is to catch them 
with their pants down. That's thug manual 101. I 
believe they teach this shit at cop schools as well. If 
they don't, they should. In our case, the man's pants 
were way down, all the way to his ankles. Literally. 
For whatever reason, he decided to keep his shoes on, 
as well as his shirt and tie, even though he was in his 
own home, having sex in his own bed. I guess it was all 
about the magic of the moment. 

Not stopping the filming of the violent ordeal he was 
subjected to, I looked into the direction of the woman. 
Oh, she also had some of her clothes on, alright. She 
was screaming in complete terror, confusion and fear. 
Of course, she had no idea what all this was about. I'm 
guessing that even Mark was not yet coming to terms 
with the situation. That was no problem. There was 
time. After the boys finish beating him to a pulp 
they'll have a civilised conversation. My guess is that 
Alan will do most of the talking. 

"Alright!!" said Alan. "Alright, that's enough!!"

Brian understood perfectly but Brian is one sick, 
violent motherfucker. Brian swung with his gun once 
more and hit the poor guy across the face, across the 
hands he used to protect the face, across the head. The 
blood hit the floor. Once again.

"Right, that's a good lad, I said that's enough. Calm 
down now." Alan was smiling. This was all part of a 
many times rehearsed play. These guys were one tight, 
well oiled machine. I was the new addition, the upgrade 
if you like. But these guys, on their own, they were 
perfect at what they were doing: hurting and scaring 
people, getting the deals done, making forgetful 
remember, extorting money, information or confessions 
from men and women alike. 

Getting a cameraman to film the proceedings was a new 
idea someone came up with for more important jobs where 
you wanted to have a piece of footage to make the 
victim aware their humiliation is preserved for the 
general public or select individuals, should the need 
arise. So far it seemed to be working to everyone's 
pleasure (with the obvious exception of the victims). 
And it pays the bills too.

Brian stepped back from the bloody pile of flesh and 
bones on the floor. Even though Mark received some 
severe beating during the past minute or so, he was 
conscious. Make no mistake about it, all frivolous talk 
aside, these people are professionals. The victim was 
supposed to be hurt, scared and brought to serious 
pain, but also to be left conscious. There was talking 
to be done and if you whack a guy on the head one too 
many times, you're left with no participants for your 
little chitchat. 

"OK, get that sack of lard up," said Alan. 

Frank and Brian pulled the near-lifeless guy off the 
floor and into a sitting position. Alan gestured 
towards the side of the bed and that's where they 
promptly positioned him. Frank got a pair of handcuffs 
out of his pocket and it took him no more than five 
seconds to have Mark's hands cuffed to the leg of the 
bed.

The guy was a mess to say the least. His face was 
bloody, bruised and swollen. He was shaking his head 
left and right, probably trying to get the blood out of 
his eyes. He was spitting blood as well and also what I 
guess were little pieces of his teeth. I got some great 
shots there. Professionals, across the board. Each in 
their chosen trade. 

Mark's penis was dangling between his legs, in a rather 
sorry state, I might add. Whatever erection he must 
have had while his woman was riding him was long gone, 
due to the change in circumstances. I imagine that 
being kicked in the nuts by Frank will have similar 
effects on anyone. 

"You comfortable there, sport?" Alan asked, his accent 
betraying his noble British origins. "Can we have a 
word with you now?"

The woman, though, she was completely out of control 
all this time. I can't say I can blame her for 
anything. She just happened to be in the wrong place at 
the wrong time. She was trying to make an honest buck 
by fucking this overweight jerk and by the sound of it 
she was really investing a lot of effort into it and 
then the things went sour through no fault of her own. 
Hopefully she was paid in advance because the way 
things look now, I don't see our pal Mark reaching for 
his wallet any time soon. 

So, she was out of it. Screaming and sobbing, trying, 
pathetically to cover her nudity with her hands 
(although why she did it is anybody's guess. It's not 
like we didn't see more than a fair share of it before 
we decided to join the happy couple). I imagine that in 
her panic, she was trying to decide whether to make a 
run for it, but then again, there were four big, ugly 
males between her and the only way out. Big, ugly males 
with guns. So all she did was cower in the corner and 
scream.

"Somebody shut that bitch up" said Alan not even 
looking her way. "We need to have an honest 
conversation with our boy Mark here and we can't have 
that with somebody screaming at the top of their 
lungs."

"Want me to ice the bitch?" asked Frank. "It'll be a 
pleasure."

"No need to get THAT drastic, old bean, not yet. A 
simple plea for a more controlled behaviour will 
suffice," smiled Alan.

Brian, who else, was happy to oblige him. I felt a 
sudden surge of fear. Brian is not known for his 
subtlety. He got his gun up.

"Man..." I started. If he was to whack her on the head 
the way he whacked that poor sod on the floor, he'd 
kill her. 

But he wasn't. Instead he stepped up to her and grabbed 
her hair. The woman was apparently so scared she never 
tried to get away from him or defend herself. 

Brian put the barrel of his gun at her forehead.

"Bitch, just shut up, OK?"

He tugged her hair back, violently, to underline his 
message. 

"OK? I asked you a question, bitch!"

The woman closed her eyes tight and tried not to make 
any moves. Not so easy when you shiver in fear, I 
guess. She nodded, slightly, as if afraid that anything 
more pronounced would tip the scales into the wrong 
direction. 

"yes... please... just, just don't hurt me, please..."

Her whisper was in stark contrast with the way she 
behaved just a few moments ago. Perhaps Brian was right 
all along. Professional service. 

"Darling, I wasn't paid to hurt you" Laughed Brian. "I 
was paid to hurt him." He gestured towards Mark with 
his gun. "You just sit tight and watch the show. If I 
decide to hurt you after all, that will be entirely my 
good will and in no way my professional duty. You dig?"

The woman opened her eyes, tears rolling down her 
cheeks. I felt a little sorry for not directing the 
camera her way. This would have made for a fantastic 
shot. But, as Brian would say, I wasn't paid to film 
her. 

"no... please... please... please, don't hurt him, 
please..." She was kneeling in a very strange position, 
her head pulled in between her shoulders, but still 
looking up into Brian's face, pleading with him. Real 
strange. On top of that she was pleading for her 
customer now. A whore with a heart of gold? I thought 
those were the stuff of myths.

"Oh, what's it to you, darling, eh? What the fuck do 
you care if we hurt him or not? You should be worried 
about your own safety here, girl. You didn't exactly 
pick a good night to do your business here. If I were 
you I'd be seriously worried what happens to me now, 
but that guy? He's just a couple hundred bucks to you, 
so sit back and enjoy, this won't take a minute."

But the woman shook her head, more tears trickling down 
her cheeks.

"no, please, you don't understand... I... we..."

I think that Brian was genuinely hurt as the 
realisation that his theory about her professionalism 
was wrong dawned on him. 

"Is that right? Is that right??" An evil grin appeared 
on Brian's face. "Well, well, well, what do you know... 
I think this evening just became a little more 
interesting, eh?"

"People, if we're all done with the pleasantries, I 
suggest we focus on business" said Alan, as if we were 
all supposed to sit down and share a bowl of peanuts 
and some soft drinks. He turned towards Mark, himself 
still moaning softly from the beating he just received. 

"Now, you there, lard-boy, can I have your undivided 
attention?"

If Mark managed to focus on Alan, he didn't really show 
it. So Alan asked Frank for help. 

A whole new dimension of pain must have opened for Mark 
when Frank stepped on his foot and started grinding it 
into the floor. 

"That's OK, boyo, don't have to sweat it, I think our 
host here will be with us now." Alan was the quietest 
of all three of them. That naturally made him the one 
to lead all the conversations they needed to have in 
this line of work. 

Mark was still trying to get his breathing under 
control when Alan continued. Brian was still standing 
next to the kneeling woman, the barrel of his gun 
touching her temple. His grin was sick. Sick. 


3.


You don't fuck with Stan the Man. 

OK, let me rephrase that. In a perfect world, no one 
would think to test their luck by double-crossing 
Stanley Leigh. People would pay Stan his dues, people 
would stay true to their promises, people would do 
their jobs and everyone would be happy. In a perfect 
world the three of Stan's thugs we have here would be 
without work. Because nobody would fuck with Stan the 
Man. Then again, as if you needed to be reminded, we 
don't actually live in the perfect world. 

What Mark did was really stupid. And I mean it. The guy 
is stupid, there's no two ways about it. It's not just 
that he thought he could fuck with Stan the Man, but 
that he thought he could actually fuck with Stan and 
just get on with the business as usual. That's what 
proves his stupidity. There are people who will go out 
of their way to fuck Stan up and these people will 
usually plan their actions and map their ways out and 
do what they can to ensure Stan doesn't come after 
them. Not so with Mark.

Mark is the stupid kind. Mark is the businessman-cum-
politician who, surprisingly still doesn't understand 
the way things work. Mark is the kind of guy who thinks 
that you sit with the gang boss and have a pleasant 
chat about the investments made in the city area just 
to pass the time. He also thinks that you take the 
money the gang boss offers and pretend you got it 
because the gang boss in question likes you as a person 
(or a politician?). He also thinks that you can then 
just go on as if nothing happened. 

So when the business deal you were paid for (under the 
table) doesn't go the way it was supposed to and then 
you don't return your phone calls, you must be aware 
you did something wrong, right? Wrong, in Mark's case. 
Mark meets with Stan the Man's assistant, actually they 
"run" into each other at one of the city's cocktails 
and this assistant explains to Mark that Stan is not 
too happy about Mark taking the bribe and then doing 
nothing about it. 

Mark seems to have some kind of brain disease because 
Mark denies ever having any kind of deal with Stan. He 
smiles for most of that conversation and explains to 
Stan's assistant the ways shit works in city politics. 
Stan's assistant is not impressed. He asks Mark to 
excuse him and gets on the mobile phone. Stan gets the 
sitrep. Stan calls Alan. 

And there we are. 

Mark's stupidity is reflected the most in the fact that 
he, most probably, doesn't even understand that he's 
done anything wrong. He probably genuinely thinks that 
Stan gave him money to maybe try to put in a word or 
two for Stan's case. He probably did put in a word or 
two, then when the deal didn't get through, he shrugged 
and thought that some you win some you don't. 

Of course, that's not how it works. In a perfect world 
you wouldn't have people stupid enough to fuck a gang 
boss over and then pretend nothing happened. Our boy 
Mark here is just that, an evolutionary blind alley, an 
overgrown boy hoping that no one will notice when he 
screws up. But it was noticed and the forces of natural 
selection are here to do their job. 

Frank works on Mark's fingers. That's what he usually 
does. Kicking the poor, stupid sod in the nuts worked 
like a charm as an appetiser but Frank is old school.

The bad part is, of course that we're here just to 
rough him up. We're not here to extort money or names 
or secrets. We're here to show Mark what happens when 
you don't come through for Stan. We're here to give him 
painful memories, preferably in the shape of small 
fractures, so that next time Stan talks he actually 
listens. The business deal is history, but Stan likes 
to invest into the future. 

"That's how you're supposed to see it, old boy" says 
Alan. "An investment. Stan doesn't want his dough back. 
He wants you to prove you were worth the trust in the 
first place."

Mark tries to get away from Frank, but Mark is cuffed 
to the bed, his trousers and pants still dangling 
around his ankles. 

"NO!! Please! Please!"

Frank has the look of a weathered professional about 
him, as he takes another of Mark's fingers and works it 
around. Mark's words dissolve into random screaming. 

The woman in the corner now moans louder, sobbing and 
choking on her tears. 

"please... please, my God, no, please.. please..."

"Steady there, darling" says Brian smiling. He likes 
this, he does, I know he does. "Let the boys play the 
way they like. We'll get down to your case later, don't 
worry."

I hear a threat, a real threat in what Brian says. I 
know Brian. OK, I am technically a rookie on this team, 
I don't even technically belong to the underworld (now 
imagine how many others out there will say the same 
thing given the opportunity). 

The truth is I've had some problems over here. And 
being British meant I could count on Brits lending a 
helping hand. So I ended up taking video footage for a 
group of mob thugs, headed by a Brit, and being paid 
good money to do it. I am trusted and I am taken care 
of. And I don't need to hurt anyone. It could be worse, 
no? 

But the bottom line is I know Brian. I have seen Brian 
do things to people. I know when he makes threats. You 
think Frank is bad, but Brian is worse. Frank is 
violent and ugly but Brian and his shiny bald head, 
Brian is fucking sick. He's going to hurt her. And, 
whore or not, this sorry bitch hasn't done anything 
really bad. I can only hope Brian stays professional 
enough and remembers his own words: he wasn't paid to 
hurt her. 

"So, Marky, I hope you're following the plot so far," 
says Alan. "I'd hate to think that all this effort and 
painful learning process goes to waste. Mister Leigh 
pays us top dollar, as you say in this country, to make 
sure that lessons learned stay learned. And that the 
painfully gathered knowledge doesn't linger unused but 
gets applied when due. Is all this getting to you, old 
boy? Am I making sense here or do you need my assistant 
to reiterate all this for you?"

The assistant here being Frank of course. And Mark is 
quick enough to swim through the river of pain he must 
be drowning in right now to come with a proper answer.

"no... no... I understand. I... I ... made a mistake... 
I made some really bad decisions..."

"Bloody well right, old boy, I see you're starting to 
see the things our way." Alan smiles and lights a thin, 
long cigarette. I always have to resist the urge to 
tell him that those look too feminine for someone in 
his line of work. "I can only hope you'll put your 
money where your, admittedly smashed mouth is and are 
not just saying these pretty things to make us happy. 
Because it's not us who you want to make happy, you 
diggin' it, old boy?"

Mark nods. His face is grotesquely swollen and black 
and bloody. 

"I know... I know... It's Stan the Man... It's Stan..."

Alan makes an over emphasised gesture of surprise. 

"Good golly! Mark! Boyo! I hope you're aware that what 
we do here is being filmed by our faithful glasseyed 
boy over there. Every word we say is being preserved 
for the generations to come, Marky. Surely you are 
aware that Mister Leigh takes somewhat understandable 
pride in being addressed by his proper name and not by 
his nickname, like some comic book character."

Mark probably gets what Alan is aiming at. But before 
he can reply, the woman in the other part of the room 
cuts in. Brian still has his gun aimed at her head and 
I am not sure whether she's courageous or just plain 
mad for doing what she does. 

"Enough!! Please! Please! Let him go, let him go!" Her 
voice is broken, strained, harsh, somewhere between 
blind panic and blind determination. She is courageous, 
I decide. She is courageous to speak like this when 
it's plain to see she's trembling in mortal fear.

"What more do you want from him?" She continues 
screaming. "You made your point!! You hurt him, you 
humiliated him, you had your say!! What do you want! 
Let him go now!! He's hurt! He needs medical attention, 
leave him alone!! Just go!! GO!!"

The last word is stretched into a desperate scream. But 
then this scream is cut short by Brian.


4. 


Depending on the perspective, you could say that the 
woman was lucky. Brian hit her really hard with his 
fist and knocked her down to the ground. Then he hit 
her once again, again using his fist and then he kicked 
her. The lucky part refers to the fact that he didn't 
pistol-whip her. I have seen Brian do this to people. 
Not something you want to dwell on after lunch, while 
trying to have your afternoon nap. 

"So, bitch, you really need to learn when it's in your 
best interest to speak. Let me tell you: this was not 
the time." Brian said.  "But I'd lie if I said I'm not 
glad, because now you're given me the excuse to do 
this."

"Man, don't..." I started, but too late.

Brian pulled the woman up by her hair and slammed her 
into the cupboard to his right. She made an awful lot 
of noise hitting it and falling to the floor. Some 
noise also came from Mark but he was making noise 
anyway the last half an hour or so. I looked Alan's 
way. If anyone here has the power to stop this, it's 
Alan. 

"Alan, for the love of..."

Alan gets his finger up. I know better than to keep 
talking.

"Remember the rule laddie: no first names. You just 
broke it. Try not to get anything else broken." He 
keeps his voice down but that's because he can. No need 
to yell at me. I know when I am fucked. "I suggest you 
get behind your camera and keep track on the events 
here."

Not much else I could be doing right now. I shut up and 
turn the camera towards Brian. Why Alan chooses to let 
this go on is beyond me. But I shut up. 

"OK, whore, now we're going to have a little talk, you 
and me." Brian enjoys his tension-releasing moment. 
He's been hoping for this break all night, I am sure. 

He reaches out to bring her up but she is now in sheer 
blind panic. She is kicking and screaming and 
scrambling on the floor, trying to get away from him. I 
am sure he loves it all. Her fear, her panic, her 
helplessness, her efforts to get away and realisation 
she is cornered. The thrill of the chase, in a way. 

"Oooh, you like to play hard to get, I love that" he 
says before he starts kicking her, brutally, savagely. 

I can't watch this. I look in Alan's direction, then in 
Frank's. They both watch in silence. Alan is smiling. 
Franks is grim as usual. Mark is crying. 

I can't watch this. How can they?

Brian pulls the woman up by her hair. Then slams her 
against the cupboard once again, her face now smeared 
with a mixture of blood, tears and make up. He doesn't 
let her fall back to the floor, though, but keeps her 
up.

"Now..." he whispers into her face. I can imagine the 
smell of tobacco in his breath. "Let's try and get to 
know each other. I don't like to get intimate with 
strangers. You first. Who are you?"

It's easy to imagine that her first reaction is not to 
give him her name, address and social security number. 
In fact all she seems to be able to say is 'no', half 
whispered-half screamed, over and over again.

"I asked you a question, whore!!" Brian whispers back. 
"Don't test my patience!!"

He pulls her head up and shoves his piece under her 
jaw. He pushes the barrel upwards until she is looking 
straight into his eyes. 

"You are not a prostitute, are you?"

The woman is shaking. Under other circumstances, that 
would look funny. At least the word 'no' now has some 
more meaning. 

"no... I.. no... I'm not..." she closes her eyes and 
presses the eyelids together tight, then reopens them. 
"I am not a prostitute. I am his.... His..."

Brian is visibly angry but he's visibly having fun. The 
worst combination I can imagine about him. 

"His girlfriend, eh?" He spits the word with a 
disgusted smile on his face. "You two are in love, eh?"

The woman is crying. Is it the pain or is it the shame? 
She nods.

"Oooh, isn't that cute?" says Brian with a huge, fake, 
sympathetic grin. "They are lovers! They take long 
walks in the park and they make love when the night 
smells of magic!"

He winks at Alan and Frank and they both nod back. They 
all seem to be having fun. Alan was not joking. Our job 
here is done but they are not immune to having some fun 
at work. 

"please..." whispers the woman.

"Ask her for a name, will you," says Frank. 

"And, what is your name, if I may ask, whore?" says 
Brian, pushing her jaw with his gun once again. "I like 
to know the names of people I fuck up. Call it an 
eccentric habit if ya will."

She closes her eyes once again and the shivering 
becomes even more pronounced.

"p-p-p-p..."

"What? P what? Pam? Pamela? Peggy? Penelope?"

"Pandora?" says Alan, grinning.

"Paloma," says Frank with a solemn expression on his 
face.

The room goes quiet. Alan turns to Frank.

"Paloma? Does she look Mexican to you?"

"Paloma means 'dove'. She looks like a dove somewhat," 
says Frank, his expression unchanged. "Her hair, it 
looks like a pair of wings a bit," he explains. 

Alan looks at Frank. Brian looks at Frank. The woman 
cries uncontrollably. 

Then Brian turns to her again and tugs at her hair 
again.

"So, bitch, you'll solve this mystery for us or do I 
have to knock some of those teeth out? I don't mind if 
I do, might make for a more interesting blow job!!"

"please..." she finally manages to spit out. "please... 
let us go, let us go, please..."

Brian thinks this is funny. Brian laughs. 

"Let you go? Let you go? But we didn't even have any 
fun yet, Paloma."

The woman tries to suppress her crying.

"Susan... It's Susan..."

Another grin on Brian's face.

"Susan? Susan?" he pulls her hair again, until she is 
looking straight into his eyes. "Susan, tell me, have 
you ever had Jewish cock in you?"

I can hear my own heartbeat in my ears. I look at the 
scene through the camera and it's like reality TV gone 
awfully wrong. 

"please," she whispers. She knows. She knew for quite 
some time, of course. I knew it as well. I just hoped I 
was wrong, for some reason.

"Is that a yes or a no?" asks Brian. Then he asks 
again. By putting the barrel of his gun into Susan's 
mouth. 

"Nod if you understand, bitch. You keep this shit up 
and I'll splatter your fucking brains all over the 
wall. You dig?"

Susan is shivering hard. But she manages to nod. She is 
looking straight into his eyes. Probably too afraid to 
close hers. The fucker will pull the trigger. I know 
she knows. 

"Fine. Now, I'll ask again. Have you ever had the 
pleasure of having Jewish cock shoved up your worthless 
old pussy?"

What kind of fucking question is that? Do people 
actually keep records?

Susan shakes her head. For a second I think about this. 
Saying 'yes' would probably make Brian even more pissed 
off. So she's made a good choice. Marginally, though as 
we all know how this ends.

"Well, well, well, is this your lucky day or what, 
Susan? You've been rescued from some exquisitely bad 
fucking and are just about to taste the finest Jewish 
man-meat currently on offer. Do you feel privileged?" 
Brian pulls her hair violently and takes the barrel of 
the gun out of her mouth so that she can speak. 

But Susan is shaking her head.

"...please don't please don't please don't..."

Brian lets go of her hair so he can slap her. He does 
it violently, brutally. She hits the cupboard but 
before she can fall to the floor, he's all over her 
again. He pushes her against the cupboard and pushes 
the barrel of his gun into her face. 

"Enough of this shit, whore, I am tired of your 
whining! Either you play along or you say goodbye to 
your face right now"

I look at Alan. The fucker is going to do it, for 
Christ's sake!!! Alan is smiling.

"OK," says Brian. Oh, shit, he's going to do it.

"Wait, wait, please... Please!" Susan screams in panic. 

"Oh, you remembered something you had to say?" asks 
Brian. "Too fucking late, whore! Say goodbye."

"No, please, WAIT! I DO, I DO!"

Brian turns towards me with a big grin on his face. 

"See? The voice of reason finally speaks. Make love, 
not war, as I always say."

That's not what he always says, but this is not the 
time to remind him, no. 

I try to re-inject some sense into the whole thing. I 
look at Alan.

"Um... I am not sure..."

Alan looks at me, silently. He waits for me to finish 
the sentence, smoking and enjoying the show. 

"I'm not... I mean... This... Come on, man... This is 
not what we're here for. This could get us in trouble."

Alan's voice is menace incarnate. Wrapped in barbwire, 
then coated in honey.

"There will be no trouble unless you cause it. And 
trust me, you don't want to. Not now, not tomorrow, not 
ever. Now let the man have his fun. The job's done, 
this is his spare time. Don't ruin it for him or he'll 
be cross."

Calling Brian cross is such an understatement. The man 
is practically a sociopath. And he loves it. As I 
continue to video the scene, he gets a pair of 
handcuffs from his jacket.

"Now, Susan, you and I are going to have some fun now. 
I imagine it might be somewhat more fun for me than for 
you but obviously this is just because I know how to 
kick back and have fun. You, on the other hand strike 
me as a party-breaker type, you know? Get your fucking 
hands on your back, NOW!"

Brian pushes her face down towards the floor and grabs 
her arms, pulling them behind her back violently. The 
woman resists, thrashing and screaming but it's all 
utterly futile.

"That's the reason I think it might be for the best if 
you were allowed to be just a passive receiver of 
pleasure here. Somehow I think this is what you'd 
choose, given the opportunity."

The cuffs click. Her hands are now restrained on her 
back. 

"Now then. That's more like it!" Brian puts his hands 
on his hips and inspects the results of his efforts. He 
looks pleased. Alan and Frank are making themselves 
more comfortable. Frank sits on the bed, next to Mark 
putting his arm around Mark's shoulder. Susan's head is 
down on the carpet.

"You filmin' this boy?" asks Brian in that special tone 
of his voice. My camera was pointed at him all this 
time. I nod silently. 

"Sweet. I'm not just doing this for my own pleasure 
here. We're going to make an educational video here. 
'How to treat a dumb whore' or something. But I'd like 
to say a few words for the news at eleven before we 
start." He looks directly into the camera now and 
clears his throat. "I just want to say how glad I am to 
be working with these guys. 

"You can say what you want about cultural differences 
but personally I don't mind them being British at all. 
They are pros, the job is good, we have a few laughs 
from time to time and," he turns towards the woman on 
the floor "and the unexpected bonuses you get along the 
way are fun!! I mean, look at this piece of pussy we 
have here. Old, yes. Used, yes. But there's still some 
untapped potential in this person. The potential I 
intend to unlock and release. She'll thank me in the 
end."

With these words he pulls Susan up to her knees. He 
points at me.

"The camera's there, sweetheart. Say hello to your 
family."

Susan is crying. Big, huge tears are coming down her 
cheeks, messing up whatever is still unmessed about her 
face. He turns her towards the camera but she is trying 
to turn her face away.

"Now, Susan, this is not nice" says Brian. "If I didn't 
know you better I'd think you were shy. But mere 
minutes ago you gave us an absolutely stunning 
performance. All that moaning! It was impressive! I can 
only hope you'll do the same for me. I like my women 
loud and voluptuous!!"

He pulls her hair to the back so that she raises her 
chin up. She still refuses to look into the camera. 

"Now, bear in mind that your friends and family will be 
watching, you want to give your best performance." He 
tugs at her hair and forces her to look into his eyes. 
"Are you married, slut?"

Not something you necessarily feel like sharing with a 
thug who is sexually assaulting you. Then again, that 
thug has a gun pointed at your face. Susan nods, 
drowning in tears. 

"Excellent!!" exclaims Brian. "So hubby will be doubly 
pleased!" He leans towards her and speaks into her 
face. I can see little drops of his saliva falling on 
her skin. "Not only he'll have the evidence of his slut 
wife cheating on him with that sleazy fuck back there, 
but he'll also see her receive her deserved punishment 
right here on the spot." 

He turns towards me again.

"This must be what they call poetic justice! A slut 
fucking behind her husband's back ends up being fucked 
right in front of her lover. And he won't have a 
problem with it! Am I right, Mark, old boy? Am I 
RIGHT?" The question is asked with the gun being 
pointed at Mark this time. The fat fuck looks even more 
miserable than before. He is trying to make his head 
disappear between his shoulders. Clearly, he doesn't 
know what to say. 

"Speak now, or stay silent forever, sleazebag!!" says 
Frank, slapping Mark on the side of his face. Then he 
also points his gun into Mark's ear. "You OK with that 
Jew over there fucking your bitch or are we gonna have 
a problem here?"

"n-n-n-no..." whispers Mark in the end, his eyes shut 
tight, his whole body trembling.

"I think you have the man's blessing, my boy" says Alan 
smiling. "Now get on with it before the lady loses 
interest."

Brian doesn't need more encouragement. He doesn't let 
his gun go, but he unbuttons his trousers and pulls his 
penis out. It is very hard, its head purple and swollen 
with blood. He jerks it off with his hand, showing it 
to Susan.

"Look at it darling, just look at it! Is this going to 
make the hubby at least a little jealous, eh? Then 
again, after you went out and fucked the fatboy the way 
we all saw you do, maybe he's already used to having a 
whore wife, eh? What say you give my cock a little 
welcome kiss, eh?"

He moves closer to Susan and starts slapping her face 
with his cock. The woman is trying to move away but 
there is really no room for her to manoeuvre. He is 
very aroused, very violent and very determined to have 
her his way. She is shaking her head left and right, 
trying to delay the inevitable. 

"please, please, no, please, no, I can't, not like 
this, please..." I can tell Brian is getting even more 
aroused from her pleading. He slaps her with his cock 
and breathes heavily. "please, please, have mercy, I'm 
a mother, I have sons, I can't do this, please..."

Not that it makes a difference. Except that it does to 
Brian.

"Oh, sons, you say? How lovely! You love them very 
much, I am sure. They'll be thrilled to learn their 
mother is a whore, I am also sure. Come on now, mommy, 
let's show your boys how you give a good, old-fashioned 
blow job to this fine Jewish gentleman here!"

He pulls her face up. She moans. Then he pushes the 
barrel of his gun between her lips and into her mouth.

"Listen, whore, I like games to a certain extent. But 
at some point you have to stop playing games and do the 
work for real. You hear me?" He pushes the gun deeper 
into her mouth. I hear Susan make a gagging noise. 

"What I can do now is squeeze this trigger here and 
splatter your fucking brains all over the floor, you 
understand that?" 

Susan nods. 

"Good. And then it's bye-bye to your hubby, your sons 
and your fat, ugly lover. I am sure you're a no-good 
slut that no one will really miss, but you must value 
your life a little more than this." He looks into her 
eyes. She looks back. I have never seen a look 
communicating helplessness in a clearer way and I have 
filmed quite a few sessions with this gang. "So, when I 
take this barrel out of your fucking mouth now, you 
will gently receive my cock in its place and give it 
due attention. Do we have a deal? Do we?" 

I am not sure whether Susan nods or not. I am too busy 
realising that I am getting hard as well. This is not 
something to be proud of, so it's best to keep it our 
little secret for now.

So, as Brian pulls the gun out, he places it on the 
cupboard and grabs Susan's head with both hands. Then 
he rams his cock into her mouth, down her throat. I see 
her eyes shutting tight. I see the veins on her neck 
straining. I hear her gag and choke. 

"Oh, yeah!" exclaims Brian as he fucks her face with 
violent, nervous thrusts. "Oh, baby you love it, I know 
you do. This is what I needed, ahhh, yeah!"

Susan is pinned to the wall, kneeling with her hands 
cuffed behind her back, her head firmly held by her 
rapist as he slams his cock into her mouth. She is 
screaming, I can hear muffled, raspy noises she makes 
around Brian's cock. 

"The boy gets zero points for style," says Alan, 
shaking his head and lighting a new thin cigarette.

"But you can't fault his enthusiasm" replies Frank. 
Unlike Alan, he does allow us all to see he is aroused 
by what is going on. He is massaging his cock through 
the fabric of his trousers. There's no question about 
it, if Susan lives through Brian's treatment, Frank 
will be taking over. 

"I love this shit," says Brian, his breathing heavy. He 
pulls out of Susan's mouth. "You love it to baby, don't 
you?"

Susan's face gets additional smearing with all the 
saliva and cock juice Brian slaps onto her face.

"Tell me!" he insists. "Let me hear it!!"

She doesn't. He slaps her. Once, then once again. Her 
head snaps violently to the right then to the left, her 
hair now looking less like wings of the dove I imagine. 

"Bitch, you still don't seem to be getting all the 
rules here!" Brian shouts at her from about an inch 
distance. "Let me hear you say it and you may live 
through this yet!"

But her answer is definitely not what he wants. Her 
eyes are closed, more tears gushing from behind tightly 
shut eyelids, loud sobs and cries coming out of her 
mouth. So Brian punches her. 

My heart skips a beat. Susan falls to the floor. The 
sound, the sound of Brian's fist colliding with her 
face... It's... sick... And all I can think of is how 
fucking hard I am.

"That's OK, we can play the game that way too!!" shouts 
Brian. "You could have had fun but since you decided to 
be a bitch about it, I don't intend to be nice any 
more."

With these words he pulls her up to her knees and then 
pushes her down, face first to the bed.

"Hi there, Susan," says Frank as her head is laid next 
to him. "Be nice to my friend. He's just a big baby, 
really."

"Over here, boy," says Brian, pointing me to where he 
thinks the best viewpoint should be. I should tell him 
the light is not really perfect there but what's the 
point...

Susan screams and thrashes as much as she can (which is 
to say not much) as he penetrates her from behind. He 
gets hold of the handcuffs and pulls her back onto his 
cock as his pelvis works back and forth. Brian is like 
a fucking rabbit after all. I didn't need to see this. 
I didn't need to see this at all. 

And then on the other hand... Seeing this woman so 
helpless... Hearing her plead and scream, as Brian 
fucks her from behind, breathing heavily like a boar... 
It's a shame to even think. But it makes me so fucking 
aroused. It's so fucking embarrassing and I hate myself 
for it. I hate Brian too. I hate all of this shit. Why? 
Why is this happening?

Brian doesn't have any of these dilemmas it seems. Nor 
do Alan and Frank who clearly enjoy the show. I have to 
wonder how many times this sort of thing happened 
before... As Brian grunts and barks on top of the poor 
woman they are cheering and supporting him. Not that I 
can't detect a certain amount of sarcasm in their loud 
cheers, but Brian doesn't seem to notice.

He pushes into her. And pushes and pushes and pushes 
and grunts. Susan's voice is harsh and broken from 
screaming. Brian grabs her hair and pulls her backwards 
and up.

"You love this, bitch!! You love it! You love it! You 
love it!" He shouts in synch with his thrusts. "I knew 
you were a horny slut the moment I laid my eyes on you 
fucking that fat fuck over there! You are a slut, born 
to be fucked, born to be ripped apart like a ten dollar 
whore!"  He grabs her breast with his free hand and 
starts squeezing. Susan's screams develop a fresh angle 
as her nipple gets crushed between Brian's fingers, 
then pulled into several directions. "Does it hurt? 
Does this hurt, slut?" asks Brian as he is apparently 
attempting to part the nipple from her breast. 

The only answer he gets are her screams. Then he joins, 
screaming in a strangely savage, bestial voice. He 
slams into her violently, pushing her down to the bed 
again.

"Here it comes, Susan!" he announces. "Your sons can 
look forward to having a brother or sister in 
foreseeable future!"

The he just starts screaming again as the twitches of 
his body tell me all I need to know. He is coming, he 
is filling her cunt with his semen. Not fucking nice. 
Not at all. 


5.


I don't know... I have never had to hurt anyone. It's 
Alan, Brian and Frank. Those three do the hurting. 
Those three shoot people, break their fingers. It's 
them who are thugs. I am just the camera guy. The 
glasseye boy. 

And when Susan looks up, after Brian pulls out of her 
with a sigh of deep, spiritual pleasure, she looks my 
way. She looks straight into the camera. Straight into 
my eyes.

I am not a thug. I am not. I don't hurt people. 

"It was about fucking time," says Frank, getting up 
from bed. "For someone fucking like a rabbit you surely 
talk a lot, Brian."

Apparently, Alan doesn't notice Frank's broken a no-
first-names rule. Some animals are more equal than 
others, it seems.

"Fuck you," says Brian but spitting these words through 
smiling lips. He lights up a cigarette as he buttons 
himself up. "I needed this shit, man, I needed this 
shit. A brief distraction from the dull everyday grind 
working class has to endlessly endure."

He sits next to Susan and speaks to her in an almost 
friendly voice.

"Yo, bitch, this was a great stress reliever. Hope it 
was as good for you as it was for me." He sucks on his 
fag, then blows the smoke into her face. "I'm sure from 
now on you will appreciate the special feel Jewish cock 
brings to a woman."

"You don't know how to shut up, do you?" asks Frank. 
"Now watch and learn, kid."

You'd think that a woman who was already raped by one 
of the world's most sickening violent bastards will 
just accept the situation and try to go for minimum 
damage. After all, by now she should understand. These 
people kill people. These people hurt people like her 
(and me...) every day and then they walk away talking 
about their wives or their kids or their cars or their 
DVD players. You'd think she'd just absorb it all in 
and just shut up and go with the flow and wait for it 
to end.

You'd think wrong.

Frank unbuttons his trousers, unbuckles his belt and 
pulls it out. Then he rolls his trousers and pants all 
the way down to his ankles. And I thought Mark looked 
comical. No one here will openly laugh at Frank, 
though, Alan included. 

Frank's cock is very hard, which was expected after all 
the dry jerking he's done while Brian fucked the woman. 
He pulls the foreskin as far back as it will go and 
spits on the head, like a porn actor or something. He 
has the look of a weathered professional going through 
the motions. I am sure this doesn't mean that he 
practices with his wife a lot. 

He positions himself behind Susan and this is when she 
starts kicking and screaming again.

"No! Get off me, let me go! Let me go!!"

She is in no position to make any demands but she 
wriggles and thrashes and does as much as she can to 
let Frank know he is not wanted. 

I wipe my forehead. When the hell did all that sweat 
come out? Why is she doing this? Does she not 
understand? This will only make Frank treat her worse.  
I catch myself whispering 'just shut up and take it, 
you stupid bitch' over and over again. 

"Let me go, you fucking bastard, LET ME GO!!" she 
screams as Frank pushes her down on the bed. I don't 
know... This is a display of courage that I should 
admire. But I feel like stepping up to her and smacking 
the stupid bitch on the mouth. For her own good. Does 
she not understand she needs to shut up?

"Whoa, Frankie!!" says Brian puffing on his cigarette. 
"The girl doesn't seem to be interested in your 
particular brand of goods." He winks towards the 
camera. "After all, being banged by yours truly often 
has this effect on ladies. They lose interest in other 
men. Not your fault, old boy, not your fault at all."

Frank doesn't seem to be as emotionally hurt as Brian 
clearly is trying to make him. He has a simple solution 
to this. 

Putting a knee in her back, he forces Susan down on the 
bed and keeps her there. She still thrashes but she is 
effectively immobilised under his knee. Then he pulls 
his belt from out of his trousers and makes a noose. 
Then he pulls her hair backwards so that her head is 
lifted from the bed. Then he puts the noose around her 
neck. 

"Now..." he says calmly, addressing Brian. "Watch and 
learn about style, Jew-boy." 

He pulls on the belt. Susan's screaming turns into a 
choked croak. He pulls on the belt. Now there's only 
sickening, quiet hiss coming out of Susan's mouth. He 
pulls on the belt, lifting the upper half of her body 
from the bed. I look through the lens of the camera and 
I see the face of ultimate horror. 

Susan's face is bursting. It's red, her veins full of 
blood, her eyes almost out of their sockets. Her mouth 
is gaping open, yet no sound comes out of it. And no 
air comes in. Susan is choking. I close my good eye. I 
close both my eyes. 

And of course, I open them both again. As Frank 
miraculously aims with one hand and penetrates Susan, 
still not letting go of the belt. Susan's whole body 
shakes, tremors running through it. Cuffed and choking, 
she is completely and utterly helpless. The rape is 
happening here and now. She is conquered in entirety. 

This is the sickest fucking scene I have ever taped and 
I have been running with this pack of animals for more 
than half a year now. And despite me closing my eyes, I 
can't... I can't stop watching, I can't stop filming. I 
can't stop having a raging hard-on in my jeans. 

My God... My God, I don't remember being this hard for 
years as I watch Frank starting to fuck the woman. Her 
face, her face... She is dying, she is dying and when 
he penetrates her, there still is a slight change in 
the expression on her face. A new colour in the 
painting of superb agony. 

"Agh, you fucking bitch," grunts Frank, his pelvis 
working methodically up and down. "This is how you need 
to be treated. This is how all of you need to be 
treated."

"Man, your treatment is going to make her check out 
early, I'd say," says Brian, still smoking. He's 
sitting on the bed, next to Susan, relaxed and amused, 
as the woman five inches from him is being raped and 
strangled. He comments on her likely death as if he's 
speaking of weather conditions for the next weekend. 

"No, Jew-boy, they're tougher than they look." Frank 
adjusts his position behind Susan and relaxes his grip 
on the belt. Susan's head falls forward to the bed. 

I can hear loud sounds as she greedily inhales the air. 
I also see spit trickling down from her mouth and onto 
the bed. She was just granted an extension of life by 
her rapist. He keeps slamming into her with 
characteristic relentlessness, pulling on the cuffs 
holding her wrists together. Now that her throat is 
back in business she produces horrifying screams. 

Either Frank is considerably larger than Brian (which 
didn't seem to be the case. Not that I looked that 
carefully, thankyouverymuch.) Or he has a more 
formidable secret technique under his belt. Then I make 
a couple of steps to the right, panning to catch more 
of the action and I realise. Frank is buggering the 
poor woman. This is why he spat on his cock. This is 
why she is screaming like that. She sounds like an 
animal being slaughtered. 

"You're a proper pervert, old boy" says Alan. "Since 
when has arse become a destination of choice for real 
gentlemen, eh?" 

"If you think I'd stick my oldest friend into her pussy 
after those two guys," says Frank "You're delusional. I 
don't want my sperm to mingle with Jewish sperm. Might 
catch some bad manners."

Brian doesn't seem to care about Frank's constant 
racist remarks. He doesn't react to any of them. Not 
directly, that is.

"That's interesting how her voice changes as you pull 
on that belt, Frankie. You play her like some music 
instrument there." Brian smiles and has another puff on 
his fag. "It almost makes up for your inferior rape 
technique."

He then grabs Susan's hair and pulls her head up. She 
is shaking her head left and right, violently but he 
manages to keep her still enough.

"Here, let me chip in with my own two cents. See how 
the bitch reacts to this."

With those words, he presses the burning end of his 
cigarette onto Susan's breast. 

The earsplitting scream follows. Alan and Brian both 
laugh aloud. Obviously, they think this is mad fun. 

"Awww, man, that's hilarious," says Brian. "If I may 
say so myself. You think so too, whore, eh?"

"NO, NO! PLEASE, NO!" she is screaming and struggling 
to get away from the new brand of torment. 

"Come, on!" Brian insists. "You're a big girl. How bad 
can this hurt, eh?"

He sticks the cigarette into her breast once again. 
This time he holds it there, pushes it in, twists it. 
Susan is screaming, screaming, screaming and thrashing. 
But her arms are cuffed on her back and she's being 
held down by a rapist fucking her in the arse. I can't 
watch this. I can't watch this. 

But I do. 

Brian sucks on the cigarette. The burning end glows 
with joy and menace. He applies it.

There are ugly, painful looking marks on Susan's skin. 
Three, now four of them. Her throat probably looks 
similar. With all the screaming she is doing, it's 
probably all fucked up now. A hoarse, horrible shriek 
is what now passes for her voice as Brian goes for her 
other breast. 

"Is this fun or what?" asks Brian no one in particular. 
He twists the cigarette that he buried into Susan's 
skin. Then he pulls it out and presses it onto her 
nipple. The body thrashes like mad.

"I'll give you this, Jew-boy, you have your moments" 
says Frank, breathing heavily. "You should feel how she 
tightens her ass around my willy when you do that!"

And Frank fucks her and fucks her and fucks her, 
sweating like a pig and slamming into her as Brian 
keeps burning her nipples with his cigarette. And Frank 
not only sweats like a pig, he groans like a pig too. 
He loves this. He loves splitting her in two and 
hurting her and choking her. 

And I am still hard. And seeing Frank gradually lose 
control is making me even more aroused. Oh, God... He 
is going to come... He is going to pump her arse full 
of his redneck semen any moment now. And I could go 
next. I could be the next in line to fuck her... I 
could take this helpless, fucked up woman any way I 
want. Sure, I am not exactly one of the gang here but I 
know they wouldn't mind. I could stick this hard, 
throbbing, wooden friend of mine into her cunt and 
there's nothing she could do about it. 

Shit!

Shit! 

Shit! 

Shit! 

Shit!

I can't believe myself. I can't believe I am thinking 
this. I can't believe I feel like this. I am sorry, 
Susan, I am sorry. But you're such a hot slut. Such a 
hot, fuckable bitch...

"Are we there yet, old boy?" asks Alan as if to remind 
Frank that there's this matter of orgasming into his 
victim's arse. His unnatural calmness and quiet 
amusement disgust me almost as much as my own arousal. 

"No, unnnghh, not like this," says Frank, breathing 
heavily. He delivers a couple of final brutal thrusts, 
making Susan scream painfully each time he pushes into 
her. Then he gets up, holding his cock in his fist, 
just like porn actors do. He lets go of the belt and 
walks the awkward pants-around-my-ankles walk around 
the bed. 

"Open your mouth, whore!" he orders, pulling on Susan's 
hair. His other hand is pumping on his cock furiously. 

"Open that FUCKING mouth right now!!!" The man not 
really famous for his patience is on the edge. "I want 
you to look good for the camera, bitch!! Don't ruin 
this moment!"

"Here, let me help you, bro," says Brian. 

I know what he will do the second before he does it. 
Because, yes, I am as sick as Brian is. I am...

Brian twists both Susan's nipples between his fingers. 
He pulls and twists them savagely, brutally, with 
obvious pleasure. 

Instinctively, Susan throws her body forwards, to 
reduce the pain. Also, she opens her mouth to scream 
yet again. Effectively, she throws herself on Frank's 
cock. And he helps her, by pulling her hair and 
sticking it deep into her mouth. 

"Awwww, that's some enthusiasm there, whore. After all 
the hesitation you actually DO want to suck your own 
shit off my cock, eh?"

He fucks her mouth as hard as he fucked her arse. He 
sticks his cock in there right up to the balls. The 
woman gags as it goes down her throat but now he has 
both his hands on her head and refuses to let her pull 
back. He makes violent, spastic movements, pulling his 
cock only halfway out and slamming it back again into 
her throat. 

Even though the belt around her neck is loose enough, 
Susan is still chocking, this time on Frank's cock. Her 
breathing is loud, her cries of pain are muffled and 
horrible, the gagging makes fluid come out of her nose 
and mouth. Franks doesn't seem to mind any of it, au 
contraire. 

"Is the taste up to your liking, eh, bitch? You like 
eating your own ass off my cock, eh? Answer me!" 

Frank pulls out and holds her head up so she can look 
into his eyes. His cock is obscenely hard, spit and 
sticky mucus dripping and hanging from it. 

"Tell us, bitch! These people here would like to know 
your opinion! Your family and all our viewers would 
like to know: do you find your own ass tasty?"

I wipe fresh portion of sweat from my forehead. Brian 
leans towards Susan with a smile, his gun once again in 
his hand. Miraculously, this alone does the trick. She 
gets the message, for once...

"yes... I... I do..." she whispers. It is among the 
most fake of confessions ever made and everyone in the 
room knows it. 

"Tell me more abut it, please, it sounds so 
interesting," says Frank. "I don't think I have met a 
slut as filthy as you before. Hell, being a fan of hard 
lovin' is one thing, but being a fan of your own poo 
poo is another." He looks into the camera, still 
stroking his nearly-bursting cock. "I guess you meet 
all kinds of people in this business. But after all, 
who am I to judge anyone?" He shrugs and jerks Susan's 
head as if to remind her it's her cue. And Susan speaks 
in that broken, hurting voice.

"I... I... oh, god... I can't..." she closes her eyes 
as more tears roll down her face. Then she seems to be 
remembering the nature of the relations in the room. 
"I... love the taste of my own ass on your big, hard 
cock... I loved how you fucked my ass and... and... 
please, please" her voice trails off as spasms take 
over and she starts crying uncontrollably.

I guess the proper description for this scene would be 
to say it is heartbreaking. To see a person, a woman so 
thoroughly stripped of any notion of dignity, so 
completely at mercy of a group of... thugs... 
rapists... It's heartbreaking. But it's not my heart as 
much as it is my penis reaching its breaking point with 
every passing heartbeat. 

And when Frank just pulls her head onto his cock again, 
I can almost feel every move he makes in my own groin. 
He fucks her mouth, shouting, grunting, like a boxer 
using last atoms of his strength. He fucks her mouth, 
holding her head with two hands, sticking his meatpole 
all the way down every time, slamming his balls against 
her chin. 

Her face is a mess of makeup, bruises, tears, spit... 
His is a grimace of ultimate effort. His lips are 
curled back and his big teeth are on display, he's 
sweating and the veins on his temples are bursting with 
blood. I zoom in on his face for a few seconds. It's 
such a display of effort, of hard work. Frank doesn't 
take this thing lightly. For him, this is about proving 
something. I am not sure what or to whom but there is 
no doubt about it. His determination is born of hate 
rather than love, that much I can tell. 

And he comes, but not into her mouth. I hear him shout 
as his voice transforms from a deep grunt into a high 
pitched shriek. He loses control. He slams into her 
mouth all the way down and then pulls out, screaming. 
One hand keeps her head at the desired level. The other 
finishes the job in style. I zoom in. Thick gushes of 
sperm fall on Susan's face. The first one hits her 
cheek and rolls down across her lips. But the second 
and third one travel higher. They fall on her hair and 
on her eyelids. They fall on her forehead and nose. 
Frank masturbates furiously swearing and shouting. More 
semen follows, adding to the mess Susan's face already 
is. 

"I have to say," Brian comments, smiling, "this is a 
spectacle of sorts. Some money-shot you got there, big 
man."

Alan grins.

"Frankie there has been watching too many dirty flicks 
to miss the opportunity to star in one himself. He's 
doing it like a pro, I daresay."

Frank jerks and jerks and jerks himself off until every 
last tiny drop is shot into his victim's face. Susan's 
eyes are closed and even with all the shit going on I 
can see she is crying. Yeah, right. As if the tears 
could wash Frank's cum off... As if the humiliation can 
ever be washed off... She's a marked woman now. I 
should know, I have it all on tape right here. And that 
makes her even more desirable for some strange reason.

"There, slut, now you look the part," says Brian, his 
satisfaction almost tangible. Like he did all this 
work, not Frank. "Nothing like some cum on the face to 
signify one's status, eh? A decent woman wouldn't 
exactly let others see her this way, yes? Let alone 
being taped for all the world to enjoy, eh?"

You'd think Frank should be the one to deliver the 
final verbal abuse here but he is too busy pushing his 
now softening cock into the woman's mouth. He is urging 
her to suck it clean, of course. Some clichés are 
clichés because they are true I guess. 

"Boys will be boys," says Alan with a sympathetic 
smile. "Can I have you over here Grant, please?" he is 
rummaging through what looks like Susan's purse. It's 
full of small stuff – make up, keys, smaller purses, 
but Alan fishes out her wallet. 

"Excellent, let's see what we have here."

He urges me to zoom in on his hands as he eviscerates 
the wallet. 

"Credit cards, eh? Nice. Please Grant, can we have this 
on tape?" He continues pulling stuff out of it, 
throwing every item away after I have taped it. He puts 
her driver's license up with a grin.

"There it is, our girl's ID, please make sure you get 
all of it, boyo."

I do. I remember everything as well. I can cite it here 
and now. 

"Excellent," Alan says and drops it to the floor. "Now 
can I have the slut's attention for a moment here? That 
is if you are all finished, my dear friend."

Frank is finished. Because Alan says so. I am not sure 
what else would he be doing with Susan if Alan wasn't 
around but he is finished. He grunts as he packs up his 
tools and zips up. 

"Smashing," smiles Alan, gesturing at Susan. Brian is 
enthusiastic as ever and he pulls her hair backwards, 
forcing her up and to her knees. He keeps her head 
pulled back as she is required to look up towards Alan 
as he speaks to her. I am behind Alan, taping the 
conversation.

"Now, my dear woman, I'd like to have a word with you. 
Fear not, it is going to be quick and then you can go 
back to what you like to do the most – which, judging 
by the evidence supplied - is whoring. "

Brian giggles. Frank throws himself into a comfortable 
armchair in the remote corner. 

"I am sure that even in your obviously confused head, 
there is certain understanding of the situation here." 
He waits for the reaction but there is none. Susan just 
sobs and shakes her head left and right. "Right. Now, 
as far as I can tell, you seem to be in the state of 
high sexual arousal, which is what one expects from a 
slut. Even so, how ever your thick, slut mind slow may 
be, it might have actually noticed that you have been 
raped by two people this evening and that there is more 
to come."

"You getting' all this, bitch? Eh?" shouts Brian, 
jerking Susan's head. "You getting' this?"

I think she nods. I'll have to play the tape back to be 
sure, but it doesn't matter because Alan goes on. 

"So, just in case you are entertaining the idea of 
informing the police department on us after we are 
done, let me tell you something. Frank and Brian here, 
they are not nice people. For all I can tell, were I 
not present, either of them would have put a bullet in 
your fucking head right after raping your arse. In 
Brian's case, he would have probably shot you exactly 
the moment he'd be orgasming." Brian laughs as if it 
was his father saying something cool about his baseball 
skills. "So, the only thing keeping you among the 
living right now is the fact that I am here and these 
lads know I am against the excessive use of force."

Alan leans towards Susan, probably to make his point 
come across better. 

"So, my dear woman, after we've had our fun, we will 
most likely let you go. I admit, you'd probably feel a 
little damaged and all, but the very ability to feel is 
what separates us from inanimate objects, right? 
However," he makes a significant pause here. "Should 
you decide to go to the cops with some overblown story 
of a bunch of people taking advantage of you, you 
should know that you are dealing with professionals 
here. And I mean it in a good way, darling. If coppers 
were able to put us behind bars, they would have done 
it ages ago, I can assure you of that. So it would be 
the most futile exercise. And now that we have your 
personal details, be certain that the moment we'd learn 
about you playing a snitch, your family would get a 
less than pleasant home visit. You understand what I am 
saying here, darling?"

She shakes her head left and right, in helpless rage 
and frustration and cries more of those tears that make 
so fucking sexy.

"You... you..." she struggles to find words but of 
course, all she can come up with is "I... 
understand..."

"Splendid, darling." Alan is all smiles and roses. "I 
knew you'd see it from the right angle if only someone 
took the time to explain it to you properly." He 
gestures at Brian to remove the cuffs from her wrists. 

"I want to reward your good will here with a good will 
gesture from my side. From what we have seen before 
arriving to the scene, you and our friend Mark here 
were in the middle of passionate lovemaking. Too bad it 
had to be interrupted, but when business calls, for a 
true professional there are no excuses." Alan's voice 
has this weird, mesmerising quality. I am almost 
forgetting the situation we are all parts of here. 
There is pleasure in just listening to him speak. I 
remember one of my teachers in primary school... "But, 
being a professional doesn't necessarily mean you have 
no soul. It seems only fair to allow you two little 
lovebirds to finish what was started."

I am keeping the camera on Susan's face but now I am 
looking at Alan. Did he really say what I think he 
said? He has to be joking, right? Then, one look at 
Brian's face and the grin that gets wider and wider 
tells me all I need to know. 

"Of course, seeing that you actually just had your fun, 
with two men no less, to me it seems only fair to have 
the balance reinstated. So, assuming you decide to be a 
good girl here, we'd like to have you give Mark his 
well deserved pleasure now. After all, the poor man has 
had a horrible day. What else save a nice blow job from 
an experienced whore to make all the pain and 
frustration go away?"

"On your way, slut, on your WAY!" screams Brian, 
pushing Susan towards Mark.

Mark has been awfully quiet all this time, considering 
that he had to watch his lover being raped by some of 
the best talent in business. I think the guy proved to 
be one big pussy. Then again, there's hardly anything 
he could have done and made any difference. Maybe he's 
just smart. He played dead most of the time and let 
Susan take most of the heat instead of playing a hero 
and ending up even more damaged than he is. 

I guess that smart businessmen learn to calculate the 
risk versus the reward and make their decisions 
accordingly. I guess Mark just learned to be a smart 
businessman rather than a hot-headed upstart. Not bad 
for a day's work I guess. He might be sporting a broken 
finger or two now and his ego will be using crutches 
for many months to come, but there is a price you have 
to pay for teachings, especially when they are 
delivered by top-drawer experts. 

So, Brian pushes Susan to the floor, in front of Mark. 
I have to pull out because I want to catch it all: 

- The expression on her face as she looks up to him. No 
words, just pure, unadulterated helplessness

- The shape of her body, as she crawls on all fours; 
the arch of her back; the way her breasts hang, her 
tortured and burnt nipples pointing to the floor, 
looking old and wrinkly; the way her right leg is 
stretched behind and the right one takes most of her 
body weight

- The horror, the pure horror on Mark's face. Or I 
should say OF Mark's face. Because that's what it is. 
Bloody pulp. Swollen lips and broken teeth. Eyes 
invisible under tissue bursting with black, red and 
blue.

Mark makes a feeble gesture with his head as Susan 
approaches him, perhaps attempting to say something but 
all that can be registered is the change in breathing. 
He is helpless in quite a different way than Susan, 
humiliated in quite a different way. Worse, maybe. I am 
not sure he is hurt worse than her, though. 

Then again, he deserved it, didn't he? Or, in the 
least, he brought it up on himself. Fuck you, you fat 
bastard, if you had any brains on you any of the 
mornings you were leaving your house so far in your 
life, you wouldn't be sitting on the floor of your own 
bedroom now, cuffed to the bed, smashed and pathetic. 

And now, this smashed, pathetic little bastard who 
thought he could fuck with Stan, now he is going to get 
a blow job from the woman who has given me the hardest 
hard-on in living memory. The sexiest woman I have met. 
It's funny... I never ever considered myself one of 
those MILF guys. My girlfriend is twenty-two, for God's 
sake. I am a young male in his prime, a fuck machine 
hardcoded for pursuit and interception of young, fair 
maidens. But now... Now I don't know...

And this fat, underachieving fuck has something in him 
that attracted this woman. Perhaps it's the money? Is 
Susan like that? Is she?

I don't know, I don't know... I only know I wish I was 
down there right now. I zoom in, but it's not the same. 

Mark moans through his smashed lips when Susan touches 
his (comically tiny) cock with her fingers. She has 
beautiful fingers, long, shapely fingernails painted 
deep red, some elegant jewellery. Her touch is light, 
even I can see that. Yet, he moans in pain. Mark's gear 
seems to be broken. Granted, it did have to suffer 
through some rather harsh manhandling. 

Susan looks up to Mark and her lips form the words 'I 
am sorry', with the look in her eyes that communicates 
everything from the absolute horror to the everlasting 
hope. 

In this moment I understand that I am jealous. 

"Get ON with it, you fucking cunt! We don't have all 
night!!"

The room bursts into laughter. 

"Hahaha, oh, my," says Brian wiping mock tears out of 
the corners of his eyes. "I didn't know you had it in 
you Grant, man. I guess even the soft, arty types like 
you eventually fall prey to the power of the dark side, 
eh?"

Alan is smiling as well and Frank's bulky carcass 
reminds me of a hillside suffering an earthquake. 

OK, so they didn't find this particularly convincing. 
So, they are a bunch of thugs. The woman, though, the 
VICTIM, she got the message. I am sure she did. 

I look at her, not through my camera, I move it away 
from my face and look at Susan, hoping she'd look my 
way. What am I hoping to see on her face? Fear? 
Submission? Or... understanding? What am I hoping she 
will see on mine? 

Compassion?

Is it?

Does she? Does she understand that I am here merely 
because there is nothing else for me to do in this 
country? Does she understand that I could not prevent 
this from happening? Does she understand that I am not 
like these guys? I am not a thug. I would never hurt 
her. I would never... rape her... like they did... I am 
just a camera guy. 

Do you see that? Do you Susan? Under other 
circumstances, I could tell you all this. And more. I 
could make sure you understand. There is more to me 
than meets the eye, honest, I swear Susan. You have to 
believe me. Do you believe me? Do you?

But her eyes never leave Marks's face. Smashed, broken, 
swollen, ugly face of a superficial moron who failed to 
understand the opportunities and risks life put in 
front of him. So, Mark got what he deserved. 

And... Mark got much more than he deserved. Much, much 
more. 

"On with it, woman," says Alan, his voice bearing just 
a tiny, nasty reminder of him being a patient man, yet 
reaching the limit of his patience. "You two'll have 
all the time in the world to talk and fondle once this 
is done. But now, pray let us enjoy the spectacle of 
you swallowing this man's penis. Let us see you do your 
magic."

"please...baby... forgive me..."

It's a whisper that I can barely hear and even that 
because I am very close to the two of them now. I am 
practically WITH the two of them now. And yet, I am so 
far out. 

She begs his forgiveness. But Mark only makes soft 
moaning noises. Is that supposed to be pain, fat boy? 
Pleasure? Understanding? Do you understand at all? DO 
YOU?

"She'll never make it happen," says Brian lighting 
another cigarette. "Our man Frankie here applied his 
soccer technique in all the right places. This guy will 
be pissing blood for a fucking week."

"Don't underestimate the power of a woman in love, 
lad," says Alan. "Love can move mountains and raise the 
dead. All sorts of wonders may happen."

"Sure," says Frank. "Love can hurt really bad but it 
can also make you feel godlike for a minute or so."

"I believe you are talking about cocaine there, old 
boy," says Alan. "But let's all just be quiet and allow 
Susan here to prove herself in real-life situation. 
Come on, Susan, you may be just a woman in love, like 
Barbara Streisand, but that just may be enough here, 
eh?"

Susan doesn't answer. She is still just lightly 
touching Mark's genitals. Trying to gently break him 
in, so to say.

"Of course, I expect results, not just good will," 
continues Alan, his tone unchanged. "So, if you fail to 
bring our friend Mark here to the desired heights of 
orgasm within, say, ten minutes, your nipple, and I am 
not specifying which one, that can be your choice after 
all, but your nipple will meet the barrel of my gun."

I look at Alan. And, no, no, he is not bluffing, he'll 
do it. He'll shoot her nipple off. 

"And then you'll have, what, five minutes to finish the 
work. I am sure that having one nipple less might 
distract you somewhat from the task at hand, woman, so 
I suggest you stick with the original timeframe. Okay?"

Serviced with a smile. A vile, devilish smile, but a 
smile nonetheless. Holy shit he'll do it. 

The sounds in the room seem to have been sucked out 
through a black hole. Or is it the blood pressure in my 
head?

Brian and Frank use a stylish coffee table to cut sharp 
white lines that they then inhale and then curse and 
laugh and hit each other's shoulders with fists. 

"No more breastfeeding for you woman," laughs Brian. 
"Not to mention that hubby will have fewer things to 
play with once you go back to your comfy family nest."

"Tick... tick... tick... the time's-a-ticking, cunt," 
says Alan, pointing at his wristwatch with his gun. I 
still don't understand how a person like him can wear a 
digital watch. But, like many other things about him, I 
never question it. 

"how can you... how can you be like this?" Susan's 
voice is harsh and she doesn't seem to be able to speak 
much louder than an elevated whisper. "Why don't you 
just rape me like they did? Just fuck me any way you 
want, anywhere you want." Sobs break her attempt at 
bravery. Then coughs. 

This is Susan being noble. Making a sacrifice. She 
really, really cares about that guy. 

I have been at the wrong end of the camera for such a 
long time it started looking right to me. I'm at the 
wrong end tonight. 

Brian is a violent person on a good day. On a bad day 
he is murderous. And when he does heroin, he fucking 
combusts. Most people don't bother with the outside 
world when they do one. Not Brian. He gets more 
enthusiastic about hurting people. Even himself. He 
feels no pain or something like that.

So he steps in and, cursing at Susan he grabs her hair 
and throws her face first into Mark's groin. 

"Start sucking that fucking cock, you slut or, so help 
me, missing a nipple or two will be the least of your 
worries. I'll mail your fucking clit to your husband 
just to get warm, bitch!"

Why can't he be a little more like Frank, who rummages 
through a pile of books the two of them swept off the 
coffee table before they turned it into a takeoff site? 
Frank laughs a demented laugh.

"He'll do it, whore, he'll do it. Trust me, he'll do 
it. Just thought you should know."

I think she trusts him. She closes her lips around 
Mark's cock head. 

I zoom in as Mark starts moaning. This is not a deep 
purr of a lover enjoying a tender touch of a soft pair 
of lips and a velvety tongue. Rather, this is him 
trying to simultaneously keep his latest meal in and 
drive Susan away from his aching member. One out of two 
isn't bad. He twitches in his shackles. 

"That's it, slut, that's it, munch on that cock," 
mumbles Brian, watching Mark wiggle like a fucking eel 
as Susan gently sucks his penis in. He grabs her hair 
and pushes her head down. "Let's see some swallowing 
there, cunt, let's see you deepthroat this 
motherfucker." He pushes down, violently. "Come on, 
cunt! Show some fucking enthusiasm! Is this any way to 
treat the man you love, eh? Or do you only love his 
money, eh?"

That fucking smackhead. Is he right? God, is he?

Susan is crying. Her eyes are closed, her face looks 
like a child used it for painting practice, tears 
running down, unstoppable, large, as she sucks on the 
pathetically limp organ. Her lover twitches and moans, 
his bulky frame comically slamming against the bed as 
he is trying to get away from her. 

"That's not going to happen," comments Frank in a 
matter-of-fact voice. "Here's twenty bucks saying that 
she loses both her nipples. And then some."

Mark now grunts in a way not unlike what Frank did some 
minutes back. I believe his reasons might be different 
but the overall context is the same. Humiliation, pain, 
forced sex... This is the soundtrack one way or the 
other.

"Thus spoke the man of no faith." Brian looks at me 
than Frank. "I'll take you on that one, nigga. You have 
yet to witness the miracle of love."

He actually takes a twenty dollar bill out of his 
pocket and places it on the table. Then he leans 
towards Susan again.

"You've heard it, bitch. Now it's serious. I put some 
money on you. Let's just say I am ready to give you a 
chance to convince me you are not such a lousy blow 
after all." He grabs her hair again and pulls her head 
up. "Look at me! You're now fucking up with my income, 
bitch. Don't fuck it up. You don't want to fuck me 
over. If you do, you'll wish you could just bite your 
own nipples off and walk because what I'll do to you is 
going to leave you seriously crippled and useless for 
ever, bitch!!"

Alan laughs but he waves at Brian.

"I am sure she has got the message by now, lad, I am 
sure she'd never fuck you over. Or any other way, 
especially after you've proven yourself to be a 
somewhat selfish lover. Now I believe you'd better 
leave the lady focus on the job. Your shouting is 
certain to break any concentration she might be able to 
attain, not to mention it's utterly ruining the mood 
for the gentleman. And she only has seven minutes left 
until she waves goodbye to her less favourite nipple."

And so it goes. With Mark thrashing in his bondage and 
his woman nobly trying to win the race she never had a 
chance of winning. It's like getting the turtle to 
outrun the rabbit, but breaking its legs first and then 
forcing it to tow a trailer behind it. It goes on with 
time ticking away and Brian walking around the room 
like a caged animal, cursing and threatening under his 
breath. It goes on with Alan's smile growing wider and 
wider as he casts glances at his watch and Frank's head 
falling down to his chest, then getting up then falling 
down again.

"I have to say you seem to have been betting on the 
wrong horse all evening, old boy," says Alan. "Not only 
that this woman here is nothing of a pro you imagined 
her to be but it seems that her oral technique is 
nowhere near the level required for the task at hand. 
Not surprising, having witnessed your clumsy attempts 
at teaching her, I have to say."

"She's fucked, man, she is fucked." Brian states the 
obvious with such passion I would like to scream at him 
and smash my camera against his face. But I don't. I 
shut up and keep taping.

And, oh my fucking God, it ticks away, the time ticks 
away. I have lost some of my hard on. The shit is too 
fucking deranged right now. Too fucking sick and 
deranged. My penis is semi-soft now, the insides of my 
boxers wet and sticky. Jesus, fuck!! This whole thing 
is wrong. 

There's maybe two and a half more minutes. At best. 
Mark's cock is as limp as it's ever going to be. Susan 
uses her tongue, lips, her hand, she sucks and licks 
the pathetic little thing but it won't wake up, won't 
do anything but stay soft and oblivious. 

You don't have to be hard to ejaculate. Everyone knows 
that. But Mark is so far away from any kind of sexual 
arousal that nothing short of a miracle will save his 
woman's body from mutilation. 

You fucking fat moron. You fucking impotent bastard. 
Even when you were hard, you had to have her ride you 
because you're too fucking fat to do anything useful. 
And now you let it all go wrong. You made her depend on 
whether you can get your cock up and fucking ejaculate 
within a time limit, you fucking impotent moron. 

Alan's smile is wider and wider. And wider. As the 
digits race each other on his wrist he is quieter and 
somehow more content. He savours every second. Sick 
fuck. Fucking sick fuck. He loves every moan we get 
from Mark, every sob we get from Susan. He'll do it, 
he'll fucking shoot her nipples off. And then, aw, God, 
who knows what he'll do then. 

"You are more of a disappointment than I thought you'd 
be, slut." Smiling, he is still smiling. "You're not 
even trying. Brian must be right, you only love this 
man's money. You don't love him or his penis. That's 
depressing. I used to believe in love. I used to."

Susan's back tremble with sobs and spasms as a fresh 
supply of tears gushes forth. There's fluid coming out 
of her nose, eyes, mouth. She uselessly runs her tongue 
up and down Mark's penis.

Alan suddenly speaks louder, as his hand reaches for 
his zipper.

"Do you hear that, Marky? Do you hear this, my friend? 
This woman here who let you fuck her in exchange for 
expensive dinners and perfumes and, let me guess, 
weekends in the countryside, this woman is nothing but 
a gold digger, my friend. How does that feel? 
Disappointing? Depressing? Hey, it took us coming over 
and kicking the shit out of you before you learned it, 
but it was worth it, wasn't it? You might think what we 
did to you was bad but we were just doing our job. And 
male solidarity practically obliges us to open your 
eyes for you, Marky. This bitch here never loved you or 
cared about you, boy. Never. And me teaching her a 
lesson via interaction of hot lead and soft flesh 
should be something you enthusiastically approve of."

All this talking and he barely manages to find his own 
penis in his trousers. He takes it out and it's soft, 
white and looking ill. Unlike Brian and Frank, Alan 
does heroin before we set out to do business. And 
after. And probably several times more a day. And he 
doesn't use his nose. 

So what the fuck is he doing? Is he going to wank now? 
Wank while he mutilates Susan? Or perhaps make her do 
the comical blow-job attempt on him? I doubt he can get 
it up any faster than Mark here. What the fuck?

But he steps up to the couple on the floor. He keeps 
talking. 

"Let me try and be a good sport and give your whore 
some support, Marky. A dirty slut like her might find 
this actually motivates her to work harder."

It's a trickle at first, and I jump back before it 
lands on my shoes. Then it actually starts for real and 
hits Susan in the back of the head. Then Mark starts 
moaning in a new way. Brian is grinning like a big, 
evil child. Frank's head continues its nodding routine. 

"Give him some of it too man, let him taste it!" is 
Brian's enthusiastic contribution.

But Alan carefully aims as he walks around the couple 
on the floor, so most of his piss ends up on Susan's 
face, in her hair, on her neck and hands, on Marks' 
groin and body. Susan doesn't make a sound though. She 
cries, silently, tremors ripping through her body. 

As Alan makes sure the last drop is squeezed on Susan's 
head, he packs up and looks at his watch.

"Well, that was relieving, but as far as I can tell - 
useless. And you have exactly one minute before you 
become less of a woman than you were this morning, my 
dear."

So this is it. 

Brian Mumbles something about his money. 

OK.

This is IT.

Susan...

She is crying...

This is IT. This is the bleeding moment. 

"Like fucking HELL!"

They turn their heads. Even Frank.

"Like fucking hell motherfucker! Like bloody fucking 
hell!"

I throw the camera on the bed in a gesture that would 
look exaggerated weren't it for the fact that I really 
am in the middle of an emotional peak. That it's fear 
rather than rage makes little difference. I throw the 
fucking thing down and it bounces before it falls to 
the floor. 

"That's fucking bullshit that I am not going to take!!"

OK, I have their attention now, no?

"Those two rednecks get to fuck her while she's fresh 
and enthusiastic, eh? But me, I only get damaged goods, 
eh? Like fucking hell, Alan, like fucking bloody hell!! 
I'm tired of this fucking shit."

Before anyone says anything (and I bet they are all 
struggling for words, startled by my little hysteric 
feat), I grab Susan's wet hair and throw her against 
the bed. Even fucked up the way she is, she still 
instinctively tries to put her hands in front of her 
face. Good, because that gives me an excuse to slap 
her. More than once. And that makes everything look a 
lot more convincing. 

"Wooo, look at our boy Grant there," says Frank 
finally, almost like a proud father after his boy 
scores in the field. 

I almost rip my jeans in half when I pull them open. 
Then I violently tug at Susan's hair.

And I am in.

Oh God... Oh, my God... This... This... This is 
different from anything. Anything I have ever 
experienced. Oh, my God, Christ, Susan. Oh God, I am 
going to die, oh God...

Of course, the words coming out of my mouth are 
different. And, no, I am not acting. I am not sure I 
can explain. There's two of me now, for wont of a 
better explanation. One of me who desperately wants to 
tell Susan about it all. And to explain the feeling of 
dying he is experiencing, dying and rebirth, all 
wrapped into one, the feeling she is giving me as I 
fuck her unwilling, soft, warm mouth. That one wants to 
tell her of angels and cosmos. The other one... The 
other one is calling her a slut, a dirty whore. The 
other one pulls her hair while the first one dreams of 
caressing her afterwards.

And when I come it's the two of me colliding, head-on. 
Crashing into each other and burning as limbs sink into 
bodies and bones crack. I am coming into Susan's mouth 
and screaming like mad. I am filling her with my cum, 
the way I never did with my girlfriend, or any girl I 
have ever been with. 

Only Susan. Only she could give this to me. And I hurt 
her. I stood as the others raped and humiliated her. 
And then I raped her as well. Took her like the 
cheapest crack whore, fucked her mouth and came down 
her throat. 

Susan... Forgive me. I am a pussy, I am just a little 
British boy who is still trying to find his way around 
the colonies. I am sorry. 

I throw her down, to the floor in disgust. 

"Fucking bitch!! You can't suck cock to save your 
fucking life, but you can swallow that fucking cum!"

I turn to Alan. My cock is still hard as I put it back. 
I want him to fucking see it. To witness my masculine 
power. Fucking junkie piece of shit who thinks being 
British means he is my father or something.

"Now let's get the fuck out of here! I am sick and 
tired of you motherfuckers acting like a bunch of 
fucking retarded children here!!"

Alan looks at me with a question mark on his face. He 
inhales, as if to say something but I cut in.

"I said let's get the FUCK out of here before you 
idiots do something even more stupid here! You think 
because I am the youngest here I'll let you ruin my 
fucking job for me, eh? That I'll shut up as a bunch of 
fucking junkies loses their fucking marbles and turns a 
job into a fucking countryside weekend? Well you're 
fucking wrong, you're dead wrong."

Well, hopefully I have seen enough mob and yakuza 
flicks to pull a decent bluff here. Not that I am not 
angry enough, but I am scared way, way more than that. 

"That kid has some mouth on him," mumbles Frank.

"Kid, let me tell you something," says Brian in a 
menacing voice as he steps up to me. This is it. A fist 
in the face and a knee in the groin is the best 
possible outcome. I should be so lucky. No one talks to 
Stan the Man's enforcers this way. Brian reaches for 
his piece. This is it. 

"No."

No?

There is no smile on Alan's face. But he just said 
'no'. He is not smiling, but his hand gestures at 
Brian. 

"Grant, you and I will have a word about this. You will 
not bloody like it, I can guarantee you that. You will 
not like it. But not here." He gestures at Frank and 
Brian. "Gentlemen, we are leaving. This party is 
officially over."

They protest and mumble under their breath but they 
listen. No one mentions the twenty dollar bet. I think 
they'll never mention it. 

"Remember slut. You have never seen us. Remember." 
Brian whispers on his way out. Then he kicks Mark into 
groin, savagely, violently. Then he laughs.

"As for you, motherfucker, you better remember well 
when was the last time you saw us and make sure we 
don't meet again. We might decide to forget our manners 
and get real nasty."

Susan lies on the bed, on her back, facing the ceiling, 
but her eyes are closed. I know that because, when I go 
to pick my camera up from the floor, I try to get her 
to look into my eyes. Just one look. Just one look is 
all I need to explain. But I don't get it – her eyes 
stay closed, her arms helplessly resting on her chest. 

We walk out, one by one. I won't like it. I won't like 
it one bit. Alan has made a promise. I know he means 
it. 

Fuck him. Fuck him and his stiff British accent and his 
faux-noble manners. Fuck his gentlemanly behaviour and 
measured words. Fuck him. 

I won't like it, but that's tomorrow. Only tomorrow. 
For now, it's OK. I'm OK. I am OK.


6.


It's already tomorrow. The ride home was actually quiet 
with the three of my coworkers dozing off most of the 
way. Except for Alan who gave me some really strange 
looks. 

Fuck him.

It's already tomorrow as I reach my pad and call 
Janice. She asks about my job and I tell her in a bored 
voice that it's nothing she'd find amusing. She knows 
what I do for a living, the little bitch is a mob 
groupie after all, but she doesn't want details. Nor 
she'd ever get them. She asks whether I want her to 
come over. No, I don't. It's past midnight and I'd like 
to have a rest. I have some more stuff lined up for 
tomorrow morning. She asks if I am sure. Of course I am 
bloody sure. Oh, yeah, sorry. Just tired is all. 

We'll speak tomorrow. Sure. She can get her portion of 
cock served elsewhere tonight anyway. I am sure she 
helps herself to it when I am not around. 

And I don't think I'll be around much soon. Not around 
Janice or Stan's little family. Or this town. Or this 
country even.

Fuck them. Fuck them all.

I have a shower. 

I get back to the room and play some soft music in the 
back. The telly is on. It has been on while I was out 
too. It has a life of its own. 

I sit on the bed in my boxers. I look at my camera. I 
think.

I plug it in and the telly has to break its non-stop 
routine of reality shows and commercials to play my 
footage instead. 

I rewind the tape. Then I fast forward through boring 
parts. 

I wipe my nose while I wank. I don't exactly shed any 
tears. Well, two or three, maybe. 

The sounds are so different when heard through speakers 
rather than being there. 

The light makes the images look a lot more mysterious 
this time around. 

Susan's body looks like something out of dreams. 

I wank, I squeeze myself really hard when the rape 
starts for real. 

I hate myself. And I am so fucking hard all over again. 
And now I can take my time as I know how it goes and 
how it ends. No risk now. No tension. Just a woman 
being broken and raped. A beautiful, helpless woman, 
raped and defiled. 

I keep a steady pace. No hurry now.

And when Susan's credit card and driver's license get 
their moment on screen I stop.

I freeze the picture. 

I take the pen. 

I can google her phone number in the morning. 

Well, I can.

But I do it now. 

Wow, a lucky shot there because her mobile phone number 
is what comes up first.

I type it into my phone. 

I should go to sleep now as I need to get up rather 
early and burn a DVD for Stan. And it goes without 
saying that I have to edit the rape out. 

But I prefer watching the tape a bit more. I want to 
come again. 

But before I do I'll send a text message.

I take my phone again. 

This is awkward. This is downright weird. 

I put my thumb on the tiny keyboard. 

'Susan... I know there is no way in hell anyone could 
be forgiven for what I did this evening...'

I stop there. This is as good a start as I can hope 
for. I smile an embarrassed, bitter smile.

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This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author
does not condone the described behavior in real life.

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