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My Weird Little Sex Life
by The Gargoyle (thegarg0yle@hotmail.com)

***

My entirely true erotic history, age 5 to 36, succinct, 
not indulgent, sometimes humorous, including: first 
time straight sex, first time gay sex and foot worship 
and public sex. (Mm, MF, ped, reluc, voy, feet)

***

The following content is absolutely true. I've changed 
most of the names, both biographical and geographical, 
in attempt to safeguard my own anonymity.

***

AGE 5

I got a thing for feet. Always have. This sounds 
ridiculous but I think it's got something to do with 
this: Socks and underwear. As a small child I saw some 
kind of connection between socks and underwear.

I understood very clearly that the things behind your 
underwear were private. You weren't supposed to see the 
things behind other people's underwear nor were you 
supposed to expose the things beneath your own.

Underwear formed an extra layer between your clothes 
and your body - between your pants and your really 
private parts. Socks also formed an extra layer - 
between your feet and your shoes. So I interpreted that 
your feet were also private. I think that's the source 
of the fetish.

I remember in kindergarten - one day in gym class. 
There was a new kid in our class. He must have just 
moved to the neighborhood. He didn't have the proper 
gym attire. Now for crying out loud, we were five years 
old. How could one not have the proper gym attire? 
Shorts, T-shirts and sneakers were the standard issue 
for five-year olds. 

What the hell else would five-year olds wear to school? 
Okay so this kid might have been new to the country let 
alone our kindergarten class. The point is - He had 
these shiny black shoes that were right out of the 
question when it came to gym class. Therefore he went 
barefoot. 

Barefoot.

I was stunned. His naked feet slapped against the gym 
floor as he ran around. He might as well have been 
running around with no pants or underwear as far as I 
was concerned. How could he dare expose himself like 
that? I would have fought to the bloody death before 
stripping my feet naked in front of a classroom of boys 
and girls.


At this time in my life I spent a lot of time with my 
grandparents. I have an uncle only ten years my senior 
and at that time he was around 15 and had a bedroom in 
the basement of my grandparent's house. I spent many 
nights in his bed with him, in our pajamas. I remember 
one night we were horsing around on his bed and for a 
joke he grabbed my bare foot and stuck my toes in his 
mouth. Don't get me wrong. He's entirely straight. For 
him it was strictly a joke but I suppose it must have 
left a mark on me - for me to remember it to this day. 

I was already masturbating at this time. I started at 
age four. I guess that's a little precocious. I 
discovered it by humping a pillow in effort to suppress 
the urge to pee. For the next 13 years I got off 
strictly by humping pillows. Oddly I never thought to 
use my hand till I was 17.

This practice of humping pillows - When I was very 
young I gave it the name "homework" of all things. 
Homework was a term I'd heard from my young uncle and 
aunt and I didn't really know what it meant, nor would 
I have known the term for pillow-humping so I guess I 
just threw the two things together. It would have 
seemed sensible enough to a four-or-five-year-old. 

 One evening in my uncle's bedroom I wanted his 
attention - probably wanted him to play a game with me. 
But he, sitting at his desk explained, "I can't. I'm 
doing my homework."

"Well then I'm gonna do my homework too," I declared 
and proceeded to climb onto his bed and grind myself 
silly against his pillow. He just looked at me a little 
strange and that's when I began to realize that my 
'homework' wasn't necessarily fit for public 
performance.


THREE APPROACHES

The school where I attended kindergarten was quite 
close to our apartment - separated only by a large park 
and small wooded area. One evening my friends and I 
were playing in the park and one by one they were 
called home. I think there was a rule that I was to go 
home whenever the last of my friends were called home 
but on this evening I didn't. I decided to hang out all 
alone for a while just to be adventurous.

The sun was setting. I heard a voice calling to me. It 
came from the dense coniferous trees on the other side 
of the steel 'frost' fence that bordered the park. I 
spied a boy - significantly older than myself - wedged 
between the trees and motioning me to come over. I 
obeyed - perhaps out of fear. I was generally shy and 
mistrusting of older boys - assuming they were mostly 
only interested in beating up younger boys. 

I approached cautiously, planning to run like hell if 
he started to climb the fence. I don't remember how the 
conversation started but he quickly brought it around 
to the subject of 'streaking'. I'd never heard that 
term before. He explained it meant taking off all of 
one's clothes and running around in public. He claimed 
he did it all the time and urged me to give it a try - 
right then and there.

I was not comfortable with this and not at all keen to 
try. He offered incentives. He explained that there 
were great rewards for taking off my clothes - 
chocolate, cash, my very own TV for my bedroom. He said 
he'd been given all these things in return for 
stripping naked. I didn't believe him but was afraid to 
say so. He must have really wanted to see me naked 
because he tried for the longest time to convince me. I 
wanted him to leave me alone but was a bit scared to 
leave without his permission.

It was growing dark. We heard my mother calling for me. 
He did some serious back-pedaling in a hurry. He told 
me that what streaking really meant was being a good 
boy and doing what my mother told me. Then he took off.

The next day I told my friend Johnny about the 
encounter. He wasn't especially bright. At the mention 
of the chocolate, cash and TV he promptly stripped 
himself naked and began running laps around the parking 
lot. His mom showed up all of a sudden and gave him an 
earful and a whack on the ass. No cash or prizes. 

That was the first of three such propositions through 
my childhood. What can I say? I was a pretty cute kid.

*

Around the age of eight I met a new friend who's family 
had just immigrated from England. He became very 
popular because he had all kinds of toys that none of 
us had. He had an older brother that we never saw much 
of but one day he and I found ourselves alone together.

He had a very cool bike - the envy of the neighborhood 
- basically the early version of the 'motocross' 
bicycle. He offered to 'double' me on it. I sat in 
front of him and we rode around the apartment complex 
for a while, then stopped and sat side by side on the 
slope of a hill. He asked me what I wanted to do and I 
had no suggestion. I had no idea why this older boy 
would take an interest in me. I do now. 

He suggested a game I'd never heard of before. He 
explained that one person would lie on their back while 
the second person would remove articles of the first 
person's clothing - one at a time - and have a peak at 
what lay beneath. I assumed the objective of the first 
person was to try to stop the second person. Not so, he 
explained. The first person was supposed to let it 
happen and simultaneously strip the second person. I 
didn't show a lot of interest in the idea and so he let 
it pass. 

Would-be molester number three was a little more 
aggressive. This occurred at about age 11. I met an 
older boy who lived across the street and a few doors 
down. Though we hardly spoke much we would always 
gravitate towards each other if I had no other friends 
about. 

We would just ride our bikes around together and speak 
very little. He never approached when I was with 
friends. It was a strange association. One day we left 
the suburban survey where we then lived and found 
ourselves at a tree-lined creek surrounded by fields of 
very tall grass. It was a popular place for my friends 
and I to play but he was a bit too old for that crowd.

We dismounted from our bikes and walked alongside the 
creek for bit. The boy then told me that he wanted me 
to go lie down in the tall grass with him and that he 
wanted to take my clothes off. I said I wouldn't do 
that. He explained that no one would be able to see us 
and that he would strip too if that would make me feel 
more comfortable. I declined. He wouldn't take no for 
an answer. He threatened to throw my bike into the 
creek if I would not cooperate.

He tried for a long time to convince me but I wouldn't 
budge. Finally he marched back to our bikes, took mine 
and disappeared into the trees. I crept along the 
opposite side of the creek and spied on him. He found a 
place where the creek was wide and shallow. He 
carefully descended the steep bank and placed the bike 
on a little 'island' of sand. I was much smaller than 
him and didn't know if I'd be able to get the bike back 
up that bank on my own.

I sneaked back to where we'd last talked and he met me 
there. I played dumb and asked for my bike back. He 
lied. He said it was submerged and that I wouldn't find 
it. He would only relocate it and give it back after I 
got naked with him. He tried at length but couldn't 
convince me. Finally he returned to the bike and 
brought it back to me - safe and sound. He rode away 
and never approached me again.


AGE 13 - 15

Shortly after this I was moved to a newly built bedroom 
in the basement of our house. This afforded plenty of 
privacy and I would stay up very late, often reading 
books or exploring sexual fantasies. I was still 
humping pillows at that time and I discovered that the 
mirror on my antique dresser could swivel up and down 
if I removed a pin in the back that was holding it in 
place. I would angle the mirror slightly down, climb on 
to my bed stark naked, chest down and looking forward 
at the mirror. I had a nice body - trim and toned. I 
liked to watch my naked butt (albeit at a sharp angle) 
as I humped away on the pillow.

I explored fantasies of being accidentally or forcibly 
exposed to girls. I would take scissors and cut my 
underwear down to almost nothing. I'd wear only that 
and incorporate it into my exposure fantasies.

Sometimes I would turn out the lights, open my curtains 
and sit naked on the deep window sill, parallel to the 
window with my bare butt and feet on the cool ledge, 
arms around my knees. There was a streetlight right in 
front of the house and I was pretty sure I was visible 
from outside, not that anyone would likely be looking 
in my direction.

Being a basement room the window was right at ground 
level. Several nights I got really gutsy and opened the 
window and climbed outside stark naked. I never went 
further then our front lawn.

Unfortunately it was a storm window and I couldn't 
figure out how to re-attach the screen once it was off. 
Eventually my parents discovered what I'd done to the 
window and gave me shit for it. I claimed I'd broken 
into the house when I'd forgot my key. They re-
installed the screen and I never pulled that stunt 
again.

The street that ran behind our house parallel to our 
street was at a higher elevation than ours so the lots 
that backed on to ours were higher, their houses were 
higher and thus the fence between afforded lots of 
privacy to their yards and almost none to ours. One 
afternoon I went into the backyard shirtless to talk to 
my mom who was sitting in a lounge chair reading a 
magazine. She glanced at the house behind ours and 
smiled and said, "Did you know there's a girl staring 
out the window at you?"

I hadn't known but it was kind of flattering. 

*

An older widowed British woman lived next door and I 
would cut her grass and sometimes clean her pool. My 
family was welcomed to use the pool whenever she wasn't 
home. The first time my folks let me use it unattended 
I got a little adventurous. I untied the string on my 
bathing suit and began diving into the pool, climbing 
out and diving over and over again. 

Each time I dove the suit would pull down a bit by the 
force of hitting the water but I would never adjust it. 
Eventually it was half way down my hips and my dick and 
ass were both half-visible. 

I wouldn't even look at the windows of the houses 
behind, not wanting to know for sure if anyone was 
watching or not. On the next dive the suit came 
completely off and I continued naked for a while. I was 
excited and scared at the same time.

My friend Steve Edison was a year younger than me. He 
was a bit of a pervert and quite likely gay or possibly 
bisexual. I haven't seen him since high school. He and 
his brother would have friends over for little skinny 
dipping parties. His parents consented to these events 
and would check on us periodically. It was usually his 
mother who would pop out the back door without warning 
and she caught many glimpses of myself and other naked 
adolescent boys this way. It was kind of funny at the 
time and didn't concern me much.

They also hosted many sleepovers. We'd bed down in 
sleeping bags in the basement rec-room during cold 
months and in the summer we'd tent it in the back yard. 
Steve made it clear that the Edison's bed-time ritual 
must be observed by their guests. When Steve and his 
brother were ready for bed they would always go 
downstairs and kiss their mother goodnight. I assume 
this was usually done in pajamas. 

During sleepovers we all slept in our underwear because 
that was the 'cool' thing to do. So before bed Steve 
would insist that we all strip to our underwear and 
parade to the living room or kitchen and present our 
half-naked selves to his mother for good-night kisses. 
It seemed harmless enough at the time but in hindsight 
seems a little suspect, doesn't it?


AGE 16-17

We started hanging out with a group of girls our age 
and some couples were formed. Two of the girls, Monique 
and Krista were quite interested in me but I had a 
pretty good sense by this time that girls weren't 
exactly my cup of tea - at least - they weren't as 
interesting to me as boys were. 

One evening a friend's parents were out and we were 
sitting around their kitchen table playing cards. 
Monique, sitting directly across from me raised her leg 
and rested her foot on my chair between my legs. In no 
time she was grinding her toes against my crotch. I let 
her do it for a while but I wouldn't sleep with her 
despite her repeated hints.

We boys were skinny-dipping at the Edison's one night 
when we heard the girls show up at the side gate. We 
all scrambled into our suits and climbed out of the 
pool to greet them. They were quite brazen, suggesting 
that we remove our suits and go back to what we were 
doing. We said we'd skinny dip if they would. They 
wouldn't but made it quite clear that they'd like to 
watch us at it. They became quite adamant that we 
should strip off and 'just pretend they weren't there' 
but it never happened.

Krista stood next to me and put her arm around my 
waist. I wasn't interested in her but didn't mind the 
contact. Her fingers began to wander around my lower 
back and then down to the waistband of my wet shorts. 
Eventually she slipped below the waistband and cupped 
the upper half of my right butt cheek, her fingers 
almost imperceptibly caressing my ass. That's as far as 
it went.

Mr. and Mrs. Edison were out of town that weekend. We 
boys stayed overnight. There was some very underage 
drinking going on and a very cute boy named Kevin ended 
up in just his underwear and got very friendly and 
cuddly with everyone - boys and girls alike. 

The next morning we were back in the pool when the 
girls showed up again. We weren't naked but Kevin was 
still in just his 'tighty whitey' underwear which by 
this time had become ripped in various places and were 
soaking wet from the pool. The girls had a hay-day with 
this, grabbing his undies at every opportunity and 
shredding them more. 

He couldn't have cared less and I found it all very 
arousing. Half his adorable little ass was showing as 
were his testicles for the most part and occasionally - 
depending on the angle - his dick. I was praying one of 
the girls would just rip the damn things off him but no 
such luck. 

I lost touch with Kevin shortly after that and then 
heard that he had died while still in his teens. Some 
rare cancer or leukemia or something. He was such a 
sweet kid. Too sad.


OLD MACDONALD

I was taking a photography class in grade ten and one 
Saturday I biked up a 200-foot ridge (locally referred 
to as 'the mountain') and went to a park that offered a 
grand view of the city. I snapped some pictures and 
strolled through the flower gardens. I noticed that a 
woman about my mother's age seemed to always be in the 
area and kept looking at me.

I sat on a bench overlooking the view and looked 
through the camera, fiddling with the aperture, shutter 
speed and focus settings. I sensed someone taking a 
seat beside me. It was the woman. She started up a 
conversation. She asked about my interest in 
photography and school in general. Her name was Marilyn 
MacDonald (her real name by the way) and she turned out 
to be a high school teacher but at a different school 
than mine. 

She told me how she'd married a farmer's son at an 
early age and they were still together with two kids - 
on a farm of their own in a rural community about a 
half-hour away. Apparently her husband was a little 
older and had had his eye on her for a while before her 
parents allowed her to date. She explained that she had 
never dated or "been with" anyone but him.

This subtle reference to sex gave me a pretty good idea 
where all this was going and even though I was pretty 
sure I was gay I wasn't sure if I might be bisexual and 
wasn't entirely against the idea of finding out.

She confessed that some of her own students had started 
to catch her eye. This didn't shock me. I had a female 
math teacher in a class where I sat in the front row. 
Whenever I wore shorts I would repeatedly catch her 
looking at my legs.

Marilyn asked if I had a girlfriend and smiled when I 
said no. She told me that her husband felt bad that as 
a teenager she had never experienced sex with anyone 
but him and that he now invited her to do so - but not 
with a full-grown man. He wanted to be her only man but 
she could have sex with a teenager if she wanted and 
suggested that she find a virgin to educate in the ways 
of sex. She said I was cute and asked had I had sex 
before. She was pleased when I confessed that I hadn't. 
Was I interested in getting together with her some 
time, she wanted to know. I said quite possibly, and 
she gave me her number.

After we'd said good-byes and she left, I watched her 
walk across the parking lot to the far side and climb 
into a pick-up truck. I turned back to the view and 
listened as the truck pulled up to the near side of the 
lot and parked again. Moments later I felt her hand on 
my shoulder.

"Do you want to get together now?" she asked. "Will you 
come home with me?"

I did. On the ride to her farm she assured me that we 
would be alone. She told me that she'd been looking for 
a young man for some time and that she'd placed an ad 
in a newspaper. It garnished just one reply but the 18-
year-old had declined at the last moment. 

We arrived at the farmhouse and sat in the living room, 
me on the couch. It didn't take long for things to heat 
up. She started to undress and I started to do likewise 
but she asked me to wait. She wanted to do that for me.

In just her bra and panties she came to me and lifted 
my tee shirt off. I raised my ass so she could take my 
shorts down. She removed my socks. I kept hearing 
creaking noises as she stripped me and I asked her more 
than once - was she sure we were alone in the house. 
There was no other vehicle in the lane-way but there 
was a garage and the door was shut. She assured me more 
than once that we were alone and next thing I knew her 
hand was inside my underwear playing with my dick. I 
marveled at the new sensation.

I thought I should reciprocate so I touched her breasts 
and she reached behind her to remove her bra. Off came 
my underwear, then hers. My dick was finally hard. I 
was hoping she'd suck it but she never did. She lay 
back on the couch and guided me inside. No condom. It 
was the wettest damn place I'd ever been. There was 
just so little friction I wondered how I'd get off. 
This didn't compare to a pillow at all.

"I'm sorry I'm so wet!" she actually said to me.

We went at it for a while. She continually ran her 
hands along my back and ass which felt good. I just 
wished there was more friction. 

I don't know if it was a sixth sense or what but 
suddenly I was absolutely positive we were not alone. I 
pulled out.

"Someone's in the house!" I insisted. She held on to me 
like she was afraid I'd bolt.

"It's okay," she said. "It's just my husband." I looked 
around wildly and there he was. I saw his head pulling 
back behind the corner of the hallway. 

"Come out," she told him. "It's okay," she said to me. 
"He just wants to watch. He won't touch you!"

My dick was softening quickly. This had become awfully 
weird all of a sudden. Her husband walked over and 
introduced himself. He knew my name already. He'd been 
listening to us the whole time. Here I was naked on my 
knees, straddling his wife on his couch. He shook my 
hand while his wife was shaking my dick, trying to keep 
it alive. I was sure I couldn't go on at this point.

He scooped up my clothes from the floor, haphazardly 
folding them and placing them on the coffee table. He 
complimented me on my body and urged us to continue 
while he took a seat and watched. I realized at this 
time that his motives were not entirely unselfish. He 
was clearly getting something out of this. 

We rutted some more, working up a good sweat. I got 
over the creepiness and started to get turned on at the 
idea of an audience. It took forever to come but I did. 
She didn't as far as I recall. The husband had taken my 
shorts and undies in the meantime and they were now in 
his hands on his lap. I don't know if he'd sniffed them 
or what.

Marilyn donned her panties and put on MY tee shirt. It 
was snug on her and I was a little irritated. I wanted 
to get dressed but they had confiscated everything but 
my socks. It was strange to be sitting around 
completely naked with two clothed adults while the wife 
sat beside me and continued to fondle my body. We 
talked for a while. The husband repeated many of the 
things she'd already told me. They'd got their story 
straight, true or not.

Eventually they surrendered my clothes, watched me 
dress and drove me back to the park, me sitting between 
them in the truck. They made me promise to call them 
but I didn't. I was shocked one day when my mother 
answered the phone, passed it to me and it was Marilyn. 
I can only surmise that I had some kind of ID in my 
shorts and that's how they were able to look up our 
number.

This pissed me off because now I had to come up with 
some story when my mother demanded to know who Marilyn 
was.

They really wanted to hook up again but I never did. 
That's the only time I've ever had my dick in a woman. 
I'm 36 now and I sometimes wonder if I've got a 20-year 
old son or daughter somewhere!


HIGH SCHOOL

While my encounter with Mrs. MacDonald and her 
voyeuristic husband convinced me that my preference 
indeed leaned to the gay side I still figured I'd lead 
a straight life. I had no intention of coming out of 
the closet to anyone because I saw no advantage to it.

Then I met Daryl. He was in the grade below me but was 
in my second semester English class because he was 
fast-tracking through high-school. That is - he was 
building a 5-year diploma in just 4 years.

Daryl was the first boy I found myself significantly 
attracted to. He was somewhat 'preppy' and often wore 
deck shoes to school without socks. During class he 
would sometimes slip his shoes off and I had a hard 
time concentrating on class and not eyeing his feet.

The attraction was strong enough that I came to realize 
that staying in the closet might not be an option. How 
could one make love to girls knowing that such strong 
desires existed that could only be satisfied by boys?

The matter was sealed when the second object of my 
affection came along. Very oddly that was none other 
than Kyle, Daryl's close friend - also a year younger 
than I. The three of us were not only in the same 
English class (the only class I would ever share with 
either of them) but we also were in the same work-
group. Our desks would be pushed together along with 
three other students whenever we did collaborative 
work.

I was a decent student but my grades plummeted in this 
class. I was thoroughly head-over-heels infatuated with 
this miracle of 
a boy. Kyle was thin, rather shy and intensely 
beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off him. Now I 
finally understood that my being gay would have to be 
reckoned with. I just couldn't keep my love for this 
boy a secret. It was burning a hole in my heart.

Kyle had a twin brother (a theme in my life, it would 
come to seem) named Craig. They were physically almost 
identical. This worked out well for me because I loved 
Kyle too much to dishonor him by fantasizing about him 
sexually! So all my masturbatory fantasies revolved 
around Craig for the longest time. 

I would imagine kissing him from head to toe - 
especially the toes, and sucking his dick. I would 
orgasm quickly (I was using my hand finally) and then 
spend the next two hours hugging my pillow fiercely, 
pretending it was Kyle while I cried my eyes out. 
Rather pathetic I now realize.

In my mind I had built Kyle up to be such a wonderful 
person that he would surely be understanding and 
sympathetic to my plight. So I chose him to come out of 
the closet to! This was a horrendous mistake. While I 
thought I could quietly reveal my undying love for him 
and receive a compassionate (and profoundly delicious) 
hug in response, instead it scared the shit out of him. 

I would then spend the next year and a half begging him 
to meet with me privately, intending that I would 
properly explain the situation and assure him that this 
whole mess was no big deal from his point of view. That 
it carried no threat or implication to his own 
heterosexual future. I promised to entirely disappear 
from his life after this private meeting.

But all this he flatly rejected and in a fiasco of 
immaturity I declared that I'd given up on life and 
found myself in a psychiatrist's office.

Dr. Blake was more messed up than I was. He made a 
career of counseling gay kids. He would always sit 
immediately beside me on the couch, regularly put his 
arm around me and always insisted on warm hugs before 
and after each session. His repeated advice was to get 
myself laid by a nice gay boy and then I would forget 
all about Kyle. I was certain Dr. Blake had no clue 
what he was talking about and suspected that perhaps HE 
should be paying ME for our sessions with all the 
groping going on.

Dr. Blake, I'm sad to say, took his own life some time 
later, long after I had given up on our sessions having 
discovered the vastly superior benefits of support-
group therapy.


OUT

My first evening at the gay support group offered me my 
first cognizant contact with other gays and lesbians. 
It was wonderfully liberating. After the meeting the 
group headed out to the local gay bar, as was their 
custom. I was underage so I started walking to the bus 
stop instead when one of the fellows came up behind me 
and invited me out for coffee. Paul was older, 
unattractive (in my judgment) and seemed a little slick 
in personality but being so eager to have someone to 
talk to, I went with him.

We wound up at the apartment he shared with his dad and 
went straight to his bedroom, coffee apparently 
forgotten. He assured me rather pointedly that we would 
not be disturbed by his dad. I wasn't at all concerned 
about that and wondered why he hadn't introduced us 
(god, I was naive). We listened to music and talked. At 
one point he looked at my lap and said, "Nice basket! 
Want to have a picnic?"

He then brandished some magazines of a quality I've 
never seen before or since. They contained extensive 
picture series of gorgeous teenagers (my age) stripping 
naked and jerking off for the camera. I was spellbound. 
Unfortunately my reverie was interrupted when Paul 
suddenly pressed his face to mine and snaked his tongue 
down my throat. A very unfortunate first-kiss I must 
say. 

I patiently waited for this to stop, regretfully put 
the magazine down and stood up to leave. He fell to his 
knees before me, reached for the button of my jeans and 
said, "May I?"

"Not tonight," said I. "Let's wait till we get to know 
each other a bit better, okay?" He graciously stood and 
walked me to the bus stop. I had no intention of 
getting to know him better and avoided him at every 
future opportunity.

I went home that night and in my room I fantasized 
about being one of the magazine boys. I stripped, 
imitated some of the poses I'd seen and jerked off.

*

At the next support group meeting I met two fellows, 
Danny and Pat. They were also new to the group and 
meeting each other for the first time. Afterwards the 
three of us went for coffee - at a real coffee shop - 
and became fast friends. I was the glue that brought us 
together though I didn't yet realize it. I would later 
discover that each of them had designs on me.

Pat was a few years older. Danny was my age and 
initially we became quite close. I wouldn't have 
guessed that it would actually be Pat that would prove 
to be a truly marvelous person and a dear life-long 
friend.

Danny was extremely outgoing, a bit of a 'queen' 
already at 17 and highly promiscuous. He'd borrow his 
dad's giant Buick and we'd drive the two of us all over 
town. He'd show me the cruising areas, not that I cared 
to know, and make me listen to dreadful dance music.

One night he took us to a dark area just off the road 
that overlooked the city (not the place where I met 
Marilyn). We sat close together on the bench style 
front seat and talked about our problems and listened 
to the radio. He described something his mother used to 
do to make him sleepy when putting him to bed at night. 
He wanted to demonstrate and took my hand and drew 
light ticklish circles on my palm with his finger. It 
felt good and I just relaxed and let him do it. 

"Would you mind if I take this a little further?" he 
asked. This took me entirely by surprise. I was not 
attracted to him physically and never suspected he 
thought of me that way. 

"Um, I guess not," I said. He continued with my hand 
and then traveled up and down my bare arm. He rubbed my 
chest through the shirt then slipped his hand under it 
and worked his way up my bare chest. The sensations 
were pleasant. I was wearing athletic shorts (which 
were still rather short in those days. The longer style 
shorts - jammers, I believe they were called at the 
time - were just beginning to come into fashion but 
were strictly the domain of skateboarders!) He began 
tickling my thigh and then my inner thigh. His hand 
slipped inside the leg of my shorts and up the front of 
my leg til he reached the liner of my shorts.

My dick was rising and soon he found it through the 
liner. He gave it a brief squeeze and it became very 
hard indeed. Danny 'ooh'ed and giggled. He withdrew his 
hand and then crept forth again, this time going under 
the liner and beneath my underwear. He grazed through 
my pubes, tickled my balls and then circled the base of 
my hard-on.

I had my eyes closed, just enjoying the wild 
sensations. He slowly ran a single finger up the length 
of my dick and down again.

"Do you mind if we take these off?" he asked, meaning 
the shorts.

"Okay."

"Shirt first, he said, and began rolling it up and off 
me. I lifted my arms and let it come off. He trailed 
his fingers down my chest, smiling with approval. He 
grabbed the waistband of my shorts, I lifted my ass and 
in a flash he had them - and my underwear - around my 
ankles. He was all smiles as he caressed my hard dick.

"Are you embarrassed that I'm seeing you naked?" he 
whispered.

"No," said I, though I was, but just a bit.

"Move over," he directed. I slid closer to the 
passenger door. He wanted room to bend over. "May I 
give you your first blow job?" he asked, grinning 
sweetly. I just nodded.

Down he went.

It was heavenly. I never imagined anything could feel 
that good. He took it all the way. He was talented. His 
tongue was everywhere. One hand played with my balls. 
He tried to force the other under my butt. When I 
realized what he wanted I lifted up for a second so he 
could get his hand under my ass. 

On the radio, Fleetwood Mac's current hit 'Big Love' 
was playing. He alternately blew me and jerked me off 
for the duration of another half-dozen songs. I used to 
be able to name them all. 

Though it felt awesome I couldn't seem to come no 
matter how I tried. It was some kind of sensation 
overload. I apologized.

"Don't be sorry!" he said. "I'm in no hurry. I'm still 
enjoying this!" But he was on a strict curfew because 
his dad worked night shift at the mill and needed the 
car. We did have to quit.

"I want to see you come," he said. "Will you jerk 
yourself off?" I thought that was a good idea and he 
sat back and watched while I stroked it. Still I 
couldn't come. I was mystified.

"What's different?" he asked. "How do you normally do 
it at home?"

"I just get naked and lie down and do it."

"Do you need to lie down? Do you need to get naked?" 

"No, I sit sometimes, and I'm practically naked 
already."

"Not quite," Danny declared and pulled my shorts off my 
ankles along with shoes and socks. Then he even took my 
wristwatch off! He sucked me some more then took my 
hand and placed it around my cock. I jerked off again 
while he stroked my chest and legs and I came. I've 
never been one to shoot very far but this one popped 
about 15 inches. More dribbled out and down went Danny 
to gobble it up.

Afterwards he asked if I wanted to be his boyfriend. I 
felt really sad for him and told him that I just didn't 
feel that way about him. He seemed okay with that.

*

For the next couple months Danny and I got together 
frequently. Any time one of us could borrow our 
parents' car we would end the night by parking 
somewhere remote. He would strip me naked, blow me and 
watch me whack off. Sometimes he'd get me to open my 
door and stand just outside so he could sit on the side 
edge of the seat and fondle my butt.

Just to be fair I asked him a couple of times what I 
could do to help him get off but he always turned me 
down.

One night I slept over in Danny's large basement 
bedroom with him. His parents didn't yet know he was 
gay. Pat was meeting us early the next morning at 
Danny's place to take us golfing - something neither 
Danny or I had done before. 

He stripped me and worshipped my dick. I jerked off and 
then we slept together, me naked, in his somewhat small 
bed - my first time sleeping with a gay guy. He cuddled 
me from behind with his arm around me. He confessed 
that he'd always wanted to do that. I felt him getting 
an erection. I reached down and held it for a bit but 
he shooed me away. 

He also let me in on a secret - that Pat was jealous of 
him for spending so much time with me and that Pat 
wanted me for himself. This took me by surprise.

The next morning we were awakened by Pat's voice 
calling to us. Danny's mom had let him in the house and 
sent him down to Danny's room. I flew out of the bed, 
still naked, dragging a blanket and pillow with me. Pat 
had no idea that Danny and I had been fooling around 
and I hoped to keep it that way. 

I threw myself onto a small couch right by the door and 
just managed to get the blanket across my midsection 
when Pat came through the door laughing and telling us 
to rise and shine. I acted like I had slept on the 
couch and was just awakening. 

I couldn't help notice that Pat was eyeing my exposed 
chest and legs. So I figured Danny's report might be 
true.

*

Gay Pride Day was approaching, the first such occasion 
since I emerged from the closet. Pat and I agreed to 
attend the weekend festivities together and to split a 
hotel room.

On the eve of parade day we journeyed from the suburbs 
to the big city and hit the gay bars. Legal age was 19. 
I was just a year away but didn't look it. I was thin 
and smooth-skinned but I was able to get by the 
bouncers most of the time by entering among a group of 
older friends and by wearing a carefully studied 
expression on my face that made me look a little older 
according to my friends' assurances.

Once inside I always received plenty of stares and free 
drinks but I never encouraged the strangers that 
approached me. I tried to act like I didn't want the 
attention but for a teenager who'd been pretty shy and 
self-conscious as a child it was quite an ego-boost to 
be getting so much attention. Mind you, at that time 
there weren't many teenagers coming out of the closet 
so I was monopolizing a pretty large share of that 
market. These days there's a plethora of teenagers in 
the bars and some of them are awfully cute!

Pat and I had requested a two-bed hotel room. It came 
with just one queen-size bed (no pun intended) but we 
didn't mind sharing.

I awoke in the middle of the night to discover hands on 
me. He was touching my back and my ass - through my 
underwear. I stayed still and silent and let him do it.

He crept stealthily out of bed and went into the 
bathroom for quite some time but on the way he stopped 
at the foot of the bed and played with my bare feet for 
a while. That's when I learned that I wasn't the only 
person in the world with a liking for feet.

I must explain something. I'm probably coming across as 
some kind of narcissist or exhibitionist as I relate 
these encounters which so far, all seem to center 
around my own body. But here's what you must 
understand. My feelings about sex, similar to those 
about love, have never leaned toward any kind of 
reciprocity. My instincts have always dictated that sex 
and love are about one worshipful admirer and one 
beautiful beloved. To me it's a one-way street.

Here's the kicker: I've never wanted to be the beloved. 
I've only ever wanted to be the admirer. I've always 
wanted to be the provider and the protector. Does that 
seem a little pederastic? I was without a father during 
my early formative years so that may have something to 
do with it. 

So why was I playing the opposite role at that time in 
my life? Because I was yet to meet someone beautiful 
who would let me worship them. All my desires still 
centered around Kyle, the unattainable straight boy. I 
played the role of the beloved instead of the admirer 
because it was the only role available. In those days 
all I could do was to live vicariously through those 
who admired me. And frankly I wanted to be kind. Why 
deny someone the pleasure they wanted while I was 
trying to find someone willing to extend that very 
favor to me? It would have been hypocritical!

*

I fell in with a small crowd of slightly older handsome 
gay elitists. They were rather snobby and careful about 
whom they allowed into their little clique. They were 
fashionable and political and I realized quickly that I 
didn't fit in with this crowd and didn't really want 
to. 

I was ready to sever my inclusion but the silliest 
thing happened. A struggling semi-professional dancer, 
one of the clique, invited me to hang out with him one 
evening - just the two of us. We spent a long late 
night together just driving around, walking around and 
talking about our often-difficult lives. 

His unlikely name, Tristan Castlebrook seemed somehow 
pretentious to me and in hindsight I suspect it may 
have been the result of a legal name change - perhaps 
for the benefit of his dancing career. Either way it 
matched his rather calculated personality.

As the sun was about to rise we returned to his 
apartment building. In the lobby we said our good-byes 
and as it was the custom in the group to give good-bye 
hugs I asked,

"Is this place too public for a hug?"

"Not at all," he replied. "Is it too public for a 
kiss?" I was floored. He had this sparkling grin on his 
face and I realized, somewhat horrified that this whole 
thing had been a date. The crazy thing is - I was too 
embarrassed to admit my mistake. He kissed me deeply 
and guided me up to his tiny apartment.

I'd been a little ashamed of the exhibitionistic 
sessions with Danny so I'd kept it secret. Tristan made 
the assumption that I was still a virgin and was beside 
himself with delight at the prospect of unraveling my 
cherry. I played along. Who was I to disappoint him?

He undressed me reverently. He caressed and kissed and 
licked my body while I squirmed beneath his eager hands 
and lips. His disrobing was an afterthought. His dick 
was quite big and I jerked it for him now and then but 
he didn't want to come. He said that was his way with 
sex. He never wanted the arousal to end while he was 
with a partner so he would only come by masturbating 
later, when alone and re-living the encounter in his 
imagination.

I, on the other hand, came several times. Once in his 
mouth and often in his hand. Tristan was an exquisite 
masturbator. He had magic fingers. Oral and anal may be 
the popular flavors of gay sex but the hand jobs I got 
from him provided some of the most euphoric, torturous 
mind-blowing orgasms I've ever had.

We actually became boyfriends for no other reason then 
my being too embarrassed to admit the misunderstanding 
concerning our 'date'. It sounds crazy but it's true. 
And the fault was apparently mine because it turned out 
the whole group found it obvious that Tristan was after 
me since day-one. I hadn't realized it.

Despite my mother's protests I spent a few over-nights 
at his place. He loved slobbering all over me and I 
felt good fulfilling his fantasies - or so I perceived. 
I never thought I might be hurting him. 

I became worried as I realized how much he was falling 
for me. I knew I had to break it off before it got out 
of hand. I did so. He begged me not to leave him. He 
said he'd never been so happy in his life. I felt sick 
about it. We had our last dinner together. I drove away 
while he stood on the sidewalk staring at me with the 
most sorrowful expression I've ever seen. Whether it 
was genuine or an act, I don't know. Everything was a 
show with him.

Twice in the next ten years I ran into him and we just 
laughed about how infatuated he had been - saying how 
juvenile it all was.

I'll never run into him again. He's gone. He went the 
same way as Dr Blake. I guess he got tired of living a 
pretend life and was too afraid of trying to live a 
real one - so he just called it quits.

*

Things were difficult at home. The gay issue was a bit 
of a problem but I blew it all out of proportion. I 
quit high-school, got a crappy job and moved out. 
Although part of it was just that I had to get away 
from Kyle. My infatuation with him was fucking up both 
our lives. I rented a room from a single gay man. For 
the record, that relationship remained strictly 
landlord-tenant.

I dated a couple more guys in rapid succession. Then 
finally I met someone that was gay, my age and that I 
was attracted to!

I'd heard all about Ted before I actually met him. 
Danny fell in lust with him and told me all about him. 
Danny had secretly been giving him occasional blow-
jobs, which he was also doing for me again as I wasn't 
dating at the time. Finally Ted and I met a couple of 
times in group social situations and we seemed to hit 
it off pretty well.

Then we got together for a movie - just the two of us. 
It was a Sunday evening and afterwards we went to his 
small apartment and stayed up all night just talking. 
As morning arrived we finally confessed our mutual 
attraction to one another, agreed to be boyfriends, 
kissed good-bye and went to work. 

Monday evening we got right back together and were 
naked in bed in no time. He had a great body, not 
really thin as I normally preferred but very firm and 
toned and smooth. Oh and he had nice feet too. 
Everything was mutual this time. We sucked and fondled 
and kissed endlessly. It was the best reciprocal sex 
I've ever had. He knew about my fetish and would rub my 
dick with his toes sometimes. It felt awesome.

When Danny found out about Ted and I it ended our 
friendship. He was jealous. I guess he felt I betrayed 
him somehow. Perhaps I did. I'm not a saint. But Ted 
meant a lot to me. He was cute and sexy and the sex and 
the cuddling were great and I'd never experienced 
anything like this. I wanted to spend my life with him. 
I couldn't choose Danny's friendship over Ted's love.

Ted asked me to fuck him. I did but just once. I didn't 
really like it. He tried to fuck me. It hurt too much 
and we never tried again.


We were walking through a shopping mall one evening 
when we ran into two of Ted's friends. One of them was 
a 23-year old fellow named Gerald. I actually have no 
remembrance of this event whatsoever but I know it 
happened. Gerald was destined to play a major role in 
my life and he still talks about the time at the mall 
where he first laid eyes on me.

*

Ted moved to Baltimore temporarily - for university. I 
had a job with odd shifts that afforded me a five-day 
weekend every third week. This was the only time I 
could spend with him. It was a long trip - the furthest 
I'd ever been from home. The first time I showed up it 
took all of 30 seconds to find ourselves up in his room 
naked. We climbed all over each other. We could sixty-
nine all night those days and we were good at it too. 
We had rhythm! He had an awesome dick.

My second visit, three weeks later, was very painful. 
The second night there we went out to a local gay bar 
with a new friend of Ted's named Lance. While we sat in 
the bar I saw the door open and if my eyes did not 
deceive me - in walked Kyle. Kyle - the object of all 
my desires - in a gay bar in another state. It was 
utterly surreal.

But it was not Kyle at all. It was a local young gay 
fellow who looked so much like Kyle - and Craig of 
course - they could have been triplets. It was 
haunting.

I was devastated. The urge to go and speak to this 
gorgeous boy was overwhelming. But what on earth could 
I say? The truth would have sounded like the worst 
pick-up line ever. And what about Ted? I couldn't do 
that to him. I kept quiet. The boy was soon being pawed 
over by some older man and I kept silent about 
everything.

Our last full night together Ted and I lay in his bed 
and he made a confession. He and Lance had been 
sleeping together. I was devastated all over again. The 
relationship was over. I know now that no male anywhere 
is fully capable of monogamy or faithfulness. For each 
and every man there is some level of temptation that he 
can not resist. It's true. But I didn't know that then. 
I was naive. I was idealistic. I wasn't mad but I was 
hurt. I was crushed. I knew I'd miss him. We held each 
other and cried together.

The next evening I packed the car to head home. But 
when I left I didn't go straight home. I called the 
Baltimore 'gayline' for a list of gay bars and their 
addresses and I stalked them all evening. I completed 
the circuit twice. I had to find this Kyle-look-alike. 
I had to tell him he was beautiful. 

He deserved to know. And if he'd show any interest in 
me at all - I'd have packed my belongings and moved to 
Baltimore - just for a shot at being his boyfriend. He 
was that beautiful. But I never found him and that's 
probably for the best. He probably would have thought I 
was some kind of psycho.


GERALD

Ted and I stayed in touch and we even hooked up for 
quick sex on a few occasions. I decided at this time 
that I would never under any circumstances ever have a 
boyfriend again! I was dead serious. 

I was 19 then and had my own tiny bachelor apartment. 
The rent was $230 a month! Ted called me one Saturday 
just to say hi and as he did I was pondering a large 
piece of artwork that I needed to return to the art 
gallery. It wouldn't fit in my little old Nissan.

"Call Gerald or Dale," suggested Ted. They were twin 
brothers - tall and thin with a lot of body hair but 
receding on top already. They had pleasant handsome 
faces. I'd met Gerald at the mall, you'll recall, 
though I didn't realize it. Gerald had a jeep and Dale 
a pick-up truck.

"Naw, I don't really know them very well - to be asking 
favors," said I.

"Trust me," urged Ted, "Either of them would be very 
happy to do you a favor." He was insistent. He knew 
something I didn't. He gave me their phone numbers."

I was tight for options. I knew Dale a little better of 
the two. Though I found his manner rather intense and 
felt a little nervous around him, I gave Dale a call. 
He wasn't home. 

Gerald was. He dropped everything and came straight 
over to pick up myself and the painting.

Task done I invited him in for a coffee but he revealed 
he had to go catch a plane! He was just packing for his 
vacation when I'd called. I was shocked he did me this 
favor at such a time! 

He took a rain check on the coffee and two weeks later 
he flew back home and wasted no time cashing it in. We 
became instant friends. He started visiting almost 
every evening. He knew how I felt - about wanting to be 
single - and it was torturing him. He wanted me in the 
worst way and I had no idea.

One day as he visited I was barefoot. I knelt on the 
couch in order to reach for something behind it and all 
of a sudden he rushed up behind me, bent down and 
planted a sloppy kiss on the sole of my foot. He passed 
it off as a joke but I knew better. I realized two 
things. One - there were now at least three people in 
the world with a thing for feet - and two, Gerald had 
some kind of feelings toward me.

I was determined to just stay friends but Gerald was a 
charmer, a real pro. He laid it on thick and I started 
to fall for him.

We'd been buddies a few months when he talked me into 
vacationing with him in Florida. I insisted the hotel 
rooms have two beds. I was still resistant to the idea 
of a boyfriend.

We had a great time. It was my first proper vacation. 
After the first night we never used the second bed. 
Gerald was (and still is) very sexually adventurous. He 
rimmed my ass. He licked my feet and sucked my toes. He 
took me shopping for dirty magazines. He had us taking 
photos of each other in the hotel room, naked and 
jerking off. We both have copies still! We took candid 
photos of young shirtless strangers on the street. He 
was wild and youthful and giddy and he would be my 
boyfriend for the next 13 years. And in that time we 
would find all sorts of trouble to get in to!


LIFE WITH GERALD

Gerald continued to visit me almost every night. 
Sometimes we'd stay naked the whole evening, having sex 
every so often - mostly sucking and jerking each other 
off. He bought some very arousing porno tapes featuring 
18-19 year-old actors and left then at my place. He 
still lived with his parents.

He had very prominent exhibitionist tendencies. One 
night we slept over at our friend Pat's apartment (the 
same Pat from part-2). We slept on a mattress on his 
living room floor. The next morning after our host was 
up and about we remained in 'bed' in our underwear. 

Gerald tossed the covers back, yanked down my undies 
and jerked me off 'til I came. After a brief respite he 
did it again, and then again! It seemed like he was 
determined to keep doing this until Pat walked in and 
caught us. Eventually he brought me to my fifth orgasm 
of the morning! The volume I discharged wouldn't have 
filled a thimble. At this point I think he was going 
for some kind of world record but I couldn't take any 
more.

*

We spent a night at a hotel in a neighboring city. 
Oddly I can't remember what the occasion was. We went 
for a swim in the hotel's indoor pool and then returned 
to the change room. We were the only ones in there. I 
dropped my trunks, dried off and sat on the bench with 
my towel in my lap.

Without any word or warning Gerald squatted before me, 
threw the towel aside, grabbed my dick and thrust it in 
his mouth. He was a darn good cock-sucker and still is. 
He had me on the brink in no time when suddenly we 
heard the door open. Thank goodness, as with most 
dressing rooms there was a short wall in front of the 
door to block the view from outside the room. 

Gerald jumped away from me and I reached for the towel. 
A man came around the corner before I could cover up my 
hard-on. Whether he noticed it, I don't know. The man 
used the urinal and left. Gerald took my hand, led me 
into the sauna and finished blowing me.

Another time we were alone in a different hotel pool 
and we took turns sucking each other under the water. 
He could hold his breath for more than a minute, which 
I found astonishing!

*

We found a much nicer apartment and moved in together. 
He told me all about his somewhat unusual childhood. 
He'd always been an exhibitionist and loved to streak 
as a kid. He told me how he'd sneak out the back door 
at night, strip naked and run all over town. He would 
dash across major well-lit streets and creep down 
alleys. He would have a hard-on almost all the time. He 
rode his bike naked through residential streets. He did 
this constantly through all his pubescent and teenage 
years. He was only caught once and ran away as someone 
called to him.

His first sexual encounter happened at 17 when he found 
himself alone in a house with the 15-year-old brother 
of a friend. The boy, apparently straight was 
nonetheless rather uninhibited and seemed to have 
pegged Gerald as a homo. While lying on the couch on 
his stomach he asked Gerald to scratch his back for 
him. Gerald was more than happy to comply as he found 
the kid quite attractive. He knelt beside the couch and 
dragged his fingernails over the boy's shirt.

"Gerry, I wish you were a girl!" said the kid, to 
Gerald's surprise. He wasn't sure what to think. 

"Scratch my bum," he then requested. Gerald happily 
obeyed, scratching the boy's firm ass through his 
track-pants.

"No, not like that."

Gerald changed pace.

"No," the boy protested, "Do it slow. Nice."

Finally Gerald understood. He was no longer scratching 
at all. He was rubbing the kid's butt with the palm of 
his hand. It had become a rather erotic massage. The 
kid had his arms folded below his forehead, burying his 
face. 

"Underneath," he mumbled.

Gerald's heart skipped a beat. Had he heard that right? 
He slipped his fingers beneath the waistband of the 
track pants. Taking a chance, he also slipped them 
beneath the underwear. There were no objections. Soon 
he was liberally groping the boy's firm narrow ass, 
skin on silky smooth skin. 

The kid began to grind his pelvis rather subtly into 
the couch. He reached back with both hands, took hold 
of his track pants and undies and pushed them down a 
bit, then went back to hiding his face. Gerald took up 
the task. He grabbed the waistbands and tugged them 
down further, baring a beautiful smooth butt. The boy 
raised himself, reached beneath himself and freed the 
front of his pants from 'whatever' they'd been snagged 
on. 

Gerald was pretty sure what appendage that might have 
been! He now feasted on the sight before him while his 
fingers continued to rub, squeeze and tickle the boy's 
smooth bare ass. Now and then he would run his finger 
down between the kid's legs towards his balls. The kid 
apparently liked that and spread his legs a bit in 
encouragement. 

All of a sudden the kid raised himself and shifted, 
rolling to his side so that he faced the back of the 
couch and his butt faced Gerald. 

Gerald continued the exploration, now and then trailing 
his fingers up over the naked hip prompting the kid to 
emit a brief, barely audible moan. Now he was rolling 
over more and Gerald peered over the bare hip to spy a 
beautiful hard dick with a thin stream of ejaculate 
dangling from it.

Gerald yearned to touch it but wasn't sure if his 
caresses were welcome there. He instead crept toward 
the testicles. He was indeed welcomed there. The kid 
finished rolling over, keeping one forearm covering his 
eyes. His butt was now buried in the couch, no longer 
accessible but his lovely dick and balls were on 
display.

Gerald fondled his balls, occasionally touching the 
root of his dick. Finally he dared to run his fingers 
right up the length of the erection and the boy emitted 
another quiet moan. That was all the encouragement 
Gerald needed and he began to lovingly explore the 
kid's hard-on. He couldn't believe the amount of pre-
cum flowing from the tip. Gerald's hand and the boy's 
dick were soon coated in it. At the telling of this 
story to me, Gerald referred to the boy as a 'pre-cum 
machine'!

Gerald laid his head on the boy's flat belly so that 
his nose was almost touching the head of the kid's 
gorgeous dick. As a string of pre-cum began to descend 
he reached out with his tongue to try to intercept it. 
The boy then spoke up.

"Slob my knob!" he ordered. Gerald was thrilled. He 
opened wide and engulfed his first dick; a 15-year-old 
salty cum-covered dick. He was instantly addicted. He'd 
never given a blow-job before but was determined to 
thrill the boy. He worshipped that cock as best he 
could and was soon rewarded with a mouthful of warm 
cum.

Resting his head on the boy's abdomen, he kept the cum 
in his mouth along with the head of the slowly 
softening dick. Some of the cum dribbled out of his 
mouth. He wasn't sure if he should be swallowing it or 
not.

Finally he pulled away, went to the bathroom and spit 
his reward into the sink. He washed it down and rinsed 
out his mouth. That was the only time he spat. He would 
become forevermore a swallower with the next blow-job 
he would give. 

He grabbed some tissues, returned to the boy and 
lovingly mopped up his genitals. The kid had his eyes 
covered the whole time.

"You'd better go," he said, regret in his voice.

Gerald left and rarely saw the boy after that. It 
seemed he was avoiding him. Another day when he was 
visiting his friend he went upstairs to use the 
bathroom. He saw the boy's bedroom door was closed. He 
tapped on it lightly. The door opened.

"What do you want?" 

"I want to give you a blow job," Gerald whispered. The 
door closed in his face. It wouldn't happen again.


After Gerald and I had been together a couple years I 
began to be aroused at the thought of his streaking and 
asked for a performance. He was delighted to do so. 
Many times when we were out late we'd stop at a public 
park or some place. We'd go for a walk and he'd get 
naked and jerk off. It's rather lucky we never got 
caught. In one sense I almost wanted to get caught. 
What use was exhibitionism if no one was around to see?

One time while Gerald was sitting on the couch in a 
pair of shorts I asked him if he'd ever fantasized 
about exhibiting himself in front of live people - our 
friends or what not. I'd been having those thoughts 
myself for a while (of exhibiting him that is, not 
myself). Gerald responded by pulling his dick out the 
leg of his shorts, waving it around and playfully 
saying,

"Oh, hi Pat, how's it going?" I was instantly aroused. 
I knew we could find people interested in a show. 
Gerald had a decent body; trim, somewhat sculpted and 
he'd been keeping it smooth through electrolysis and 
shaving.

We had started to chum around a little bit with a 
neighbor; an older man named Phil who had proved our 
suspicions true by admitting he was gay. Gerald had an 
inkling the man was attracted to him. We put a plan 
into action.

Phil came over one evening for drinks. Gerald was 
dressed in a pair of short shorts, no underwear, and 
we'd cut the liner out! In our living room we had a 
couch against the wall and a love seat in the middle of 
the room, facing the couch. Phil took a seat on the 
love seat so Gerald sat on the couch directly across 
from him. I sat beside Gerald. Our plan worked 
perfectly. I made all the drinks that night which gave 
me plenty of excuses to walk in and out of the room by 
passing behind the love seat and thus seeing exactly 
what view Phil was getting.

It was quite a view. Sometimes just the head of his 
dick was visible, sometimes more. I was told later that 
he would get semi-hard whenever he'd spy Phil giving 
his crotch a good look, but nervousness prevented him 
from going fully hard.

Eventually Gerald broke the tension.

"Phil, I think Chad has something to ask you!" (Chad is 
me, but not my real name of course).

"You ask him," I said. I was too embarrassed to do the 
talking. 

"Are you sure?" Gerald wanted me to have control of 
things. He didn't want to go too far without being sure 
I wouldn't end up jealous or regretful. But I was 
ready. 

"Yes. Go ahead. Ask him."

"Chad has a fantasy about me being naked in front of 
people. He wants to know if you'd be our audience."

"Sure I would," said Phil with a grin. "I figured 
something was up. But I'm out of smokes. Let me grab 
another pack. I'll be right back."

Phil left. I was feverish with excitement. I 
practically tackled Gerald and we kissed deeply while I 
groped his dick. He was hard in no time.

"Are you excited about this?" I asked.

"Of course. Are you sure you're okay with this?"

"Of course," said I.

"Okay, well stop that or I'm gonna cum already!" I 
released him and went to make fresh drinks.

Soon we were all reassembled in the living room.

"Should I strip or what?" asked Gerald, looking at me.

"No, I'll do it for you." Off came his socks. Off came 
his T-shirt. I fondled his dick through the liner-less 
shorts. He was good and hard. He lifted his butt. I 
dragged the shorts off him. We had Phil's rapt 
attention as he smoked his cigarette. I stroked 
Gerald's dick while he lay back on the couch, arms 
folded behind his head.

"Do you want to touch it?" I asked Phil.

"I thought you'd never ask!" he replied. He snubbed out 
the cigarette and came to sit on the floor beside the 
couch. Gerald was wide-eyed. We'd never discussed the 
idea of someone actually touching him.

"Are you sure that's okay?" he said to me.

"Yes. Everything's fine." Phil stroked Gerald's dick 
while Gerald just lay back and soaked up the attention. 

"May I suck it?" asked Phil. Gerald went wide-eyed 
again.

"Sure! Go ahead," said I. Phil sucked it. He took it 
all the way. He was good at it, better than I. I could 
tell. Gerald came in his mouth. He swallowed.

Phil thanked us and left. I whipped out my dick and 
jerked off as Gerald fondled my nuts.

We had Phil over a few more times. Gerald rarely wasted 
time stripping down for his hand-job and his blow-job.

Gerald and I moved away. We bought a house together and 
Phil only visited once before we lost touch with him, 
but we found quite a few other friends who were happy 
to watch Gerald's show, and in some cases to 
participate in much the same way Phil did. 

Our home would also be the scene of a number of other 
rather unusual encounters over the next 7 years...


THE INCREDIBLE TRAVIS

I answered a newspaper ad. A recreational indoor 
(arena) soccer team needed a few players. I was invited 
to try out. At the arena I was introduced to a handful 
of players including an extraordinarily beautiful 
teenager named Travis. He was about 5' 8'', smooth 
skinned with an adorably cute face and a very slim but 
sturdy body. He was a lightning fast runner.

After practice we hit the showers. I saw Travis naked. 
He was stunning. The sight of his smooth little firm 
body took my breath away. He had the most adorable 
narrow pert little ass I've ever seen to this day.

I made the team.

After our fist league game we showered, dressed and 
gathered at a local bar that sponsored the team. 
Pitchers of beer flowed liberally. The bar keepers 
thought the soccer league was strictly 19-and-over 
(drinking age). We didn't let on otherwise and several 
underage players drank all season. Travis drank 
enthusiastically and being small, got drunk quickly.

I spotted an old friend I hadn't seen since high school 
and I went to talk to him. While away from the table I 
heard quite a commotion from the team - uproarious 
laughter and carrying on.

I finally excused myself from the old friend and 
returned to the table. Travis, quite drunk, leaned 
across the fellow sitting between us and said loudly, 
"Hey Chad, come here, I wanna tell you a secret!"

Who was I to decline the wishes of such a beautiful 
boy? I dutifully leaned towards him, presenting him my 
ear as our teammates quieted and watched us. His lips 
approached my ear and then - he kissed me on the cheek! 
The gang exploded with laughter. I'd been had. 
Apparently he'd already snookered one or two others 
with this rather odd gag. 

"Look, he's smiling! He liked it!" joked one of our 
teammates as he pointed at me. He didn't realize this 
was the truth. I only regretted it wasn't on the lips!

After our second league game I was under the shower 
next to Travis when he loudly announced, "Hey Chad, 
come here I've got a secret for you!" We all laughed. 
There was no kiss this time of course.


A core group of us became good friends and sometimes 
the six of us would gather at my place after the bar 
closed and drink some more. Travis would often walk all 
the way home from there in effort to sober up before 
getting home. His mother was very religious and not 
approving of alcohol - underage or not. Other times he 
would leave with his best friend John and crash at his 
place. 

At one game John proposed to Travis that they just 
spend the night at my place afterward as I'd offered on 
more than one occasion. Travis agreed. I was ecstatic. 
I knew Gerry would approve as he'd met Travis and also 
found him adorable. The guys thought I was straight and 
Gerry was my roommate.

But John and Travis's girlfriends had come to watch the 
game and decided to come out with the team afterward. 
It looked like our plans would not come to be. Travis 
ended up getting extremely drunk and got into an 
argument with his girlfriend Sherry. As we left the bar 
the argument got out of control and suddenly Sherry was 
crying and Travis was marching away down the street. 
John and the others rushed to Sherry's side and I alone 
followed Travis. He was a mess - mentally that is. 

He'd always behaved in such a happy-go-lucky manner. 
This was strange territory. He said some very 
disturbing things. He said he should just kill himself. 
This struck me sharply. I didn't know him well enough 
to realize this was nothing but the ramblings of a 
drunk teenager. I stepped in front of him, halting his 
march and I took his sweet face in both my hands, 
forcing him to look at me.

"You're not gonna kill yourself," I said earnestly. 
"There are people who love you!" He looked at me wide-
eyed. I was referring to his mom and girlfriend but 
deep down, I suddenly realized - I was talking about 
me. I worried for a moment I'd said too much. 

He stormed on and I followed along. Somehow during his 
ranting he kicked off one running shoe. I rescued it 
and carried it for him. I think he was heading for home 
but I managed to steer him to my house.

Gerry wasn't home yet. Travis slumped down on the 
couch. I poured him a large glass of water but he 
wouldn't take it. I sat beside him on the couch. He 
said mournful things. I was scared. I didn't know if he 
might be suicidal. He cried. I put my arm around him. 
He lay his head on my shoulder. I was overwhelmed by 
the tenderness of the moment. Here I was basically 
cuddling with the most beautiful boy I'd seen since 
Kyle - except I was starting to fall for Travis in an 
even bigger way than I did with Kyle. And Travis was 
becoming even more beautiful to my eyes then Kyle had 
been. 

The phone rang. I went to it. It was John. He correctly 
guessed that we'd came to my place. 

"Jesus Christ, John! Is this kid suicidal or what? You 
gotta get over here!" John told me to relax. He 
explained that this happens sometimes and not to worry. 
Travis was just drunk. He wouldn't do anything crazy. 
They were taking Sherry home. Travis was my 
responsibility alone. 

Travis had meanwhile stumbled to the bathroom. I heard 
him puking into the toilet. When I finally got off the 
phone I found Travis lying on the bathroom floor. There 
was puke on his shirt and on the floor. He was pretty 
much out of it. I pulled him to a sitting position and 
leaned him against the tub. Thankfully he was only 130 
lbs and easy to manhandle. He'd somehow got a bit of 
vomit in his hair.

"Come on buddy. You're going in the shower." I pulled 
his shirt off him. He was a rag doll. He co-operated to 
the small degree his semi-consciousness allowed. I 
pulled his socks off him. He had beautiful feet - size 
8 and very smooth. I was stunned that I'd never really 
noticed how cute his feet were before. 

"Come on, stand up! Let's get your pants off!" I 
couldn't believe this was happening. I wrapped my arms 
around his sleek naked torso and lifted. He cooperated. 
I leaned him against the wall and unbuttoned his jeans. 
I dragged down the zipper. My heart was beating like a 
hammer. This crazy episode was becoming the most erotic 
encounter I'd ever had. I started to pull his pants 
down.

"I'm okay," he blurted. He stumbled out of his jeans 
and struggled to free himself from his white underwear 
while I 'spotted' him. He was naked. There wasn't one 
millimeter of space on his body I wouldn't be thrilled 
to lick. I'd have licked his puke off him if he'd 
offered! He was that sexy. I wrapped one arm around his 
narrow waist and turned on the water with the other.

I guided Travis under the spray. The water hit my 
clothes. It hit the floor. I couldn't have cared less. 
I was prepared to stay there and hold him. I was 
prepared to wash him myself. Good god, how I wanted to 
do that.

"I'm okay," he said again. He was snapping out of it. I 
left him to wash himself.

One of the couches pulled out into a bed. I dressed it 
up with two sheets. No blankets. It was warm in the 
house.

He wandered into the room in just a towel and wet hair, 
looking unbearably cute and sexy.

"Where'm I sleepin?"

"Right here."

He dropped the towel and fell naked onto the bed. 

I went and gathered up his clothes - everything - and 
put them in the laundry. I went back upstairs to find 
Gerry home. He stood staring at the couch, mouth agape.

"Is that Travis?" he gasped.

"Yep."

"He's naked!"

"Yep."

"You stripped him naked? Are you crazy? What's he gonna 
think when he wakes up?"

I explained the situation. Gerry went to bed. I stayed 
up to stare at Travis's body and jerk off. I came 
several times.

The next morning I found Travis sitting at the kitchen 
table wearing just a sheet. He didn't remember a single 
thing from the night before. I told him everything - 
except the jerking off of course.

"So was I walking around here naked?" he asked, 
grinning adorably.

"No." - not nearly for long enough, I wanted to add but 
refrained.

I fetched his clothes from the laundry. He dropped the 
sheet and dressed right in front of me. I tried not to 
stare.


I was now officially infatuated with Travis. His face, 
his body, his sweet demeanor. I loved everything about 
him. I desperately wished to spend another night alone 
with him but there was no prospect for that to happen. 
I came up with a plan. It was devious. I'm not proud of 
this.

Travis is a New York Giants fan. I bought tickets- 
Giants vs. Redskins. I paid a fortune for them. And if 
the plan failed it would mean a lot of hard-earned 
money up in smoke.

We were out drinking after our soccer game as usual. I 
told him a co-worker had Giants tickets he didn't want 
and offered them to me because I'm a Redskins fan. This 
was all a lie. Travis was thrilled. He wanted to go. 
He'd never been to an NFL game before. It would be a 
long drive, I explained. I wanted to get a hotel room. 
I would pay for it. He was agreeable. I was thrilled. I 
went out and bought a Redskins jersey.

*

I don't remember much of the game. I bought us plenty 
of beers and watched Travis get drunk. We partied after 
the game and eventually cabbed it to the hotel. I'd 
made sure to get a room with one bed only. He slept in 
just his white underwear. I cherished the experience of 
lying beside him in bed. I was too afraid to touch him. 

In the morning we watched TV in bed. He lay on top of 
the covers, still in just his undies. He leaned against 
the headboard with his right foot flat on the bed, his 
right knee up and his left ankle crossed over his right 
knee. I lay to his right and I stared at the sole of 
his foot for the longest time. This boy had the cutest 
face, sexiest body, sweetest butt and cutest feet I'd 
ever seen. He was a walking jackpot of sexuality. It 
was all overwhelming. 

*

Travis and I were becoming good friends. I was falling 
ever so much in love with him. I confessed this to 
Gerald. He didn't mind at all. He was also entranced 
with Travis's adorable looks and sexy body and urged me 
to take advantage of any situation I could.

I dreamed of being Travis's best friend. I dreamed of 
being able to take him in my arms and hug him. I 
dreamed of being privileged to rub his feet. I couldn't 
imagine being so lucky as to have any of these things 
come true. Little did I know.

I came out of the closet to John and to Travis. Both 
were totally cool with it but urged me not to tell 
anyone else on the team. 

The Jersey trip for a Giants game would become a 
tradition. The next season we got to two games. At the 
first game Travis joined me in the hotel lobby when I 
went in to register. The bastard at the desk saw that 
our room had just one bed and offered us a room with 
two beds. Same price. Travis was right there, so I was 
forced to agree. I was heartbroken.

He got very drunk again. Back at the hotel he stripped 
off his shirt and laid down on the bed - on top of the 
covers. He was passed out in no time. I was frightfully 
nervous. I knew what I had to do. I carefully laid down 
on his bed beside him. I was uncontrollably nervous. My 
heart was pounding so hard I imagined it was shaking 
the whole bed. I couldn't seem to calm myself. I wanted 
so bad to somehow cuddle with him but what would he do 
if he awoke and caught me in his bed?

All of a sudden he was awake and throwing up! He didn't 
even notice my presence until I grabbed him and lifted 
him upright. He soiled that bed something awful!

He showered and emerged in just his underwear - boxers 
now. I invited him to share my bed. I'd rolled all his 
sheets into a ball and stuffed them in the far corner 
of the room but his mattress was damp. He accepted. 
These were smaller beds. He fell asleep. I rolled onto 
my side facing him. I put my arm around him. I loved 
it. I must have laid awake for an hour gently holding 
him.

He awoke suddenly. I pretended to be asleep. He took my 
wrist and gently lifted my arm off him and slipped out 
of bed to use the bathroom. He never said anything 
about my arm being around him.


We continued playing soccer the next season. After a 
game Travis alone came to my place. Gerry was out. We 
didn't drink. We just talked. He was going to stay the 
night and removed his shirt as he got ready for bed. I 
desperately wanted to share that pull-out couch with 
him.

I became very emotional. I confessed my love for him. I 
cried and cried. He was very understanding. He wasn't 
like Kyle at all.

"I'd give anything to hug you," I said through tears. 
"Anything."

"Okay," he said. I couldn't believe it. I invited him 
to put his shirt back on. I wanted to demonstrate that 
it wasn't about sex - even though to a large degree it 
was. He didn't bother re-dressing. I wrapped a thin bed 
sheet around him and then I put my arms around him. It 
was the sweetest thing that had ever happened to me. I 
held him tight. He hugged me back.

"You don't have to hug me back," I said.

"That's okay," he said. I held him close. I wanted him 
to feel the tenderness. I wanted him to feel the 
sincerity. It felt to me that my poor overburdened 
heart was finally releasing this tremendous mass of 
love that was running through my arms and into him. I 
wanted him to feel that love.

"I don't want to let go," I pleaded.

"That's okay," he said. He was so kind to me. He's not 
gay, if that's what you're thinking. I've never doubted 
he's straight. But 
while he has a lot of hang-ups and insecurities about 
certain things, he's always been entirely comfortable 
with his body and with all things sexual.

I caressed the back of his head and his neck. I kissed 
him on the cheek and finally pulled away. This was the 
first of many, many hugs and that wasn't the only 
liberty he would eventually grant me.


At the next Giants game we managed four tickets and 
John and Gerald came along. Only John got particularly 
drunk. The next morning Travis was in the shower when 
Gerald proposed we fill the ice bucket with cold water 
and dump it over Travis for a joke. I guess we weren't 
quiet enough about it and Travis caught on. 

As Gerald approached the shower, Travis whipped the 
curtain back and tried to upset the bucket onto Gerald. 
They both got doused. Gerald took the worst of it, 
getting his clothes wet but he was thrilled to finally 
see Travis's dick and wrestle with a gorgeous naked 
boy.

Gerald and I shared a lodge in cottage country with 
three other couples, two gay and one straight. We were 
all great friends. We spent most of our summer weekends 
their. John and Travis and their girlfriends rarely 
visited us there. They were just teenagers after all 
and my lodge buddies ranged from early 20's to early 
40's at the time.

But John and Travis's group began to disintegrate. Both 
of them broke up with their girlfriends. Then their 
friendship turned sour. Travis had been fired from his 
job and blamed John (they were co-workers) for having a 
part in it. The others in the gang sided with John. I 
sided with Travis naturally. The feud became serious. 

We were ostricized, cut from the soccer team. I was 
thrilled! I wouldn't miss them one bit. This brought 
Travis and I much closer together. I became his only 
close friend. We found another soccer team who took us 
on. I asked Travis one day if we were best friends. He 
said yes. I was euphoric. I hugged him tenderly. 

He started visiting us at the lodge more often and 
became friends with all our gay friends. They teased me 
about Travis. They knew damn well I had a thing for 
him. 

"He looks 14!" they would tell me. They were right. 
Travis was a very late developer physically.

During one visit to the lodge I sat at one end of a 
couch while he sat at the other. I told him to give me 
his foot and I would give him a foot rub. It had taken 
me a long time to find the courage to propose this and 
I was very sad when he declined. 

During another visit he lay on the couch with his eyes 
closed. I couldn't tell if he was sleeping or not. I 
moved fast. I grabbed his ankle, lifted it, turned and 
sat with his small socked foot in my lap and began to 
massage it. He opened his eyes, looked at me and closed 
them again. He didn't object!

I was so turned on and so nervous I thought I would 
have a heart attack. My face was burning. I must have 
been blushing something awful. After rubbing his foot 
and toes through his white sock for a while and 
absolutely loving every moment of it, I put it down and 
grabbed the other foot. Heart beating wildly I summoned 
all the courage I could muster and pulled off the sock. 
His warm smooth foot in my hands turned me on like 
nothing ever before in my life. I lovingly rubbed, 
caressed and fondled every toe and every inch of his 
foot and ankle. Then I put the sock back on for him.

"Thank you," was all he said. I went to the bathroom 
and dropped my pants. My shorts were full of pre-come 
even though I didn't recall having an erection during 
the footrub. I jerked off and came quickly. I kept 
jerking off and came again.

*

The next Friday I arrived at the lodge without Gerald. 
He had stopped coming regularly. But that evening he 
showed up unexpectedly with Travis in tow. Travis had 
phoned our home looking for me and asking if he could 
come to the lodge for the whole weekend! Knowing how 
much it would mean to me, Gerald brought him up. We all 
hit the booze pretty hard. Travis was drunk and I was 
on cloud nine, knowing he would probably share my bed 
that night. I would never have dreamed what a wild time 
was about to be had that night!

One of the other couples, Bill and Carson, had brought 
a friend as well. Her name was Lois. She was a top-
heavy girl. She was straight and a self-admitted fag-
hag. I've never seen her again since but I'll never 
forget her for the incredible favor she would 
unwittingly do me that night.

All ten of us were gathered around the bon-fire that 
evening after dark. We'd been drinking perhaps heavier 
then usual and the mood was campy, funny and merry. 
Travis was having a great time. At one point my buddies 
were teasing me about my end-of-night ritual, which was 
to always take a quiet walk by the lake with someone 
before retiring to bed. They were playfully ragging on 
me saying they'd all taken a turn and I would be on my 
own that night.

"Come on Chad, I'll go with you!" blurted Travis and 
stood to leave. The night was far from over but who was 
I to turn down a walk in the dark with a gorgeous drunk 
boy! I grabbed a couple extra beers and we headed away.

The lake wasn't far. We sat on a bench and talked 
quietly under a thousand stars. We listened to the 
loons calling. He said how lucky I was to have a place 
like this. He'd rarely been in such an environment in 
his life. He said it must be nice to sit on the dock 
and put your feet in the water!

"I don't know," I said. "Let's find out, shall we?" he 
immediately stripped off his runners and socks as did I 
and we walked down to the dock. I was in shorts and I 
sat at the end of the dock and put my legs in the mild 
water. Travis was wearing jeans. He started to join me 
then realized his pants were getting wet. So he stood 
up and took them off, joining me in just his tee shirt 
and boxers! I was delighted. 

Travis confessed that he was turned on by Lois' big 
breasts and hinted he'd like to sleep with her. I knew 
he'd only ever slept with one girl - his ex girlfriend 
Sherry.

The dock shook. Gerald had appeared behind us. He 
whistled at Travis.

"Nice legs!" he praised.

"You know I never been skinny dipping!" announced 
Travis. Gerald and I looked at each other like we'd 
just one the lottery.

"We do all the time," said Gerald. This was a strategic 
lie of course. "I think I'll go for a dip now!" He 
added and began to disrobe. Travis scrambled to his 
feet and standing right beside me, facing me, he peeled 
off the tee shirt and dropped the shorts. I looked up 
at his beautiful naked dick. Gerald grabbed his bare 
little ass and Travis squealed playfully and thrust his 
groin forward to escape the groping, nearly whacking my 
forehead with his dick! I'm sure he was teasing us 
purposely. He was always very uninhibited when under 
the influence of alcohol.

The three of us horsed around in the water. Gerald took 
to grabbing Travis and "throwing" him at me! This gave 
us both plenty of opportunity to get our hands on his 
firm naked body.

When Travis decided he'd had enough he tried to climb 
back up on to the dock and of course Gerald and I 
helped him, getting liberal feels of his adorable ass 
in the process. We all climbed out and Gerald and I 
used our shirts to dry ourselves the best we could. We 
had extra clothes in the lodge of course. Travis began 
walking naked toward the lodge.

"I'll just dry off by the fire!" he declared.

"Whoa there!" said Gerald and grabbed his arm, leading 
him back, worried I suppose, what the others would say 
about a naked boy wandering around. I was fine with 
that idea. I thought Travis's body was the eighth 
wonder of the world and should be seen by everyone on 
the planet! And I knew Carson and Ray wouldn't mind. 
They'd both on separate occasions asked me enviously if 
I'd been sleeping with Travis. But whether their 
respective partners, Bill and Walt might get jealous or 
not, I didn't know. 

I took Travis's tee shirt and somewhat dried him with 
it. He giggled as I buffed his butt cheeks. Then he 
again wandered off toward the lodge, still naked.

"Chad!" Gerald growled, "Do something!"

"Who cares?" said I. "Don't worry about it." So he 
didn't. We got dressed and Gerald rounded up the boy's 
clothes while I returned to the campfire.

Ray and Walt had already gone inside to bed as had 
Mark, our straight friend. Most unfortunately Mark's 
wife Pauline was busy fetching a blanket to cover 
Travis up with. Lois wasn't shy to look at Travis' body 
and they both laughed and giggled about it. Carson just 
sat there gazing at Travis like he was looking through 
the gates of heaven, praying to get in.

Pauline appeared with a blanket and offered it to 
Travis. He stood from his lawn chair and turned around. 
All eyes looked at his butt until Pauline wrapped the 
blanket around him.

He sat. Our chairs were adjacent. We all talked. More 
beer was consumed. The subject of massage came up. This 
was one of Gerald's penchants, both giving and 
receiving. He started giving Lois a shoulder rub. I got 
brave. I stood behind Travis and gave him one. He 
dropped the blanket to his waist and asked me to 
scratch his back. I did. I was thrilled that he 
welcomed my touch. He kept asking me to do it harder. 
He asked again and again. I was alarmed how viciously 
he wanted me to scratch. My nails were leaving white 
lines on his back.

Gerald approached and began to help out.

"Why do you like this, Travis," he asked? "Did Sherry 
do this to you?"

"Yeah," he responded.

"When you had sex?" probed Gerald.

"That's right!" he admitted. I was amazed at Gerald's 
perceptiveness and thrilled with the situation. Here 
was the sexiest boy ever - being pawed by two older gay 
guys, stared longingly at by another, and the sexual 
connotations were all over the place.

"Why don't you lay on the bench? It'll be easier," 
suggested Gerald. Travis stood and stepped to the bench 
and then to my shock and unbridled delight, he pulled 
off the blanket, laid it on the bench and then 
stretched out on top of it, face down, his adorable 
nude body entirely exposed to several grateful 
admirers!

Gerald and I knelt on either side of him and slowly, 
lovingly scratched his back - and his butt - and his 
legs. We would run our nails down his back, over his 
sweet little ass - and down his legs. Then - and this 
is the best part - we would retrace our path but with 
the palms of our hands, smoothing over his baby-soft 
skin. He had hair on his head, armpits and pubic area - 
and a little on his shins. That was it. The caressing 
of his bare butt was the most arousing thing I'd ever 
experienced up to that moment - but things would get 
even better!

Do you like your feet scratched? I asked. He didn't 
reply. I went and sat at his feet, taking one into my 
hands. It was a little dusty from walking around naked. 
I lightly scratched the sole of his adorable foot.

"You know what I love?" said Lois. I looked up. Pauline 
had gone to bed by this time. I hadn't noticed when. I 
think she was uncomfortable with all this. Lois was 
looking at me as I played with Travis's bare foot.

"What's that?" I asked.

"Getting my toes sucked!" A shiver went through me. I 
could have kissed her for saying this.

"Really?" said I, playing dumb. I held Travis's foot 
towards her. "Show me how!" Lois giggled wildly at this 
but didn't move to accept the offer. I turned back to 
the foot in my hands. The toes were so small, so 
adorable. I took them between my lips. I ran my tongue 
along them. God, how I loved it. I sucked and sucked, 
moving from one side to the other, usually sucking a 
few toes at a time. I switched feet and sucked some 
more. I had a hard-on now and didn't care if anyone 
noticed.

Bill excused himself and left for bed. Carson said he'd 
be right in. But first he approached us and began to 
assist Gerald with the scratching of Travis's back.

"You do his back," instructed Gerald, "I'll do his 
bum!" That startled me. Surely Travis would object at 
this point. He turned slightly, trying to peer over his 
shoulder at us.

"Is someone sucking my toes?" he asked.

"Yeah," said I, praying he wouldn't tell me to stop.

"I can hardly feel it," he said, and rested his head 
back in his folded arms. Did he want me to suck harder, 
I wondered. Or was that his way of telling me to just 
give up on it. I didn't know how to take the comment. 
So I just continued to lick and suck his beautiful 
toes.

Gerald was rubbing and squeezing his narrow butt 
cheeks.

"Did Sherry ever nibble your bum?" asked Gerald.

"No," said Travis.

"Do you mind if I?" Again I thought he'd gone too far.

"I don't care," Travis murmured. I was shocked. Gerald 
wasted no time. His lips and teeth were all over the 
boy's sweet ass. Carson was practically drooling on 
himself. 

We continued our worshipful assault on his naked body. 

"Spread your legs a little," I heard Gerald say. And to 
my continued amazement Travis complied. I finally took 
a break from his feet and moved next to his butt, 
across from Gerald. His lips were glued to one firm ass 
cheek. I tapped him on the head. I wanted a turn and 
Gerald understood. As he lifted his head I saw that his 
arm was between Travis's legs. He withdrew it, took my 
wrist and thrust my hand into that same position. I 
suddenly had Travis's balls in my hand! I fondled them 
lovingly while I attacked his firm buns with my lips 
and tongue. Gerald took a turn sucking toes. 

My lips found Travis's crack. I pushed my tongue in. I 
probed downward. I found his little rose bud. I gave my 
first ever rim job to a gorgeous straight teenager 
while 3 people looked on. Who could have imagined?

Travis finally put a stop to it. He carefully turned 
himself over on to his back. I prayed that he would be 
hard. I would suck it for sure.

He wasn't hard. He sat upright on the bench. He wanted 
to just sit and talk and watch the fire. So we did 
that. We sat and talked. Travis watched the fire and 
the rest of us watched his dick. Gerald asked him if we 
could take pictures of him. 

"I don't care," he said. But no one had a camera handy. 
That was perhaps the worst tragedy of my existence - 
that no one had a damn camera that night.

Eventually Lois, Carson and Gerald went to bed leaving 
Travis and I alone at the fire, he still naked and 
sitting very close to me on the bench. I had been 
softly rubbing his shoulders, back, neck and the back 
of his head. I adored every minute of it and took long 
looks at his flaccid dick, not worried whether he 
noticed my gaze or not.

I let the fire die and asked him if he was ready for 
bed. He wanted to go for a walk first. Perhaps he 
wished to walk off some of the drunkenness and avoid 
throwing up as he was somewhat prone to do. He climbed 
into boxers despite my assurances that we wouldn't be 
seen and that he was welcome to streak.

On our walk we came to the tennis courts. The gate was 
unlocked and we went inside. He took a barefoot jog 
around the court before grasping onto the tall fence 
and beginning to climb. I rushed up behind him worried 
he might fall. Under the guise of spotting him I 
caressed the back of his smooth legs as he climbed.

"That's far enough, buddy! Come on. Come down," I 
urged. He obeyed, thank goodness and descended. As his 
butt was even with my face he seemed to start to slip. 
I suspect he was well aware of my proximity and was 
purposely initiating contact, but I'm not sure. I 
immediately threw my arms around him without thought to 
where I was grabbing him. As it were, my right arm 
wrapped around his waste, the left slipped between his 
legs and I clamped onto his package, dick, balls and 
all! I held him in this awkward and intimate way and 
guided him to the ground.

We made our way to the shore - a different spot then 
before - not by the dock. Here there was a picnic table 
on the narrow beach. He sat on the top of it, feet on 
the bench. I sat on the bench beside his feet. We both 
faced the water. We talked about serious things - 
relationships, sex, religion, goals in life - things he 
would never talk about when sober. I eventually worked 
my way around so that I was facing him. I caressed his 
foot, his slightly fuzzy shin, his cute knee and 
eventually, his smooth thigh. He didn't seem to mind.

Finally we returned to the lodge. We didn't have to 
discuss sleeping arrangements. He went straight to my 
bed and sat on it. Gerald, his bed in the same room, 
awoke. We didn't like to sleep in the same bed - at 
home or at the lodge. This was no symptom of 
relationship problems as some dull-minded associates 
would allude to. One gets a better night's sleep with a 
bed to one's self. It's common sense.

Gerald conversed with Travis as I fetched a rag and 
soaked it. I returned to the bedroom as Gerald left for 
the bathroom. I carefully wiped the boy's dusty feet 
clean. He then stretched out on the bed and scooted 
over to the far side - by the wall. It warmed my heart 
that he simply assumed we would sleep together and had 
no objection. I climbed in beside him and lay on my 
back. After a moment Gerald returned.

"Is he asleep?"

"I dunno. Travis, you asleep?" No answer. The poor 
thing had crashed instantly - unless he was choosing 
not to answer. Gerald dropped to his knees and gently 
sucked each of Travis's toes before returning to his 
bed.

I rolled over to face my young bed partner. 

"Good night sweetie," I whispered. "I love you." I put 
an arm around him. I silently shed some tears. They 
were neither tears of joy or of sorrow - or perhaps 
both. I just felt so much love for him that the emotion 
overwhelmed me.

Perhaps it was two weeks later when Travis came to the 
lodge for another overnighter. There was no skinny-
dipping, no nudity. At bedtime we retired to my 
bedroom. Gerald hadn't come this weekend so there was 
no reason for Travis and I to share a bed. But for the 
moment we both sat on Gerald's bed and talked quietly. 
We hadn't drank all that much that night so I was 
nervous about trying to initiate any contact. We talked 
about the old soccer gang and some of the trouble and 
good times we'd gotten into. We laughed quietly.

Pulse racing, I slid a tad farther away from him on the 
bed and reached for his shin. I tried to lift his leg 
but he held it firm for a moment, somewhat alarmed, not 
understanding what I was up to. 

"It's okay," I said and tried again. He allowed me to 
move his leg so that his bare foot was on my lap. I 
lovingly massaged his small feet, alternating every ten 
minutes or so while we talked and laughed into the 
night. Finally I gave him a hug, wrapping my arms and 
hands around his bare back and shoulders and then went 
to my own bed. I had desperately wanted to kiss his 
feet during the massage but didn't have the guts. But I 
was clever. I knew how to get across this barrier.

*

Returning home that Sunday Gerald was all ears as I 
recounted Travis's visit. When I told him of the foot-
rub, I told a lie. It was a good lie, a fun lie, a 
necessary lie. I told him that each time I was about to 
switch feet, I would give the sole of his foot a brief 
kiss. In essence, I had told him I'd been kissing 
Travis's feet while Travis was sober and he hadn't 
objected. This gave Gerald the impression that oral 
contact with Travis's feet was now sanctioned 
territory.

A short time later we entertained friends at our home, 
Travis included. He was the last to leave. When the 
others had gone, Gerald took a seat on the floor in 
front of the couch, scooped up Travis's socked foot and 
began to rub it. So I, sitting next to Travis, grabbed 
his other foot, pulled it to my lap and did likewise. 
We continued to chat and watch TV. I stripped off the 
sock and was thrilled all over again to have such a 
cute warm naked foot in my hands. 

Gerald did likewise with the other foot. And then, 
believing it an established routine, Gerald kissed 
Travis's naked foot! It turned me on immensely to see 
this. Over the course of the next hour or so we 
competed to give the boy the best foot rub. At one 
point I leaned forward and took Travis's small toes in 
my mouth and sucked. Travis squealed and pulled away. I 
released him.

"Don't do that," he said.

"You didn't mind a couple weeks ago at the lodge," I 
pointed out to no reply.

Though he objected to the toe-sucking he didn't seem to 
mind the kissing and so we both kissed his feet - top 
and bottom - on several occasions. Finally we 
surrendered his cute feet, not wanting to push the 
envelope too much. We put his socks back on for him and 
soon after he left for home. Gerald and I were both 
entirely turned on and immediately jerked off together 
as soon as Travis left.

This was the beginning of a pattern that would last for 
years. Gerald and I - or more often, just I - would 
give him foot rubs almost every time we got together; 
at our house, his apartment (he moved away from his 
mom's house), even at other friend's houses in front of 
an audience! To this day I still give him the 
occasional foot rub and still kiss his feet or toes. He 
still has soft smooth little feet. 

But there were also times that I got to explore other 
parts of his firm young body!


GERALD REVISITED

Gerald and I continued to explore our exposure kink. He 
was a very good house painter and he did some painting 
for our friend Pat - the somewhat older fellow that I 
met my second time out to the gay support group and who 
became a very close friend.

Gerald did the painting in the nude while Pat hung 
around and later they lounged in the living room 
talking, Gerald still naked, lying on the couch, his 
dick often hard while Pat stayed fully clothed.

On another occasion Pat slept over in our guest room. 
We left our bedroom door open and Pat discovered us 
having sex with the light on when he got up to use the 
bathroom. We invited him in and he was full of 
compliments for Gerald's body and felt him up liberally 
before returning to the guestroom.

*

Owen was a cute younger fellow who we met while he 
dated a friend of ours. After breaking up, Owen severed 
ties with our circle of friends except for Gerald and 
I. One evening as he visited us in our home the 
conversation kept turning to sex and Owen seemed to be 
the instigator.

"If I didn't know better I'd say you were trying to 
engineer a threesome!" I said.

"But I am!" he said with a sweet grin. That was all it 
took and Gerald and I began stripping him naked. He had 
a very smooth sturdy body, cute feet, and as we pulled 
down his boxer shorts we found he had a very big dick. 
Gerald, the more expert cock-sucker went to town on it 
and Owen continually begged him to be rougher. He was 
not at all sensitive. He liked his dick nibbled and 
loved it when I rubbed it against my unshaven jaw. 

Gerald eventually got naked but I preferred to stay 
dressed as I usually do when a partner has a nicer body 
than mine. To me sex is rarely about reciprocation. 
It's all about the worship of the beautiful one. I did 
take out my dick though and jerk off while we played.

I came home from soccer one night and saw a strange 
pair of shoes by the front door. I went immediately to 
the bedroom and was thrilled to find Gerald and Owen 
going at it in the dark. I joined the fun. At one point 
Gerald took Owen's smallish foot in his hands and began 
to lick his sole and suck his toes. I came immediately.

*

My first real boyfriend, Ted - still the only partner 
I've ever had great two-way reciprocal sex with - came 
back into our lives when he moved back to our city. 
Gerald was talking to him on the phone one evening and 
he told me to pick up the other extension. I did. 
Gerald was telling Ted how jealous he had been back 
when Ted and I were dating because he had such a crush 
on both of us. It became a rather explicit and sexy 
conversation. Ted was in a relationship but an 'open' 
one and soon we arranged a date for a threesome.

It was great fun. Ted still had a great body. We all 
stripped each other and took turns getting worshipped 
by the other two. I sucked Ted while Gerald rimmed his 
ass. They put their lips together with my dick between 
and basically blew me simultaneously while four hands 
explored my chest and my balls. It was a wild 
sensation.

Gerald loved it. It was a fantasy finally come true for 
him. He took photographs of Ted and I going at it but 
the photo store wouldn't print them. He still has the 
negatives.

*

One evening Ted and two other friends ended up at our 
place at the same time. The other two friends had both 
at one time or another been privy to one of Gerald's 
naked 'performances'. Whether they had shared this 
information with each other I don't know. We put 
together a spontaneous dinner and afterwards just 
relaxed at the table, opened more wine and beer and got 
nicely buzzed. 

Gerald disappeared for a moment and returned wearing 
just a pair of shorts. He came up behind me and wrapped 
his arms around me. I reached back and felt my way to 
his zipper.

"Hey, what are you doing?" he cried playfully.

"He's taking off your shorts, what do you think?" 
stated Ted, clearly game for what we had in mind.

"But I'm not wearing underwear!" said Gerald.

"So!" said Ted. I eyed our other friends. One looked 
like he was into it. One looked a little nervous. Ted 
was all smiles. I turned in my chair and swiftly 
deprived Gerald of his pants. He was naked. He played 
shy and tried to hide behind me. I kept reaching back 
to touch him.

Finally at Ted's encouragement he moved slightly to one 
side and rested his hardening dick on my shoulder for 
all to see. I caressed it. It grew harder. I guided him 
closer to the table - beside me. I played with his dick 
for an audience of three.

"Kiss it!" urged Ted. So I kissed it.

"No!" said Ted, "Kiss means to suck it!"

So I did. I sucked his dick in front of three friends. 
Ted left his seat and came around to fondle Gerald's 
ass. He reached around and touched his chest. He 
grabbed the chair Gerald had been sitting in, pulled it 
far back from the table and sat down. He grabbed Gerald 
and pulled him back on to his lap. He reached around 
and jerked Gerald off until he came. It was all quite 
erotic - at least to four of us. The one guy wasn't too 
sure what to think.


Gerald got into the gay chat rooms online. He 'met' a 
fellow named Eric who claimed to be 16 and who lived in 
the neighboring town - not too far from us. They agreed 
to meet. I didn't believe this person was really who he 
said he was and was surprised when Gerald informed me 
they'd met.

Not only had they met, but Gerald had given the kid a 
bare-foot rub and later sucked him off. I was impressed 
to say the least.

"But is he really only 16?" I asked.

"No," said Gerald. "He'd lied about that online. He's 
only 15!"

One night Gerald brought Eric to our home for a visit. 
He was a strange kid from a broken home. He was thin 
and blonde. He was a smoker. He had a nice body. He 
continued to get blowjobs from Gerald but the two of us 
didn't hit it off particularly well. There was no real 
problem. Just a chemistry thing. We talked about having 
a threesome some time but it never materialized. Like I 
said, he was a bit of a weird kid and he talked about 
wanting to get into the porn business! He wanted to do 
an audition tape. His best friend was a girl his age 
who knew he was gay and she had a video camera (her 
parents' actually) but they both lived at home with 
parents of course. 

One evening Gerald showed up at our place with Eric 
(now 16), his girlfriend and the camera. With very 
little embarrassment, the kid stripped naked, lay on 
the couch and jerked himself off in front of the three 
of us while the girl filmed it.

He never did get into the porn business. He's now a 
young drag queen of all things.

We heard about a bar called the Crow's Nest that held a 
'naked night' every Friday. Supposedly patrons were 
welcome to strip naked on these special nights. It 
sounded too weird to be true and not entirely legal. 
Although, in hindsight the law does afford nudist 
groups the opportunity to practice their customs in 
private settings. In fact I once showed up early for a 
soccer game to find naked people of all age and gender 
having some kind of gymnastic event at the arena. It 
was quite an eye-opener and a turn-on too I must admit. 
The arena was city property so I must assume this was 
all legal.

The Crow's Nest was known as a leather-bar - not 
anything Gerald or I were 'in' to, but nakedness we 
certainly were. We showed up on Friday to find a fair 
crowd of which only two or three guys were naked - that 
is, they were wearing nothing but shoes. They were 
significantly older gentlemen I should add. There was a 
check-in guy who was very smiley and urged us to check 
our clothes. I wouldn't dream of it but Gerald happily 
started to strip. All his clothes went in a big plastic 
bag and I pocketed his chit. 

We walked around the bar. I was quite turned on seeing 
Gerald exposed to such a crowd of dressed people. We 
got a lot of attention. I started playing with his dick 
and he was rock hard in no time. Several admirers took 
great notice of us as the crowd in the bar grew bigger.

Now and then other men would grope his dick or his ass. 
A group of teenagers came in but stayed clear of us. 
There was one who was very cute and young-looking. 
Gerald and I both were attracted to him.

At one point I went to the bar to get us both drinks 
while Gerald saved our seats at the other side of the 
room. The bartender had been generous with our drinks 
on account of Gerald putting on such a good show. While 
standing at the bar I sensed someone come up beside me 
and I heard a voice say:

"Why do you keep hanging around that naked man?"

I turned around and it was none other then the cute boy 
we'd been looking at!

"Because we're here together. He's my lover!" I said.

"Oh."

I asked what he was drinking and ordered him one on my 
tab. He smiled a very sweet smile and thanked me and 
walked away.

Later in the night a different youth approached Gerald 
and they talked for some time. I couldn't hear them 
over the music. Finally the kid left and Gerald turned 
to me, all smiles.

"His name's Peter. Cute, isn't he?"

"Yeah I guess. Not exactly my type."

"Well, guess what, I know who IS your type. The one you 
talked to at the bar. He's Peter's friend. His name's 
Nathan and he's 18 and he thinks you're hot!"

"Fuck off," I said and I meant it. Years ago I would 
have believed it because I was once very popular at the 
bars. But those days were gone.

"I'm serious. Peter says that Nathan thinks you're the 
hottest guy in the bar!" Now I was getting a little 
ticked off. I didn't believe this shit for a second. 

Peter came back to us with Nathan in tow. He introduced 
each of us to Nathan and then resumed his conversation 
with Gerald while Nathan and I stood together 
awkwardly. I simply could not believe this was going 
on.

Nathan asked if we could go somewhere else to talk. I 
followed him to a hallway where we were basically 
alone. We made small talk for a bit. I was nervous. I 
still couldn't comprehend what was going on.

"You know you're the hottest the guy in the bar 
tonight!" he said with a big smile. I laughed out loud.

"First of all, you must be crazy because I certainly am 
not. And secondly- you're the hottest guy in the bar - 
by far!"

Nathan stepped closer to me, grinning. "No, you are. 
And I don't know why you want to hang out with that 
naked man!"

"I told you. He's my lover."

"Yeah well, he's going home with Peter tonight."

"I don't think so," I said matter-of-factly. "He's not 
leaving me here!" Nathan stepped closer still. His cute 
face was right in mine.

"You can come home with me!" he said, and the next 
thing I knew we were kissing. His lips were wonderfully 
soft. His tongue was delicious. I pulled away.

"I can't go home with you unless Gerald comes too." 
Nathan shook his head in response. "I want to fuck 
you!" he announced.

"No. I'm sorry. I don't do that. I wouldn't even 
undress in front of you."

"Why not?" he pouted.

"'Cause you're beautiful. It wouldn't be right," said 
I.

"What WOULD you do?"

"I don't know. I'd like to see YOU naked!"

He started kissing me again.

"You're an awesome kisser!" I said. "You're making me 
hard." He took my hand and placed it against his 
crotch. I wasn't the only one hard. Now I was really 
turned on. I rubbed him purposefully. Our tongues did 
battle.

"Christ, you feel big," I blurted. He undid his button 
and sucked in his flat belly. I went down the front of 
his pants. No underwear. I found the base of his hard 
dick and held it. 

Suddenly Gerald was there with us. Nathan immediately 
buttoned himself back up. Gerald wanted to go home with 
Peter and wanted me to go home with Nathan. I resisted. 
I wanted a threesome with Gerald and Nathan or else a 
foursome. But nobody else wanted that. I finally 
conceded. 
We all piled into Gerald's car. He dropped Nathan and I 
off at a townhouse complex and promised to be back in a 
couple hours.

We went inside and a handful of other teenagers - guys 
and girls were in the living room.

"These are my roommates," he announced. "Guys, this is 
Chad." We all said brief hello's and then Nathan led me 
to his tiny 
bedroom. It all seemed rather strange and awkward. 

He was into art in a big way and his walls were covered 
in his own drawings and paintings. I spent a while 
admiring them.

He had a little couch in his room. No bed. Perhaps the 
couch was a pull-out. I don't know. We sat on it and 
cuddled.

"Let's get naked," he said.

"I told you, I won't. You get naked."

"We'll see!" he teased. We cuddled some more. We 
kissed. He was very cute. I loved it.

"Do you want to see my bum?" he asked suddenly.

I laughed. "Yes!"

He stood up, stepped to his desk and picked up a great 
coil bound book. It was a sketchbook. He flipped to a 
drawing of a young man, lying face down, naked. He 
certainly had a nice bum. 

"That's you?" 

"Yep!"

"How'd you draw yourself?"

"From a photograph!" He rifled through some belongings, 
turned up a photo and surrendered it to me. It was 
definitely Nathan and he definitely had a nice ass.

"Are you sure that's you?" I teased.

"Yes," he laughed.

"I don't know, I think I'll need to see the real thing 
to be sure!"

"Alright!" He leaned back and reached for his button. I 
stopped him.

"Let me."

He lay there passively while I undid his pants and 
tugged them off of him. I eyed his big dick. It was a 
handsome one. Nathan stood and turned his back to me. I 
touched his two sweet globes. I rubbed them, pinched 
them and squeezed them. I leaned forward and kissed 
them. I sat him back down. I knelt before him. His dick 
was hardening. It was a big one. I wouldn't be able to 
take it all. I would embarrass myself for being a 
second-rate cock-sucker. But I had to try.

I fondled his dick. I stroked it. I loved the feel of 
it in my hand. I kissed it. I licked it. I licked it 
some more. I went down.

I sucked on the head of it, gave it lots of tongue. He 
was vocal, appreciative. He ran his hands through my 
hair. I went for broke. I plunged down further. I let 
it slide right down my throat. And I didn't gag! 
Amazing. My first time successfully suppressing the 
gag-reflex. Gerald would be proud of me. It was the 
best blow-job I'd ever given.

I think Nathan liked it. His dick got really hard. I 
felt a subtle pulse in his dick. I backed up so just 
the head was in my mouth and I grabbed the shaft with 
my hand. Fluid gushed on to my tongue. I drank his 
come. I sucked him some more as he softened. Finally I 
released it from my mouth.

Nathan was all tired now and wanted to just lie in my 
arms. I wanted that too but made him takes his shirt 
off. He resisted because he had come. He didn't feel as 
sexy any more. He was embarrassed. But I made him get 
naked and we cuddled. I held his sweet nude body in my 
arms.

Finally he got dressed and we went outside and sat on 
the curb. Gerald eventually showed up and took me home. 
Nathan had given me his phone number but I never called 
it. I don't know why I didn't. I never saw him again.


WORSHIPPING TRAVIS

Travis and I had expanded on our NY Giants trips. We 
started hitting other cities and other sports. Our 
biggest excursion was a 6-day baseball trip in which we 
hit 3 major league games, a state fair and a day at the 
horse races. Two other friends joined us. We booked 
hotel accommodations for the first and last nights and 
for the middle three nights we booked campgrounds. One 
friend supplied his parents' mini-van and the other a 
big tent.

The first night at the hotel Travis and I shared a bed. 
When I was confident everyone was asleep I crept out of 
bed, went to the bottom end of it and folded back the 
sheet, exposing Travis's cute feet. I gently kissed the 
soles of his feet and jerked off all over the carpet.

The second night we were in the tent, all laid out in a 
row, me at one end with Travis beside me. Again, when 
it seemed all were asleep I moved to Travis's feet, 
lifted his blanket and kissed his toes while I came in 
my hand.

The third evening Travis and I were alone in the tent 
for a moment and planning to go to the shower building 
to clean up. Travis was always one to joke about 
streaking and being naked.

"Maybe I'll just strip here and walk to the shower 
naked and show everyone what they can't have!" he 
kidded.

"But why can't they have it?" asked I. Travis just 
shrugged. 

We walked to the building - clothed of course and 
stripped there, inside separate neighboring shower 
stalls. The stalls were deep and curtained and 
separated by a concrete wall roughly 7 feet high. Each 
contained a chair just inside the curtain. I withdrew 
my camera that I'd smuggled inside my shaving kit, 
estimated what distance to set the manual focus at, 
climbed on the chair and peeked over the wall, hoping 
to get a quick shot of Travis's gorgeous nude body.

He caught me. That is, he saw me looking. We just made 
a joke of it and laughed. He didn't see the camera. I 
never got the picture.

I awoke the next morning to find Travis sitting up on 
top of his blanket in just his boxers while the other 
two slept. I moved and sat at his feet and we held a 
whispered conversation while I massaged his bare feet, 
eventually giving them kisses as I finished.

The fourth night the friend who brought the van slept 
in it leaving three of us in the tent. I slept in the 
middle. As Travis was getting ready for bed he was 
standing in the tent - slightly slouched under the low 
roof. He was in just his boxers with his back to me. 
For a joke I grabbed his underwear and whisked them 
down to his ankles. Our friend laughed at our antics. I 
slapped his bare ass. Had the friend not been there I 
would surely have kissed, licked or nibbled that sweet 
butt.

"Oh, very mature, Chad." He said but stepped out of the 
boxers, finished what he was doing in the nude, then 
put his shorts back on and climbed into bed. This night 
he decided to sleep the opposite direction - with his 
feet beside my head. After we were all tucked in the 
three of us talked for quite a while. The whole time I 
had one hand under Travis's blanket playing with his 
feet and one hand stroking my own dick. 

I tried to be very covert and not let the friend catch 
on to the foot-rub and not let either of them notice 
that I was furtively masturbating. However 'foot-rub' 
does not accurately describe this incident. I was 
fondling his feet - caressing them - worshipping them. 
I think Travis had to know by this point that my 
attentions were not simply that of a generous masseur, 
that I was getting some kind of erotic satisfaction out 
of these encounters.

*

The fifth night was a very special night indeed. We all 
drank heavily that evening - our last evening of the 
trip. At the hotel Travis stripped to his boxers and 
laid on his back on top of the covers. He was asleep in 
no time as were the others. I laid down the opposite 
way and went crazy on his feet. I kissed them very 
wetly as I caressed his shins, ankles and feet with my 
hands. I sucked on his toes. He was passed out. Nothing 
would wake him. I totally made love to his feet and 
with very little stimulation I came in my underwear. I 
shifted around again and slept beside him.

I woke up later and eyed his bare chest. I kissed it. I 
kissed his nipples. I kissed his flat tummy. I looked 
at his shorts - at the bulge there. I reached out and 
touched it. I was shocked to find it rock-hard at the 
touch! My heart rate doubled. His dick was erect and 
pointed straight toward his belly button.

I ran my finger along the ridge. I was in a frenzy of 
lust. I had quite a boner of my own going on despite my 
recent orgasm. I reached up the leg of his shorts and 
very carefully crept north. I touched the hair on his 
beautiful balls. I touched the base of his glorious 
erection. I moved my fingers further along, exploring 
the shaft of his wonderful hard dick. It was velvety 
and warm and unimaginably sexy.

I had to see it!

I tried to bend it sideways trying to push it out the 
leg of his shorts but it was the kind of erection that 
just locks in place - not out but straight up against 
the belly. My efforts disturbed him. He suddenly moved. 
I whipped my hand out of there and dropped my head to 
the pillow in a flash. I was terrified. I tried to 
pretend I was sleeping while my heart pounded so hard I 
thought it was shaking the entire hotel complex.

I woke up again later as the sun was only beginning to 
make its presence known. Travis was still on his back. 
I reached out and touched that wonderful bulge again. 
He was still hard - or hard again - whichever the case 
may have been. Again I sneaked my fingers up the leg of 
his shorts and found his sweet balls and hard-on. I had 
a good feel, running my fingers up and down his 6-inch 
erection. Now 6 inches may not be especially big but it 
was more than big enough on a skinny little guy like 
Travis.

He again moved in his sleep, scaring the crap out of me 
and prompting me to whip my hand out and fake sleep.

The next time I awoke it was mid-morning. Travis was 
also waking up. I glanced down. It looked like he still 
- or again - had a hard-on in his boxers. Our two 
friends were both still asleep. Travis rose from the 
bed and started walking around the hotel room. He 
looked through his gym bag. 

He went to the window and pulled the curtain back a bit 
to peek outside. He picked up a watch and checked the 
time. Almost the whole time he stayed in profile from 
my view and there was no doubt he had an erection. It 
poked against the shorts - just below the waistband. It 
was pointed almost straight up - perhaps 10 or 15 
degrees from vertical.

The little bastard was exhibiting himself to me. I was 
sure of it. The little show-off was teasing me. Finally 
he came back to the bed and sat right beside my hip, 
facing the foot of the bed. Had he then lain directly 
back his head would have hit the pillow. And that's 
what I thought he was going to do. But no, he just sat 
there. So I reached up and scratched his smooth back 
for him. I did this for quite a while. I wanted to 
demonstrate that I was devoted to his pleasure. In case 
there was something else I could do to please him!

Finally I sat up beside him. That damn hard-on was 
still making an obscene tent at the top of his shorts. 
I stared right at it and he had to know it. Finally I 
reached out and tapped it saying "What's that?" - sort 
of as a joke.

He smacked my hand away quite aggressively. Apparently 
I was allowed to look but not touch.

"Sorry," I said quietly.

Later, as we were all packed to leave and Travis and I 
were about to leave the room and join our friends at 
the van, I stopped him and said, "Hey, is everything 
okay?"

"Sure," he replied. I threw my arms around him and gave 
him a big warm hug.

*

On a trip to Washington to see a Knicks - Bullets 
basketball game we shared a hotel room with one other 
friend. All of us got drunk. Travis and I shared a bed. 
I twice got my hand up his shorts to play with his 
erect dick and twice came in my shorts while slobbering 
all over the soles of his feet.


We had a friend named Reggie. Frankly the guy was a 
loser that Travis and I would occasionally hang out 
with out of pity - because few others would. There 
wasn't anything particularly offensive about him except 
that he was rather childish and socially incompetent, 
not understanding how to be tactful in any given 
situation. He met a girl from a complete trailer-trash 
family on a telephone sex-chat line. Their first date 
was at a donut shop where he bought her a coffee and 
she blew him in the parking lot. That story might have 
turned me on had they not both been so thoroughly 
unattractive.

The wedding itself was a tedious affair. The bride's 
family were all drunk out of their gourds. The rather 
proper and classy family of the groom were doing their 
best to hide their horror at the whole thing. Travis 
and I were just grateful that we were pre-warned that 
it would be a cash bar and had accordingly reduced our 
wedding gifts to compensate. 

But I was eternally grateful for the whole gruesome 
experience because it inadvertently brought about the 
most delicious and memorable event of my life thus far. 
Reggie convinced Travis to host a little stag party for 
him at Travis's apartment. This stag consisted of five 
people! That's the best we could do for dear old Reg. 
Four of us played poker all night and got drunk while 
Reg spent the night on the phone talking to the wife-
to-be trying to calm all her irrational psychotic 
fears. Eventually we all crashed - Reg in the spare 
room, the other two guys in the living room and Travis 
and I on his bed.

He slept on his back in just boxer shorts again and 
with no covers on. I couldn't wait to get my hands on 
his beautiful dick again. While waiting for him to fall 
asleep I fell asleep myself. But I awoke in the early 
morning while he was still passed out. I felt around. 
Bingo. Hard again. 

I reached up the leg of his shorts. These boxers were 
looser than the others and my hand easily slipped in to 
fondle that wonderful hard dick. Then I came to a 
startling realization. My previous attempt to free his 
erection was poorly planned. There was no need to bend 
that iron-firm dick sideways. I merely had to raise the 
leg of his boxers up over the head of his dick. I 
grabbed the leg opening and pulled upwards. It was 
easy. I dragged it up over the head and let the 
material gather beneath his dick.

Oh, what a beautiful sight. Webster's has it all wrong 
not putting a picture of Travis' hard-on next to the 
word beautiful. Perhaps they asked him and he turned 
them down.

It was a perfectly symmetrical unblemished circumcised 
hard smooth dick pointing right up at his belly button. 
It was absolutely mouthwatering. I kissed it all over 
the underside. The warmth and velvetiness were a taste 
of heaven to my adoring lips. I lifted it slightly away 
from his tummy - with much resistance, such was the 
rigidity of its position - and I slipped my lips over 
the head and down. Travis - the most beautiful and sexy 
boy in the world - had his hard cock in my mouth. I was 
sucking his cock. I have jerked off roughly a million 
times to this memory.

I sucked very gently. I didn't want to wake him. I then 
left it for a while as I went down to kiss and lick his 
feet and suck his toes. I then realized the stupidity 
of leaving his dick out in the open while I did this - 
in case he woke up and I had to abandon his feet and 
pretend to be asleep. So I returned to his dick and 
sucked it some more. I was utterly beside myself with 
lust. Just out of my mind with sexual euphoria.

I finally regretfully replaced his boxers over his dick 
and slipped into the bathroom where I jerked off and 
came twice. I would come at least six more times 
throughout the day just thinking about it - and roughly 
four times a day for the next week or two.


The next time we shared a bed it was a cool night and 
he wore underwear and track pants to bed and a T-shirt. 
As he lay back on the bed I sat at the foot of it and 
massaged his bare feet. He closed his eyes. I don't 
think he was actually asleep. As I finished the foot 
rub I raised his left foot way up to my face and 
planted a long series of open-mouthed kisses along the 
sole and the toes.

In the middle of the night I sat up and felt around his 
crotch. His dick was hard but not very accessible. It 
was all I could do to peel the track pants and undies 
down a bit - just enough for me to swirl my tongue 
around the delicious head of his hard-on. His body 
suddenly jolted and I flew to a lying position and shut 
my eyes, heart pounding like crazy.

On another sports-related trip - just the two of us - I 
connived to get a one-bed hotel room and Travis got 
very drunk. He stripped naked and put on pajama bottoms 
and crawled under the covers. I took a shower and 
wasted some time before going to bed - wanting to give 
him time to fall into deep sleep. He seemed entirely 
out of it.

I pulled the blankets down to his knees. I felt the 
crotch of his pajamas. He was soft. I toyed with it 
through the soft material of his jammies - or PJ's as 
Travis likes to call them. His dick started to harden 
for me. I was thrilled. I kept caressing it as it 
thickened and lengthened and turned sideways and then 
up toward his belly button as it locked firmly into 
position. While previous encounters with his erections 
may have just been piss-hard-ons for all I know - this 
was clearly the result of my sexual fondling.

I was out of control with lust. I actually unbuttoned 
his PJ's and fully exposed his beautiful young dick. I 
caressed, kissed, licked and sucked it for about a good 
half-hour. It softened once but I coaxed it back to 
hardness with my worshipful sucking. I felt a brief 
taste of pre-cum with this second effort. I put one 
hand against my own crotch and came in my shorts. 
Finally I put his dick away, buttoned him back up and 
worshipped his naked feet for a while before going to 
sleep. Sometimes I wonder if he was really asleep 
through all of it or not. I have to assume he was.

*

Travis was approached by an older woman that he worked 
with. She asked if he liked movies and proposed she 
bring a couple to his place for a movie-night. Francine 
was quite a bit older - late 40's. She's not at all 
youthful for her age - quite the opposite in fact - 
while Travis was - and still is - extremely youthful 
for his age. They would become lovers for a couple 
years and be constantly mistaken for mother and son.

Francine would eventually become very close friends 
with Gerald and would confide almost anything in him. 
Travis of course was my best friend and became quite 
willing to share very intimate details with me whenever 
he was drinking heavily. Thus Gerald and I were able to 
piece together a lot of their personal life and sex 
life. I will briefly share some of their experiences.

That first night in front of Travis's TV he laid down 
on the couch as he has always been prone to do. He 
didn't really understand if this was a date or not. 
Late in the evening she asked if she could lie down 
with him and proceeded to 'spoon' him from behind while 
they watched a movie. Eventually she began to stroke 
his chest through his tee shirt, then underneath the 
shirt and then she drifted her fingers over his crotch 
and groped him. Meeting no objection she unbuttoned his 
jeans, lowered the zipper and fondled his semi-erect 
dick though his boxer shorts.

Travis just laid there and soaked up the attention. 
Finally she penetrated the boxers, pulled out his cock 
and toyed with it for a while.

"I think it's time for bed," she whispered. He agreed. 
They killed the TV, went to his bed, stripped as far as 
their underwear and got in. Travis still didn't 
understand if he should expect to have sex or not. They 
fell asleep.

Travis awoke later in the night to find the woman's 
hand down his shorts, playing with his boner again. 
They threw the covers aside, lost the undies and he 
fucked her like the little tiger he is.

Francine invited Travis to spend a weekend at her 
little house she rented in another town. He did so. 
They had lots of sex. Travis sleeps late. She doesn't. 
She would be out of bed, dressed and productive long 
before Travis would emerge from her bedroom. Both 
Saturday and Sunday Travis was finally awakened by 
Francine sucking his young dick, covers thrown off his 
naked body.


She moved in to Travis's apartment. Travis's evening 
routine didn't change despite having a live-in lover. 
He kept the thermostat high. He would come home from 
work, take his second shower of the day, put on boxers 
and nothing else and lie on the couch watching TV for 
the rest of the night. Only now he had Francine sitting 
at the end of the couch, usually touching his bare legs 
and feet. This of course, was a monumental turn-on for 
me.

On a few occasions I was over at his place and 
witnessed this. I would sit strategically so that I 
could often see Travis balls and dick up the leg of his 
shorts as he squirmed around. She would often just 
caress the tops of his smooth feet but once when I was 
there he asked her for a foot rub and she immediately 
complied and massaged his feet all over. 

I honestly wonder if he did this for his own sake or 
for mine. There's no doubt he has some degree of 
exhibitionist tendencies. Another time he kept sneaking 
his bare foot up towards her face and would suddenly 
press it against her cheek. She would giggle at this 
like it was a joke while I nearly died of sexual 
arousal. 

I know that when I wasn't there Francine would 
invariably lie down with him on the couch, her head on 
his tummy and she would caress his body. She would rub 
his legs and then slip her fingers up his shorts, pull 
out his dick and play with it. He would usually get 
hard and she would let it come to rest on her lips and 
face and submit it to occasional kisses. She wanted sex 
every night. 

Sometimes he gave it to her and sometimes he didn't. I 
can see how he controlled her this way and became the 
object of her worship. Sometimes she would play with 
his dick half the night without getting fucked. She 
even allowed him to fuck her up the ass whenever he 
wanted and that was quite often.

They made it no secret that she never left his dick 
alone. She sometimes groped him through his pants in 
front of friends before he pushed her hand away. He 
once commented to a group of us that if the police ever 
wanted Francine's fingerprints they would just dust his 
dick for them.

Once the three of us shared a hotel and he lay on their 
bed in just his boxers while she put her head on his 
tummy. The lights were on at this time. I was watching 
them furtively through the mirror. I don't know if she 
was aware of this or not. Sure enough her hand went up 
his shorts to play with his dick. I could clearly see 
what she was doing and his balls were plainly visible. 
She whispered something to him more than once.

"No," was his reply each time.

"You should just show it off!" she finally said and 
gave up.

Later that night with the lights out it was extremely 
dark but you could still see a tiny bit. Travis 
launched a couple surprise tickle attacks on Francine 
and finally my calculated comments prompted him to 
sneak up on me for a surprise attack. I was in a pair 
of shorts - he, just boxers. I had my hands all over 
his firm tummy and sides as we tickle-wrestled. I loved 
it but pretended to give in to him as Francine had done 
- making him the tickle champion.

This led to a three-way battle where Francine and I 
ganged up on him. I don't know if they thought I 
couldn't see or just didn't care but it was obvious to 
me that as we wrestled Francine had one hand down his 
boxers and was aggressively rubbing his dick. 

Not to be left out I slipped my hand down the back of 
his shorts and unashamedly fondled his adorable smooth 
little ass. We were all laughing and loving it. I don't 
know if Francine knew what I was up to or not. I was 
doing my best to drag Travis' shorts right off him, 
thinking we were about to properly molest the boy. I 
figured she would blow him while I rimmed his butt. 

"Are you guys trying to get me naked?" joked Travis. 
But this seemed to sober Francine up and the game came 
sadly to an end.

They told me of a couple of their adventures - of her 
daring Travis to run to the end of their 3rd floor 
apartment building hallway and back - stark naked. He 
did it. Another time she lured him naked on to the 
balcony. She stood behind him, pushed him to the rail's 
edge and reached around and held out his dick for the 
'world' to see, not that they reported any audience.

I showed up at the apartment one time at about 4:30 PM. 
I was expected. Travis answered the door wearing pajama 
bottoms and a hard-on. Nothing else. He stood sideways 
as he opened the door for me. I couldn't miss the tent 
in his PJ's. He was totally hard. It was sticking 
almost straight up - roughly 10 degrees from his tummy.

I sat on the couch to wait for him to get ready. We 
were going out. He walked back and forth in front of me 
a couple times for no apparent reason - the tent from 
his woody plainly on display. I'm still not sure how to 
interpret all this.


Another time at his place I made a phone call on his 
behalf while he was in the bathroom getting ready to go 
out. I can't remember the nature of the call but the 
merchant needed more information than I knew. Travis 
had just finished showering and was still in the 
bathroom. I called him to the phone.

He marched up to me naked, his dick semi-erect. He took 
the phone from me and talked briefly. I scratched his 
back then drifted south rubbing his smooth bare butt. I 
was delighted he let me do that without objection (not 
the first or last time for that) but I was upset with 
myself later that I didn't make a grab for his semi-
hard dick.

*

Our last sports trip was a marathon. Neither of us had 
ever been to California and I had many relatives out 
there. We went for two weeks. We stayed a few nights at 
hotels but mostly with family. My relatives all 
mistakenly assumed that Travis was my lover and bunked 
us in shared beds even though some of them had large 
enough houses to board us separately. I certainly 
didn't complain.

Every night as we prepared for bed I rubbed his feet 
and kissed them. We were fairly moderate in our 
drinking and so he never properly passed out - thus I 
had no opportunity to covertly explore his dick.

One night near the end of our stay we returned to the 
hotel late. We undressed for bed and I went to the 
bathroom. When I came out I was shocked to see Travis 
lying on the bed, face down, stark naked!

I sat beside him and scratched his back. He said 
nothing. I let the scratching migrate into a back 
massage. He still said nothing. I continued down, 
briefly rubbing his naked ass, then his legs and feet. 
Then back up I went and rubbed his smooth butt some 
more. He still was silent though I'm sure he was awake. 
I went crazy on his firm little ass. I kissed his butt 
cheeks several times. I finally spread his cheeks and 
thrust my tongue between them, rimming him properly. 

Finally he began to move, turning on to his side. I was 
thrilled the time had come. He was going to let me blow 
him. But no. He squirmed out from under me, pulled back 
the covers and climbed under them. I moved out of his 
way.

"Good night," was all he said.

The next morning I awoke late and turned on the TV. It 
was September 11. There on the news was an image of the 
torn Pentagon, smoke drifting from its' side. 

"Jesus Christ!" I yelped. Travis awoke at this. 
"Someone bombed the Pentagon!"

Little did we know.

Soon we were looking at more images. A familiar tower 
was collapsing to the ground. I literally did not 
believe my eyes. A demolished World Trade Centre could 
not exist in my reality. My brain just wouldn't process 
it.

"That's what we get for electing Bush," Said Travis 
bitterly. "That's what we get for going out in the 
world and fucking with everybody."

I was hurt by those words. I don't think he'd ever 
offended me before. 'You don't even vote!' I felt like 
yelling at him but I said nothing. I loved him. I could 
never criticize him out loud. I could only love him. 
That's the kind of sucker I am.

We sat and watched the TV all morning, slowly coming to 
accept a new reality. We were supposed to fly home in a 
couple days. We were getting concerned about that. I 
wanted to see the flight tickets. Travis said they were 
in his gym bag. I got out of bed and searched the bag. 
He tried to direct me to the right pocket. I couldn't 
find them anywhere. Finally he got frustrated and 
jumped out of bed to find them himself.

He was still naked. And he was hard. Very hard. Not 
quite all the way - not locked against his belly as I'd 
seen before as he slept. But it seemed full size and 
bobbed around a little higher than horizontal. I was on 
my knees.
He stood right in front of me. The gym bag was on top 
of the low dresser and he stooped over to rummage 
through it. His hard-on bobbed before me. I just stared 
at it. Travis either didn't know, or wouldn't admit 
that I'd ever seen his naked erection before.

"Take a good look," he muttered, "You'll never see it 
again." I did more than look. I reached out and wrapped 
my fingers around it.

"Can I help you?" he snapped at me. He was objecting to 
my touch but didn't pull away. My mind was a fog of 
sorrow, anger, love and lust.

"I want to make you come," I croaked and leaned 
forward, mouth open. The head of that beautiful dick 
hit my tongue. I tried to close my lips around it. I 
tried to swallow him whole. I yearned to worship his 
body the best way I knew how. But he pulled away and I 
let him go. He crawled back under the covers. We said 
nothing. I'd gone too far. I sat on the floor and 
fought the urge to cry. Finally I got up and headed for 
bed. I hoped this whole morning was all a fucked up 
dream and I would later awaken from it.

I sat on the side of my bed looking at Travis. His 
beautiful face was looking at the ceiling. I moved to 
his side. I swept his dark hair from his forehead and 
kissed him gently there.

"I love you, Travis. My heart is breaking for you." The 
tears fell. Travis's arm came out from under the 
covers. He gently cupped his hand around my forearm.

"I know. It's okay. Everything's okay."

I knew he was right. Despite all the complications he 
was my true best friend. My beautiful little 
heterosexual Adonis was my best friend and everything 
was going to be okay.

****

Feedback most welcome! If you enjoyed reading my little 
biography please let me know. thegarg0yle@hotmail.com 
[Note the '0' in garg0yle is a zero!]

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The author does not condone child abuse, this story is
meant as an erotic fantasy not real life. Anyone acting
out such scenarios in "real life" can look forward to
many unproductive years getting it up the butt by a 
fellow convict in their local prison.
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