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Close Cousins (MF, rom, inc, 1st)
by Holly Rennick (jlrennick@yahoo.com)
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Q: How are Alabama, Alaska, California, Colorado,
Connecticut, Georgia, Florida, Hawaii, Maryland,
Massachusetts, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, Rhode
Island, South Carolina, Tennessee, Texas, Vermont,
Virginia, Canada, Mexico and the European Union alike?
A: Ask a close cousin.
***
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Or "Close Cousins: Spying and National
Security." "Spooky!" you say. We'll talk more in my
Endnote.
I'll just slip one topic of useful information up
front, what teachers always do. If you just want to
read about sexual intercourse, skip it. You're less fun
to write for, though.
Facts about First Cousin Marriage
(1) Marriage in much of the modern world is to preserve
family lines. Then sex. Then love. Perhaps 200 of 1,000
couples worldwide are first cousins. Their parents
arrange everything and they usually grow to love each
other. The frequency of cousin marriages in America is
about 1 in 1,000. About 500 of the 999 others get
divorced. I'm no statistician, but...
In rural England of yore, they say that marriage
between cousins was the rule among commoners because
everyone in a village was closely related, and among
the gentry to keep land in the family. Cousin marriage
declined when the invention of the bicycle made it
easier to court in the next village. It's said that
this was the end of human evolution, because only by
breeding within the same small gene pool could
recessive gene mutations survive.
(2) Genetic danger is largely an erroneous Western
phobia. The National Society of Genetic Counselors
estimates the increased risk for first cousins to be
between 1.7 and 2.8 percent, about the same for any
woman over 40.
(3) Still want to marry?
Q: How are Illinois, Wisconsin, Arizona and Maine
different?
A: In the queried order:
(a) You both must be 50 or one is unable to reproduce.
(b) The female must be 55 or one is unable to
reproduce.
(c) You both must be 65 or one is unable to reproduce.
(d) With evidence that you've had genetic counseling.
There's a science teacher at my school who'll counsel
you for free. She says go ahead.
Q: How are Alabama, Alaska, California, Colorado,
Connecticut, Georgia, Florida, Hawaii, Maryland,
Massachusetts, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, Rhode
Island, South Carolina, Tennessee, Texas, Vermont,
Virginia, Canada, Mexico and the European Union alike?
A: Just be in love.
If you're not in one of those places, take a jaunt
across the state line. No judge is going to make you
unwed on return. This sidestep might carry some
Constitutional weight regarding age as well, I wonder.
If you're a pedophile trying to snare a mid-schooler,
though, I hope you lose. A spouse isn't Interstate
Commerce.
(4) Review the literature of childhood sexual
relationships and control for living with siblings
(duh) and living with cousins. You're more likely to
have sex with a cousin who shares your roof than with
your brother or sister. Think about it. Lots of us
would never dress up (dress down, perhaps) for a
brother, but your older cousin visits and you kiss him
on the lips first thing. He finds you in the attic
reading about the Egyptians. You're just reading your
book, not sure if you should have worn your bra.
(5) You'll know each other well enough if you share two
grandparents. He's not going to be already married.
"Just a few formalities with the last one, darling, and
then we'll do our paperwork. We can start on our baby
now, though." If he's a druggie, you'll know what's
coming. "Baby, just do me this one favor and fly to LA
with this condom filled with chalk dust up where they
won't check. It's for a ghetto school where they don't
have white boards."
(6) If you share four grandparents, you're not really
cousins.
Please send me your comments, repair estimate, etc. As
fun as writing is, it's a process.
MOVING
I wasn't pleased. But with Pops fighting the war (well,
guarding the Panama Canal, anyway) and the new web
strap factory coming to town, it did make sense to rent
out our house and move in with Mom's sister. Even with
Ginny and Rupert's three girls, Grandma's old place had
room aplenty. Aunt Ginny figured that "Tina and her two
boys will sort of make up for Grandma being gone." I
liked my Aunt. Everyone said that Ginny and Tina were
like two peas from the same pod.
Aunt Ginny likewise figured that cooking for eight
would be as easy as cooking for five. (She pretty much
did their figuring.) With us two boys now on board,
though, it might be like cooking for ten. Mom could
spell her some on weekends. Anyway, with my brother
Andrew going in the Navy right after graduation, we'd
really be just two extra. According to their mom, the
twins Betty and Aida would love having cousins around.
Susan wouldn't even notice. Uncle Rupert and Mom would
be working 40-plus at the factory, so why not? Win the
War.
Why not? Well, since you asked...
(1) Cousin Susan was a show-off because she dated
seniors. I was her ninth-grade cousin who didn't even
play football. She'd probably call me "Howie", not
"Howard", my real name.
(2) Cousins Betty and Aida were 13, two years younger
than me, thus hardly worth doing much with.
(3) I'd end up with all the boys' chores while Andrew
pretended to be doing homework so he could graduate
like he promised the Draft Board. That was the deal:
drop out and get drafted or finish school and enlist.
Half his class thought the Army would be more fun than
geometry, so promptly quit. Seniors like Andrew who
wanted something exotic like the Navy or Army Air Corps
needed to hang in there till June. Sgt. Cooper, our
Great War veteran, arranged for Andrew to enlist in the
Navy. A recruiter's duty is to the military in general,
he said, not his own unit. Just if they had no
preference, he'd steer them toward the Infantry.
(4) Pops bolted when the ranks opened for older men. He
basically wanted to drink where Mom couldn't find him.
He'd showed Andrew and me his spitball, but my bother
was already the better athlete and I'd no interest. His
interest in us didn't extend much beyond playing catch.
There'd never be reason for him to move back. My
brother figured that maybe he'll see Pops guarding a
lock when Andrew's cruiser steamed by, but as Pops
never wrote, we weren't sure he hadn't gone AWOL.
Housewise, I couldn't complain, though. I'd have my own
room, end of the hall. Andrew got the middle and Mom,
next to the stairs. Grandma's place had two bathrooms,
one per family, we'd already decided. I'd at least be
closer to high school next year.
It only took three trips to move our things in the
truck Uncle Rupert borrowed. Aunt Ginny had dinner on
by the time we'd reassembled our bed frames. Rhubarb
pie! She knew I'd devour it.
I even had to admit afterwards, to myself anyway, that
the twins weren't that bad, sometimes even OK when
things got slow. We'd put a canvas over their tree
house where we'd smoke cigarettes. When we each
admitted we didn't like to inhale, we laughed and
laughed, knowing that only cousins could get away with
not having to pretend. "The Three Youngsters" were in
charge of leaf raking, not that bad of a task when
attacked by a triumvirate. We'd argue about this and
that, but them no more with me than when they'd handled
it between themselves. Then we'd bury each other in the
leaf pile. The twins were old enough to get my hand to
bump into them under the leaves.
COUSIN SUSAN
Susan was Miss Big Teenage in her sisters' opinion.
Cheerleader, lipstick, heels, fags in her purse lining,
boyfriends who, her sisters insisted, unbuttoned her
blouse. Susan was nice enough to me, just nothing
extra. She'd help with my mathematics, but never
volunteer. Maybe because I was getting better than her.
I thought she was pretty and had seen her brassiere
when her bathrobe wasn't tight. She'd sometimes loosen
the belt between when she went to the icebox and
returned with the cream, even. Since she was my cousin,
it wasn't a big thing, but I'd still peeked until she'd
sashayed away. Once she teased, "36" at catching me.
For her, I was something to giggle at between her more-
important things.
I could tell that Andrew noticed too. For him, though,
Susan unabashedly begged his attention. If Susan were
on the porch swing when Andrew ambled home from
baseball, she'd beckon him over to discuss Bing Crosby.
If Andrew were listening to war news on the RCA Victor,
she'd ask wide-eyed if he thought they'd send him
there. How many stripes would he get when he finished
gunnery training? Andrew liked the stripe business.
It didn't hurt that the rally squad got to hug the
lineup after a league victory. Special hugs proclaimed
who'd be hugging whom in the backseats and then on the
blankets at Lakeside. Susan had this month's steady to
special hug, of course, but now also Andrew because he
was her cousin. Probably to make her steady jealous, we
figured.
Not a few of the starting lineup opted for the draft
just to be gone when their girl missed her period. The
community could say how the baby's dad was overseas as
if he'd been jerked from the aisle and was hustling
back.
How quickly a 17-year-old could distance herself from a
15-year-old to gain stature with an 18-year-old. Maybe
she'd be grinning at my joke about Hans the Hun when
Andrew appeared for breakfast. Joke forgotten. Me
forgotten. Between her picking up the Saturday Evening
Post and showing Andrew the pictures of Alaska, she'd
loosen her bathrobe. I couldn't be sure, though,
because she'd never turn my way. Did she not want me to
look now? Just Andrew?
Then I realized that my brother was getting more than
hints of underwear. Mom and Uncle Rupert were working.
I'd come home (how quickly this new place became
"home", I thought) when the twins were at piano. (Aunt
Ginny had them share lessons to cut expense. Aida was
usually enough behind her sister for their recital
duets that Miss McCray would give Betty three hands to
play and Aida one.) Aunt Ginny was out as well. I knew
that the two older kids were home by their trail of
scarves, books, baseball glove and pompoms. They must
have had practices cancelled, just like my play
rehearsal.
I was almost to my own room when I heard the two in
Andrew's. Susan's teasy giggle, the "36" one, was
clear; Andrew's was muffled. Only when I had dropped my
loafers to the floor with their telltale thumps did the
adjacent room fall silent. Some minutes later, Andrew
stuck his head in my doorway.
"You here, Howard?"
"I guess." Dumb question I thought.
"Been here long?"
"Just got here."
"Anyone else around?"
"Don't think so."
"So don't go talking."
"'Bout what?"
Andrew left. Not a minute later, Susan darted in and
gave me a big kiss, the type associated with great
aunts. More actually, as it made me lose my place in
Buck Rogers when her tongue flicked me. Wow!
"You promise?" was her explanation.
"Sure," the safe response, not seeing how I could break
it.
It was the twins who disclosed to me what I'd promised.
THE TWINS
"Howard?" asked Betty in the tree house after oblique
communication with her sibling. I'd had long ago ceased
trying to decipher what the two telegraphed via the
telepathic radios they were born with.
"Yeah?"
"You know, Susan and Andrew?"
"Know what?"
"What they do?"
"What?"
A flurry of giggles, but clearly the two had already
decided to share their secret. "They might make a
baby."
"You mean...?"
Aida jumped in. "We've watched 'em try."
I wasn't exactly sure these two knew what they were
talking about. "You watched them, you know, do it?" I
pressed.
Aida was already answering, "From when they start lying
down to when he pulls it out." The two giggled at their
bold explicitness.
Betty blushed, but didn't want to yield all the thunder
to her younger twin. It was Betty, after all, who'd
started the revelation. "Not just when he pulls it out,
but how Susan can get it back up for a double feature!"
They were giggling too much to even understand. "They
both have all their hair." I knew that this was true
about my brother, anyway.
"Ever see your folks hump?" asked Aida as if it were
family small talk. She puffed an imaginary cigarette as
she queried. Maybe she thought acting older helped.
"How would I?" I answered, not expecting an answer.
"Find a nail-hole in their wall," my cousin's casual
answer.
"We've seen ours," smiled Betty. "It's not gross or
anything."
Aida returned to my brother. "Andrew thinks he's so
swell at it, but you can tell Susan's better, the way
she bounces. She's at least done it with..." the
sentence breaking as the two rushed to protect their
sibling from what even a cousin needn't know.
"Andrew told her that he'll never do it in the Navy and
catch the clap," she continued.
"As if she'll be waiting for him," finished Betty. The
two smirked at the improbability of the wisecrack.
Aida looked at me squarely. "Ever see boobs bounce?"
"No."
"Ever see boobs, period?" she challenged. In asking,
Aida pulled up enough shirt to expose the lower half of
a breast, but then pulled it down again. She wasn't
much, but I looked, achieving her intent.
"Just Susan's brassiere," answered Betty for me. Susan
must have told her sisters. Was it to make fun of my
not playing football? Betty added, probably for my
benefit, "She says 36, but the label's 34."
"We think she's keeping it in her safe time, pretty
sure anyway." From the way that Betty phrased the last
part, maybe they didn't know if Susan was being safe or
maybe they didn't know exactly how the safe time works.
Thirteen-year-old girls had to rely on playground lore,
same as 15-year-old boys.
"We watch her supplies," explained Aida. "You know
about monthlies?" I sort of did, but realized I wasn't
totally sure what these supplies were. Did the twins
use supplies as well? I expected they might, since they
seemed to know how to watch.
"Once we saw Andrew do it in the air!" Aida was beaming
in recollection. Betty somewhat frowned at so much
getting said, but laughed as well.
Aida looked at speechless me. "Wanna see yourself?" It
was more challenge than question.
"You're just joking," I protested. "We can't watch,
even if it's true." Any excuse to dismiss this
revelation.
Aida leaned forward. "In and out, in and out, just like
Birkey's dogs," she tried to make me flinch. She added
another "In and out" for good measure. We'd seen the
canines in heat. A mutt would mount his companion,
furiously thrust while the bitch sniffed the fencepost,
and then sometimes remain stuck for five or ten
minutes. I wasn't fazed by dog doings, anyway not to an
extent I'd admit to a younger cousin, a girl at that.
Aida leaned even nearer, "It's something to see Susan
make him hold off till he begs." This time she
registered my astonishment, just my blink, but cousins
have telepathy too, perhaps. She grinned at piercing my
armor. Though the twins were two years my younger, they
were tough. She mouthed, "In and out."
Aida couldn't resist loosing control of the tale from
Betty. "She even makes him let her be on top!" in
undeniable awe of her sister's audacity. "She just
pushes him where she wants him," giving me a little
push to show she could too. When I moved, she knew
she'd nailed me. "The rule is, is that before we let
you watch, you have to say, 'In and out' three times up
here in the tree house. It's the rule."
I didn't have much choice. "In and out. In and out. In
and out. But only maybe."
Betty declared my agreement, something I'd not exactly
agreed to, but something that maybe a twin could take
the blame for if I got caught. "OK, we'll show you how
to spy when they do it. You don't know the house, but
we do."
Aida added something cryptic, something that Betty
pinched off with a look or perhaps imperceptible hand
motion. "Susan knows the spy places too. Sometimes she
puts his pillow at the foot so they're facing."
Intoxicated with their revelation, with their
recruitment, each twin gave me a big kiss. Amazed as I
was at their disclosure, I was equally amazed at the
smacks. All three cousins had given me one! It wasn't
until I'd adsorbed this reality that I blushed with the
knowledge of what they'd offered.
Climbing down from the tree house, Aida said she'd go
first, me second. "If you look down," Aida flicked me
her grin as she disappeared over the edge, "you might
even see the rest of what you just about saw." Betty
held my hand to get me going. Sure enough, there was
Aida with enough neckline open to show both breasts,
small, but already rounding. "I've got Susan's
molecules," she explained as she reached terra firma
and ran ahead. That being the case, I later realized,
so did Betty, but Betty didn't go first.
They knew they'd taken the upper hand, that whatever
leverage Susan had on Andrew, they'd get on me. Not
being their sister's age, it wasn't as blatant, but
indeed they had.
They'd toss their sexual bait. One of them might claim
my bathroom and say we had to share if I really, really
needed to pee. I wouldn't. They'd try to trap me into
the hall in my underwear. They took to flashing me
theirs. Maybe 32 if Susan were 34, I guessed, but
lovely flesh in that 32; I knew that much from Aida.
Basically they wanted me thinking about sex. Of course
it worked.
It was a week later when Betty beckoned me beside the
carriage shed/garage, depending on your generation.
When Uncle Rupert bought a car, it would be the latter.
"We know Susan's cycle better than she does. Now's when
she likes to do it. At least she's a little bit smart,
anyway. We'll come and get you, so be ready, FBI-man."
I wasn't sure what being ready entailed, but when a
hand shook me out of slumber two nights later, I knew
it would be a twin.
"Stay barefoot," I was instructed. I couldn't tell at
first which girl it was, but the light blue nightgown
meant Betty. Aida was in a long shirt and panties that
peeked below the hem. My pajamas were my winter
flannels.
"Don't make any noise," whispered Betty, taking my
hand.
It was dark in the linen closet by the landing, but the
girls had their EverReady. They worked by practiced
maneuver, shifting a stack of towels from the back
shelf, twisting the shelf outward and popping open a
shutter behind. Though I couldn't see within, I guessed
it to be access to a crawl space below the front porch
roof. Betty gave me the flashlight and went in first.
Aida followed, but not before scrunching her shirt
above her middle to flash me her breasts. "Remember?"
Her grin was enormous as she bid me follow her white
panties. (I didn't know it then, but some deer have
white tails for perhaps the same follow-me signal.) The
space was crawlable, wooden floored, its length denoted
by ventilation windows at either end. I must have
always seen these windows from the outside and never
wondered where they connected.
Betty led as we three half crawled, half slid past what
would be Mom's room. Ten feet beyond, our trio halted.
Aida pointed to two dots on the wall, nail-holes greyly
lit from the other side. Betty was already kneeling up
to the farthest. I peered through the nearer.
At first I was disoriented. The vantage point, not much
above desktop level, was perhaps beside Andrew's
dresser, but I wasn't certain, as I'd paid little
attention to my brother's furniture. I could see his
door and bed. Dimly lit by the curtained window above
our crawl space, Andrew lay face down across a vaguely-
defined lump of sheet and extremities. It was Susan,
once I sorted out her parts. The intertwined pair
wasn't appreciably moving.
Aida pulled me back and made her own appraisal. She
reached to her sister and gestured, hands up, did we
miss it? Betty flashed her fingers twice, ten. Ten
what? The twins made themselves comfortable, not as
relaxed as the two on the bed, but enough to wait for
something to transpire. My own heart was pounding. What
if we get caught? What if we see something we
shouldn't? My cousins pretended to smoke.
In not that many minutes (leading me to interpret
Betty's signal as an estimate of interlude), Aida,
who'd been checking, waived to her sister to assume her
nail hole. After a moment's observation, Aida
relinquished her spot to me.
The bedded couple had reversed direction so that
Andrew's head was in the direction of our silent
spying. Susan faced us astride my brother, his penis
inferably buried upward. She rocked forward and
backward, not yet mating, just preparing. Her breasts,
smaller seeming than when she'd flashed me her
underwear, bounced with each sway. Must be 34, I
thought, if there were some debate. Somehow, that
seemed important to know. Susan's smiled the way she'd
looked when she'd whispered me the larger number. Then
her mouth fell open. Though the hole would be nothing
but a tiny spot on the opposite wall, her eyes seemed
to find me. They gleamed, the brightest illumination in
the room.
Their sounds of their lovemaking were barely audible.
The pair was doing what they could to stifle broadcast
of their coupling into the hall. None-the-less, my
cousin's increasing exertions against my brother's lap
put the swishing of sheets, the rasp of bedsprings, the
gasp of breath into my ears. You hear more when you're
watching, same as you taste more when you're smelling.
I sensed from Susan's teenage urgency that soon they
would culminate. Somehow I knew how Susan would scrunch
up her face and drive for deepest penetration. How was
it for Andrew there beneath her? What must it be like
to be inside a girl's body, the slipping in and out? To
be able to touch her breasts? To make her wild? What if
she'd come into my room, had kissed me, had sat beside
me on my bed?
It was Aida's turn at the peephole now. Betty's spy
site remained hers alone. I could see the triangle of
Aida's panties even in the darkness. But Aida waved me
back, sentencing me to witness the climax, grinning at
my obedience, her teeth as white as her panties.
As I turned again to view, I realized that I was erect
in my pajamas. Hunched forward, it wouldn't have been
visible to someone beside me, but Aida knew anyway.
Watching the two on the bed, however, made it seem less
an issue. Nobody had ever known when I was erect
before, but then I had never seen anybody having sex
before.
Powerless to stop her, I felt her slip behind me and
reach around my chest. She shouldn't, I knew, but then
I also knew that we shouldn't be where we were,
watching what we were watching. It seemed almost a
relief when Aida touched me through my flannels, my
length, my circumference, my hardness, my balls. I let
her rest her chin on my shoulder while she explored.
Later, of course, I realized that there'd been one
who'd felt my erection before, but that was so long
ago.
She undid my drawstring. Though what Susan and my
brother were doing in the dimness excited me, what Aida
was doing in the dark consumed more of my senses. She
slipped me out, encircling me with her fingers. Cold
fingers. Oh God. She'll make me come in her hand. I
knew that I'd push and pull against her clench,
thinking "no" but praying "yes".
The only thing better in her mind than masturbating me
would be to prove her power to make me do it for her.
"Don't pay me much mind, Howard," she whispered for
Betty to hear too. "There's a spy-hole in your wall
too. Nothing you do is news. Don't worry. That stuff in
your Scout book about health isn't true." They knew
that, even?
To clinch her dominance, "You sort of glow pink!" My
face? My penis? I didn't dare ask.
To cement her co-conspiratorial role, "But twins never
tell on each other and you're sorta in with us." But
still, even so?
"You think of my tits sometimes?" I forgot the ones I
was watching.
"Maybe a little," resigned to my impending humiliation.
Would she make me lie on this wooden floor and shine
the flashlight while I do it for them? I awaited her to
push me down.
"You'll remember 'em more, now that I asked." Probably
true, I realized. I do remember how pretty they were.
They're rubbing my back now.
"Your Scout book say anything about cleaning up? Want
my hankie?"
"Girls have white ones," I protested, trying to focus
on the orgasms impending on the other side of the wall.
Thinking about my own would make it happen.
"That's why I want you to use it."
I was captive to both Susan and Aida, the former as she
provoked me with each grind, the latter as she held me
motionless. If I moved, I wouldn't be able to stop.
I had to prevail, to not masturbate myself against
Aida's ready hand. She'd made it our contest. And
somehow I survived it, watching Susan and Andrew attack
one another on the bed, moving not a muscle myself. Her
hand there, I didn't mind. I wanted her to know, even,
that I was grown up too. I just didn't want to wet it
with my wad.
Susan climaxed with the face I knew she'd make. I was
perhaps seeping a little, but still contained.
"You're a trooper," Aida offered in honest
congratulation. All three of us behind the wall knew
she could have made me, probably in two pulls, but
she'd made it our contest and cousins don't change the
rules.
When we crawled out of the linen closet wall, Aida gave
me a kiss. "I liked it. You, I mean. Now keep
remembering my tits some more."
Thirty minutes after I'd crept back to my room, she
followed. Somehow I knew she'd be the shadow pulling
the door closed behind her, hooking the latch. She had
her top and undies off in the time it took to pass from
door to bed. There was no doubt but that she'd come to
claim my virginity. I lay motionless as she disrobed
me.
She had as much hair as I did, not thick, but fluffy.
I'd never touched a girl, top or bottom, before. But
when she pressed my hand to her, I did. Her fingers
around me weren't as much to manipulate a response as
to confirm my surrender.
There was no question that she'd do it from the top.
Her being just 13 didn't seem to pose much difficulty.
I'd no idea a girl would be so slick inside. "Susan
showed us," she explained, proficiently climaxing with
me as soon as she felt my throbs.
"Two less virgins," was her satisfied summary. She may
have been a technical virgin, I recognized, but she'd
practiced by other methods.
It's odd, looking back on such a moment, once per
lifetime by definition, how little else of my own first
fuck I remember.
Thereafter when we spied, one of my co-conspirators
would hold me. Feeling me was worth missing our older
sibling's show. Whichever cousin held me would visit my
room.
Aida would always take control of our mating. Betty, on
the other hand, let me lay her back knees spread, and
love her like a soldier. As I'd already made love with
Aida, I was Betty's teacher, odd as that sounds. I
wasn't even sure of Betty's first orgasm, since she
cried while it happened. She said that she wasn't sad;
her tears were because she was grown up now and she'd
always be glad it was with me. When we'd finish, she'd
hold me on her until we went to sleep. Aida at least
once had to sneak in at daybreak and wake us, having a
little fun in the process.
I didn't even know that Susan knew until she too
nuzzled me in the late night hours. "Let's get on the
floor so we don't rattle anything," her invitation. She
seemed to delight in how much she could demonstrate.
"But you never even hint to Andrew, you hear," was her
condition. "He'd never understand, especially about you
kids watching. I take care of him, not them."
The three obviously had their safest times. Later when
Susan procured rubbers "from Uncle Sam", as she put it,
we made love more often. I didn't like the condoms,
especially as they'd rinse them out for multiple uses,
but I couldn't let a cousin get pregnant.
After my brother left for boot camp, it was easier.
With an empty room next door, Susan was less concerned
with rattling. With two adults working and one running
errands, I sometimes would be bedded in broad daylight.
I thought I was pretty good, actually, but of course I
wasn't. As much as I liked my manly role, I wished I
were more part of the planning. Betty was the only one
who'd ask.
COUSINS NOW OLDER
It was Nixon vs. Kennedy. The War seemed so long ago.
When Andrew was lost in the Pacific, the Draft Board
said one per family was enough and they let me go on to
college. I'd majored in engineering and got my start
with radio transmission before the GI Bill was pumping
out more-deserving graduates.
Aida was married, spouse Alfred and little Andrew.
Alfred was right for her, but engaged or married, Aida
and I still made love. Just keeping alive what we'd
already started, she'd rule. I'd try to dissuade her
and still end up panting on the bottom, her breasts
just as pretty as when she'd climbed down from the tree
house. "You'll remember 'em more, now that I asked," I
still remember.
She'd tease me that little Andrew was actually mine, as
indeed she'd stopped by my place about the right time.
I can hear her, "Al, darling, I'll just stay at my
cousin's while I'm in Madison." And being one to cover
her bases, right after return, "Oh, Al, I missed you so
much! It won't matter if we're a little late to the
Thompson's." As Aida and I were of the same stock,
halfway anyway, little Andrew's looks didn't prove
anything. Her belief wasn't even the months or the
features, actually. She'd claimed to feel my sperm
fertilize her egg, however that feels, right there in
my bed. But there's no sense fostering a story that
years later might get rendered as truth.
During her ("our," she'd smile) pregnancy, I'd feel her
swelling belly bounce on mine, her arms pinning down my
shoulders. She insisted that her doctor said it was
fine, "just not too rigorous." I'd hold her breasts,
noting their readying for motherhood.
But I'd say, "If Susan was tricking me about her 36's,
you're tricking me about your 34's. I took this course,
Engineering Measurement." (There was no such class, of
course.) "And our homework was the Home Ec.
Department." Aida pointed out that Home Ec. girls never
dated engineers, but once a year they'd offer their
Laundry Technology Lab machine to wash all our
handkerchiefs, their way to help us guys beat the Reds.
They'd post the laundry offer where the whole campus
would see. The Dean of Women thought it was patriotic.
Making love with Aida was always fun.
Betty had yet to settle down domestically and, all
things considered, had chosen prudently. There weren't
that many women in TV production back then. To advance,
she'd change jobs as opportunities arose. She seemed to
thrive, half the time on the road. (If you have a
vintage TV channel on cable, you can still see her name
sometimes when the credits roll.) She was to me still
as sexy as she'd been at half her age, but I knew she'd
moved on. If she were in Madison for work, we'd enjoy
the old-time aspect, but it wasn't why she'd come to
town.
But sometimes, since vacationing on your own isn't much
fun, we'd go someplace together, maybe a lodge at a
National Park. (Who can afford to these days?) I once
tried, "I'm a Howard too," hinting for a discount at a
Howard Johnson's. Just once I tried that, as Betty gave
me a look so wilting, what clerks probably call the
"too-long-married look" and we weren't even married!
She said to ask for discounts when you book, not with
your woman there.
Breaking away from work made us younger. We'd wrestle
in the leaves away from the nature path with the
numbered trees.
"Are we under number 12 or a 22? The nameplate's
dirty."
"Who cares, Howard? You think I need to put this back
on?"
"Nobody knows you here. The only reason you wear one is
producers do and actresses don't."
"That so?" Betty didn't miss a beat, maybe why she was
good at TV timing. "Well my crew having filmed us from
behind 22 makes me an actress then. 'Naturally in
Yellowstone' we're calling it. Maybe 'Relatively Old
Faithful'. Eight millimeter. You boys get the sound OK?
If not, I'll overdub later."
As much as we'd laugh, our sex was serious. We'd work
as one till sweat rolled. We'd talk each other to
climax. We'd caress while our juices mingled. She still
wanted me on top and sometimes cried when we'd part. So
did I, but later.
Making love with Betty was about engaging.
From Betty I discovered a misimpression I'd carried
from our spying days. She'd never assumed the first
nail-hole for herself just because she was older by a
few minutes. Some twins work that way. Aida's
generosity in sharing the second spy-hole with me led
to Aida bedding me first. (Most every guy's virginity
goes to the girl who first undoes his pants.) But I
wish now, though, that it were Betty who'd taken mine
that night. Betty said the important thing was that
hers went to me.
Susan was divorced, having married a Navy pilot of zero
integrity. No kids, at least, as she'd seen it coming.
She'd gone to college to study teaching the mentally
retarded and was really good at it. The twins still saw
her as the bossy one, but I found her sweet.
In the year before she left for California, I'd more
sex with her than with the other two combined. She was
18; I, 16. She even went out for drama so she and I
could do it backstage. Every cast member, every crew
member in a play needs to be in his exact place at
every moment. We'd know that during Act 2, Scene 2
nobody would be wandering around behind the curtain
where Scene 1's sofa had been pushed.
But since then, if anything, I'd grown to savor her
finesse. Take something like dozing on a picnic, my
head touching just the edge of her breast, her hand
casually against my shorts. I should perhaps be a bit
more specific. Her hand, with scarcely perceptible
movement, could bring me to a rolling orgasm seen to
the public as only lazy stretches. She could basically
do the same to herself mentally, my head against her
just the instigation. The less we moved, the more we
thrilled, happier than if we'd bucked around in a 5-
star suite with Champagne in an ice bucket.
Making love with Susan was always intoxicating. I wish
my first picture of her, so to speak, hadn't been
captured through a nail-hole.
I wasn't taken myself, but wasn't sure I wanted to be.
I'd linked my engineering future with space travel.
Well, maybe not quite rockets, but communication to
things up there, at least. Beating the Russians
involved terrestrial travel too. My group worked with
items, the diameters of which if I told you, I'd have
to shoot you (an in-joke popular with engineers).
Engineers battling the Russian play to win, just like
football teams.
SEX, LOVE AND THE SPECTRUM BETWEEN
It took this long for my three cousins and I to really
talk. We'd not had a half bottle of wine between the
four of us, but it's the glassware that licenses. We
were on Aida's front porch for Labor Day. I claimed the
swing. Betty undid my sandals so she could rub my feet.
Lots of guys don't want it, but she knew I liked it.
Having close cousins is a lot more than just having
sex.
"Andrew was going off to fight. If I hadn't, maybe he'd
have never," Susan justified, acknowledging that we
were all thinking about past years. In various aspects,
the four of us had known sex, love and the spectrum
between.
The four of us wondered if our close upbringing, as we
might look back upon those years, was related to only
one of us being successfully married. Two of us hadn't
even given it a shot. We weren't off the bell curve,
just to one side.
"We could have goofed up, what we knew." It was Aida.
"God, we were carefree, weren't we?" reflected Susan.
"Howard and me hearing Mr. Mumford and sitting up in
time. He knew any other couple back there on the sofa
would have been making out, but for two cousins it's,
'Don't bump the curtain, you two.'"
"So what do you three think about the Braves?" my
attempt to turn us toward baseball.
"Well I was betting on the reruns," reflected Betty,
ignoring our ball club's plight, "and Howard wasn't
going to college for three years, and then he'd still
come home for vacations." She smiled. "I had a lot to
look forward to."
"And he still takes vacations," she added, "because
they make him, wherever that place is that he works."
She furtively looked around to see if any foreigners
were lurking on the steps. "So I've still got something
to look forward to." She kissed my toe.
Aida, hands across chest, her I-got-cheated gesture.
"Yeah, but some of those reruns needed something
spliced into the middle," funnier now than when a less-
than-optimal performance left her shortchanged. Being
one against three, you don't bat 1000. We all laughed.
"Susan here watching us watch her, what a Barnum and
Bailey!" I entered the fray.
"Just faced the music to make sure you kids behind the
wall didn't doze off."
"It was Dad and Aunt Tina who'd wake us up," stated
Betty factually.
We three young spies had discovered this liaison
literally in passing, slipping through the crawl space
toward Andrew's room when we heard love in the making
one room too short.
There was but one possibility -- it had to be either a
sneak thief or Uncle Rupert and all outside doors were
locked. If it had been an outside lover, I wouldn't
have wanted to know.
Aida punched two holes the next afternoon. "I found
this squarish nail on the ledge," she explained. "It's
probably been used for generations." I didn't ask why
she'd not punched three.
Mom was standing by her bed, bra straps already down,
Rupert unhooking her from behind. I surrendered my spot
to one of the girls. When my turn resumed, I saw Mom's
pubic hair, but not what it hid. Uncle Rupert was above
her, her hand stroking his erection. Betty was next,
but after the moment it took her to note what was
coming, she drew me back to witness the penetration.
She knew that it was what I'd come for. I wanted to
stay till Mom's climax, but knew that I needn't know it
all this night. I sensed, correctly it so happens, that
that Uncle Rupert and Mom were in no hurry.
The girls watched their intercourse, nudging each
other.
The girls let me watch their next rendezvous in its
entirety. It wasn't as vigorous as that in the adjacent
room. Mom's not being 17 resulted in less-adventuresome
coupling, but I found no it less compelling. In fact, I
found it more compelling. The more I watched her body,
the more I anticipated her pleasures.
Aida would claim her place behind me. I wanted her
there, even. "Just tell me when she comes," was all I
had to do. But now, rather than allowing me to
dissociate, she could just let the moment lead itself.
I reported as instructed. "She's there." I would too,
right in Aida's palm.
"'Twasn't me, big boy," she happily announced, "big
boy" establishing that I was her little boy, albeit two
years her senior. She wiped her hand on my pajamas not
in victory, though, but simply as what needed to get
done. She knew it wasn't really her doing.
"Feel cozy? It's harder for us."
Mom and Uncle Rupert met for love almost nightly after
Aunt Ginny was asleep, Rupert driving Mom onward with
measured strokes, me climaxing in a cousin's grasp when
my uncle's objective was fulfilled. It was something I
wanted to offer Mom, but knew I couldn't.
The twins didn't seem to find it odd that I'd breathe
with Mom, even. If anything, the twins backed off,
letting my mind travel farther and farther into my
mother's moment before they touched me. Though the two
had exposed me fully to test my resolve in watching
Susan and Andrew, they didn't open my pajamas when I
watched Mom. Their touch was so I'd not be alone.
With a twin's hand in my pajamas, I'd ejaculate as
fully as would my uncle. When Betty would assume the
receiver's role, rather than surreptitiously rubbing my
pajamas afterwards, she'd press her wet hand into her
own nightgown. And it was Betty who'd reach over and
kiss me as Mom quieted.
Even drinking wine, years later, my cousins didn't
probe my infatuation. They'd sensed how I'd watched. It
of course ties to Freud and Oedipus, but not in a boy's
eyes. (Even engineers know that much. The salvation in
engineering education is that we don't have to take
psychology. We take real science and real humanities.)
"At least Aunt Tina wasn't doing it as a lesson for
youth, like Miss Big Teenage here," taunted Betty,
partially in humor, partially in truth, but mostly too
to draw us back together on Aida's porch. Nobody wanted
more than a half-inch more of wine. (We beat the
Russians using pounds and inches, not metric.)
"Howard was a good learner, wherever he was studying,"
Susan's deflection generating gales of laughter from
the three. "Probably ready for another lesson," she
added solemnly, sitting beside me with a show of
slipping off her own sandal to goose me with her toe.
She knew I couldn't stop her if she wanted me right
there on the porch. She wouldn't, though, because it
would end our fun.
But Betty sprung to my rescue, flinging herself between
and locking both our shoulders to her. "Say 'cheese'
for the family album! Howard, me and as always, ta
daaa, our very own Miss Big Teenage!"
Aida already had her pretend camera set up. Telepathy.
"Howard, maybe you'd better cross your legs," Susan
ordered from her end of the swing. I'd become the
target of this Labor Day, no question about it.
"Geesh, she's still OK for a big sister," offered
Betty. She kissed us both.
"Hey, Howard," interrupted Aida. "While we're filming
Betty's special on American families, you know the
nail-hole in your wall I told you about?"
Betty wouldn't let me bolt. I wasn't so agreeable about
being the subject any more. Aida zoomed in for a close-
up.
"We never used it. We didn't really want to know."
I obviously looked confused. But she'd said that...
Forgetting her pretend camera, Aida clarified, "It was
more fun tricking you to tell us."
I suppose I had.
"Still got my handkerchief?" she added for our pretend
film. I'd not returned it because even after I bleached
it, I thought she could probably tell. She'd have said
she could, in any case.
It sort of came together that evening. Each of the
three had shared sex with me, an historical fact. Three
out of the four of us, our virginities with each other.
We all loved each other, something nobody else can
really judge. Life had dealt us different
personalities, but none of us would have traded away
our youth.
On that Labor Day we were not far from 30. The gist
drifted into the sagas about shared exploits, my taking
a big share of the shelling. Being the male was like
having a bulls-eye on your fly, with those three,
anyway. It was family chat, me having become more like
their brother. You can say more on a porch about sex
and love than you can write in your diary.
Plus you can get your feet rubbed for just the cost of
hearing a cousin's spiel about guys not changing their
socks. At the end, another cousin scores on you with a
toe that stayed ready. It only took a second to achieve
confirmation. Yet another cousin makes a pretend movie
of the whole thing. Susan of course claimed first dibs
with her toe, but didn't collect till later.
And my spectrum between? My cousins were (and still
are) the only women with whom I've made love, but for
one. (Or men, for that matter. Loving your mom doesn't
make you homosexual. My group watches that stuff, rest
assured. My clearance suggests that cousins, however,
don't pose a security risk.) The fact that the three
didn't ride me about my spectrum ("Still virgin because
cousins hardly count," perhaps) means they loved me. My
spectrum was in quality, not quantity. I'd have liked
the three to know more about their mother.
RAVISHING AUNT GINNY
The love I didn't reflect upon involved Aunt Ginny,
something that needn't be shared with her daughters.
It came to fruition not that long after Andrew
enlisted. Aunt Ginny and I were in the parlor, sipping
the grain drink sold as "Victory Cup". Coffee drinkers
sometimes suggested surrendering to the Nips so we
could get back to Java.
"Howard," she paused, and then continued, "Your mother
and I grew up here." I knew that, of course. "We knew
the secret places." I looked up. "How to watch what was
happening. We had a nail we used."
She was telling me that she knew.
Aunt Ginny watched me until something I did (I don't
know what) confirmed that I'd understood. Then she
continued, "The holes in Andrew's room go way back. It
was our guest room back then." Her recollections
carried her back for a moment. But then again in the
present, "I knew they'd taken you back there from the
way you started to look at Susan. Or should I say,
started to look every way but at Susan. At first I
waited for a third hole, but then I realized how
sharing could be part of watching."
I nodded, not sure where we were going. Plastering the
wall would be easy. But would Mom and I have to move
out? Would I have to face Susan?
"Susan's very active," her mother explained. "Maybe you
know that, now that your brother is away," she added,
almost softly. "It's not like I need to save her from
anything but her 17-year-old self."
Should I admit I'd done it with Susan? Pledge to stop?
I'd stop with the other two as well, even if she didn't
suspect.
"But it was your mom's room that told me the rest."
Oh, no.
"Two holes told me it wasn't just a boy watching his
mom dress." She smiled. "If it was one, I'd have just
moved the dresser in front, not even told Tina."
She looked at herself, her polka dotted blouse. "Have
you seen me dress?" she added, almost as an
afterthought.
I shook my head and she smiled again. "Two holes, not
three in her room, told me you'd become close cousins.
Maybe regular cousins can watch their big brothers and
sisters make love, but you'd have to be close to share
your parents. Really close to share a hole together to
watch through."
She waited a moment. "I don't really need to know what
else." She blinked back what appeared to be tears.
"They're my girls, all three. Susan's older. Listen to
her."
Did she know that Susan could get rubbers? I tried to
think of what to say, but came out blank.
Aunt Ginny wasn't awaiting my explanation, whatever it
might have been. "She's been lonely, Tina."
I knew who "she" was without the clarification. We'd
finished talking about her daughters.
The adultery aspect never got pursued among us kids,
but we knew. Aunt Ginny wasn't a Bible thumper who
needed a commandment to sort things out; she was being
cheated on. There were Biblical stories of a man taking
his wife's widowed sisters, but this was 1943.
Pops had once briefly shown up in transit to somewhere
and then disappeared again without even leaving the
grace of divorce papers. At least the twins knew their
parents were yet in love. So it wasn't as if Uncle
Rupert had pulled a Pops on Aunt Ginny. If Mom knew
that Aunt Ginny knew, none of us had ever seen it
played out between them. It was easier to leave alone.
"Rupert's the only other man Tina's ever had and that
wasn't until you moved here." She dropped her eyes.
"She's a better woman than I was."
She paused, then added, "He's good to me, even better,
I suppose. Tina doesn't even have a husband any more. A
guy's able physically, but he has to be loving." She
paused again, engulfed.
"So they can," she concluded. "Rupert's no less my
husband. He's not clever about it. Doesn't need to be
if I seem asleep when he comes in. He loves me. I love
Tina. So does he. I love you too, Howard. We're
family."
Perhaps my aunt realized that I needed something
trivial. "A nail on the ledge where you can find it in
the dark. Same one?"
"The old square kind," I confirmed, thankful for the
reprieve.
Thus having opened me, "Does it make you ready,
watching her?"
I nodded, fearing to lie.
"The twins don't mind seeing their dad, either," she
correctly noted. "Go look in our room sometime and
you'll see where somebody once hung a picture half-way
up the wall. Nobody puts pictures that low. Then go out
into the canning closet and move the fruit jars. The
girls never get them back the same way. Rupert never
knows. Why should he?"
Her blue-green eyes, not my mother's blue, searched me.
"But not between a mom and her boy, Howard. It's not
right. She's got Rupert."
"And you need her too, Howard," she sighed. "Oh,
Howard, you always have." She touched my arm.
Need my mother? Aunt Ginny looked at me until I began
to understand.
"With me, Howard. Me. In her room. She'd already
understand, know it was the way. You will." She rose,
our decision made. Not knowing what else to do, I stood
as well and followed upstairs.
Shutting Mom's door, she faced me squarely. Her smile
was Mom's. "Undo me like you'd do to her."
I didn't even know I wanted to until I fumbled with her
blouse and she giggled, Mom-like. I'd seen her
brassiere before. Truth be told, I'd seen everyone's.
You can't live with females and not. But unlike Susan,
she'd never used it to entice me. It had been more
interesting to me than sexual. But now I saw her
underwear for what it held. Aunt Ginny's breasts seemed
smaller than Mom's, but then I'd just seen Mom's from a
spy-hole.
She shook her hair loose.
Sensing my hesitancy, she stepped out of her skirt,
then panties, white ones that came nearly to her belly
button. Her triangle of black looked like Mom's. I
could only look. Like two peas from the same pod,
they'd said.
Nipples erect, she deftly stripped me. Mom's nipples. I
touched one.
Her matter-of-factness spoke of when Mom used to strip
me for my bath and dry me afterwards. I'd been big
enough to do both myself, but it was her job. She'd be
in just bra and panties, having bathed first or going
to bathe next. Those were the days when you reused your
hot water. In the padded conical brassieres of the
time, her nipples still showed.
I hadn't understood when my penis started to respond to
Mom's touch. It wasn't that I wanted her to stop; I
just didn't know what it was. She kept her job as
drier, working the towel longer and longer, sometimes
letting the back of her fingers contact, until I began
to shy away. I was too big to ignore it, too little to
comprehend it. After those years, I was alone for my
bath.
I remembered the claw-foot tub when I was even younger,
how she'd get in and soap me. She'd carefully keep the
suds out of my eyes while I'd lean back against her
slick breasts.
With Aunt Ginny, now I was half hard. I touched her
breasts more fully, half expecting them to be soapy
too. They were indeed moist.
I realized I'd always known Mom's pubic hair: against
my buns in the tub; wisping out of her panties as she
toweled me; standing by her bed with Rupert combing
from behind with his fingertips. I don't remember if
Mom perhaps turned me toward her long ago in the tub.
If so, my little penis would have been within her soft
tangles. Would I have been erect? Would she have liked
me to be?
I touched Aunt Ginny's curls, Mom's curls.
Aunt Ginny pulled me to Mom's bed, placed the pillow in
the middle, sat on the edge and rolled on her back
without letting go of my hand. One motion, not four.
The pillow elevated her hips, something to accentuate a
girl's pleasure I'd learned from Susan, but on this
bed, something that exposed us to the far wall. I
pictured myself sequestered in the safety of that
darkness, Mom illuminated here on her pillow.
Aunt Ginny pulled me above her, her willing knees
accommodating my awkward hips.
I realized the certainty, the forever of loving your
mother. I found her furrow, then her tunnel.
I closed my eyes, picturing us from behind the nail-
hole. But no, a nail-hole in our old house, in the
bathroom wall. Mom is keeping the soap out of my eyes
as I turn around, leaning her back into the enamel. Her
hair floats freely; her breasts list outward. She hooks
her calves over the sides and I bend my knees to
position myself between. Her ribcage glistens. In the
warm water I enter her. Mom wants me. Mom needs me. Mom
demands me.
I slipped into Aunt Ginny as I would have into Mom. How
would I know about Mom, I don't know. Watching Rupert
enter her must have told me. But I already knew.
I held myself within until, able to still myself no
longer, my butt began to twitch. More sensually than
physically at first, I initiated the sliding. Aunt
Ginny let me do the moving until she too succumbed, now
moving under me, propelling me.
I began to ravish my mother.
Why am I using such a prejudiced verb? You'll have to
read on and try to decide if I there's a better term
for my overwhelming aggressive possession, her
consumptive passion. Though I was master, it wasn't as
sex was with Betty who'd likewise granted me the
superior role. This was both unfettered attack and
unconditional surrender on both our parts.
With Betty, there was Betty's ascension, as long as I
could make it last, a climax, over which I had little
control, and then and then a retirement, sapping our
concentration.
With Aunt Ginny, it was violent invasion. I wanted Mom
so much. Aunt Ginny needed no feints and incremental
forays to coax her open, to lubricate my route. She
bucked to draw me faster, deeper, fuller. I wedged
myself into her to force her thighs yet outward. She
grabbed her knees to help. I slammed her up and down
into the padding. "Buck, wedge, force, grab, slam,"
verbs that speak of violence. The legs of the bed
thumped the floor.
I opened my eyes and found them locked into ones blue-
green. It wasn't my mother, I knew, but then again it
was. The eyes spoke wantonly of being raped. Of raping
me.
When Aunt Ginny begin to twitch, I recognized all three
daughters' climaxes. But as I ravished onward, her
throes didn't summit, but became a shimmering within. I
only knew not to cease. My Mom deserved my love forever
and ever.
At last, I hadn't Aunt Ginny's stamina, I suppose. She
felt me prime and pulled me inward until my release
blasted into her womb. I felt my seed shooting as a
cloud, enveloping her egg, implanting our child. Aunt
Ginny (it was again she) must have felt something
similar, what an ovum welcomes. "He's started now," her
confirmation, as if she knew the gender.
It wasn't until afterwards as I lay still spread upon
her, that I remembered Aunt Ginny's, "She'd already
understand. You will." I did understand.
We kissed.
AFTERMATH
Of course, as it turned out, there'd been no
impregnation. My story would be different if there had.
The similarity of sensing conception didn't escape me,
however, when years later (but already written in this
story), Aida told me the same thing about her Andrew-
to-be. But surely she'd slept with Alfred within a few
days of then, I'd have thought. We're not supposed to
know right away.
When Mom and Uncle Rupert came home from work, Aunt
Ginny had dinner ready. How could Mom not know? Maybe
she did, I now suspect, as sisters share thoughts.
Sitting there eating the mashed potatoes, did Mom know
how I ravished her forever? How she'd held me. Of her
upthrust bosoms? Of her orgasm?
Could Aunt Ginny still feel me hard within her the way
I still felt her soft around me? Can a climax persist
for hours afterwards, not strongly, of course, but as
little twitches, little shivers? Could she still feel
me within her?
Aunt Ginny wasn't dreamily gazing into the ceiling, arm
casually below the table, a fingertip's rhythm
imperceptible to all but me, the one who knew. She was
only tasting the greens to see if she'd steamed them
too long. She added the butter. We watched it melt. She
smiled the answer. Yes indeed, she could feel me within
her.
And here's what I have zero proof of and total belief
in. The sisters both looked at Rupert, just for an
instant, then looked at each other. That night my uncle
did for my mom what I'd done for my aunt. The pillow in
the middle, the shimmering, everything. I didn't need
to spy. Two rooms away, I recognized the thumps on the
floor. Aunt Ginny would have heard them too.
My aunt surely knew why I'd made such love to her; but
for the color of her eyes she'd been my mother.
The reason I know Aunt Ginny was happy (other than the
physiological well-being after successful intercourse)
was her moistness. I'd felt it at the breakfast table.
Did Mom also?
Always would we make love on Mom's bed. Ginny loved her
sister Tina.
Always would I claim her as if in rape. (Mom? Aunt
Ginny? Was there here any difference but in the eyes?)
It sounds imposed, to rape. It was imposed. She
couldn't have diverted my assault, but then I never
tried to stop hers either. Why is there not a better
word for love proven by subjugation? By definition a
pirate captain rapes the kidnapped pale maiden beneath
the Skull and Crossbones? The pirate crew, the bronzed
island women beneath the native moon? But their virgins
are bound by expected capture, not taut lanyard. Hips
writhe not to escape the fetters. Look at their arched
breasts. That's how I raped her.
Always would Aunt Ginny climax long and violently,
clawing and clutching, quivering and thrashing. Was her
orgasm repeated or continuous? Would there be a
difference?
Always would we sense impregnation, but never would
conception come to be. I think it always happened, but
something sent my seed swimming away after caressing
her egg on every side.
Always would Mom (the sister who bore me, not received
me) seem refreshed as well. Might vapors of orgasm
transmit to kin? I'd written above of feeling Aunt
Ginny's moistness at the breakfast table. The more I
think, though, the more I think it was Mom's moisture
as well.
Looking back on those years, perhaps I was hopelessly
romantic. Perhaps Aunt Ginny was just using a handy
nephew to spice up her life. But I choose not to think
so.
BETTY
It was again years later. Kennedy once won the debate,
but Nixon now had the White House. My group's work was
well funded either way.
Our big house was long since sold. We wondered if kids
of the family that bought it found the secret places.
Aida had left the nail on the ledge.
All three of Mom's generation were gone as well. Aunt
Ginny was the first and Uncle Rupert and Mom followed
several years later. At that age, people assume nothing
happens, but of course it did. The Biblical allowance
to wed your wife's sister isn't that out-of-line, given
today's throwaway relationships. Biblical duties are
about people, not just Jews. Not being church-
affiliated made it even easier to justify Mom and
Rupert. Any one of the three could have died and the
other two would have had each other. It just turned out
to be the pair who by conventional standard shouldn't
be in the bathroom together. Mom bathed me when I was
old enough to notice. She'd have been just as sudsy for
my elderly uncle. Just as sexy. I myself added the
extra handles around their tub that older folks
appreciate. Februarys, we would rent them a furnished
condo in Florida with one big bed and two reading
lights. Enough said.
And Betty asked me to marry her.
It sounds self-centered, she having her exotic career
and then claiming the bachelor who'd waited past his
40th, but it's why I waited. I'd loved her forever,
long before I knew I did. She'd loved me the same.
Close cousins see the 30 years that remain.
Love is the necessary and sufficient condition, a
phrase from something engineering, notes long lost.
Being sexual early made it more confusing, was all. I
loved all three (and still do). All cousins get to kiss
each other with everybody watching. Close cousins
simply wait till nobody's watching to carry on. But
your closest cousin holds your hand after you make
love. She was holding mine when she asked.
I said yes.
She said good, as 'Relatively Old Faithful' had sold
well and now we could film daily sequels.
"New lines or anything for me?" playing along.
"No, our fan club just wants new locations. Aida wants
something homey and Susan wants something situated in a
traffic jam."
We couldn't have secrets, not even my one. When I told
Betty, the first person ever, about loving my mom by
loving hers, she understood better than I did. She'd
cried when I took her virginity at 13. Those tears were
about her. These tears were about me. Engineers like
delineations, but maybe not so psychological.
I asked Betty to share that part of my life with her
sisters, what I should have done years ago. They just
hugged me. I left them with what can remain their
secret, if they'd sensed it all along. I don't really
want to know.
The rest is frosting. (Marriage means wedding means
cake means frosting. Why else would an association so
hackneyed pop into my mind? I prefer carrot cake,
myself. My excuse is that engineers learn technical
writing.) Here's some frosting. Just some.
Betty landed a job with public television, not racing
for ratings, but pondering "strategic directions". I
make the popcorn and she gives me the scoop. I haven't
a clue how Betty's job relates to the actual show,
though, why the shark doesn't chew up the camera, that
sort of thing.
I'd tweaked enough items, the diameters of which dot,
dot, dot. (My group beat yours, Boris, with Telstar,
but you didn't know it till it was too late.) Betty and
I had once been spies ourselves, more of the real type.
I do "reviews" now, just looking over people's
shoulders. A few slide-rule shoves and, "We'll need one
of larger diameter." My group needs to maintain its
spending.
If you were hoping for some juicy tidbit about our sex
life then, "G'day Mate," as they say in a remote place
I'll abbreviate as "A" where my group operates an item,
the diameter of which dot, dot, dot. My group's
Directorate in where we'll call "W" wants a White Paper
on our future at A. (I always use white anyway.) It's
tough, as W doesn't know bandwidths from rubber bands
and doesn't even remember how our item in A once
salvaged a near-disaster in beating the Russians. If I
just replace "TV" in Betty's "strategic directions"
with "A", W will promote me again.
With Betty chasing ratings and me reviewing items, the
diameters of which dot, dot, dot, we had each been able
to visit lots of places. We'd have the years ahead to
show each other our favorites. We bought a globe.
Aida and Susan first ruled that Betty and I should be
monogamous. They'd always have their outside
opportunities. "Football players," sighed Susan in her
deepest voice. But if Betty dies, they then decided, we
three survivors would sleep as a trio to comfort one
another. Aida went to the kitchen to get a knife to
dispatch her twin, but could only find a measuring cup,
so they let her live.
We all knew that relationships don't just end. I'd
still love the three the way we're made to share it.
And oh, yes, the cousin thing itself. Betty and I could
have just combined furniture and kept the bed messed up
in the guest room. Would anyone care about an engineer
and TV executive? They're related and economical,
they'd say. Shoot, if they knew we sleep together,
would they care?
But marriage doesn't mean just cohabitation. A license
nobody will ever ask to see, we think's important. To
marry your cousin in Wisconsin, though, the female must
be at least 55 or one of you must be sterile. Betty
wasn't near 55 and my count wasn't their business.
Her plan, the theatrical approach I'd call it, involved
one of my trips to a certain state (we'll abbreviate it
"N") where my group runs an item, the diameter of which
dot, dot, dot. In N, I'd pick up a greenish-glowing
rock remaining from unpublished research done by
another group. Or perhaps left by yet another group
(say, "X" because their Directorate is quite distant. X
had a mishap near where we'll call "R" after the War.)
I'd put this rock in my front pocket for 24 hours.
She'd help collect my sample and Wisconsin would give
us the license. Aida had shown her how to take my
sample, as well I recalled. I never even saw glowing
rocks at N, but Betty was always thinking about how
things should look in a documentary.
Much easier was my plan. Betty went with me to a
certain state I'll abbreviate "H" where we operate
another item, the diameter of which dot, dot, dot. H
doesn't care a fig (no, make that a mango) about if
you're cousins, plus it's a wonderful place to keep
falling in love. Plus my group leased a flat because we
were there so much to upgrade our item. A local address
simplified our paperwork with the County Clerk.
So we went to H and Betty even took some brownies over
to the neighbor who rented flat adjacent to my group's.
Mr. Ken G. Brown from his mailbox. She came back
rolling her eyes, "His grammar is kinda' stilted.
Spanish, he said. He has a ham radio bigger than
yours." Looking at our wall, she asked, "The old
nailhole."
Women are so much better at getting to know the
neighbors. "Wouldn't that be something if we'd signaled
and he was just right next door?" I wondered out loud.
(I keep my "Spanish for Ham Radio Operators" ready.)
"Your engineer group seems to be someone's long-term
project, but just you are my assignment," Betty sighed.
She was counting my fingers at the time.
I showed Betty the diameter after she signed off that
she'd not do an expos‚ about endangered orchids. Our
staff has to chop the greenery back from the item and
she pointed out that the blooms would film nicely.
Our nephew Andrew (he's "little" only to those of us
who remember the War) is getting older. Aida truly
believes he's mine, based not only on his looks, but
his personality. I think that's good. I've told her for
couples related like her sister and me here in W, if
she's not 55, he's sterile. Do the logic:
(1) Aida's not 55.
(2) Betty's exactly her age.
(3) We're not in jail.
(4) So I can't be anybody's daddy.
But she knows we'd got our license in H. I like the
idea of descendants, but spare me the certainty or the
disappointment. If Andrew's like me (forget the genes),
my kind of engineering's winding down, but there are
always new adversaries to beat. We'll always need items
to see if we're still secure. They must be new items,
though, since you can now buy the old models for your
TV.
Susan, bless her soul, as a single woman adopted a
learning impaired child. If half the kids these days
weren't diagnosed with something, her school would
loose its federal funds. So I didn't play football. Did
I get a counselor? Tish makes up for her dyslexia by
seeing the "why" in mathematics. Being an engineer, I
can steer her more in the "how", which is pretty
important too. Betty says that Tish has the spatial
sense one needs for film composition. Every kid needs
aunts and uncles.
Tish's diagnosis for sure has nothing to do with
soccer. 13 to 10 last Saturday at AYSO, 5 by Tish till
Coach (we all call her that) pulled our girl to
fullback. AYSO is about everybody playing. Was she as
disappointed as Uncle Howard, her getting pulled back?
Not a bit. She could still pass to her forwards
chatting with the opponent's goalie. Offsides every
time. Susan stands and shrieks like the girls are even
listening.
Tish has three on the Team Parents list. So many of
those girls don't have dads at home, so I'm a generic
one, maybe. After we make the hand-arch tunnel for both
teams to run through, everybody goes to Dairy Queen and
I buy the Blizzards. Job of a Team Dad. Shoot, we earn
two incomes, so for both teams.
Did I mention that where we got married is a wonderful
place to keep falling in love? Just want to be certain.
We go back every fall. I do a review, you understand.
Wish I could tell what "H" stands for, but then you'd
know about my group's item.
FAMILY
My winter jaunt to review progress at A (where it's not
winter), plus Betty dashing to direct strategic
directions gets us enough frequent flier miles to go
about anywhere in the spring. Summer, we meet up with
Aida, Alfred, their Andrew, Susan and Tish. They get to
choose where. This time we're heading to the shore.
Sand in our shoes, cuffs, hair. I design the moat for
the sand castle; Betty, the turrets; Susan, the flags.
I'll make love with all three.
It's not as if I don't see her twin's breasts every
night, but Aida's still melt me. If we have a cabin
with a ladder loft, she'll still go down first, teasing
me as if it were my first sighting. Her sisters will
make the invitation easy. Susan will probably haul
Alfred off to the store "to help her drive." She could
seduce him at the stop sign if she wanted. For all I
know, that's Susan's reward for keeping him away.
Betty will likely take the kids out scouting for
shells. They'll take their time, lots of time. While
I'm shooing Susan and Alfred to buy fresh flounder and
Betty and the kids to find blue clams, Aida will be
studying her bed so she can get it back the same when
she's done tying us together as a square knot.
Strolling off with Susan at dusk, we'll find a log to
stash our clothes under, dash into the surf for a
frigid splash, and return to cuddle behind the log.
There's something about being cold on one side and warm
on the other. There's something about snuggling into
the sand. There's something about watching a little
crab scuttle by your nose while you slip in and out.
("In and out" was what Aida said in the tree house. You
still remember, how she mouthed it.) The crab will stop
and watch. When you tell Susan afterwards, she'll say
that the little darling was looking for its cousin.
When she was looking up, she'll reflect, she saw a
shooting star.
And Betty. Of course we're together anyway in bed.
We're supposed to be. But a beach cabin puts everybody
a little closer together. We try to be discrete, but
her sisters know our moves. Afterwards they'll flash us
finger scores. Susan claims that an eight makes her
join in too.
Tish and Aida's Andrew look forward to family times
most of all; they love being together. So why would
Aida and I have been up in the ladder loft? To haul the
kid's sleeping bags there, of course. You can hear them
giggling as they change into their PJ's, Tish getting
Andrew to unhook her little bra, "but don't you dare
peek." Wish we had a nailhole, as they keep on
giggling. They're still a bit young, maybe, but Betty
says as cousins themselves, the two will get closer and
closer.
ENDNOTE
Remember my expanded title, "Close Cousins: Spying and
National Security"? Get it now?
You must admit it works once you see it's about cousins
who are really close and they spy around the house and
one of them ends up in a group where he's not supposed
to reveal diameters and uses secret codes for the
location. You do get it, don't you?
I guess that's why they say don't be clever with a
title. Just leave it, "Close Cousins." Oh, well.
THE END
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Holly on the Web
Wherever you found this story on the web, thank you to
the server. My problem is that I've no systematic way
to update the various servers. As literary errors (or
just poor word usages) are made know to me, I'll repair
that which is salvageable on
http://www.asstr.org/~Holly_Rennick/. My website's not
much graphically, I admit, but HTML isn't my native
language.
You can contact me via the site's message form, that
HTML code by the smart people at ASSTR.
I won't be changing the story significantly, so if you
didn't like it before, that much will remain the same.
But if you did like it, an update may read a bit more
cleanly.
Holly
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This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author
does not condone the described behavior in real life.
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