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Story title : Harold and Jack: A true Love Story

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Harold and Jack a True Love Story (MM, rom)
by gmsmith (gmsmith@juno.com)

A committed straight divorces his wife and meets his 
lifelong gay lover...

Chapter 1 - INTRODUCTION

	In baring my queer heart to the world, it is not 
my goal to either foster or hinder any particular life 
style. I am proud to be gay, a 40 year old fag who 
years ago escaped from a marriage to a lesbian, who 
bore me three -- all children now estranged, for the 
shame of having a queer father. Those in the gay 
community should certainly be more approving of my life 
style than those of the straight and narrow minded 
homophobic population. But to all who may object to my 
professed, privately engaged in, sexual practices, ask 
yourself the question whether or not my addiction to 
cock sucking or my taking it up the back way ever 
harmed you, your particular relationship, or, for that 
matter, your marriage.

	But for your prejudices, Harold and I could have 
been legally wed, rather than receiving only a blessing 
from a fellow gay pastor. You can call me a "queer," a 
"cocksucker," a "fag," a "queen," or worse, but I never 
call you names, such as "cunt fucker," "muff diver," 
"pussy lapper," etc. I then implore all of us to live 
and let live in peace. So be it. . . and on with the 
story of my life. While names and locales have been 
changed for obvious reasons, the guy you are reading 
about is me.

	I never made a conscious decision to become what I 
am. This was God's choice and I am told that God is 
love. Remember that in this game of stud poker called 
life, I merely played the hand that I was dealt. 
Nothing more, nothing less. This is my first attempt at 
publication, and I confess to a lack of writing talent. 
Hopefully, my inadequacies in verbal expression will 
not prevent my feelings and truthful message from 
emerging.

	 While I have shown these written memories to a 
few close friends (with each of whom I have been 
sexually intimate on numerous occasions, and I know 
them to be completely trustworthy), for obvious 
reasons, both they and I must remain anonymous. Also, I 
want you to appreciate that you are reading actual 
events in my life, this is not a "story" made up for 
your titillation or just to stimulate your jacking off 
while you read it. Really, I've got better things to do 
with my time than to amuse strangers. If only make 
believe, my cock certainly would have been a robust 
uncut 10-incher, as in all of the fictitious stories 
that flood the Internet, rather than only a skimpy 
circumcised six-and-half-incher. But I've had as much 
fun with "Pinky" (everyone should have a name for his 
cock). I've given as much pleasure with it as you have 
with yours. Enthusiasm can sometimes make up for lack 
of size, particularly when the choice is between being 
tickled to death or bored to death.

	If we perchance meet someday, perhaps I can 
elucidate and answer any of your questions. To keep the 
length of this lifelong confessional within reason, 
repetitious and insignificant happenings have been 
redacted out. Their inclusion in this revelation would 
not have changed the message. However, if my memory 
permits me to recall other important happenings, I may 
some day cause a revised version of this remembrance to 
be submitted for your approval, condemnation, or 
perhaps you just won't give a damn.

	 It is said that confession is good for the soul. 
If so, when you finish my revelation, I will then be as 
clean as the wind driven snow, ready for my God. I pray 
for the day when my priest confessor is able to give me 
absolution. But for his vows, he could well have been a 
fleshmate of mine.



	What you read below is autobiographical. That is, 
while not only factual, i.e., true in each and every 
detail, it is, admittedly, an inadequate substitute for 
a daily diary. For lack of some of the forgotten 
details, I offer my abject apology. While the memory 
can play tricks, such as my now recalling nine-inch 
cocks as actually having been a mere seven inches. But 
I was never one to turn down any pre-cum oozing prick 
just because it didn't measure up to my size 
expectations, as long as it produced my favorite creamy 
cocktail. My definition of an attractive cock was one 
that was either being sucked or was one that was about 
to be sucked. Of course, the clipped and unclipped 
cocks require a somewhat different cock sucking 
technique, an always-pleasant challenge. I even accept 
the strange description of how sucking, licking, or 
lapping can be called "blowing," as if you were 
inflating a balloon. This, of course, is too painful 
even to contemplate. I certainly think that "suck-
offs," rather than "blow jobs" is a better reference, 
but one must stick with the language of the street. So 
"suck-offs" in this narration will simply be described 
as "blow jobs".

	In my years and years of giving blow jobs, you can 
take my word for it that a guy's balls and the quantity 
of his juice vary proportionately with both the size of 
his rod and how long it has been since his last orgasm. 
Eight hours sleep usually produces a goodly fresh 
batch, although seconds and thirds can produce 
surprising amounts of cum. Also, I've consistently 
found that shaved pubes are a real turn on, 
particularly around the asshole with its unique brush 
like fuzz, if you happen to be into licking the love 
bud. With me, I know a tender tonguing of my anus, all 
by itself, can still make me come perilously close to 
shooting my jism. This can be a great waste, unless you 
can catch most of it in your hand or on your partner's 
belly for later tongue clean ups.

	While having been on the receiving end of a 
pulsating cock literally hundreds of times as the 
"suckor" (which is my very favorite activity, whether 
aside, on top, or on the bottom), I'm still partial to 
swishing it around, sharing, and swallowing my own cum 
whenever possible. As a result of their being regularly 
used as handles, my ears still can give my now balding 
head the look of a Grecian vase. Variety may be the 
spice of life, but my home-brewed ball juice, from my 
strict vegetarian and herbal diet, is still the 
fruitiest I've ever tasted. It has just a slightly 
salty, slightly tart flavor that some ecstatic 
recipients have actually found to be habit forming. 
I've had many cock suckers compliment me on the 
viscosity, smooth texture, and tartness of my cum and 
its direct and orgasmic method of delivery, with its 
initial blast and the repeated little squirts, only to 
let me sample it with a follow-up kiss and a French-
like dueling of tongues.

	You may very well find these to be odd 
recollections from a former "straight," now, perhaps, a 
hyperactive gay man, who was over 30 years old when he 
sucked his first cock, who "survived" a 10-year 
marriage with a lesbian spouse, and who presumptively 
fathered three children. I say "presumptively," for 
fatherhood is, after all, only a legal presumption, 
while motherhood is a biological fact. While I indeed 
had my pecker in her pussy and shot off my balls, I may 
also have had help. Someone may have had it in for me! 
True "homos" generally can't get it up with a pussy, 
the reverse is not true for lesbians, who fake their 
orgasms, can become pregnant, and actually can give a 
passable blow job. I say "passable," for it is my 
conviction, and actual experience through the years 
proves it to me, that only a man can truly appreciate 
either giving or receiving a blow job. Lesbians, of 
course, also claim that they are the only ones that can 
properly eat pussy.

	I guess this means that, at a former point in my 
life, I progressed -- or degenerated I suppose, if you 
choose --from a heterosexual, to a bisexual, to a 
homosexual -- in the language of the street, from a 
straight to a queer or a fag, today a hip swaggering 
queen, if you must. Although, whenever the situation 
presents, I still can and do get it up and shoot it 
off, thank you. I have never been particularly 
interested in labels and presently have no interest 
whatsoever in cunts, either to ogle them at the beach 
or to fuck or to lap them. If you require a tag for me, 
just take your pick. I can live with it.
	
	 As a "teener" in a local Boy Scout troop, we had 
our campsite contests to see who had the longest 
pecker, with a game of dueling pricks, I had 
experienced numerous group jack-offs around the camp 
fires. No one ever seemed interested or brave enough to 
touch another's tool, and there was certainly no 
tasting of that icky, gooey stuff that shot all over, 
making a horrendous sticky mess, which you tried to 
shake off your fingers like  buggers from picking your 
nose.

	Once while busily engaged in the five-finger cock 
massage group activity, the scout leader surprised us, 
much to our chagrin and embarrassment. We all went 
immediately limp and hastened to put it away and zipped 
up. Instead of letting us off, Mr. Grant (not his real 
name) told us that our punishment was that we had to 
strip naked in front of him, harden them up again, and 
run them off while he watched! He stayed right there 
until the last bare-assed kid had emptied his tiny 
balls. He even helped some of the limp ones, cupping 
their balls and massaging their little cocks. Then we 
had to promise never to do that again, a promise broken 
at the first opportunity. We were then marched stark 
naked in front of the remaining troop. They all 
whistled, catcalled, and jeered, but they were also 
nothing but fucking little jack offs who just hadn't 
been caught yet. We'd find a way to get back at them.

	High school and gym class with its open showers 
was a source of embarrassment to me, for you see the 
head of my clipped cock, like a ripe plum, was so much 
larger than that of any of the other guys. I could 
never lather it up without the stem popping up to 
attention. Then they would stare, point, and giggle. 
Oh, how I would have traded that monster cock head for 
another couple of inches on the stem and larger balls.

	Aside from this problem, the big head on my only 
six and a half inch penis (which, regrettably, never 
got any longer) would not have been any drawback, if 
the "word" hadn't gotten around to the others in the 
class. After a considerable amount of begging during 
recess, to win a good sized bet or to take a dare, I 
would haul out the rod and display it, much to their 
oohs and aahs.

	By hindsight only, I don't think that I have ever 
seen an attractive cunt, while almost all cocks, balls, 
and love holes to me have been objects for my rapt 
attention. The cunt of my later-to-become wife looked 
more like an omelet. I have never since been able to 
enjoy this French egg dish without recalling her ugly 
pussy. Lathering and shaving her vaginal mound only 
made the problem worse.

	Aside from the fireside jack offs, I had never had 
any sexual associations with either gender. Our group 
jack-off sessions and my frequent private hand milking 
sessions just seemed to be a temporary substitute for 
and a prelude to girl fucking. We also told many lies 
about our female conquests and the times we supposedly 
had been sucked off by a date. To my recollection, 
there were no admitted homos in the group, although we 
had some doubts about the scout leader, who would 
occasionally keep one of us boys (never me) in his tent 
over night. Years later I learned that his wife had 
divorced him and that he had been arrested for sucking 
off a number of his charges. Newspaper accounts 
described these incidents -- no matter how pleasant to 
the recipient -- as "molestations."

	If my remembrances ended here, you would have 
wasted your time just getting this far. Pretty dull, 
yes. Fortunately, or unfortunately, as the case may be, 
there is more. I hope that you can navigate its wiles 
without the necessity of jerking off or molesting your 
roomy against his will. Just keep both hands out of 
your pocket and on the table and read on. I'll get it 
up for you later.

	As you may have guessed, high school was 
dullsville. I had never been propositioned by either 
sex, and I had never even had the opportunity to play 
stink finger with a girl, a coward's way to taste the 
flavor of pussy second hand and to enjoy its fishy 
aroma, which gives credence to the old saying, "when 
you can smell it, you have it half licked." I don't 
even recall having a hand inside of either a bra or 
panties. I was damned glad to graduate from high school 
and get on to college, which was my first experience of 
living away from my parents and my brothers and 
sisters. I trust that you are not too surprised or 
disappointed when I can truthfully say that I never had 
sex with any of my family, or anyone else for that 
matter. My only sex was peter pulling, jerking off, 
sometimes two or three times a day. I had discovered 
that by lying on my back in bed, with a pillow under my 
head and my feet touching the head board behind, I 
could shoot jism right into my mouth, with some of my 
cum hitting either my nose or chin. This was sometimes 
messy, but always tasty, and I never wasted a drop of 
the cream. It also kept mom from finding the dried hard 
spots on my sheets.

	My college dorm roommate could not conceal his 
homosexuality, although my stolid "straightness" kept 
him at a safe distance in the upper bunk while he was 
whacking his jock. Although he many times strutted 
around the room, naked and with an erection blooming, 
his trolling of the bait never aroused my interest. He 
always spent too much time in the bathroom, but he 
never locked the door, many times leaving it ajar, 
perhaps hoping that I would take the obvious hint and 
come in. Many times I would come into the room needing 
to piss, only to find him on the throne milking his 
meat. He never missed a beat, and I'd have to stand on 
my tip toes and pee in the high sink. While he was 
jerking off, he couldn't keep from staring at my 
pissing cock. The dormitory was filled to capacity, and 
my request for a change of roommate was turned down. 

	At this time I had just met my wife-to-be and lost 
my virginity after weeks of begging, sucking her tits, 
kissing the cheeks of her ass, and lapping her pussy, 
but I never could get around to her bung, which she 
wouldn't even let me touch with my little finger. 69ing 
wasn't too bad when I was the upper or so-called 
superior position going down on her quivering juicy 
twat, but when she got her cookies while spread eagled 
atop my face sucking my cock, I thought I was going to 
suffocate, if not drown, in her gushing cunt juices. 
Yes, friends, girls cum too, but not the manly creamy 
stuff.

	It was not until we got a prescription for birth 
control pills that I was able to fuck her without a 
rubber and load her ugly twat with my cream, but even 
then only after a lengthy foreplay of begging and 
dining at the "Y" with her hands firmly at the back of 
my head. I was getting calluses on my tongue. If there 
had been a device such as a snorkel for pussy eaters, I 
swear she would have made me wear it.

	She was an apparently self-taught, but at least a 
half-way decent cock sucker; but the bitch wouldn't let 
me come in her mouth. When I sucked my freshly 
ejaculated delicious cum off of her breasts or out of 
her cunt, she had the audacity to call me a "fucking 
pervert," which were her actual words. After I had 
lapped up my juice, she wouldn't let me kiss her for 
fear that she might get some jism in her mouth. This 
really pissed me off, because I thought that my cock 
juice was exquisite, and I didn't want it wasted by 
getting it soaked up in a towel or a Kleenex and 
discarded. I never could convince her that swallowing 
cum couldn't make her pregnant! Only later did I learn 
that she and her former lesbian roommate were still 
frequently meeting sub rosa and 69ing each other's 
brains out.

	With her deviancy and my, to then, lack of 
appetite for cock, you'll say it was unusual for me to 
marry and spawn all of those children. Latent cock 
suckers don't often do that. But we were living in a 
small midwestern town, with no queers daring to come 
out of the closet. Instead of "outing," they all left 
for the west coast, where they would have numerous 
opportunities for a normal life. Also, without 
attracting undue attention, she was able to continue 
longstanding relationships with her other lesbian girl 
friends. I found that society doesn't attach the same 
significance to women hugging and kissing each other in 
public. However, if I had ever French kissed one of my 
male sperm donors in public, we both would certainly 
have been tarred and feathered. Such is life in a small 
midwestern city, where beating up a queer on Saturday 
night is considered a public service.

	At the exchange of marital vows, never to stray, 
etc., till yee die, I attempted to be true even to my 
lesbian wife, who had lost nearly 100% of her former, 
apparently feigned, interest in my cock, which she 
would only occasionally fuck, and had entirely given up 
sucking on it. This infrequent release of tensions 
proved to be too difficult for this mere mortal with 
balls, which required frequent emptying. With her 
numerous women friends in our small town it would have 
been too risky for me to have fucked around with any of 
them.

	While pouring out my grief and the burning pain in 
my testicles to a friend at work, he said that he was 
very sympathetic with my problem and would do anything 
he could to help me out with my case of bursting nuts. 
I knew him to be unmarried, but I thought him to be 
straight, as he frequently bragged about how much ass 
he was getting on a regular basis -- only later did I 
discover that it was really male ass he was getting! My 
thoughts went back to my boy scout leader who had 
gotten into trouble with some of the boys in our troop, 
and I wondered just what would be involved if I let my 
new found friend "help me out," as he had volunteered 
to do. 

	He invited me on a tent-camping over night for a 
fishing weekend. We actually had our waders, fishing 
poles, bait, etc., which, as it turned out, never got 
wet. I don't even remember if we were near any body of 
water, just that we were in some god-awful wooded area, 
miles from other human beings. After we arrived, the 
tent was pitched, the sleeping bag unrolled -- to my 
surprise, there was only one double bag which we would 
be sharing sans pajamas in the nude. When the cooking 
equipment was made ready, Harold (not his real name) 
turned out to be an excellent cook, and we enjoyed 
tender steaks and the works. Our beers were iced and 
ready and there was even a gin martini or two before 
dinner. Much to my surprise, after dinner, Harold 
produced some weed and we passed it back and forth for 
a pleasant little buzz.

	Conversation was tentative, mainly about the 
weather, the state of the economy, and the Cub's 
chances for a pennant -- nil, of course. Then Harold 
casually mentioned that it had been a long time since 
he had gotten his balls off. We shared that this was a 
mutual need, but I saw no ready way to solve the 
problem. Harkening back to my Boy Scout days, we would 
both simply have 


hauled out our meat and jacked off. I told Harold of my 
years ago practice, but he said that he had a much 
better idea.

	It was then that he told me that he was a 
homosexual, but that I was not to worry as there was 
nothing that I would have to do for him other than to 
relax and enjoy what he would do for me; and that it 
would be a lot more satisfying if we could at least 
play with each other's cocks. At the time, I thought 
the only thing we were going to do was to masturbate 
each other -- a grown-up Boy Scout sort of game, but at 
the next higher level. The thought of drinking each 
other's cum would have caused me to scamper back to the 
relative safety of the city and my wife's ugly omelet-
shaped twat. I had no reason to anticipate how many 
higher levels of sexual activity Harold and I would 
engage in that very night and how it would steer me on 
the right course -- for the rest of my life. 

	Harold had brought with him several glossy 
homosexual man-to-man naked and explicit sexual 
pictorial magazines that we went through, page by page, 
pose by pose, with Harold's animated graphic 
description of what the men were doing -- for each 
other, to each other, and with each other. I had never 
seen such a photographic collection of nude men, all 
with huge erections and many with their cocks in the 
mouths or up the assholes of others. My rod was 
noticeably stimulated and Harold's package was putting 
a great strain on his slacks with a large wet spot 
soaking through. Harold told me that he had actually 
been offered a chance to model for this type of 
publication and to act in male porno movies, but that 
he was afraid that some of the people in town would 
recognize him. This was probably a small risk, as our 
town didn't even have an XXX type of movie theater, and 
porno magazine racks were illegal. This was in a day 
before you could rent such movies on video cassette. 
Where is the ACLU and freedom of expression when you 
really need them?

	The weather being comfortable and flying insects 
not a problem, Harold suggested that we get out of our 
clothes for our little sex game around the camp fire. 
Since high school in the open showers, I'd never been 
in the buff with another man, and I let Harold be the 
first to bare his equipment, which was spectacular 
indeed. Only when he stood au natural with his gorgeous 
penis straight out in front like a flag pole did I join 
him as the second nudist. Almost like a casual hand 
shake greeting of straight male friends, we each 
wrapped our hands around the other's cock and cuddled 
his balls. This was my first touching of another's 
pecker. Little did I suspect that his cock would 
actually shoot off in my mouth that very evening, and 
that I would end up licking it, sucking it, and asking 
for more of its ball juice.

	As Harold with his admitted homosexuality was the 
one of us experienced in man-to-man love, I took my 
clue from him, mimicking mirror-like his every move, 
wondering what would take place next. Harold suggested 
that we lie down on the spread blanket. With his hand 
still on my cock, I was in seventh heaven and thought 
that I might cum too soon. I didn't want it to be over 
that quickly.

	Harold proceeded to kiss and suck my nipples and 
lick and suck my belly button. Whee, this was 
definitely more than a Boy Scout game now, but, 
surprisingly, I didn't mind and my Pinky was oozing 
pre-cum. It reminded me of some of the male models in 
the magazines we had just been gazing at. Harold 
started kissing my neck and cheeks, sucked my ear 
lobes, and before I knew it he was kissing me on the 
mouth, with his tongue swishing around and our cocks 
rubbing together. My tongue welcomed his and before I 
knew it I was reciprocating, swishing my tongue around 
in his mouth. I could never have guessed that kissing 
another man could be so exciting.

	Needless to say, my cock was now at least an inch 
longer than it had ever been before and was dripping on 
Harold's belly. Pretending to pout, Harold asked me to 
clean up the droplets with my tongue, a taste of my own 
pre-cum. Harold then turned me over with my ass up. He 
parted my cheeks and said that my buns were the sexiest 
he had ever seen, as he started to kiss each cheek, 
even licking deep down in the valley where the sun 
don't shine. I was doing my best not to cum as he 
licked my virginal butt hole, but he said to hold off 
and promised that the best was yet to cum.

	He swiftly moved his tonguing to my balls, taking 
each one separately into his mouth, then both of them 
at the same time. My cock dripping became more profuse, 
and he proceeded to lick off the head, he said "for the 
sake of neatness." Except for the beers and the double 
martinis, which slowed me down, I would have shot my 
load long before this. But it was simply too much to 
hold back when he suddenly deep throated my log all the 
way to my balls. I was so far down his throat, with my 
nuts resting on his chin, that he probably didn't even 
get to taste my cream, for it must have gone straight 
into his stomach. When he kissed me this time, however, 
I detected the taste and aroma of my very own juice, 
which was to become a lifelong addiction.

	I don't really know if one who loves cum can be 
considered an addict, as in the case of a dope fiend, 
but all I can say is that in my later life when I 
bloomed into being an active member of the gay 
community I never once -- that may bear repetition -- I 
never once turned down the chance to give someone a 
blow job and swallow their tangy cream, always good to 
the last dribble, sometimes followed with a salted soda 
cracker! In my high school days after jacking off into 
my own mouth, I'd sometimes chase my cum with a 7-Up, 
causing my burps to become deliciously aromatic.

	To this time, Harold had been the only active one 
of us, but his teaching by way of example wasn't lost 
on me, and one good turn certainly deserved another. 
Although dripping tasty pre-cum, Harold had 
successfully held back his load. As a tenderfoot cock 
sucker, I wasn't able to take much of his rod into my 
mouth. Each time I tried I gagged. Harold told me that 
he would teach me how to do it right, but that, if I 
was careful not to scratch his cock with my teeth, I 
was doing just fine for a beginner. I found that 
enthusiasm can make up, at least partially, for lack of 
experience. Mostly, I was just licking his piss hole, 
sucking the head of his prick, and enjoying his oozing 
pre-cum.

	He asked me to take it out of my mouth and to lick 
around his balls. For the first time, I noticed that 
Herald was smooth and perfectly shaven from his belly 
button down including his cock, balls, and bung. This 
made his asshole smooth to my probing tongue and his 
balls easy to slurp in between my lips, although I 
wasn't able to get both of them in my mouth at the same 
time as Harold had done with my balls. When nestled 
deliciously down in his crotch it wasn't much of a trip 
to lap around his bung just as he had pleasured me. 
This caused his smoothly shaved cheeks to pinch and he 
playfully trapped my nose in his crack. I wish now that 
I had a picture showing the back of my head trapped in 
the crack of his ass while sticking the tip of my 
tongue into his smooth hairless butt hole. While my 
memory of this first man-to-man experience may not be 
totally accurate, I'd swear that my tongue was at least 
a good half-inch inside his hairless bung, maybe more. 
Who will ever really know? But in later years I became 
much more adapt at tongue and cock fucking assholes.

	This was, obviously, doing great things for 
Harold, who tapped me on the top of my head and told me 
it was now cock sucking time, and that he was going to 
shoot off a load in my mouth. He knew, of course, that 
this was my first time of going down on a prick and 
that he hadn't unloaded for the past two or three days. 
He warned me that his load would be huge, but that I 
should try to swallow as much of it as I was able to. 
He said that if I drooled, he would gladly lick me 
clean.

	It was then that I pulled my tongue out of his 
asshole, had him sit up with his back supported by a 
nearby tree, and I crawled toward his upright giant 
meat. I'd only recently had it in my mouth and knew I 
couldn't take very much of it, this my first cock 
sucking time. But I managed to tongue back his foreskin 
and unclipped head and about four inches of his cock 
into my mouth before gagging. I then backed off about 
an inch of cock and started going up and down on it in 
short strokes. In later years I learned that this is 
only a rank beginner's way of pleasuring a cock; but 
Harold, to say the least, was both most patient with a 
neophyte, and was he ever ready to gush! You bet he was 
ready, and my sucking hastened the cum harvest of my 
first giving of a blow job.

	When his balls tightened up, he gave no more than 
a 10-second warning of the cumming explosion, and a 
veritable blast it was. I wish I could have caught it 
in a measuring cup or a large shot glass, for it must 
have set some sort of a record. But my only choice was 
to suck the head of his joint and swallow as much as I 
could, spurt after spurt, after spurt, after dribble. 
Would it ever stop? He was right about the quantity, as 
it dripped on my chin and down my chest to my belly 
button. True to his word, he thoroughly tongued me 
clean of his cum, I licked his cock clean of cum, and 
we French kissed to share the treasure trove.

	While he was shooting cream in my mouth I was busy 
enough trying to gulp it down and couldn't detect any 
particular viscosity, texture, or flavor. But when the 
tornado blast subsided and I could swish it around a 
little, I became a lifelong fan of the liquid cock 
blast, known in polite mixed company as semen, a 
clinical word depriving it of any pleasure and thought 
to be good only for the impregnation of a cunt. In my 
later life, next to my own ejaculate, Harold's cream 
proved to be the very best in terms of its being smooth 
and intriguing to the taste, with the smooth 
consistency, but not the relatively dull flavor of 
honey or of a heavy maple syrup. I learned to be 
grateful that Harold was a non-smoker, as cigarette 
smokers' cum is less in quantity, thinner, and has a 
distinct, slightly less tasteful flavor. But 
fortunately, so far at least, cigarette smokers' jism 
hasn't been linked to cancer, such as is the case with 
second-hand smoke.

	Although it seemed an eternity for my initiation 
into the gay life, the evening was still young and too 
early to turn in to our double sleeping bag for naked 
cuddling. Now a newly initiated cock sucker, I 
continued lovingly to caress Harold's balls, tickle his 
bung, and play with his recumbent semi-rigid member. 
With neither his encouragement nor his reluctance, for 
we weren't talking much, I proceeded ever so slowly, 
sucking him off again. As he was only partially rigid 
at the time, I had the exquisite experience of having 
his pecker coming to full bloom alive while in my 
mouth. Being only a half hour or so after his gigantic 
first load, I was able to swallow his now lesser but 
still generous spurting of cream, which I then returned 
part of to my new-found lover by mouth-to-mouth French 
kissing. We blew each once again before turning in for 
the night, and we crowned it off with two 69's the next 
morning before breakfast, never wasting a drop of cum, 
and with Harold finger fucking my asshole. Although 
very tight and a little painful, he actually managed to 
insert two fingers up to the middle joint. It was then, 
for the first time, that I realized that while getting 
sucked off was delightful, I far more enjoyed being the 
one doing the sucking and swallowing of the jism.

HAROLD AND JACK - Chapter 2 -

      This ended my very first naked man-to-man 
weekend. I knew then that my marriage to a woman, a 
lesbian at that, had to be ended. Also, if I wished to 
catch up and make up for lost time, I had to move to an 
area more friendly to cock suckers. For me this proved 
to be southern California, where baseball takes a back 
seat to unabashed man-to-man love. For the next three 
months, while waiting for a court date for my divorce, 
Harold and I managed to meet discretely in out-of-town 
motels at least twice, sometimes as many as four times 
a week for the mutual release of our balls, never 
leaving the room, having pizza with anchovies sent in. 
Even of you don't like anchovies on pizza, if you are a 
real cum lover, anchovies give it an exquisite flavor 
enhancement. Try it at least once, and write me if you 
don't agree. I then confessed my love for him and my 
wanting to be with him forever, but Harold warned me of 
making commitments too soon, and that our future in the 
radical, small mid-western area was extremely doubtful, 
if not dangerous. Although there was the hazard of 
possible discovery and getting fired, after hours in 
the office we often sucked each other off in the john.

	After my long awaited divorce, swearing our 
lifelong love for each other, now nearly able to deep 
throat him, I tearfully sucked Harold off and kissed 
him goodbye and moved to the west coast with its gay 
pride and dikes on bikes, etc. It is comfortable to 
know that there you will not be ostracized if you admit 
to liking an even more than occasional cock sucking 
session. Occasionally is a word with different meanings 
to many people, but to me it meant, if possible, 
sucking off a cock before breakfast, one in the 
afternoon, and one before bed time. An opportunity 
missed can never be made up, or so it seemed at that 
time; and, having gotten a late start, I had many years 
to make up.

	Following my years of conventional marriage and 
almost total abstinence, insofar as cock sucking was 
concerned, I had more than a little to do to make up 
for lost time. As far as my being sucked off is 
concerned, I found that it is impossible to make up 
fully for lost time, my own balls simply can't make up 
for the lost years of being straight in a loveless 
marriage. But on the sucking and swallowing end, the 
lost time can be made up in short order with willing 
contributors, which was my exact goal.

	I later became familiarly known in the 
neighborhood as the vacuum cleaner who never wasted a 
drop! I made it up to the donors, not by always letting 
them blow me, but by tonguing their sweet bungs and 
French kissing them with cum in my mouth. 
Statistically, I was probably "blowing" cocks ten times 
for every time I was getting "blown." This was just 
fine with me, as my prime interest was in the cum, and 
there was little need for me to jack off as a source of 
my own cum.

	Not yet approaching queenhood, but past 30, I 
found that I had serious competition in my area of 
delight. Being new to the gay scene, and -- except for 
Harold's one-time exploration with two fingers up my 
bung -- with a virginal asshole, I was hesitant to 
approach total strangers, some of whom might be plain 
clothed policemen. My first love, Harold, who had 
stayed back in the closet in my hometown, came to my 
rescue by telephone. He knew many of the right people 
in my new paradise and explained to them my newness in 
the homosexual scene. His first referral proved to be a 
tasty experience with the creamiest ball juice, about a 
seven and a half inch clipped cock, and a twitching 
fuzzy bung. Following my oral servicing of him and his 
most casual reciprocation -- during which he actually 
seemed bored with it all -- he got me admitted into a 
small circle of studs some not more than 18 and some 
about my age. Would you be surprised to know that they 
were nearly all "immigrants" from the Midwest, just 
like me. What a loss of manpower for the Midwest!

	Harold's friend, Jim (not his real name) also got 
me invited to a small group that met once a week on 
Tuesdays for their version of "cordiality," if you get 
the drift. I was, of course, happy to see some late 
teeners in the group, as they are able to get it up and 
shoot with less rest time in between. With one of the 
members, who couldn't have been over 18, I kept his 
cock in my mouth after he shot and he didn't even go 
limp until he had shot again. But those who were even 
in their late 50's could still produce at least one or 
two good eruptions each session and they didn't have a 
hair trigger, which resulted in longer, more satisfying 
sucking times. Sometimes though while sucking an 
oldster, you had to wonder if he was ever going to 
climax before your tongue got worn out. But their long 
years experience of giving head turned their snake-like 
tongues into a magician's wand, resulting in more than 
the usual number of cums for me in an evening. However, 
as my main interest in their cock was their ball juice, 
I usually opted for the more vibrant youngsters, some 
of whom called me Pop or Dad because of the five to 
ten-year difference in our ages. It hurt my feelings 
when they sometimes preferred one of their own age and 
showed little interest in sucking me off or having me 
blow them and lick their tender, sometimes fuzzy, 
little pink assholes.

	After shedding our clothes and when we were all 
stripped naked, the group leader introduced each of us 
by first names only (probably fictitious), and we had a 
drawing for a number from one to eight. I drew number 
three, which in this game meant that I would be paired 
with number four for the first of that night's games. 
All activities were to take place on the carpeted floor 
of the room within the sight of all of the others. The 
leader said that this was a cock sucking only night, 
and there would be no asshole fucking that session. 
This was fine with me, as, aside from Harold's two-
fingering my butt, my hole was still virginal, and I 
had heard that the first few times of having your 
asshole drilled with a stiff cock could be more painful 
than enjoyable.

	As the lower number (three) of my pair with number 
four, I could make any one of three elections: I could 
have four suck me off first, and I would then 
reciprocate; I could blow him first, and he would then 
perform on me; or I could choose to 69. By the rules of 
the game number four had no choice but to follow my 
choosing, sort of a temporary love-slave relationship. 
Being new to the group, I exercised my authority and 
ordered him to give me a blow job. After a short 
session of licking my asshole and mouthing my balls he 
easily deep throated my one-eyed worm. Before he made 
me cum, he asked if I'd like to taste my own cream, 
which we could accomplish by his not swallowing all of 
it and French kissing after my shooting. I had been 
about to ask him to let me have some of my cum, but it 
was nice of him to volunteer. I later learned that he 
expected me to return the favor with a generous 
quantity of his jism after I blew him, which I swirled 
around in my mouth before returning it to him.

	After number four, it was deuces wild, and I put 
my arm around the only African American in the group. 
What they used to say in the service about the blacks 
being more generously hung than us whites sure proved 
to be the case with this ebony stud. I don't recall his 
name, but his ten and half incher will never be 
forgotten. He had drawn a number lower than mine, so he 
was my sex slave master and elected to 69. I previously 
had succeeded in deep throating a six and sometimes 
even a slender seven incher, but his gigantic Shetland-
pony sized dong made me gag when I attempted to put it 
down my throat. There was not too much trouble in 
swallowing his load, as he had just cum a few minutes 
before, and his jism, while still ample, was eagerly 
consumed by me without any waste. I got my first 
African American jism, which we later mixed by French 
kissing for the longest time. Even when blindfolded I 
can still always tell if the cream comes from one of 
our dark brothers. Not only is the quantity somewhat 
greater, but the viscosity and taste are more nutty and 
fruit like, possibly a little saltier. With practice, I 
was also able to deep throat their somewhat longer and 
larger black dongs, permitting them to shoot directly 
into my stomach.

	I learned that each meeting of the group always 
ended with a daisy chain in which all eight naked men 
laid on the carpet and sucked off the one in front of 
him, arranging, if possible, so that each got a 
different cock or bung from that which he may have had 
earlier in the evening. I may have lost count, but I 
think that I was rewarded with at least four deposits 
of ball juice that first meeting night. Fair is fair, 
and I must have given up the same number of batches. 
This new town was proving to be most interesting 
indeed. 

	My preference continued to be the sucking of 
cocks, more than getting sucked off myself. Both were 
good, of course, but it was turning out that I was more 
of a "suckor" than a "suckee." I had many friends who 
didn't object to just getting blown, sometimes daily, 
if I would share their juice with a follow-up kiss and 
some tongue twirling. Sometimes when I would call on a 
friend by appointment in my busy daily cock-sucking 
route, he would have invited some unscheduled friends 
who also wanted to be serviced with my cunt-like mouth. 
If my scheduling for the day permitted the additional 
time before my next appointment (for I never liked to 
hurry a blow job), I'd give them all a blow job that 
they would remember for quite a while. Sometimes I'd go 
from cock to cock in the room, keeping them all erect 
for a long time, like playing musical chairs, before I 
let them unload their jism in my mouth.

	The thought of there being either too many cocks 
or too much cum in my belly never occurred to me. 
Although I've never seen a chemical analysis, even in 
the great quantities that I was consuming, cum must not 
be fattening, as I never gained any weight from my 
consumption of this fragrant nectar, and, gratefully, 
I've never had any upset stomach or digestive tract 
problems. Wouldn't it be funny if they someday discover 
that cum is nature's cure for ulcers and vitamin and 
mineral deficiency!

	I now found that to be completely accepted in the 
gay world, I would have to become part of the anal 
action set. As a dedicated cock sucker and butt licker, 
I didn't believe that I would ever be interested in 
fucking an asshole or in having mine reamed. But my 
friends said that I'd nevertheless have to get used to 
the pecker plunging of my bung, i.e., anal intercourse 
they called it. Aside from Harold's tender two-
fingering years ago, no foreign object had ever been up 
butt hole. Imagining some nine incher up my butt was 
beyond my imagination; and, if you want to know the 
truth, it actually scared the hell out of me. So my 
first job was to find the smallest, shortest, thinnest 
available cock for the initiation and training of my 
still virginal love canal.

	I don't think that the person of my choosing was 
complimented when I told him why I had chosen him, but 
he agreed to break me in to the anal arts. Even with a 
mammoth amount of lubrication in and out of my hole and 
generously spread on his little dick, with one-, two-, 
and even three-finger explorations into my bud, the 
slipping in of his little auger the first time, believe 
you me, was not my idea of fun. When I complained that 
it hurt, he just slapped my ass cheeks with both open 
palms until they were red as a beet, like a jockey on a 
nag, and said to keep quiet or he would rape me then 
and there and make me suck off his shitty dick. It 
turns out that he was being as gentle as possible and 
he didn't attempt to put it all the way in until the 
insertion of his cock head had fully relaxed my 
opening. After a few minutes he gently slid the rest of 
his rod in all the way to his balls and started gentle 
in-and-out fucking motions, stimulating my prostate 
gland.

	Having relaxed after the complete insertion of his 
cock, with his balls resting between my cheeks, "This 
is fun," I told my ass fucker. "Why don't you start 
longer in and out motions until you cum up my innards 
in a blast." This was actually becoming joyful, and I 
wondered why I hadn't gotten into this butt fucking 
game years before. For a few more training days I got 
him to ride me as rough as possible with his tiny 
little pecker. The slapping sound of his nuts on my ass 
cheeks was a real turn on. I was now no longer cherry 
in any of my body cavities. Years after this 
initiation, if I had as many cocks sticking out of me 
as now have been stuck in me, I'd look like a 
porcupine!

	I had always thought that butt fucking was done 
with the fuckee bent over with his ass in the air like 
a bitch dog in heat, but I learned through my initiator 
that it was far better with me to be on my back and my 
legs up and over the fucker's shoulders. That way he 
slips his dong in my bung under my balls until, when 
all the way in, our ball sacs can jostle each other's. 
Also this way we can even French kiss while he is deep 
within my bowels, and I can jack off or he can give me 
a hand job at the same time. Why didn't someone think 
of this before? While I don't get to slurp up his cum 
that way, he gets to lick my belly clean of my cream. 
Whenever any of my lovers wore a condom to fuck my 
asshole, I could slip it off after he pulled out and 
drink his cum from the rubber-- a substantial bonus!

	Needless to say, I have now graduated into taking 
even the nine and ten inchers up my shute, and am now 
the recipient of many invitations where my love hole is 
put to good use. I've even been up a few bungs myself, 
but truthfully I'd rather be fucked than to fuck, and 
cock sucking with the swallowing of the juice continues 
to rate, for me at least, far over either being fucked 
or sucked. Whenever possible I ask my date not to come 
in my ass, so that when he pulls out I can suck him 
off. This is, of course, on account of my love of the 
jism. If only I could manufacture and bottle this 
stuff, it would beat out that most popular soft drink 
hands down. However, I must say that ball juice has to 
be enjoyed more or less immediately fresh upon 
delivery, as even a short exposure to air seems to 
oxidize it, rapidly destroying its delicate flavor. 
Have you had your break today?

	In the days of HIV, it now seemed to me necessary 
to settle down to a lifetime mate rather than playing 
around at various clubs and the notorious bathes. With 
only one partner for the rest of my life, we also could 
fuck each other's love holes and suck each other off 
without the need of using a condom. While I can 
certainly feel a cock with a condom on cumming inside 
me and have done so many, many times, there is no 
feeling like knowing that the cream is actually 
shooting up high and will soon be oozing out between 
the cheeks of my ass. Also, having sucked many condom-
covered cocks, I can assure you all that cream shot 
directly into the throat and stomach is not only 
fresher but is tastier than that retrieved and slurped 
later, cold from a rubber with its latex-like flavor.

	Whichever way you are doing it now, try the other 
way and see if I'm not right. Doesn't it just make good 
sense? I'm certainly not advocating risky sex, but when 
you know that you have a clean partner, why not enjoy 
his love hole as nature surely intended? Why not 
consider mating with him for a long-term or lifetime 
loving relationship? Don't let a good one get away, for 
they are scarce.

	It was now five years in my new-found liberal 
area, where you didn't have to be straight to survive. 
My first gay love mate, from my Midwestern hometown, 
Harold, who had sworn to be faithful to me, had finally 
either come out of the closet back there or, perhaps, 
had been "outed." In any event, he found it 
uncomfortable to remain in such a small-minded 
homeopathic town and showed up at my apartment door for 
an unannounced visit to southern California. I answered 
the door fresh from my shower and stark naked 
underneath my wrap around terry cloth robe. I couldn't 
have been more happily surprised. Harold brought back 
memories of our first-time coupling by grabbing me and 
giving me the wettest of wet kisses. I playfully 
dragged him into my apartment out of the sight of my 
nosey neighbors. I dropped my robe, and proceeded to 
strip him naked. He dropped to his knees to renew 
acquaintances with my now erect cock and cream-filled 
balls. 

	I reminded him of our tent weekend and its 
relative discomforts and suggested that we adjourn to 
my king-size bed. My apartment is on the second floor, 
and I just hope that the energetic romping on my bed 
didn't cause the neighbors below any disturbing ceiling 
noises. But, to hell with them, nothing was going to 
tone down my greeting of my first-love, Harold, and the 
greeting I received from him. I even volunteered my 
newly found ability to take a fucking from him up my 
ass. But for the initial night of our reunion we 
contented ourselves with mutual cock and ball sucking, 
asshole lapping, and 69ing. He was amazed at my ability 
to easily deep throat his giant cock and the hyper 
activity of my tongue, all skills learned in the past 
few years.

	You will recall that I had decided to find a 
lifetime soul mate that we could both be faithful to. 
Harold was my perfect choice, and I could now teach him 
some of the tricks that I had not only learned, but 
perfected in my stint in my fruit-filled area. He had 
not given it much thought while back home, because a 
gay marriage would not have been accepted in that staid 
community. The very next morning after his surprise 
arrival, while both of us were naked, following my 
morning blow job on Harold's cock, I was seated on the 
floor in front of Harold in the easy chair. His cock 
was now relaxed but always inviting me to suck it 
again. I teased it with my hands and gentle blowing of 
air in its direction. His pubic hairs wafted in the 
breeze. Heaven on earth. No two people could be 
happier.
 
	This was time to demonstrate to him that I had 
become a very accomplished cock sucker in the past five 
years. But first I just had to ask him the most 
important question of our lives: "Harold, I love you 
more than life. Will you marry me?" A very emotional 
person, he immediately began to weep alligator tears of 
joy and said that I had just made him the happiest 
person in the world. We then stood up, our cocks 
rubbing together, and kissed, with our active tongues 
in each other's mouths.

	Harold then suggested that we seal our engagement 
by going back to bed and 69ing. I told him that I 
wasn't too much for being the top guy for ass fucking, 
but that I'd simply love having him fuck my love hole 
while he jacked me off. This became a rather common 
routine, that is, after we first blew each other, 
Harold would put me on my back, lift my legs over his 
broad shoulders and fuck me, always the gentle giant up 
to the point of shooting off, when he became a 
veritable tiger in his cock plunges while depositing 
his load. Although he always enjoyed having me lap his 
hole and probe it with my tongue, I actually only 
fucked his asshole no more than once or twice. This was 
not because of unavailability of his love hole or his 
lack of desire to please me to the very utmost, but 
simply my preference for being the suckor rather than 
the suckee and being his fuckee rather than being his 
fuckor. Harold never made fun of me, but always 
respected my sexual preferences. Life together with my 
lover could not get any better than this. Actually, I'd 
always been in love with Harold since I first sucked 
off his cock for its juice on our long ago weekend 
camping trip.

	After our marriage -- actually only a blessing by 
a local liberal pastor attended by a few close friends 
-- there were the domestic duties to be divvied up 
between us. As husbands fuck and wives get fucked, in 
my case both in the mouth and in the asshole, and this 
was our mutual preference, we decided that Harold was 
to be the husband in our new loving relationship, and I 
was to be the wife. I had even chosen to take his 
surname, and with our close friends I was proudly known 
as "Mrs. Harold Black" (again a fictitious name). 
"Jack" became "Jackie."


HAROLD AND JACK - Chapter 3 -


	 Although Harold, as the better cook, continued to 
do most of the cooking, I washed the dishes and did the 
grocery shopping and tidied up our living quarters with 
the dusting and vacuuming, laundry, etc. While at home, 
except for our sandals, we were both usually completely 
naked, and Harold got a kick out of me wearing my tiny 
maids apron, which tied in the back and left my buns 
exposed. He never got tired of exploring under my 
flimsy garment and checking the state of my rod and 
watching whenever I bent over to pick up some trash 
exposing my love hole, which he was now making frequent 
use of, lapping it lavishly before inserting his tool 
for fucking. I always looked forward to getting fucked 
by Harold the sensation on my prostate gland was 
unbelievable. This alone often made me cum.

	We now regularly shaved each other's total body, 
except for the hair on our heads. We were totally 
smooth and hairless, even to the fuzz around our butt 
holes, which could otherwise get caught in your teeth. 
The best device for keeping smooth hairless bodies that 
we found after much experimentation was a ladies type 
cordless electric shaver. However, since the batteries 
run down while lovingly going over the whole body, we 
needed four of them, which we then recharged for our 
weekly shavings. They are even gentle enough for the 
balls and the asshole. It usually took about an hour or 
two each week for each of us to be completely hairless 
and smooth shaven. It could have been quicker except 
for our numerous brakes for kissing, licking, sucking, 
and fucking. Actually, we were never in a hurry. We 
found that pubic hair grows rapidly and the immediate 
area of the cock and balls should be shaved at least 
every other day to be tongue licking smooth, free of 
stubble.

	If you think that total body shaving is too 
radical, or what your friends at the gym or the beach 
might say, start out at first with just shaving each 
other's cock and balls. This is an exotic experience, 
so don't shave yourself. Shave each other, for heaven's 
sake. Also, you would have to be a contortionist to be 
able to shave behind your own ball sack and around your 
asshole, all critical areas for tonguing and sucking. 
Caution: Shaving your lover's balls, for the first time 
at least, must be done very carefully, but it is worth 
the bother, moving his hopefully stiff cock side to 
side for better access to his balls. When smoothly 
shaven the balls slip in and out of your mouth easier 
and we delightfully discovered permits sucking them 
both at the same time.

	Together in marriage we both made the most 
marvelous discovery, and that was that our sex was a 
thousand times more meaningful and thrilling because of 
our undying love for each other. Suck offs lingered 
longer and butt fucks were tender, sensitive, and more 
loving. I always relished having Harold's cock remain 
in my large intestines long after he unloaded his 
gusher up my butt, and I could sleep spoon shape for 
hours with his cock in me before he had to go pee. One 
night I playfully didn't let him pull out to piss, and 
he gave me a mammoth gushing piss enema! We never had a 
serious disagreement, but even with minor matters 
(never concerning fucking or sucking, on which we were 
always in total agreement) we would tenderly kiss, make 
up, and have some form of sex to re-seal our marital 
union.

	You may remember (and I'll never forget) that on 
our first camping weekend Harold had promised to teach 
me how to deep throat a cock. While I had gotten fairly 
good at it on my knees over the years since, Harold 
insisted on perfecting my deep throating technique. He 
showed me a trick that I had never thought of before, 
which was for me to lie on my back with my head 
dangling over the edge of the mattress. He then stood 
on the floor with his cock about mouth high. In this 
position his cock had a straight shot past my tonsils 
and into the top of my esophagus. This permitted him to 
bypass my mouth and throat with his cock head and 
actually to fuck my throat, in and out, in and out, 
always gentle, and cum directly into my stomach. Only 
his smoothly shaven ball sac resting on the bridge of 
my chin prevented him from going even deeper. This is 
about as close as man-to-man sex can come to the feel 
of fucking a pussy -- all it lacks is the bush, and in 
our perpetually smooth hairless condition I had no 
moustache. As I was still more into sucking and getting 
fucked, I never got around to trying this fancy deep 
throating on Harold, although he fucked my throat this 
way often. It actually became the favorite way for both 
of us and provided me with a steady source of Harold's 
flavorful ball cream.



	 While typing these intimate memories, I've had to 
stop two or three times to cry elephant tears and to 
jack off, for you see Harold died a few months ago, a 
pedestrian victim of a drunken driver, and I have 
remained faithful to his memory at all times since. I 
no longer get the ball cream of others, or feel a love 
pole up my accommodating posterior, but I continue to 
drink my jism daily and never waste a drop of my own 
precious cum, my previously admitted teenage and 
lifelong addiction.

	Being rather tall and slim, with dedicated 
practice, I have discovered that while seated in a 
wooden chair I can get the bulbous head of my cock in 
my mouth for sucking, which permits me to give myself a 
half-way decent blow job. Don't laugh, it beats jerking 
off. However, my cum hardly ever hits the back of my 
throat and still dribbles down the shaft for later 
retrieval and enjoyment. I am now committed to keeping 
up my practice until I can get much more, possibly some 
day all of my cock, in my mouth. If I succeed in doing 
this, I'll let you all know.

	But now, rather than sitting in a chair, I'm doing 
it lying on my back on the floor with my head on a 
pillow and my long legs stretched way, way back over my 
head as far back as I can possibly get them, touching 
the floor with my toes. This position makes it possible 
to get more cock in my mouth, presently about four of 
its paltry six and half inches and I'm getting better 
week by week. When I shoot in this posture I can 
swallow it with none of the load running down the shaft 
of my cock as happens when doing it sitting up in a 
chair. It seems impossible for me ever to be able to 
lick my balls and bung, although while sucking I do 
massage my balls and finger my hole and often use my 
large size vibrating dildo on my prostate gland up my 
previously well-fucked asshole.

	Sometimes during the day while running errands or 
grocery shopping, I'll put in my butt plug before 
leaving the house. The large end of the plug is 
necessary to keep it from getting lost up my loose 
asshole. This is largely sentimental, as the asshole 
plug was a present from Harold on my last birthday, 
specially designed so that an exterior smooth plastic 
fin extends up between my buns providing stimulating 
friction while walking. Harold would always moisten the 
plug portion by sucking on it before having me bend 
over for its insertion and proper placement of the fin 
between my cheeks. He said the plug caused my hips to 
have a more wife-like swing when I walked. When out 
walking together, Harold didn't want anyone to have 
doubts as to who was the husband and who was the wife. 
As I was his loving wife and would have done anything 
to please him, I didn't mind some of the stares that I 
got from strangers passing by. It also made me both hot 
and ready for Harold's ass fucking as soon as we got 
back to our apartment. The dildo is a recent purchase, 
as I certainly had no need for it with Harold's 
gorgeous cock available for sucking and always ready 
for asshole fucking.

	If Harold could now look down from Heaven and see 
my self-suck-off efforts with the dildo up my ass, I'm 
sure he would have a good belly laugh and then 
enthusiastically applaud my valiant efforts. Also, I'm 
now an active member of Mothers Against Drunk Drivers, 
for they deal with the problem that took my beloved 
husband away from me long before his time, and made it 
necessary for me to suck myself off and to use the 
vibrator in my love hole.

	Following our marriage, Harold and I put all of 
our property in our joint names and made out 
appropriate trust and will documents. However, this 
didn't keep Harold's long-lost brothers and sisters 
from suing to have them set aside. Happily, they didn't 
win and I am now the sole beneficiary of Harold's 
rather large estate, which I hadn't even known existed. 
His double indemnity insurance policy provided prompt 
funds which were needed immediately after his accident. 
If you cock sucking couples haven't done this sort of 
planning, you should see an attorney who is friendly to 
your plight right away. The brothers and sisters, 
however, were the only beneficiaries of a wrongful 
death legal action. The court held that my lack of 
recognized legal standing with Harold, i.e., no legal 
marriage, prohibited me from participating in the 
judgment. This seemed terribly wrong, as I was the only 
person in the whole world who loved him.

	I think fondly of Harold every time that I put my 
cock in my mouth, suck it, and shoot off, or try to 
cook some of his very favorite recipes, which I'm doing 
right now. Pinky doesn't shoot as vigorously as in my 
younger years, but the quality is still there and I 
eagerly drink it all. I removed Harold's wedding ring 
from the body before burial and now wear one ring on 
each hand. Sometimes in the middle of the night, when I 
would like to have sucked him off or had my husband up 
and deep into my love hole, I wake up and cry. Friends 
who see my suffering tell me that this period of 
mourning is beneficial. It seems, however, that it will 
never end.

	My life as Harold's widow drags on. Instead of 
flowers, I suggested that his friends make a donation 
to Mothers Against Drunk Driving. Thank you all for 
your kind and generous thoughts for this lonely old 
cock sucker butt fuckee who will never again have the 
pleasure of experiencing the feel of his lover's 
ejaculating meat in his mouth or deep up and in, never 
again to have his love hole fucked and juiced with 
Harold's nine plus incher. But, as Shakespeare was wan 
to say, it is far, far better to have loved and lost, 
than never to have loved at all.

	THE END

Postscript:

	While only recently rambling through a file of 
papers which Harold had meticulously maintained, I 
happened upon a sealed envelope addressed to me, with 
the notation "To be opened only in the event of my 
death." Inside the envelope was a note, entirely in 
Harold's handwriting. It read:

     "Dearest Jack,

	You are the love of my life and the greatest cock 
sucker I ever had blow me. I'll never forget my joy in 
having my cock buried deep in your love hole. Only 
death can ever separate us, one from the other. 
However, in the event that I should go first, hopefully 
later rather than sooner, I do not wish you to become a 
martyr, with the rest of your life becoming lonely and 
unbearable. That will not heal your loss. Only your 
active reestablishment in the community of our friends 
can sustain you. I am now gone. While not forgotten, I 
can no longer share your magnificent capacity to exude 
love for your fellow men and, in turn, to be the 
recipient of their love.

	Now I not only release you, but give to you my 
blessing and my heart-felt wishes that you have a happy 
and fruit-filled life.

				Now good bye, my love,
							Harold


	Thankfully, I have been enthusiastically and 
actively welcomed back into our circle of friends, and 
am no longer limited to sucking my own cock and having 
to use the dildo up my ass. Many times, while enthusi-
astically engaged with one of my old acquaintances and
some of my newly found friends, I close my eyes and as
their cocks swell and cum in my mouth or my asshole I
pretend that it is Harold. The future now seems secure.
With their cock in me I look  longingly toward heaven,
I say, "Good bye, Harold, my lover."

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It's okay to *READ* stories about unprotected sex with
others outside a monogamous relationship. But it isn't
okay to *HAVE* unprotected sex with people other than
a trusted partner. You only have one body per lifetime,
so take good care of it!
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