Author: Pescador del Valle
Title: Afterlife
Part: Chapter 5 of 6
Universe: Vixen Circle
Summary: A traffic accident gives a man a chance to put
matters to right.
Keywords: mf, ff, rom, exhib
Language: English
Copyright: 2010
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Having sent Hannah and Tracey off with Rosemary to review
out latest induction into our sexually-orientated Vixen
Circle, Sue, Carole and I planned our own review in Sue's
otherwise empty house.
"Want to freshen up?" She had more than that in mind and
didn't object to Carole's presence.
It wasn't a case of "the more, the merrier" since after a
certain number any interaction became social rather than
personal. Two was special, three was fun, four was
borderline and five needed to be really close friends.
Anything more - like today - meant too much circulation
unless you broke you into pairs or threesomes anyway.
We gathered up our clothes and took them to the bathroom.
Sue had dressed enough to say goodbye at the door but
that had been mere window dressing. We didn't expect
anyone home soon but getting caught in the shower wasn't
going to be as serious as having the scenes of an orgy
precede that discovery.
Sue soon stripped to match us and I had the water at a
reasonable temperature by the time she was ready.
"Towels?" I prompted and she grabbed two more.
It had been too many years since I had shared a shower
and then the experience had not had the eroticism I'd
found in my (still to be reached) younger years. Never
had I shared one with two lovely ladies - giggling and
youthful with high spirits and, while it *WAS* just the
three of us, no inhibitions.
Suds flowing, I gave them a treat of Mr Miyagi's "Wax on,
wax off" as I buffed their headlights and rear bumpers.
I got as good as I was given though and the kisses flowed
between the three of us like the water over our bodies.
I taught them one thing more whole we were there - the
temptation of a squeaky clean ass.
In the shower I eased a soapy digit into each girl's butt
hole while we kissed and they stroked me to a watery
orgasm. (The bandaid so lovingly applied earlier didn't
last the shower but by then I didn't need it.) Once we
finished rinsing both cum and suds away and had at least
partly dried off I tried something I had never been game
enough to do.
Sue first - since Carole wasn't likely to balk even
knowing what was coming. I had her kneel on the plush
but damp mat and began to lick her pussy from behind.
She joked as I tickled her ass hole with my nose and then
I surprised her by replacing it with my tongue. I kept
telling myself she *WAS* squeaky clean as I pressed
harder and pushed her sphincter apart. I imagined all
sorts of nastiness but really the most I could say was
that it lacked the sweetness of even her shower-diluted
pussy.
For Sue though it was a capital-"N" Nasty that was
incredibly arousing. My finger had tickled, had teased,
had tempted; my tongue twisted instead. Effectively
self-lubricating it caused a ripple to begin in her belly
that she wasn't ready for. Maybe rimming wasn't so bad
after all.
And of course Carole *HAD* to try it too - both receiving
first and then letting me find out what it was like.
---
Minutes later, dried, dressed and relaxing after Carole
had had to leave, Sue suddenly thumped my arm in mock
outrage before leaning back against me. "I can not
believe you did that!"
"It's something I've heard of but never tried before. It
seemed a perfect time I guess."
"You'd never tried it before! You're FIFTEEN!" Where
the hell have you ever had a chance to try *ANY* of the
things you do with us or have us do? You have lived here
all your life; most of us have known you since you
started school. Who taught you?"
"You really wouldn't believe me."
"Albert, I don't think there is anything that explains
what we've been doing that I wouldn't believe at this
moment."
"Well let's see. I might have been abducted by aliens,
or I could be a changeling left here by the fairies, or -
hmm - I was subjected to a secret government project on
advanced learning, or I died after a long but
unproductive life and am forced to relive it so I can get
it right this time, or I'm a midget - no, that won't work
- how about I'm just young for my age? I can probably
come up with some more if you give me time."
"You can't be serious instead and just tell me?"
"What if I said I had? Which of those would you pick?"
"Can you repeat them please? Hah! You can't!"
"Um, well we had pixies and little green men - have you
heard about the anal probes yet? Then there was Area 51
- same thing, so perhaps Area 69 is where the government
use their brain ray. What else did I say? Oh, young for
my age; I guess that's the same as dying in my fifties.
Did I miss any?"
"They don't sound the same but I guess not. I don't
believe in fairies *OR* little green men so they are out.
I still don't know when you could have been taken away
for your government experiments unless they were really,
really quick. You certainly didn't seem any different
until recently."
"Maybe the effects don't hit until puberty?"
"Young for your age? What's that supposed to mean? And
if you died what year was it and how old were you?"
"Let's see 57 and it was 2013."
"When were you born?"
"1955."
"That works out to - 2012. Huh!"
"I hadn't had my fifty-eighth birthday yet."
Smooth! Oh I don't know. I'd guess the government had
something to do with it but I can't understand why they'd
choose Judo and Sex to teach you. You do alright in
class but not that well."
"It's part of my nefarious plan - or perhaps I was a
failure and only the things I was interested in took."
"*THAT* I can believe. What the hell is nef-, naf-,
whatever though?"
"My evil schemes to take over the world. I can decide
whether to turn all the women into my sex slaves, or ask
for - - - a *MILLION* dollars!"
"Huh? Sex slaves it is then. See I knew you'd tell me
the truth sooner or later. What do you want me to do
master?"
"Actually, holding you like this is pretty nice."
"It is isn't it. You're an easy master for a girl to
have. I'm not sure you need any other slave girls. I
can do anything for you. I *WOULD* do anything for you,
Love."
I hugged her, aware of what she had said and had left
unsaid. I didn't want to hurt her feelings but I thought
it too soon to express serious commitment to anyone and
if I told her I loved her and then proved unable to keep
to that I might hurt her more than not saying anything.
Instead, after allowing a safe pause, I led us back to a
discussion of who we could talk to next and whether there
were better ways to go about increasing the membership of
the Vixen Circle.
"So one slave isn't going to be enough?"
"Think of it as more slaves for the queen."
Sue giggled. "But you haven't said I would be queen."
"A-ha! You've caught me out."
Accepting the situation for the moment, Sue thought we
might do better trying to convince a single girl with
just the two of us - there would be less fear of what the
others present would think. Then, when they had found
out they could have fun we could get them together with a
few more who knew what to expect.
"You'd be sucking and eating and rubbing all by
yourself." We had been talking as if it was just the two
of us involved.
"You'd be as well but you'd only have to deal with two
girls instead of five like today."
"Which would leave me more rested to attend to your
needs?"
"Fancy. I never thought of that."
We tried it that way but, although Sue did the selling,
it was Samantha and I who convinced Prue and then Daisy
that it was not only fun to fool around with boys in a
safe fashion but that there were things they could do
with girls that boys couldn't match.
Of course there was *ONE* thing that boys and girls
*COULD* do that girls could only imitate by themselves
and we hadn't gone into detail on either of those - yet.
Sam enjoyed her time as incubus - I'd neglected succubus
as an option with Sue but I thought the former was a
useful description of my assistant. We too spent some
quiet time together after we said goodbye to Prue and to
Daisy as well as when Sam just turned up looking to spend
time with me.
When I was prepared to cuddle her in front of the TV
while my parents were home she finally relaxed when she
saw they weren't taking any notice even if I kissed her.
Well they noticed, they just didn't say anything in front
of Sam.
Alone she asked me whether I realised Sue was in love
with me.
"Yes, and I think a couple of others might be too."
"I've loved you for ages but it's alright. I don't mind
if you love them instead."
"Sam, it's not a matter of loving people instead but
rather how many people I can love without it being
meaningless. I haven't told anyone that they are the
special one for me because I don't know if I can have
just one or rather if I can commit to just one. That
doesn't mean I', looking to screw every girl I meet. In
fact I'm very carefully avoiding screwing anyone until
I'm older. I love you too and have for a while. I know
Gavin loves me too and I love him but I don't think that
will be enough without a physical commitment as well. I
love Sue and I think she would like it to be exclusive.
Some of the other girls are going to change their minds
when we introduce them to Colin and Doug as you are well
aware, and though they might still be fond of me I don't
think I'll rate 'love' as such."
"And then there is Carole!"
I laughed. "Carole is so sweet and intense it is
impossible *NOT* to love her. She in turn loves anyone
who is willing to love her - which only goes to show how
mistaken the idiot she beat up was. If he'd taken the
time to get to know her properly he would have had the
sort of girlfriend he could only dream of."
"Unlike me - who no guy wants as a girlfriend."
"Sam, you put yourself down. Maybe you haven't met the
guy who wants you for his own or maybe you have and he's
too thick to realise it yet but you're very loveable.
I'm not exactly pushing you away, am I?"
"You're a special case. A nutcase in fact. At least
you're my friend and willing to have fun with me too."
"Not the only one either I think."
Yeah well, as you say, Carole loves whoever loves her."
"And...?"
"Well Mary Kate."
"And...?"
"Okay, okay! And Gail and Rosemary. I can't believe
you. I thought you were the one who said no kiss and
tell!"
"I haven't have I? *YOU'RE* the one blabbing, not that
you've actually giving out juicy details. I'm just happy
you're happy."
"And getting Happies?"
"If that is what is happening, then yes. Do you find
you're more comfortable with the girls than with boys?"
"Well I'm comfortable with you and Gavin, though I guess
he's a special case. How long have you known he is in
love with you?"
I repeated the comment I'd made to Sue. "You wouldn't
believe me. Before him in some ways."
"You didn't mind?"
"Once I might have but I learned I was wrong and I want
to be a better friend even if I can't be the lover he
wants."
"You still have fun with him. I find that amazing. I
doubt any of the other boys around here would behave that
way."
"That is one secret objective of the Vixen Circle - to
persuade more boys that they don't have to fear Gavin."
"Then you need to initiate more boys."
"For the girls to play with as well but they have to be
the right boys, or rather boys with the right mindset to
accept what we offer without trying to turn it into their
own personal orgy. That could be harder than inducing
girls from outside the Dojo to join in. And without more
boys I think the girls might decide they've learned
enough and the circle will just collapse."
"Maybe it will have served its purpose by then - whatever
that really is. You've told one secret but that can't be
all."
"I just wanted those I cared for to be able to find a
partner without being condemned by those around them."
"Those you cared for - Albert that really was just Gavin
and me. What, is this all just a big scheme to get me a
boyfriend or just more friends than you and Gavin? Is it
that hard for people to like me that you have to get them
to want to come first?"
"Sam. Sam, please. You've got it wrong. Please let me
explain properly."
Sam was angry but she did love me and that made her
willing to stop and listen while it had at the same time
lifted the anger higher with the hurt of apparent
betrayal.
"Once upon a time there was a boy and he had a good
friend."
"You are *NOT* serious!"
"Trust me, I am. Please be patient. These two boys grew
up together and one fell in love with the other but the
second boy couldn't deal with that so he never really
knew. Then there was a girl who sometimes felt like she
was a boy in a girl's body. She was a bit of a tomboy
and drove the boys away with her behaviour but the girls
wouldn't have much to do with her either."
Sam sat in stunned silence. She had felt that way but
no-one had actually said it to her before.
"One day she met a new girl and that girl became her
friend. They grew close and even fooled around a bit
secretly, exchanging Happies and learning more about
their bodies than even the Vixen Circle.
"Eventually the first girl wanted to let everyone know
how much in love they were but the second girl was afraid
at that because girls did *NOT* fall in love with other
girls.
"Girl number two even went as far to find herself the
most macho boyfriend she could and got him to fuck her to
prove she couldn't possibly be a lesbian. Girl one was
heartbroken but decided to make a stand, a last ditch
effort to get her lover back. She told everyone that she
was a lesbian and accused girl two of being one as well.
"Girl two came back that, yes, they had been close
friends until such time as girl one had come on to her
and then girl two had dropped her, keeping quiet about
her perverse interests out of their former friendship.
"Girl one stood alone. Those around her were spiteful
and hateful - and we return to boys one and two."
"I don't really understand how this..."
"Please bear with me. Boy two was as unsympathetic as
anyone. He called girl one names and did nasty acts to
make her life miserable. He wasn't really any worse than
those around and better than some but he had no excuse
for his prejudice and hate. Boy one could understand
what girl one was facing and tried to get boy two to
realise she was a person like anyone else - a wonderful
person if he would only take the trouble to get to know
her.
"But boy two was pig-headed and refused to even just
ignore her presence around the school. In desperation
boy one said, 'What if it was someone who you were
friends with who had to put up with all that shit? Would
you stand up for him or would you join those hurting him?
If I told you I loved you would you reject me?"
I paused.
"And boy two turned his face away and never looked boy
one in the eyes again. Girl one thought she had trouble
but the spite she faced didn't turn personally violent no
matter the spit that struck her, the books and homework
that was damaged, the classrooms that developed a seat
shortage. Boy one was met before school and physically
encouraged to report in sick. He was caught whenever he
had to use the toilets and lost a tooth, cracked some
ribs and eventually, after a losing football game was
somehow attributed to him, a kidney.
"Boy number two, once again, was never violent but he
never did anything to stop it and never gave any comfort
to boy one. He did eventually learn how wrong he'd been
however. There was no sudden light globe above his head
but over time he had the benefit of wiser opinions who
broke through the bloody idiotic mindset he had wrapped
himself in. Gradually he developed some humanity.
"It was too late for boy one though; too late even for an
apology. It was impossible to even consider an apology
for girl one - he'd never been close to her, knew nothing
about her, even if she was alive. But it wasn't too late
for boy two to be more civilized to all other people he
met in future. Boy two became man two and met a number
of women. He wasn't interested in men personally but he
could befriend those who were.
"One day man two was hurrying to meet with a couple,
friends of his celebrating their wedding anniversary.
Twenty five years, a quarter century of happiness. He
was glad for them, for the joy they had shared that had
seemed to otherwise pass him by. A problem at work made
him late. He tried to get across the street before the
light changed and someone coming from the other direction
saw it go green and decided to plow straight through.
I'm a little hazy about how the next part of the story
goes but it is something like this;
"Once upon a time there was a boy and he had a good
friend. He knew how good a friend he was and wanted to
make sure that he got the sort of friend he deserved.
Later on they met a girl and she turned out to be every
bit as nice as his friend had later suggested she might
be.
"The boy had felt guilty about his behaviour to the girl
previously but, while guilt can't last, friendship can
and can turn into a mutual love. Do you want me to keep
going?"
"You want me to believe this is some Twilight Zone
episode where you are being nice to me instead of being
nasty?"
"I didn't hear any dee-dee-dee-dee music but yeah I
guess, except I'd say 'a real bastard' instead of just
'nasty' and it simplifies my feelings towards you too
much. If you think back to Harry Powell, it wasn't *ME*
here that did that, it was the me from now. *I* just
came along in time to stop Harry whomping my ass. But
whereas you said thank you to me the first time as well,
I was too interested in avoiding talking to anyone who'd
seen me beaten up. I much preferred getting to know you
and being your friend."
"You talk as though this is all real. Are you just
trying to distract me so I don't remember why I'm mad at
you?"
"It is the sort of story that no-one would believe.
You're the first one I've told the whole story to. My
parents only know it happened, not my background."
"Your parents!"
"Why do you think I get way with what I can. How would
you tell someone old enough to be your father that he
can't have a girl in his room?"
"But you're only fifteen."
"Fifteen going on fifty seven, or maybe even older. I'm
not sure if I'm supposed to count the years from this end
on top of them."
"I still think you're talking rubbish."
"You want to ask my parents?"
"What!? What do I say? Has Albert come back from the
dead? They'll think I'm loony."
"Imagine the fun I had convincing them. I know. Come
with me, but first..."
I took her in my arms.
"Samantha, regardless of what you think of me after this
I am glad that I had the chance to meet you and to learn
to love you as a friend and more. I didn't deserve it
and I'll always treasure the time we have had together
and whatever time we have in the future."
I hugged her and kissed her on the cheek but she insisted
on making it a proper one.
"I still think it is a load of bullshit but you seem to
spread bullshit better than anyone I know."
I took her out to my parents.
"Mom, Dad. You know I've been close to Sam for a while
and I have a little announcement."
They looked quite worried and I could see not-so-stealthy
glances at her waistline."
"Don't worry, Sam's not pregnant. We haven't gone that
far yet."
Sam was horrified that I'd admit we'd gone anywhere.
"No. I had some things to discuss with Sam and I decided
it was important she know the truth about me. Needless
to say, I'm the world's biggest liar and while it might
be nice to avoid her actually believing me I don't think
that will work. Perhaps if I ask you to tell her a
couple of things to start the ball rolling and Sam can
ask whatever she needs to."
"You're quite sure son?"
"I have more reason to trust Same than she does to trust
me at the moment Dad. Perhaps you can tell her how old I
am."
"You're almost sixteen but that's not what you are asking
I'm sure. Based on what you've told us, and you seem to
be telling the truth, you lived to be fifty seven then
came back to live your life over."
"Thank you. Why would you believe such a ridiculous
tale?"
"Firstly your speech was suddenly well in advance of your
age and you could debate matters you shouldn't even have
had an interest in yet. Then there was the Judo. You've
never had any lessons."
"His uncle..."
"Sorry Sam, he doesn't exist. I do have uncles but none
have ever been in the Army. A necessary fiction if I was
to keep people from getting curious. What else Dad?"
"The knowledge of events like the water main bursting and
the department store fire. Usually only remembered when
something similar happened elsewhere. And finally your
financial advice - and the odd gambling tip."
"You know what horse is going to win?"
"Oh *THAT* you'll believe! No, horse races usually are a
bust for me unless it was a very famous race. Sometimes
though..."
"You could just be looking into the future - or what the
future could be. You needn't have died."
"Except then I wouldn't have the understanding of a
fifty-seven year old man looking out through an infant's
eyes. I'd be an infant looking out at a future he
couldn't comprehend. I saw the day I was born."
"Your birth!? You never said!"
"Not exactly Mom. A bit later. Nan and Pop were there.
I must have only been there a couple of hours at the most
before I skipped forward to when I was sick in hospital
when I met Gavin. I had a few days there and then I
jumped to the day I stood up to Harry and became your
friend. I've been here ever since."
"The days you met your best friends," noted my father.
"Driven by guilt?" Sam asked.
"Guilt?" echoed Dad.
"Part of an old history that has been avoided - I hope.
I've always wondered *WHY* I came back. Perhaps the
Buddhists are only partly right and you're not
reincarnated as a new life but rather given another
chance to fix this one. Doesn't explain why I remember
though. Maybe the others are better at keeping secrets."
"Have you told anyone else?" Mom asked.
"Sue asked where I'd learned everything I was passing on
when we were having a cuddle and I included the truth
with a number of other options because I told her that
she wouldn't believe it. I think she favours the
'Government Fried His Brain!' conspiracy."
"You told her? Why??"
"As you said, she loves me. When I'm asked a direct
question I don't like to lie, not directly at least. Not
to those I love." I took Samantha's hand. My parents
must have been confused about my talk of love for one
girl while I was with another.
"I don't know whether to believe you or to believe you've
brain washed your parents. I think I should go and sleep
on it."
"Okay."
"You're not going to tell me not to say anything?"
"As I said before, I have more reason to trust you." I
kissed her in front of my parents.
"That is probably a better argument than any your father
gave," said Mom. "I don't recall any boy treating the
girls they knew with a tenderness like that. It was only
later, and with maturity and self-assuredness, that they
behaved so well."
Mom looked at Dad. "I hope you come looking for me when
I was younger if you get a chance."
"Of course," I butted in while still holding Sam, "If he
does that Mom, you might get together a lot sooner and
then have a different child. What would that do to the
future I wonder?"
---
We settled things, Sam believing *I* thought I'd come
back but unsure whether I was just perceptive about the
possibility of Gavin and her being gay and painting a
possible outcome for me to feel better about averting or
whether they both had their feelings crushed in a
previous existence - with my help.
She liked me too much to remain cross with any ulterior
motive I might have had when creating the Vixen Circle
and had too much fun with the other members to want to
see it stop. She did think, as did the others, that it
shouldn't grow much more than the twenty odd members of
the Kitsune Dojo though they would have liked other
males. I spoke with Colin, Doug and Gavin over the
quality of the other guys we knew and between us came up
with three more names that a survey of the female members
approved with those dissenting doing so for personal
taste rather than any concerns about their likely
behaviour and discretion.
"But that is why they should join - to get them over
those rougher qualities and teach them how to behave
properly."
We had another ceremony. It was easier with four boys
present to induct three new guys. I could still MC and
the others could meet the initiates at the same time,
giving them less time to react. They were accepted so
well by the female acolytes present that we were
encouraged by them to consider yet a couple more.
Shortly afterwards, and before we tried again, my
parents allowed me to give a party for the Dojo but
really allowing all the members of the Vixen Circle to
openly meet for the first time.
Mom and Dad had indicated a willingness to "stay out from
underfoot" - I think unspoken permission for teenagers to
be teenagers without parental oversight, unless it was
really necessary. Considering what they knew of the
casualness in my relations with at least some of the
girls I think that was rather brave of them.
I took a leaf out of a later rule book of mine when
holding a party and that was to invite the neighbours, in
this case the older couple who had the only unobstructed
view across our fences into the area we would be using.
Inviting them to the party wasn't going to work so
instead I bribed them to go away from the noise so it
wouldn't bother them. Tickets to the theatre or a movie
or a sizeable contribution towards dinner as they wished.
I'm sure they saw it as less hassle for my family than
having the police called and graciously took advantage of
the offer.
We didn't have the party catered as such but with a
substantial bank account from my investment advice there
was no need for Mom to make everything personally. I did
offer to help but going with dad to carry supplies seemed
to be how boys fitted into her world view - or kitchen
view perhaps.
People began turning up mid-afternoon as specified with
Sue and Sam arriving with Sue's mother and Gavin, Colin,
and Doug escorting Carole - much to her pleasure. With
the numbers approximately twenty two girls to seven boys
she thought she had done exceptionally well, especially
since Gavin had sat up front as his father had required
and she'd sat in the middle of the back seat.
Sam and Sue greeted me with a simultaneous kiss on the
cheek at the front door even before Sue's mother was
waved away then we each exchanged a better one before I
ushered them inside and through to the back.
I saw Mr Edwards pulling up and left the two lovelies to
find their own way while getting a seriously wrenched
neck as Carole decided four to one was even better odds.
"Sweetheart, it is good you love to have fun but people
will talk nastily about you if you aren't a little more
discrete."
"Oh, I'll try to be good but it is hard." She felt me
and, disappointed, worked her way around the other three
currently blocking the view from the street. "Well this
one and this one are hard! What's up with you two?"
Again I ushered them inside before Dad came to see what
the hold up was and ended up having his package checked
as well. I wouldn't put it past Carole!
Sue and Sam were socialising with my mother and both gave
me another kiss on the cheek before standing either side
of me with their arms around me. I got a funny look from
Mom and some funnier ones from Colin and Doug for being
so extreme in front of my parents.
The weather was warm so we wore light cotton or linen -
almost see through at times. Florals, paisleys, purples,
reds, greens, bright colours or pastels; there was no
wrong style and even fashion faux pas were ignored. Sue
and Sam both had bare midriffs with Sue in a shirt that
tied across the bottom and Sam in what I would have
called a boob tube - elasticised top and bottom without
the need for shoulders. Neither saw a need for a bra
beneath their tops.
In line with her wrap around top, Sue's skirt had a long
belt that fed through a slit so that they could be tied
together. Sam wore shorts that were closer to the cargo
pants I remembered from later years than to the hip-
hugging, butt showing scraps of material I had always
enjoyed watching. She still looked delicious.
And then there was Carole!
Carole wore a t-shirt, sans bra, but had at least worn a
jacket to keep that a secret until she got inside. Did I
say I was worried that Carole might make a play for Dad?
I wondered if we'd be able to stop him drooling instead.
I made sure people knew where the amenities were and
herded them outside. "Remember to breathe Dad."
"Indeed!"
(How *DO* you show icicles in written text?)
"Don't worry Mom. I've told the guys you are off limits
to them. I can see about letting the girls know we've
told Dad that they are off limits to him if you want."
She grinned, both at the idea she might be worth a second
thought to boys my age and secondly at Dad's being
taunted. The term MILF wasn't around though Mrs Robinson
had come out only a couple of years earlier.
"I was just thinking she was a little forward, that was
all." Dad should have left well enough alone.
"About out to here I'd say," cupping my hands in front of
my chest. "Good thing the weather isn't cold or they'd
be out further."
"Albert!"
"Sorry Mom. You raised a dirty old man but it's not your
fault - I had a lot to do with it myself."
---
The rest of my guests heard the music playing around the
back and came down the driveway instead of knocking at
the door. Dress was about the same for the girls though
with far more variety than we boys seemed to manage.
Food and drink was set up so I didn't have to spend all
my time as host, though circulating meant I got plenty of
kisses and not much else for quite a while.
I didn't really need an awful lot and the party didn't
have to degenerate into an orgy but I made sure the other
guys circulate and that we were all gentlemen, seeing to
our ladies pleasure before our own should the lady wish
matters to go that way.
They didn't before the outside lights became a necessity.
There had been a couple of games of spin the bottle
before then but they had involved no more than a kiss and
a casual grope. One circle involved boys and girls about
equally mixed (never quite getting over the gender
imbalance though) and the spinner was obliged to kiss
whoever they span up so boys kissed boys and, more
frequently, girls kissed girls. The other circle was run
differently with new member Paul the lone male doing
service for whoever was spun up by the previous winner.
Kissing wasn't all that was going on there after a few
rounds but they were away from the kitchen window.
After dusk the circles grew more populated and more
interesting. Blouses and shirts hung open and knickers
might have ended up in purses or pockets.
Paul found the rules changed on him so that a winner was
able to name the next task he had to perform before she
span. The only condition imposed was that he couldn't be
asked to do something he'd done with one of the three
previous girls. They got quite creative and there was
some drift from the mixed circle to that one.
With the chance of participation low or skewed a third
circle started up, this time only of girls. They
welcomed the boys but had decided they didn't necessarily
need them. I still got my kisses and now a more frequent
fondle as I went around seeing how people were going. I
think I got more than enough action that way to make up
for the earlier drought and missing out on the games.
Going inside I was however confronted by my parents.
"The party is getting a little racy wouldn't you say
son?"
"About right," I replied confidently. "You've got twenty
to thirty people, all non-smokers, enjoying themselves
and each other without the benefit of alcohol and without
any complaints. Well I did hear a couple of people
asking Gavin to come back because they hadn't finished
but I don't think that counts."
"It's an orgy. What if they all end up pregnant!?"
"Not quite an orgy and the girls are not as likely to get
pregnant as you think. I've spoken to them, and to the
boys, and they are well versed in both sex education - as
in reproduction - and in sexuality education - as in how
to enjoy your body and how to see that your partner
enjoys his or hers.
"These kids know more about conception and contraception
than any of their peers without any of the myths and
deliberate misconceptions that will continue to plague
the kids that will follow them. They understand
masturbation and mutual stimulation. They aren't afraid
to let someone touch them, to watch others touching each
other and, more importantly, they aren't afraid to say no
and to back that up if needed."
"It can't be right though son. I've seen the girls doing
things to each other and the boys going from one girl to
another."
"They are enjoying their freedom, some will be a little
extreme but they aren't hurting themselves or the others
and those around will temper any real excesses. Do you
know how many people here tonight have actually had
intercourse? The three of us - and for me it's been
quite a while. They have all seen girls sent away to
stay with relatives for six months or a year and know how
it has affected their lives. The don't want that to
happen.
"If the girls get horny and know another girl will help
them out they aren't tempted to climb into the back seat
of a car out at Lover's Lane. If they are willing to
attend to a boy's need while he attends to theirs without
him trying to f... Sorry, have intercourse then they both
get through their teens without trauma. This group is
focussed on their school work because they don't have to
machinate over getting a date and a boyfriend. They have
a social life that isn't dependant on 'him and her'.
They are prepared to wait because they have had a better
option put before them. They don't have as many of the
prejudices that they had, and that I shared with them the
last time around. People are happier and all it took was
for them to learn to give each other orgasms."
"We'll never hear the end of it if people find out."
Resistance weakening
"Come with me, I want you to see something."
I took them by the hands and led them out into the yard.
We weren't noticed at first and then I saw a sudden jerk
of a head and a nudge and another head come up. It was
like watching a Mexican Wave at a sports arena but in two
directions with the adjustment of clothing following the
first ripples.
Not everyone could cover up, some girls were sitting
there bare breasted. It was interesting to see those who
crossed their arms and who waved. Carole was a waver.
Excuse me for a second." I approached the group.
"What's up Bert?"
"Nothing. You can go on playing."
Carole beckoned me closed. "Are they going to join in?"
I leaned over and kissed her while gently tweaking her
nipple - in full view of my parents."
"No, Sunshine. They just wanted to see your lovely tits
that I've been telling them so much about."
She laughed and cupped them before waving to my Dad and
then laughing again when Mom elbowed him in the side.
If they had been on a hippie commune they couldn't have
been more relaxed but then they'd have been stoned most
of the time and screwed silly by whichever of the males
stayed sober and clear-headed enough to plow their way
through a field of flower children.
"See how relaxed they are but they still appreciate they
might fall foul of other people's opinions. It might
help them to know that you are aware of what is happening
even if you can't support it. Oh shit!"
"Albert!"
"Sorry Mom. Look, just get them to all cover up and
behave. We have some unfriendlies at the end of the
drive and I think they plan on coming in. Dad, can you
call the Police about some gatecrashers and I'll try to
head them off."
I thought it might be Harry Powell but he either had
learned his lesson or wasn't part of this group. Ah, no!
His older brother was there instead.
"Sorry guys. Private party tonight."
"That's not very friendly, is it guys? Especially when
we hear you've gathered up quite a bit of talent.
Stealing all the girls! Now *THAT'S* not friendly at
all."
I was focussed on Powell Major but not to such an extent
that I wasn't aware of those flanking me. I took two
steps back but they were just as happy with my retreat.
I eased sideways closing on one of the pack and leaving
more room away from the other. I heard a stirring behind
me as people reacted to being told they needed to cover
up to protect *ALL* our reputations. If I could stall a
little longer I was confident I would have so many
reserves backing me up that I wouldn't actually need to
do any fighting.
"The thing is..." Powell stepped forward, I stepped back.
"...I understand you think you're a hot shot. Got a fast
fist and girls are dripping off you. Maybe we don't like
thugs or pimps."
"Your parents must be terribly disappointed you feel that
way about them then."
I immediately knew I shouldn't have said it but at times
you can't resist a snappy comeback even if it seemed
funnier in my head. Harry's brother turned red. He
reached behind and brought out a bicycle chain which he
wrapped around his hand as a combination cosh and brass
knuckles.
"If you plan on using that on me then I should warn you
I'll be kicking your balls up your asshole and then
breaking that arm, so back off."
Again that only served to inflame him rather than giving
me a couple of extra seconds. His eyes drifted from one
side to the other and I charged the nearer of the two as
Powell's chin was lifting for the nod to go.
A punch in the solar plexus and I started to turn towards
the other guy. I had no intention of doing what I'd said
and was pleased to note in passing that Harry's brother
was covering his crotch instead of trying to flail at me.
The four guys behind him were starting to respond but I
had to deal with the other flanking attacker first.
I swung my foot around and kicked him painfully in the
thigh causing him to yell far louder than Windy had - for
obvious reasons. Unfortunately he snagged my foot by
accident and was quick enough to see the advantage. I
had little time and did the only thing I could think of,
I used his head to keep me upright while I aimed my other
foot at *HIS* balls. I might have only managed to sink
one of them in the hole but both would be black and blue
in the morning.
He let go but I fell backwards and had no freedom to ease
the thump of my shoulders against the concrete. I
protected my head and then caught one of the feet aimed
as viciously my way as I had just done to the stranger.
[Use the force Luke!]
Actually, apply force to redirect momentum. It was
easier than trying to absorb it. The leg I swept
sideways ended up colliding with another's ankle so it
missed my cheek but then my luck ran out and I was kicked
three times from the other side.
The scream I heard wasn't pain, it was rage and not
directed my way. The cavalry had arrived.
---
I was in a blur of pain and confusion. There were lights
and people and noise. There was peace. Again, the pain
and lucidity for a second; Sam close by.
"He's awake. Don't you dare die again - you here!?"
Sue turned abruptly to Sam. "What di..."
I lost it.
---
"Albert! Are you okay?"
"Hurts."
"Don't move. You might have a broken neck. We're
getting an ambulance to take you to the hospital. It
will be here soon. You were unconscious for a while and
I want you to stay with us if you can son. You have to
try to stay awake."
Son!? That wasn't Dad though. A neighbour? He sounded
familiar but my eyes couldn't focus, couldn't combine the
paired images. It was certainly brighter than the
driveway. Had they moved me inside? Not with a
suspected broken neck surely!
"Here they are. Just lie still."
"Okay. What's the situation?"
I got beaten up, I thought. Oh well, you can't win them
all but I suspected I wasn't the only loser tonight.
"Some idiot started as a janitor today and waxed the
floor Albert here was carrying a punching bag out the
way so we could get the mats out and ended up
cartwheeling backwards with the bag ending up on top of
him. There was an almighty thud and what sounded like a
crack. He was unconscious for a while but we've kept him
still."
"Good. Let's see what is going on down here then.
Albert? I've got some questions and a few tests to see
how worried we need to be. I guess how are you feeling
of probably first. Any pain?"
I could see now. The man who'd called me son was my
college Sensei, Phillip Mitchell.
"A bit better than I imagined I might. Let's see.
Thumping headache mainly across the back of my neck and
my eyes appear to be working properly again - I had
double vision when I opened them. My left arm is also
sore up near my shoulder."
"Don't try to move it yet."
"I guess I shouldn't have wriggled my toes either then
but they are working and, very carefully I assure you, I
can bend my wrist and fingers."
"That is all well and good but you aren't out of the
woods yet. You could have cracked a vertebra - the bones
in your neck."
"I know and understand. Wrap me in bubble wrap and put
me under an x-ray machine and let's see how careless
Bertie was."
"Bubble wrap?"
"Foam," I lied. It was far easier. "I know this is a
stupid question but I don't have to ask 'Where am I?'
Can you humour me please and tell me what year it is?"
"1976. You feeling okay?"
"Well the year is right so I must be."
---
I'd sprained some muscles when twisting my head but there
was no actual bone damage and, though I'd been knocked
unconscious I didn't appear to have turned my brain into
oatmeal either.
I tried calling my parents but the phone rang out without
an answer. Oh well, they wouldn't likely be hearing from
anyone else so they wouldn't be worrying. I was kept for
observation and discharged the following afternoon clad
only in my gi. At least I now had a brown belt.
Phillip had left a message that he was glad I was okay
and that he would be in but I didn't know when that would
be. The hospital wasn't that far from the Fighting
Mongoose Dojo so I decided to walk. I signed my release
documents and they gave me back my health cover card -
cardboard rather than plastic. Phillip had obviously
passed it on to the Ambos for me. I was sure that I'd
had student cover while I was studying but this was top
scale. I'd only wished the Ambulance driver had
collected my whole wallet and my clothes. Phillip must
have them.
I wasn't permitted to walk the fifty metres to the front
entrance though and a young nurse was appointed as my
chauffeur. She looked familiar and I studied her as we
waited by the elevator.
"Your name wouldn't be Beth would it?" I knew the answer
but then, If *I* could be resurrected over and over..."
"No. I've got an Aunt Beth though. She was a nurse."
"Over at Riverside? Around - '63?"
"Yes, it would have been about then that she would have
been there."
"You have her look. The way you have your hair cut and
the little cleft in your chin. Very pretty."
She looked at me. She knew I'd had a knock on the head
but to recognise the resemblance with her aunt from so
long ago was impossible. She decided I was aware of the
relationship somehow and was stirring her up. I didn't
disagree.
---
Phillip was in the Dojo. "What the hell are you doing
here? They were supposed to have called me when they
were thinking of letting you go."
"Oh well, no harm done. I enjoyed the walk; it took some
of the stiffness out."
"How are you feeling, really??"
"Like I've been hit by a truck - and trust me I know what
that is like. They gave me some painkillers for the
headache and my neck is a bit stiff if I turn too far to
the right. So long as I don't press on the duck egg at
the back I'll live."
"You should take a couple of days off school and go home.
You're professors aren't going to complain - you're doing
better than the rest of your class. I can get by here as
well."
"I guess I will but I feel a bit strange roaming the
streets like this."
"Right. Sorry - I was going to bring them with me when I
came to get you." Phillip pulled out a cardboard box.
"And your wallet and keys..." He opened a small safe.
"I don't like to say I wouldn't trust an Ambo but
sometimes the temptation can be too great."
I looked at my wallet; there seemed an inordinately large
number of notes in it.
"Do you really need to carry that much cash around all
the time?"
"I guess not. Thanks for keeping it safe."
I looked at my keys. There was one for an apartment door
and another for a car plus a couple of others I was sure
would become meaningful in a few days.
"Er. Is my car still here?"
"You didn't see it coming in? You must be blind. You're
just lucky the care park is behind the fence or your
valuable wheels might have disappeared."
"I guess I'll get going then." I'd looked at my student
ID. It gave my address - a street I was familiar with -
so I wasn't going to have to ask for directions. I took
my clothes and changed.
---
I hadn't driven between home and college during *MY*
second spell in High School so my most recent memories
came from perhaps twenty years earlier. I couldn't tell
any real difference from the landscape - cityscape really
- now and how it was then (or rather how it was in the
then of the future.)
Intellectually I knew it had got denser, that the suburbs
had spread to join and had thickened away from the main
highway which remained wall to wall commercial
establishments and advertising. With no real surprises
as I drove I could consider the time that had elapsed. I
had skipped about five years. I should have asked for
the date - anyone at the hospital could have given it to
me without a second thought. Well it shouldn't be hard
to get.
What had happened to my friends? What had happened to
the Kitsune Dojo we had started at High School? What had
happened to the Vixen Circle?
What had happened to Sam and Gavin? Without my help
(*HAD* I helped?) had things returned to "normal"?
And, as I drove down their street, I began wondering how
my injury had affected my parents. How hard *HAD* it
been? I certainly hadn't been hurt enough to make a long
term difference if I was healthy now and doing well in my
studies.
There was a light on and someone moved between it and the
curtain leaving a shadow. At the sound of my car
stopping the curtain was pulled to one side.
My car! Now *THAT* had been a surprise. In a time when
bigger was better (and from my wallet I could certainly
afford either) I had chosen a Mini. A blocky English car
that was as economical of gas as it lacked luxuries. You
eased into it but there was more room than it seemed.
I stretched after I manoeuvred my way out of it and the
car was not totally to blame. Noticing little
differences in the garden that I had seen just over a day
- or five years - earlier I strolled to the front door.
I didn't know what had changed around the side and wasn't
about to trip over a garden hose and end up under
observation for another night!
Dong, Dong, Dong. Well that was different. The door
opened.
"Yes?"
The chain that kept the door closed was different but
nowhere near as much as the woman behind it.
"Sorry to disturb you. I'm looking for Mr and Mrs
Lamont."
"Oh sorry dear, I don't know them."
"How long have you been here, please?"
"Almost a year. They weren't the people I bought the
house from though. It was a Mr Sheehy."
"Oh. Okay then. Thank you very much."
I returned to my car. The neighbouring house was dark
and, looking over the other side, I decided that my
parents weren't likely to have left any forwarding
details with *THEM*.
Samantha was closest - I hoped. At least her mother was
the same.
"Albert how nice to see you. What have you been doing
with yourself? Come in, come in."
I sat across from her in the lounge and explained how I
had given myself a rather bad bump and spent most of the
previous 24 hours in hospital.
"I'm trying to contact my parents but I must be a bit
confused because they no longer live at my old home and
I'm not sure where they could be."
"Well that's easy! They will be in Vermont for the
summer - same as last year.'
"Of course. What's Sam doing nowadays?"
"You should know better than me. I thought she phoned
you weekly, if not twice a week. Don't tell me you've
fought or anything?"
"No. As I said, I'm really confused."
"Look Albert, if you're feeling poorly I can make up a
bed here and try to get hold of your parents but you
might want to go and see Sue."
"Sue?"
"If you're confused, she's probably the best one to
help."
I was assured she still lived at the same address and
only hoped she would be home and happy to see me.
---
"Bert!" Arms around neck, tongue down throat. God she
looked good; she *FELT* good.
"What are you doing here?"
She pulled me inside and her parents greeted me warmly.
Well that was reassuring at least.
"I had a bit of an accident at the Dojo. You know about
the Dojo?"
"I should. What sort of accident?"
"I fell onto my head and shoulders. Enough to get a
hefty bump and forget one or two things."
"Oh you poor dear. Hell, what a lump - you're not
joking. Are you okay? Has anyone checked you out?"
"Yes and Yes. I spent the night in hospital after x-rays
showed I hadn't crippled myself."
"You're going to have to stop doing this to yourself.
Why didn't you call me? If it was at the Dojo why didn't
Phillip call?"
I was a little surprised but could think of one reason.
"I suspect Phillip expected I *WOULD* call. But that is
one of the things that are a bit hazy. All I could
remember was Mom and Dad's number from Paige Street and
of course they are in Vermont. Yours still is a blank."
"Well you remember where they are at least."
"No. I went from home to Sam's house and spoke with her
mom."
"The bitch! Oh Samantha, not her mother."
I was a little surprised that Sue and Sam had fallen out
but five years were five years.
"Bitch?"
"She was supposed to phone me the last two times we
talked because it was *HER* turn but, no, she was
indisposed and then busy! I note she can manage to call
you regularly though!"
"Susan! You should be more tolerant of your friends.
When you are expecting you won't always have the time
you'd like to have and once you have a baby it gets
worse."
Sue's father added his chuckle to his wife's.
"Yeah well don't expect that too soon. *I'M* still
waiting to be asked for permission."
Sue looked my way but I didn't respond.
"What's the matter honey?"
"Sam's having a baby? Is she married?"
"You're serious!? You don't remember?"
"You know the party where Harry Powell's brother turned
up?"
"Jordan Powell? Did he do this to you? I didn't think
he had been paroled after last time."
"Jordan? Is that his name? And he got sent to prison
for bashing me?"
"Well Juvie then but that was the first time. He's been
back twice since. That is why I'm surprised they've let
him out so early."
"No, sorry. You've misunderstood. The night Jordan
Powell and friends sunk the boot into me is like
yesterday to me. I've got a little catching up to do."
"And the hospital let you out like this? Dad can you
drive us back to *OUR* hospital and we'll see if there
are any doctors who aren't quacks."
"No. Please. No. It's not quite what you think. I'm
sorry but do you mind if I just explain to Sue. Some of
it might sound crazy to you but less so to her."
"Of course, if you feel you don't need a doctor."
"Thank you."
Sue pulled me into her room and pushed me onto her bed.
"You really don't remember ravishing me here when we were
seventeen?"
"No."
"Oh well, looks like we'll have to do it all over again
then."
"Sue!"
"Before I do anything I'm likely to regret later even
though I'd even more likely to enjoy it now - please, am
I seeing anyone? You know. Do I have a girlfriend?"
Sue sat back and looked at me. "Yeah. You've got one
but she's not good enough for you. She's a bit of a
bitch?"
"What? Sam?"
"You want it to be Sam?"
"I don't *NOT* want it to be. I'm just very surprised.
Does that mean I'm the father of her baby. You didn't
say if she was married."
Sue gave me a thump on the chest then remembered my
"delicate" state.
"Sorry. No, you're not the father - Gavin is! And yes
she is married - to Gavin - and you were his best man!
You don't have *ANY* clue?"
"Nope. Well if I'm not going with Sam who is my
girlfriend?"
"Who do you think it could be? You've got the Vixen
circle to work through and there might be some others."
I had an inkling but wanted to see Sue's reaction to a
name.
"Julieanne Gregory?"
Again she sat back. "You said you can't remember
anything. Why did you pick that name?"
"Let's see she turned up in 1972 I think. Got friendly
with Sam?" Sue nodded. "They had a fight and Julieanne
shagged - oh, what's his name? The line backer?"
"Nope."
"She didn't become lovers with Sam? Oh good."
"No, she did. She's Sam's partner."
"You said Sam was married to Gavin."
"Yes and Gavin's partner Jack is married to Julieanne and
they all live on the ranch out in Arizona."
"They have a ranch?"
Sue sat quietly for a second. "Albert, *YOU* own the
ranch. You and your parents. The others manage it and
share the bedrooms; boy-boy and girl-girl. *YOU*
suggested it!"
"Sorry, gone for now though I expect if you give me a
week I'll be able to describe every feature there."
"Then how do you know about Julieanne and why did you say
it was good she didn't become Sam's lover?"
I beckoned Sue over and sat back against the headboard
with her in my arms. "Remember, oh maybe not, it was far
longer for you. Anyway, we were sitting out on the
lounge - the previous one - and you asked me a question.
I gave you a few answers and you decided the government
had been playing with my brain."
"I never decided. I just disliked that answer the least.
I should have picked you being a fifty-something year old
man shouldn't I."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because Same told you not to die again. You told her
didn't you?"
"Yes but I'm not sure she was ready to believe."
"She was when you were hurt. She was so much in love
with you I think she would have married you like a shot.
And then you were hurt and when you were better you had
changed."
"Did I forget all we had done?"
"Oh no. We still had fun and even expanded the Vixen
Circle until it sort of imploded. After that there were
some Vixen mini-circles and people who still got together
occasionally to spread the word. You were still a tender
lover but you didn't have the drive in you the same.
"It was similar with the Kitsune Dojo. When it came
to the moves we had practised you were as good as ever
but others you had spoken of... well you weren't as good
when it came to teaching them. Your father helped get an
outside coach in for us and we all improved but I don't
think it was the Kitsune Dojo when you weren't the Sensei
any more.
"We didn't learn to fight dirty any more but
fortunately you'd grounded us well and we could adlib
ourselves - not that we needed to do more than say boo
after the party."
"What happened?"
"Let's see. You'd left one guy puking between sobbing
for his mommy and another with balls swollen like
oranges. They were bleeding internally and the ambulance
driver had to cut away his underwear while he was in the
driveway - and we weren't goin' *NOWHERE*!"
"So far so good."
"Sam was so proud of you. She insisted she had taught
you to do that. That left five of them including Jordan.
Five of them and nearly thirty angry people - mostly
female.
"Mary Kate took a swipe across the bridge of her nose
and forehead from the bicycle chain - Jordan got extra
time for that and she considers it more like a Prussian
duelling scar and it makes her look even sexier in a
positively evil way. That was the most serious injury
other than your own.
"I broke a nail myself - but my guy couldn't open his
eyes without the lid causing him pain. If he hadn't
fallen backwards I think I would have had his eyeball
skewered on the end."
"Nasty!"
"We didn't have time to think nice. One of us was down.
You know, the Three Musketeers?"
"I understand. It's how I hoped we might grow as a
group, initially to support Sam and Gavin rather than
destroy them."
"I don't really understand. Sam said something once
about being glad she got the nice Julieanne. It made up
for missing out on the nice Albert."
"Why was Julieanne nice?"
"I don't know why she wouldn't be considered that. She
became a Vixen and always seemed pleasant enough to all
of us."
"That's good. A relief. When Sam first met Julieanne
there were no Vixens. Instead the girls around her were
bitches."
"Me too?"
"I don't recall you as a bitch, neutral perhaps.
Actually the girls in the Vixens were all more supportive
by their lack of opposition if my memory is correct."
"You can recall forty two years earlier but not one
week?"
"You sound like you believe me."
"You tell an interesting story. Go on."
"Sam was in love. Julieanne was until it was likely to
become public. Then she turned about face and denied
everything except for Sam trying to seduce her. Sam was
ostracised and I was as big a bastard as any of them.
"Gavin stood up for her to me, explained his own love
for me and I saw him taken down in much the same way. I
guess that's the nasty Albert and the nasty Julieanne.
So the question becomes, do you still want this Albert
now you know he wasn't always as nice?"
"You've got tickets on yourself haven't you? Nice
Albert, pah!"
"Well I didn't think you'd be my girlfriend if you didn't
think I was nice - I just wanted to give you a chance to
reconsider."
"Why do you think I am your girlfriend?"
"Well you mentioned the Vixens. While there are a good
number of girls there who I would be quite happy to have
as a girlfriend there was really only one who *I*
wanted."
"Boy I am really embarrassed now. Albert, it's
Rosemary."
"Rosemary? Did something happen between us - you and me?
I really don't recall. If I hurt you I'm sorry. Sue, I
wouldn't want to have."
"Stop! I told you your girlfriend was a bitch and not
good enough for you. It isn't Rosemary. We've been
going out almost since you came home from the hospital.
We didn't straight away because you had so many people
wanting to nurse you that I had to queue. Mom and Dad,
your Mom and Dad, looked favourably on me - I think they
listened to Sam on that score but I'm not sure why she
would put me ahead of her and why they would take so much
notice."
"Because I told them I could trust her more than she
could trust me. Sam was my friend from the first time I
extended the hand of friendship to her. She loved me,
yes, and I loved her and we shared our bodies as well but
we weren't lovers as such. I think I continued to feel
guilty when I found out how wonderful she was and how I'd
hurt her in the past."
"Did we get together?"
"I'm sorry. I have no recollection of what you did or
who you were with. I can only hope you will accept that
that was the bad Albert and it appears that, regardless
of whether it is the sixteen or the twenty or the fifty-
seven year old me, we all love you."
"Thank you sweets, but what about you? Your original
life? Did you get married and who to? A family? The
white picket fence in the suburbs?"
"A successful career. A few women friends who usually
remained serious for a couple of years then moved on.
Never anyone permanent, certainly none like you."
"And you died at fifty seven?"
"Carelessly run over. Careless on my part, and the
driver's."
"And now?"
"I suppose I head back to my apartment and crash for a
couple of days."
"That would be okay except for three things."
"Which are?"
"You are not fit to drive another two to three hours."
"Granted."
"Mom and Dad are quite used to you sleeping over here."
"Offer accepted - and the third?"
Sue pulled a key ring out of her handbag. "It's *OUR*
apartment Darling!"
---
It was a month before I'd picked up enough of my memories
to feel I was well on the way to recovery. That didn't
mean there weren't still large holes but there were also
advantages to my return.
Repeating the course work from thirty odd years prior
didn't mean I could coast but some of it was second
nature and some was influenced by matters learned long
after so that my essays were considered particularly
insightful and one professor even suggested I might be
the new "enfant terrible" of the subject. Fat chance!
I did well enough that the period of study review before
I had to sit a couple of exams wasn't quite as stressful
as it might have been if I had had to worry about
material I *SHOULD* have covered much more recently than
I could recall.
I was satisfied when we finally broke up for the summer
and Sue and I could fly up to see my parents. Finding
Sue actually lived with me (or we lived together or I
lived with her - all semantics!) was wonderful. I
listened as she reamed me out for not noticing her
clothes in the wardrobe, her photos in the study and both
her phone number and my parents - both in Vermont and the
ranch - in the index *NEXT* to the phone and then pointed
out that I hadn't actually called in before driving to
see my parents.
*THEN* I had to listen to my love tell me off for being
so hasty - a taunt that I couldn't very well disagree
with. My only response was that, since she lived at home
with her parents during the week because of where she was
studying, and it was neither a weekend or a holiday when
I was injured, I actually got in touch with her sooner
than I would have if I *HAD* gone to our apartment.
I'd heard that Sam regularly spoke with me but Sue called
first and had a cryptic conversation that she wouldn't
discuss with me "until you are better". My assurances
that I was went unheard and I wasn't permitted to speak
to Sam or any other of my high school friends. Sue
promised if I was patient she would ensure it was worth
my while.
My intervening memories of Sue may not have come back any
quicker than the others but they certainly registered
with me much more vividly, probably because she was there
to act as a catalyst. She refused to hunt down any of
the yearbooks or to discuss our former companions other
than to say they were all healthy and happy as far as she
was aware. She wouldn't even indicate which of them she
had kept in touch with.
Things I remembered about Sue;
- Sue didn't find out about my wealth until quite a
while after she became my official girlfriend. (Sam
actually knew more about my finances and she gave me
up - not a gold digger among them!)
- Sue didn't stop the Vixen's from attending to my needs
just because she was my official girlfriend. Of
course, she expected - and got - a similar right
herself.
- Sue really loved me.
- She was prepared to stand up for the things she felt
were right, even when I was her oppressor - and she
still really, really loved me even then.
- Sue had been willing to debate the rights and wrongs
of prejudice against lesbians even though the two
girls involved had not been part of the Vixen Circle
nor had ever been likely to be asked to join. Just
because they were an oppressed minority didn't
automatically mean we *HAD* to be friends while we
still supported their rights to their own love, lives
and happiness.
- Sue had been right about our first time on her bed.
We had actually beaten my first attempt in an earlier
life by a couple of months so she could quite
legitimately claim to have ended my virgin status
under a number of arguments.
- She liked my parents and they liked her. Very handy
when we were heading up to explain that their son, who
periodically was possessed, was going to be talking
crazy again. I'd spoken to them but had resisted
passing on that myself until we were face to face.
---
I don't know when my parents decided they liked mountain
cabins - neither had shown much interest in scenic
hideaways before I was attacked or in my previous life.
It proved a peaceful place to go and two weeks there
produced improvements that made me feel ready to face the
world despite considerable missing earlier memories.
Mom and Dad knew I'd been injured but the fact I wasn't
in a wheelchair was accepted as a good sign. Dad was
thankful when I gave him some fresh investment tips but
then realised I'd brought them from the future rather
than from any of my contacts. *I* hadn't realised my
local "I" had contacts until he mentioned them, and then
that part of my life came flooding back.
Mom and Dad were obviously doing well; well enough to
live off their share of the investments they had made for
all of us. The idea of them retiring at forty sounded
attractive and finding that I might be able to do so even
earlier was amazing - if I only knew what I might then do
with my life.
My greatest delight was finding that Mom had not
forgotten to have regular health checks that meant the
cancer she had experienced was treated early enough that
she didn't need the mastectomy that had proven to be too
little, too late anyway.
I spent my days spent getting to know my parents all over
again while relaxing with Sue, and my nights doing
everything *BUT* relax with Sue. Life had been good at
fifteen; it was infinitely better at twenty.
We also discussed the way I moved from event to event.
Trauma of some sort seemed involved at one end or other
of each journey; injury or illness. I had to promise Sue
that if I was going to stay around I would never get sick
or hurt again. I certainly wanted to keep that promise.
The time in Vermont brought me closer to Sue and to my
parents. I could see how happy there were and knew I was
happy with Sue. I began planning ahead for after our
graduation - Sue had talked about spending six months
travelling and I wondered if we could make that a
honeymoon as well.
I had a problem with that though because, while *I* liked
the idea, I wasn't sure I could commit *ME* when to it if
he was only lukewarm on marriage. It wouldn't be fair on
Sue to get her hopes up, have something happen to me, and
be left standing at the altar or deserted a couple of
years later.
Surely I wasn't like that though. I approached my
father.
"Have I said anything about marriage Dad? To Sue
specifically."
"Marriage to Sue, or discussions you've had with Sue?"
"Either really. I'm adrift here until my memories come
back."
"Why not wait until then?"
"Because I feel she is so right for me. She said
something that made me think I was stalling though. I
can't understand that."
"Sorry. You've always said how she makes you happy and
you've wondered what it will be like to be married for as
long as us but not in the same sentence."
In the end, waiting until I knew my own mind seemed the
best advice.
We said our goodbyes and flew to Arizona, a dogleg flight
if ever there was. Due to our late bookings we couldn't
get anything more direct and by the time we'd driven to
the ranch I was exhausted.
I was surprised that we had a car sitting in the Long
Term Parking until Sue pointed out my parents had left it
there when they had gone north and we'd already used it
once since then. It looked like I still had more to
remember after all.
Getting a full-on welcome from Samantha - bulging - and
Gavin was wonderful. Julieanne and Jack were more sedate
but still genuinely welcoming and I noticed Sue was
treated exactly the same. She apologised that we were
dead tired after our trip and suggesting we catch up at
breakfast rather than pulling an all-nighter. That
suited me despite my happiness to see my friends looking
so good - and contented.
Sue and Sam excused themselves for a second and when Sam
came back I could see Sue had told her.
"Hi again," I ventured.
Sam threw her arms around my neck and burst out crying,
then thumped my chest.
"Ow. Did Sue teach you to do that?"
"No, but she taught me this!"
I got a very sweet kiss with a baby bump in between.
Pregnant women can get emotional - hey, we all do at
times - and Sam was happy rather than angry with me.
"I thought you'd gone for good."
"Was I that different?"
"You weren't *MY* Albert. I could tell. I missed what
we had between us even though you were still special and
still made me feel I was special to you."
"Sorry if I left you in the lurch."
"Hey, you told me what to expect, gave me the guts to
face up to how things were and gave me the friends to
organise things so I didn't have those problems. You
were still there for me, and for Gavin. There was no
lurch for either of us."
"Er?"
We looked around at three very confused people and one
who no longer had any trouble believing. Sam's
confidence in my story was more contagious than even my
parents'.
"In the morning," Sam commanded. "Let them rest first."
She turned back to me. "I love you Bertie. Welcome
back."
"Love you always Sam."
---
Sue snuggled into me. "Tomorrow morning is going to be
interesting. How much are you going to reveal?"
"I don't know. I have to tell them something I suppose
but I think not the specifics of the bad times I helped
cause. Sam and Julieanne don't need that. Sam can't
even be sure that Julieanne was her lover in a previous
life and really it wasn't this Julieanne anyway."
"She knows. She's the one who spoke of getting the 'nice
ones' remember?"
I pulled Sue over on top of me. "How tired *ARE* you?"
We didn't get to sleep right away but when we did we
slept straight through.
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