Child Brides of India
By C. Stanton Leman
Chapter 81: And Babies Make Five
(MFfg, rom, cons, no sex)
All three of my wives were really enjoying
America. We’d taken a two-day sightseeing excursion to Washington D. C., mostly
for Monaavi’s sake but we all have a good time. We also went to Williamsburg,
Va. and a few other tourist attractions.
In early August, Monaavi and I took a tour
of the Greater Baltimore Medical Center, where her stateside OB/GYN conducted
his deliveries: just in case she had to deliver unexpectedly. She immediately
fell in love with the facilities. The complex had modern combination
labor/birthing rooms, the ability to have family present for the birth and the
friendliness of the staff was remarkable. The fact that if the twins were born
here, they’d be American citizens sparked an unexpected family discussion.
After dinner that night, Monaavi made the
comment, “I really like the hospital here and you know that if the girls were
born here, they’d be American citizens.”
We all looked at each other and Mom said,
“What about school? Priya starts class the first week of September and the
younger girls need to get back to their studies?”
“I know, Mom,” Monaavi conceded, “it’s just
a wish. I know realistically it can’t happen but I just wish it could, that’s
all.”
“Priya?” Mom asked, “What’s your take on
this?”
“Well,” Priya started, “the way I see it,
the biggest problem will be with Leeya and Attiya. I could take a semester off
and still graduate early, but what of the girls?”
Leeya cut in with, “I could work real hard
and make up the work, but what about Tiya? Will she fall behind?”
Putting in my two cents I injected, “If we did stay, it would probably be November
or early December before we got back. Monaavi, you deliver in early October and
you’ll need at least six weeks recovery time and probably that much time for
the babies to be ready to travel.”
Monaavi started crying and said, “I know,
it was just a thought that’s all. I was just kind of thinking whimsically,
wishing out loud.”
“What about your mother?” Mom suddenly
asked. “Can she work with Attiya until you get back? You said she’s the one
that taught you to love children.”
“(Sniffle) I don’t know,” Monaavi answered.
“I never thought about her teaching, but she’s good with kids and she’s college
educated; maybe she could.”
We just looked at each other for a few
silent moments when Mom said, “Well, call her! It’ll be morning there, maybe
she’ll be home.”
Leeya leapt to her feet, ran and grabbed
the cordless then returned to the table, handing the phone to Monaavi. After
dialing the number we waited to see if Hindi or Ravi would pick up. Sitting
silent, we could all hear the phone ring five times when Monaavi said, ”Hello,
Momma?”
After putting Hindi at ease and telling her
she and the babies were fine, she asked her mother about teaching Attiya for a
few months. They spoke back and forth for about ten minutes when Monaavi got a
beaming smile on her face nodding yes quickly as her mother spoke. After
discussing the preliminaries, Monaavi told her she’d call her later with the
particulars and after saying the parting “I love you’s” and salaams, they
disconnected.
Monaavi set the phone down, jumped to her
feet and danced around the table singing, “My babies are gonna be Americans!”
Priya and Leeya were the first to embrace
her, dancing right along with her. Mom got into the act before the expectant
father was allowed to jump in.
Over the next two weeks, Priya changed her
registration putting off returning to school for a semester and Monaavi filled
her mother in on Attiya’s lesson plans. We went for Monaavi’s bi-monthly
checkup and her doctor was surprised but happy to hear she wanted to deliver
here and had his secretary have Monaavi pre-admitted to GBMC.
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When September rolled around, Monaavi began
Leeya’s and Tina’s lessons again and we were all getting anxious as her time
approached. Monaavi would talk with her Mom once a week to review and set up
Attiya’s lesson plan and things seemed to be working out fine.
The last Thursday in September the weather
was great: warm but around seventy with a nice breeze so the three girls and I
decided to go to Baltimore’s Inner Harbor. We were walking along the colonnade
about noon when Monaavi suddenly stopped and gasped. I looked over at her as her
jeans suddenly darkened and it looked like she was peeing herself. Feeling
embarrassed for her, I removed my jacket and put it around her waist and she
said, “It’s time, I think my water just broke. I know I didn’t pee myself.”
PANIC!!!!!!
“W-w-what did you say?” I stuttered.
Leeya was jumping up and down clapping
almost yelling “Oh goody, goody, goody! We’re gonna have a baby!”
Priya was in as much shock as I was and
just stared at Monaavi slack-jawed. “Are you sure?” she asked to confirm.
“Uh huh” Monaavi beamed, “and it’s running
down my legs, let’s hurry!”
Cradling her watermelon belly with her
hands, we started walking to the car. A gazillion thoughts were spinning in my
head and at the same time and I couldn’t think straight like: “Will I faint? She’s
gonna deliver, I’m gonna be a daddy: diapers, bottles, breast pumps, and
midnight feedings with two screaming girls — GIRLS! Boys — with dicks! THREE virginities to
protect, clothes — “Daddy, I don’t have a thing to wear!” The bathroom: I’ll
have to make an appointment to even see
one again! Cat fights, periods, cramps, PMS - OHMYGOD!!!
“Well,” Monaavi asked as she waddled,
“Aren’t you gonna say something?”
“Huh?” I mumbled as I came back to reality.
“Yeah great, let’s go have some babies!”
I thought to myself, You’re such a pussy! You’ve got three wives: what can three daughters
do to you, fool!
I just remembered that Monaavi’s hospital
bag with all her things including a digital video and still camera was still at
home, next to our bedroom door. I called Mom and she shrieked when I told her
Monaavi’s water broke and that we were on the way to the hospital, to call Dad
and meet us there with Monaavi’s things.
It was a good ten-minute walk to the car and
another forty minute drive to the hospital. I called Monaavi’s doctor and told
the secretary what had happened and that we’d see him there. She said he had
another delivery, was already at the hospital and that she’d page him letting
him know we were on our way.
We arrived at the maternity wing of the
hospital at about one-twenty. The entrance is a “U” shaped drive that offered
valet parking so I left the motor running, everyone exited the car and we went
to the registration desk. We gave the receptionist Monaavi’s name and they
whisked us into the delivery ward, putting Monaavi in delivery room ten.
The room looked like a four-star hotel room
with a wall of fine wooden cabinets, a sitting room, bathroom and a hospital
bed with all the electronic medical equipment on the wall surrounding the bed.
Her assigned nurse’s name was Cathy. Cathy
helped Monaavi get undressed and into a hospital gown, started an IV and hooked
up fetal monitors to Monaavi’s stomach. Suddenly, we could hear two heartbeats
filling the room. The monitor showed one baby with a heart rate of 109 and the
other 111.
Now we wait…
Dr. Simpson came in dressed in scrubs and
greeted us with a smile. He examined Monaavi, her water definitely had broken
and she was dilated about two centimeters. He told Cathy to start a Petossin
drip and said, “Well, we may be here a while so try to get some rest: you’re
going to need it. If the pain gets to be too much to bear, call Cathy and we’ll
get your epidural started, okay?”
Monaavi was as cool as a cucumber and
nodded with a smile. Me, I was a total wreck inside: shaking, sweat starting to
appear on my brow. Hell, I was now starting to get cramps!
“Relax,” Monaavi said as she patted my
hand, “I’m the one that’s going to have to do all the work. Be strong, Sean, I
need you to be strong for me.”
Just hearing those words seemed to have an
immediate calming effect on me and I replied softly with a smile, “We’re in
this together and I’ll be there for you every step of the way.”
Monaavi smiled and closing her eyes
answered, “Good. I’m gonna try and get some rest.”
Mom showed up with Monaavi’s bag about an
hour later huffing and puffing from rushing to get here. Dad followed twenty
minutes later. Monaavi heard Mom come in and Monaavi opened her eyes and smiled
as Mom hugged her saying, “Well, Sweetie, this is it. After today, you’ll
really have your hands full for the rest of your life. How are you doing?’
“The contractions,” Monaavi answered, “are
getting stronger and I think I’ll have to ask for the epidural soon. It really
hurts a lot.”
I gave Monaavi some ice chips and
repeatedly wiped her face with a cool washcloth. I thought that if I could
relax her, she might feel better so I started massaging her feet. She tilted
her head back with a smile and responded with “Mmmmm’s” and it seemed to do the
trick for a while but after an hour, she called for the “juice”.
About twenty minutes after her epidural was
put in, she had relaxed quite a bit. She’d drift in and out of a light sleep as
her labor progressed. We’d been here for five hours and she’d dilated to six
centimeters: God! Four centimeters to go!
Dr. Simpson would come in periodically and
check her telling her, “I know this seems slow, but you’re actually delivering
pretty quickly for your first time: some women are in labor for up to
twenty-four hours with the first, sometimes longer.”
The nurses had changed shifts and Monaavi’s
new nurse was Miko, a very young Japanese woman a little younger than Monaavi.
At nine-thirty, Miko came in checking on Monaavi and acted calm, but pressed a
button on the one of the fetal heart monitors and printed out a strip. She
called Dr. Simpson and asked him to come in right away. She did it with such
calmness we didn’t think anything of it.
Dr. Simpson came in, looked at the strip
and examined Monaavi again. He said to her, “You’re dilated about nine and a
half centimeters, but we need to start delivering now.”
“Why?” I asked worried.
“Well,” he answered calmly, “one of the
baby’s heart rate is down to about ninety-four and we don’t want any problems.
It could be nothing; just the stress of delivery or it might be something else.
We want two healthy girls, right? So let’s do this now.”
Miko called in another nurse and in a
flash, this “hotel room” morphed into a mini operating room. A huge light was
pulled from a panel in the ceiling, they then removed the bottom of the bed and
it now became a table with stirrups and as the one nurse readied the bed and
everything, Miko helped Dr. Simpson get into surgical dress.
After putting Monaavi’s legs in the
stirrups, her entire body from the waist down was exposed. Dad stood dazed for
a moment then blurted out “Oops! I better leave!”
Monaavi said “Wait Dad! There’s no shame in
bringing forth life, stay. Stay and represent my parents and watch your
grandchildren take their first breaths.”
“Are you sure?” he asked to verify.
“Only if you want to, Dad,” Monaavi replied
through her panting. “I know where your heart is and your eyes will be on life,
not my nudity.”
Dad replied, “Well, alright, I’ll tape
everything for you if you want.”
“Perfect,” Monaavi answered with a smile.
Mom came to stand next to the bed on
Monaavi’s left and said, “I’ll help. Sean, you stand on the right and hold her
foot up.”
Dr. Simpson took a seat between Monaavi’s
legs and instructed her saying, “Now when the next contraction begins, I’ll say
push. Hold your legs behind your thighs. When you push, push for the count of
ten and relax. Sean, you count out the seconds for her. Coaches, while she’s pushing,
help her by holding her legs back. Ready?”
Monaavi nodded as she grimaced through a
contraction hooting air as she breathed. When the next contraction came, he
said, “Push!”
Mom and I pulled back on Monaavi’s feet,
her face wrenched up with exertion, eyes squeezed tightly shut as tears rolled
down her temples and she grunted out her push as I counted. This process of
pushing and relaxing went on for about twenty minutes. My stomach hurt so bad,
it felt like I was in labor with her. I was exhausted and I wanted to cry
thinking about what Monaavi was feeling: she probably felt a thousand times
worse!
I continued to wipe her face with a cloth
and give her ice chips in between contractions and my beautiful little wife
never cried once. She was in a zone and totally focused on delivering her
babies with a courage that made me feel like such a child for internally
complaining about my physical state.
After forty-five minutes of pushing, I saw
Monaavi’s vaginal opening begin to spread: first the size of a golf ball then
progressing to a tennis ball. After a few more contractions, I could see a
small black spot of wet, matted black hair appear then disappear as her
contraction receded.
About ten minutes later, I saw my
daughter’s head start to emerge. Her head came out face down and once her head
was out to the neck, Dr Simpson, working with calm lightning speed, stuck his
finger under her neck and pulled the cord out; unwrapping it from around her
neck. My God, the umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck!
He
then turned her face up and I could see her face scrunched up with her eyes
tightly closed in a grimace. He suctioned out her nose, mouth and throat. Then
as Monaavi’s contraction started again, he began to tilt her head downward as
her top shoulder emerged. Once out, he tilted her up as her lower shoulder
emerged. Once Cinny’s shoulders were out, he gently pulled her out to her hips.
She began crying to beat the band once her chest expanded to take her first
breath. When Dr. Simpson pulled her hips out, she kind of just squirted out
into his cradling arms kicking, flailing and crying loudly.
When Monaavi heard Cinny cry for the first
time she gave a loud panted laugh and said, “Praise God! I have brought forth
life!”
Everyone was crying and laughing at the
same time. I breathed in a huge breath of relief as he clamped off the cord.
Miko handed me a pair of scissors and said, “Here, Papa, cut the cord.”
With shaking hands, I cut the cord and now
my daughter was free. She squirmed, kicked and cried out at the top of her tiny
lungs as she was handed off to Miko and whisked to a warming table next to the
bed where she was given the Apgar test: nine at one minute and a ten after five
minutes I might add.
I wanted to desperately see her but Lizzy
was waiting to make her arrival.
Monaavi’s contractions began again and Dr. Simpson asked her, “Well, Mama, shall
we proceed and get her sister out?”
With renewed vigor at having delivered
Cinny, Monaavi smiled and hooted, “I’m ready!”
Dr, Simpson put his hand inside Monaavi and
said, “She’s breech: she’ll come out feet first.”
This was the reverse of Cinny’s. I saw her
tiny toes poke out and Dr. Simpson gently took both of her feet and gently
pulled. First her calves then her thighs appeared. He gently pulled again and
her hips emerged. Then slowly, Dr. Simpson began pulling little Liz out to her
armpits. With gentle firmness, he gave Lizzy’s legs another pull and she
squirted out with her hands above her head. It looked like she came out as if
watching a dive into the water in reverse. As he cradled her in his lap he
suctioned out her nose and mouth and she too began to scream bloody murder as
she kicked and squirmed. She too was handed off to another nurse to an awaiting
warmer. Her Apgar results were the same as Cinny’s.
When Monaavi heard Liz cry, she slumped
back on the bed sobbing in joy, exhausted from her ordeal. Mom and I put her
feet back down in the stirrups and heaved a sigh of relief, crying at the sound
of two screaming girls. I enfolded Monaavi’s face in my arms and kissed her
tenderly as we both cried at becoming new parents.
Miko brought Cinny over and placed her on
Monaavi’s chest. She was absolutely beautiful! She had a full head of
blue-black curly hair, huge dark brown eyes with Monaavi’s small ears. She had
Monaavi’s beauty mark in the same spot under her left ear. Her complexion was
just a tad darker than Monaavi’s from what I could tell because she was a light
pink, alert and looking around.
Dad had set the camera down and was now in
the sitting room crying in the chair. Monaavi pulled the top of her gown down
and put Cinny to breast and she immediately began to suckle.
Priya and Leeya came to stand next to the
bed crying and stroked Cinny’s body as she nursed. We giggled when the other
nurse brought Lizzy over and we laughed as Monaavi tried to reposition Cinny so
she could nurse both girls at the same time. After a few shuffles, both girls
were content and sucking languidly. Lizzy was identical to Cinny except her
birthmark was under her right ear. Miko commented, “They may be mirror twins.”
Monaavi asked puzzled, “What are mirror
twins?”
“They’re twins,” Miko explained, “that are
a mirror image of each other. Like with the birthmarks, one may be right-handed
while the other is left. When they’re older, if you set them facing each other,
they would be like a mirror reflection of the other.”
“At least,” Dr. Simpson commented with a
chuckle as she finished sewing a slight tear on Monaavi’s vaginal opening, “you
can immediately tell the two apart!”
After the dust settled, we learned the
girl’s statistics: Cinny was nine and seven-eighths inches long and weighed
five pound four ounces while Lizzy was ten inches exactly and weighed five
pounds six ounces being born nine minutes apart. Dr. Simpson said they’d keep
the girls in the hospital for about a week at the most and monitor them. Being
delivered at thirty-seven weeks, they were considered full term but they wanted
to observe their breathing, feeding and bowel movements before letting them go
home.
After nursing about ten minutes, both
babies were asleep and everyone took turns holding the tiny, miniature girls
and tenderly showering them with butterfly kisses. I silently cried as I held
Cinny in my arms. She was so very tiny she could practically fit in my one
hand. I watched her make funny faces as she slept, in awe at the miracle of
bringing this new life into the world was the most humbling of experiences.
Seeing this tiny child, her tiny fingers with fingernails no bigger than the “O”
on a computer screen made me realize then, there is a living God. Only God could fashion something this miraculous,
this beautiful with such perfection!
For some reason, Monaavi had a craving for
chocolate cake after her ordeal. Priya and Leeya went to the cafeteria to
oblige their sister’s craving. Mom was holding Monaavi thanking her for
bringing Cinny and Liz’s memory to life. It was a very moving and heartfelt
moment.
Dad was totally overcome with emotion
crying as we hugged. We kept the babies for about another hour taking turns
holding them before the nurses took them to the nursery for a bath and a
check-up. As they were wheeling Monaavi to her room with everyone in tow, Miko
said that once Monaavi was in her room and the girls were finished in the
nursery, they’d bring the babies back and they could remain with her in her
room.
It was now almost one am when Monaavi got
settled into her room. Although not wanting to leave, Mom and Dad told Priya
and Leeya that they should go and let Monaavi rest. With tearful goodnights,
everyone gave Monaavi their salaams and kisses goodnight and left.
The night nurse, Pamela, brought our
squeaky clean, pink little sleeping angels back about two am. She told us that
the girls might be able to go home in a couple of days and that they were doing
great. She asked me if I had car seats and I replied, “Oops, forgot all about
‘em. No I haven’t purchased them yet.”
“Well,” she informed us, “you’d better get
them because by law, we can’t let the babies leave unless you have an approved
car seat for each child and its installation has been checked and verified by a
nurse. Sorry but that’s the law.”
Looking at Monaavi I sighed and said, “I’m
sorry, Sweetheart, I forgot all about them.”
“That’s okay,” she encouraged, “just call
Mom in the morning and she can pick them up and bring them tomorrow when she
visits.”
I lay down on the sofa next to Monaavi’s
bed (I got kicked out of her bed by the nurse) as Monaavi and our daughters
slept and fell off to sleep exhausted.
At four that morning, Lizzy woke up crying,
demanding to be fed. Like peas in a pod, Cinny made her voice heard about a
minute later and Monaavi had one child at each breast sucking greedily.
About ten am, a lactation specialist came
in and instructed Monaavi on the finer points of breastfeeding while I went and
got some breakfast. I called Mom and she said she’d pick up the car seats
without any problem and that they’d be in later. We filled out all the forms
for the birth certificates and social security cards about eleven. We also
ordered the hospital photos of the girls.
Mom, Priya and Leeya arrived about noon,
just as they were bringing Monaavi’s lunch. I left the women to kibitz while I
took Mom’s car keys, retrieved the car seats from Mom’s car and transferred
them to mine. She’d bought each of them top of the line Eddie Bauer seats.
Returning to the room, Priya gave me a
change of clothes and a shaving bag. I went to the bathroom, cleaned myself up
with a shave, sponge bath and changed clothes.
Unless the babies were hungry, they slept
through everything! Priya, Leeya and Mom took turns holding, fondling and
toying with them as they slept and they just made faces.
Later that night, Monaavi developed a
slight fever, so she stayed in the hospital an additional two days. On the
third day, Dr. Simpson came in about nine am and said, “Well, the babies have
had their ear tests, physicals and Hepatitis vaccines and you can take them
home today. Make an appointment with your pediatrician and then I want to see
you in six weeks. Good luck with the twins: you’ll need it!”
He said goodbye and soon a nurse came in
with Monaavi’s discharge slip and instructions. I went and buckled the car
seats in the back seat and returned to the room. I called Mom and told her we’d
be home around eleven. We changed the girls’ diapers and as Monaavi got dressed
I dressed each of my little angels in pretty little frilly dresses with
matching booties Mom had brought and we were soon ready to go. We waited about
ten minutes for a nurse to escort us out: Monaavi in a wheelchair and me
pushing one of the bassinets with another nurse pushing the other.
The valet brought the car around and I gave
him a fifty. I started to pick up Cinny when the nurse stopped me and said,
“No, no. Not so fast, I’ve got to verify you’re the babies’ real parents
first.”
She checked the ankle bands on both girls,
checked Monaavi’s bracelet and finally mine saying, “Now you can put your daughters in the car.”
I took Cinny from her basinet, buckled her
in and checked the belt tightness: good – two fingers worth of slack. I next
did the same with Lizzy as the nurse checked everything with Cinny. After
getting the thumbs up from the nurse, she politely said good luck, goodbye and
left. I helped Monaavi into the car and we headed for home.
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The next two weeks were exhausting.
Sleepless nights and feedings, dirty diapers, dirty clothes, baths: all I
wanted to do was sleep! With Mom, Priya and Leeya helping it was still a chore taking care of twins: how
does one woman with a husband do it?
Leeya was the one that impressed me the
most. Single-handedly, she quietly took over almost total care of Tina without
a word. It was as if she just knew what had to be done and that Tina needed our
care also. I watched her as she cared for our older daughter and wept silently
with pride at Leeya’s innate ability to mother a child only a year and a half
younger than she. I also felt suddenly guilty by the fact that simply because
we now had two more children to care for, Tina needed me — us — just as much as
Cinny or Lizzy.
After about three weeks, the twins got into
a scheduled routine and slept at night from about eleven to four am: whew!
Monaavi just seemed to glow as she cradled one, sometimes both girls in her
arms. She began exercising and doing her Kegels, wanting to regain her
pre-pregnancy figure except now with a 34C bustline.
About two months after the twins were born,
Priya and I talked one evening and she suddenly started to cry. I asked her
what was wrong and at first, she wouldn’t say. Finally after some sweet
cajoling, I coaxed it out of her.
Priya started with, “I’m overjoyed by the
fact that we now have Cinny and Lizzy and that Monaavi’s dream of becoming a
mother has come true. It’s just that I’m a little sad that I couldn’t have
borne your first child.”
I felt crushed! In empathy I replied, “I
kind of had the same feeling when Monaavi got pregnant, but you told me that
was what you wanted. I acquiesced and did as you asked. Do you now regret it?”
“No,” Priya answered, “I truly believe that
we, including me, made the right decision. Will you love my brown baby as much
as you love Cinny and Lizzy?”
“Oh, Priya!” I sighed, “I fell in love with
your chocolate complexion and you’re my soul mate. I would love our child as
much as I love all my children: brown
or white! I’ve always dreamed of a tiny chocolate colored little girl just like
you.”
“Really?” Priya asked surprised.
“You really mean that?”
Kissing her I assured her, “With all my
heart!”
“What if it’s a boy?” she asked.
“He’ll be more handsome that Denzel
Washington.” I replied.
“(Sniffle) I love you, Sean!” my love said
sweetly, “Thank you. Now, I can wait in peace without worry. As soon as my
studies are finished, I want to get pregnant.”
“Whenever you’re ready, Sweetheart,” I
promised, “just say the word. In the meantime, we can have some fun
practicing.”
“Letch,” she giggled.
“Harlot,” I retorted.
After some necking and playful cuddling,
everything seemed back to normal.
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Monaavi stuck close to home because she had
become a walking human Guernsey cow. Besides feeding, she was also pumping and
if she didn’t express, she’d leak all down the front of her blouse. On one
particular night, she was crying in bed and Priya heard her. It was Leeya’s
night and Priya knocked on my door and asked me to come to Monaavi’s room.
Upon seeing Monaavi crying, I asked her
what was wrong. She said her breasts were engorged and the pain was almost
unbearable. I felt her breasts and they were as rock hard as an over
pressurized basketball and very hot to the touch.
She said that pumping doesn’t express milk
completely like a suckling baby and that with the babies just being fed an hour
ago, she wanted me to suckle and relieve her distress.
Priya and Leeya began to giggle when Mom
walked in and asked what was wrong. After the explanation, Mom quipped, “A
daddy’s job is never done. Help her out; it’s far better than changing a shitty
diaper.”
She turned with a chuckle and left. Priya
and Leeya stood with covered mouths giggling. Monaavi had a cute smirk on her
face and asked like a little girl, “Please?”
“Well,” Priya asked, “are you gonna do it
or not?”
“What,” I asked in return, “with an audience?”
“Oh,” Leeya quipped as she nudged Priya, “the
letch is shy. I’d let you suck my milk — if I had any (Giggle).”
“Me too,” Priya added.
Having the uncanny feeling this was going
to become a tradition I turned to look at Monaavi. She smiled coyly and pulled
the sheet down and exposed her red-hot melons.
Well, let me tell you; if you think getting
milk from a granite hard breast is easy, you’ve got another thing coming! I put
my mouth over her entire areola and began to lightly suck: nothing.
I sucked harder: still nothing.
I sucked in even harder…
“Ow!” Monaavi cried out as she pulled away,
“What are you trying to do, eat my nipple?”
“What?” I asked confused,
“You’re supposed to suck aren’t you?”
“No silly” Mommy instructed, “Geez, even a
newborn baby knows that. Gently put your lips around the areola and compress it
with your lips as you suck. Squeezing the areola, drawing it out and sucking at
the same time expresses the milk out. Now don’t be so rough, they’re tender.”
Putting my thumb in my mouth I playfully
said, “Yeth, Mommy.”
Monaavi cooed as she cupped her breast,
“That’s a good boy, come here and make Mommy feel better.”
I lowered my mouth to the task and did as
instructed. Surprisingly it worked but not much milk came out. It took me a
couple of minutes to get the technique and timing down but soon I was drinking
like a suckling pig but it was a lot of work. I had to stop several times
because my mouth was getting sore. Monaavi would squeeze her breast in
different spots to force the milk from the restricted milk ducts as I sucked
and her breast started to soften.
Leeya came over and said, “Let me try. What
does it taste like? I wanna taste.”
“No!” Monaavi shot back, “You’re not sucking my
breast! Are you crazy?”
“Why not?” Leeya asked. “I’m thirsty and
you said you’d be my mommy… Mommy.”
“Leeya,” Monaavi chided, “you’re not my
husband and you’re pushing the limits here a little, aren’t you?”
“Gosh,” Leeya said shyly, “all I wanted was
a taste.”
“Here,” Monaavi offered.
I released my mouth and Monaavi manually
squeezed out some onto her finger. She put it to Leeya’s mouth and Leeya sucked
in Monaavi’s finger, smacking her lips as she sampled.
Priya asked, “What’s it taste like, Leeya?”
“It’s sweet,” Leeya said with a smile. “Can
I have some more?”
“No you can’t have some more,” Monaavi
scolded “Oh alright, come here.”
Leeya thought Monaavi was going to offer
her her breast but as she leaned in, Monaavi said, “Open your mouth.”
“Leeya obeyed and Monaavi gave her squirt
right in the mouth and said, “There, that’s it!”
Leeya thanked her softly and said, “It
really is sweet.”
Priya wanted in the act and said, “My turn
please.”
Monaavi shook her head, sighed then said,
“Okay, here, just one taste.”
Priya sampled the fluid in her mouth and
blushed saying, “It is sweet; it tastes like a mother’s love.”
Monaavi blushed then recovering asked
jokingly, “Alright now, the breast milk tasting party is over. Now can I get
some relief in peace?”
Giggling, the girls left me to feast in peace.
I was put off by the idea when Monaavi first asked me to do this, but it
somehow made me feel closer to her. It ended up being a very moving experience
for me when I started on her other breast as she lovingly cradled my head in
her arms.
When I finished, I looked up at her and she
was crying. She smiled softly and
whispered, “I love you, Sean! With my whole heart and soul, I love you!”
I kissed her tenderly and softly replied,
“I’m so grateful you let me do this for you. Words cannot express what you mean
to me.”
“You didn’t say it with words,” she
answered sweetly, “I have two beautiful daughters to prove it. Now go, go to
Leeya and again, thank you.”
“My pleasure, Mommy,” I replied lovingly.
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We really wanted to stay for the holidays
but Monaavi was concerned for Attiya and wanted to return to India. When I
tried to get reservations for five, there weren’t any flights open until
January. Dad arranged for a charter jet and we readied to leave the first week
in November.
Mom and Dad said they’d fly over and spend
the holidays with us. Mom said, “There’s no way I’m missing my grandbabies first
Thanksgiving and Christmas: not on your life!”
On the third of November we took off,
flying back to India. We said our tearful goodbyes and Mom was tearfully
reluctant to let her little princesses go. As we lifted off into the clouds, I
remembered proposing to Monaavi on Thanksgiving night almost a year ago and was
silently amazed.
God, I thought to myself as I looked at my two
sleeping angels, The last time we were
flying back to India, Emmy was with us with a hope of marriage. This past year
I have endured the pain of her death… and God’s promised blessings of healing
with the miracle of life.