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 ï>¿Who's to blame Exhibitionism Entry by a Female We all know exibitionism
is basically illegal, yet we, or I, continue to expose ourselves.  I
continually question myself as to why I have the urge to be seen naked by
the opposite sex.  Yes, it greatly arouses me, but I know the things I do
are wrong.  I wonder where to lay the blame for my behaviour and think my
exposure to an exibitionist is the probable cause or at least an excuse. 
Perhaps my reasoning is a cop-out and I am only trying to blame another for
my fetish.  My mother was deeply involved in her families business Since my
parents breakup I rarely saw my father, mostly only at holidays and the
older I got the less frequent his visits became.  Eric was a long time
employee of the family business and eventually moved into our house.  I
thought at first it was only done for convenience at work but soon realized
he and my mother were lovers.  He was considerably younger than my mother
and the entire family had complete trust in him.  So much so that I was
alone with him most evenings long before my mother got home from work.  I
had no interest in the family business and had decided to become a teacher.
The weather was always mild where we lived and often very hot.  Eric was
always in shorts and rarely wore a shirt around the house.  The shorts he
wore were not underware but always a very thin material and it was obvious
he had no underware on.  I believe some of the shorts he wore, he had cut
out the lining of them.  The outline of his penis was prominent and I could
often see he had an erection.  If he stood near a light or where the sun
came through a window some of the shorts were almost transparent.  He is a
good looking man so I often took advantage of seeing him like that. 
Gradually he would expose himself to me by wearing an open robe or simply
let me see him with only a towel around him.  Since I never objected or
said anything to my mother about it he became more comfortable with
exposing himself to me.  The bedroom door was open most of the time, enough
for me to see in his room.  He would be naked in bed and although he wanted
me to think he was sleeping I knew from the start he was not at all asleep.
Just by his movements and the ways he positioned himself I knew his only
objective was to expose himself.  He knew I had friends over often and they
also saw him like that and at times I would just look at him for a long
period of time and allow my friends to see him.  It was a big joke with us
and at times they asked to see him again.  We often talked about him and
the opinion was that he didn't have a very large penis but we all liked
watching him get an erection.  We were all convinced he knew we were
looking at him and if he were truly asleep why would he get hard like he
did most of the time.  He never did masturbate in front of any of my
girlfriends but he did quite a few times when I was looking in at him.  If
my mother was at home he never did any of this and never wore the thin
shorts.  Now my admission, I enjoyed lookng at him especially when he was
naked.  I often wore my bikini in front of him and knew he was admiring my
body.  It was exciting to me when I knew or could see he had an erection.
It was so obvious when he had the thin shorts on and I would look to see if
I made him hard.  More and more I would wear revealing outfits and often
wore no bra and panties.  There where never any remarks made by either of
us about our dress or lack of it.  I dressed normal if any of my girfriends
were at the house and never let any of them know what I myself was doing. I
don't know in the past if he ever saw me naked and only remember a few
times when he saw me in underware.  Like Eric I began leaving my bedroom
door open somewhat and allowed him to see me naked more often as time went
by.  I began to understand how he must have reacted when I saw him naked
and would get wet just knowing he saw me that way.  There were times I
would walk out of the bathroom naked knowing he was nearby and simply tell
him I didn't know he was home, never apoligizing or offering an excuse for
being naked.  We just didn't talk about it and never was anything said to
my mother.  This went on for several years and when I moved out on my own
longed for an audience or a way to expose myself to other males.  The first
apartment I moved into was worthless as far as being able to be seen naked.
By this time I was teaching 3rd grade and started hunting for a new
apartment where I could expose myself on a regular basis.  I saw an add for
a rooming house that was for sale.  It had seven bedrooms and did need some
major renovations but was relatively cheap for the size of it.  My mother
was reluctant at first but lent me the money to buy it and repair it. 
There were only three men living there at the time and all were older
retired men.  The kitchen is huge and all tenants have use of it and the
living room.  I now have six men living in the house and am continually
exposing myself to them.  Only two are under 60 years old but it is a dream
come true for me.  They have all seen me naked many times and I wear as
little as possible when around them.  Some have made remarks to me but I
just smile and try to act like its there fault they saw me naked which I'm
sure they know it isn't.  My mother is leery that I live with these men but
I always assure her they are old men and harmless, which they are.  She
certainly has no inclination as to what my intentions are and thinks I did
it as an investment.  I purposely chose the bedroom at the top of the
stairs on the second floor.  All but one of them has to pass my room to go
to their rooms.  My door is ajar most of the time and I sleep naked all the
time.  I strategically placed a small mirror on my night table to observe
them looking at me.  I'm sure many times I am truly asleep when they look
in but often pose myself while wide awake anticipating thier arrival at my
door.  Three of the men have become my favorites and seem to be the most
anxious to see me like that.  They have all become voyeurs to an extent and
none seem to hesitate to take advantage of seeing me naked.  I love having
their eyes on me and never discourage or complain if they have friends come
over.  The oldest man asked me if I knowingly was exposing myself but I
just told him I was careless and wasn't embarrassed about my body.  I
denied being an exibitionist but I don't think he believed me.  The other
men have all said something on different occassions about how I was dressed
or how they saw me naked.  When they do make remarks I simply laugh it off
or tell them they are exaggerating what they saw and sometimes say I don't
believe them or they are only kidding me.  I'm sure by now they all know I
do these things intentionally but none have ever complained or admonished
me about it.  I seldom masturbate when one or more are watching me but
sometimes can't help myself.  I still sometimes feel embarrassed afterwards
when I know one of them saw me satisfying myself particularly when I use a
vibrator.  The amazing thing is that none of them have ever really hit on
me or tried to have sex with me.  They all know and have met my boyfriend
so perhaps that is the reason.  My boyfriend has stayed a few nights but I
normally stay at his apartment when we have sex.  I only see him twice a
week and know he is unaware of what goes on between me and my tenants.  I
have had the house for over three years now and only one of them has moved
out.  The vacant room was rented within a week by another man who was a
friend of his.  I'm sure the other guy told him about me because when he
first came he was more than anxious to move in.  Within the first week I
know he saw me naked twice and many times since.  As much as I know what
I'm doing is wrong, the excitement and arousal makes me continue doing it.
I felt guilty sometimes when I have met some of their family members.  I
have have met some of their children and grandchildren over the years but
also know these men don't tell them about me exposing myself like I do. 
When I go to work and am in my classroom I am always modestly dressed. 
Many of the other teachers think I am quite prudish and have no conception
of what I do at home or for that matter would ever think me capable of
exposing myself the way I do.  In my own mind I sometimes blame Eric for
what I have become but know it is, in reality, my own doing.  He might have
egged me on at the beginning by exposing himself but I took full advantage
of the situation at the time.  I never expose myself outside of the house
but have no need to as others may have.  I am satisfied by the frequency I
am seen naked by my tenants.  It is only a bonus when some of their friends
also see me naked.  I masturbate often but when I do its usually done with
my door closed.  Recently I have begun letting some of them watch me more
often and have found it is becoming more arousing each time and also less
embarrassing.  Its seems I now have multiple orgasms if I know one of them
are watching me.  With as many times as they have all seen me naked it
suprises me that I still feel humilated at times after I climax several
times.  I can't help but moan and think the sounds I make are more
embarrassing than the fact that they are watching me and can clearly see me
naked.  I always have the radio or tv on quite loud but still know they can
hear me as I orgasm.  I'm not embarrassed at all when I make these sounds
with my boyfriend but for some reason I am when the men are watching me. 
As much as I try not to moan I always do as I orgasm.  Through the small
mirror I can see them and appreciate the expressions they make.  They seem
to like it when I moan and groan but for some reason I find it humiliating
when I do.  It doesn't deter me from masturbating and I am a little more at
ease each time.  They still at times make comments about my nudity but none
has ever mentioned masturbation to me or that they had seen me doing it. 
None of them has ever exposed themselves to me but I have seen several of
them in their underware.  My main focus is for them to see me naked which
is very easily done.  They are all willing participants as are all of their
friends and I have no fear of getting into trouble for what I am doing. 
Aside from satisfying my exibitionism it has also become a profitable
situation.  They each pay me $420.00 per month, supply their own food and
pay a portion of the utility bills.  My mother thinks I have become a
business woman and now considers the house a good investment.  It is, but
my fetish to expose myself is also taken care of and I'm am positive the
men like living here.  I get along well with all of them even though I am
many years younger.  Some of them even prepare meals for me at times and
all but two are retired now.  They obviously like what they see on a
regular basis and I am glad to accomadate them.  My boyfriend has asked me
to move in with him many times but I always refuse.  I just tell him I have
to take care of the house since he is unaware of my nudity and masturbation
around the men.  We have no intention of marriage at this time and I enjoy
my life to well to change things as they are.