Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience.
 
 Racial Note: She's a victim, of culture, upbringing, and ignorant.  No
excuse, there aint no excuse for raping children, but you'll have to
forgive her language.  It gets progressively worse as she regresses, and
neglects her school work...

   Trigger Warnings: Nepiophilia, Child Rape, Incest, Precocious Pregnancy,
Racism, and quite a few that there aren't words for.  This is progressively
sick, know when to stop reading.

   Baby Boy

   I don't know why, I just fall in love, and it sick.  I know that, he was
just a baby, but I can't help how I feel.

   I guess I should start at the beginning, were poor.  I was young, and
ignorant, it was a conservative state, it still is, and the entire country
seems to be going that way now, but I didn't have no sex education.  I did
have a little experience, not sex experience, just babysitting my little
sister.  I learn to feed her a bottle, and change her, when there babys
that pretty much it, but momma had to work, and so did I, if I wanted any
money.  We didn't get no allowance, we didn't even get lunch money, just
the free lunch at school.

   So, my mama got me a job, with another mother she work with, and they
live over by my school.  So, I can walk, and do my homework, then mama pick
me up after work.  I had to make sure I stay out of detention, or they
won't have no sitter, and I get fired.  So, I was good in school, and watch
him till he mama get off work.  They poor to, so she had to work to make
ends meet, but younger, he was they first.

   My first to.  I never seen a boy, naked before.  A real one, I mean I
seen pictures, but then I had to change him, and, I never seen one.  A real
one, right in front of me like that.  It look funny, but cute, and I touch
it, but I had to touch it, he wet and you got to wash the piss off to put a
clean pamper on him.  But then I play with it, knowing it was wrong, but it
was funny, and he like it.  He giggle, he aint get hard or nothing on it,
but.

   I shouldn't never have played with it.  I know that.  It was different,
not like the pictures, some boy showed me.  He can't draw a pussy or titty
neither, but I guess he flirting.  Baby, Bobby.  I call him Bobby, because
I ashamed to admit, I started molesting him, and I don't stop.  Even when I
stop working for them, I kept playing with him.  Like a friend, but the
secret was, he was my boyfriend.  My first boyfriend, he was a baby when I
started, and I made him do it.

   I like he balls first.  He white, so you can see it all better, but that
the first thing I like.  The first time I change him, he was wet, and I
wipe him, but there they was.  Just in he skin like that, and I touch them
first.  He giggle, I ain't hurt him, but that don't make it all right.  I
felt them in there, but really it was he skin, and especially the line.  He
had a line, down the middle, look like a scar, but he aint even circumcise.
Ask me why he have a scar, but it go all the way up he dick, and all the
way down to he butthole.

   So, I felt that, and he start giggling, I guess it tickle, but I just
felt on that, line, and then he shit.  So, I had to clean that up, and put
a fresh pamper on him, and feed him a bottle so he go to sleep.  So, I can
do my homework, but I kept thinking on that.  The skin on he balls, and the
line, and he cute little dick.  It tiny, he a baby, and I shouldn't never
touch him like that, but I got up, and did it again.  He sleeping, so he
don't mind, but I touch him, and then he get hard.  It taste nasty, from
that wipe, but I sucked it in, and it got wet, so I just play with that,
and pull on it till he wake up.

   I think he get off.  He wiggle a lot, and it go soft, but he look up at
me, and he mouth go real wide like a O but he just giggle, and smile.  I
jerk him off, before I ever even play with myself, but I fix him up, and he
go back to sleep.  So I did.  Aint supposed to do that, neither, but after
I molest a baby.  Well, I know it sick, and I got all excited, and it feel
good.  I don't get off, then, but I keep at it till he daddy get home.

   It just a couple hours.  He mama get off baby leave, and work part time,
but every day, just 4 hour.  He daddy work till 5, and stop by Bojangles
for dinner.  Then he mama come home, but it $10.00.  $50.00 a week for a
couple hour after school.  She ask me, how it go, and I lie.  I know, I
shouldn't, never touch him like that, and play with myself, but I go home,
and keep on it.  Thinking on him, and going back after school, and doing it
again.

   I knowed I do it again, and again, cause I wanted.  As much as I can,
and I did get off.  It took forever, but I kept working it, till I did, and
fall out, asleep.  I think I dream of him, or molesting him, I don't
remember, but I did a lot.  I just aint sure if I done that first night,
that first time, but I bet I did.  I did a lot, after that.

   It easy on him, I can see it, and you know.  When he get hard, you just
do it.  Pull the skin up and down till he giggle and get soft.  When he
sleeping, he get hard when he sleeping, and sometimes when I change him,
but always when he a sleep.  So, I do that, give him a bottle so he sleep,
and wipe him with a wash cloth.  I learned that, the wipes, they taste
nasty, so I use water, and suck on him.  And lick he balls, I love them,
even better, but he a boy.  So I suck him off to, so he like it.

   He don't cum.  I don't even know about cum, I thought that nasty boy was
drawing piss, but I don't like him.  He nasty.  I nasty too, but I don't
like him, I love Bobby.  He keep trying, draw nasty picture in class, and
show me, I guess he flirting.  I got Bobby, and I love him.  I try sucking
on my finger but it ain't the same.  It got my finger wet, so that felt
better.  So I keep working it, and suck a finger, then switch when it dried
out so I can keep working it till I fall out, asleep.

   Thinking on him, he privates, especially the skin on his balls, and the
line on it.  Like a scar, that my favorite part, and I think on it, working
my finger.  Then I go to school, and forget about it.  Till I get done, and
the bell ring.  That boy, drawed another picture, then I remember, and
think on it all day.  Better if I forget it, and think on school work, but
then he remind me.  Then I get to go to he trailer, and check he pamper
first thing.  He shitty, but I clean that up, and play with it.

   And a bottle, so he fall out, and get hard, and we can try sex.  That's
what I thought on, like my finger, but I didn't know.  How you supposed to
do it, or that there a hole, just for peeing out of, and the thing I can
work.  With a wet finger, so I suck him to get wet, and lay him down on me.
He aint work it, but I feel it.  Not sex.  Love.  It felt like when my
mama, or my daddy hug me, only it him, and he privates on my privates.

   Then he pee on me, so I had to get up, and clean it off.  But when I put
him down for he nap, I think on that, and work it.  Real fast, and it don't
take long.  I don't fall out, I just feel it, and take a cigarette butt
from they ask tray and try smoking it.  I never done it before, but I heard
you smoke after sex, and I just had sex.  Or I thought I did.  Then he
shit, so I cleaned it, and molest him again, and work it again when he fall
out on the bottle.

   Like shampoo, say rinse repeat?  For white people, you can't wash my
hair every day, it ain't good for it, much less over and over like that,
but I guess white people do.  They hair ain't like that.  I don't count,
but I have a couple hours, and make love, over and over till he daddy get
home.  I think he brought burgers that day, it all run together, day after
day like that, molesting him, and working it, and molesting him again, and
smoking butts.  Then my mama drop off he mama, and take me home, I do my
homework, but I satisfied.  I miss him, and I don't want it to end, but I
can think on my homework, then get off, and sleep, dreaming about him.  The
next day I can be with him.

   That other boy, Pedro.  He Mexican, but he drawed another picture, and
you know.  He a boy, not a baby, and he knowed about sex.  I thought on it,
and Bobby can't.  Really have sex, I love him, but he a baby, and Pedro
like me.  So, I figure, I do him, and he knowed how to have sex.  For real.
So, on lunch I ask him, if he drawed another picture.  He alway show me it
after lunch, so I caught him, drawing on lunch.  It ain't finish, but he
drawed hair on it, on the dick, and the pussy.

   So, I talk to him, he can talk to.  First I ask him, "You drawing
another nasty picture?"

   He showed me, and ask "You like it?" I nodded, like a lie, but.

   I ask him "Where you seen that?"

   So, he say "Porn."

   "What that?"

   "Dirty pictures, me Padre look at." Me Padre is Spanish for my daddy.

   So I say "Sex." I know what that is.

   He say, "Mi Padre look at it, and beat off, so I look at it, and do it
to."

   So, I ask if "Thats why you draw them."

   He say "I no have porn, so I make it."

   "To beat off with?" He nodded, so I ask him where he beat off.  He say
"The Banyo." I don't know that, so he show me.  That mean the boys room.

   I ain't supposed to go in there, but then I ain't supposed to molest a
baby, and we aint supposed to masturbate.  We didn't, we had sex.  In the
boys room, or Banyo, but the little one by the playground and the
kindergarden classes.  He show me, on account of he can't draw it, but he
knowed from looking at he daddy porn.

   That's how I learn, the dick go in your pussy.  I got a hole, but it
ain't just to pee out of.  He don't know that where a baby come out of, but
he know that where a dick go in.  First, I pull down he pants, and he
already hard.  He can stand up, and don't need no bottle to fall out, and
get hard.  He don't wear no diaper, and he can pull the skin off the end.
So I can suck it, and I like that.

   So, I suck him off, and feel on he balls, and lick them up when the spit
run down, and suck he dick again till he get off on it.  Then he my
boyfriend, he stop drawing porn on lunch so after that I can just forget
and think on my school work.  Then I went to be with Bobby, and I love him,
but he a baby.  He can't do it, but now I know how to do it, and tried it
when he get hard.  All the ways I can think, first laying down on me, but
then I can't get it in.  I didn't fuck Pedro, I just suck him off, but he
shooting blanks.  I don't want him the first time, he all right, but I
don't love him.

   I love Bobby, so I save it for him.  Then I try to sit on him.  Well, I
squat, cause he little, and I can hurt him, but I hold it up, and I get it
in.  He wake up, trying to get it in laying on me, and lost it.  So, I give
him a bottle, and work it out.  Let him shit and piss, and molest him with
a bottle so he can fall out, and get it up again.  Then I sit on it, and I
get it in, but he waked up before either of us get off.  But we did it, we
kind of had sex.  That was my first time, doing it for real, but we can't
fuck.  It just fall out if I try, but I can feel it.

   Inside me, but it even better when he sleep on me.  Just holding him
asleep on me, and I do that, cause it easy.  Easier then sex for real, but
we did it.  He just too little.  But then I can do Pedro, on lunch, I just
wanted to do Bobby first.  I just molest him, and work it off, and fuck my
finger to get ready.  I scratched it, so I do my nails, and smoke a butt.
So I can finger fuck, and I'm ready for Pedro.

   Tomorrow, then he daddy bring dinner, and mama drop off he mama so I can
go home, and do my home work.  Then I drawed it, the way I wanted it. 
He'll learn, I only knowed him 3 days, but I love him.  It just take
forever for him to grow, but when I finish, I turn out the light, and suck
my fingers to fuck, and work it till I fall out.

   The next day, Pedro show me oral sex.  On me, I heard of a blow job, and
done it, but we don't waste time.  We go right to the Kindergarden banyo,
and I suck him off.  They on recess, when we on lunch, and they got a
little potty in there with the big toilet.  Then he pull down my pants, and
lick me good.  I push he head off, and show him.  With my finger, and he
lick that to work it off.

   So yeah, we do that, instead of fuck, but then he want to do it for
real, but he can't get it up.  Then I we go back to class, and I think on
school work.  After school, he want to hang out, but I say "I got to work."
I mean I want to be with Bobby, I love him.  Even if he to little to fuck,
it aint about that, but I got Pedro for sex, and Bobby to love.

   I showed him oral sex, and that is the best sex ever!  I'm sad that
Pedro got me off first, but he had to show me it.  Maybe I think on it,
eventually, but that got it over with, and Bobby.  "Oh, Bobby!" He don't
lick it.  He suck on it, like a dick, or a bottle.  Suck me right off, I
just didn't think he could suck me off, like I suck him off.  Stupid,
really.  Ignorant.  But then we learned it, and thats all right.

   I mean, it's wrong, I know that.  I shouldn't ever even touched him,
just wash him, and change him, and do my homework.  But now, we can make
love.  Tomorrow, I can fuck Pedro, because he can fuck.  For real, but I
don't love him.  He think he my boyfriend, but.  I tell Bobby about him. 
He don't mind, but I had to, tell him the truth.  Then we make love again,
he suck me off, and fall a sleep, so I can suck him off, again, and again
till he daddy get home.

   I do my homework, and draw some more until bed.  Only instead of a new
picture, like Pedro, I work on the 1 picture, with a erasor until it cut
through the paper with the pencil.  So, I start over, but I just need 1. 
Me and Bobby, only this time oral sex, since we can't do it for real yet.
He'll learn, but I can practice with Pedro till then, and get real good at
it, for Bobby.  I just know he'll love it.  I need to get a red pen, for
the hearts, but I got a blue one for the lines, when I get thm just right.

   Then, I fuck my fingers, and fall out, to dream of Bobby.

   I love him, so much.

   ;

   Cuckhold (fBb Note, that's a "Big' boy, somewhere about her age, and a
baby.  All the cuckhold fantasy in her head, and she don't know the word
for it yet.  Also, Pros Fant.)

   I told Pedro in the morning he can fuck me, for real, but I felt he
nails.  So, "I change my mine, you got to do your nails first, so after
school." I thought on it, and he can come over, to the trailer, and show
Bobby how to do it.  He just don't know how, then he can go and we can make
live.  For real, the first time for real with the one I love.  It took me a
while to learn, and he a baby, but I know he can make me so happy when he
know how.  Pedro know how, so I get him to show him, but he told me, he got
to break it.  "A la verga." For the dick, but he nails to long, and I don't
got what I need to cut them here.  Bobby mama do, but I ain't pay attention
to my school work all day.

   To busy thinking on it.  Sex, all I want is sex no more, and you know
what?  I can be a whore.  They make bank, and all they got to do is fuck,
don't need all this learning for that.  Just math, I can count, and add,
and do fractions, but money.  That's just like Decimals.  Decimals easy,
you just got to know where to put the point.  It's like metric, don't got
to member it's 12 inches, and 16 ounce, just count to ten.  10 cents, 10
bucks, 10 what's them.  Millimeters is a Centimeter.  Right.  Okay, I still
got to member what all them measures is.  Why they call it metric, I guess,
on account that mean measure.  That what teacher say.  I hate fractions,
they stupid.

   All I got to do is fuck, and count my money, right?  I ain't getting
into college.  Not baby sitting, $50.  I don't know how much college is,
but I got a feeling if you do do the math, it ain't gonna add up.  Even
stripper gotta dance, but I learnin, how to fuck.  That and money, pretty
much it.  I'm 8, so, you got to be 18 to be a whore?  Count to 10, I got 10
year to learn to fuck, so I be the best whore there is, and make bank. 
They sure aint linin up to give me no scholarship.

   Then, we go on lunch, and sneak away from class to go to the
Kindergarden bathroom, but they somebody in there, and the teacher come out
with a little kid, and we ain't supposed to be there.  So we run out by the
playground, and I suck him off by the fence.  He say "Uh," and chuck his
head at the kids.  I say "Don't pay no mine, they don't know what I doing,
but he can't get it up, so I got to suck it hard, and the bell ring before
he get off.

   I need a better place to work.  My daddy, he call my mama a whore. 
Sometime, but she aint.  If she was, she make bank and I won't have to
work, but then I never met Bobby.  She never even met he mama, they work
together.  Sides, he call her bitch to, and she look like a dog?  No sir,
but aint nothing wrong with that.  I wonder if Pedro got any money, or he
can get it?  I don't know, my daddy say the $50 from my first week sure
help, and we go out to eat.  He need it, what I gonna spend money on
anyway?

   I didn't have to tell him I change my mine, on account of the teacher
fuck it up any way, but he late.  He had to beat it in the banyo, and told
the teacher he just use it, when the bell ring.  No he aint, he getting a
blojob, but in front of all them kids, he a shamed.  I aint think, that be
a problem with Bobby, but it is.

   I took him to the trailer, and told him to come back when he mama leave.
he just hang out in the trailer park, but I check he pampas, and change
him, and give him a bottle when he knock.  I told him "Memeber I told you
about Pedro?  Yeh, he come over, so you meet him, and he show you, how to
fuck that.  You like that?  Yeah, you gonna love it, and make me so happy,
yeah." Soft while he drink he bottle, and fall out.  So I can put him up,
and go out.  He sawed me, and I hold the door so he aint got to knock.

   "Get on the couch."

   "Uh," he look at Bobby, "He sleeping, and I got to watch him.  You want
to fuck, or not?" So, "Gimme yo hand." I do he nail first, but just one. 
It just take one, but I hope he know what he doing.  I feel it, suck on it,
and pull off my drawers.  He broke it.  "Ow!" It hurt!  Then he lick it
real good to get it wet, and I suck him to get it wet, and he drop he pants
to get on me.  On the couch, I just lay out, and hold my legs up.  "No,
don't look at him," he watching, but ain't fuss or nothing.  "Watch what
you doing!"

   I slap he hand away, on account of he keep missing, and bumping around,
then I pinch it with my fingers.  "Here.  Nh!" I blink.  "Nah, jus, nh! 
Hold up.  A minute." It still hurt, a little.  Relax, it all right, I just
a virgin, and it hurt a little to start.  "All right." He can't fuck, much.
He little, but fat?  He got a fat dick, but it's like, 5, maybe 6
centimeter.  So, he just shake it in there, really.  Not in and out too
much, but he slip out anyway, so i get up, and bend over on the couch. 
"Try it this way." I got to feel up, under me.  "Give me it," I wave my
fingers where he can see them, so I can feel it, and push it up on my hole,
and he can fuck me like that.  Doggy style, I guess.  or like a bitch, but
mens, they call womens bitches, they don't mean nothing by it.

   I a child molesta, and I'm gonna be a whore, and now I got Pedro, tryna
fuck.  "Ha!" I mean, "Yeah." You see this?  Look Bobby, this is how you
fuck me.  "Yeah." Like a spanking, it don't hurt my ass.  I kinda like it,
the shake I get from he slappin me with his belly, but I got to get way
down.  Off the couch, so he can stick it in all the way, and put my hands
on the floor.  "Yeah." That works, he hold on my back, and really start
wailing away on my ass.  "Nh!  Yeah!" It still hurt, but it feel good too.
Better and better till I don't care about the cut, and I close, but he
stop. "Why you stop for."

   "Ngh!" He fall out.

   "Fuck," I got to get up on the couch again, but he pull he pants up.  I
got to finish with my fingers, but he left.

   I guess he got he nut.  And I got to work it up again, but Bobby.  He
get up, so I get he pamper off.  He still can't do it, he too little, and
that, hanging off the couch, way?  I ain't even trying that, but I think,
if I hang off.  Like I did the first time he put it in.  Maybe I can feel
up around my butt, and pinch it, and get him in.

   "Ngh!" He don't hurt.  "Nh!" There.  That it.  "Hm." He just hold it,
in, and fall asleep.

   That's all right.  He can suck me off later, I'm just happy.  To be with
him, in side me.  He don't got to fuck me, till he big enough.  I love him,
and I got Pedro to fuck.  He all right, but, I don't love him, and he get
off early.  My Bobby, he never do that to me.  I bet.  I even took a little
nap, like that, but he pissed all over me.  Not in me, good cause I still
hurt, and I didn't want it to get infected.  So I had to get up, and put a
pamper on him.  "Huh!" And clean up the piss.

   Then he hungry, but he suck me off first.  Then I give him a bottle, so
he take a nap...

   Prostitot

   The next day, Carlos had he arm around a girl, talking Spanish, and
kissing her.  I ask him in class, but he say they go out, now.  He gonna
fuck her, and marry her.  I ain't even mad, he all right, but he call her
"Mama Seeta." So, I call her "Seeta, cause she aint a mam yet.  I got him
first, he aint a virgin no more, and I aint even get nothing out of it but
sore.  It still hurt, I had to show my mama.  She say Ima start being a
lady now, growin up, and she give me a tampon.  For the blood, but I guess
it take forever.  Cause I don't feel no different.  My body, but she told
me, where baby come from.  Make sense, I don't want Pedro baby, but he doed
it, so.  I guess that all right, but I hope he a boy.  I marry Bobby
instead, ain't like you can tell, a half Mexican baby look just like a half
white baby, I guess.  Can't see through the black.

   But then I thought on it, on account of.  Well, I call him Bluto.  He
make fun of Pedro, he jealous, cause he ain't a virgin, and he got a
girlfriend, but he aint got no lunch money to give.  Brown bag, burritos
mostly.  I just eat lunch, I got a card they punch in the lunch room, for
free lunch.

   But that got me thinking, he fat.  And 6 grade, and beat up kids for
money.  Which means he got money.  I need practice anyway, so I stop him on
the playground.  "Hey Bluto." All the kids call him that, cause of that
Popeye comic in the sunday paper.  He fat, he a bully, and he don't eat
spinach.  "How much money you got today?"

   "Why?" He frownded.

   "Whatchu gonna spend it on, more fat?"

   "Your fat!"

   "No, Ima ho." Just like that.  "You a virgin?"

   "No?" I bet.  He a lie.  Fatass aint never gonna get laid with an
attitude like that.  Less he pay for it.

   "What'sa ho."

   "A whore, prostitute?  Sex fo money, you got 5 bucks?" Over by the door
to the kindergarden.  "Come on, I suck yo dick, fo 5 bucks."

   "Okay." Ain't nobody in there, I knock,

   "Pay up first." Singles, I stuck them in my pocket.  Maybe if he spend
it on me, he even lose wait?  $5.00 an hour for baby sitting, but that a
front.  I take he money, but just to be with Bobby.  He nasty, and hairy,
and fat, but $5.00.  It don't take no hour.

   "Slp slp slp slp slp!"

   "Uh!"

   "Ugh!" Spit.  "Done mess up my hair!" My mama just done it, it still
hurt, and if she got to do it again today, she tear me up.  They got toilet
paper to wipe he mess off my cheek.

   "Thanks," he pull up he pants.

   "You think you can get a fity?"

   "Fifty bucks?  What for?"

   "You want to get layed, for real?"

   "You mean, sex?"

   "Yeah, fuck.  Fity bucks to fuck."

   He grinned, "I don't know."

   "Well, you can make $5.00 a day, right?  5 days, that 2 weeks." I
thought on it.  "So," pat his belly, "Lose a little weight, and save up." I
look out the door, "See you in 2 weeks."

   I'ma get Bobby something nice.

   ;

   {This is a bit of a transition, so let me say that there is no way of
telling how much this happens.  Not the prostitution, it aint about that,
but she is a Nepiophile.  That's what it's about for her, Bobby, then
whatever Baby boys she can get her hands on when he grows out of it.  Call
it maternal instinct gone wrong, or whatever, making bank is just a means
to an end.

   However, one of the things about a victim that can't say no is they also
don't report it.  I'm flashing back a little here to my first time, which
was a black family that lived in the house next door.  They had 3 kids (2
girls and a boy) we had 3 kids (A brother and sister.) so we played
sexually, and there was no infants involved.  Thank god, it was just age
appropriate sexual play, I had to be about 7, because Star Wars (One of the
original trilogy) was still out in the dollar theaters.

   It happens, people don't want to talk about it, and because they don't,
worse things can happen.  Like a pre-adolescent molesting, and raping a
little boy when he's still in diapers.  Again, he can't consent, has no
idea what's going on, and is powerless to stop it.  About the only thing
"Lucky" about it is he got a Nepiophile, so she fantasizes "Love," and
rapes him gently, instead of sadistically.  It can be much worse than that,
if you don't believe me, I wrote it, or just type Nepi in the search
fields. See what pops up.

   Doesn't make it right.  Just getting that out of the way before I go
on...  Also, M.I.A - Paper Planes.}

   ;

   Tod (gb Poty Free Nepi Roma Fant)

   I potty train him, for free.  It aint about the money, I do it for love.
I get a raise, $10.00 a hour, and my daddy say that help.  It aint about
him either, it a front.

   I make my money for him.  My secret lover, Tod.  He white, and he can
say "Wuv" now, but I save them money to.  First on wipes, just rinse out a
washcloth, and thow it in the laundry.  Then on Luvs, but that aint about
the money, neither.  This America, nothing free, so it alway there.  I do
it cause pampas is nasty.  He wet them, so I got to wash him off to suck
it. Shit he self so I got to wipe he butt.  I ain't got time for that, just
2 hour, and aint even every day, so I show him first.

   He stand up, now.  He growing, and our love just grow with him.  He can
do it, me now.  He even beat off, I seen him when I get him naked, in the
bath room, but he get hard, and beat it, watching me pee.  "Now you." I got
to hold him up, to pee.  I teach him a new word, "Poddy," he aint good with
Ts yet, but he can say, when he ready, and hold it for me to take him in
the bathroom.

   "Good boy!" He get hard, so I take him in the bedroom, to give him he
reward.  He still can't fuck me, but boys my age, they can't neither.  Even
that 6 grader, he make $50.00 a weak strong arm.  Mugging for lunch money
to fuck me, but he can't.  Just put it in, and let me go t'work on it.  As
long as he pay, he think he my boyfriend, but I just need the muscle.  Like
a pimp, but I don't need no pimp.  He don't get he cut, he pay me, I make
bank, but nobody else fuck with me at school.

   "I wuv wu." That's it.  Right there, that what it all about.  He can say
he loves me, and it all worth it.  I'ma marry him, and have he babies. 
That what I want, I got lucky wit Carlos, and fatass.  I aint get my period
for real.  I gave it up, and told my mama that it.  So, she give me Tampon,
but it heal.  I aint a virgin, I'm a whore.  Get that out the way so I can
make bank.  Save up for Bobby, to get maryed.  Kids ispensive.

   That what it about.

   So anyway, after that, he shit he self, so I clean he up, and show him.
He say "PoddyP, and Poddy Poo." Tell me if I hold him up, or down, to piss,
or shit in the toilet.  Save them money on a potty too, nothing but toilet
paper, and bank.  More for me, less wiping when he done.

   I figure out why it call Baby Sitting.  Still done know why it
Kidnapping, but the best way is to sit on it.  That way I can hold it, and
do all the work.  He just giggle till he get off.  I know cause he go soft,
and fall out.  Boys, they nut and fall out.  My muscle, he don't nut in
there, he just fall out when he try to fuck.  So, he just let me work it,
then I got to suck him off.  To get payed, then wipe it real good while he
clean it off he belly, and go out.  See if the ghost is clear, so I can
leave to.

   The Kindergarden boys room is private, but you never know when they
gonna come back.  Some boy got to go poddy, or have a accident, they took
them in the girls room, so we can sneak out, but I find a better place, for
it blow up.  They got a palm bush.  Like a palm tree, but a baby.  They got
trees to, like the beach, on the island.  I aint saying what island, but
call that the baby bush.

   School yard, aint no secrets.  I aint say nothing, and my Muscle say he
aint to, but somebody did.  Just kids thow.  No teacher, so I catch them.
Playing, pissin, and tryna fuck.  I tell them, go piss back there, in the
back.  It like a tent, you can look out, like window shades, but they can't
see in.  It stink, but in back, so the sand in front clean.  He lay down
anyway, so I can go t'work.

   He like my ass, and I like to shake it.  On him, I learn.  Thats why
they dance like that, shake it, like fucking.  Work it, and he got a belly.
So, I can work it hard, and shake him to.  Aint got enough to fuck it,
really.  Just shake it.  But i can work mines too, between he legs, and if
that don't do it, I suck him off, and work it when he left.

   Friday, payday, so I got money on the weekend.  I get a box.  A lock box
with a combination.  A safe, I aint saying where I hide it, or what's the
numbers, but I make bank.  Got to keep it somewhere, but I moved it over 1
place.

   Tens, then hundreds.  $100.00 That take a month, so 10 more months for a
grand.  A grand a year, I got ten more, so by the time I'm ready.  To move
up, I get $10,000.00.  That my goal, spend the rest.  Got to spend money to
make money, but you fuck with me, I tell him, and he fuck with you.  That
how it work, but I got to give him a freeB.  A BJ, just 5 bucks, but it
worth it.  For him, so he ain't got to find it he self.  I work him, so he
keep working for me, see you saturday, another $50.00.

   Failing.  Everything but math, now I outta fractions.  Fuck fractions,
decimal, count to ten.  You can count to 10, right?

   So, I work weekend.  I got school, and just 2 hour with my lover.  I
guess my daddy really my pimp.  I pay him that, the baby sitter money to
front.  My momma give me rides, rent, I gotta eat, but that what it is.  A
front, I work.  Baby sitting, a bill a week is a lot of money in
elementary, so nobody ask question.  "Where you get that?"

   "I bought it, I work.  Baby sitting." I make bank.

   So, they don't know I do that for my daddy.  To make ends meat, but the
secret is I do it to be with Tod.  That what it all about, I love him.  The
rest is for us, to be together.  It aint even about sex no more, I get
that. All the time, and make bank.  Just to be with him, 10 hours a week.
That what I live for, that what it all about, the money, the sex, the math,
all to be together.  When he old enough to move out.

   ;

   In "Sista" (g/g Todd Mole Rape Virg Hyme Ince.)

   "Uh!" Pull out my finga.  "Huh!"

   "Whatch U doin?"

   I feel her, in the dark, "Come on up here." I help her up in my bed,
"Let me show you." On my covers, I pull up her shirt, and feel down her
back.  Her draws, and pull them down.  My fingas already wet, so I just
touch her.  "Dis."

   "Nh!" Feel it, and rub it, but my finger dry off.  So, I suck anotha,
and feel down her tummy.  Pull them off, and pick up her leg, to feel it in
the front.  "Don't tell mama you do dis, all right?  But if you work it
here."

   "Nh.  Hm?"

   "It feel good.  Just work it, likeis." Slow, she never done it afore,
"Then a little fasta, and a little fasta..." My finga dried off, but in the
dark.  "Huh!  Turn around.  Here." Scoot her up.  I never done this before,
and I guess it gay.  I ain't, I love Tod, but she old enough to learn.

   "Hihihihn!" She giggled, and move, so I got to hold her booty.  Still,
and find it again.

   Lick it.  "Nhihn, hin, nh!" I cover her mouth, but she move my hand. 
And hold her mouth, to keep quiet.  "Mh mh mh mhmhmhmh!" I stop, and suck
my finger real quick.

   "Now, hold still." Feel for it.  There it is, so I find it, and lick it
again.

   "Mh mh mh mh mh!"

   Then, you.

   "IHM!"

   "Sh!"

   She stop wiggling, so I wiggle it in.

   "Nhihnihnihnihn!" It sounds like she cryin, but I member.  It hurt, so I
lick it to make it feel good again.

   "Hhhhh!"

   She fall out, so I pop my pinky back out.

   "Snh?" Smell it.  Taste the blood, and suck it off my finger.

   Then I have to get up, and put her back to bed.  Aint got no tampon, but
I got tissue.  So, I twist that up, so she don't mess up her panties.

   "NH?" She cover her mouth.

   "There," pull them up, and her teeshirt down.  Usetabe be mines, but I
got to big, and she to little, so she just wear it to bed.  Tuck her in,
but I hear her.

   "Nhmhmhmhm!"

   Go back to bed, to do me.  So I can sleep, but now she can do her self.

   She ask.  So I showed her.

   She my sista, and she 3.  Ain't got no money, so I don't charge her.

   Now, were was I?.,

   {St: G.  Tom Mac - Cry Little Sister (The Lost Boys OST) I know, I have
fucked up dreams.}

   ;

   Greg (No Spoilers)

   I missed her, so I hit up the kids for her money.  No idea what she
spends it on, but I get what I want, and she gets her money.

   Deal.

   "Yo, G." There she is, "Wait up!"

   After school, I pick her up by the butt, and kiss her.  Then I ask her.
"Where you been?"

   "The docta."

   "Oh." Wipe my mouth, "You sick?" I just kissed her.

   "I thought so, come on."

   "You got to work?"

   "I call my boss, so they can get a sitta.  Can I go see you famly?"

   "Uh, that aint a good idea."

   "Why not?"

   "There racist." I ain't, I love her big black booty, especially.  Just
the way it bounces, she's worth every penny.

   "Well, I got to talk to them."

   "Why?" I'd rather not have that fight.

   "Well, I thowed up this mornin'.  All dis week, actuly, and when I don't
get no betta, my momma make a 'pointment."

   "So, you are sick." Sounds like a stomach flu.

   "No, I'm pregnint." I let her go.

   "Uh," think, "You think it's, one of your, other customers?"

   "Can't be, I aint got no otha custumus.  Jus you, but you better save yo
money."

   I had the $100.00.  It's friday, but.  "To, take care of it?"

   "Mhm?  Babys 'pensive."

   "Well," I mean, "It may be cheaper to, get rid of it."

   "Can't.  The docta say I to little, an it riskier then going thew
witit." She shrugs, "Sides, it aint legal, and I want it."

   "It's illegal here, but I bet my daddy'd dip in the college fund to fly
you out somewhere you can get the operation." Just to make it go away.

   "I don't want a abortion.  I alway wantet a baby, and my docta say if I
get one, I most likely never will."

   "Oh," Think, "Uh, your sure.  It's mine?"

   "Only one I fucked." she shrugged, "Don't bleve me?  You wanna go on
Maury?  I bet he'd pay for the test, since I ain't 9 yet."

   "Aren't you supposed to get your period first?" We talked about this.

   "I thought so, but my docta say I go fertile first, then the blood is
afta, if I don't get pregnint." She holds my hands, "Oh, don't cry.  You
gone be a daddy." She hugged me, "It'll be all right.  We can't get marriet
yet, but I wanna.  When you old enough.  I love you, just save yo money. 
Fo the baby, I save most of it to.  Should have almos a grand and a half,
but I got to count it." She let go, and pulled my hand, "Come on, let's go
tell yo famly the good news."

   Didn't sound like good news to me.  I braced myself, for the beating.  I
know what he'll say.  Call me a nigger lover.  "Huh!" It aint true.

   She aint a nigger, but I do love her.

   "Huh!" Hug her again, "Okay." If it means so much to her.  "We'll work
it out."

   She's worth it.

   ;

   Complications (gm 1sts: O, M, G.  TW: Mung/Snuf Joke/Fant.  I had hoped
to never have used the one for Mung.)

   So, we aint do it that day.  Go see he famly, on account of
complications.  He told me, how bad he daddy be.  Now, I put on weight
cause of eating better.  I had money to eat better, not to mention free
dinner at work, and that how I go 2 whole month, the docta say.

   About, hard to say cause of complications.  I real high risk, cause of
my age, but she say that weight gain might could be what cause my period
come early.  So, it like dominoes.

   1st: I start having sex.  She toled me, it privilege.  I can tell her,
but it ain't about Todd no more, so I leave that out.  I can't tell nobody
that, but obviously, I weren't no virgin.  Aint about the money neither, so
I left that out too, but she call it Menark.  My first Mence.  That means I
really late, since that knock over the seccent:
I ain't develop.  None, not a hair on my body, or even my titties. 
Nothing, since Menark is what kick off puberdy, and I aint even finish
that. So, she just go ahead and schedule a C-section, aint no way I can

grow enough in .75 a year to get it out the usual way.

   Third, it probly aint gonna be 9 months, since a common complication for
teens is preemy, and low birth weight.  If I don't miss carry, which is the
most likely.

   Forth, Abortion.  He right, it ain't legal here, but I can probly afford
to fly out somewhere, and get it done.  The problem is my womb can't handle
it, and I aint paying for a trip to have no babys.  No, fuck no, aint
happening.  The risk of miscarry is free, and legal.  Call it natural
abortion, but my POB/gyn say that my best bet on recovering, starting my
periods, and a chance to have a real pregnency.

   If it don't all go wrong, that the problem.  She call it Risk.  I got
all them, so the best Prognosis, she say is the lowest risk, which is carry
to miss carry.  I know this, I don't tell him cause he the daddy, and I
need him, to do that.

   Also, Plan B, which is most likely to make me sterile.  More likely then
surgical abortion, and illegal to.

   So, we talk on it another week, and I still aint showin, cause I put on
wait, so there time to think on it.  Take him to the doctor first, the next
week, cause she say it all better, and she a doctor.  PD Actric
Obstetrishan, and Gynecologist.  Best one there is cause she the only one
in the county, pro bono on account of me being so young.  She say she can
use the experience, so it like a study.  Don't happen that often, so
treating me like, training.  Experience, to be better at doctorin'.

   Then, I figure out how to do it.  I call the cops.  Easy, it aint stach,
cause he only 13, and he file a report first, for abuse.  He put on all
that wait for Armor, he say.  Records from the ER, and everything. 
Dislocatet shoulda with spiral fracture, from twisting he arm, and beating
him.  Knuckle marks, all on he back, when he's 11.

   So, he put on weight, say it help.  It still hurt, but harter to break
ribs, and such.

   Then he told me, so I mate sure I got a black cop when we finely go to
the Sheriff's.

   "You ever hurta Mung?"

   "What that?"

   "Tell him." I chuck my head.

   "Well, this' my daddy talking.  No offence, sir." Big old black man,
like a line backer, with a badge, and a gun.  "He tell it like a joke, to
his friends, and they all laugh, but it ain't funny.  I hate to even say
it, but he says.  You take a pregnent woman of color out, to the desert,
stake her out in the sun, and starve her until she about to bust.  Feed her
on piss, and shit and."

   "It's all right." I nodded, "He got to hear it."

   "And, uh.  You.  You beat her, to death.  And then.  Whatever run out,
that's how you make mung."

   "Mhm?" he look back at me, so I take he hand, and put it on my belly. 
"So, that why we need this restraining order.  He like KKK racist, he beat
he own flesh and blood like a redheadded stepchild, and I scareta what he
do, if'n he find out.  He probly at least lynch me." At worst, Mung.  "I
have nitemare about it."

   So, the big black sherriff go with him, to move out.  And his daddy go
to jail.  He mama, she more pissed I so young, but at least she don't try
to kill me.  Then, she go to the bank, sign ova the college trust for me
and the baby.  So, I can take time off work, and the 1 lucky thing is when
I due.  Summer, so I got time off from school to.  I failing anyway, so 3rd
grade, again.  But at least I aint got to do it pregnent.  We even got our
own trailer, so I can watch Tod, and he famly can work extra hours.  That
first time, we make love in the trailer.  Our trailer.  I thought, I had
got off afore.  I didn't.  This time, he carriet me ova the thresholt, lay
me aout off the couch, so he can fuck me on my sholdas, and I squirtet.  It
come right out, like pee, I felt it squirt on he dick.  In me, and then on
the outside when he pulled out, to fuck me more.

   "AhAaAaAaH!"

   I thought I did, have orgasm afore.  I thought I love Todd to, but I's
wrong.  I didn't know what love is.  Until G, he make me feel like the
luckiest woman alive.

   ;

   (So, that's for Orgasm, Mense, and Graffenberg.  Not in that order. 
This is also about Virginities, plural.  The myth is that there is just 1.)
:

   Big Baby (Mgb Diap Feti.)

   He called me that.  The little boy she babysits, while I'm at work. 
He's 2 now, lives at the same trailer park, just a few units over.  White,
newlywed parents, another on the way.  She said call him Todd in our
stories.

   It turns out, that's why she likes me.  She said, she always wanted a
baby, and my fat, "It look like babyfat." I wasn't into it, at first, but
she said try it.  She got some adult diapers from the store, and even the
smallest were a little big on me.  Also, the big basketball of fluid pushes
on her bladder, and she can't get up as easy as she used to, but she don't
got to wear them yet, she likes them.  Then, she got crafty.  She likes
cloth ones, "So we aint gotta buy pampus." She bought some polar fleece
from the fabric store, and some velcro tape.

   When we went to bed, it was just for play, a game, and now she's full of
baby "Fat." It's not fat.

   It's baby.  My baby.  "You think it's mines?" She joked.

   I pointed, and squeeked, "Not tha mama!" She laughed.

   Son or daughter?  Half a year to find out.  There's tests, but they
aren't free.  Mom had to take over the business, none of your business, and
with dad gone, I got to help out.  For the summer, under the table for a
couple years till I can get a worker's permit, saving up for when school
opens up.

   That didn't look sexy either, her in her diaper, but it sure turned her
on.  She didn't wet them, she said "You got to get me wet." So, I did.  One
nice thing about a pregnant girlfriend is you don't have to worry about
getting her pregnant.  She says I'm learning, but when I got my pants down,
she told me "Over here," and pulled me over her face.  She still has to put
her head up, but my tummy hit her chin, when she sucked me.  So, I bent
mine way down, to get her wet.  That's the game, I can't reach her
clitoris, but I can get it with my chin, and she crossed her legs behind my
neck.  Felt me up, my chest, my belly, my sidet, don't be tickling or
nothing, then my butt.  She likes my butt too, and pulled up so her nose
brushed my balls, and I felt them roll over her eyebrows.

   "SHULG!" Even her eyes, all the way in.  "Huh, SNH!"

   But I got my tongue in there good, and that's the point.  To get her
wet. "You ready?" I was, so I got up, and turn around.  Can't get her
pregnant now.  She told me she was a whore, the first time we met.  Said
"I's just playing," until I took her seriously.  Hey, I had money, and
allowance, "What you gonna spend it on, more fat?" She asked.

   She likes it, feels it, picks it up, and shakes it to slap on her tummy,
when I fuck her.  As much as I can, yeah I'm big for my age, but when
that's 12, and she's only 9.  Well, we both got held back, but I'll be
starting Jr.  high this fall.  Finally passed.  She's smart, don't let the
way she talks fool you, she just didn't have the opportunities I did. 
Started working almost a year before I did, yeah babysitting, and hitting
me up for $5.00 blowjobs.  She needed the money, I did, and how'my ever
gonna get a girl like this, lessen I pay for it.

   "Huh!" So I shake it.  She likes that better this way, so we shake
together, and I feel closer to her, them, my son and daughter this way. 
Pult my elbos down, but we're so soft together, so I can feel her tits. 
Feel bigger almost every day, why when we met, she just had nipples, and
ribs.  But with my lunch money, well she needed it more then me.  Now she
had a handful, on both sides, I wish I could kiss and suck on, feel all
over my face without falling out.  I was the only one, she had sex with,
the money was just part of the game.

   She played whore for me, and I love it.  I can kiss her, if I lean down,
and she put her head up, and this is heaven, out mouths together, tongue
wrestling like a thumb war, both hands full of titty, bellies shaking
together, all the way beside her, and her clit in my pubes.  "HUWHUH SNH!"
I let her breathe, and stop.  Feel her shake, and she lets go.  "NGHUHUHU!"
Arching under me, and shaking the whole bed, twisting, and grinning so hard
I hear her teeth gritting together.  She clawed through the sheets, tore
them, and she don't even got no nails.  Files them down to the pink so she
doesn't bite them.  "NGugGgGgGgH!"

   I never seen her get off like that, so I just hold on, so I don't fall
out, but I did that.  I made her cum like that.  "Ngh!" And my balls
twitch. "Ngh, ngh, ngh, ngh!" So hard it tingles, and even burns a little.
Stars flashing in my tight eyes, but it's over before she's done.  Finally
she relaxes.  "Hih, hih, hih!" Panting in tiny squeeks like a mouse
sneezing, until she can really breathe.  "HhHhHhH!"

   "Babe," I held her, kissed her.  "You pass out?"

   "No," she pushed me.  "Get off me, letme breathe.  Damn!"

   "Sorry."

   "Sall right."

   "Huhhhh!" I took a breath.

   She took her robe, put it on.  I asked her, if it was a good Idea,
smoking.  You know, for the baby?  I smelt it, when she came back, on her
breath.

   "You gonna stop me?" She dropped her robe, "I'm gone take a showa."

   "Okay." I fell out, before she came back.  Just woke up when I had to
take a leak.  So, I tried it.  You know what?  I did like not getting up to
go to the bathroom.  Don't have to, so you know bed wetting?  Well, I
didn't wet the bet.  The best part is she checked my diaper, but it's not
playing Baby.

   It's playing babies, just turned nine, so for the first time, I gave her
what she wanted.  I put on one.

   So, "Happy birthday." I kissed her.  It's not comfortable.  It's not the
inside, that's warm and tight, it's the outside.  That's slick, and
plasticy, makes my legs sweat around it.  If I sleep on my side, like I
always did, but she put a pillow down.  Under my knees, and that's
comfortable enough.  We put the TV in there, "Wanna watch a movie?" Slipped
a tape in the VCR, and went out to get a bottle.

   It's just gatorade, it's got a sippy cap, but she calls it "Juice."

   So, I had to piss, but I don't have to get up.  She did, came back with
a warm wet washcloth, a dry towel, and a "Pampuh." That's what she calls
them.  I felt a little pampered, she taped up the side, sat down, and
rolled under the covers with me.

   I kissed her, "I prefer Luvs."

   ;

   He didn't knock.  Forgot something, came back from the bus stop.  Missed
it, late for work but he momma let that go.

   "Huh!" I pulled my fingas out, but to late to stop them.  On the floor,
Tod was changing her.  He was naked too, and she cried, when he pulled out.

   "What the fuck is going on here!?"

   I got up, "Now,"

   "Is this how you watch the kids?"

   "It jus happen!"

   "Don't give me that.  I never thought, uh, I knew you're sick, but." He
picked up his pants, "Put some clothes on for christ's sake!"

   I pulled my robe on.  "It won't me!  They did it, I just didn't stop
dem!"

   "Quit lying to me!" He picked him up, "Come on, I'm gonna get you out of
here."

   "No," he squeezed his hand at me, "Mame!"

   "She's not your mother, what bullshit have you filled his head full of?"

   "I can splain!" But he didn't give me the chance.  Slammed the door. 
"SHE AT WORK!" I grabbed my daughter.  Not his daughter, I just have to
look at her.  She ain't white, at all.  She half Mexican.  So, he can't
have her.  He ain't her daddy, I her motha.  She stay wit me, but I put her
pampas on, and got her dress.  Stuff all her things in a trash bag, and my
close.  Before he got back, at least I aint pregnent.

   Wish we had a car, I can drive, but he at the bus stop.  Holding him,
still crying.  I'ma miss him, but he ain't find the key.  So, I go in they
traila, pick up the phone, and call mama work.

   "Ngh!" Punch my eye, make it even blacker.  "Nh!  Is Greg!" I sob, "He
took Tod, I think he kidnappin him.  Call the cops, tell he mama.  Quick
fow they getaway!" I cryin for real now.  "They at the bus stop, tell them
come quick.  Call depudy Clay at the sherrif's.  He know what ta do."

   Take him away from me.  Have fun in jail, fatass.  Bet they love he
fatass dere.  I don't need him, I got he money.  In Trust, fo her
grandaughta.

   But Ima hafta go back to work.

   I's gonna marry him, then we had a falling out.

   ;
   {"Roll Credits!" ~Cinemasins Jeremy.}