Author: Lizard69 Title: Girlfriends Part: Part 6 Summary: Is it better to have a girlfriend, or be one? Keywords: Mb bg Fdom This is a work of fiction. If you have trouble with the boundary between fact and fantasy, don't read it. If the story codes following the title freak you out, don't read it. If I mis-coded drop me a note through the author email link at ASSTR. Do not under any circumstances forward this file to anyone that hasn't specifically requested it. In case you haven't figured it out yet this is intended as *adult* entertainment. Do not allow it to be accessed by minors. If you have inadvertently downloaded it in a jurisdiction where such material isn't legal please delete it immediately. Do not re-post in whole or in part without this notice. Do not repost on any "for profit" site without my specific written permission. Copyright 2013 by Lizard69. Girlfriends Part 6 (Mb bg Fdom) Lizard69 Timmy had to ignore everything else and concentrate on putting one foot in front of the other to get from his room to where Harold and his mom were seated at the kitchen table. What surprised him the most was that he actually could do what she had asked. This was the first time his mom had seen him in a skirt. The videos didn't really count. He hadn't dressed up for *her* and didn't even know he was on camera at the time. Walking up to some queer that he was supposed to, "show a good time", would have been impossible a month ago. Timmy knew what was on the videos his mom showed Harold. A good time with this guy wasn't going to involve sitting around playing cards... unless the betting was something like, "I'll see your two shoes and raise a blouse." Oh god! *Wrong* thing to think about! Boys underwear with this stuff would be too weird and he still didn't own any panties. A familiar sensation told him that any minute now Harold and his mom were going to notice the front of his skirt wasn't hanging quite right. Better to get the guy somewhere private before she saw what was happening. Unless? NO! She couldn't expect him to... Not in front of his *mother*. "Uh. Hi." "Hello Timmy. Your mom has told me a lot about you, probably more than she should have. Try not to let it bother you. You're a lot closer to normal than you think." "Yeah. Sure. Right now I'm thinking one of us is either blind or crazy. Uh, would you like to see my room?" He really shouldn't have looked back as they left the kitchen. His mom wasn't watching them. She sat at the table sipping coffee, staring at the screen of her laptop. It was the odd little smile on her face that gave him a creepy suspicion that he *really* didn't want to know what she was looking at. Timmy had never thought his bedroom door was noisy. It wasn't really that loud this time. But the click as Harold closed the door behind them seemed to echo in the stillness that followed. While they both knew what was going to happen the silence got long enough to be uncomfortable before either of them figured out what to do next. "Mom told you I'm not gay, right?" "Uh, actually I'm the one who told her that you might not be. The way I understand what she explained to me is that you're using role play to explore some fantasies. One that you find particularly hot right now is some straight guy being so horny to fuck a young girl that if he can't get the real thing, he'll use you instead. That right?" "I guess." "So, what about your mom?" "My mom?" "Maybe I shouldn't be the one telling you this. I'm sure you've heard the old line about how people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. There's a couple things I've noticed about your mom that maybe you're too close to see. First is that you're the most important person in her life. So much that outside of you and work she hardly has a life. That isn't entirely a good thing. I'm sure it feels like she's smothering you sometimes but that's nothing compared to how it would be if she wasn't trying really hard to give you some room to be yourself. Trust me. If she wasn't trying so hard, by the time Bob picked you up you would have been ready to do whatever he wanted as long as he promised *not* to take you home. "The other is the sex thing. She's a little crazy on the subject but that isn't surprising. When it comes to sexual ethics the whole damn world is nuts. Between religion, local customs and law it's like everybody has a different set of rules they should follow. The only thing all the different sets of rules have in common is that no sane person could live by them. So people say they live by the set of rules that the people around them claim to be using, at least in public. Then they follow a different set in private. "Your mom was both lucky and cursed. When her mom discovered Mary was sexually active, instead of punishing her for failing to live by an impossible set of rules she, uh, supervised . Technically that made her an accomplice in the sexual abuse of a minor. The kid, your mother, wasn't in a position to complain and might have decided to go with the flow in any case. Now the same situation is playing out one generation later with a twist. "If she caught you with Debbie when she came back for her purse that morning, you might have been scolded but in the long run it would have been something to laugh about. Getting caught with a boy your own age would have been even less of a problem once you got through the lecture on protecting your health and reputation. Bob came very close to sitting in a jail cell while the cops asked you way too many embarrassing questions. The only thing that saved his ass was you begging him to, "make you be a girl". "Oh my fuggin' God! She walked in early enough to hear that?" "Yeah, and it threw her completely off stride regarding how to handle the situation. Up until then she described herself as a hen with one chick. Suddenly she was raising a duckling. She loves you more than anyone but if she could turn back the clock and choose whether she would have a boy or a girl, knowing she could only have one, she'd have had a daughter. Then, by walking in on you and Bob, she discovered that in some weird way she did have a girl, at least part time under certain conditions. She's going to deal with most of your private life the way an average parent would, keeping an eye on the situation and ignoring it unless things get out of hand." "Really?" "Yeah, but don't get too happy too soon. She's going to deal with your, uh, 'girl time', the way her mother dealt with her. She plans to make sure you get all the cock you could want and maybe a little more, while you develop the skills to discretely hook up with appropriate partners." Timmy shivered as Harold moved in behind him, lightly resting one hand on his shoulder while the other slipped under the back of his skirt. He didn't try to pull away as the queer began to fondle his naked ass. "You don't have to do anything. If some homo tried to rape her son, your mom would call the cops to haul away whatever is left when they arrive. But nothing would please her more than to have her little girl sexually serve a man mom has selected. You don't have to like it. She might even enjoy it more if she thinks you're only doing it because she asked you to. I certainly don't expect you to like me. I'll try not to be too rough, or laugh too loud if you cum while I'm having my way with you. You will eventually, if we do it often enough that I can train you how to please me the most. This first time I was ready to settle for a blow job but I see your mom was thoughtful enough to leave a jar of lube on the night stand. The quickest way for you to get through this would be to get on all fours with your ass near the edge of the bed so I can do you from behind standing up." Timmy was on his way to the shower while Harold and his mom were still chatting at the front door. It hadn't been *too* rough, kneeling on his bed while a pervert flipped up his skirt and pulled his ass back onto a hot hard cock. It hurt at first and he'd be plenty sore if it had lasted much longer. Mostly he felt used and, well, shocked, that his own mother could want him to be used this way. The worst part though, was that his own cock was about as hard as it ever got. He didn't particularly want to jerk off but this stiffy wasn't going to wilt any time soon unless he did something about it. He had a chance to regret that decision later when his mom passed him in the hall. At least she started to pass him. He was still damp, wrapped in a towel, when she grabbed him by the chin and made him look her in the eye. "Harold said you were hard as a rock when he finished with you. It looks like you took care of that in the shower. That's OK this time. You might want to remember in the future that it's more enjoyable for the men who have you, if they can watch you having physical pleasure as well." He stood there in shock for a minute as she continued on her way. By the time he'd finished dressing and left to meet Debbie his blush had faded and he had trouble believing he'd really heard her say that. Did his mom actually expect him to masturbate while some creep was raping him? And if the idea was really that offensive why was he getting hard again thinking about it? Oh well, it could be worse, at least Debbie would think he was happy to see her. ***** "Oh wow! She really did that? Laid out girl clothes and a jar of lube? She actually picked a guy for you to do it with?" Debbie looked out across the river that ran through the park. Timmy was her first real boyfriend and she trusted him. All the other boys who knew what that creep had done with her got weird about it. They either treated her like some kind of cripple, or like they wanted to get in line. Some managed to do both. Timmy was different. He didn't pretend it never happened or that it wasn't important. For better or worse what happened was a part of her now. But he seemed to agree with her that it was only a part, and the rest of the things that made her Debbie were important too. She was ready to tell him things she wouldn't tell anyone else, but how much was he ready to hear? "Timmy? Don't talk about what I'm going to tell you with anyone else, OK?" "OK." "Back when the creep was doing stuff to me, it was always scary and embarrassing, and, well, degrading. I mean like, he had this important job and everybody liked him. He was always helping people and getting awards for stuff he did. There was even this volunteer thing with neighborhood kids. A few of them showed up at the trial to tell the judge how he was such a nice guy and never did anything with them. So if this wonderful guy got me alone somewhere and bad stuff happened it couldn't be his fault, right?" "Oh shit..." "It gets worse. You're going to think I'm really terrible, or stupid, maybe both. The first time it caught me completely by surprise. He knew exactly what he wanted while I didn't know what creeps did to kids. He was sitting there with me standing next to him. He pulled my pants down, took out his cock, and showed me how to jack him off. At the time I didn't even know I was being molested. I can't believe now that I was ever that dumb. "I had the usual instructions about not talking to strangers, not letting people see my swimsuit places, not playing games that involved taking off clothes. There was also all the other stuff a kid learns about adults. Things like, 'just do what you're told I don't have time to explain right now', and, 'you don't have to like him but he's a friend of your parents and being rude to him is the same as being rude to them'." "Yeah, we're supposed to be invisible unless we're being polite and helpful. Do as you're told. Don't talk back. Don't hang around when they're talking about adult stuff. Don't *ever* tell one adult what other adults are saying about him, unless you want all of them calling you a liar. Then if one of them makes you do something creepy or embarrassing you're supposed to make a big fuss and tell the whole world about it as soon as you can. Only you're supposed to know what the bad stuff is without being told. If it doesn't feel right you're supposed to tell. But if your mom is telling one of her friends about this really embarrassing mistake you made because you were too young to know any better, you're supposed to suck it up when they laugh about you being so *cute*." "Uh-huh. He didn't try to pass it off as a game or talk me into playing with him. I was standing sort of sideways so he couldn't see much of anything. The way he was guiding my hands on his cock with one hand was so creepy I hardly noticed the other going up and down my back up under my tee-shirt. It was scary at first but he kept talking to me, calm and quiet, about how only a few grownups needed this kind of special favor and the other adults wouldn't like him if they found out he was one of those. He was really sorry about pushing me to do stuff but guys like him were only allowed to do it with certain special girls. There weren't many guys like him. They still outnumbered the special girls by more than a dozen to one. He was super lucky to find me living so close. He was even luckier that none of the other guys had noticed I was special yet. It would take time to teach me what to do, but at least he wouldn't have to share." "So he was like, do it with one creep in secret, or tell and have a mob of creeps passing you around?" "Yeah. All that stuff about bad touching and swimsuit places was for other girls. I was *special*. There were a few other girls like me. Most of them already knew what to do. I still had to be trained. Because I was being trained instead of playing it never crossed my mind to complain that I wasn't having fun. He didn't have to go slow or coax me into going a little bit further, 'just this once'. He didn't waste any time. When he was ready to cum he made me bend over and take the head of his cock in my mouth. I didn't know anything about ejaculation. I found out what sperm looked like because I didn't know it was coming or that other girls swallow. Later he made me do anal because my vagina wouldn't stretch that far without tearing. Much later I figured out that he didn't give a damn about tearing me up. He was scared some doctor would notice I wasn't a virgin and start asking questions. By the time he had me trained I really felt special..., like I should be in the Special Olympics. I was more afraid of people finding out I was that stupid than having them know about the sex stuff." "You're not dumb! Kids aren't supposed to know anything about that stuff!" Debbie rolled toward him long enough to plant a quick kiss before settling back to the grassy river bank. "That just might be the nicest thing a boy ever said to me. Anyway, there was one time..., near the end. I had to meet him somewhere and when mom asked about it, I made some kind of excuse that really didn't explain anything. If she pushed it right then, I would have told everything. It would have stopped that much sooner. Sometimes I wonder if I was maybe trying to get caught. Later on I made my friend swear to keep it a secret, but the girl I told was the one friend I had who couldn't keep a secret to save her life. So yeah, maybe I was sort of hoping mom would keep asking until I spilled the whole story. Instead, she just sort of looked away and changed the subject. "I was like, oh my God, she knows! I don't mean details, just that something was going on. So it was like, she wasn't really OK with what was happening to me, but she wasn't going to push for answers she didn't want to hear. When I got there, I was mad at her, mad at him and really, really, mad at myself. You say I'm not stupid so I guess I got crazy or maybe just mean. I decided that if he wanted it that bad, he should make me *do* it really bad." "You mean, like, being rough?" "Not hurting me, not just to be hurting me anyway. It was OK while he was using me for sex. I, uh, I wanted that to hurt a little. That way I would know he was *using* me, making me do the nastiest things he could think of." "Oh... What... Uh... " "Oh God. It was a good thing I didn't really know what I was asking for. The only thing that could have made it worse is if I knew, and asked him to do it anyway." "I'm kinda scared to ask what he did." "That was the first shock. He didn't really do anything different. He was already doing the nastiest stuff he thought he could get away with. Until then I guess I had this idea that he was trying to be nice, that he was trying to make it easier for me. The second surprise was, well, you've been with a couple of perverts now. You know how they get when they're allowed to do something, 'special'?" "Like a kid who just found out he's spending the first week of summer vacation at Disneyland? When his last class ended five minutes ago?" "Uh-huh, and he's got a book of coupons for the best rides in the park. It changed things, sort of. Not the things he was doing but the way I felt about it. Before it was like, OK, he has to do it with a kid. It would be better for everybody if he could do it with other grown ups and leave me alone. Too bad, the only way he can have that kind of pleasure is with a kid and for now at least, I'm it. Then, all of a sudden, I'm standing there saying, 'OK, I'm it. I'm sick of waiting for the next level. Show me how bad it can get.'. Then it was like you said. Disneyland is open and he's the only kid in line. He had me get bare all over. He probably would have anyway. We usually didn't get the chance. If anyone knew we were together he made sure we could stop and cover up in the time it took for him to answer the door. This time he didn't know about mom asking questions. "I did, and all I could think about was making her watch what he was doing. What if she followed me? Would she come busting in on us? Then let her catch me bare naked. Hey mom, is he still such a nice guy when he's holding your little girls head with both hands while he fucks her face? Gonna grab a towel and wipe that dribble of cum off my chin? He spanked me, but not too hard. I wasn't very bad. He was edging, having me suck until he got close before making me stop. He spanked me for not stopping fast enough. The next time that happened, instead of spanking my ass, he fucked it... sort of. "We were in the bathroom and the closest thing to a chair was the toilet with the lid closed. One of the ways he liked it was to have me sit on his lap. If I was wearing a skirt, he would unzip his fly and pull my panties down far enough to stick it in my ass. If we heard somebody we could straighten up in a couple of seconds. This time I straddled his thighs facing his feet and backed up until the head of his dick was inside. As he grabbed my wrists and slowly pulled me back I rose up on tip toes to try to keep him from going deeper. By the time I was back far enough to be directly over his cock, I couldn't quite lift myself off of him no matter how I stretched. My reflection in the mirror on the inside of the bathroom door let me know what mom would see if she walked in on us right then. "Would she expect me to struggle? After only a couple of minutes my legs were shaking from the strain. Would she tell me to go ahead, to give up and let it happen? What would it be like to have her watching me lower myself onto five thick inches of pervert cock? What would you tell me to do, if it was you standing there watching?" "I, uh, I'm not your mom." "Yeah. I noticed. So which would you tell me, fight it, or give up?" " I meant I'd be thinking about different choices." "Different choices?" Timmy started to blush and kept looking across the river, but finally answered her question. "I'd be trying to get you to be with me instead. Or..." "Or what?" "Uh... like... with me too." "You mean, make him share?" "I can't make a grown up do anything. If I could, I'd make him leave you alone. Alone with me... bare naked... but not like you have to do it with me to keep him away from you. More like, if you're going to anyway, do it with me instead." "Or do it with you too?" "Ok, I'm kind of a creep sometimes. If I walked in on you there is *no way* I could turn around and walk out. If I'm there I'm going to watch. I can't imagine watching you with somebody else and not wanting to be with you too." "You're right. You're a creep. But you know what? If I walked in on you and that Harold guy? I would have left if you asked me to, but you would have had to ask. So I guess I'm sort of a creep too." "At least you're not asking me to do it with guys. Cripes! How could my mom *do* that? And it isn't going to be a one time thing. Harold told me she's going to make sure I get, 'all the cock I can handle'. Like she's going to be looking for guys who'll do it with me." "How much is all you can handle? So far you did it with Bob, this Harold guy and Billy." "He told you!?" "No, and I wasn't sure until right now. Guys act different around somebody they fucked. I guess girls do too but if I meet a couple I'm not watching the girl. I wouldn't have noticed if you weren't talking about it when I left that day. The next time I saw you together I was looking for it. What I didn't know is if I was seeing it because you did something, or because I was looking for it." "Yeah, well, we're not gay." "Because you were thinking about me? You know, you look really cute when you blush like that." "Uh, like you said, we were talking about it and after you left we sort of started talking about you. I guess one thing lead to another..." "It's OK. I mean it's weird, but not *that* weird. I'm not mad at either of you. There is one thing I'm kind of curious about. You don't have to answer. It's really none of my business. When you guys did it, were you... like... the girl?" "Yeah, but..." "I know. I know. You guys were thinking about me. What I wanted to ask is, were *you* thinking about what it would be like with me... or to be me?" Timmy couldn't answer her, couldn't even look at her, but he really didn't have to. The way his blush darkened confirmed her suspicions as thoroughly as anything he could have said. Debbie rolled in to kiss him again, staying on top of him this time, nuzzling the side of his neck and talking in a voice too soft for anyone else to hear. "I've never done it with a boy my own age. I never actually wanted to do it. I uh, sometimes I kind of liked the attention, but that's not the same thing. I never even imagined being with a boy who knows what it's like to be with a pervert, not until now. If you want to find out what it was like for Billy, well, I can't really show you how it feels to have your cock in a *boys* ass..." End Part 6