Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience. Chapter 10 How I Learned To Play Basketball By the time I got up to my room my suit was soaked from his cum leaking out of me. I couldn't help myself. I really couldn't. I looked so nasty like that I thought I was going to cum just from staring at myself in my mirror. It didn't take long. It never does. It wasn't until after I had showered and was getting dressed that I remembered that Brian still had my pink panties. I had a bad feeling about that and I was right. Monday morning when I walked up to the school I saw that he didn't have them anymore. They were waving in the breeze at the top of the flag pole. I was a mess all day waiting for the hall pass that would summon me to the principal's office and let everyone know that they were mine. But the hall pass never came. It wasn't until Thursday that I finally stopped worrying about it and decided that for some reason Principal Geiger was being nice to me. The only other option I could come up with was that the janitor had kept them. Everybody knew that he was a perv. It wasn't until I was giving him head in his car two weeks later that Brian told me that he hadn't written my name on them like the guys do in high school. He said he just did it to torment me. It worked. He was a master of that. For the entire four years we were `together' he was always finding new ways to drive me crazy and then he would pull me back into his arms and I would let him. I know now that it was because that is the way I am `wired'. I love being sexually humiliated. But at the time I told myself it was because he was my `boyfriend' and that he wouldn't love me anymore if I didn't do the degrading things that he wanted me to do for him. Afterwards, when he was taking me home in his car he would always have me sit next to him, put his arm around my shoulder, massage my right breast and tell me that he loved me and how proud of me he was for being his `little slut'. And I think he did love me in his own way. He just wasn't `in love' with me. Certainly not in the same way I was in love with him. He wouldn't call for weeks, and just when I had given up on him, resigned myself to the fact that he had used me and dumped me, he would show up and I would go running back into his arms, and into whatever sordid game he had planned for me. I didn't hear from him for over 2 weeks. In his defense he really couldn't call. My mom and George both had cell phones but I didn't. George didn't think that `children' should have them. So the only phone I had access to was the wall phone in our kitchen. I was on my way home from school when he drove up next to me, grinned and told me to get in. Ashley had just turned off less than a block behind and I remember looking back, nervous that she might see me getting into his car and worried that I would have a lot of explaining to do the next day if she had. He told me that he had tried to call me but that both times my mom had answered so he had hung up. We decided that picking me up on my way home from school was the only way we could get together or make plans. For a moment he was almost tender as we joked about the panty episode and then he got that look in his eye that I learned to expect, a look that told me that he was up to something that I wasn't going to like. That day he wanted a blow job. He asked me if I had ever given one before and when I nodded yes he unzipped his jeans and told me to get started. I remember thinking to myself what a slut I was for doing it in his car like that, but that didn't stop me. He was my `boyfriend' after all. I leaned over and took him in my mouth but the angle was awkward for both of us so he told me to get up on my knees and bend over. That put my butt up in the air of course, making my cheeks flush from knowing that anyone driving by or on the sidewalk would see them and know where my head was. As he pushed my head into his lap I was thinking more about whether my short school skirt was long enough to cover my wet slit. I knew it was wet. I could feel it starting to ooze down my thighs. And just like every time I had sucked Mr. Sanders or any of the other men in our neighborhood I knew that I would cum long before he did. I know I surprised him. Every time he would push my head down I would let him slide into my throat. After the third or fourth time he pulled me up by my pig-tails and asked me where I had learned to do that? I knew I couldn't tell him the truth, so I lied and told him that I just thought that was what I was supposed to do it. All he said was, `Damn Straight' and then pushed me down again. But after that he didn't push nearly as hard. Somewhere along the way he decided to pull my skirt up so he could play with me and that's when he discovered that I wasn't wearing panties. Pulling my head up again he made me explain why and I told him. I remember him laughing at me as he told me that I was the, `skankiest little slut' he had ever met and that I was never to wear them when I was with him unless he told me too. Still laughing he told me that if he ever did tell me to wear them I could expect to find them up the flag pole at school with my name on them and then he pushed me down again. That's when I came for the first time. Well almost. It took my brain all of 30 seconds first. It was all so humiliating and the more I thought about it the hotter I got. I mean there I was with a cock in my mouth, my skirt around my waist, knowing that everyone could see my now oozing cooter, and that this time the hall pass to Principal Geiger's office was sure to arrive and let everyone know what a slut I was. I came hard. And knowing that people could see my cum oozing out of me in globs onto his vinyl seat made it more intense and sent me onto my `plateau'. I remember him pulling me up, laughing at me and asking me if I was having an orgasm. All I could do was look up at him with puppy dog eyes and quiver. He let me calm down for a minute, told me he had never met a girl who would cum just from giving head and then pushed me down again. By that time we were on Brooks and I remember wondering where he was taking me. Every time he would start to get close he would pull me up by my pig-tails so he wouldn't cum and so I could see how busy the traffic was around us. Finally I felt him turn right, then left and then he was backing up. He had one hand on my head pushing, his cock as deep into my throat as he could, turned the car off and let me have it. I remember thinking that no one could possibly cum that much but he sure did. If he had just been in my mouth I don't think I could have ever kept up. He made me stay down there until I had licked him clean and then pulled me up. And that's when I came for the second time. We were in the back parking lot of Rockin' Rudy's music store. People were walking by on Tremont St. and because he had backed in my still oozing pussy was on full display. There was a small tree between me and the sidewalk but that was it. I spun around and slid down the seat so my head was below the window. But it was too late. Just the thought that they had seen me sent me over the top. He couldn't stop laughing me as I pulled up my skirt and masturbated in front of him. When I stopped shaking he asked me if I had ay pens or magic markers in my pack. I told him both and he told me to give him the markers. After what Mr. Sanders had done to me I knew that I was in trouble. I had three; black, orange and red. He took the red one. By the time he was through I had `SLUT' across my forehead, `FUCK ME' on the inside of my right thigh with an arrow pointing up, `EASY CUNT' on the inside of my left one with another arrow. He made me give him my bra and tie the loose ends of my blouse up under my breasts as tight as I could so he could write `COCKSUCKER' across my belly and then made me turn around and get on my hands and knees. After I felt him write `SKANK' on my back he pushed 2 of his fingers into me and made me cum for him again with my head out the window. When he was through with me he told me get out of the car. I remember thinking `my god', what else is he going to do to me?' But he saw the look in my eyes when I turned back around and sat on the seat. He knew that I was getting off on the humiliation and so did I. At first I thought it was because he just wanted to see what I looked like standing up and to torment me with the possibility of someone walking by. He got out too, walked around the front of the car grinning at me with that `look' that told me I wasn't going to like what he had planned for me. He had my day pack in one hand and his camera in the other. He told me that I didn't look slutty enough yet and made me roll the waist band of my skirt up until it was barely 6 inches below my cheeks and cooter. I don't remember how many pictures he took of me but all of them were humiliating and as always just the clicking sound of the camera made me cream. I remember that most of them were of me bent over touching my toes or facing him with my breasts pulled out of my blouse, my legs spread, and holding my skirt up with both hands. I remember thinking that it couldn't possibly get any worse, but it did. A lot worse. He made me get my panties and the black magic marker out of my pack. Then he spread my panties out flat on the hood of his car, handed the marker back to me and told me to write my name on them. I tried squeezing my knees and thighs together but it wasn't any use. The thought that I was going to write my name on them, so he could humiliate me further by running them up the flag pole at school my made me crazy. And knowing that I had put my name on them myself, contributing to my own humiliation, admitting to him and everyone at school what a slut I was, drove me right back onto my `plateau'. Right there in the parking lot I grabbed onto the door handle, spread my legs and came in front of him as he laughed at me and at the goo dripping out from under my skirt onto the broken asphalt between my feet. Then I did what he had asked, I wrote my name on the back of my panties and gave them to him. And that's when he hit me with the final humiliation. He stuffed my panties into his back pocket and told me that he was late for work and wouldn't be able to drive me home. I remember begging him not to make me walk home with all of his graffiti on me but he just laughed. He said I better get walking if I wanted to get home before my mom and that I better not touch my skirt or blouse until I got there. He told he made deliveries for the store and that he would be driving by to check on me. He did too. I was at the corner of Beverly and Higgins waiting for the traffic to clear when he drove up in front of the Dairy Queen across the street, honked his horn 3 or 4 times and yelled SLUT out the window as loud as he could. But by then I had been through so much that one more humiliation just added another glob of goo to my already soaked thighs. I sprinted past the people at the DQ, through the parking lot and down our alley until I reached our garage. I was so winded by then that I had to stop next to the garbage cans and put my hands on my knees to get my breath back. I was still huffing when Mr. Sanders came around the side of our garage with two of George's ratchet straps in his hand. I don't know what I expected when I stood up to look at him. Sympathy? Did I mention how clueless I can be? I was covered in red graffiti from my forehead to my knees, covered in cum from the top of my head to my anklets and my blouse was so wet it was transparent. The last thing on his mind was sympathy. He grinned at me and ordered me not to move. As I watched him go down his basement steps my knees started to shake. I knew what he was going down there for. But as always he surprised me. When he came back up he didn't just have my paddle in his hand, he had his camera and video camera too. He made me pose for his camera like Brian had. But when he was through he picked up my paddle, pushed me face first over our garbage can and told me to start counting. 13 spanks later he told me that those were for standing him up. In the excitement of seeing Brian again I had forgotten that he had left me a BRS note on his basement door that morning. Just like Brian he made me pull my breasts out and hold my skirt up. Then he picked up his video camera and said, "All right Candy, let's hear it. Start with the moment you took your panties off after school right up to this instant. And don't leave anything out. I have a feeling the guys at work are going to love this one a lot more than all of the others put together." When he said that I remember flashing back to Jeff and Kyle and wondering how many more men at his work had seen my pictures and videos. It was like he was forcing a confession out of me for them. He wanted me to humiliate myself for their enjoyment and his. And I wanted to do it. I know I did. I wanted to see his face when I told him just how degrading my afternoon had been. As soon as I realized that Brian really wasn't coming back I ran across the street to the shelter of some maple trees. But when I crossed Blaine there were only a few trees left until I reached Higgins and I remember hoping that since it was too early for people to be getting off of work, and that most of the kids my age were already home, I might just be able to make it. If I stayed on the right side of the street with cars going by me in the other direction there was a good chance that they wouldn't see or notice me, and if they did they would already be by me before they realized what they had seen. The only problem was the cars driving up behind me. They were sure to see the "SKANK" on my back but I didn't know what else to do. My plan worked, for a while. I knew I couldn't walk down Higgins. Even though it was the shortest way, it was also one of the busiest streets in our part of town. I waited for an open spot and then darted across to the shelter of the trees on University Ave. University has its share of traffic too because it ends right at the U of M (duh) but only one car passed me. It was two guys and they honked at me, but I am pretty sure that it was because of my skirt and not because they could read Brian's graffiti. But because of them I jogged the rest of the way to Gerald Ave. Gerald has a lot of trees and very little traffic and I remember thinking that if I could just make it to Beverly I could run across Higgins again to the safety of our alley. And I almost made it. I was about 3 houses away from Beckwith when I saw her. She had to be almost 80 and was sitting on her porch watching the street. I knew I couldn't walk right in front of her so I crossed to the other side of the street and prayed that she had really bad eye sight. I can't blame what happened on her, but if I had been able to stay on the right side of the street there is a least a chance that I might have made it home dry. I had just crossed Beckwith when the inevitable finally happened. Two guys in a blue convertible drove by me. I still think it was my skirt that grabbed their attention but I wasn't going to wait around to ask them. As fast as I could I ran into the alley between Beckwith and Evans and through the first bushes that looked like safety. I hoped that they would just keep driving towards University but when I heard their tires squeal as they turned around that hope was gone. With no bra on the twigs and dirt scratched my breasts and nipples so hard I started to juice, although the fear of getting caught by them probably had something to do with it too. But no matter what there was no way I was going to get off of the ground and give them a chance to see me. Peering out from under the bushes I saw their tires roll slowly by. They were laughing about how hot I was and how fast I could run. I waited for a bit and then crawled forward just enough to poke my head out from under the bushes and see them turn right on Ronald. Somehow I knew that they would come back so I squirmed backwards and waited. They did, and that time they weren't laughing as much. They sounded frustrated that they hadn't been able to find me. That time when I poked my head out it was to see them turn left on Ronald, back in the direction they had been going when they spotted me. I waited a couple more minutes just to be sure they weren't going to turn left on Beckwith and circle around one more time, and then I got up. When I looked down it was to see my blouse covered in dirt and my nipples poking out so far that there was a twig lying on top of the left one. I brushed it off, and as much of the dirt as I could, but I still looked like I had been wearing that blouse for a week. I jogged down to Ronald just to be sure that they weren't coming back one more time but when I looked up the street I couldn't see their car anywhere and panicked. I crossed Ronald and ran down the alley the rest of the way to Hilda. The problem with Hilda was that it put me on the far side of Bonner Park and I either had to walk around it or cut through it. There was no one on the tennis courts or playing volleyball but there were six guys playing basketball on the court down by the baseball field. I decide to cut through between the tennis courts and volley ball pit. By then the fear and the humiliation had done their work on my bladder as well as my nipples. Just past the tennis courts there is one of those little cinder block bathrooms. If I had just waited until I got home so much in my life may have been different. (but not nearly as fun). Looking back over the last ten years I have been gangbanged a lot and I have always loved it. All those cocks in me, all of that cum on me, and being the center of attention drives me straight up onto my `plateau' and I stay there for at least 2 days before I start feeling `normal' again. They say that there has to be a first time for everything and that first time for me was just like the last time a couple of weeks ago. I came. A lot. I don't know when they first spotted me. It could have been when I was sneaking between the tennis and volleyball courts, or when I walked into the bathroom. For all I know they may have noticed me when I crossed Evans. But whenever it was the biggest one was waiting for me for me when I came out. I'm still pretty sure that it was my short skirt that first caught his attention too, but when he saw all of that nasty graffiti on me I thought he was going to choke. As the others came up he grabbed me by shoulders and spun me around so they could see it. Then he twisted me to face him again and demanded to know what was up. I tried to lie of course. I told him that I had lost a bet with my girlfriend but he just laughed and said, "`Bullshit, it looks to me like you got caught cheating by your boyfriend and he wants everybody to know what a slut you are." What choice did I have? One lie was as good another so I told him he was right, that I had promised to never cheat on him again and let him tag me up so he would take me back. I still remember the way he laughed when I told him that. It was as much mocking me as laughing at me. He told me that I was going to break my promise 6 times before I saw him again and then pushed me into the men's side of the bathroom. When he did my skirt must have flipped up. He didn't see it but one of his friends did. As soon as we were in there he pulled it up and let them all know that I didn't have any panties on. The big one grinned at me and told me to pull up my skirt. When I did he reached down and began running one of his fat fingers up and down my wet slit. After everything I had been through I was on the verge anyway. My knees started to buckle and I had to spread my legs a little to steady myself. He took that as a `welcome' sign and grinned at me as he pushed his middle finger into my hole as far as he could. Sneering at me he asked if I wanted all of them to fuck me. Just the question sent me over the top and as I came in front of them I knew that I was going to let them do anything they wanted to me. The big one went first of course. He was obviously the leader of the group. I never did learn his name, or any of the others' names for that matter. They kept calling each other `man' and `dude'. I'm pretty sure they did it on purpose so I wouldn't know who they were. Not that I would have cared. I was already climbing towards my `plateau' when he pushed me over to the sink. But just like Mr. Howard he couldn't get the right angle because of our height difference so he pushed me over to the urinal and tried it that way. The rest of the guys thought that was hilarious but he still didn't like it and pushed me to my hands and knees. The concrete was really rough and I remember worrying that if they all fucked me on the floor like that I was going to have some seriously scraped knees by the time they let me go. But the big one didn't like it either and ordered one of his buddies to check the dumpster outside for some cardboard. While his friend was gone he was slowly pushing in and out of me and driving me crazy. I kept trying to push back against him but he wouldn't let me. He was having fun embarrassing me in front of them. He kept telling them how wet and tight I was and every time he would bottom out he would spank me and ask me if I liked getting fucked. When his friend got back he was carrying 2 cardboard boxes and one of them was wet. You can guess who got the wet one. They broke them down and laid them on the floor in front of the toilet stall. He pulled out of me, spanked me really hard and told me to get crawling if I wanted any more of his cock. (Like he would have stopped fucking me if I hadn't.) I did of course, and apparently fast enough that it made them all laugh. As always the humiliation of guys laughing at me made me cream. My arms gave out and I dropped to my forearms in front of them. He really let me have it after that. He kept asking me if I liked being a slut, I kept moaning yes every time he asked. His friends were calling me every nasty name they could think of and in less than2 minutes he had me cumming all over his thick cock. He didn't have to tell them, they could all see the way I was shaking and pushing back against him. If anything he began to fuck me even harder when he felt me clenching around him. And that's when the one who had found the boxes said, "Hey man, don't cum in her. I don't want sloppy seconds." He slowed down long enough to look over at him and snarl, "How the fuck do you think we're going to knock her up if we don't cum in her?" And that's how my favorite fantasy was born. Ever since then, just thinking about getting pregnant at a 9 or 10 man gangbang and not knowing who the father is drives me crazy. And it did that day too. As soon as he started fucking me again I started begging him not to cum in me. I knew he was getting off on it. He spanked me really hard and told me that a girl that was slutty enough to let 6 guys gangbang her in an outhouse should carry her own "god damn condoms" if she didn't want to get pregnant. I came for the second time when he said that and when I did I felt him swell up inside me and let loose. The box boy was in me as soon as the big one pulled out. His qualms about sloppy seconds were apparently replaced by the lust of getting me pregnant. He let me have it almost as hard as the big guy had. And that's when I saw that the big guy had his camera phone pointed at me. Number 3 rolled me over on my back and pushed my legs over his shoulders. He told me that that way their cum was sure to get even deeper into me. 4 took me the same way and by that time I had been begging them not to get me pregnant for so long that I was starting to believe it was possible. I was lost in my own fantasy and I loved every minute of it. 5 couldn't wait, kneeled down and pushed his cock all the way into my throat. As with most of the guys I have known he seemed surprised that I could take it. But he didn't stay surprised for long. He pushed himself up over me and began to fuck my face almost as hard as his buddy was fucking my pussy. The only annoying thing was that his belt buckle kept hitting me in the chin every time he came down. When number 4 pulled out of me I heard the big one warn number 5 not to cum in my mouth but save it for my pussy. He tried I think but it was already too late. As soon as he pulled out of my mouth he exploded all over my face. I could have shielded my eyes if both of my hands weren't buried between my thighs, the right one playing with their cum and the left one rubbing my clit as I arched up in the air and came for the hundredth time in front of them. Number 6 didn't even let me finish. He grabbed what was left of my pig tails and pulled me over to the urinal on my hands and knees. The other 5 started laughing as he pulled me up and bent me over it. With my skirt over my waist, my hands on the sticky rim and my head just inches from the back splash he pushed into me so hard that I banged into the porcelain. He didn't last very long. I suppose because he had to wait for all of the others he was too worked up that first time. He lasted a lot longer when he came back for seconds. They all did. I don't remember if they kept the same order. All I do remember is that the next two took me over the urinal, pulling on my pig tails to keep my head up for the pictures. The next one pulled me back over to the cardboard where he and the next two fucked me on my hands knees. Actually I was probably down on my forearms again. I kept begging them to please stop cumming in me, that I didn't want to get pregnant, knowing that they would only fuck me harder every time I said it. When the last one pulled out of me I looked up to the see the legs of the big guy. He reached down, grabbed my left pig tail and dragged me into the toilet stall. He pulled me up so my waist was against the rim and pushed me over it. My knees weren't even touching the floor and I remember feeling like I was in space as he pushed himself into me and kind of half moaned and half sighed because he had finally found the perfect height for fucking me. When I heard that sigh I started to think that maybe he wasn't as bad as I had thought. (Don't even say it.) He stroked me 3 or 4 times and then pulled out, "What kind of a girl lets 6 guys fuck her in an outhouse?" I remember thinking to myself `oh god, not another one with the humiliating questions'. But I knew what he wanted to hear. "A slut." He pushed back into me but kept fucking me slowly. I knew he was teasing me. With my knees off of the floor like that I couldn't push back against him and he knew it. Even so I started climbing but as soon as he sensed it he pulled out of me again. " And what kind of a girl lets 6 guys fuck her in an outhouse without any condoms?" I didn't know what to say at that point. The question was different so I knew he wanted a different answer. But I didn't know what to say. He spanked me and repeated his question. "A slut?" "Not just a slut. A dirty little slut. And you are by far the dirtiest little slut that I have ever met." He pushed himself back into me and that time he didn't pull out. Instead he wrapped his hand even tighter around my pig tails, pulled me up next to his face, forcing me to arch my back and hissed into my ear, "Do you know the best way to clean up a DIRTY little slut? A swirly." Now no one can ever accuse me of leading a sheltered life but up until then I had never even heard the word let alone knew what it meant. But the way the rest of the guys were laughing and high fiving behind him I knew it that it wasn't going to be good. He pushed me back down and started fucking me again but he didn't stop pushing. As my nose touched the water I tried to push back against his hand. I don't think he even felt the effort. In no time at all my entire head was under the water, my nose was pressed against the bowl, and he was fucking me as hard as he did the first time. Just when I started to panic he flushed it, waited until all of the water was gone and pulled me up over the bowl without losing a stroke. He fucked into me 5 or 6 times and then pulled me upright again. "What are you?" I thought I knew what he wanted to hear so I told him. "A dirty little slut." I could hear the guys laughing behind me but it barely registered as he pushed me down and pressed my nose against the bowl for the second time. Just like the first time he fucked me really hard until I started to panic and then flushed. Each time he asked me the same question and each time I gave him the answer I thought he wanted to hear. His friends were almost crying they were laughing so hard but I thought it was just because of what he was doing to me. Between their laughter and him fucking me so hard I actually came the 5th time my nose touched the bowl. He waited until I had calmed down and pulled me up. By then my blouse was completely soaked and transparent. He grabbed my left nipple, pulled my head around to face him and his friends, grinned at me and said, "You are not very bright are you?" It wasn't until my head was under water for the 6th time that I finally realized what the answer was. He had said that the only way to clean up a dirty slut was to give her a swirly. He really let me struggle that last time. I didn't wait for him to pull me up and ask me the question again. The water wasn't even gone before I was yelling, "I'm a clean slut! I'm a clean slut!" He pulled out of me, spun me around so I was sitting on the floor facing them all and looked down at me, "Yeah and you are possibly the dumbest clean slut in Missoula. Do you know what a circle jerk is?" Just like the swirly I had no idea what a circle jerk was. He pulled me over into the middle of the bathroom on my hands and knees and made me sit up like a puppy with my cheeks on my calves. While the box guy took his turn at the door the rest of them gathered around me and pulled their cocks out. By the time they were through with me my face and hair were coated in their cum and I had one last load in my cooter from the box guy. When I tried to wipe some of it out of eye the big guy grabbed my arm and ordered me not to touch any of it until I got home. He told me that way if my boyfriend drove by me he would know that I couldn't even last one day without being a lying, cheating, `dirty' little slut. They told me to wait until they got back to their truck because they didn't want anybody to see me with them. As soon as they did I ran for the band shelter next to Beverly. They had to drive by of course. Big guy was driving. Box guy was in the front seat with him and the other four were in the back. All of them had something nasty to say except for big guy. He just honked his horn as he turned left on Ronald and drove away. By that time I really didn't care. I knew I was a slut. Calling me one in public like that just made me cream. Two blocks later I was creaming for Brian across the street from the DQ and 2 minutes after that I was creaming harder than ever in front of Mr. Sanders' video camera. When I was through he put his video camera on top of one of the garbage cans and told me to bend over the other one and look right into it. I thought I was going to get another spanking. What I got was the 7th hard cock of the day in my cookie. When he was through he pulled me up by my hair and spun me around, "You better get inside and wash that "SLUT" off of your forehead before your mom gets home. But leave the rest of it on." I still remember how my mouth dropped open when he said that. A couple of years before, I can't remember if it was when I was in the 5th or 6th grade somebody convinced the Junior High school board that grades would go up and behavior improve if we all had to wear the same uniforms to school. Our school was the experiment. It didn't last very long. A year after we graduated they stopped it when the parents started to complain about the extra cost. Starting in 7th grade we could only wear the school's plaid skirts and white blouses to school. It wasn't as bad as it sounds. I did like flashing my panties at the boys after all. But I didn't want to do it with those nasty tattoos on my thighs. And I knew that the bright red "COCKSUCKER" and "SKANK" were going to be at least somewhat visible through my blouse. I tried explaining that to him but he just grinned at me, "Candy, I don't really care. I have plans for you this Saturday, so when your mom asks you about it tonight act surprised. And now my plans include you looking just like this. If you are that worried about it wear a t-shirt under your blouse and keep your knees together for the first time since you were 10." Then he spanked me once last time, told me to re-write them if they faded in the shower and pushed me towards the house. I remember my knees feeling like jelly as I walked up the back steps. It wasn't just the fear that someone would see the graffiti that worried me. He had said that he had plans for me with it still there and I knew that couldn't be good.