I AM NOT ASHAMED 00

THE MEGUMI STORIES
BY MEGUMI KATO AND FRIENDS

VOLUME 03: I AM NOT ASHAMED
BY KIMIKO KOBAYASHI AND MEGUMI KATO

PART 00

[If you have collected the whole of Volume 03 of this 
series you may like to have the "Prelims" file, 
containing the Contents page and the Introduction.]

Contents

          Introduction 

I         The Office Ladies 

II        Dinner at Home 

III       The Wedding Reception 

IV        After the Wedding 

V         Two Sisters 

VI        The Evidence 

VII       The First Test 

VIII      The Silver Pavilion 

IX        Before and After Dinner 

X         The Stranger 

XI        New Experiences 

XII       The Next Day 

XIII      Interlude	 

XIV       The Second Test 

XV        The Third Test 

XVI       Between Heaven and Earth 

XVII      Master and Slave 

XVIII     The Pink Pussycat

XIX       On Display 

XX        The Beginning


Introduction

So many of my dear friends have helped me with this 
book that I hardly know where to start in thanking 
them! But above all I must thank Megumi. If she hadn't 
invited me to her wedding reception - knowing very 
well what was going to happen after she had left on 
her honeymoon! - there would be no story to tell. And 
she, with her practical knowledge as a writer, showed 
me how to pull my experiences into shape. So I was 
delighted to agree to all my friends' suggestion that 
her name should be on the title-page. 

Next I must thank Shizue and Tomoko who taught me so 
much and helped me find my way into the wonderful 
sensual world I now inhabit. So did Noriko and Midori 
- and of course dear Matsumoto-san - of the Marucho 
Film Company. If Noriko hadn't (almost) hypnotised me 
into recognising the inner truth about myself as we 
sat together at Megumi's wedding reception I would 
have gone on hiding from it and my chance might have 
slipped away for ever. My family - my mother, my 
brother Ken and sister Fumiko, even my father when he 
has time to think about it - have been so perceptive 
and supportive as I went through the incredible change 
which I have tried to describe in this book. All my 
many lovers - David, Bob, Suzy, little Melody, Mr 
Birch and above all my wonderful Master - took so much 
trouble to understand my needs as they coaxed me into 
ever more wonderful realms of sensuality. 

I said that without Megumi's invitation to her wedding 
reception there would be no story to tell. But perhaps 
there would after all: a different one. I think - I 
_hope_ - I would somehow have found my way to my true 
nature and been taught by someone how to discover my 
sexuality. If this book has a theme, it is that no 
girl is ever so cut off from her inner truth as to 
have no way of reaching it. Of course it is sad that 
in a world brimming over with opportunities for 
sensual delight and sexual joy there are still girls 
whose sexuality is damaged and who are afraid to take 
the first steps towards making themselves whole. But 
there is always hope, as there was for me. 

So if you who are reading this are a girl, and if you 
are still shy and uncertain, please do not give up! 
Maybe my story can help you in your search for 
wholeness and inner harmony. And if you are a man - or 
a woman - who knows a girl in sexual difficulties, 
please help her, be gentle and patient with her. Once 
you have helped her find the entry to the world of 
sensuality she will never want to leave it - and she 
will reward you with all the love and pleasure her 
heart and body can give. 

It was Megumi's idea to end this story with my 
induction into the Friday group, and I agree it makes 
a satisfactory climax to my experiences. But I 
insisted on calling that chapter "The Beginning" - 
because that is what it was. Of course I now attend 
the group's meetings as my Master's happy slave. 
Shizue, as she had promised, took me to the Paradise 
Club and I am now a candidate for membership. (The 
testing of candidates is very prolonged and 
delightful! I am enjoying it so much that I almost 
feel I am in no hurry to pass!) Best of all, my 
connection with the Marucho Film Company is leading to 
offers of minor parts in sex videos and opportunities 
for nude photo shoots. Megumi, who has never had any 
problems with her sexuality and speaks frankly about 
her feelings and experiences, always says that being 
nude, and fucked, before an audience or a camera is 
addictive: once you have experienced it you want to go 
on doing it for ever. Of course she is right. For the 
moment I still have my daytime job as an OL, but my 
dream is to be found worthy of a professional career 
in the sex industry. 

I only wish I had discovered this truth about myself 
earlier! 

                                    - Kimiko Kobayashi 


Note to ASSTR edition

The main action of this novel is set in 1994. So if 
you find the technology described a little 
old-fashioned - videotape rather than DVD, 35mm 
photography rather than digital - that is why.

                                                  - BW


[Coming Next: Volume 04 of the Megumi Stories: 
UNFINISHED AFFAIRS] 


For complete series so far see 
http://www.asstr.org/files/Authors/Bob_Williams