By Emi Tsuruta
First posted February 3, 2002

Hi. My name is Emi. I'm originally from Japan, but now I'm just finishing my first year at a small liberal arts college in southern California. This isn't my first time in the States. My dad got transferred here a couple of times when I was little, so we've moved back and forth. Some people say I'm pretty Americanized, but actually I've spent most of my life in Japan. I'm not sure what I'm going to do in the future, but right now I'm really enjoying living away from my parents and all.

To tell you the truth, I'm not really sure if I should even be writing this letter or not, but well... you see, there is this guy that I've been going out with, and this is kind of embarrassing, but he is into - how should I say this - having me get naked while we are outside. Now I know this kind of thing is probably illegal and everything, and I've been trying really hard to get him to stop, but actually, I really like him a lot, and I don't think I want to break up with him or anything like that. Anyway, I've been worrying about the whole thing by myself for a while 'cause I can't get the courage to tell my friends. So well anyway, I just decided to post my letter here and see what everyone thinks.

When I first came to Oceanview a year and a half ago, I felt kind of lonely 'cause I didn't know anyone in my classes (I was taking a university prep course and ESL). I used to sit around brooding and worrying if I'd done the right thing in coming here, when one day I met Ryosuke - that's my boyfriend. He was a sophomore in the same college - now he's a junior, and he used to take me around, show me where everything is, and give me advice, and pretty soon we started going out. I am pretty shy, so I'd never dated much before, but I find him so easy to talk to 'cause he kind of knows what I was going through 'cause he'd done the same thing, I mean, come here from Japan on his own straight out of high school.

Anyway, after we'd been going out for a while, we began to get more serious, and look around for a place where we could be alone together. The problem was that both of us are doing homestays. That means living with American families. One time, I brought him over, and introduced him to my host mom, Loretta. She was nice enough, but none of us felt comfortable, so I haven't had him back since. I don't think I could handle having to meet his host family either, so we haven't tried. I don't know about here, but in Japan, couples as young as we are don't really go to each other's houses (at least not when there are people there).

Anyway, there didn't really seem to be any other place where we could go, so we used to go to this park not too far from the college. Usually, we'd bike to school, and then stop off at the park on the way back. We'd bike into the park, hide the bikes in the woods, sit on a bench, and talk about all kinds of things. One day, school finished early, so we had lunch, and then biked down to the park. It was early afternoon, and so there weren't that many people there. We sat down on the bench, but instead of talking, we just kind of sat there, and watched the trees blowing in the wind. I felt so happy to be there with him. I smiled at him, and looked into his eyes. He put his arm around me, and we just kind of sat there like that for a long time.

Then suddenly, he leaned over, and kissed me. I was kind of surprised and embarrassed, but I really liked him and all, so I just kind of leaned back, and let him kiss me. His lips were so soft. It felt so good I forgot all about where we were, and started kissing him back, and getting more and more into it.

Then, again kind of all of sudden, he started touching my breasts through my t-shirt. I was shocked, and I quickly pushed his hand away, and looked around the park to see if anyone had seen us.

Further on down the path, there were some high school boys fooling around on their bikes. They didn't seem to be paying any attention to us, but I pointed towards them with my eyes, and held Ryosuke's arm tightly to get him to stop. It wasn't that I wanted him to stop exactly; it was just that I didn't want them to see us.

Ryosuke nodded, stood up, and took me by the hand pulling me into the woods behind the bench. I don't think I'd ever gone into the woods before. There were all these bushes, and I was a bit worried about getting bitten by insects, but Ryosuke had never seemed so bold before, and I was just kind of swept along by this new him. He led me through the bushes till we came to this little ravine. We slid down the side, and at the bottom, there was a little creek. Ryosuke piled up some leaves on a patch of open ground, sat down on them, and waved for me to sit next to him. I just looked at the leaves.

"I can't sit there. My skirt'll get all dirty."

He got up on his knees, came over to where I was standing, and kneeled there looking up at me. He moved his eyes down till he was looking straight at my skirt. He sat there staring at me, and I began to get this really funny feeling deep down inside, not quite like anything I'd ever felt before. I knew what he was thinking, but part of me wanted to be with him too, but I was still pretty worried about those boys back up at the top of the hill. Before I could stop him, Ryosuke reached up, and started undoing my belt.

I couldn't believe this was happening. I mean I really liked Ryosuke and everything, but here we were in the middle of this park not too far from the university in broad daylight. Trying to think of some way to convince him to stop, I looked up the hill and all around us, but I couldn't see anyone. Back up the hill, though, every once in a while, you could hear the boys yelling. I began to worry that maybe they'd seen us come down this way.

As he pulled my belt loose, and started to undo the zipper at the side of my skirt, my mind was racing. We'd both been thinking about finding a place to be alone, but I'd never in a million years have thought of a public park.

I looked down at him. He had this sort of wild look in his eyes as if he couldn't hold himself back anymore. Most of the time, he is pretty gentle, but this time, once he'd gotten the zipper open, he pulled my skirt and panties down with a yank. I completely freaked. Half panicking, I covered my pubic hair with my hand, but this made me feel even funnier. I could feel his hand on my rear and his fingers probing around for my most delicate place. I began to feel more and more excited partly because of what he was doing, but also because of where we were. I felt this wave of pleasure flooding through my body. I started shaking and trying to hold back, but the feeling just kept getting stronger. Just when I thought I couldn't hold back anymore, Ryosuke pulled away, and went to get a condom out of his bag. Then he undid his zipper, and I saw for the first time his, his, his... well, you know. It looked so big and out of place in the soft light of the forest. I kept thinking,

"Ohmigod, what am I doing here? This whole thing is crazy," but for some reason, I didn't even try to stop him. I was just so shocked by the whole thing I didn't know what to do. Before I knew what was happening, we were both down on the leaves. He rolled over on top of me, and I felt his manhood poking in between my legs. My body froze up. Everything was moving in slow motion, but I just couldn't bring myself to stop him. All I can remember is looking up at the blue sky, and feeling Ryosuke welling up inside of me. I started breathing really quickly, and I must have fainted or something because the next thing I knew, I woke up lying there on the bed of leaves. I could feel them on my bare bottom, and the wind was tickling me between my legs. I was lying there half naked in just my shirt in the woods. I swear it was the weirdest feeling, but at the same time, it felt pretty nice. There was like this joyful feeling bubbling up inside of me. It's really hard to describe, but whatever it was, it felt so fun, like a rollercoaster or a warm bath, only better. Ryosuke was sitting up a few feet away. He had his clothes back on, and he was holding his backpack at his side.

"How do you feel?"

What a question! As I lay there unsure how to answer, I suddenly realized that he was looking straight between my open legs. I sat up, and covered myself with my hand.

"Uh, OK... I mean, fine... I mean, great."

We both broke out laughing. Suddenly remembering the boys, I took a look up the hill, but I couldn't see or hear anything.

"Where are the rest of my clothes?"

"Oh. Uh, over there." He nodded toward the bank of the stream. I thought of asking him to fetch them, but I was still feeling pretty high, so I stood up still bottomless, and walked over to where they were. It felt so weird to walk around outside with only a shirt on. I tugged at the shirt to try to cover up, but it wouldn't reach. I could feel Ryosuke staring at my bare behind. I felt so embarrassed, but at the same time, excited. It's not every day that you get to walk around outside naked. I half covered the crack of my buttocks with my hand, and said,

"Don't look."

Ryosuke had this big grin.

"Emi, you've got an incredible body."

I felt so good to hear him say that because he almost never says things like that. I looked straight into his eyes. There was like this electricity flying through the air between us. He was probably wondering if I wanted to do it again, but I was getting worried that someone might come into the forest, and see us.

"We'd better go."

I leaned down, and picked up my skirt, but my panties weren't there. A little further over, I found them. They'd fallen into the creek. I got down on all fours, and leaned over to pull them out. Behind me, I heard a clicking sound. Ryosuke had gotten out his camera, and was taking pictures of my upturned rear.

"Hey, what are you doing?"

"This is one day I want to remember!"

Quickly, I slipped on my skirt. I went to put my panties on too, but they were soaked and covered with mud. I wrang them out, but they were still really wet.

"Here we'd better get these cleaned." Ryosuke came over, and took them right out of my hand.

"Hey!"

"What? You can't wear them as long as they're all wet like this. C'mon. Let's go."

He put them in his bag, and started to walk up the hill. Horrified, I looked down at my skirt. For our first few dates, I'd been wearing my shortest mini-skirts. This one was one of the worst because it was pleated, and it was always a struggle to keep it down even when I was wearing panties. I tugged on the hem, but you could still see all the way up my creamy white thighs. I guess the skirt covered the most embarrassing places, but I could feel the breeze between my legs, and it was giving me butterflies. It was almost as bad as if I were naked.

"What am I supposed to do? I can't walk around like this."

"Sure you can. No one will notice."

Every time I moved, even the slightest little breeze tickled me down there. Even if no one could see, it was driving me crazy. Ryosuke had already run up to the top of the hill.

"Hey, come back."

He kept on walking. I had no choice. I followed him up, and when I got close to the top of the hill, I pulled my skirt down as far as it would go to hide my pitch-black pubic hair. Between my legs, it was all tingling like crazy. Luckily, there was no sign of the boys. Ryosuke was pulling our bikes out of the woods.

"You have really got to be kidding," I said looking at my bike.

"No, c'mon. We'll see if we can find a laundromat or something."

"I can't ride like this."

"Sure you can. We gotta go. It's almost supper time." Ryosuke got on his bike, and started peddling away.

"Hey, wait."

When he'd gone 100 odd feet, he turned and mouthed something. I'm not sure, but I think it was "I love you." That was the first time he had ever said it. I wasn't quite sure how I should feel, but anyway, I got on my bike, and started peddling after him. The seat felt cold and wet between my legs, giving me this really funny feeling.

I managed to catch up to him, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get him to stop. We started passing people going the other way or sitting on benches. When we got close, I would hold my legs straight down to get the skirt to stay down, but the hem had ridden up quite a bit, and I was absolutely terrified that they could see my most secret place. I stopped, and pulled the hem down, but as soon as I started peddling again, it rode back up even higher than before. I don't think I've ever been so embarrassed in my life.

"Ryosuke! For heaven's sake, stop!"

We were getting near there entrance to the park. Riding through the park was bad enough, but going out on the busy street was even worse. I stopped at the entrance. Ryosuke had stopped too out on the street, and was talking to someone. He waved for me to come over. I got off my bike, fixed my skirt, and slowly walked over to where they were.

"Emi, this is Seiji. He's in poli sci in his senior year."

"Ryo, I'd heard your girlfriend was a looker, but they weren't kidding. It's a pleasure to finally meet you, Emi."

I just kind of nodded. I'm sure my face must have been beet red. The tingling between my legs was driving me crazy. I couldn't believe I was standing there talking to this stranger with no panties on. The two of them chatted for a while, until suddenly Ryosuke asked if there was a laundromat nearby. I started freaking out again because I thought for a moment he was going to take out my panties, and explain. Luckily, he didn't, and soon they said goodbye, and we headed towards the laundromat Seiji had told us about. It wasn't far, so I just walked along beside my bike rather than getting back on. It was embarrassing enough walking around without panties without having to feel the bicycle seat between my legs.

When we got there, there was this guy sitting at the back waiting for his own laundry. At first, he ignored us, but when Ryosuke handed the panties to me, the guy immediately sat up, and started watching me. In the sink near where he was sitting, I started rinsing them out. I'm pretty sure he must have guessed what was going on because he started staring straight at the hem of my skirt. After I put my panties in the dryer, I didn't want to leave because I was afraid he might steal them or something, so I just stood there as far away from him as possible. He kept staring at my legs, but Ryosuke didn't seem to mind. Ryosuke looked pretty happy actually, as if he was enjoying seeing me so embarrassed.

When the panties finally dried, we found a washroom, and I put them on. I don't think I have ever felt so relieved. This was like the first time we ever made love. What I want to know is, is this kind of stuff normal? What do you think? What should I do?

Emi Tsuruta

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