Wednesday, May 14 2003
After I wrote in my diary, I left for work but my car wouldn't work so I had to call a mechanic and then I took a day off from work because I would be late anyhow. I think it's because it's raining and it did something to the engine and now I can't turn on the car any more. The mechanic said he'll take it to his garage and fix it but I'll be without a car for a few days. At least I have a day off now so I'll do few things around home and get some rest.
Maybe living with Nikki could be different. Right now we are just friends and if she were living with me then I would have to be her mom too. I don't think she would appreciate me making rules for her but I probably wouldn't make many rules and maybe none at all. I believe children should have the right to do what they want and instead of forcing rules on them, they should be guided and taught about things they want to do so they know what's right and wrong. I think parents know this is a better way but they don't have patience to see it through because kids can be very demanding sometimes so it's easier for them to make rules because they don't have to talk and teach their children all the time.
I guess I could tell you about my dreams. I have them when I'm with Nikki and we sleep together and most of the times they are sexy. The one I had the last time was about me and her making love in bed and I was kissing her all over her body and she was laughing because it tickled her. I remember we were somewhere in a hotel in the mountains and it was snowing outside. Then I remember dressing her up in sexy clothes and going out for a walk and people were looking at us. Another dream was about us in some old town. We were holding hands and walking along the streets and then we went to a museum and looked at some nude paintings and we kissed there. In another dream I was giving her a bath and she asked me to wash her down between her legs so I did, slowly touching her and playing with her vagina while kissing her neck until she had an orgasm and squeezed my hand with her thighs to keep it there. This was one of the sexiest dreams but they are all short. I would like to have a long dream. I think dreams all have a meaning of some kind. I think dreams are about what we think during the day and about our interests but some people say they could also predict future. I don't know about that but if it were possible then I would like to read their meaning so I could predict the future.
The last weekend went by very quickly because Nikki went to a sleepover on Saturday night. We passed the morning making pancakes for breakfast and then I helped her make her hair and dressed her up. She even put a little make up on and then in early afternoon I drove her to her girlfrind's place where they were having the sleepover. She called me later that night and said she was having a great time and they were playing some games and watching TV. I picked her up again on Sunday morning and we went to the park because it was a beautiful day. We went to the little lake that we usually visit because there are ducks and even a few swans and Nikki loves to feed them. We were sitting on the grass and she said some girls at sleepover were talking about boys and how they kissed them and she said she kissed a girl instead and they all giggled at her but her best friend told them they are stupid for laughing at someone because she kissed a girl. And later they asked her what it was like and didn't tease her anymore. I hugged her really tight and told her she was brave for telling them she kissed a girl. Then the weather started to change so we went back home and she played on the computer while I was doing something else. Nothing else happened until I took her back home in the evening. She almost forgot to take her clothes with her again because she left them on the back seat but I saw them there and called her back. I don't know what we'll do this weekend. She has her soccer practice every Saturday and she missed it last Saturday. The weather doesn't look very well and it's raining right now but I hope it will clear up in a few days. I thought it would be nice to take her and Ina and Helen, the girls from her soccer team, somewhere out for early lunch on Saturday like a kids' restaurant or someplace like that.