“Well well!
No longer the naturist, m’dear!” jeered the Director, as Ana was sheepishly
escorted back into the room by Bezaffa whose arm was firmly round her waist.
“Don’t mind
Mr Madir,” said Khedra soothingly, frowning at her colleague. “We’re both very
grateful that you have agreed to come back. This won’t take long. I’ve just
been setting up a video for you to watch, so make yourself comfortable in the
sofa next to Bezaffa and we can watch it.”
“Video?” wondered
Ana, obediently sitting down and thankful for Bezaffa’s continued support and
reassurance. She glanced at the video disc player underneath the television
where an open plastic case lay by the carrier bag Khedra had brought along with
her. The television showed a blue screen, blank except for a little number in
the bottom right-hand corner.
“A training
video,” Khedra explained. “We show it to all our new recruits. It’s part of the
training routine and not normally shown to the public...”
“Although
export sales are very healthy!” the Director remarked with a grin.
“Export
sales?”
“Yes, Ana,”
Khedra continued. “The Brothel is proud to be able to sell its products abroad.
We are happy for institutions like ours to benefit from our high quality of
training product...”
“And not
just brothels,” interjected the Director. “The private market is very healthy.”
“And indeed
it is,” agreed Khedra, “but Ana isn’t here to learn about the Brothel’s export
initiatives. This video, and others like it, should reassure you that the
services the Brothel provide are of a professional nature and we take a
professional’s pride in proper training, employee care and customer
satisfaction. This video is called A New Life and it will show you what the
life of a working girl, whether full or part time, can be like.”
She picked
up a remote control and pointed it at the video player. The disc began to whirl
and the screen crackled into a chaos of interference. After a few seconds, the
screen reorganised itself into an image of a smiling woman in her early
thirties wearing an elegant jacket and skirt, carrying a briefcase and with the
title of the film appearing over her head.
“A New
Life,” she echoed. “And that is the exciting challenge you have chosen. A life
of great rewards - both material and social - but one which needs to approached
in the right way. And that is what this film will help you do, by outlining how
to get the best out of your new career and at the same time provide your
clients with the satisfaction they crave.”
The video
continued in this vein, as the woman, Muhathila Idrus, explained such important
aspects of a prostitute’s work as Courtesy to the Client, Being Prepared and
Proper Hygiene. In all of this there was little to hint as to the actual nature
of the service the prostitute provided. The only suggestions were the dress the
prostitutes wore and the fact that all their clients seemed to be men: ones, in
fact, astonishingly courteous, well-dressed and surprisingly good-looking. Ana
had rarely seen clients such as these in the foyer of the Brothel when she came
to work in the morning or when she went home. Most clients she saw were
unprepossessing: badly dressed, often overweight, frequently balding and most
often middle-aged. They were usually far less courteous or thoughtful than
those in the video who would unfailingly shake hands with the prostitute and
smile in a welcoming way that made it seem as if it was the client who was
providing the service rather than the prostitute.
The advice
provided gave no insight into the concerns Binta expressed. Indeed it seemed
more like common sense than anything else. The novice prostitute was advised to
shower herself after every client’s visit, tidy herself up and remove any
off-putting odours that might trouble the next clients.
“After
all,” said Muhathila, standing by a shower with a girl wearing a towel quite as
large as the one Ana was wearing, “your next client doesn’t like to think that
he isn’t the first to have made your acquaintance that day. It’s only courtesy. And as we have said before, courtesy is critical
for success in your new career.”
The video
finished after nearly half an hour, with Muhathila once again repeating the
film’s key points. The Director looked extremely bored, preferring to thumb
through the promotional literature rather than view the film itself. Khedra had
a fixed expression on her face. She’d obviously seen the video many times
herself, but kept a watchful eye on Ana.
“So what do
you think?” she asked as synthesised incidental music twiddled over the
credits. “You can see that the profession is really not so bad at all.”
Ana sighed. “I know what it’s like. I’ve
spoken to people. I know people who work as prostitutes. It’s nothing like what
the video says it is.”
“Of course,
it is, Ana dear,” Khedra insisted. “All the points made in the video are
absolutely valid. As a prostitute you’d be a fool not to follow them.”
“But I’m
not a prostitute. And I never will be!” Ana insisted.
The
Director sniffed. “She’s right, you know,” he said to Khedra. “It’s not all
like that. Show her some of the harder stuff.”
Khedra
glared at Mr Madir. “Not yet.” She turned back to address Ana. “Life as a
prostitute isn’t all work, you know. There are plenty of fringe benefits.” She
walked over to the video player, removed the video disc and replaced it in its
case. “And you will be making a lot of money.” She selected another video disc
from her bag and slipped it in the video machine. “This will tell you about the
career prospects and advantages of the profession.”
“But I
already know about them...” Ana protested.
“No harm in
hearing about them again,” smiled Bezaffa, squeezing Ana’s arm affectionately.
Ana nodded, but still believed she would feel happier when this ordeal was over
and she could go home.
Khedra sat
back on the sofa next to the Director, pointed the remote at the video disc and
let it play. This one was called In The Money and
featured another smartly dressed woman, this time in her early forties and with
a habit of pulling documents out of an attaché case she carried around with
her. Amongst other things, this video featured information on the
classification system used in the Brothel, and how prostitutes could progress
up to higher grades and better pay by paying sufficient attention to their
appearance and performance.
A very
pretty girl was featured in the Brothel gym practising on the equipment and
then turning obediently to Mrs Zhunia, the presenter, to explain how through
exercise, skin care and Brothel-sponsored surgery she had enhanced her rating
from a Gamma Plus to an Alpha Minus, and how much difference it had made not
only to her income, but to her self-esteem. Ana had never seen this girl in the
Brothel and didn’t believe she was an actual employee, but even so she doubted
whether it was humanly possible to make such a leap in one’s PAR. The general
pattern was more often downwards through the grades, rather than upwards. Part
of her function as a secretary was to forward complaints from prostitutes
bitter at dropping a grade or so, and demanding reappraisal.
Other
advantages of working as a prostitute were the facilities at the Brothel (“Free
to employees but so expensive elsewhere!”), the pension scheme, staff discounts
and favourable mortgage loans. Each one of these advantages appeared to give
Mrs Zhunia a frisson of delight: “I really can’t understand,” she remarked at
one stage in the video, “why I hadn’t chosen this career myself!”
Ana was
pretty sure, or felt she was sure, that she knew why she’d never opt for the
career. The video made no reference at all to the kind of work the prostitutes
did to deserve such good remuneration, and those featured were dressed in ways
that were more appropriate for working in an office or walking in the park. The
nearest suggestion was Mrs Zhunia’s occasional reference to “working hard” or
“not giving up”, which implied that there was indeed some effort involved in
attaining these lovingly specified luxuries.
“Well, did
you learn anything from that?” asked Khedra hopefully as the video disc slid
out on its drawer.
“Not
really,” admitted Ana, hoping that this was the last of her ordeal.
“What do you expect?” scoffed the Director. “She knows all that stuff. Show her the real thing, for goodness sake!”
Khedra
sighed, but selected a video entitled A Loving Profession. “The Training
Services Division of the Brothel tries to do the best for its trainees and part
of this is to provide practical training for its recruits. We don’t believe in
just sending out our working girls with no practical knowledge of what is
expected from them. Much of this training is necessarily theoretical,
particularly for those who are intact as you are, Ana dear. Videos are an invaluable
tool for this, though of course we also provide demonstrations and some class
work. This video is one of those we use to demonstrate techniques of customer
care and is, I warn you, rather explicit.”
At first,
Ana wasn’t too sure what Khedra meant by this last remark. The video began very
much like the last two except that the woman presenter was an anonymous figure
who wasn’t seen at all, but had a gruffness that suggested that she was neither
young nor inexperienced. This time the prostitutes were featured in the kinds
of work clothes Ana was more familiar with: a bizarre collection of underwear,
stockings and lace. The clients were again untypically young and handsome, and
when they bared their torsos, which they did fairly early on, revealed a musculature
which few actual clients could ever lay claim to. It came as a shock though
when the video proceeded towards its actual subject matter, as the clients
removed all their clothes and the prostitutes removed their knickers and opened
their legs.
Ana became
aware that she was watching film of actual sexual intercourse. She had never
seen videos which even featured nudity: the Alif government had made
pornography illegal and possession of it was a serious offence. The display of
genitalia or breasts was explicitly banned and even the hint of nudity would be
excised from any film that dared to include it before it reached the cinema.
Now Ana was seeing not just nudity but sexual acts which were explicit and
graphic, filmed from angles that left absolutely nothing to the imagination.
Curiously enough the prostitutes themselves could hardly be described as naked.
Throughout the filming they retained their stockings, even their shoes, and it
was rarely that their breasts were revealed. But the breasts were not the main
object of the camera’s attention, as groins were pushed together in repetitive,
even monotonous, thrusts.
There was a
soundtrack over the top of this activity as the anonymous presenter explained
exactly what was going on, how the prostitute was achieving certain effects and
the results this provided for client satisfaction. Ana hardly heard it at all.
Her eyes were transfixed at the horror at what she was seeing. At least it was
horror when she first saw these images. So, that was what men and women did
together. She was even more determined never to participate herself. However,
after a while, she became inured to the sight of such physical sex. It was
tedious, predictable and not at all erotic.
Bezaffa
squeezed her arm tenderly. “See, cherry, there’s nothing to it!”
Despite
Ana’s original disgust, she found she was beginning to agree with Bezaffa.
There really didn’t seem very much to it. She could even envisage herself,
lying back, with her eyes closed, gritting her teeth and thinking about other
things (just as Binta sometimes described it), while from a remote distance a
man whom she might not even have to look at would do his humping backwards and
forwards, until he lost his ability to continue and then leave. Perhaps, she
thought with contempt, her fears were rather exaggerated. It was probably
nowhere near as painful as she’d imagined, although the video didn’t suggest to
her that she’d ever actually enjoy it however much the women in the video
seemed to be, by the evidence of their loud cries and simpering grins.
The
Director watched the video with a disgusting leer across his face, clearly
enjoying specific moments such as when a woman was first penetrated or took the
client’s organ into her mouth. Khedra wasn’t even watching the video, being
more interested in reviewing a list of video titles she had on her lap. Ana
looked round at Bezaffa, who grinned conspiratorially at Ana.
“It’s great fun, isn’t it? Don’t you think?” she said,
hugging Ana affectionately across the shoulders and looking more at Ana than
the current scene of oral sex filling every part of the video screen.
“Tempted
now, m’dear?” asked the Director with a leer when the video finished, lighting
the cigarette in his holder with his lighter.
Ana looked
at Mr Madir contemptuously and shook her head adamantly. “Not
at all!”
“But
there’s nothing to it!” Khedra remarked. “There really isn’t! Just think how
much you’ll be earning for really no effort at all.”
“It’s just
not something I ever want to do! It’s horrible! Can’t I go now? I’ve seen more
than enough. I just don’t want to do it!” She faced Bezaffa. “My clothes must
be washed now. Can’t I just put them on and leave?”
“They’re
still wet, cherry. You wouldn’t want to catch pneumonia. And anyway I’m sure
that Khedra has more that she wants to show you.”
“I don’t
want to see it. I haven’t changed my mind at all. All I want to do is go home
and forget all these horrible things I’ve seen.”
The
Director sighed loudly. He drew on his cigarette holder and emitted a large
cloud of slightly bluish smoke. “I told you, Khedra m’dear, that soft sell
wouldn’t work on our little virgin. We’ll have to switch to harder sell. A
stick may work where a carrot fails.”
Khedra
nodded, and knelt in front of her carrier bag where she pulled out a video
tape. She turned on Bezaffa’s videotape player and slid the tape in. With a
series of clunks and whirls it adjusted itself and the screen reorganised
itself into the view of a prostitute’s room, very similar to the one Binta
lived in. There were no introductions or synthesised music. There was just a
view of a woman whom Ana vaguely recognised with a client who in terms of age
and physical attractiveness much more closely resembled those who actually came
through the Brothel doors.
The
Director leered and puffed out more smoke from his nostrils. “As you know, Ana
m’dear, the Brothel provides each prostitute with a two-way mirror which
enables potential clients to view those who are available at any time. This
mirror is connected to the Brothel’s intercom system and enables us to record
the girls at work. This is invaluable in the appraisal of the girls in their
work, and is a requirement by the government should there be any dispute in the
award of grades. As a bonus this provides the Brothel with an additional source
of export income in selling the film abroad to a market that likes to see
actual, authentic footage. This video shows Jadida at work. She seems to be
enjoying herself, don’t you think, m’dear?”
A cold
tremor passed through Ana’s body. What did this portend for Binta and her? The
film was very static, featuring none of the camera angles and close-ups which
typified the previous videotape. Bezaffa grasped her more tightly, as if to
prevent her leaving the room.
“Jadida’s a
pretty girl isn’t she? Much your age, probably much the same grade as you’d
gain, and a good example to us all. Now, Khedra, show our little friend tape of
someone more familiar to her.”
Khedra
nodded. She ejected the video tape from the machine, which had only a
handwritten sticker to identify it. She then slipped in another tape, which
when it began showed a much larger white body, with legs high in the air being
penetrated by another unprepossessing client whose trousers were down to his
knees and still wearing a shirt. Ana stared at horror at the client’s hairy
bottom, the prostitute’s folds of fat and a face that repeatedly ejaculated
cries clearly meant to express great joy and abandon. She then frowned at Bezaffa
who smiled at her in a curiously conspiratorial way.
“Yes,
m’dear,” the Director affirmed. “Your latest belle, Bezaffa,
at play. Or should I say, at work. Watch and learn.”
Ana watched
in horror, blood draining from her face as she contemplated the repeated
thrusts and then the horror and disgust as Bezaffa, still apparently enjoying
all that was happened lowered her head to a lower part of the client’s body and
proceeded to exercise her mouth in a way that was explicit and frightening.
“How could
you?” Ana accused.
“Easy!”
laughed Bezaffa good-humouredly. “You ought to try it. It’s good fun! There
can’t be many jobs where you get paid so well for doing something you enjoy!”
“I just
couldn’t enjoy doing that!” Ana insisted.
“It’s obscene! Vulgar! Disgusting!” She stood up abruptly. “Turn it off! Just turn it off! I don’t want to
see any more. I’ve seen enough. That’s enough!”
“Surely
not, m’dear!” the Director laughed, lighting another cigarette. “There’s so
much more to see! You can’t leave us now.” He smiled cruelly, letting a cloud
of cigarette smoke rise slowly from his nostrils and followed it up with a
gaze. He then looked directly into Ana’s eyes causing her to blink with fear
and trepidation. “Jadida and Bezaffa aren’t the only two girls we’ve filmed at
work. No way! We have film of Zabba, Ketaba, even darling Khedra here. It’s
totally routine you know. Every working girl is filmed
at work. In fact, there’s so much recorded on video that of course we never get
the opportunity to see more than the smallest fraction of it. Just what we might be interested in. Compiling
export tapes is quite a tiring job I can tell you - and I’m glad it’s a
duty that has never fallen to me.” The Director sucked in on his cigarette
holder, the embers sparking at his inhalation. “As I say, every working girl’s
every working moment is recorded and stored, even if it may never get seen. Khedra and I, we usually only get to see them when an export tape
has been compiled or if we have particular reasons to review the performance of
any individual girl. Khedra m’dear, show a video which will especially
interest Ana. One that features a girl whose performance has recently caused us
considerable concern as a result of some rather less than complimentary
comments from her clients.”
Ana drew
her breath in. She had a very good idea who this girl might be, but she hoped -
so much! - that it wasn’t. But as the video was
inserted and began, she could see that her fears were confirmed. The girl
receiving the frequent and rhythmic pelvic thrusts of the paunchy middle-aged
man with a large bald spot in his hair and responding with occasional gasps and
cries, was immediately distinguishable from all the
other prostitutes she’d seen on video in that she wore no clothes at all. Her
long hair, the dark green eyes and the face, occasionally obscured by the body
of the man lying on top of her, could only belong to Binta. At first Ana tried
convincing herself that it was someone else: another person in the Brothel who
looked like her, but Ana knew Binta too well. She knew every small detail of
her lover’s body. And this was clearly, indubitably and horrifyingly, Binta.
“So,
m’dear,” sneered the Director, “this is your dyke friend. Or is she a dyke? She
doesn’t seem to mind it so much, does she? I’d say she was actually enjoying
it, wouldn’t you? And look! She’s giving the client just what he wants with her
mouth. Look at that tongue! Look at those active fingers! Just what were those clients complaining about, I wonder. Binta’s not
a girl who shies from her duty, eh? And listen to those cries. They certainly
suggest to me someone who’s having a good time. Maybe she’s not such a dyke
after all!”
Ana stared
in wordless and silent horror. It was Binta! It really was! And maybe she was
enjoying it. Maybe she was pretending to, just to persuade the man to finish as
soon as possible. But it appeared that she was enjoying it. That horrid,
disgusting man and his filthy misshapen appendage! Could it be that Binta
really did enjoy her work?
The video
switched to a scene of another man, quite skinny and gaunt, enjoying her in
much the same way as the first, with Binta lying on top of him, her mouth
hidden as her fingers worked at his trouser top but her head bobbing up and
down, suggesting attention the thought of which left a very unpleasant taste in
Ana’s mouth. She turned her gaze away and looked into Bezaffa’s eyes which were
fixed on her.
“Is Binta
really enjoying it?” she whispered.
Bezaffa
grinned broadly. “It’s impossible to say, cherry. She’s a professional. She’s
got to look like she enjoys it. But I’d say, yes. She does seem to be enjoying
it. Those are pretty genuine little cries of passion, don’t you think?”
Ana turned
her head back to the screen. Binta did seem to be making rather a lot of noise.
And it did seem to come bit by bit to a climax, the sound of which was so
familiar, so achingly familiar, and one which until now she had unreservedly
believed her own property and the fruit of her own endeavour. And all that
strange viscous liquid that engorged itself all over Binta’s face
and breasts. If Binta enjoyed it, perhaps Ana could do so too. What meaning was
there to her fidelity to Binta, if her lover felt free to express her passion
so freely and promiscuously? Ana’s eyes swelled with tears and her cheeks
smarted as they seeped soundlessly onto her face.
“Crying are
we, m’dear?” laughed the Director. “Find the truth a little difficult to
accept, do you? Don’t worry, we have more to show. Much more.
You see, the camera doesn’t merely record when Binta is working. Oh no! There’s
no such discretion in the Brothel, - though of course generally there’s
precious little of the remotest interest to see most of the time when a girl is
off-duty. Washing her hair; reading books; chatting to friends; sleeping: none
of these are activities which could interest us nor, it need be said, any of
our potential export market. And anyway with a fixed mirror, so much is out of
frame. Everything that is, except what goes on in the bed.” Mr Madir smirked.
“Show Ana one of our unofficial recordings, Khedra m’dear.”
Khedra
nodded. “If you think it’s for the best...”
“It is! It
is!” Ana’s boss assented.
Khedra
ejected the video tape while Ana wrapped herself around Bezaffa, the most
comforting object in the room. How could Binta enjoy all those horrid men? Was
she enjoying what they were doing to her? And what she was doing to them?
Bezaffa gently stroked Ana’s back, as her tears soaked into her dressing gown
and dampened her ear as it pressed hard against the breast. Khedra pushed in
another video tape and Ana watched out of the corner of her eye as it jerked
into action. It was then that she got another very horrid shock. There was
Binta again: quite clearly enjoying the sexual attention of another person. But
that other person, seen from such a strange angle, and quite as active in
lovemaking as Binta herself: it was someone very familiar, but curiously not
familiar at all.
Ana had
never seen a film of herself before, except in the video screens of security
cameras in the malls of Blad. And in those cases, she’d been fully clothed and
really doing nothing more than walking past, looking to one side of the camera,
as the screen would be in a quite different location to the lens. Here though
was that same curious sensation of self-recognition, but this time in positions
and poses she’d only briefly viewed in the same mirror which had recorded her
in her sexual play. She breathed in deeply, her eyes swelling with shock and
fear.
“I need not
tell you, m’dear, how the law of this land views such sexual transgressions as
this. It’s a serious offence, punishable as you know by imprisonment or, if you
are very lucky, penal servitude in the same august institution where you
currently earn a living. As you can see, Khedra and I have here rather
undeniable evidence of your criminal activity. That is you, isn’t it, enjoying
yourself in such a disgusting if rather titillating way. And dear me! There
really doesn’t appear to be any evidence of reluctance on your part, m’dear.
You really do seem to be a willing party to all this behaviour. My goodness!
Just look at that! Don’t the two of you seem to be having such a good time!
What have you got to say, m’dear? It is you there, isn’t it?”
The naked
Ana on the video tape chose this moment to look directly into the mirror, her
head emerging from between Binta’s legs with a strange wild expression that the
Ana in Bezaffa’s living room had never seen on herself before. Seen like this
there really seemed no difference between this Ana and the women she’d seen
making love to men on the other video tapes. Ana nodded, looking towards the
video, squeezing Bezaffa’s chubby white hand so tightly that blue marks rose on
the soft white skin.
“What are
you going to do?” she asked through a voice that emerged from deep inside a
hollow breast. Her heart pounded hard inside her chest and her stomach
fluttered with a fear that promised to erupt into a fresh outpouring of vomit
from her raw punished throat. “Are you going to have me arrested?”
The
Director smiled grimly and triumphantly. “In a court of law this would be
pretty well conclusive evidence - wouldn’t you say? - of
misdemeanours which attract quite harsh penalties. Not just for you, of course,
although I daresay your main concern is quite understandably yourself. What
would an unsympathetic judge and jury think of someone indulging in such filthy
behaviour with a known lesbian? But it is also of concern, of course, to your
dyke friend, Binta. She would not be let off easily. A second offence committed
while serving a sentence for the first. She may never again emerge a free
woman. Dearie me! That would be sad, wouldn’t it, m’dear?”
“What do
you want me to do?”
“I’d have
thought that was fairly obvious from all the hard work that dear Khedra has
been putting in on your behalf. The administration of the Brothel - Khedra and I
- is quite willing to turn a blind eye on your criminal transgressions, if you
are ready to show yourself willing to compromise on our behalf. And Khedra has
already spelt out the great advantages of working part-time in such a capacity.
You really have nothing to lose by taking up our generous offer. And I really
do not need to spell out the penalty of non-cooperation.”
“You mean I
have to work as a prostitute? A whore? Have strange
men see me every day?”
The
Director smirked. He pulled a cigarette out of his cigarette case and tapped it
a few times on the silver exterior. “Describe it how you like, m’dear. But essentially,
yes. A little bit of effort on your behalf and we’ll never mention your
criminal acts to anyone.”
Ana leaned
forward, tears gushing from her eyes and her mouth forming such ugly shapes as
she confronted her helplessness. “What shall I do? What can I do? Can’t anybody
help me?”
Bezaffa
stroked Ana comfortingly on the back, and then bent her head down and nuzzled
it against Ana’s own. “You know the answers, sweetest. You really do not have
any choice. Not really! And it’s not such a bad choice. Not a bad choice at
all! Either imprisonment and stigma for you (and worse
for sweet little Binta!) on the one hand; and riches and rewards for such
little pain on the other. You really have no choice. Just say yes! Sign the
forms darling Khedra has provided and you need worry no more.”
Ana looked
closely into Bezaffa’s face which was so close to her: the pretty blue eyes,
the smooth round face, the sympathetic smile. A sudden rush of hatred and
loathing shook her slender frame, flushing her forehead with an exhilarating
heat of passion.
“You
betrayed me!” she exclaimed with a sudden appalled insight. “Betrayed
me!”
She pushed
herself off Bezaffa, throwing herself down on the length of the sofa, hardly
caring as the towel fell off her breasts and revealed herself nearly as naked
as the cheerful and ecstatic image of herself on the television engaged so
passionately with Binta. Ana didn’t care. Her humiliation was nearly as
complete as it possibly be. What difference did a
little more make? Bezaffa sounded hurt by the accusation.
“I didn’t
betray you, cherry. I didn’t. What we have done together...”
“I hate
you! I hate you! You betrayed me! You used and abused me! You took advantage of
me!”
“Bezaffa
hasn’t betrayed you, Ana darling,” Khedra remarked, kneeling amongst the video
tapes and with a touch of sympathetic emotion in her voice. “If anything, she
has compromised herself. She didn’t know about these videos any more than you.
If anyone betrayed you, it was you. With your naïveté and
blatancy. Don’t think we didn’t notice you and Binta: always together,
and you staying overnight in the Brothel. You really could have been a lot more
discrete, you know. It was just a matter of time. You know that!”
“It’s not
right! It can’t be right! I’ve done nothing wrong! Nothing! It’s love! That’s
all! Love! We’re in love, Binta and I. Why must it be condemned? It can’t be
right, when something so true and good and pure and wonderful between us ...
Waaahhh!” Ana cried in helpless agony, resting her tear-strewn face on her palms,
elbows supported on her knees, and the raw red wound of her face and emotions
spilling drops of despair onto her breasts and the towel over her thighs. “I’ve
been betrayed! Betrayed!”
The
Director placed his unlit cigarette into the holder and with a grandiloquent
gesture lit it with his lighter. He puffed out a large cloud which ascended
into the already smoke-filled air and gradually descended in a grey-blue mist
over Ana’s bare shoulders.
“Talking of
betrayal, m’dear,” he commented in slow even terms, “there is more that we can
show you. Your dyke lover is really no saint - not that anyone has ever accused
her of being so. You really should have chosen your friends much more carefully
you know.”
Ana raised
her head and glared at the Director. “What are you saying about Binta?”
“Show her
Khedra!” commanded Mr Madir, leaning back with a contented and malevolent grin
on his face. “Show what a little angel Binta can be.”
Khedra
sighed reluctantly, but obediently ejected the video tape of Binta and Ana, and
slipped in another. Ana looked at the screen with sore red
eyes, a trail of clear salty snot emerging from her left nostril and sneaking
into her mouth. She huddled up out of reach from Bezaffa who sat in
discomfort at the other end of the sofa. The video whirred and clanked into
motion and then the screen flickered into focus.
It was
Binta again. That Ana was sure. She’d now seen enough of Binta on video tape to
be certain that it was her lover. And, again, she was with someone. And this
time it wasn’t Ana. But she was making love, with the same visible passion that
she’d just witnessed in the last video. And she wasn’t making love with a
client. No client looked like that. Not so slender, young ... or feminine.
Or black!
There was
only one black person in the Brothel. There had, in fact, only been one black
person that Ana had seen in her entire time in Blad. Black people were not
native to Alif and very few indeed had ever ventured in at any time in its long
turbulent history. The woman who was with Binta. And enjoying her caresses. And whose caresses were being
enjoyed. This woman was undoubtedly Ferhana.
Ana stared and stared. It
couldn’t be. It must be an illusion. It can’t be true. But the black woman’s
face rose from the
“Now will
you do the right thing, m’dear?” asked the Director kindly.
Ana stared
back at the video as Ferhana and Binta stretched out on the long length of that
familiar bed, their arms around each other and Ferhana’s fingers where Ana
believed no other woman should ever intrude. She squeezed shut her eyes. Go
away! she whispered to herself. Don’t be true! She opened
her eyes, and focused through the salty film that had attached to her retina.
It was still Ferhana and Binta. Together!
“What are
you going to do, sweetest?” Khedra asked. “Will you volunteer to a bit of
part-time work? It really won’t do you any harm.”
Ana
vigorously nodded her head. Her humiliation was complete. She didn’t care that
her breasts were uncovered or that her face was an ugly contorted tear-stained
mess of misery.
“Yes!” she
announced emphatically and despairingly. “Yes! Yes! I will! I’ll do everything
you say. Everything!”