I'm sorry it has to be this way. I lied when I said there was nothing wrong besides the coach. I got this illness that there ain't no cure for and its going to kill me soon. I just wanted a nice time with you. There is nothing the doctors say they can do about it and I didnt want it to ruin are good time together. I do so love you and only you. There was some other guys but I never felt like I do for you. I love you and there is nobody else I love like you. I know you love me to like I do you. I told you there is a fate and we was meant to be together the way we are for some reason I really think its to teach you there IS more than your science. Maybe your right and my idea of what God is aint right and the bible is messed up. But there is more and a creator and he loves his creations and we all can be together after this life.

Now you can't argue back for a change! hahahahaha

I am going to get sicker and weaker and end up in bed being taken care of and fed like a baby. I don't want that to happen to me. I wanted to have a good time with you so I lied about being sick. You understand.

I did have the best time ever! I so love you! Noting is your fault. Understand? Or mine. It just is like so many things are. They just are. I will always love you. This sickness is getting bad now. My hair went white. I didnt bleech it. I cant gain waight. I only get skinier. And I get so tired and weak all the time now. I know it is going to make me stay in bed soon so I wont let it. And I wont go back to that school. This is the best chance I got and I got to take it.

I got to be with you again and I wish it could be longer but you know how tired I am geting and in a week I will be even worse. I dont want you to see that and I dont want to be like that. Think about me like I am not like I will be.

I guess I am suposed to say something real smart and like that but I dont know what. You could probbly think of something. I only want to say you should find a new guy and dont miss me to much. Dont give up or anything just becase we cant stay with you. The next guy might be even better than me but I bet he cant love you more. Be good and take car of your self. Okay? Be happy you dont have to watch me get sick. We will see each other sooner then you think I bet. 

Thanks for the doobs dude. And all the good times. If I had one wish it would be to be with you no matter what and live together forever. Make a Wish people cant make that one come true. I am so glad I got this week with you. I was afraid I was going to be to sick all ready. I am but not like I was afraid. You took alot of energy! 

Please let some body else see that okay? There is some body close to you who will if you want it. I see that. I dont know who but you do all ready I think. Its in your soul ahead of you. This time you cant argue back on that ether!

HA HA HA HA

I will always so love you!

Tobias

Chapter 10: Tuesday Night: Yet Another Birthday Surprise