Date: Fri, 1 Mar 2002 03:02:23 EST From: firstname.lastname@example.org Subject: Life of A boy (m/m, youngfriends) DISCLAIMER: The following story is a true tale about my life experience with sex while I was growing up. This story is the truth word for word, nothing has been made up and no names where changed. If you are offended by material that depicts young boys in sexual acts well then don't even bother reading past this disclaimer, if you would like to know more about me email me at email@example.com and I will respond, don't send flames because all it does is waste your time because I actually enjoy reading them. Other than that enjoy my story, hope you like it, as u can tell while you read it, I am not a professional story writer so bare with me. The Life of a Boy As I sit here on my rack, hearing my friend bitch and moan on how much he sucks at the game he's playing (grand theft auto 3) I wonder how I got myself into this mess. I guess I have to look way back into my childhood to find the reason. There are days where I hate being a sailor in the world's 'finest' military, those days are really depressing for me, I had always been a happy person, always having fun, joking with friends, just totally living life to the fullest. Ever since I joined the military my life has totally changed, im more serious about everything, it's a miracle when I crack a smile, really not enjoying life. I sometimes regret signing that dotted line basically giving my life away, I regret it because even though I complained about the life I had before, I still had it made compared to what im doing now. I miss my friends, family, and specially my mom. I miss going out with my friends at night, driving to El Camino Real in South San Francisco all the way down to San Jose just joking and listening to music, I miss going to raves, specially massives. I remember when I was about 7 years old watching the news on desert storm, watching those tracer bullets trying to hit out pilots, I remember how I thought it was an awesome thing, after that I saw that, I totally fell in love with the military, I fell in love with what I saw on TV not realizing how much it really sucks. I was born in central america (yes im a Latin and damn proud of it) I don't have many memories of me living there. The very few memories I have are a bit weird and screwed up for a 5 year old boy to have. For example, I clearly remember having my first sex experience at age 5, yes I know I was way too young to even know what sex was, but believe it or not I did have 'sex' or what ever you want to call it. I remember the older boys in the daycare I was attending make some friends and I give them their little pleasure for the day, I remember them making us act out a scene and fuck each other, I liked doing it, it was one of those things that while I was doing it I loved it but now that I think about it I was a bit afraid of those boys, specially when they force us to suck on their dicks. The people I've told this to (not very many, all internet friends) say I was abused and forced in to it, maybe I was. I remember knowing those boys were going to be in the bathroom during our breaks but I still went, I remember I liked sticking my dick in my friends butt and fucking him, I liked it all. But I also remember that when those boys asked us to suck on their dicks we refused to do it, they would always end up making us. There was this one boy who always wanted me to suck his dick and his dick only, one day I remember not wanting to do it so he smacked me across my face, he eventually forced his dick in my mouth. I guess that can be considered abuse, but is it abuse even if I got a hard on and liked what their doing? Well there you have an example of how screwed up my life began, well it was an experience I will never forget. My mom and dad decided to move us in with them, they where living in San Francisco, California. I was still 5 when I came to the U.S.A. My first school here in the states was John Muir Elementary School. The first day of school sucked ass, being new to a school is hard enough now being new to a whole country man it was hard to get adjusted. I quickly made new friends, all of them where really kool and fun to hang around with. There was this one boy who became my best friend, his name was Steven, I remember I loved to hold his hand during our field trips and really enjoyed taking a piss with him just so that I could get a glimpse of his perfectly circumcised dick. I don't know why I felt the way I did about him maybe because of his great looks (brown hair, blue eyes, dimples in both cheeks, always red in hot or warm weather, just an adorable little boy) or maybe because he was just a great friend, I think it was both. We ended up being really good friends at the end of first grade, always hanging out, playing tball and little league together, lucky for me we where both in the same teams. Right on the middle of summer after 4th grade my mom got a call from Steven's parents. I knew something was really wrong, I saw her start to cry and hang up the phone. At first I didn't know it was from his parents, I thought there was something wrong with something else, she walked over to me and gave me a big hug and kneels down. She didn't say anything she just kept looking at me dead on the eyes and crying, I guess she just couldn't find the right words to say, I kept asking what was wrong but got no answer, suddenly she broke the news and told me that Steven had just died. I couldn't believe it, I didn't know how to react, the first thing that came to mind is run and run as fast as you can to Steven's house. I ran out my house as fast as my little legs took me, on the way to his house it hit me that it could be true, when I got there I almost brought the door down with my knocking, his dad opened the door with a blank look on his face. I knew it was true when I saw him, I just dropped to my knees and started to cry, I cried and cried as hard as I could. His dad picked me up and gave me a hug and cried right along with me, I've never seen a grown man cry like that before, he was crying just like a baby, but after losing a son I expected nothing less. My mom came to his house after a few minutes and tried comforting me, but really didn't work I was feeling like shit. It had turned out that Steven was hit by a teenager who had just gotten her driving permit while he was riding his bike early that morning, he died in the hospital in his mothers arms. He was pronounced brain dead at 2:04 pm on a perfect Saturday afternoon, he left us in a beautiful afternoon, just like him, he was a beautiful kid. His funeral was something that's been burned into my memory for ever, I was one of the guys carrying his casket to his grave, I was just stunned through out the ceremony I was told I was spaced out . People don't believe me when I say this but I saw my friend watching us during his funeral, I saw him holding a lady's hand I clearly saw both of their faces, I snapped out of it when I saw him walking away, I saw him disappear slowly, that's when I went nuts. When I saw his casket slowly being lowered I started to cry and ran and jumped on top of it, I didn't want to let go I just couldn't. Everyone began to cry when they saw how desperate I was too keep him as long as I could with us, I didn't want to let go. I was pulled off by the priest, I was kicking and bitting, I was doing everything I could to try to keep him with me as long as I could. That entire day was really hard for me, I didn't eat or drink anything, the entire day I was spaced out and when ever I came to, it was only to cry. After about a week of pure hell for me, I got to talk to Steven's mom again, I told her what I saw during the funeral, she began to cry and told me that the lady I described was her mother and that she saw them also. That night I had a dream about him, I saw him playing and joking around like he used to, when ever I tried talking to him he heard nothing and kept playing, I tried doing everything possible to get his attention but got nothing. I was starting to give up when he finally answered "hey hey dude, im having fun man don't worry...ill see u laters" after that I felt a bit better for some reason. I woke up in a puddle of tears, the pain that I kept in my chest went away, I still felt empty inside but also felt relieved, I've been told it was because I got to say goodbye. To this day I still remember how much fun we had, how much I loved him and how much I miss him, Its really hard for me to talk about him, there are days where I still cry, for instance right now as Im typing this im hurting and crying for my friend, I carry a picture of us in my wallet, I know he's watching over me. I decided my 5th grade year was going to be better, I started a bit rough but it got better as it went along. I had new friends and was talking to a girl who I really liked, her name was Alexis a really hot blond girl that sat right next to me in class. One day during our lunch break we where walking around the school, holding hands and talking when she suddenly asked me if I wanted to be her boyfriend (I find it funny now that she asked ME out) I of course said yes, we walked over to a lonely part of the school and began to make out, since it was our first kiss I didn't know what to do, she did though, she did the whole tongue thing, something I didn't know about. Maybe a month into our 'relationship' we started to experiment with sex, at first it was me trying to feel on her pussy as she would feel on my balls and dick, by this time I was already jacking off so I showed her how to do it for me, she only did it once for me. The day we had sex was the day before Halloween, my friend had let me borrow a porno since I was running out of material to help me masturbate (I was a horny little boy, I maybe masturbated 3 times a day, sometimes more) I didn't notice that my bag pack was open while I was going home on the school bus when Alexis saw it. She snatched it out of my bag pack and started to look at it, it was an embarrassing moment for me, I probably turned all kinds of colors. As she was looking at the porn she got closer and asked if I wanted to try what they where doing, she was looking at a guy and a chick fuck. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, all this time my friends and I had been trying to get laid but had no luck with it, now I had the chance to at least stick it in, I had to try it I thought to myself "hell yes" I replied to her question. She asked if I could go to her house that day since her parents didn't come home till late, the only other person that was going to be in the house with us was Les, her little brother but since we where friends it was kool. When we got to her house we told her little brother to go play with his friends, we didn't tell him twice before he ran out the house. My heart began to beat fast, she walked me to her room and locked the door. My head was filled with thoughts about all the sex videos I had seen, I wondered if it was going to be the same, my stomach began to hurt a bit making me even more nervous. We both laid on top of the bed not doing anything for a few minutes "sooo...are we going to start?" I asked anxiously, "I guess so" she replied as she started to pull her pants and panties off. The first thing I saw was her beautiful hairless pussy my eyes felt like they where going to pop out. By this time my heart was beating 100 beats per second, I thought I was going to puke and pass out. "don't blow this you pussy" I thought to myself as I got closer to Alexis, she was laying there half naked, I started to take my pants off and take my boxers off, I had the biggest boner of a life time. I got closer to her and got between her legs I grabbed her by her hips and brought her closer to me, I put my dick right in her and began to push in slowly, I felt as her pussy pulled my foreskin back, I kept pushing until all of my dick was in her. Her pussy was really tight and warm I couldn't believe I was actually doing this. After a few minutes of fucking I started to have my orgasm, it was one of the most intense orgasms I've ever had, and its still one of the best. When our little fuck session was over I went back home a bit sore from my dick, but feeling a lot better about myself and of course feeling on top of the world. The next day at school was really fun, all the chances we had to at least stick my dick in her we took, specially going back home while we was riding the bus. All the kids knew that we where fucking but we didn't care. By the end of the school year we where experienced lovers, or so I thought. Also there was the possibility we needed to break up because of the school change, I was going to a school across the city while she was going to a school near her house, we decided to end it before summer vacation. It sucked big time breaking up with her but I can look back now and I can honestly say it was one of the best times in my life so far. That summer we moved to a brand new apartment complex called "Del Carlo Court" its at Army and Mission st. If your from San Francisco you know what im talking about. The people there where pretty nice, or so I thought. We where the third family to move in so we saw everyone else move in after, I go to meet all the kids as they where moving in but they where all older or just not the kind of person I would make good friends with. One of the last families to move in was a family who I thought seemed pretty kool, a hot mom and a huge dad, I was only able to meet the youngest daughter who was five years old, they told me they had a son who was seven but was at his cousin's house, "hmm" I thought to myself, "he's seven im eleven maybe we can be friends, who knows". The way we met wasn't all that good, in fact I hated the little bastard. I was playing in the court yard with my cousin and brother when I felt something hit me from the back, when I turn I saw a stupid little rubber spider next to me, I picked it up and through it aside, already pissed off at who ever threw it. A few minutes later I hear a kid calling me and telling me to throw the spider back "SHIT...ok ill fucking do it" I mumbled to myself. I picked the spider up and threw it as hard as I could at him, he just started laughing and threw it back, now I was really pissed off "FUCK YOU!" I yelled as hard as I could and ran upstairs to his apartment. First I started knocking really calm and soft, when nobody answered I started to bang on the door, when out comes his huge dad, I just about pissed my pants. He welcomed me in and told me to sit on his couch, I thought this guy was going to kill me or something, his size is just incredible. After waiting for a little while here comes that little bastard who threw the spider at me, "hey man, lets go up to my room ok??" he asked as if nothing had just happened. I don't know what got into me but when I saw him something stirred inside of me and just totally forgot about what had just happened, I walked up to his room and sat on his bed "the names' Joseph....what's yours?" he said extending his hand for me to shake it, I looked at his hand to see if he had something on it, I wasn't about to trust this little bastard. I saw he had nothing so I shook his hand, "nando" I replied as I checked my hand to see if I had anything on it, still a bit suspicious. "sorry about the spider thing..." he said still laughing I told him it was all good but if he ever did it again I was going to stick my foot deep in his ass. He got a kick out of that one, he started to laugh again, At first I started to get angry again but when I saw how cute he looked I just couldn't be mad at him. We chilled for a little while, talking about what we liked, we found out we had a lot of things in common, we liked the same colors (red and purple) we liked the same rap groups, we even liked the same food, just about everything I liked he liked. I went back home thinking he was a kool kid, where before I thought he was a total jack ass. We started to hang out more after that day, we had like the best times ever together, we played a shit load of games that I thought where boring before I met him, but for some reason he made the games better. During the middle of that summer my mom and dad decided to take me back "home" to where I was born, even though I didn't remember jack shit about it, I thought it was a good idea since I was beginning to hit puberty and get weird. The plane ride wasn't so bad, there was a really hot girl who I really liked sitting in front of me so that kept me busy through out the trip. We where picked up by the family who I never had met, my mom started to bawl when she saw them, I guess it had been a long time since they had seen each other, all I know I was embarrassed like hell. I got to see how crappy the city really was but as we started heading to where I we was going to stay at I really liked it, had nice palm trees all over, the streets where really clean and the people looked to be high class, I know I sound like a stuck up little boy but hey I was an annoying little brat and not to mention a bit conceited but this is all thanks to modeling, anyways I was really enjoying central america now, as we where pulling into the drive way of the house where we was going to stay in I noticed my next door neighbors they seemed really nice folks, but what I totally liked was their daughter, a cute blond hair, hazel eyes chick that was really hot, I couldn't keep my eyes off of her when I saw a light brown hair, hazel eyes, very cute boy walking out her house coming our way. I got out the car and started to head toward the door when I heard him calling me "hi..." he said, I was a bit shocked, I didn't know people spoke English "hey dude..." I answered back not really interested, just to seem kool. "you must be the kid from america....I heard my mom talking about you guys....said she was good friends with your mom..." I was a bit impressed, his English wasn't bad at all actually it was pretty good "yup..that's me..." I replied still trying to seem kool "hey man I gotta unpack ill catch you laters" I told him as I was walking in "hey....is it ok if I help...you know just to hang around for a bit..." he already had one of my bags in his hands and plus my mom was next to me with a look in her eyes, basically threatening me "yah I guess so...as long as you only touch what I tell u to touch...got it?!" I said and walked in. The room that was given to me wasn't bad at all, I had a balcony and a pretty good view of the pool and beach "put my bags on the bed and close the door behind you....make sure the shits locked" I ordered "man...your a bit bossy...chill man if you don't want me here ill leave..." he replied, making me feel a bit bad "no man...im sorry im just tired is all...your kool bro you can stay.." I sat on the bed and opened my bag, and out came my sega "you got one?" I asked as I was looking for a tv to hook it up to "shit! don't fucken tell me theres no TV!!" I yelled "no man I don't have one, and umm if you want you can come over my house to hook it up when ever you want...don't worry my mom is really kool" I thought about it for a sec, it sounded good to me since there was no fucken tv in my room "k..sounds like a plan...but for now help me unpack" we started to unpack all my clothes, he started to laugh when he saw my speedos. "you wear these?...they look like their for girls..." "fuck you dude, put that shit away" I told him trying not to laugh at the look he had on his face, "and yes that's my porn...put that under my pillow man" I couldn't help it, I started to laugh my ass off "let me borrow some...please...I wont tell no one promise" I sure as hell wasn't about to let this kid who I barely met and still had no clue what his name was borrow my precious porn "fuck no...you hear that...fuck no man..that's like my favorite man...if you want to see them your going to see them here" I told him "ok...but its not my fault if you see something you didn't want to...ok?" that caught me off guard, I didn't know if he really meant what I thought he meant of if it was something else "yah..same here if you see something don't tell no one, cuz I do get hella horny...deal?" "deal..." he replied and shook my hand. We finished unpacking and rearranging the room to where I felt comfortable, I learned his name was Oscar and that the girl I first saw was his 15 year old sister, I also learned that we where really good friends when we where younger. I asked him what he liked to do for fun, I really wanted to know since I was going to be stuck with him for a whole month in a country I didn't know. He skate boarded too so that really kicked ass, I had a feeling we was going to end up being good friends. The rest of the day we spent talking about how school was for me and how school was for him, I remembered I came to pre-k here so I asked if we where in the same school together, he said that we was and that we had the same teacher also. I was about to ask him about those older boys but decided not too. The day had turned from bad to really good, I was liking him a lot, he didn't seem to be lame at all. As we where coming out my room I saw his sister in the living room, I asked him to introduce us, he didn't want to atfirst but came around to it. We didnt speak all that much, I found her name out and got a complemented, she said I was cute. My parents seemed to be enoying the day also, the only ones that where hating it was my sister and brother, but then again they always hate family outings, my sister because her cellphone didnt work and my brother because his friends wasnt with him. I sat around the living room with Oscar and his family just to kill time, it was a rare thing since im the first one to be gone when my mom and dad are with their friends, they usually make fun of me, specially the guys. They said I was abit on the feminine side, that I shouldnt be using lotion and hair gel and trying to look pretty since I wasnt a female, that only females do that sort of stuff, my defense againts that was my modeling, I always used that as an excuse. I decided to try the pool out it was a hot day, my parents where in a great mood, and dad and Oscar's dad where barbecuing on the pool deck, I thought it was a good idea. I told Oscar about the idea and ran upstairs to change "hey..I dont have any shorts, ill be right back ok...ill get some" "no no man I got you, ill let you borrow some of mine no worries.." I said as he was rushing out the door "try these on...they should fit" I told him as I tossed him a pair of my "hawaiin red shorts" as I call them. I started getting naked infront of him, really not thinking "heyyyy man! cover up...I dun wanna see that!!!" I started to laugh "its not like you dont have one man...here look...mines bigger.." I got closer to him letting him take a look at my dick "hell no man....yours like....small man" we both started laughing "umm can you turn around please...I like my privacy" he said, I saw that he was blushing alittle so I didnt want him to feel bad "sure man not a prob...I know you dont want me to make fun of your tiny dick..its ok I understand" "tiny? HA! no way man...mines way bigger than yours!" he said as he was taking his pants off, my heart stopped when I saw how good his cock looked, specially when he pulled his foreskin back "there...see its not tiny...and its bigger than yours..." I felt my dick getting hard, I knew if I kept looking at his cock I was goin to be hard in no time "yah fucken right man....umm actually I think their the same size...funny aint it....ok man lets go to the pool now..." I said as I was walking out the room. I was really pissed off I did that but really didnt know this kid much so I didnt know what he liked and what he didnt like, I decided to wait awhile before I started flirting. When I got to the pool I did a killer canon ball "Top that!.. " I yelled at Oscar "alright man, check this out" He ran and did an even better canon ball with killer splash, I was waiting for him at the bottom of the pool and grabbed him as soon as he came down, we started to wrestle around and dipping each other, we had a blast the rest of the day. When dinner came around both families where there, mom sent me and Oscar upstairs to change into some dry clothes. As we where changin again, he asked if he could spend the night I thought it wasnt a bad idea at all, actually I thought it was a great idea, I was missing Joseph and all my friends abit so being with someone that didn't belong to my family was goin to help. Both our parents agreed that it would be a great idea, his mom made a comment about how great friends we where when we where younger that it was only natural for us to "click" and be great friends again, and I do agree, we did click fast. The night started with us playing my sega, his dad was nice enough to bring Oscar's T.V into my room, then it was followed by storys about our lifes, I was still anxious to know if he knew those older boys from pre-k, I needed to ask him but couldnt find the right words "hey can I ask u something man?.." he said as I was ready to ask him "ummm sure..wuts up.." "do you remember a guy named Jonathan at our old school?" he asked, my jaw dropped when I heard the name, it was one of the older boys that used to fuck me "yah man..umm did you know him really good" I asked abit nervous, but still wanting to know if he did "yah...do you remember what use to make us do?" he began to blush after he asked "I remember man...but I dont remember you there..." I was more interested in what they made him do, maybe he was in while I was in, I wanted to know. "oh man...you dont remember?" he started to smile abit "no dude tell me...please" he began to blush again "well if you want to....you really dont have to.." I said really not wanting him to feel pressured "ok man...but your prolly gonna get mad...member how they made us pretend you was cheating on a guy?...well that guy was me man....I was the one that use to...you know man...I dont have to remind you" I was surprised at what I heard, I really wasn't expecting that! "yahhh man...I remember that....I didnt think that was you though....I dont remember..." I replied, now I was the one blushing. The room was quite for a few minutes, you couldve heard a pin dropp in that room I needed to break the ice and say something before it whent all to hell "man you sucked bro....you didnt know what the hell you was doing" I said jokingly, "no way!...you know you use to like it....and you know im the best" he giggled "ok ok man honestly....I did like it...still do.." we both started to laugh, I guess he took that as a joke even though I was telling the truth, I did enjoy having him in me even if his dick didnt reach too deep inside but it still felt great I just didnt want him to know just yet. "your playing right?....u serious man?" he asked looking abit concerned, it kinda scared me, I thought I had fucked up "its ok...If you...if you liked it...I liked it too.." I looked at him. I guess I had a weird look on my face too cuz he started to blush once more "bullshit man...no joke?" I asked, "no joke...I liked it..." he replied, my heart started to race again, I couldnt believe he was telling me this, the room was quiet again, I didnt know what to say or do to break the ice this time, we said nothing for a long time, I guess we had nothing else to say about the subject. It was a bitter sweet kind of a thing, we both had been victims of horny boys who only used us as sex objects but then again we enjoyed doing it to each other. I didnt know if him liking what we did along time ago could be good since I was mad horny and looking to fuck, "maybe he doesnt like doing that sort of stuff now", I thought to myself. My mind whent into overdrive to think up a plan to really find out if he's into that kind of stuff, the only thing that came to mind was the porno I had "heyyyyy man I got a kick ass idea...you might like it...u game?" I said as I got up and walked over to where we had stashed the porn "yah! man...I think I know what your talkin bout....well I hope you are...ummm are you? I had a huge grin on my face "lookie lookie what I have on my hands..." we both started to giggle "yup! wut I thought so...bring em over" he said with a huge smile on his face. I tossed the mags over to him and locked the door. I was already getting a hardon not over the porn but because my mind already had thoughts of sex with Oscar "scoot over man lemme get in this action.." I said as I was sitting down ontop of my bed "shit...look at her man....she's hot aint she?" he asked "yah dude she's like the hottest porn star alive!" I was talking about Houston, shes trully a hot one. I leaned back againts my pillow to make my boner abit more obvious, I wanted him to look at it and possibly say something about it, and sure enough I caught him taking a peek "yup..thats a fine dick right there isnt it...I see u got mr.lizard up and alive too.." I said giggling "fine dick? no way dude...and yes sir my lizard is up and at em...got a prob with that man?" he said also giggling and looking down and inside his underwear. This was too much for me, I was already mad horny before this, now im just goin insane "dude if I start to jack off..dont worry...all you have to do is look away...unless you DO want to look..." I really wasnt expecting him to really take that seriously I was expecting something like "eww man thats gross" or something in that matter I got no answer but his ear to ear smile was all I needed. I took my boxers off and through them across the room and began to work on my raging hard on, I started by just playing with my foreskin alittle, I would pull the skin back and bring it back over the head of my penis, then I would pull it back down and pull it over the head of my penis again. All this time I really wasnt paying attention at what Oscar was up to, I still thought he was looking at the porn, I turned to see what he was up to and saw him doing the same thing, his dick looked to be around 5 inches just like mine but alittle thinner and with a slight upwards curve, not to sound like im braggin but Ive always had the biggest dick out of all my friends specially the fattest, my dick is just really fat specially around the base "oww damn..shit feels awesome dude...doesnt it.." I asked him "yah man..oww god...im fucken mad horny right now" he said, I couldnt keep my eyes off him, his dick was looking alittle too tempting, I wanted it bad now. "hey your horny...im horny....we done this already...so ummm...do you want to...ummm try what we did back in the days again...its ok if you say no" I stopped playing with my dick when I heard him say that and turned to him "you serious man...i mean its kool with me...but you sure?" I asked him, still not believing I just heard that come out his mouth "yup..oooww...dead...serious..." he said moaning in between the words, he was working on his dick madly, it looked and sounded like he wanted it as much as I did and I wasnt about to say no. I go up off of bed and put the pornos away, I sat back down on the edge of the bed still watching Oscar jack off "sooooooo how are we goin to do this?" I asked still new to this sort of thing "first u need to lay back down on the bed and let me something to you...what ever you do DONT MOVE! just lay down and enjoy" he replied. I did as I was told and layed down, he got up off of bed and walked over to where I was at and kneeled down between my legs, by now my heart was beating faster than a speeding bullet and not to mention I was nervous "youll like this...I know it" he said and lowered his head, I felt him grab my dick and pull my foreskin down, then I felt something wet on my dick, I looked down and saw the head of my dick in his mouth, that enough made me weak to my knees, it felt so great I thought I was goin to pass out. I couldnt keep my eyes off him, he took my entire dick and began to suck on it running his tounge all around it from the head down to the base and taking my balls into his mouth forcing me to spread my legs even wider, I couldnt help but moan outloud from all of this "shhhhh man..your goin to get us caught" he said and dove back down and began his assualt on my boy cock "shii..shiit..ookkk..ill..keep..ill try to keep...to keep it down" I barely said, it was mostly moans than anything else. He kept sucking and licking all over my dick, slurping my dick all into his mouth and playing with my balls "duu..dude...you better...sto.stoppp...im gonna bust soon" I said as I felt that increadible orgasm coming up "no way man...cant let you do that...I just began" he replied and got up from between my legs, I didnt know what else he wanted to do but what ever it was I was game, specially if it felt that great "turn around on your stomach...this is goin to feel awesome..youll see" he said, I gladly did what he told me and turned over to my stomach "this is really goin to feel weird ok...just relax and let me know if it hurts" he said, I was ready for anything he had in mind, specially if it was what I hoped it was. I heard him spit but felt nothing wet so I turned around and saw him rubbing his spit all over his dick "yessss!" I thought to myself this is what I had been waiting for along time. I stuck my butt in the air to make it easy for him, I felt him spread my buttcheeks open and stick his boy meat between, he rested his dick there for a second and continued to probe my ass, soon I felt sliding in and heard his moans of pleasure, as he was pushing his dick deeper It began to sting just alittle, then as he got his dick halfway in the pain was alittle too much, it forced a loud moan out of me "you ok....you want me to stop? ill stop if you want" he asked really worried about me "no..no its ok...keep goin ill be fine....just go slow" I replied, I wasnt about to let him stop in the middle of something I was enjoying that much. He let me get used of his dick inside of me for abit and continued to force his dick in my tight ass. "oh shit man, your ass is so warm and tight" he said, his body shuddeing, "it feels so great!" he started to slide his dick in and out of my butthole "owww yeah" I moaned as I felt him sliding in and out "go faster...ill tell u if it hurts" I said even though it was burning and hurting alot more, I wanted to experience this fully. He layed motionless for a few seconds then he began to thrust into me "turn around...on your back" he said as he slid his dick out my ass making a slurping sound on the way out. I turned on my back and spread my legs for him, he took both of my legs and let them rest on top of his shoulders, once again he took his dick and lined it on the entrance of my butthole and began to slide it in, I moaned in pleasure when I felt his head slide deep inside my butt. I couldnt believe Oscar's dick was actually inside of me, and it felt great. He again began to thrust his hips in a nice slow motion "do it faster...please...doesnt hurt no more" I told him, he changed his rythm into a much faster pace started humping me really hard, his balls hitting my ass cheeks as he fucked me making him moan out loud. I tightened my ass just alittle around his dick making him moan alittle louder, I knew he probably wouldnt be able to last any longer at this rate, his fucking became really eratic, I heard him breathing harder and moaning louder, I could feel his dick jerking and spurting in my ass, I squeezed my ass alittle more tighter and listened to him grunt and moan during his orgasm, he slowly slid his limp dick out of my ass and layed next to me breathing hard "that..that right there was great..." I said still trying to catch my breath "uh huh.." is all that came out of him he was all out of breath too. I couldnt believe I had just fucked a boy who I just met earlier that day, I just couldnt believe it "k your turn.." he said and got off of bed and kneeled back down between my legs and began to work on my dick again. He licked me all over, not missing any part of my cock, running his tounge up and down my shaft and down my balls. He took one of my balls in his mouth and slowly began to suck on it, then moved back to my dick and began to suck faster and harder, my balls began to tense up, I knew it was almost time for me to cum. I arched my back and shot my load in his mouth, he kept sucking as fast as he could, I couldnt believe how good this was feeling I was in total ecstacy, he must have swallowed my entire load since I didnt see him spit nothing out it was abit gros since I had never done it before, I was goin to find out later how good it really is. That night we slept like babies, it was abit weird knowing that I had just had analsex with another boy, since your always told that its a bad evil thing and how nasty it is. I personally dont see why we feed our kids those lies, we basically brainwash them into our mirror images, we dont realise that they have their own personalities and maybe they like doing that sort of things like me. In a way I felt abit disgusted at what I had done but I also felt happy I've finally done something Ive enjoyed, not that I dont enjoyed the pussy I had. See this is the thing about me, I feel more comfortable with guys than with chicks, I guess its because I know how we males think and like things. With Oscar I felt like If I had known him all my life, maybe I felt more attached to him because of our history, and because he was put through the same crap I was put through by those boys in school. I felt relieved I had someone who knew how I felt, how much I enjoyed the sex but not being forced into it, I dont know it sounds pretty weird but I loved having the sex but not with the older boys, it makes me sick to my stomach when I think about them and how nasty their cocks where, now if I think about the guys who I wanted to have sex with I love it. I feel that no matter if both persons want to have sex with each other no matter the age I think it should be alright, kids DO know what sex is and should be able to choose themselves if they want to have it or not, I might be wrong, but in my case I knew what I wanted, and I know there are lots of kids out there who feel the same way I did. I felt something special for Oscar it felt just like Alexis and I where goin out, it was weird since he was a boy, it was one of those things that you know your wrong but you still do it because you like it no matter what, well I liked Oscar and nobody was goin to take that from me. The morning after our little session was great, the whole family seemed to be having a fun time and really getting along, I was happy because of what I had done but I was also confused. I had so many questions no one could be able to answer, thats why I appreciate boylovers out there who really care about boys and not use them just for sex, because I needed a boylover who understood what I was goin through, I needed that love that only a boylover can give a boy. Oscar was really happy we where turning out really good friends, I think he was even happier than me. All day we talked about tiny little things that really make no sence but when your inlove those stupid little things seem really important, yes I thought I was inlove, maybe it was part of my confusion but I felt a special little thing for him, not the kind of love you feel for a really good friend, but the love you feel for a girlfriend. Through out the summer we got really attached, we spent most of our time together, his family loved me and so did his sister, I really didnt notice at first but as I thought about it she would be flirting with me, really not making it too obvious but enough for me to catch on. On one ocation I was over at Oscar's house just hangin out, sitting on the couch when his sister walks in the room and sits right next to me and puts her hand right on my lap, I really didnt think much of it since I joked around with her that way. When she started getting closer to my dick I knew something was up, but what gave me the hint was when she squeezed it and started giggling and walked away as if nothing had just happened. I really wasnt planning on doing anything with his sister but she was really hot, and plus if I did ever do something with her, atleast a kiss, I would be able to bragg to my friends back home that a 15 year old chick gave ME a kiss, I must have thought about it a few hundred times before I gathered enough courage to flirt with her also. I decided that when ever she began to flirt I would match what ever she did but with more of a sexual twist to it, as I thought later that day she began flirting with me, trying the same squeezing my crotch deal again, this time I let her do it but she reached up and squeezed it I reached and squeezed on of her boobs, that surprised her enough to make her blush. By now I thought I was superman, I just had me a handful of 15 year old tits and it was awesome! for a boy who's horny all the time that was torture, I was ready to have sex with her but really didnt think it was ever goin to happen. Oscar noticed us flirting with each other abit and got jelous, his mood began to change, he was a total asshole, I didnt blame him since I was really ignoring him and just concentrating on getting some from his sister, I decided to stop doing that shit and keep messing around with him, not to sound cocky or as if im braggin about it but I was a good looking boy, girls would ask me to go out with them so I couldve had pussy any time, but a guy? no way I couldnt mess this up. After I stoped it seemed like his sister was flirting abit more, like I said before I didnt pay much attention to that even though it was really tough to do it. A few days passed, still I didnt want to do anything with her anymore, I still was attracted to her but the sexual attraction was fading real slowly. I guess my dad found out somehow becuase he had a 'serious talk' with me about girls, and how he wouldnt be mad at me if I have sex at such a young age, he was actually telling me to go out and have sex basically. He told me that Oscar's sister asked him if I could spend the night over her house, he said that atfirst he wasnt surprised at all but when she asked if Oscar could spend the night at my house then he began to suspect something was up, he was 'really proud' of me because of the chick I had wanting to have sex with me, I felt abit sick becuase of what my dad was saying, did it only matter how many girls I have sex with? I thought to myself specially because I was more attracted to boys, I just couldnt believe my dad had set up a fuck date for me and he even gave me a fucking condom, by now I was blushing and almost crying at how stupid my dad sounded, he was basically whoring me to her. I didnt said nothing, I just kept my mouth shut. Oscar was pissed off, her parents thought we where a 'cute couple' and we wasnt even goin out, by now everyone knew my business I didnt feel all that great, specially because her parents knew we was goin to fuck. It was just a sick thing that I was pressured in, well I guess it wasnt pressure because I enjoyed it. That night Oscar spent the night in my room, while I was sitting ontop of her bed not saying anything, just sitting down really shy. It was getting real late, we had did nothing all night but talk, I started to get ready for bed, I took my shirt and pants off while she looked at me, I started to blush again, specially at the little bulge I had in my boxers that made her giggle and point at it by the way. Now it was her turn, she put on a really good strip show for me, when she was stripped to her bra and panties I thought it was all over, oh but I was wrong. She undid her bra and tossed it aside, by now my dick was hurting thanks to my raging hard on. I tossed the sheets to cover my little visitor up just so that she wouldnt think I was some sort of pervert, she didnt like the idea of my dick being covered up so she pulled the sheets away, and made her way up to where I was at and sat right ontop of my stomach. I felt her tight, warm pussy lips pressing up againts me I honestly thought I was goin to pass out. She started to rub on my chest and bent down to kiss me on my neck, by now my dick was beggin for some attention. With my shaky hands I grabbed her by the waist band of her panties and tried to get them off, once I had them off I took my boxers off and tossed them aside, I was really feeling her nice hot pussy lips pressing on my belly now, totally blowing my mind away. We both where breathing hard as if we had just finished a marathon, but who wouldnt be breathing that hard in my situation. "dont be scared...just relax ok...ill do the rest" she said as she reached down for my cock with her right hand and with her left hand she spread her pussy lips for my dick to enter, she positioned herself right ontop my cock's head and slowly began to stick it in her, chills whent up and down my back when I felt my dick in her pussy. She slowly began to fuck my 11 year old dick, instead of her moaning and breathing hard it was me, I kept beggin her to fuck me harder and faster I wanted my entire dick to go deep inside of her "shiiit....yahhh...harder jessica...dont..stop.." was all that came out of my mouth. She kept bangin me with all she had I began to feel my balls tense up and my dick swell up more, I knew I was ready to shoot my load in her "im...gonna cum...owww shiiiiiitttttt!" I said as I shot my hot cum in her wet pussy, I couldnt believe that had just happened, I was shocked that I had just fucked me a hot chick. She layed ontop of me for a few more minutes waiting for my dick to go soft in her, she rolled over and layed next to me slowly rubbing on my chest and kissing me softly on my lips. We drifted off to sleep butt naked and with her legs on top of mine. The next morning everyone knew what had happened between us, everyone but Oscar, even her mom knew. Atfirst she was alittle worried that I was too young for her but she explained it was only a one time deal. I honestly felt used and abit dirty, I will admit that. Every one fuckin knew about it, and all they worried about was that I was a "man" that whole day I felt like all kinds of shit. I didnt want to see or talk to no one, not even Oscar. Late that afternoon after starving myself the whole day I decided I was too hungry and walked down stairs to the kitchen and made my self a sandwich, there stood my dad with a huge grin on his face. He walked up to me and gave me a huge hug "this deservs a celebration, ill call my brother and tell him about his nephew" he said as he handed me the phone. He was expecting me to call his fuckin brother and tell him that I had just lost my virgintiy to a chick, little did they know that I had lost it a few years back but not to a chick but to a dude and that I loved it compared to Jessica's fuck. Now Alexis, she was a great fuck, I have no complaints or regrets about her, maybe because it was more of making love than just sex. I through the phone back to my dad and ran upstairs chocking on my own tears, I just couldnt believe how stupid he was I really wanted to die right then and there. I ran up to my room and locked myself in, I didnt want to hear nobody or see nobody I just wanted to be alone. "hey..open up man...whats wrong?!" I heard Oscar outside my door knocking "nothing...ill be ok..." I replied as I tried to calm down abit "come on dude...open up...please?" he asked but with a concerned tone of voice, not that nossy crap I had been getting the entire day by the rest of the family, I got up and opened the door for my friend, there stood the boy I trully cared about, I dont know what got into me I just gave him a hug and began to cry on his shoulders, I couldnt stop crying, he slowly walked me back to the room and locked the door, he let me cry my eyes out on his shoulders "hey...please tell me whats wrong...i can help.." he said with a voice that I will always remember, I love is what I heard in his voice, love and concern for me, for once that entire day I felt loved for who I am not because I had just a chick. I explained to him what was goin on, he said nothing to me, he looked down for a while and looked back at me "sorry...sorry man...I know I shouldve never done it....IM SO STUPID!" I yelled, "no man...its ok bro...honest" he replied with a huge smile on his face. We sat on top of my bed holding each other, I didnt want that moment to end. The rest of our vacation I spent with no one but Oscar, we knew the day when we had to say goodbye was just around the corner, so we tryed making our time together as fun as possible. I was still feeling abit fucked up about having sex so he decided he wouldnt ask to have sex with me, I respected him even more for caring about me that much. We both had been forced into sex so he had an idea of how fucked up someone can feel, he was the only one that knew how nasty you feel, I guess it wasnt having sex with a girl that screwed me all up I think it was because everyone knew my business and because my dad acted really stupid about it. The day we left I was relieved but also feeling abit sad because I was leaving Oscar behind, we decided we was goin to write and talk to each other as much as possible and that he would visit us when ever possible, it sounded like a great plan to all of us. When we got back home I walked up to my room and locked myself in, I sat on my bed staring at the ceiling just remembering about the time Oscar and I had sex, it suddenly hit me that I wasnt goin to see Oscar in a long time, I felt lonely again. I was begining to doze off when a loud bang startled me, I opened the door to see what it was, there stood Joseph smiling at me "hey fucker...welcome back! I missed yah!!!...." he said as he walked inside my room "yah yah dick head, now get out...im not doing so good right now man....either come back or stay here and be quiet" I replied. I walked back into my room and closed my door, I laid ontop of my bed not wanting to be bothered. Joseph walked up to my bed and laid right next to me not saying a word, we laid there until I began to doze off. I woke up abit disoriented I rubbed my eyes and saw Joseph looking at me with a grin on his face "wut the fuck u lookin at....havent u seen people wake up before?" I asked "well...yah...but not with a huge boner u had...good dream huh?" he giggled, I threw a pillow at him and busted out laughing. We wrestled around for a while until we where called down for dinner. The rest of my summer was pretty dull except when Joseph came around, he always made my entire day really good. I was noticing we had become really good friends but I also noticed how much I really cared for him. My summer ended really good, I had really good memories of the past months and had a few bad ones but it didnt matter now. I focused on making my 6th grade year more fun, I promised myself I was goin to have more fun the entire school year. I had alot of things to look forward to, I had new friends, I was in a new school, I had everything goin my way. The school year began abit slow, but towards thanksgiving it picked alot more. Joseph seemed different, I didnt know then but something was trully different about him. Our friendship was tighter than ever, we both thought each other as being 'bestfriends' which was really good since my last bestfriend was Steven. My mom was really happy I once again had a friend that was close to me just like Steven was. Thanksgiving dinner was a blast, both our families got together and had a huge party, I got to meet his cousins and friends, and he got to meet mine, we all got along just fine even more than what I expected. Christmas vacation came rolling in quick, like usual I spent most of my time with Joseph just hangin around, still I couldnt find what was different about him until christmas eve. The day started out wonderful, we all got dressed up for a party 'del carlo court' was having all the residents of the apartment complex was goin to be there, including my family. The party was pretty good, after a while of hearing and watching all the grown ups do their own things Joseph and I got bored and decided to go back upstairs to his place. I cant say it was any better since we did nothing but sit around and watched some t.v. I noticed him moving closer and closer to me but really didnt make anything of it, we where flipping through the channels when we came upon the playboy channel, even though we couldnt see jack shit since it was blocked we still heard the moans, it was enough to give me a hardon that was totally obvious through my pants. Joseph started to laugh and make fun when I noticed a bulge in his pants also "no way bro.....your like hard too...so you cant say shit now!" I said and got up from the couch "this aint hard...watch" he replied while he stuck his hand down his pants and out came his dick, my jaw dropped all this time I had been wanting to get a glympse of his cock and finally I was getting a close up of it. His dick looked delicious to me, it was a nice perfectly circumcised cock maybe 4 inches, if that. He just stood there waving that cock of his, just laughing "heyyyy! man...wut u doing..put it away fore we get introuble" I said and watched him stick it back in his pants "u liked that didnt u.." he said in a tone of voice that sounded like if he was teasing me. I honestly loved what I had just seen but I wasnt goin to let him know that "no way dude...yer shits all punny and small...pathetic is wut it is" I replied we both started to laugh, we sat back down and kept watching tv, it must have been 1am when I began to doze off, Joseph was already knocked out leaning his head ontop of my shoulder. I rested my head ontop of his and driffted off to sleep with his dick still freshly in my memory. All I thought about that entire week was his dick, every chance I got to jack off I did. There was something about Joseph that I trully liked, and it wasnt his looks, it was just him, he was an amazing friend all he did was make me feel better no matter what, I love him for doing that. The rest of the school year was not so good, I kept my promise though I had all the fun I could, I had really good friends who made it easier for me to keep my promise. Summer was around the corner again and I had gotten older, hornier and was attracted to boys even more, specially Joseph who I had totally fallen in love with. It was the summer of 1994 when my entire life changed for ever. Summer vacation had a special feeling to it from the get go. My family had no plans to go out this year so that ment my entire summer was goin to be with none other than Joseph, even the weather was great, it was in the high 80's almost 90's Joseph and I spent most of our time either in his house being lazzy almost buttnaked or in my house doing the same thing, our summer outfits consisted of nothing but out boxers, and it was great since I got to get a glympse of that great cock of his, on my lucky days I got to see his butthole for a sec or two. which by the way totally blew my mind. It seemed that we where exposing our bodies to each other alot more also, we tested each other to see what we liked and what we didnt like, almost all the time we liked it, specially when we wrestled in our boxers, sometimes I would stick my semi erect penis right ontop of his buttcrack, he said nothing while I did it, he just returned the favor. This whent on for the majority of the summer, up until the day of the "dare" his cousins Raymond and Danny who by the way where extremely cute, Danny being a year older than me gave him the crazy idea that he could boss me around but it never worked out to his advantage, Raymond being the cutest of them both was eight yearls old just like Joseph, since Danny and I where the oldest we got to tell Joseph and Danny what to do, it was mostly stupid shit like making them get us drinks and food nothing all that major. By now my hormones where goin nuts, being sorrounded by cute guys all the time only in boxers and not being able to do nothing with them drove me crazy, being 12 is tough enough, now being 12, horny and to like guys, man I had it tough! The day of the "dare" Joseph and I where hangin out again in only boxers at his house really not doing anything speciall besides being lazzy, but then again what are summers for? That entire day we where both trying to find something fun to do besides sit around watching tv when I had a crazy idea, I suggested we should play truth or dare but that if we picked dare we had to do what ever that was, not matter if it was gross or stupid. We both agreed to the rules and shook on it just to seal the contract. The game started like any other truth or dare game, we dared each other to do stupid shit like throw a water baloon at a passing vehicle or eat 5 jalapeno peppers. I thought to myself it would be a good idea to see how far Joseph would go, I started by daring him to do more risky things, like stick his bare ass out the window for 2 minutes, he then dared me to stick my cock out to everyone, the game got twisted from a normal thruth or dare to a more sexual game. We kept it up for a few more dares until I decided to dare Joseph for something I had always wanted him to do, I expected him to refuse the dare, therefore crowning me the winner, when my turn came up I took a deep breath and whent for it "dude...I dare u...to jack me off" he stood there with a blank look on his face "ermm....ill fucken get u for this u sick bastard" he replied totally catching me by surprise "whoa dude u dont have to do it man...honest.." I said, ofcourse it was the total opposite, I wanted him to do it real bad more than ever "naw...so you can win?? ha! u gotta be kidden" he replied with a smurk on his face, I unzipped my pants and played with my dick to get a stiffy which wasnt all that hard "k man...get to work..do it real fast...umm..yah really fast" I said, already blushing and ready to be jacked off by this cutie "dang...heh...its big..." he replied as he took a look at my dick, he grabbed it by his right hand and rubbed the head "arghh..yah..like that but faster k?" I moaned, he began to stroke my dick faster and faster, as soon as he had a good rythm goin there was a knock on the fucking door "u guys get your asses downstairs right now you hear" my dad yelled, spooking both of us making us scatter like little bugs trying to find a hiding spot, I was trying to zip my pants back up cutting my dick in the process it made me scream like a little girl "what the hell are you guys doing in there...open this door" my dad ordered, luckily I was already dressed "no..nothing dad...Joseph kicked me is all" I replied still trying to hold back the tears from the horrible pain I was experiencing "ok then...your mom wants to talk to you guys...so get your butts down there right now you hear?" "yes sir" I replied Joseph was almost dying from laughing so hard, I so wanted to kick his ass that second but wasnt able to since I had "Major Pain" on my ass, oh by the way thats what my brother and I use to call my dad, he's a marine corps lieutenant, well he's retired now but he still tries to boss people around, and you guessed it the people he bosses around is us! When both of us made it downstairs my mom was waiting for us, she told Joseph that his mom and dad just called and that he was goin to be at my house for the rest of the day and would possibly spend the night, my eyes lite up with joy, this was goin to be the perfect opportunity for us to continue our little game I thought. That night things didnt work as planned, my brother had a few of his friends over and my sister had some of hers, our house was in total chaos, but fun. My mom ordered shit load of pizza and basically allowed us to do what ever we wanted, we all decided to have a nice fun game of hide and go seek which lasted all through the night. Thankfully we started lossing people, first we lost some of my brothers friends then we lost some of my sisters. Joseph and I had enough of the game, so we headed downstairs to the living room to cool down abit, we opened up all the windows and laid down on the carpet watching the full moon and the stars. We laid there for a while with out saying anything to each other "im horny...really horny" I busted out saying with no apparent reason, Joseph got off the floor and strattled me, sitting right ontop of my cock "oh really??...your making me horny" he replied with a huge grin on his face "yup...im as horny as can be...and I really dont care if I make u horny" I grabbed him by his waist and rubbed the side of his belly "stop that dude..if I get horny youll pay for it...ill fuck u till u beg for no more" he giggled. Fuck I was horny now, I wanted him bad "I dont care...right now im like super horny so ill do just about anyone...specially you" I responded with a smile from ear to ear "k...then...dare u to suck on my dick" he said with one hand inside his pants "ummm...not here dude...ill do it later....u gotta do me too dammit!" I whispered and gently pushed him off me, my raging boner was needing some attention and bad, and by the looks of it his dick also needed some attention of its own. We decided to pick up where we left off the next day. That night I wasnt able to sleep, all I did was picture him sucking on my dick, it was enough to make me cum all on its own. The next morning my shower lasted for what seemed hours, I wanted to "taste" good for him, I made sure I sprayed some cologne all over my balls and dick. As I was heading downstairs I heads my mom calling me, I knew this was bad, I went in her room, sat on her bed, I was nervous, I didnt want anything to spoil my day so I was real careful about what I was talking about, she started talking about my clothes and how ragedy I looked, this was heading down south and good, I knew where this was going to, before I said anything she decided to take me shopping for new clothes, I refused, bitched and moaned but with no success, we headed out to the mall pretty early that morning, I tried to rush through the shopping but it didnt help, we got done late in the afternoon, it totally ruined my day I thought, I was pretty ticked off. When we got home, I noticed some kids playing football on the courtyard but couldnt tell who it was, as we walked up to the gate I saw it was Joseph and his cousins, that topped it off now I was pissed off. I pouted all the way upstairs and locked myself in my room, I took all my clothes off tossed them aside opened the window and blasted my stereo. I probably wasnt in my room too long when I heard a knock on my door, I thought it was my mom so I just ignored it till the knocking turned into some bangin, I thought it was my dad so I jumped out my bed with my semi hard dick and opened the door "holy shit dude.....why u got a boner?" Joseph's cousin Raymond asked "dude..that is not a fucken boner!" I replied. I laid back down on my bed with my knees proped up, ofcourse doing it on porpuse just so that I acn show my balls off to cute Raymond. He sat right next to me and we started talkin, I kept noticing him trying to catch a glympse of my cock so I decided to make it easier for him, I sat up and spread my legs just alittle more, now I really began noticing him lookin at my dick instead of me while we talked. I noticed he had bulge in his pants totally sending my dick into erection overdrive, I just couldnt hide my boner anymore so I said fuck it and stopped trying to hide it. Our conversation was making no sence now, he was rubbin his boner, while I was trying to let him see more of my dick "dude...I got like a huge boner..u want to see?" I said, laughing in the middle of the sentence, he nodded accepting my offer, I couldnt believe this, I had Joseph who was goin to suck my dick and now him, this was way too good to be true, I reached up to my waistband and pulled my boxers down to my hip, my cock jumped right out and stood at attention for him, his eyes got wider when he saw my dick. I wanted to tease him alot more so I began to play with my foreskin, I pulled it down exposing my dick's pink head and pulled the skin back up, I repeated the action a few more times "whoa...kool" he said with a cute look on his face, as I was pulling my boxers back up when Joseph stormed right in my room catching me right in the middle of me lifting my boxers back up "wut the fuck....wut where you guys doing...tell me" he demanded with a pissed off look on his face "nothing man...I just flashed him thats all..no biggie" I replied "lets go raymond...mom's callin u" he said and walked out my room looking totally pissed off, I got really scared he was mad for good, I got up and got dressed as quick as I could and rushed out my house, I caught up to them and pulled Joseph's shirt to get his attention but all I got in return was a punch to the stomach, I dropped to the floor gasping for air, "ugh...wut....ugh...the..fuck..you do that...ugh for?" I struggled to say "go home raymond...ill be right there" he said. He dropped to his knees right next to me and hugged me and broke down crying "sorry...im really sorry man....I didnt mean to do it...its just that when..." "its ok..its ok...honest im ok" I interupted him in the middle of his sentence, I stood back up and helped him up "dude...whats wrong...why u crying?" I asked, I grabbed him by the hand and lead him into the fourth floor of the apartment complex, I knew it was goin to be a great place for us to talk since no one goes up there at all "please dude...tell me...wuts wrong" I asked again, all I got back was a blank stare followed by some tears, I couldnt help but cry right along with him, I couldnt stand watching him cry that much "its just....just that when I saw u and Raymond...I dont know what came over me..its stupid man...sorry" he finally said "whoa dude...we wasnt doing nothing man...u gotta believe me...do u? "yah yah man...I do...sorry just got jelous" he replied "jelous?...cuz he was with me?...dude naw u aint gotta be jelous...he still yours" I said winking my eye and smiling at him "no dude...it wasnt him I was jelous for...just forget it ok...its stupid" he said whipping his tears away, I finally caught on and realised he was jelous not for him, but for me. Something inside of me change that instant, I saw him standing there whipping his tears away, tears that he shed for me, I fell in love with him right there and then, I knew he cared for me as much as I cared for him, and in the same special way, I got closer to him and helped him wipe his tears "u mean...u like me dude?...or am I just wrong....tell the truth k" I asked, he took a deep breath, and looked me dead on the eyes "umm humm" he nodded, I wanted to hug him and never let go, we where in love and we knew it "whoa dude....thats hella kool...ummm..I..kinda..like u too man...I was just to much of a puss to say anything" I said, he looked down at the floor then back at me with a smile on his face "naw...I was a puss too man...sooooo wut now?" he asked as if letting me know it was time to continue our little game from the day before "dunno...want to do wut we was supposed to do earlier?...if u want that is" I said "umm k...kool with me...who goes first" he asked, I took a deep breath, and thought about goin first. I've been wanting to have his dick in my mouth for a while now, so this was my chance "umm I'll go first I guess....but how long I gotta suck it for?" I asked, if it was up to me I wouldve sucked for days "wut ever u want man...u can stop quick if u want" he replied. We walked up to a better, more private spot of the fourth floor, it was a great, real dark and quiet perfect for our little game "k man...pull yer pants down and lets get to werk" I giggled, he slowly pulled his pants down to his ankles then came down his boxers exposing his circumcised stiffy, my cock jumped right at attention when I saw how good it looked, I took a deep breath and grabbed his cock with my right hand "k...here goes nothing I said" I started to play with his dick and slowly began to masturbate him, in return he would thrust his hips up each time I would move my hand down on his dick and pull back each time I worked my hand up, we had a pretty good rythmn going. He stopped dead when I suddenly leaned forward and kissed the head of his dick. I looked at him and he smiled from ear to ear and his eyes widened as he saw his dick slowly begin to disappear inside of my mouth. "Oooh maannn!" I heard him cry softly, I began sucking his dick very fast and hard and his entire body began to shiver and shake. I ran my hands up and down his smooth legs and thighs, toying with his swelling balls and massaging his firm ass while he squirmed and thrashed around madly. His hips were jerking up at my face wildly as I sucked him as fast as I could "sh..shiit, dude..I.th..think you b..b..better stop n..n..now" he stammered I knew what was going to happen and I wanted it to, I didnt want to stop till it did so I increased my sucking even faster and harder. A few seconds later I heard, "Ooohhhhh Shiiiit.....," his body arched up and his dick jerked around in my mouth like a frantic worm, I took his dick out my mouth, I looked up at him and still saw him with his eyes closed "holyshit dude....that was awesome....thanx" he said trying to catch his breath "yah I must agree that kicked ass....now its my turn k...u gotta do it now" I said as I began to pull my boxers and pants down "yah..yer gonna luv it watch.." he replied, I ran my thumb along my waist band and dropped my boxers, my dick popped right up "k ready" he said as he took my dick in both hands running them up and down, feeling every vein and tracing his finger down the lengths of each one and driving me crazy in the process. Soon he reached down and caressed my ball sac, he then he put his face lower to my groin and kissed my ball sac and I shuddered he smiled up at me, went back down and ran his hot tongue across my sac and I really shuddered then, that was all the encouragement he needed because soon his tongue was running all over my sac, licking and swiping This was way to good to be true, I was squirming around like crazy, I couldnt control my lower body anymore. He soon, much to soon for me, pulled off my sac and licked it once more for good measure(he could have sucked all night and it still wouldnt be long enough for me) then he ran his tongue along the V crevice of my thighs and groin, up one side and down the other. He grinned like a little devil at me and continued licking down one side and up the other, across my belly below the belly button and finally began licking around the base of my dick His tongue flicked out again and again like a little lizard, teasing at the sides of my dick then he licked slowy up the underside all the way to the tip. He then opened his mouth as wide as he could and decended on my dick, taking as much in as he could, forcing his mouth down and down until he engulfed it all. His mouth had closed so tightly around it I wondered how he was breathing at all as he sucked. My hips starting bucking like mad I knew I was goin to cum harder than ever before, Joseph was tearing me up and I loved it. I wondered if he was willing to swallow my cum, I didnt want to risk it "dude...I think im gonna cum soon...u aint gotta take it man its kool" I said. Did he listen? hell no, his sucking got louder, faster and harder and I knew I couldnt hold it back any longer, I groaned like a wounded bear and felt my balls explode. I could feel the sperm making its run from my balls, through the sperm tube, pushing through my dick and flooding out into his mouth, I couldnt slow down the speed it gushed out at, I could hear him choking but yet he continued swallowing against the head of my dick, I could feel my balls still pumping sperm out and my dick still throbbing and shooting and his neck and throat muscles working frantically trying to swallow every drop I shot, I could still feel his little hand squeezing at my balls, trying to force more out. His mouth kept working long after my balls had stopped pumping. "hey...u can stop dude..its kool now" I said to him, He pulled off my dick, still saw a few drops oozing out and bent back down to get it, then he stood back up and looked at me peculiar. "that was weird dude...tasted funny...was kool though" he said whipping his mouth clean. Joseph was looking way too cute for me, I couldnt stop myself I just had to give him a hug, I squeezed him real tight, he suddenly pulled away from me and had that peculiar look on his face again "u know wut would kick ass?.." he asked "if we buttfuck..I mean...well u dont gotta say yeah if u dont want" my mouth dropped, sucking his dick was good enough for me, now fuckin him that was just unbelieveble "ya..yah sure...umm yah man good...when?" I stuttered "dunno...prolly tomorrow? is it kool?" he asked, shit I wanted to fuck him right then and there but knew it was not possible, we where probably beeing looked for already "umm yah dude...we HAVE TO DO IT ok? I said, trying to make it clear to him I wanted it bad, real bad "k..im down...its gotta be better than this" he replied and walked closer to me, he grabbed me by my waist and looked me dead on my eyes and slowly got closer to me, it looked to me that he wanted to kiss but wasnt sure what he was trying to do "dude...umm u trying to kiss me..." I asked, I think I made it seem like I didnt want to because he pulled away quick and started walkin downstairs "no no dude...its ok...I want to try it" I said just in time "really...yah same here" he said. We both sat down on the stairs and slowly got closer to each other, I saw him close his eyes, as I closed mine, before I knew it we both where kissing softly, he stuck his tounge in my mouth and I did the same, we pulled away and smiled at each other and continued to walk downstairs. The day had ended with a bang, I couldnt believe I had just done all that with my bestfriend, I just couldnt. We walked back out to the courtyard, his cousin Raymond was already playing football with my brother, it looked as if nobody knew we where even gone, we played for a while until Joseph's mom called all of us inside, she had some sandwiches and some soda waiting for us, we all thanked her and sat down to eat while we bullshited his his dad "hey boys...umm its ok with me if you guys spend the night with Joseph and Raymond tonite...looks like your having fun, its summer and im being nice today" she said, my brother stepped up and told her he didnt want to before I even got a chance to respond, I told her I wanted to spend the nite if it was still ok, both Joseph and Raymond looked back at me and smiled. I got the ok from his mom now it was my turn to convince my mom, I ran back home and begged my mom for abit until she fell into the pressure and said it was ok, I ran back to Joseph's place and told them I was able to spend the nite, all 3 of us where jumping and hollering just being boys. That night I whent back home to grabb my stuff, I saw my brother had some friends spending the nite also so that made it real good since he wasnt goin to show up later that night at Joseph's place. I kissed my mom and dad goodnite and headed back out to Joseph's place. The night began alittle boring, we first saw a few scary movies with his dad and acouple of his friends, who by the way are really funny while their drunk, then we headed upstairs to Joseph's room where we locked ourselves in. He turned his super nintendo on for Raymond to play while me and him "secretly" played with each other's cocks, Raymond knew what was goin on though, I noticed him rubbing his own dick every now and then and really trying hard to look back at us. His mom came in alittle later that night and wished us all a good nite, as soon as she left the room Joseph locked the door, and placed a box right infront of the door and got down to his boxers, I did the same. We laid ontop of his bed just talking and making jokes, Joseph had his leg on top of mine and I had my arm around him, Raymond looked at us then turned back, I felt abit bad because it looked like we where just ignoring him "hey Ray...get yer lil ass over here man...I got a spot fer you" I said, Joseph elbowed me right on the ribs making me, I turned over and layed on top of him, and gave him a kiss right on his lips, then got back off "so you gonna come dude..." I asked Raymond again "yah..just a sec" he replied, I got off the bed and pulled him off the chair "nope...u gettin your ass there now" I said and pushed him on the bed, he started to laugh and through a pillow at me, after that a hellish war broke out, it was everyone for themselves, we started a huge pillow fight, it ended up with Joseph and me double teaming Raymond, I managed to bear hug him and drop his to the floor, I stratled his legs and took his shirt off, Joseph tackled me and wrestled me down, and got on top of me. I didnt want him to get up, his body was so smooth, I felt his buttcheeks right ontop of my crotch, I wanted him bad. I started to rub on his thighs, he positioned his butt to be right on my cock as he began to hump just alittle trying not to make it too obvious, my dick wanted to go inside his virgin hole, I wanted to pop his cherry. "wut u guys doing...." Raymond asked Joseph got off me and sat back up on the bed, his boner was obviously showing as well as mine "where u guys fucken each other?" Raymond asked "no way man....he was just wrestling me thats all" I replied "yah fucken right man, I know wut yall where doing" Raymond giggled. I got up and laid back ontop of his bed "so you getting undressed too or what?" I asked, he finally took his pants off and tossed them aside, he also had a raging boner just like us. All three of us laid ontop of the bed, I was in the middle, enjoying bot boys, all u saw where 3 dicks popping straight out like tents, it was a funny sight. Joseph and I where making jokes while Raymond laid back laughing his little ass off, I wrapped my arms around both of them while both of them had their legs ontop of mine, I was in paradise. I couldnt take the torture, as much as I loved and wanted Joseph, Raymond was aslo really cute, I slowly moved my hand away from Raymond and placed it back ontop of his leg, I reached around and slowly tried feeling his buttcheeks, Joseph had no clue what I was doing which was a good thing, Raymond helped me find his butt as he got closer to me, I stuck my hand inside his boxers and began to fondle his smooth ass slowly feeling all over. I thought about it for a sec and decided not to take a risk and loose Joseph for ever, I did care for him too much to let something like that happen so I moved my hand away from Raymond's ass, I do say it felt real smooth and good. He on the other hand didnt like the idea very much, he reached for my hand again and placed it ontop of his ass again, I couldnt resist If I couldnt stick my hand inside his boxers to feel on his ass well feeling his ass over his boxers was good enough for me. It had been a while since anyone had said a word, I was begining to fall asleep when Joseph lifted his head just alitle to see if Raymond was asleep, I turned to see and it looked to me like he was "u want to try it now.." Joseph whispered in my ear. My heart began to jump alittle more "umm right here..infront of him" I asked "yah dude....he wont ever know...we just gotta be quiete ok?" he said, he got up and turned the lights off and laid next to me again, I slowly took Raymond's leg off of me and turned to Joseph "who goes first?" I asked. "u go..since I whent first the last time" he replied as he turned around and stuck his butt out to make it easier on me, I pulled his boxers down just enough to expose his ass, I scooted closer to him and with one hand I spreaded his buttcheek apart and with my other hand I grabbed my cock to guide it inside his butt, I poked around for a few minutes trying to find his rosebud until he took my dick and place it right on the entrance of his boyhole, I couldnt believe I was goin to do this. I slow began to push my dick inside I felt his hole open up slowly to take my dick in, he pushed his butt back againts my dick letting the head slide in, we both moaned at the same time, "OOOHHHH," he moaned a little louder. "you ok man!?" I asked "yah..its ok just stung alittle" he replied, I continued to push my cock deeper inside his boyhole, "Oh God," I thought, it was so good and tight, I couldnt have stopped if I wanted to, this was just to good a feeling. I laid still for a few minutes, getting used of the feeling of my dick inside of him, I started a slow experimental humping action on him, he felt good from it so I increased the speed, I kissed him and pulled him closer and tighter to me as I thrust my hips into him, the in and out motion between us felt so great I knew I was goin to cum pretty soon "shiiit..feels good" he softly moaned as I fucked him alittle faster, I felt my balls tense up and my dick swell up "duuu..duude..im gonna cum" I whispered in his ear and gave him a kiss on th neck as my dick started spurting in his ass, filling him with cum and dripping out back onto my balls and onto the bed sheets. We stayed in that position for a few minutes, I pulled my cock out his ass making a soft slurping sound, I couldnt believe I had just fucked Joseph, I dont know what drove me to do this but as I was pulling his boxers back up I felt tempted to stick my finger in his ass, and play with his asshole for a little more, his ass felt really tight, as I wiggled my finger around for abit and pulled back out, I even wanted to stick my tounge inside but didnt know if it was way too much "turn around...my turn" he whispered, I turned around and stuck my butt out just like he did, I felt him pull my boxers down and spread my buttcheeks to make way for his dick. I then felt him poking around with his dick trying to find my hole, soon I felt him sliding in and heard his moans of pleasure "oh crap..it feels awesome" he said, his body shuddering "yah...feels good here too" I moaned "do it faster and harder" He lay motionless for a few seconds then he began to pump my ass faster and harder "shit...shit..love you...shit" he said over and over again between thrusts. I tightened my ass just a little more around his dick and he moaned even louder, I knew he probably wouldnt be able to hold out much longer at this rate. I noticed Raymond moving around alittle, I raised my head up just to see if he was up and sure enough he was awake, he had been awake through out the whole thing, I reached around to Joseph and pulled his dick out "dude...he's awake...stop" I whispered to Joseph "shit!....Raymond you awake?" Joseph asked, we got no responce from him, Joseph got up and turned the light on, Raymond had his eyes closed but with a raging boner "Ray..u dont have to fake the shit I know u awake" I said, he opened his eyes and said nothing, Joseph wanted to tear him a new asshole but I stopped him from doing it, "you better not tell anyone dude" I threatened him, Joseph looked at me like if I was crazy "umm dude...its ok he knows not to say anything" he replied, I thought about it for a minute and finally figured out that they both had done it, atfirst I got pissed off and a bit jealous but then it kinda turned me on "yah I know man...u can go back to doing it now..I dont care" Raymond said and turned to his side facing away from us "no man thats fucked up...you wont be having fun while we do..no way man..unless u want to join" I jokingly said, Joseph looked back at me with a huge smile "Yah...Ray..u want to do it with us? Joseph asked "umm ok..." Raymond said, my eyes lite up in joy, I didnt wait for anyone, I took my boxers off and threw them aside, Joseph took his off also and threw them aside and so did Raymond, I motioned Joseph to come back to bed, with out any invitation I jumped right ontop of Raymond and started kissing him, atfirst he pulled away from me but agreed to it and began kissing me as well. I felt Joseph as he again spread my buttcheeks and and slowly slid his dick inside of me, he continued fucking me on the ass while I kissed Raymond, "dude....turn around" I told Raymond, I wanted to fuck him on his ass as soon as possible, I got up to make some room for him to move and laid back ontop of him "joseph stop for abit...while I get it in" I said. I got on my kness with Raymond in between my legs, I spred his buttcheeks apart and admired his pink butthole, since I knew Joseph and him had fucked before I didnt expect a tight butthole, Joseph was tight but not as tight as a virgin butthole would feel like. I positioned the head of my cock right on Raymond's hole and pressed in, he moaned softly when he felt me pressing on it, I began trying to push in deeper "ohh...it hurts dude...go slow" he moaned it blew my mind to feel how tight his ass really was, Joseph's cock wasnt large enough to fuck it that loose so he still had a virgin hole, I tryed pushing my cock in again this time I pushed in really slow let my head slide in first, I waited for a few minutes until he was used of me being inside of him and tryed pushing again, this time I pushed in letting my entire dick go in him alot faster "ohh fuck dude..slower please it hurts..." he moaned "push down like your taken a shit man...and just relax it goes in easier" I whispered in his ear as I tryed pushing again, this time my cock whent in with little trouble we both moaned as my cock was sliding deep inside his hole, I began to pump my cock inside of him "oh crap...your butts tight as hell" I moaned, he was taking it well, didnt seem like he was in pain at all he was totally enjoying my fuckin action "oww...shit...fuuucck" he moaned as I kept ramming him, Joseph was just standing there watching me fuck his cousin, not moving away from the action "Joseph..u..u..gonna..fuck me?" I asked "yah..yah..just like watching u do him" he replied, I wasnt goin to dissapoint him, I thrusted my hips into Raymonds tight butthole sending shivers down my spine "ohh fuck...fuuuuckk" I moaned, as I shot my load inside him, I slowly took my dick out his ass making a loud slurping sound making all 3 of us giggle. I rolled over onto my back "whoa dude...u made him bleed" Joseph said, I looked down on my cock and saw some blood on it, when I saw it I felt really bad "o shit...dude...im fucken sorry...u said nothing man...im sorry bro" I said, with a really spooked face, I didnt meant to hurt the little guy, "naw is ok man...hurted alittle but not much? he replied with a huge smile on his face, making me feel alot better. Joseph laid next to me and rested his head ontop of my chest and started to rub his hand all over my stomach and chest, I turned my head and gave him a kiss his forehead, Raymond laid on the other side quickly falling back to sleep, Joseph and I slowly drifted to sleep soon after. The next morning I was woken up by the sound of video games, Joseph was still sleeping with his head on my chest, I slowly moved him aside and got up off of bed "hey dude...sleep well?" I asked Raymond "yah..guess so..." he replied, he sounded like he was upset for some reason "ermm u mad dude?...." I said as I put a hand on his shoulder "nope...just fine..fine as can be" he replied but with a sarcastic tone "no dude...honestly wut the fuck is up? tell me man" I insisted "not gonna tell u...gonna think its dumb any ways..." "besides its not like u would care" there was something defenetely wrong with him and I wanted to know what it was, not because I was curious but because I cared about him, I wrapped my arm around him "dude ofcourse I care man...just tell me" I said, he took a long deep breath and continued playing for a minute, not replying to my question "k..just wanted u to pay attention to me last night, just like u do with Joseph" he said, as he got up and walked away from the game "wut? dude...I didnt know u wanted me to..I can be if you want" I smiled and jokingly pinched both of his cheeks "ugh! your sooo cute...how could I not care bout you man" he started to smile and blush alittle "see told you...your such a cutie" I said, I leaned over and gave him a kiss on his lips "kool...thanx!" he replied with a smile on his face. We both whent downstairs to the kitchen and fetched ourselfes a bowl of cereal then ran back up stairs, Joseph was still sleeping, he looked so adorable. I sat next to where Joseph was laying down at and started giving him small kisses all over his body "wake up sleepy head...time to get up" I said in between each kiss, he started to move abit more, he finally opened his eyes, there I was waiting for him with a huge hug "morning....hope u slept good" I said as I released the death grip I had on him "love u" is all he said while he smiled "aww love u too man" I replied and gave him another of my death grip hugs. I spent the rest of the day by myself, I wanted to have time to think about what I was getting myself into, I had alot of mixed feelings, I knew that being gay was wrong I also wanted to have a family, get married and have kids of my own later on in life, but for now I was inlove with Joseph and wanted to be with him. I was a really confused, I felt like I was goin nuts, see I thank all those boylovers out there who actually do care for their boys, I needed someone who understood what I was goin through, I needed a boylover at that moment, somone to teach me someone to hold me, someone to just listen to me. I unfortunately had no one, being a normal 12 year old is hard enough, I was a "special" kind of a 12 year old, I wasnt like the normal guys who jack off to girls, I jacked off to other boys, and not to mention younger ones. Joseph and I grew closer to each other as the days passed, we whent from experimenting with analsex to making love, we both gave each other what we wanted, I knew Joseph's body as I knew my own, it was the same deal with him, we both knew what each liked and what we didnt like. There wasnt an inch on his body that I didnt suck, kiss or touch, I even stuck my tounge inside his butthole, which he loved the best. We couldnt be seperated no matter what, there was that unbreakable bond that we had. There where times when we involved Raymond in our little sessions who by the way was my second love, Joseph is a cute kid, there is no one like him in my opinion, Raymond is right up there with him as well, his looks are enough to make me have an orgasm, I loved his hazel eyes, and his long eyelashes, I loved running my hand through light brown hair, but what turned me on the most for some reason was his dick and butt, his dick was just a perfect circumcised rod, maybe four inches, his ass was so smooth and tight it was always hard to stick my cock inside and pump my boy juice in him, I loved licking that pink rosebud of his, maybe sounds nasty but thats something I did to both of them often, I loved to see them squirm around as I licked around their crack and slowly stick my tounge inside their holes. Raymond wasnt the only one who we got involved, there was also his 13 year old brother who got to fuck me a couple of times, I must have made that kid cum atleast 4 times in one fuck session, he had a good size cock to satisfy my hunger. I loved it when I slid in and out my butthole but what I really loved was when he shot his load inside of me. Yup, we where in love, there was no one that was goin to seperate us I thought, oh what a fool I was to ever think that. As summer was ending my dad had the common courtesy to inform us that we was goin to move, "oh not so bad" I thought to myself, I thought we was moving a few miles away, well it turned out that we was moving to Texas. Dad gave us 2 weeks to pack and say our last goodbyes to our friends, those 2 weeks where the hardest in my life, Joseph and I knew that every second that we spent together needed to be special, there was no time to waste. We let each other know how we really felt, we both where in love and they was goin to seperate us, life is trully unfair I thought. Those 2 weeks we really got to know each other every night. We made love for hours at a time, it got to the point where his butthole was stretched so much I had no trouble fucking him with no lube, I sucked everything he had on his body, from his cock, to his balls even down to each toe. We buttfucked so much one night the entire room smelled like sex, we honeslty thought we was goin to get caught but at that point we didnt care. Our last night together was incredible, we must have broken the world record for boy to boy sex we fucked so much. When the time to say goodbye came we both broke down crying, we had a death grip hug on me, nobody was able to take him off of me. We moved to Ft.Bend County, Texas the community was called Mission Bend, I felt lost for the first few days but got I thank the lord I got used of it quick, I called Joseph every night for the first month, as I met more people I called him less, I felt less lonely when I had such kool friends around. I was attending HodgesBend Middle School which was a really really good school, I knew just about every one there. Everyone liked me since I came from California for some reason, girls where all over me, they couldnt believe I was a model until I showed them all the magazines and commercials I was in. Life was beginning to ease up alot more, I was growing a part from Joseph and I was ok with it. With the help of my new friend Daniel. My life in Texas was not bad, he was the one who introduced me to all the kids in the neighborhood, who by the way where extremely hot! his real good friend Jonathan had to be the hottest. The boy had long blond hair, beutiful blue eyes, cute little button nose covered in freckles but best of all was his attitude, he was a joker, thanks to Jonathan my life was alot better, when ever I felt down and was missing my friends back in cali, he would come along and make my life alot better by cracking a joke or just by talking to me. Both of them where my really good friends, Jonathan lived next door to me and Daniel right in front of me, so we always saw each other. I was growing up alot more, and I was beginning to notice girls which was a good thing for me. You can say I was even popular, just about everyone knew who I was and I loved it. Yes, my life had made a dramatic change in a few months, my new middle school was great, I had tons of friends who where all really kool, my mom and dad both where really happy aswell, we had a really nice house, there was nothing to worry about. I celebrated my 13th birthday with lots and lots of friends at a surprise party Jonathan's mom organised for me, that night I called Joseph for the last time, I let him know that I loved him and that the long distance was tearing us apart real slow. He didnt take it all that well, but I explained that we had no choice, hanging that phone up was really hard for me I still didnt want to let go but thought about it and it made sence, we couldnt have the same relationship we had before I moved. The entire week I felt like shit, people noticed it specially Jonathan, I explained to him what was goin on. He knew there was a special person in my life that I had just lost, little did he know it was a boy. He caught on quick, he knew the person I was talking to him about was a boy "..ummm...are u..ummm gay?" he asked, I nodded yes "its k man...youll be kool...hell now I know who to go to for head" he jokingly said, I started to laugh "you dick head!...dude...seriously though...you cant tell no one..please" I begged "no problemo...your secret is safe with little ol me" he responded "you dont think im weird...or stupid?" I asked "hell no man...I dont give a shit...who knows I might be gay...you never know what life gonna do to u right?" he replied, we both smiled and whent about our day. After our little talk that day everything between Jonathan and I changed, we both where becoming real good friends, I could've trusted him with my life I trusted him so much. He was interested in what Joseph and I did, he would always ask about him, and make comments on how "kool" it sounded, he was showing alot of curiosity about the subject, in a few ocassions he asked if we had ever had sex, I ofcourse denied it, but I guess he wouldnt believe it, he would just ask again the next day. There was something fishy about him, he was showing way too much interest in what Joseph and I did, there needed to be a reason behind all of it, I wanted to find out. As soon as he asked again I began my little investigation "soooo...you ever done something like that" I asked "nuh..uh...never had the chance I guess" he replied "ok ok...so if you had the chance, would you take it?" :well guess so...told you I might be gay didnt I? dunno kinda confused myself" he replied, it had been what I've been wanting to hear "heh, well then you got a chance with me" I said winking at him, we both started laughing and changed the conversation. Daniel had been noticing how much Jonathan and I spent so much time together, I guess he was feeling left out abit becuase he began to come to my house alot more often, he's an awesome friend but the fun we had was alot more different than what Jonathan and I did. The kid was a horny devil, but was alot more shy about it, the rest of the kids in the neighborhood wasnt shy at all, we where all show offs basically, when either of us had a boner, we showed everyone and wouldnt be shy about talking about masturbation, Daniel never was like that, he was really quiet, which is a good thing in a way. All the kids had made up a "boysclub" behind Ricky's house (he was another really hot boy, only 11 years old though but very cute) I didnt know about till about 2 months after I moved, I had to go through an initiation first, it was actually fun. The club was a basic porno club, the only problem was that they only had 3 magazines for all 12 of us. It was sad, it really was. The first "meeting" I whent to all the members where there, including Jonathan. They made me promise to not tell absolutely no one about it, and also made me promise to share my porno with them if I had any. I started to laugh when they asked "porno?...man im the porno king then...umm yall want to scope my stash?" I asked, laughing in between the words. I was not goin to be stupid and not let a group of 12 boys between the ages of 8 and 13 not see my porno, specially because they where all mad horny. Jonathan and Daniel volunteered themselves to help me get it "oh god..oh god..oh god...why didnt u say u had porn dammit!" Daniel asked "you never asked.." I giggled. As soon as I got to my house I ran to the attic and got 3 boxes and handed one to Daniel one to Jonathan, and I carried the "best" box, when we got back to the clubhouse, they all gathered around me as I dropped the boxes in front of me "well...this is all I got....umm 2 boxes are mags...this one is vids" I said, they said nothing, all of them had their mouths open, they couldnt believe how much porn I had, I myself couldnt believe how much porn I had, it was "discovered" by Joseph and me during one of our little spy games at an abandoned storage closet, I kept 3 boxes and Joseph kept 1. They where all full of great mags and vids. "k..umm check em out.." I said as I opened all 3 boxes, one of the boys who I still didnt know ran up to me, grabbed me by my face and gave me a huge smooch, he couldnt stop thanking me, it was just too hilarious. I couldnt stop laughing, it was christmass all over again for them. As soon as all the chaos settled down we gathered around and started to check the mags out, their eyes where glued to magazine, and not to mention super quiet. After about 15 minutes of browsing through the mags, the boy who gave me the smooch sat next to me and introduced himself, his name was Cameron and he was 9, really cute boy, blond hair, grey eyes, long eyelashes and beutiful redish lips. We talked for a few minutes and he whent back to the porn, a few minutes later he unzipped his pants and stuck his uncircumcised cock out, he pulled the skin back and began to jack off right next to me "ahh!...this is too good" I thought to myself, after the rest of the boys saw him jack off they all joined, including Jonathan and Daniel. I was the only fool who wasnt doing anything but sitting there trying not to get caught while I starred at their cocks, it was a cute dick overload "hell...why not" I thought to myself and joined in the fun, being around all the dicks I could possibly want I shot my load quick. The days following this where really fun, I attentended the club regurlarly, I had a blast, and yes I did have sex with all 12 boys, not all at the same time but it was still great, I wont get into details about it here in this part of my story but I will write about it on later ones. My life in Texas was goin as smooth as I could possibly want, there where no worries. High School was totally awesome, I was growing up too fast and I didnt like it, it was beginning to hit me that all the things that I was able to get away with while I was younger was going to get me in some deep shit now, it really sucked. I also found it a lot harder for me to fuck with boys, in highschool everyone was a lot more interested in girls more than they where during middle school, that also sucked hardcore! My sophomore year in highschool I got interested in the Marine Corps JROTC they had going on in my school, I like a dumbass decided to join, im not going to lie and say that it sucked because it didn't, there was a lot of things I did while I was in the class that I wasn't going to be able to do any where else. Towards the end of the school year I was totally into the whole military shit, my parents also made the decision to move back to California because of my sister who was having her first baby, I totally hated the idea, my brother and I had fallen in love with Texas and we sure as hell didn't want to leave it, like usual we had no say in their decisions so we moved back anyways. When we got there it seemed really weird, the streets and people didn't seem the same, there was something that had changed. I failed to realize that as a kid you see the world in a different way, as a teenager you see it in another way, and as an adult you see it for what it truly is. I was tempted to find Joseph again, it had been 2 years since we had talked and I was doubting if he ever wanted to speak to me again. I grew enough balls and decided to go visit him, when I got there nothing had changed, the apartment building where I had lived and experienced some of the best and worst times of my life had changed nothing, my head filled with all kinds of emotions and so did my heart. The first thing I did before I visited him was go up to the fourth floor to see the spot where we use to have sex, to my amazement there where still all the condoms I had used on him, It felt weird to see all the shit I had done before I left, but what really got the best of me was the note Joseph and I left, the note was something he and I did incase we ever got separated we had something to keep us together for ever, there was 2 pieces to it, one that he wrote for me and one that I wrote for him, the one I wrote for him was missing. My chest began to ache, I realized how much I had hurt him by just totally giving up on our relationship, all I could remember was what he said to me as I was making love to him once. He asked if I was going to do what we where doing for ever, or if I wanted to have a family, I told him I wanted to have kids and a family but that the only person that I would want to do it with for ever was him, he responded to that with the same answer I gave him. I knew I loved him, but I didn't know how much I really loved him until now, until I had a moment to think about all the special things we did, all the things we talked about and all the things we promised each other. I opened the note, and in the note it read "I love you, I will never forget you no matter what, look up at the sky at night, where ever you are at ill be there" I couldn't help but tear up, I couldn't believe he loved me that much. I couldn't wait any longer, I had to see him again, I whipped my tears away and walked to his apartment. My heart was pounding, I couldn't believe I was going to see him after all that I had done to him, I knocked on the door but got no answer, I waited for a few minutes and knocked alittle bit harder, this time a lady comes out, a lady I had never seen before. I asked for Joseph but all she said was that they where the new tenants of the apartment and closed the door. My heart felt like it had been torn out, it had been along time since I felt that much pain, infact it was like when Steven died, I felt the same exact way. I ran to one of my other friends apartment to find out where Joseph had gone to, unfortunately my friend wasn't home that day so I only got a few details about where Joseph had moved to, all I was told he moved to Concord a small city about an hour away, I couldn't believe I had lost him, I couldn't believe how stupid I was for ending it all. I went back home really hurt, all because of something I caused. A few weeks passed, still feeling like shit, I was walking around my old neighborhood when I saw a kid walking down the street that looked like Joseph, but there was no way, he looked the same, no change, it couldn't be him I thought. As I got closer he was looking more like him, I started to walk faster trying to catch up to him. As I got closer to him, I called out his name, he turned around and it was him! it was Joseph! I just about broke down crying right then and there "heyyyyy! man!!!!....long time no see man....missed you!!!!" "oh hey...wut the fuck u doing here" he replied and kept walking "u mad..or something...or u just don't want to talk to me?" I asked "gee, why might u think that huh" he replied with a sarcastic tone of voice "please...lets talk...umm dude im really sorry...im sorry" I said "sorry...ok...I gotta go...bye" he replied and kept walking, I couldn't end it like this, no way I wasn't about to, I ran up to him and pulled him by his arm into an alley and gave him a kiss "FUCK!!! what the fuck was that for....im not into that gay shit...leave me alone!" he said looking all disgusted "what happened to you man....thought...thought you..you cared" I said, my eyes began to water but I stopped my self and began to fill up with anger "what happened to me...well ummm nothing....just that the person I cared about more than anything decides to say fuck u...and just leave" he replied "im sorry" I said and began to walk away "no....wait" I heard him say as I was walking away, I turned to see the boy who I had loved dearly "I missed you..." he said "...same here bro...so guess this is a formal goodbye eh?" I replied, we spoke about what used to be a great friendship between us, and how it came to be so shitty now. I invited him back to my house so we could at least speak in private, he accepted my offer and walked back to my house. My mom couldnt believe what I had brought home, she couldnt stop kissing and huggin him, but I dont blame her. We walked in my room and talked, we must have talked for 3 hours straight, towards the end of our conversation we had forgotten about it all, it wasnt like it was before I moved but it was close enough. I asked him if he would spend one last night with me, just to formally say goodbye, he again accepted my offer, that night it was like our first time, we both where shy of each other, we where slow to make a move. It took me a good five minutes before I gathered enough courage to run my hand down his pants and grabed that dick I've been craving for. This time I was 16 and more experienced with sex, he was 12 but had barely changed, his cock had grown in size and had a few pubes around it, his balls where three times as big and looked juicer than ever. We both looked younger than our real ages, at 16 I looked like a 13 year old, he looked like he was 10. That night we made love for our last time, I got to taste his cum and he once again got to taste mine. I pounded his tight 12 year old ass for what seemed hours, it must have been 45 minutes straight, his butthole was tighter than the first time we fucked, I couldnt belive how tight it was. I shot my heavy load in him bringing back lovely memories. When it came for his turn I couldnt wait, I wanted his 5 inch dick in me, I wanted to get my ass reamed as hard as possible by him. He surprised me when he began to fuck me, he was pounding my ass hard and vicious, his hips and my buttcheeks where making clapping sounds that only turned me on even more, my whole body shivered when he squirted his boy cum in side me, I felt his cock swell up and begin to squirt deep inside it was an incredible night. That night I slept like a baby, I was glad we had called it kool again I never wanted to upset him but like a dumbass I did. The next morning when I woke up he wasnt in my room anymore, I looked for him all over then house when my mom told me his dad came to pick him up early that morning. That was it, it was all over, no more Joseph I thought to myself. It hurt more than I thought it just sucked ass but I guess he wanted payback also, wich was ok, I understood. High School in Westmoor High was alittle rough, I started the school year very wrong, I began to skip school a lot more, I met alot of people who you can concider the "bad crowd" but I didnt care, I had stopped carrying ever since I moved back. There was no more reason for me to be like I used to be, I was always doing good in school, always being helpful and very cheerful, fuck no! not anymore. My life had changed but it was a bad change I regret in a way. All the interests I had before where dead, I was more interested in skating, and skipping school now. My friends who I skated with where doing alot of acid, it was their drug of choice, it looked to me like they where having fun so I decided like a dumbass to dropp some acid. My first trip was amazing, I was TRANCEported into a whole new dimension, a dimension that still in a way was a grip on me. I started doing acid alittle more often, maybe twice a month I also began to smoke weed, I loved the trip because it made me relax and not care about what the world had to say, I smoked alot more than I dropped acid. That summer I was introduced to Raves! my first rave was a free party provided by Frequency 8, a local record store. Even though the party was during the day time the vibe and the people was amazing, it was just an incredible little party they had. A month later we attented the rave that changed my life forever, Cyberfest 2000 was an amazing party that till this day I love, 32,000 peole attented the rave it was at the Fresno Fairgrounds. The day started out real fun, we all pitched in and rented a car to drive from San Francisco to Fresno, I was scared shitless, I was a new driver and really didnt have too much experience but we still took the trip. As we got closer to the fairgrounds the freeway was filled with other ravers, the vibe was already amazing. As soon as we steped in the venue it was like if we had left planet earth for planet rave, we heard and felt the music vibrate all over, our first room we experienced was the best room of all cyberfest, it was nothing but trance, nrg and hard house, music being provided by the best dj's of the entire world, dj's like Paul Okenfold, BT, St.John, DaveRalph. The second room was just as amazing "Bass Dimensions" is what it was called, this room was nuts this is where the bass was being dropped thanks to jungle dj's like Aphrodite, Dj Clover from the junglist militia who by the way will fucking make u dance thanks to his music. The party whent on from 5 pm to 4 am, the days following the rave my life wasnt the same, I couldnt get the music I heard in cyberfest out of my head, I couldnt get the smell only found at a party I was hooked. I attented many parties after that, too many to mention, raves like MegaBuzz5, Abduction, DropZone, Atlantis, Metropolis just many many raves. I also got ahold of the most amazing drug our there Extacy! I first dropped it at Mega Buzz 5 a 3 day rave that was totally awesome. During all this my grades where slipping even more, I totally wasnt caring about anything, my mom saw the huge change in me, all I did was blame it on the move. Later on the school year I met a 14 year old kid named Jim, he was a very hot russian boy who hooked me up with cheap but good extacy. We started to hang around alot more, we would have our little sessions at his house during school, we would leave during second period and skip the rest of the day just to have our session, during one of those sessions we found ourselves feeling all up on each other, we ended up fucking each other a few times, he was an amazing fuck but I dont want to talk about it because the story is long enough. Through out all of this I was feeling alot more attracted to younger boys, I knew alot because of the skate spot where I skated at, there where a few who where curious about sex, Ronaldo was one of them, he was a cute 11 year old latin boy who trully was interested in sex. I really dont remember know it started with us but all I know is that I was over his house one day after we skated when we started to talk about gay sex and how he wondered how it really felt, I jokingly told him I could help him in that, I guess he took it as an offer and asked me to suck his dick wich I did with no hesitation, I then asked him if he would like to know how anal sex felt, he said he did, so I took his virginity, another amazing fuck. I had sex 3 more times with him until we stopped, but during that I had another boy who was showing alot of interest in fucking also, his name was mohammad a cute israeli boy, he told would tell me how him and his cousin would mess around and do shit to each other but that his cousin was too chiken to try buttfucking, to my amazement a few days later he offered himself to me, I wasnt going to be stupid and just say no, I took him and took him good, the boy wanted me to fuck him hard so I did, this boy was able to take all of my 7.5 inch cock in his tight 11 year old butthole. I was amazed at how well he took my fuck, he rode my dick like if he had some experience, we fucked just about every day, I later found out that he was fucking his friend timmy that was also interested in tasting my cock, it turned out that Mohammad told him about us and how good it felt so he wanted to try now. All three of us got together, and talked about it. I had never met Timmy before that day, he was one of the cutests boys i've seen, way too cute to be a boy, he had nice long blond hair, light green eyes he was wearing blue sweat pants that shaped his butt real nice. We decided we was going to do it the following day at Mohammad's house since no body is there after school. The next day I met them at a local store and walked to his house, when we got to his house we locked ourselves in his room and I sat on the bed already with a hardon that both boys couldnt keep their eyes out of, Timmy was really concerned that it was going to hurt when he saw the size of it, Mohammad explained to him that it really wasnt, he decided to demonstrate it alittle, he took my cock and sat on it, he began to bounce on it like he did the last time we fucked, Timmy looked alot more confident about taking my cock and said he was ready, he began to sit on my dick real slow, allowing it to slide in little by little, when he got used of my cock he began to bounce like his friend did, he worked on it real good for the first time. We continued to have sex for quite awhile after that, Mohammad and I fucked just about everyday, we slowly stopped doing it until we did it no more. By now I knew I was a boylover, I was having alot of sex with boys and I loved it, I loved their tight buttholes and loved their looks. My senior year in highschool was alot better than my junior year, I was still attending raves, still dropping extacy and still loving boys. The only difference was that my grades where alot better, but I was realizing that life was being really fucked up with me. I figured out that being a boylover was not normal, that it was not accepted by no one, I fell into a depression that just about drove me insane, and for some reason I began to dream about Steven, they where all the same, my dreams all ended in him dying and me failing on trying to save him. I would wake up in a puddle of my own tears, I talked to my mom about it, she told me that perhaps he was trying to tell me something, she said that maybe he was upset at me because of what I was doing, I didnt think she was right. During the school year I met a girl that turned out to be a real kool friend, she was a 'ghetto' chick as we call it. We started to hang out alot more, and to my amazement I was acutually having fun. The day she invited me to her house was the day that I trully found out I was a boylover. That day we where having alot of fun when out of no where here comes a cute boy. It was her little brother that I didnt know about, she obviously didnt like him because she basically told him to leave us the fuck alone, I ofcourse didnt want him to leave so I grabbed the boy by his shoulder and told her that I wanted to get to know him. He took me to his room and showed me all his toys and video games, his room was typical for a 10 year old boy, he had toys, underwear, and clothes tossed around everywhere. I told him that it wasnt good to live like that, I started helping him clean his room. I learned his name was Moses, he didnt like girls, he loved video games, and that he was really huggable as I call it. Moses loves to be hugged, kissed, touched, just basically loved. Jessica (his sister) started apologising to me for her brother, I told her I was actually having fun and that it was ok, she was surprised but also impressed, most of her friends hate Moses or so she says. I got to know him alot more through the days, when ever Jessica and I whent out to the mall, or to dinner he always wanted to come along, her mom was really glad that I liked him and that I was nice enough to take him out, Jessica in the other hand was alittle upset that he was always with us, she made me promise to her infront of Moses that I wasnt going to take him out with us anymore, being stupid I made the promise, I saw the disapointment on his face, I couldnt help but feel bad. I made a deal with both of them, I promised Moses that I was going to hang out with him when ever he called me and that when ever he wanted to go out to just call me on the cellphone. That he did, and alot but I didnt mind at all, I took him to lots of places like chucky cheeses, and alot of other fun spots. All this time he grew really close to me, he would hold my hand all the time, even while we watched movies in the movie theather. I took him to see me get my eyebrow pierced, he was amazed by it, his mom was really greatful I was helping her out since Moses stayed home alone alot when ever Jessica worked. I offered myself to watch him while they both worked just so that Moses wouldnt be as lonely, she couldnt stop thanking me when I told her I wanted to do it. Moses was really happy I was going to pick him up in my car at his school everday now, and specially because I was going to spend the day with him. I was begining to love him alot more. The first day I was babysitting him I wanted to make a good impression, I drove him straight to mcdonalds and let him order what ever he wanted, he was really happy about that. When we got home, he dropped his backpack and dragged me in his room. He asked me if I could help him get undressed for his shower, I ofcourse accepted. I help him take his shoes and sock off, I started tickling his feet, I coudlnt resist myself I had to suck each toe wich I did, he was dying of laughter. I couldnt believe how good he tasted, I stopped sucking on his toes and helped him get his pants off. I noiticed that tiny little bulge he had, I didnt want to freak him out so I walked out while he got naked, as I was walking out his room he stopped me, I told him that I didnt want to make him feel uncomfortable while he was naked, he told me he didnt care and took his boxers off and ran to the shower where he took a nice long shower. I was waiting for him on the living room, I was dozing off when I felt him sit between my legs and lean his head on my chest, I started to rub his hair and moved down to his chest, then I slowly moved one hand ontop of his thigh, he didnt take my hand off, he just sat there dozing off to sleep also. I let him take a 30 minute nap before I woke him up to get dressed. The rest of the day we spent having lots of fun, when his sister and mom came home he told him we had the best time of life, his smile made my entire week. I kept babysitting him for months after, Moses was really attached to me and so was I, there was alot of love between us. There was alot of instances where he tried to wrestle me while he was naked, I just never took the chance until one day where I was curious to find out how far we could take it. We began to wrestle around before his shower while he was still naked, he already had a raging boner that kept on being pressed on my back, I couldnt help it anymore I started to go for a feel, I caught his dick right on my hand a few times making him giggle, I knew he was really interested now, we kept wrestling and I ended up with him ontop of me almost on a 69 position, I just whent for it, I pushed him down alittle, spread his buttcheeks and started to lick his butthole, I was expecting it to taste not as good as it did, that surprised me. He was the cleanest boy who I've fucked, his butthole tasted real good actually just like if I was sucking a cock. He said nothing but moan as I stuck my tounge in there, after I was done he told me that it felt really good, I told him that if he wanted me to do it again to just ask but that no one else needed to know that we where going to be doing that, I made him promise to not tell no one. The next few days where really fun, it whent on from me licking his butthole to sucking his cock and helping him pull his foreskin back for the first time, to actual penetration. The first time it hurted him alot so I was only able to get my cock's head in, after a few more tries I managed to stick my cock in deeper and deeper until I got a good amount in. I didnt want to hurt him so my thrusts where really slow atfirst, after a few weeks of him getting used of my dick it was on! we fucked and fucked and fucked from the time he came from school till about 6 pm when his mom came home, one night we had fucked so much my cum was still dripping out of his butt when his mom came home, his boxers where full of my cum all the time. His butt was stretched all the time just ready for me to fuck him, I fucked him just about anywhere you can think of, in the movie theather, in the kitchen, the bathroom, the pool, just about everywhere and in every position imaginable. Moses through all of this was really enjoying it, there were days where he asked to be fucked, he said he loved it when my dick whent inside and back out his cock, I fucked him all the time. Life besides Moses was great now, I was going to gradutate on time, I was raving just about every weekend night, and my extacy use was real minimum now. For some STUPID reason I decided to walk in a recruting station and talk to a recruiter about a career in the military, I was stupid enough to sign up. Two month later I found myself being shipped off to bootcamp. Bootcamp sucked but wasnt as hard as I was expecting it to be, whats hard about it is that all the shit I used to do I cant do no more, I miss the parties, I miss fucking Moses, I miss my friends I miss it all. After bootcamp I thought things was going to be alot better and they were, I was a student at Corps School wich isnt bad but when I heard the news that I was going to be a combat medic I decided to leave, thats when my life got kinda jacked up. I was dissenrolled from Corps School and was sent over to TPU to wait for new orders, there I met Peter who turned out to be a really good friend. He was my room mate who from the get go trusted me with alot of stuff, he told me his story about his life, and how rough he had it. It made me think how easy and enjoyable my life was compared to his, he told me how he was molested by his uncle and how he was always being beat up by his step dad, it trully was a sad thing to hear. I also found out that he was interested in sex with males, to make the story short we ended up jacking each other off and it moved on to anal sex that I really enjoyed. After about 2 weeks in TPU I got my orders to my new school, it was off to Seaman ATD, where I have been ever since, Peter got orders and left last week on thursdays leaving me with no one to fuck. I finally leave this friday after 5 months on this base, I cant wait to go to my next duty station! Writing this story has really helped me get through ATD school, it has been a real nasty challange that I have completed. I'll be going home this friday and you guessed it right in heading straight back to the raves, I guess being in the military does have some advantages now that I think of it, one of them is that im serving a great nation in its time of need after Sept.11 (I was in bootcamp when it happened, I graduated a week after) and a second good advantage is that im going to be able to see the world. As for me being a boylover well I guess I am, I honestly dont want to be one, I fight the feelings everyday becuase I know its not a good life, no one likes you, and its really hard to find a boy who wants to fuck, I've been lucky and have fucked alot of boys but my luck just ran out. People are still amazed when they see me, they think im 15 because of my 'baby face' is what they call it. I love it when they say I look 15, when I was a boy I remember I didnt want to grow up, I guess im growing up but very slow. Now for all those boylovers out there that have boys who they are currently having relations with, please be gentle and nice but you dont need me to tell you that, and for those boylovers who are currently looking, keep looking youll find what you want if you trully want to. What I want is for me to be normal, I want to stop being a boylover, I've tryed but its really hard, I guess I just got to live with it. Now I want to thank you for taking time to read this boring story, if you have a question or comment dont hesitate to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you send me flames ill just get a kick out of em so dont think your doing good because your just wasting your fucking time. For those Ravers out there who are also boylovers keep Raving and keeping our scene alive! thanx! .::HeCks::.