Date: Thu, 3 Jul 2003 20:59:28 EDT From: JoKeRBiTeS@aol.com Subject: Depression Takes Over Chapter 1 Disclaimer: This story contains sexual contact between two guys. If you are under aged or find it offensive, then please do not complain and move on. This story is based on mostly fiction but does have some non-fiction parts in it as well, some of them personally to me. The names have been changed throughout the entire story. This story is copywritted by Joe 2003. Depression Takes Over By Joe -Prelude- Great, just another summer passes right by me. What a waste of my life, the one time I don't have to worry about school, and what do I do, nothing, as usual. As another school year approaches, I can only help to think about one thing. That one thing is thinking about if I will ever be with a guy. It is not the easiest thing to go through as you see all of your friends right before your eyes go through their boyfriends and girlfriends like nothing. Sorry, just sometime I just get carried away with things. Let me just say a few things about myself so you don't get anymore confused. My name is Rob, and I am 15 years old. I am around 5'9 or so, short blonde spiked hair. One of the qualities about me that I totally hate is that I am shy. Once when I went out with my girlfriend, I wouldn't even put my arm around her, but that was my first girlfriend, but still. Just to clear it up, and get it out of the way now, I am gay, and have known for the past few years. I have had my few girlfriends, but that was years ago, sort of when I was confused about myself. I now find myself quite attracted to guys, especially to this one guy named Kevin. He is just perfect, at least in my eyes, in every way that I can tell. He has black hair, brown eyes, around 5'7 and is the same age as me. He is so kind to anyone I have seen him talk to. He is cute, just hearing his soothing voice, and seeing him smile and laugh. The one thing that really keeps my hopes up about him is that I have not seen him with a girlfriend ever. He went out with my best friend Nicole (his best friend too) for about nine months. That was the last (and first) person I heard him go out with, and that was about two or three years ago. I went out with Nicole like three times, and after that, I just gave up and told a few of my friends I was gay. Oddly enough, Kevin and I know each other through her. Anyway, we all live in a not known town on stupid, boring Long Island. Don't get me wrong, Long Island has some good things, but I would much rather live in the City. I grow up in a regular house, with a father, mother, sister, and two dogs. I am not openly gay, would be a bad thing in the kind of town I live in. It isn't like the worst town with homophobes, but they are out there, just like any other town. This town isn't a small town, where everyone knows everyone, but it is kinda small. I am not openly gay at all. In the beginning of 9th grade, I decided to become open with a few of my friends, four girls, and after them I ended up telling my sister and my aunt. I haven't talked about me being gay to them ever since I told them, thank god. I regret ever telling them, I only told them because I was strongly thinking about telling my parents at the time. Yet, now I learned to just shut up and not tell them. They are very religious in the Catholic faith. They try to make my and my sister grow up having that faith, but they failed with me. It sucks not being able to open in front of them, but its ok, not like I have any guys right now or any time soon, but I will always have my dogs. *Note- I do not do anything to dogs, just know that. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 1 -Ring Ring- I get up off my lazy ass to get the phone, since no one else is answering it, "Hello?" "Hi" said the other person on the phone "Who is this??" Mysteriously, the other person started mumbling, and then said, "You will die, and I will kill you" After I heard that, I just hung up the phone and ran into my room. My phone started to ring again, over and over. It seems my answering machine isn't quite working. Then I notice the rings starts turning into a familiar tone. I end up awakening from a deep sleep and notice it was my alarm on my cell phone waking me up for yet another year of school. Well, one year is done with, only, three, more years to go, ugh that sucks. As I try to get out of bed at around 6 am, I actually start get ready for school about 15 minutes later, me being the lazy person I am. I then jump into the shower and do whatever I need to get done, and if I make it out of there alive, I then search through my closet for some clothes. Looking in the mirror just to make sure I don't look like a complete ass. I then gel my hair, spiked, and by that time it is usually 6:50. The bus usually comes at 6:59 on the dot, so I just play with my dogs until then. As I walk into the hellhole, I can't help but think how horrible of a year it will be yet again. I just walk straight by my friends, where we usually meet. There are not many things that actually make you think, "oh joy, another year of hell". Yet, one thing that does pass sometime around, besides sleeping, would be staring at some guys again. I haven't seen Kevin since the time we all ended up staying at this girl's house for the night while her parents were away. He never did anything that night with any of them, which was great to see. I was so anxious to see him again. I don't really talk to him a whole lot, but I was hoping that this year it would change. While on my way to meeting up with my friends, I heard the annoying voice from behind me. "Hey Rob, how was your summer vacation" Fo (Short for Sophia) said to me. "Well its over, and another 10 months of hell has begun, need I say more?" "Whoa, relax there" she said in a shocked way. Ok, I might have had a little bit of an attitude, but I mean come on, it's the first day back, why would anyone be in a good mood on the first day. "Sorry, I have to go, nice talking to you again, bye" I couldn't come up with anything better, but it worked because I didn't see her after I said that. I might say some things to people, but most of the time, I say it in a sarcastic way. As the day goes on, it's around seventh period, and there is still no sign of Kevin anywhere. I was kind of mad because I wanted to see what he looked like. I then walked into my 9th period class, math, and god how I hate math. I was good at it a while back, but screw it now. While I am just sitting there, waiting for the day to end, kinda pathetic first day, and I can't stand it already, all of a sudden I hear Kevin's name called by the teacher for the attendance. I dozed off, because I am at the beginning, while he is at the end of the list in Alphabetical order. I made one quick look over to him, and I couldn't help but crack a big smile on my face, but I quickly turned away. My friend Christine was in the class sitting right by me and noticed I cracked a big smile. She knew that I have liked Kevin for the passed year. "Try not to show it to much now, don't get yourself to excited" she whispers to me. "I couldn't help the fact but smiling, and I will try not to get to excited" I whispered back. Right then and there, I started thinking about things I have thought before in my head, and by that I mean my brain. I remembered events that I have had in my head about Kevin and I being alone in places together. I know I was very attracted to him physically, and I know his personality was top notch. It would be stupid for me to say I Love Him when I do not talk to him much, but I know I do have great deep feelings for him as of right now. I will spare you the details of my thoughts of Him and I for now, but all of a sudden I started getting a hard-on in the middle of class, but I didn't care that much, because we were all in desks, and you couldn't see it from there, nor do I think anyone would even look. Then the stupid ass teacher started asking questions about what we learned last year, but unfortunately I didn't hear her say that part, which would have helped when she called on me. "Lets pick someone from random, How about Robert?" yet, with me being in my own world thinking about things with Kevin and I, I didn't hear her the first time "Robert??" Nor did I hear her the second time. So the bitch decides to kick my desk to get my attention and speaks in a low, yet mad voice "Robert!" Then not even two seconds later, all I end up saying is "You Fucktard!" I wish I had thought about that before I said it, because otherwise I wouldn't have gotten yelled for it for the rest of the period, which was about ten minutes. She first yelled at me, then lectured on how she doesn't want to hear "vulgar language". I felt so stupid with Kevin over to the left of me by four seats. I looked at Christine and I couldn't help but talk. "I feel like such a dumbass, he probably thinks I am the worlds most fucked up person." I said in a low voice, to make sure the "bitch-of-a-teach" didn't hear me. "Maybe not, I noticed he started laughing when you said that, yet, he was silent of it so he wasn't the next one to get yelled at" As the first day of school ended, it was time for me to go on the bus home. Yet, today going home I saw someone familiar, I saw Kevin walking home through the window of the bus. I couldn't help but stare at him. He looked in my direction and just smiled and nodded his head back and forth. We ended up passing him a little, until we hit a red light. He re-appeared in the window and I looked at him again. He looked back up at the bus and in my direction, he gave me the finger with both of his hands and screamed "FUCK YOU" I couldn't hear it, but I saw him by his mouth movements. So I gave him the finger back with a dirty look on my face. After I did that he had a confused look on his face, like I wouldn't give him the finger back. The bus drove away and I just felt out of it for the rest of the ride. I never really talk to him, so why was he giving me the finger? What did I ever do to piss him off? I had a few unanswerable questions in my head. I got home, and went into my room, and onto the computer, all I could think of was ninth period and the bus ride home. I usually dwell on the negative things, but this time, I just couldn't help but realize that he will be in my ninth period class everyday of school, which gives me something to look forward to. I started to get a hard-on again just thinking about the things I think about with Kevin and I. I know it might sound stupid thinking about things between him and I, but he is just great. So I figured, I might as well try to jerk this hard on away. So I just ended up locking my door, luckily I have a lock, and laid on my bed, I unzipped my pants to pulled down my boxers and just laid there. My cock was hard and I was just getting hornier, so I wasn't getting anywhere. About a minute later, I started stroking it. I started off slow, and gradually started beating my 6 and half or so cock faster as I laid there, just imagining Kevin and I together. With my eyes closed I whispered while gasping for air "Oh Kevin, you are so good, wack me off faster please!" There was then a small silence for about two minutes, until I heard sound of cum or some liquid on your cock while you jerk off. "Oh yea Kevin, you are too good! Do you think you can suck my cock, please" Then I heard a small whisper into my ear "If you will suck my dick after, I will suck your cock hard" I opened my eyes in shock to see Kevin, nude, right between my legs jerking my cock off, and about to take it into his hot warm mouth. I then made eye contact with him. I grabbed him and put him next to me and I started kissing his hot lips, and working my way down to see his 6 inch cock moving up and down with how hard and horny he is. I have always wanted to suck on a cock. So I got in my knees, laid him on my bed and took his whole cock in my mouth, deepthroating his fine cock. It tasted so nice, and his balls were nice to have in my hands. I then heard him moan. "Oh yea Rob, take your time, don't stop sucking, please. It is like you are a pro at this, please never stop." The moaning of a guy was like heaven to my ears. So five minutes after, I stood up and I got us in a 69 position, with me on the bottom. I was sucking the top head of his cock and then his whole cock and going back and forth. He took my whole cock in his mouth, and then he sucked and licked my sac, and then went back and forth with that. I got him to cum first and he shot his nice hot juice down my long awaiting throat. He then continued to suck me off, and I then let out a yell, "OH MY GOD KEVIN YES" and he took my juice down like a pro, not letting any come out of his mouth. We then made eye contact and he was coming in for us to kiss, and we closed our eyes, and had the greatest kiss ever. I opened my eyes to see me holding my cock in my hands, with cum all over my bed covers. I also noticed that it was around 5:00pm and my mom and sister came home while I was "on heaven". I was disappointed that it wasn't real, but that was not the main of my worries. "Did my parents hear me?!" I said to myself softly. I got up, cleaned myself off and then tried to clean my covers off the best way I could for now. I am not exactly that close with my parents, so there was no way I was going to say I had a wet dream or I just got cum on my sheets. Just then, I heard my mom banging on the door. "ROBERT, ARE YOU AWAKE YET!" "Oh shit" I think to myself. Did she really hear me yelling and moaning about Kevin? How long has she been here, and how about my sister, what does she know! I started to sweat frantically. "GETS YOUR ASS UP ROBERT" "I am awake mom, what do you want?" Damn, bad move, the last thing I need to do is give her an attitude right now. "You are finally awake! Can you come out here for a minute?" Damnit! What do I do now! She has to know about me now. God damnit, this isn't exactly the way I planned for all this to end up. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This is the first story I have ever made, and I am not sure how I did. Please feel free to send me your comments to Jokerbites@aol.com . I will answer and read any mail you send. I appreciate any comments on this story thus far. I appreciate possitive, or negative comments, but be honest. If you have any questions, maybe I could answer them in your mail, but none about what will happen next, thank you everyone for reading this story. There will be many more chapters to come.