Date: Thu, 21 Oct 1999 14:12:15 -0700 (PDT) From: phillip parker <email@example.com> Subject: The coming of truth This story is mostly fiction, but some of the incidents are based on personal feelings and experiences. Some characters in the story are fictional and some are based on real people. This story is a story of homosexual love. If you don't want to read such things, please leave. For the rest of you, I hope you enjoy it. Feel free to send me your comments. As a teenager, I was very mixed up and troubled about my sexuality. I dated girls because I was supposed to; that was what guys did. That was what so many of my friends expected me to do. I could not, however, bridge the gap between dating and overt sex with them. On a date, when I would think of having sex with the girl I would shrivel up to the point I couldn't find my prick so that I could take a leak. On the other hand, I had a great deal of trouble handling the public showers after gym class. I loved being naked in a room full of naked boys. I prayed everyday that my cock would not get hard in the shower room. At this stage of my life, my sexual experience only involved my right fist. When I was in the twelfth grade, I had my first overt sexual experiences. The first occured in the early spring during a picnic. Two of my good friends and their girl friends and "my girl friend" went to a secluded lake surrounded by tall pines and plenty of manzanita shrubs. It was a quiet, peaceful and lonely place. Naturally, we enjoyed the water and food and sun bathing. Late in the afternoon one of my friends started talking about skinny dipping. Others picked up the topic and before long my two friends dropped their swim suits and slowly walked into the lake. They made no effort to hide their frontal nudity. It caused me to take in a deep breath and feel something in the pit of my stomach that I usually felt in the gym locker room. I hoped no one heard the intake of breath or observed me starring at their beautiful naked bodies. Soon their girl friends joined them. I had never seen a live naked girl before. To tell the truth I didn't come close to having the same reaction seeing them naked as I did their boy friends. I was on the verge of feeling humiliated and I was scared to death. Finally my date suggested that we do the same as of them so we wouldn't get ribbed about not doing it for the rest of our lives. We did. I was embarrassed, but strangely exhilarated at the same time. We walked naked along the shore. I noticed that the other couples had left the water and gone into the trees. Betty and I eventually walked back to our blankets and heard a commotion in the trees and went to see what the subtle noises were. There on the ground we found both couples engaged in love making. When I saw my two friends ass holes slowly going up and down and when I got glimpses of their cocks moving in and out of their girl's pussys I started to get aroused. Betty saw this and before long, we too were on the ground with my cock inside of her. My great turn on in this whole thing was the vision of my friends and their aroused bodies and expecially the view I got of their ass holes as they continued to pump their girl's pussy's. Before long I came in Betty, as did the other guys in their girls. I worried endlessly about a possible pregnancy for almost two months. It took me that long to get enough nerve to ask Betty about her period and whether or not she had had one since our littly tryst. Fortunately, no pregnancy. One of the other couples did turn up pregnant about six months later, but they had been fucking for over a year. Late that summer before leaving for college I visited an older cousin who had graduated from college a couple years earlier. We shared similar interests in a number of things so the visit was most enjoyable. Over the course of a couple of days the conversation turned to sex a number of times but the conversation would turn just as quickly to other subjects. On the second day, he asked me point blank if I had ever thought of having sex with another man. I related to him my experiences four months earlier and how I had been turned on by the guys not by the girl; also, I shared with him my feelings when showering in the gym after gym class. My cousin said he understood the feelings exactly and asked my if I would like to get naked with him and explore those feelings. I jumped at the suggestion. It seemed so right and for the first time in my life my sexuality seemed clear and I had no fear of it. We went to his bedroom, where he slowly undressed me. My heart was beating rapidly, not from fear but from anticipation. When he finally, pulled down my jockeys exposing my half swollen cock I felt liberated. He took my cock into his mouth and as he slowly sucked me, he massaged my balls and his fingers slowly found my crack and began to dance over my ass hole. I pulled him to his feet and slowly removed his clothes until he was naked and then it was my turn to take his cock into my mouth and gently play with his balls and ass hole. Though this had been my first experience with a man I needed no coaxing or prodding. It all came so naturally and felt so right. Eventually, we got onto the bed where we shared our first kisses with our hard cocks wedged between our bodies. In the next couple of hours, our fingers had been inside the others love channel, our cocks had been in the same luscious place, our tongues had been on the rim of the same place, and we had taken each others cocks into our mouths and experienced the ecstasy of tasting the others cum as it was jettisoned into our eager mouths. I also experienced before the afternoon was over the feeling of being fucked and feeling his explosion and the warmth of his love juice as it was injected into my body. Wow, it was all incredible. We laid naked on the bed for hours that evening and talked about this wonderful afternoon and how, for me at least, I finally knew the truth about myself. My cousin, being older than I, was already aware of himself, but his compassion, love and gentle love making helped me discover myself. I will forever be grateful. Years have past and our lives have gone in somewhat different directions, but we do get together 3 or 4 times a year and we still experience the same loving, caring times as we did several years ago. Feeling his cock in my ass is still wonderful. The only real difference in our love making today, as compared to years ago, is that we now wear condoms, but the feeling of love and acceptance is just as powerful now as then. I am so happy I am gay and that I can share such powerful emotions and feelings with other men, particularly my cousin.